Devotion

a/n: hi! thank you guys sm for the support on my last piece of writing! i am thinking about opening up requests, so if you guys have a request, then feel free to send it in! I'm only taking marauders requests at the moment tho! I will write poly!fics, x reader, and maybe smut depending on how i feel! thanks again!

Remus Lupin x reader

Content Warning: 18+, almost smut but not smut, and fluff :) lemme know if there are any other content warnings that should be added

Remus Lupin was the perfect gentleman. He knew when to say please and thank you. He offered to carry his friend's books. He held open doors for others and said good morning to everyone who came and went. He had these manners drilled into him as a child. He even reminds James when he should say please and thank you, and he gets on to Sirius when he says something rude. Remus Lupin happened to be a perfect guy in general. Obviously, he is not without his faults, but he is at least mindful and caring.

Knowing this, it still shocks you when he asks if he can help you while kneeling on the ground. His wide hazel eyes looking up into your suprised eyes with his hands on your hips.

It's dizzying to even think how you got into this situation. Remus and you were assigned together on a project for transfiguration. You both had decided it was best to work in his room. Remus and you were close friends up until now. Sometimes, you had wished you were more than friends, but you normally discard those thoughts almost immediately so as not to ruin your friendship. As of late, though, you seem to find yourself thinking about him more in a less friendly manner. Some of these thoughts have turned into dreams of a sexual nature. This has left you sexually frustrated in all the wrong ways. At this particular moment, your eyes happened to land upon Remus's hands as they were writing. His hands are quite big, and his fingers are long and slender. With that being said, you begin to get lost in thought. You hadn't really even noticed you were staring until Remus spoke up, "Hey, are you okay? You've been spacey all day."

There he goes again with being the perfect gentleman. Concerned for your well-being while looking at you with the softest eyes anyone has ever laid upon you. You hadn't even realized you were staring until now. You felt a pink heat rise to your cheeks as you turned around and muttered that you're fine. Remus had decided to let it be. That was until you both had accidentally touched hands while reaching for something, and you had flinched and backed away. He looked at you as if he hurt you. He opens his mouth as if to ask you something but falters until he finds the courage to speak up, "Okay, something is up with you, and i want to know what's bothering you. I didn't do anything to make you uncomfortable, did i?"

There he goes again. Sometimes, you wish he wasn't so kind. Maybe you would be able to tell him your thoughts a little easier if he wasn't such a good person. You looked up at him, and he was staring at you with such tenderness in his eyes. You could look into his eyes all day if he kept looking at you like that. You proceed to softly whisper, "I'm just...frustrated right now, and i can't quite focus." You put your book down and stand up to walk around and to try and get those thoughts out of your head. "Why are you frustrated? Did i do something to make you upset? I apologize if i did." He states. He hesitates slightly and says, "Is there anything i can do to make up for it?" You just stand there staring at him in disbelief. You don't quite understand the insecurity in his voice when he apologized. Why does he feel the need to apologize for something he did not do? You look at him as if he is the world, and you hope he understands what it means. You scoff before answering, " You didn't do anything. I just...I can't stop thinking about you." You barely whisper that last part. You continue, "I have just been having thoughts that lead to me being frustrated. You don't have to apologize for anything." You look down at your feet, too embarrassed to look him in the eye.

"What kind of thoughts?" This question shocks you a little, and you don't know how to answer it without potentially ruining a good friendship. You hesitate to answer, and Remus notices this. He gets up and walks to where you are standing. His hand meets your face and brings your head up to look him in the eyes. He lets out a breathy whisper, "Please - just please tell me." And with that, you try to look away but end up being drawn back by the soft look he is giving you. With a warm blush rising onto your cheeks again, you let out a whisper, "the thoughts are - sexual." And with that, Remus lets go of your face and drops to his knees. His hands find purchase upon your hips and those soft and kind eyes of his look up into yours from where he is kneeling. He proceeds to ask, "Please, can i help?" He has always been the perfect gentleman, yet this still shocks you. You say in a breathy whisper, "Yes, please." You always knew he was a perfect gentleman, but you really learned that night how he is perfect in more ways than one.

not me accidentally posting a draft and then deleting it and having to start all over 😭😭

Creatures in Heaven

a/n: hiii!! okay so this is the first fic I've written in a long time! it's based off the song "Creatures in Heaven" by Glass Animals! hopefully you enjoy :)

Sirius Black x reader

content warning: mentions of sex (no actual sex though), fluff, alcohol mentioned :)

The moon sat perfectly in the sky. It's light shining perfectly upon Sirius's face, highlighting the large smile he wore. His smile was brighter than the moonlight that shined through the window.

