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Dust
---and when the ink dries
and the pages turn to dust
so will we ---
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Sooooo I’ve just revisited this for the first time in what, 6 years?
I have some thoughts on my own writing hahaha.
But I’m also fascinated by what happened to my OF/ Frank fans.
Cos like I stopped paying attention and now one late night reading all this has made me obsessed again?
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Part 1
My eyes darted immediately to the dessert section.
Lemon panacotta. Poached pear.
Fuck, mm chocolate peanut butter cheesecake.
I sighed.
I always tortured myself like this when I knew up front Jeremy would never get desserts after the meal.
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This is my summary of the end of Dust lol
if you're interested
What was going to happen? nd if its evolving into somethin else its gunna be a new story then? that would be awesome
I just wrote this all and it’s so long I’m going to have to put it under read more lol
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Part 5
“Morning... What the fuck are you doing?”
I didn’t turn to him, “What does it look like?” I bit back.
“I dunno”
“I’m cleaning” I hissed.
“The top of the cabinets?!”
I rolled my eyes as he opened the fridge and took out the carton of milk and started drinking straight from it.
“You’re in the way.”
“You could politely ask me to move.”
“Whatever.”
“I need you to go and get the cake.”
“Now?”
“Yes now.”
“I just got up.”
“It’s one o’clock. Not my fault you’re being lazy.”
“You could have warned me”
I jumped off the counter and grabbed my car keys. “Fine. I’ll get it. And clean the apartment and buy the decorations and get our daughter ready” I huffed.
“You never asked for help!”
“You could have offered! It’s our daughter’s birthday.”
“You only told me we were having this party last week!”
I pinched my nose, “I’m not doing this now.”
I rushed out of the apartment with my list of last minute things to buy.
It was Maisie’s third birthday party and everyone was going to be here in like three hours and Lonny was being so ridiculously un-cooperative this week.
After I’d done a quick Wal-mart dash I went to the bakery to pick up the Golf Wang cake Tyler had drawn for her.
It looked so cute. I set it down carefully on the back seat and made my way back.
I struggled up the stairs with the bags and the cake to be greeted my Everest jumping up.
“No. Down! Lon have you taken him out?”
“Not yet.”
“Lon, he’s gone psycho, he needs to get rid of that energy.” I complained as Everest proceeded to claw and jump up at every surface.
I set the cake down and went to the kitchen to unload the already melting ice-cream.
“Please, just take him out for an hour or something. With Maisie maybe.”
“Yeah, lemme just...” He didn’t look up from his laptop as he trailed off.
Everest was still bounding around my legs, tail thwacking everything.
“Have a look at the cake too, it’s amazing”
No sooner had those words come out of my mouth did Everest jump up at the table with the cake on and it fell to the floor.
“Everest !” I screamed, pushing him out of the way so he fell onto his side. “Lonny! Take the fucking dog out!” I shouted, not even wanting to look at the cake-y mess. “Now!”
He got up quickly and attached Everest’s leash before going and getting Maisie.
He paused and looked at me before leaving the apartment. When the door shut tears finally started forming.
I sniffed, and tried to stop as I picked the cake box up and turned it the right way up.
The door suddenly opened again, “Forgot the car seat and-“ He stopped as he looked at my crying face.
“Go away!” I cried, turning away from him. “Just leave!”
I pulled myself together and attempted to repair the cake somewhat, pressing the icing back into place where the cake had crushed it.
My mood improved as I put on some old school Tyler stuff on the speakers and started decorating the apartment.
Green and pink. Those were Maisie’s favourite colours.
Soon after Lonny and Maisie got back people started arriving. All the gang pretty much. They spoilt the fuck out of Maisie but we decided instead of asking for presents to get donations for the cat shelter.
I checked my phone and then went and found Lonny.
“Hey, Maisie’s friends from pre-school have just arrived, could go down and let their Mum’s up. It’s Nathan and Susie.”
“Nathan? Sounds like a boys name...”
“And?”
“Didn’t realise it was a boy-girl thing”
“She’s three.”
“Just wasn’t expecting to be chasing off boys yet. Don’t need to be dealing with any Jaydons if she’s anything like you.
I widened my eyes, I would have slapped him if there weren’t people around. “Fuck you” I hissed. “Just go!”
“It was a joke!”
“It was a lame-ass joke. Fuck you.”
I meandered around the room, pissed off at Lonny. At least everyone else seemed to be having fun. The guys seemed to be enjoying the children’s party vibes.
Tyler was playing with Maisie and her friends too. I loved how much he loved her.
“Come on, Kai, we need to talk” Lonny muttered coming up beside me and leading me to our room. “Look Kai-“ He started when he’d shut the door.
