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For the ask game any number but use Bilal

hi! thanks for the ask!! :) I'll go with a combo of:

4 - Mind meld / telepathy / mind reading, 15 - Soulmates, and 52 - Fake death / presumed dead.

(I was actually working on a platonic soulmate AU with telepathy just the other day, so this is perfect. fair warning, this oneshot absolutely got away from me with the angst, but rest assured that they do still get a happy ending in this AU. I just had to approach the AU by going, "which scenes would be made much better if they were telepathically linked? great, now which scenes would be so much worse?" anyways this scene would be so much worse with telepathic links, enjoy!) Background Info for AU:

soulmate AU where you and your soulmates are telepathically linked once you meet. you can turn this on and off once you learn how. soulmates are platonic in this universe. as in, your soulmate could be a romantic partner, but that's not related to the soulmate thing at all, and just as many soulmates are friends or family or what-have-you.

main four get to be soulmates with telepathic connections, yippee.

the connection is only completely severed with a soulmate when that soulmate dies. also, side note, it also might happen if your soulmate ceases to exist in the timeline you are in. fun fact that may or may not be very very relevant to this oneshot.

takes place in episode one, just before the test goes off.

Bilal had closed their connection on his side, just as Sam asked Romane if he could kiss her. He didn't want the others noticing the sharp twinge of sadness that he couldn't quite shove down far enough.

It was fine. It was just a crush, and they were all soulmates anyways, so there wasn't any point in feeling like-

Before he could finish the thought, the lights flickered. It startled him into reopening the connection; it was almost instinct at this point, a subconscious reaching out for the others. All four of them had moments where they would snap their connection open or shut as a kneejerk reaction.

He didn’t need to glance at the others to feel their combined rush of _confused-nervous, what-was-that, what's-wrong-with-the-_

"We should have paid the electric bill." Victor joked, and in the split-second that followed, Bilal felt someone relax the slightest bit. Probably Romane, he thought, because Sam was still-

Then the lights started flashing, bright and blinding, and the next several moments were full of panic that might have been his and might have been one of his friend's.

Then everything was dark, and there was a sharp pain in his head.

He felt like throwing up, and something was wrong but he couldn’t figure out what through the haze of-

He was on the floor. When had he ended up on the floor?

Then Bilal's head throbbed, and he blindly reached out to pull himself up.

His vision was blurry, and he could barely think straight, but-

_panic-panic-panic, this-isn't-happening, not-happening, not-real-not-real-not-real, where-are-they, why-can't-i-feel-the-_

Sam. Those were Sam's thoughts.

"Romane! Bilal, Victor!" Sam's voice was shaking.

Bilal tried to answer, but he couldn't manage to get anything out. The words died in his throat, and he felt sick, and-

Wait. He could feel Sam's end of the connection, but-

Not Romane. Not Victor.

Dread suddenly rising in his chest, Bilal reached out to his two friends. Open. Reaching. Tugging on empty air that usually tugged back, where were they-

_danger-danger-scared, where-are-they, not-dead, can't-be-dead, please-please-please-scared_

Sam was panicking.

It didn't make sense. They had been here five seconds ago, they couldn't have-

They weren't dead.

Bilal blinked hard, trying to clear his thoughts. He had to help Sam. Then he could figure out what was going on, it was probably just-

He managed to struggle to his feet.

Sam's gaze landed on him, and his eyes widened. He looked terrified.

Bilal opened his mouth, unsure of what he was going to say, but knowing he had to say something to calm his friend down.

Then Sam bolted for the door. And Bilal had no idea what he was doing, but he was about to leave, and-

Wait, was his connection to Sam opened both ways?

Oh. No, it wasn't, quick-

Bilal mentally shoved his side of their connection open.

_wait-don't, don't-go, scared-confused-scared, what-are-you-doing, don't-leave-please_

Sam froze, hand on the door. He glanced back.

Bilal stared back at him. "Sam? What-"

"…Bilal?" The hesitation in Sam's voice was unnerving. As if he was actually asking if it was him.

Slowly, Bilal nodded. The action made his head pulse with pain, and he winced.

Sam didn't move, but his side of the connection lurched with not-possible-not-real, what-happened, confused_

Sam's thoughts were so rapid that it was nauseating, but Bilal wasn't about to close the connection after what just happened.

"Sam, calm down." He breathed.

"You're not Bilal." Sam choked out.

"…what? Sam, it's me." Bilal took a breath, and tried to gather his thoughts enough to project some degree of calm through the connection.