Sirius and you lay on the floor, basking in each other's presence. You are laid upon his chest, admiring his face and taking in all his features as much as possible. Sirius happened to be doing the exact same thing with you. He wore a dopey, love sick grin while staring at you. The only time he broke his concentration on your face was when he adjusted the blanket covering your naked bodies. Sirius smirks at your concentrated face and proceeds to ask, "What are you thinking about right now, doll?" This had caught you off gaurd simply because you were replaying the memories of the past night. Sirius and you were both invited to James and Lily's annual Halloween party. You both decided to go as vampires after going back and forth on costume ideas. Throughout the night, you had a couple of drinks while Sirius stayed sober since he had to drive home. After about the 4th drink, all you wanted to do was go back to Sirius's apartment, so you both said your goodbyes and left. Once you arrive back to his place, you seem to be more energetic than when you left. Next thing you know, you're lying on the floor with the love of your life, naked and exhausted, all while admiring him. He was way more pretty than the beautiful view outside the large window of his apartment.

"Just thinkin' about tonight," you reply to his question. He gives you a playful look and wiggles his eyebrows a bit in a teasing manner. "I hope by tonight you mean the last hour," he says with a wink. You let out a loud laugh and look at him with so much love and contentment in your eyes. His eyes soften from his teasing look to a much more sincere look that lets you know he really cares about you. You ignore his teasing remark and instead say, "I've missed you." He sheepishly smiles at you and slightly chuckles, "I've missed you too. I don't say it enough, but I've missed you so so much."

His hands find their way to your hair as he begins to stroke your hair away from your face. You begin to lean into his hand and sigh with contentment. You think to yourself that you could stay like this forever if given the choice. With warm chests pushed up against one another and legs tangled together. You could forever stare into his beautifully big grey eyes that stared right back into yours with equal parts love and admiration. You both stayed in this position silently a little while longer until Sirius spoke up again. "I love you so much, y/n." You move your face from his hand to kiss the inside of his palm. You looked into his bright eyes and smiled so wide it almost hurt. "I love you so much too, Sirius," you stated.

You could do all of this forever. Laying on cold floors with warm bodies pressed against one another at 3 am. With face paint and fake blood still adorning your faces. You could be around Sirius forever and still find something new to love about him. Every day, he gives you another reason to look at him like he is the entire world. You are his everything, and he is yours.

hope you enjoyed :) let me know if you want more!

what's up losersss :) haven't said much here in a bit

the only way i know how to describe the loneliness of not going to college or not having your life together at all is like when you were younger and you sat off to the side on the playground alone and watched everyone else have fun. Its such an osolating feeling watching everyone party and hang out with friends when i can barely get out of bed during the day.

i need more friends so i can play d&d

have i slept at all? nope but i did finish my sister's birthday presents all in one night :) someone plz sedate me

i had a dream about my dad where he wasn't dead he was just more shitty than before he died and the dream made me feel so angry and sad and confused and hurt and if that doesn't describe greiving some who was not good to you but you loved so much then idk what does

you ever get that feeling that you just wanna curl up into a ball and cry because your head hurts and everything feels like too much all the time and you just want everything to feel better? because same here

the new hazbin hotel episodes slayed istg i am so hurt over angel dust's lore but i love him sm

i feel violated every time my bones crack when im just trying to move agdgdhd i literally rolled over in bed and my whole ass shoulder cracked like- HUH??? it truly is unnecessary and violating 😭😭😭

doing yardwork that includes pulling up weeds and moving fallen branches while listening to the crane wives makes me feel like an adventurer on a mission

i cannot believe valentine's day is right around the corner. it's just so crazy to think about how fast time flies abshdd anyways for valentine's day i will be in bed reading fanfic because i have no love interest this year yet which is okay! i need this year to be about growing up and actually being productive

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hmmm apparently telling people that back in late october to mid november i had 3 periods within 6 weeks elicits a concerned reaction agsgdhd i am aware it was not smart to not go to the doctor about it but y'know it's an oh well situation now.

being potentially anemic and being on your period at the same time is not a fun combo because there are now multiple reasons i feel like imma pass out :)

ah yes i just love it when my body is mad at me for not having a baby so it makes me have awful cramps and makes me sad