I panicked suddenly, “Are you breaking up with me? I’m sorry I’ve been a bitch, I just-“
“-I’m not breaking up with you. Fuck. No... Jeez sorry. I’ve been... I’ve been a dick... But I’m just nervous. Have been nervous... I er... It’s our baby’s birthday, Kai” He smiled.
He went and started rummaging about it our closet.
“You gave me everything I wanted. And I... Fuck. I have a speech. I promise.” He grinned slightly as he turned and got down on one knee.
Fuck.
He opened the ring box.
“Kaia, you-“
“IF Y’ALL ARE FUCKING Y’ALL NASTY-“ Tyler burst through the door to see Lonny on one knee and me with a hand over over my mouth. “FUCK”
It was like we were all on pause as we looked between each other in stunned silence.
I heard Kelly’s voice from behind him, “What’s going-... Oh my God!” She shouted and then within seconds the entire party was standing in the doorway looking in on the scene.
Lonny sighed and shook his head.
As if the situation couldn’t have got any more ridiculous, Everest trotted out of the bathroom and licked Lon’s face.
He stood up finally, “Well... That was not how I planned it.” He cleared his throat awkwardly.
“I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOU NIGGAS. FINALLY” Tyler shouted coming over and pulling us into a hug. Everyone else joined in and I was sandwiched in a mass of people.
Back out in the party Kelly was topping up my champagne. I could feel Lonny watching me and he was pacing about, rubbing his head anxiously.
When I finally got away from people congratulating me I went out to the balcony where he was now standing by himself.
“I er... didn’t get the chance to say earlier... But yes. Obviously. A hundred times yes.”
He turned to me and grinned, kissing me hard.
“Can I see the ring?”
He smirked and produced it from his pocket. He took my hand, kissing it gently before sliding it onto my finger. “You like it?”
I nodded, “It’s perfect. Honestly.”
“Love you, Kaikai.”
“Love you, Lonny.”
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I'm gonna update this Maybe I'm sorry I left this so long Also I may re-write this. From scratch.
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So many pages I wrote, but there’s no erasing - Dust
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Haha there such a cute (secret) married couple
I know :3 can't wait to write the real thing!
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They're so cute I just want to pinch their cheeks. Lol. And hilarious. Will we get to know what happened when Kaia got pregnant?
Haha yeah I half wrote that-was gonna be the first part. But yeah in 2 parts maybe I'll go back to then... that wasn't hilarious though :(
And I'm also probably thinking about writing their wedding... haha
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I laughed my ass off at the penis problems part! lol! they are all cute and shit. with a daughter now aww.
Haha I was scraping the barrel with ideas for this part and then Frank's dick ended up being... inspiration...
But they are cute :3 and I haven't written the next part but I'm planning some funny Lon as a Dad moments.
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that kinda sucks but the next bit is back when they got engaged and it's hella... kaia and lon-like.
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Part 4
I passed passport control finally and saw everyone waiting. Long awaited return and everything.
I was tired but I found the energy to pick Maisie up when she sprinted over me. I smiled into her head. Home, finally.
I hugged Katonya first. After this whole incident it made me appreciate her, how wonderful a Mum she was to me now and how much she’d helped since I first told her I was pregnant.
I pouted slightly and he kissed me, harder than I was expecting, in front of everyone, while I still had Maisie in my arms.
“Chris!” Kelly shouted, punching his arm, “Wait your turn and get a room!”
I laughed as he pulled away rubbing his arm.
“Everyone’s at the house, if you want to see them” Kelly said.
I nodded and Lonny took my bag as we went out to the car.
“We won’t stay long, Tink.” Lon said as we got in the car.
“So everything’s sorted now?” Kelly asked as we drove.
“Yeah, everything’s cool. Until the wedding.”
Lonny turned to me and we shared a secret smile.
When we reached Kelly’s everyone practically jumped on me to welcome me home and I stood with Maisie on my hip saying hi to everyone.
When it had calmed down I just danced with Maisie. She was so funny, either copying me or using the moves she’d taken off Tyler.
“Sexy Mommy.” Lonny muttered coming over to me and taking my hands.
We danced together, trying to keep it as PG as possible despite that being the last thing I wanted to do.
Maisie went off eventually and played with the other kids and I circulated. It was rare, everyone being in one place now so it felt special.
The next time we were all together would probably be the wedding. Second wedding haha.
A while later Lonny grabbed my hand and pulled me into the house. “Maisie wants a goodnight kiss. Kelly said she could stay.”
I looked at my phone and realised how late it was.
I went through to the spare room where I’d spent many a night in the past.
“You’ll be here in the morning, right Mom?”
I nodded. “Yep. And the morning after and the morning after.”
She smiled and I kissed her, stroking her hair out of her face.
