I thought, this is the most incredible thing I have ever seen, and I had better keep it a safe distance away from me. I thought, if someone like that ever loved me, it would set me on fire.

And then I was a careless fool, and I fell in love with you anyway. When you rang me at truly shocking hours of the night, I loved you. When you kissed me in disgusting public toilets and pouted in hotel bars and made me happy in ways in which it had never even occurred to me that a mangled-up, locked-up person like me could be happy, I loved you.

And then, inexplicably, you had the absolute audacity to love me back. Can you believe it?

Sometimes, even now, I still can't.

the way these board games bring out the most giddy version of dan i am losing my mind

History, huh? I bet we could make some.

i love this new era of dan and phil bc i feel like it's a divine punishment against 14 year old me specifically

now that i’ve read the rwrb book i’ll never stop being perpetually torn between “it’s sweet that they made a soft queer romcom” and “ the person at am*zon who decided to cut out Luna as well as most of the political and societal stakes of the movie better watch out”

Ah yes I know that show, I watched it on tumblr.

oh but how absolutely monumental it still is to have all these big and mainstream pieces of queer television right now. remember how excited you got when there was one character who said he was bi or gay only then to be killed or written off or treated horribly by both writers and the public. remember how hard it was to find queer shows and movie that didn’t make you hate yourself or so angry or scared. remember how seen you felt about that one queer kiss or that one coming out or within one particular character! yes, devastating sad queer pieces are important. fucked up queer stories need to be told. queer period pieces and dramas with unhappy endings too. but queer happiness, queer young and old love, queer cringe, queer joy- we deserve that too.

reminiscing on dan and phil's life story together always makes me feel insane because it sounds like the plot of a fanfic: two freakishly tall awkward british gays with matching emo haircuts. dan starts out as a fan of phil, phil encourages him to make his own videos after they start talking online. dan only started trying to get phil's attention online on his 18th birthday and within months they meet up irl, and the Q&A video they make together the first time they meet blows up. within a little over a year they are practically living together, then they are accidentally outed because of a freak YouTube glitch as well as fans discovering old posts. nevertheless they become pioneers in what YouTubers can do outside the platform itself - Radio Hosts/Celebrity Interviews/Touring Stage Shows/Books/Party Games/Disney Cameos. they eventually come out via a dan video essay with 12 million views. later they move in to their third place together, a luxury home they bought and designed with all the money they made over the years. then when Dan goes on a solo tour in 2022 they reveal they that they had never spent more than two weeks apart since 2009. And don't even get me started on the joint gaming channel or the cat whiskers...

BUT the wildest part, that knocks me out every time I remember, is how phil, who allegedly has psychic abilities passed on from his grandmother, used tarot cards in a video to predict that he would meet someone with personality traits that exactly match dan's, about three months before they ever began talking online. like. how is that a real sentence I just typed. do we live in a simulation.

btw when dan says love isn’t real he’s lying cos if love wasn’t real why did i watch that man cry twice this weekend cos he was so overwhelmed by the amount of cheering and applause for him, if love isn’t real why was he performing to sold out audiences this weekend, if love isn’t real why did people fly from different countries to see him?

love is real dan. we are the love

"photograph of a young palestinian girl flying her kite on al-waha beach, gaza, 2011. on this day, 6,200 palestinian children filled the gaza sky with kites, achieving the guinness world record for most kites flown simultaneously. the culture of kite flying amongst gaza youth remains a symbol of resilience, creativity, and joy. over the past 7 weeks, the amount of children killed by the israeli state has nearly surpassed this number, continuing to rise each day. we must continue calling for a permanent ceasefire now. the devastation must end" — via @azeemamag on instagram

i drew some poppies and made a couple images with them. the red was colourpicked from the palestinian flag. the black on white can be used to make thermal-printed slapper stickers. feel free to use them.

intersectional feminism leaving peoples brains when you tell them black women dont benefit from everything that empowers white women

i am like…unhealthily obsessed with this new d&p era. they just look so genuinely happy, they are literally glowing in every single video. you can tell their smiles are genuine is every video god i’m so emotional over it

im not immune to how corsets make breasts look

Crowley being attracted to bad boys (gn) and Aziraphale being into good boys (gn) is something that can be so so personal.

Oh you're attracted to the SERPENT of Eden, the one who couldn't even kill a bunch of goats to save his own skin? Oh you're attracted to a DEMON? You mean the one that cares about the well-being of ducks? The one who risked his own life to save a grave-digging girl? The one who likes making stars and likes watching them twinkle? The one who can't fight for shit and has to rely on his wits and intelligence to get him out of a situation? His skinny ass can't even open a jar. Can't even hit a hedgehog if he tried. That one Aziraphale???

Or are you attracted to the one who defies Heavens orders at every single turn? The one who lied to GODS FACE? The one who's trained as a soldier and given a flaming sword to fight and kill? The one who's been fraternizing with the "enemy" for thousands of years? Who's performed temptations and has committed numerous sins throughout his lifetime and not once repented for them or shown any remorse? The one who quite literally makes mobsters DISSAPEAR and run for their LIVES? The one that was ready to shoot a CHILD in the FACE to end Armaggedon aka to go against every order he's been given? That one Crowley? Hmm?

just imagine how fun it must be to be dan and phil in this new era right now. you're out of the closet, so no more having to hide your gayness. you've finally drawn a clear boundary regarding what you will and won't share about your private life, so there's no more grey area to worry and fuss over. at the same time, the weird parasocial relationship you have with your devoted fanbase has matured - along with said fans - to a point of ironic self-awareness, so you're absolutely free to mess with their phannie brains in any way you want, knowing it will be appreciated (even celebrated!) with good humour. so literally what do you do? well, what you absolutely should do. you release an almost step-by-step reenactment of your most significant trip to japan through your two gay sims and call it a honeymoon. pandemonium ensues. and good for you.

"irreversible side effects of HRT" all of life is irreversible. i cannot go back a single second in time