_it's-me-here-right-here, look-breathe-calm-see_

Sam stared at him. Slowly, a little bit of the tension left his shoulders, and his thoughts slowed.

"You're…really Bilal?"

"Yeah. Of course." He murmured. "You okay?"

"Am I okay?" Sam blurted, voice incredulous. "Bilal, look…look in the mirror."

Bilal turned towards the dusty mirror in the corner. He glanced at his reflection.

And he froze.

He stared at his reflection for a few more seconds. Moved his hand up. Dropped it back to his side. "What happened? How am I-?"

"I don't know!" Sam had moved towards him while he was staring at the mirror. "But-"

"And - and Romane and Victor, what happened to-"

"Bilal." Sam's voice was shaking again. "I can't feel them. The connection on their side, try to open it, it's-"

"I tried." As soon as the words were out, Bilal realized what they meant, what they had to mean.

But it didn't make sense-

Sam was crying, he realized, distantly. Or maybe he was.

He couldn't separate his thoughts from Sam's right now, and he didn't want to.

Somehow, they ended up sitting against the wall, Sam's head against Bilal's shoulder.

"What happened?" Bilal finally murmured.

"Does it matter? They're already-" Sam's voice caught on the word.

Bilal didn't know what to say to that. He closed his eyes, hating the sensation of tears stuck to his eyelids.

He wanted his mom.

He didn't know how much time went by like that before he managed to speak.

"We should-"

"I know."

Silence again.

Then Sam swallowed. "Would…would it be okay if I closed the connection? I just- it's loud. And I…" He stopped, and let out a breath. "I don't know."

He didn’t want him to close the connection. It was probably the only thing keeping Bilal somewhat grounded right now, the thought that he still had somewhere for his mind to reach to when everything was falling to pieces around them. But having it open was probably doubling the amount of grief and shock floating around in Sam's head, and Bilal could barely even stomach the thought of causing Sam any more hurt than the two of them were already experiencing.

"Yeah. Yeah, that's fine." His voice sounded far away, even to himself.

Sam shifted closer, head still pressed against Bilal's shoulder.

Then Bilal felt their connection close, and everything went quiet.

Neither of them moved after that. Not until the police arrived.

it gets much happier in this AU, i swear. it's a happy AU i promise. anyways. I wrote that in a blur of hyperfocus, so I have no idea if I like it or not yet! remains to be seen!

thanks again for the ask!! :)

#parallels #disney parallels #disney paralleles #paralleles #and if its out of character then its explained by the fact that they think they just got absolute confirmation that the other two are dead #whereas in the show they have no way of knowing if they're alive or not. that's why. it's more final and definite (or so they think)#anyways i do have some more stuff for this AU. if anyone wants to hear more about it. :)#also i hate writing telepathic thoughts. it's so embarrassing for me specifically. idk why.#so if the telepathy style is annoying to you then. well. let it be known that we are suffering together. because i can't stand it either.

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How To Return Home by Natalie Weiss Your Fault from Into The Woods Pompeii by Madilyn Bailey (Cover) Eat You Alive by The Oh Hellos Ribs by The Crane Wives First Light by Hozier I Wanna Get Better by Bleachers 40x by Courier (closest I could get to a song I knew starting with x) Alone Together by Fall Out Boy Timekeeper's Heartbeat by Alisha Liston I'm Alive - Reprise from Next To Normal Oldest by Brook Alexx Never Love An Anchor by The Crane Wives

Oh No! by MARINA Remember Them from EPIC: The Musical

Daydreamer by AURORA Earth by Sleeping At Last A Sky Full Of Stars by Coldplay The Underworld from EPIC: The Musical How Far We've Come by Matchbox Twenty

(i do not know twenty people, but i'll tag whoever i think of!) tagging (if you want to!) @ashclouds366 @maze-arts @foxymc @ven10 @hole-in-the-bottom-of-my-brain

(edit: i tried to tag more people but the tags wouldn't work for some reason? oh, well.)

Put a song for every letter in your url and tag the amount of people in your url !

