im leaving for edtwt for a while brb lol

reblog this if youre an active ed blog in may 2022!

im mostly looking for chill people and memes 🤝

i can’t believe i forgot to say this but my sister is silently having a competetion with me over my ed?

i’ve always been careful around my siblings because i’m anemic so they have to see me eat, however this time around i don’t get out of my room much, and my sister(who for the record used to be super overweight but lost all of it now) is obsessed with commenting on everyone’s eating habits and weight and i think she’s the main reason i’m struggling to begin with, anyway, she’s been proudly talking about how she’d almost pass out all the time and how poor her and her tiny stomach that made her only eat very little, it’s pissing me the fuck out, she knows, i know she knows, and she’s just throwing it in my face.

may 12th: 67 (day 5 of the fix it fast diet, also day after binge)

the slowest fucking progress you will ever see

weight log

i will be updating my weight here:)

may 3rd: 69kgs

fuck my entire life

guys you will not fucking believe this

my gf’s friends were talking about big hero 6 and she mentioned how i look like the older brother which is something she always points out, however, they said. i’m more like max. the white fucking giant. 

and.

she.

agreed.

i’m gonna fucking kill myself what the fuck

how could someone be so oblivious?????

and the thing is, i am in a loving relationship, why would she say that to me?

at least don’t tell me? 

and i don’t even look fat im just average?? or that’s what i fucking thought.

im on day 4 in the fix it fast diet and i just fucked up and ate +900:) kms

did a fast all yesterday and had my limit for today:) feeling good

gonna do this:)

i’m fasting on hour 11 rn so i’ll just continue w this

gonna do this:)

i’m fasting on hour 11 rn so i’ll just continue w this

im done with fasting.

it’s probably the reason i keep messing up.

im gonna pick one of those random ed diets and stick with it.

I know you think you hate it in the moment but omfg you miss the living fuck out of hunger as soon as it leaves you.

tips?

i keep fucking up.

and even tho i eat under 1200 i keep gaining and it is not water weight.

it’s exhausting.

i don’t know what to do, any help?

may 5th: 68

my 6th: 68.5 disgusting. drank a laxative well see what happens tmrw

weight log

i will be updating my weight here:)

may 3rd: 69kgs

i thought this was bad and made evrything worse:))))))))))))))))) had over 2200kcals in junk food:)))))))))))))))) kms

i fucked up

fatsted for 20hs n had about 750 kcals i fucking hate myself istg if i dont lose anything in the morning

i fucked up

fatsted for 20hs n had about 750 kcals i fucking hate myself istg if i dont lose anything in the morning

may 4th: 68.1!

weight log

i will be updating my weight here:)

may 3rd: 69kgs

so my total kcals today was 382kcals with 162 of them being only liquid kcals which is good! i’ll try to do better tomorrow and i’ll log that too:)

just completed 24 hours and im super weak and exhausted i think im gonna stop here and eat something and try the 50 one later on

food log?

currently doing a 50h fast and im on hour 14 :)

im allowing myself drinks up to 200kcal per 25h

had a sugar free juice which was 138kcal

it’s a lot i know but it’s the only caloric drink i have anyway so its fine, the rest is gonna be coffee, green tea, diet pepsi and water ofc:)