I'm so tired. So tired.

I want to give up on life. Am I allowed to give up? Or should I pretend that I'm still here for other's sake?

Forget Valentine's day..

It's HQ month! 🏐

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Happy birthday to these two. ❤️❤️❤️

I just love ya both. 🥹😩😘

Happy birthday to the Miya twins. ❤️❤️

happy birthday

I think I hide it pretty well. I think I make them all believe I am alright because I am functioning, but I don’t feel functional and when they ask if I’m okay, I’ll be honest. I’ll be honest but they won’t listen because no one truly wants to know.

"I'm fine."

"Its okay."

"No problem."

Real me inside: *screams internally*

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Unhealthy working environment.

What's the need of reacting shocked when the co-worker who's quiet and not talking if not work related started talking to you. Of course it's just about work.

What bothers me the most is the quick gasp, like "why are you talking to me?" Beach, please. It's work related.

🙄

I hate it. Feels like I really am an outsider. I am annoyed and hurt.

Having suicidal depression is like having a constant itch you can’t scratch. Even if you don’t plan on actually committing suicide the feeling doesn’t just go away. It’s constantly in the back of your mind. Whenever road blocks happen in your life instead of figuring out how to fix things like a normal person would your brain immediately goes to, “just kill yourself.” When you wake up in the morning the first thought you have is about killing yourself because your dreams are the only time you can escape the pain of living with suicidal depression. You find no worth in your accomplishments. Even when you actually do accomplish something it’s like it has no worth because you don’t find worth in yourself. You constantly compare yourself to your peers and wonder if you would have actually been succseful like them if you didn’t have a mental illness. Even if you do feel happy for a moment that moment ends and you remember that you have no worth, are stupid, haven’t accomplished anything in life and are a waste of space who needs to just end it already. You know you’re unlovable. No one wants to be with someone with suicidal depression because they don’t want to be with someone who will bring them down. You constantly are thinking about killing yourself and knowing that you can’t makes you feel trapped. Dying isn’t a soluation but you don’t want to live another disappointing year where nothing but bad things happen to you and you don’t grow or change at all. Having suicidal depression is watching everyone around you grow and change while you remain the same. And no one can see how much pain you are in.

Scary. Felt like I'm dating a different person.

Unbothered.

Why do I feel like I want to cry so bad??

But there's no reason for me to cry.

There's this feeling, something inside me is badly hurt.

But I think I'm okay.

they would get along i think

When will people realise that Chronically ill people cannot predict how they will feel in the next few minutes, hours, days or months. I could wake up feeling fine and then feel like I’ve been hit by a truck within the hour. There are no warning signs.