Strawberry Blonde by Mitski

The Prettiest Star by David Bowie

Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths

Rue des trois frères by Fabrizio Paterlini

My Body’s Made of Crushed Little Stars by Mitski

Astronomy by Conan Gray

Nobody by Mitski

Baby Hotline by Jack Stauber’s Micropop

Ultraviolence by Lana Del Ray

Take Me to Church by Hozier

Inertia by AJR

Taking Whats Not Yours by TV Girl

Song About Me by TV Girl

Real Men by Mitski

Eleanor Rigby by Cody Fry

Gloom by Djo

Under Pressure by Queen, David Bowie

Last Words of a Shooting Star by Mitski

United in Grief by Kendrick Lamar

Snap Out of It by Arctic Monkeys

Bourgeoisieses by Conan Gray

Lonley Dancers by Conan Gray

Arabella by Arctic Monkeys

Cigarettes Out the Window by TV Girl

Knee Socks by Arctic Monkeys

this took so fucking long omg

@dandelionflowery @themortalityofundyingstars @pretentious-media @totalcharliespringsimp @absolutelyflabbergasted

@marylily-my-beloved @maeve-occasionally-reads @aestheic-writer18 @nonbinary-wyvern @justafrogghost

@moonyrab @chaserofstars11 @musicoftheheart @icarus-last-fall @saturnsconstellation

@hizzi3spotter @myfavcharacterdidntdrown @lionmythflower @silverameco @my-castles-crumbling

@whyistarchaser @jamespotterbbg @capay9267 @unaesthetic-writer @biblically-accurate-chaos

(i didnt think i knew 25 people but here we are🤷)

#tag game #long post #thanks for the tag! :)

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hyperfixation-or-death · 4 days

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Aw man, the passage of time? Again??

#- bilal belkebirs at parallels episode 6 timestamp 26:17 #i spent at least twenty minutes trying to find that timestamp because i had to pirate it from my laptop to check the episode #that's a lot of effort for one joke. worth it to me because i think i'm funny.#(i'll save you all the effort though. it's when bilal gasps after victor ages himself during the cabin scene.)

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hyperfixation-or-death · 4 days

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Put That Guy in a SituationTM Ask Game/Prompt!

For when you want to put your favorite little guy (gender neutral) in a fanfic-type Situation. Send in a fandom, character(s), and/or relationship/ship as well as a number (or a few!) Feel free to use for fanfic, art, or whatever you choose!

Touch starved/cuddle curse

Time loop

Misunderstandings

Mind meld/telepathy/mind reading

Amnesia

Reverse amnesia (everyone else has no memory/recognition of your character)

Trapped in a room/closet/elevator

“Who did this to you?”

Sleep deprivation

Framed for a crime they didn’t commit

Hiding from pursuers

Turned invisible

Drunken/drugged/sleepy confessions

Role swap

Soulmates

Meeting past/future self

Tending to an injury/wound/illness

Possession/Mind control

De-aged

Personality swap

Fear poison/gas

Truth or dare/party games

Loss of powers/abilities/skills

Showing up injured at their friend/mentor’s house

Showing up injured at their enemy’s house

Group project/team effort

Demon summoning

Curse of obedience/can’t disobey a direct order (the “Ella Enchanted”)

Time jumping/time travel/fix-it

Only one bed

Cursed/turned into an animal

Body swap

Reincarnation

Love spell/curse/potion

Hatred spell/curse/potion

Avalanche/huddle for warmth

Secret relationship

Multiverse/meeting alternate version of self

Avoiding a conversation

Identity reveal/major secret revealed

Panic attacks

True love’s kiss/breaking a curse

Fake dating

Arranged marriage

Realization of feelings at the Worst Possible Moment

Confessions during an argument

Sickfic/caretaking

Enemy caretaker

Self-sacrificial

Meet cute

Meet ugly/awkward first meetings

Fake death/presumed dead

Wings/supernatural body features

Kidnapping

Mutual Pining (+ Oblivious)

Mutual platonic/familial yearning

Accidental hand-holding

Crying

Lying curse/forced to lie about something

Truth Serum/spell

#reblogging this again because i want to write and i like prompts! and this one was really fun!#so once again if you send me a number + parallels character/characters i'll write something!#(and once again disclaimer that it'll probably be platonic no matter the prompt because that's what i'm better at writing.)#ask game #so many of these are already giving me ideas. but i will be reasonable and wait for an ask because i can't write them all obviously.

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hyperfixation-or-death · 4 days

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changed my pfp! i liked my picrew from that tag game i did a little bit ago so much that it is now my pfp.

#this is absolutely going to cause me confusion for a while because i've had the other one for so long. but this one is very nice.#i like it very much :)#(the words on the aro flag heart say i love you by the way. i can't tell if it's visible.)

