Richard Gadd is ten times the man I am because if I shared my trauma and I saw people calling me the villain and debating on what I should have done and calling my actions bad (even though I already acknowledged my role in what happened and also that guilt over being an imperfect victim is part of what kept me from saying anything at the time) I would go fucking insane and start killing

This is just gonna be me yelling into the void but!! peoples reactions to ‘baby reindeer’ are pissing me off and its so obvious they don’t understand CPSTD!!! ‘omg why did he try to relive his trauma’ ‘why did he go back to his groomer’ ‘hes a weirdo for getting off to his stalker’ these are all totally common reactions to sexual trauma!!! shakinf you by the shoulders.. saying shit like that is only reinforcing to the people who have experienced similar and related to that show that their trauma reactions are gross or make them stupid or a bad person. grooming and sexual trauma fuck you up real bad!!! its normal to act irrationally or in a way which makes the situation worse!! its common to try to re-experience it to try to take control! and its still! never! their! fault! screams!

“However vast her narcissism, the Young-Girl doesn't love herself, what she loves is "her" image, that is, something that is not only foreign and exterior to her, but that possesses her, in the full sense of the word. The Young-Girl lives under the tyranny of this ungrateful master.” (Theory of the Young-Girl, Tiqqun)

im such a letterboxd nerd I loveeee writing my autistic little reviews if any of my mutuals r letterboxd enjoyers pls drop ur @ below !! :3

just finished reading tua 1 (loved it) and didnt realise there was concept art at the back !! Its probably online already but thought Id post anywayz :)

my saw 4 summary

A short animation of my cat Merlin begging to be fed. He usually starts this a full hour before food time.

It makes me happy when they listen

theres a great podcast ep about exactly how they tested for empathy in rats, its rly cute :)

some loser: humans are innately selfish creatures

my psych book:

malpractise roommates

getting a badge machine was the best thing i ever did tbh

(these r 4 sale btw ;3 calliopezines on etsy)

no need to be doing all this but i think they should do it more