“Night, baby”
I stayed by her bed until she fell asleep and then went back to the party. I found Lonny with a blunt in my hands and I frowned and took it off him.
“What?” He exclaimed.
“I want you to be able to get it up when we’re home.”
“Woah! This isn’t the place to be taking about penis problems.”
“Penis problems!” Tyler shouted, appearing from nowhere.
“What?” Kelly asked from the other side of the yard.
“Kaia’s nigga has problems with his dick.”
“I don’t. Jesus Christ, Kai” Lonny argued as I laughed.
“Oh my God” I gasped, “This is so funny”
“Kaia, tell them I don’t have a problem with my dick!”
I laughed into my hand at how this had escalated.
“Kaia!”
“What was that, Chris?”
He stood up and threw me over his shoulder.
“Lonny!”
“I’m taking Kaia and proving there is nothing wrong with me.” He announced and I pressed my face into his back so I didn’t get embarrassed.
“Oh you’re nasty!” Tyler shouted after him and there was a general chorus of disgusted noises.
“Lonny, you’re ridiculous!”
“Come on, Wifey” He said quietly so only I could hear, moving one of his hands up my thigh.
“Oh fuck, Lon”
He chuckled and waved bye to everyone, taking me to the car.
“Can I have my wedding ring back?” I breathed, kissing him in the car. “Please. Just for tonight.”
“No, baby. Just wait.”
“But I love it so much.”
“I’ll have to do tonight.”
I smiled and reached over, running my hand over his jeans. I could see his smirk and I leaned over to nuzzle into his neck.
“Driving Kaia.” He muttered.
“I trust you.”
He let out a low grunt as I started unzipping him.
He got us back to the apartment in record time and we ran upstairs.
“Wifey” He moaned into my mouth as he crawled on top of me.
“Was thinking.” I managed to let out between kisses.
“Mm?”
“Before the wedding... We should... Save it.”
“Huh?”
“To make that night special.”
“From now? I-“
“-God no. Like a month before...”
“Oh... We could try I guess.”
He slowly peeled my clothes off and clasped my hands as he entered me.
I wrapped my legs around him and arched up to kiss him.
*
I woke up the next day in my own bed next to my (secret) husband.
“You want me to get Maisie?” He asked.
I nodded, “I’ll make breakfast. Tell Kelly I want to do wedding stuff this week too”
“Ooh hello. Someone’s keen. You only got back yesterday.”
“Excited.”
He left and I made some pancakes ready for when they got back. I popped out and got some bridal magazines too and waited for them.
They both chomped down on their breakfast while I guided Maisie’s sticky hands away from the pages with our wedding plans on.
“Would you wear something like that?” I cooed as she stared at the flower girl spread in the magazine.
“I want to wear the cat dress.”
I giggled, “We’ll see, Maze. What do you think Daddy should wear too?”
I could feel Lonny watching us as he cleared away the plates.
“Seriously, Kai, what are you going to get T into?” Lon asked.
“No idea. Need to talk to him about. Was going to negotiate him wearing a button down shirt with his own board shorts or whatever. I don’t know... And if you wanted to be really useful you could speak to the venue and confirm the date.”
“You actually want to confirm? 110%?”
“Yeah. Don’t make me nervous. Then we can do invites and that boring shit.”
“Okay, I’ll do that... Can you believe it’s been over two years since I asked you?”
“Nearly three.”
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Ahhh thank you! It's been awhile :)
It has! I apologise, I just halted in the middle of the next part for some reason
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Haha so that's how it happened that's so cute and they should have done that so long ago lol it would have cut down on so much!!!
Haha I know right?
But yeah, that's all that explained. 'Cept I have other stuff to fill in like when Kai got pregnant. And how they got engaged. And why Lonny was so pissed off at her after her tour. And then their wedding... Eeeh.
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Part 4
By the next evening we were over it, happily waiting to board our plane.
FUCKKAIA: nightmare over. la bound to see my baby girl again.
12 hours next to this idiot though. I attached a picture of Lonny pouting with the Disney Princess hat we’d just got for Maisie on his head.
Through all the shit that had happened, we’d got through it stronger, better off than before.
We sat thumb wrestling as the plane soared silently through the clouds.
Lonny grabbed my fist and turned it over, twisting my engagement ring.
“7 months.” He said smiling.
“7 months.”
It felt like the best thing in the world to look forward to again. Since I got back from tour, when things went weird between us I’d thought so many times about calling the wedding off.
Fuck, he must have too.
But I had a good feeling now. We always came through for each other when it mattered.
And I felt in love. Like, when you first start dating someone.
I didn’t want to let go of him at the moment.
“You thinking about me?” He asked grinning.
“You know it.”