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okay so it just occurred to me that my last poll about me possibly making a discord server (the one that got zero votes) was accidentally set to one day instead of one week, and that's probably why it got zero votes.

so. let's try this again!

#disney parallels #disney paralleles #parallels #paralleles #sorry to make a second poll but i'm just very curious and want to know! :)

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hyperfixation-or-death · 5 days

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#i cant be trusted around graphing equations.#like. yes go on. tell me what happens when you change the y intercept of this slope intercept form line while keeping the slope consistent.#what do you get. what kind of line do you get. i'm literally insufferable.#also i can't be trusted around greek mythology. have you people seen that post i made about romane berthauds and orpheus.#anyways yeah it's awesome. everything in the world is about my special interest (parallels). i barely even have to try. it's a gift!! :)

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hyperfixation-or-death · 6 days

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some of you are very nice to me and i just want to say thank you and i love u

#:)#YEAH. HI EVERYONE. <3 <3 <3 #(watch me reblog this to both blogs! you people are so nice!)

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hyperfixation-or-death · 9 days

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🩷🌙SEND THIS TO OTHER BLOGGERS YOU THINK ARE WONDERFUL. KEEP THE GAME GOING ✨🩷🌙

ahhh thank you!!! you are ALSO wonderful! hope you're having a good day! :)

#i shall now keep the game going as is my solemn duty to the fine people of this website. :)

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hyperfixation-or-death · 10 days

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me when @casp1an-sea asked me to give a synopsis of Parallels and i immediately wrote six long paragraphs (1,071 words).

Anyone: Hey (asks about a special interest of mine)? Me: Becomes an unskippable cutscene

#don't ask how i know the word count of the parallels synopsis that i sent over two weeks ago. i am a mysterious being who knows many things.#:)

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Yes I re-read my own fics because I wrote them for ME

#i re-read my “with the weight of the world on your shoulders” fic today and i was like:#“wow....that was so fun....i wonder how that group conversation mentioned in the 3rd to last line is gonna go....can't wait to read it...”#then i remember. that they never have the conversation. because i never wrote the next chapter. aghhhhhh every day i face the agonies.

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hyperfixation-or-death · 15 days

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1 and 25 for excerpt ask game?

1 - Excerpt of my writing that makes me smile:

This snippet from my Parallels fic, impulsive haircuts and what they mean for your future. It's a silly little conversation that makes me smile when I read it.

2 - Excerpt of my writing that I consider a favorite:

Idk if I would consider it a favorite, because I'm very indecisive, but I keep coming back to this angsty excerpt from a Parallels WIP. It's from my Future Romane AU, where a few things change, but the most important is that the adult version of Romane travels back in time for the events of the show. Context for this scene is that Victor told this version of Romane to go back without him, and she is Absolutely Doing Fine and Handling This Well.

(she's totally coping. he's totally coping. they're both totally coping and definitely not nearing simultaneous breakdowns-)

(also i just realized that these are both Romane & Victor friendship-centric excerpts that fall on wildly different ends of the fluff-angst spectrum. interesting. i just think they're neat.)

Thanks for the ask!! :)

#disney parallels #disney paralleles #also don't worry about them in the second one. she lets go like ten seconds later and they hug or whatever.#but yeah that's definitely one of the more angsty scenes of that AU. there's a ton of built up tension and miscommunication going on.#paralleles #ask game #also if she seems ooc. well. that is because she and canon timeline Romane are Not The Same Person. they had completely different lives.#also she's kind of trying to grieve her whole family and save people she lost years ago while not collapsing under self-loathing right now.#she's kinda going through it <3

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with writer ask games i'm usually just trying to coyly share snippets, so allow me to introduce a new one:

send me a number and i'll share an excerpt of my writing...

that makes me smile

that makes me laugh

that encompasses my style

with dialogue i'm proud of

with description i'm proud of

that i struggled with, but triumphed over

that i nursed in a daydream before finally writing

that hurt my own feelings to write

with characters i love

with characters i struggle with

with characters i want to write more in the future

that has a particularly good bit of characterization

that helped me understand a character better

that was out of my comfort zone

from an old piece that i like

from a recent piece i want to brag about

from an unpublished WIP

from that one WIP everyone has that has no plot, just vibes

from that project that was SUPPOSED to be short but then i kept writing and now it is very long

from a scrapped project

that i liked, but had to cut

that is so blissfully self-indulgent

that was inspired by a work from another medium (music, visual art, dance, etc.)

that makes me go "huh...i wrote that?!"

that i consider a favorite

please feel free to rb <3

#ask game #i have so many unfinished wips right now you would not BELIEVE. anyways asks are fun :)

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hyperfixation-or-death · 16 days

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🏳️‍🌈 for Leo Valdez?

ooh, heroes of olympus! Fun fact, as far as I can remember, the very first ace headcanon I had was Leo Valdez. I had just figured out recently that I was aroace. I knew a little bit about being ace from tumblr blogs, but basically the only knowledge I had about being aro was the definition and that it accurately described me, and that was it.

