I thought we were happy the way we  are. I guess I thought wrong! I thought you were my Mr. right, I guess I thought wrong. Turns out that you were my Mr wrong, damn I can't believe I'm wasting my time writing this shit! I can't believe all the time I put into this mess. I wanna say good bye but I can't I'm too weak to just let you go! I don't know if I could handle saying good bye to you!

I'm looking for hope in a hopeless place! I knew it would be this way, it always happens this way! I'm never going to be happy! I'm never going to be loved by someone that loves me like my mother loves me. I think to myself I'm going to live with my mother til I die. I pray it don't happen like this.

They all say GABBIE your only 19... I say I know but most people find there happiness years before I will. I keep my thoughts in my head  because most people don't know what I go threw. If they did they would know that I've tried for years only to have a heart break like I do all the time...

I feel so alone. I feel that NOBODY cares. I feel like I'm just here. I don't know what I'm here for. I've asked the Lord so many times just to be happy for hours at a time. I just don't know anymore! I don't know why I am here. Lord knows I do my best... Lord please help me!

When I need you the most your never there for me! I think it's time to call it quits! I'm done!

Taylor Swift - I Almost Do

Everything that I feel now!

“Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I’ve felt, letting go is the most painful yet.”

Anonymous

“You don’t know true pain until you’ve lost everything you’ve loved. You don’t know the burden of sorrow until you have to face your haunting past.You don’t know insane until you’ve been there and back. You don’t know what it is truly like to be scarred until the wounds start to bleed. Time and time again, I’ve been through all of it. I’ve become numb from the bitterness of cold truth that is my life. I continue living on and on in this frozen waste land, and for what? To finally bring warmth. To bring feeling back into my life. To bring warmth to my frost-bitten heart, and show me what it’s like to be happy. To feel the love I’ve forever longed for. The love you’ve always known.” -Gothica”

—     (c) 2012 Cheyenne Joelynne Thompson-Covington “Gothica”