He pulled up the arm rest and I leant against him watching the TV on the front of his seat. As it got later we both drifted off, fingers laced between each other.
*
I rolled my eyes at Lonny as I stood in the passport queue. He was already through.
My queue always took longer.
Finally I reached the front though and handed in all my papers.
He looked through them and scanned them to the computer in front of him. “Maam, I’m afraid there’s some problems here, you’ll need to follow my colleague into his office.”
Another passport guard came over to the station. “Everything’s correct. I’m not due for a renewal until next August.”
“I know, Maam. Just step into his office and-“
“You’re sending me back, aren’t you?”
The guy took a breath then nodded, “Yes Maam, your visa’s been rejected.”
I looked over and Lonny had now been joined by Maisie, Katonya and Kelly who were meeting us here.
“Okay...”
“We’ll take you through and you’ll be on the next flight to London.”
“Can I at least say bye to my daughter and fiancée? They’re there.” I pointed towards them.
He sighed, “Fine, you’ve got two minutes.”
I rushed past him and scooped Maisie up in my arms.
“Hey, baby girl.”
“I’m not a baby”
I laughed, “I know, hun.”
I turned to Lonny and Kelly.
“I forgot to fill in a form so I just need to sort that. You should head back to the house. I’ll get a cab.” I lied.
“We can wait a bit longer” Kelly smiled.
“It’s gonna take a couple hours. You know what they’re like.”
“Oh... Okay.”
I put Maisie down and gave her a hug. I’m sorry for lying.
I turned to Lonny and kissed him.
I’d call them when I was getting on the plane. That would stop them causing a scene now. There was nothing they could do and I needed to resolve this issue myself.
“Mummy! Daddy that’s gross!” Maisie shouted stamping her foot.
I pulled away and giggled.
I waved to them as they turned to leave and I walked back to where there was a passport control guy waiting.
Lonny fell into step beside me. “What’s going on?” He whispered urgently, “You filled out those forms. You’ve done it a million times.”
He suddenly clocked the passport control.
“You’re being deported.” He stopped and I turned to him and nodded.
“They can’t... That’s ridiculous.”
“Lonny, shh you’ll just make it worse.”
I tiptoed and wrapped my arms around his neck.
“I’ll fix this”
“How?”
“Maam.” The man was pulling on my arm.
I reached up to kiss Lonny one more time.
“Just give us a minute, man.” Lon said pulling me back
“I’m not your pal” The guy replied pushing him off me and taking my elbow.
“Take your hands off her, she’s not going anywhere.”
“Lonny, stop, okay?” I was sobbing now, exactly why I didn’t want to make a scene.
“This isn’t fair. I’m coming on the next flight. I’ll be there tomorrow.”
“No. You can’t leave Maisie again.”
Suddenly there were three guards around us now.
“I love you.”
He grabbed my face and kissed me until he was pulled away. As I was escorted into passport control again I turned to see shrugging off the guards, gesticulating angrily.
*
I spent 24 hours of the last 30 on a plane.
When I got to my hotel room I was ready to sleep for a whole day. And I nearly achieved that. I got 14 hours despite being worried sick and unsure of what to do now.
I sat in bed, preparing myself for a day of sitting in the American embassy.
There was a knock on the door and I pulled a t-shirt on.
Lonny was standing there. Bags under his eyes, and more stubble than usual.
“Couldn’t let you go again.” He said.
“Maisie...”
“I explained it to her.” He was speaking quietly, thoughtfully. “She understands.”
I looked down.
“I think we should get married.”
I scrunched my nose up, “We are getting married.”
“Today. Registry office. Wherever.”
My jaw dropped as I realised what he was saying.
“We’ll just ask someone to be a witness and then it’s official, right?”
I laughed. “Of course. Let’s get fucking married.”
I kept laughing as I put on some clothes. Laughing because of how simple it was. We’d been engaged for so long now, what was the point of waiting.
And we both knew we didn’t need a fancy wedding.
And then I can live in the States. So simple. Should have done this years ago. All the stress of visas and I could have just married the love of my life. Or Tyler if I was that desperate. He’d probably be down for it.
“Something new, something old...”Lonny muttered shoving things into my hands. I looked down at the earrings I suspected to be Givenchy and his old bandana. “Uh... something borrowed and something blue...” He patted his pockets and pulled out the keys to his car on the BMW key chain. “Borrowed and blue.”
“Right...” I put the earrings in and shoved the keys in my pocket. “What am I supposed to do with this?” I asked holding up the bandana.
“Ur.... Garter.” He grinned and bent down and tied it around my thigh.
I threw my head back laughing.
“So we’re doing this... like, right now?”
“Yeah” He smiled
I squeezed his hand and we left the hotel.
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