So, younger me happened across some post mentioning the asexual Leo Valdez headcanon, and I immediately thought it was awesome. Because hey, I was ace, and I think Leo was my favorite character from any media at the time, so that interpretation made me feel really happy about my identity. (Not to get off-topic, but I think representation in fandom is great for kids who are still figuring themselves out like I was! Because that was years ago, but I still remember how positively seeing that post affected me.)

Anyways, out of loyalty to my younger self's journey of self-discovery, and because I still genuinely think it works great with his character: I headcanon Leo as ace.

More recently, I also think he'd be somewhere on the arospec. I had seen that headcanon when I was younger, too, but I unfortunately had some internalized ideas about romance going on at the time.

Anyways, I think he'd have some complicated and frustratingly vague feelings about romance, and I think he's definitely overcompensating for that for a while. Fake it 'til you make it, and all.

I think he also has some issues surrounding who he is in relation to others that were definitely made worse by the seventh wheel prophecy thing, but idk, it's been a while since I've reread the series. I would think he's somewhat romance-favorable, to an extent, so when you factor that into all the layers of denial he has going on, he definitely doesn't realize he's Probably Not Straight until post-canon.

And also, you know what. He can be bi also. As a treat.

Long story short: Ace, (somewhat) romance-favorable arospec, and bi in some way.

(Wow, that was definitely one of my more complex headcanons, I just started typing and next thing I know I have several paragraphs.)

Thanks for the ask! :)

#heroes of olympus #ask game

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hyperfixation-or-death · 19 days

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writing a graduation letter right now to thank everyone who helped me get this far in life. i would say that if this gets notes i'll specifically thank Quoc Dang Tran for creating Parallels (Disney 2022). but, let's be honest here, i'm already doing that unless someone stops me.

(yes this letter will be read on stage. not by me, though!)

anyways.

#not tagging this with fandom tags. i don't need this post to be the face of the fandom tags. anyways. yay or nay. what says the council.#yeah i made this post instead of writing the actual letter.#also if i do this i'll make it somewhat vague. idk i'll see in a minute when i actually write the thing.

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hyperfixation-or-death · 20 days

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Metaruu’s Headcanon Ask Game

Send in a character or characters and an icon and I’ll give you…

🏳️‍🌈 A sexuality headcanon

🏳️‍⚧️ A gender headcanon

😇 A headcanon about their religion/lack thereof

🧸 A headcanon about their childhood

👻 A headcanon about what scares them

🎶 A headcanon about music

👽 A headcanon about a weird quirk of there

💤 A headcanon about their sleep

🦾 A disability headcanon

💝 A headcanon about their love language

🫂 A friendship headcanon

💔 An angsty headcanon

🪢 A headcanon about their family

📓 A headcanon about their hobbies

👗 A headcanon about their clothes

🔪 A headcanon relating to fighting/violence

🌟 A headcanon about their desires/wishes

🥇 A headcanon about what they’re best at

🍫 A headcanon about food

🎭 A headcanon about what they lie about

❤️‍🔥 A romantic headcanon

💄 An appearance headcanon

🖕 A headcanon relating to anger

😺 An animal related headcanon

😬 A headcanon about the worst thing they’ve done

😭 A headcanon about the worst thing that happened to them.

😶 A random headcanon!

#ask game

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hyperfixation-or-death · 20 days

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Just experienced a thought. Parallels role-swap AU. Is this anything.

Romane gets the time acceleration powers. (Swapping with Victor.)

Sam gets the time freezing powers. (Swapping with Romane.)

Bilal is the one left in the bunker. (Swapping with Sam.)

Victor is the one sent back as his future self. (Swapping with Bilal.)

I'm gonna write down how the plot and conflict and stuff all happens before I lose motivation and forget, so I'll probably elaborate on this in a minute.

#disney parallels #parallels #disney paralleles #paralleles #this might be nothing whatsoever! i'll decide later. :)

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