“Manic pixie dream girl says, ‘have you heard this record?’ Manic pixie dream girl says let me save you with this record. Let me put the headphones on for you, and smile, while you listen; cut to your point of view, watch me smile while you listen. Hear that? That’s the sound of you becoming a better person. I’m gonna paint a picture of a bird on your beige wall without your permission and you’re gonna love it. And you thought you hated birds. See me? Encouraging you to take risks? Manic pixie dream girl wants you to do something you’ve never done before. Like go swing-dancing, or smile. You wanna know my name? You never call me by it anyway. If I had to guess, it would probably be a season, or after a dead actress who you loved as a child. But this isn’t about me! This is about you, and your cubicle job, your white bedroom, your white Honda, your white mother. Manic pixie dream girl says I’m going to save you. Says, don’t worry, you are still the lead role. This is your love story about the way I teach you to live. Everything they know about me they will learn when it is projected onto you, watch the way you pick up my bad habits and make them look good. Manic pixie dream girl talks too much. Says bad words out loud and cries at the commercials. That makes me a funny woman, right? The kind people like to laugh at? It’s easy to root for you when I act like this, so disagreeable, such a manic dream, dream girl, your almost broken accessory. Manic pixie dream girls says let’s play make believe with my body. I’ll be a vintage dress in an empty prescription bottle, good girl, just bad enough, a burp and a curtsy. Let me be not too pretty, hair fried from all that pink dye, sex when you need it, puppet when you’re bored. Let me build myself smaller than you, let me apologize when I get caught acting bigger than you. Let me always wait for this, let me work for this. The convenient thing about being a magical woman is that I can be gone as quickly as I came. And when you are a whole person for the first time, the movie is over. Manic pixie dream girl doesn’t go on; there’s no need for her anymore. Manic pixie dream girl is too dream girl, and you just woke up. Once, I told you I was afraid of my father, and for a moment, I looked so human, the audience lost interest. You saw the crow’s feet at the sides of my eyes and a small chip on my front tooth. I looked just like everyone else.”
— Olivia Gatwood :; Manic Pixie Dream Girl
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i am drowning. the water
fills my lungs, and though it
is refreshing, i cannot breathe.
I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO LOVE YOU
I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO LOVE YOU
I AM LEARNING
I WANT TO LEARN
BUT I CAN NOT LOVE YOU
i want to scream it from rooftops
pick it from the part of my brain
that makes me think that i deserve you
and i do not know how to love you
i do not want to tame you
i never want you to change
never want your breathing to steady
i don't want you to cut your hair
although it gets tangled when you sleep
i don't want you to paint your nails
even though your mother tells you to
you should not curl your hair to look beautiful
unless you realize that you are gorgeous without it
i do not know what it feels like to love you
but i imagine it feels something
like the moment before a car crash
the second before a star is born
the minute after one has died
something awe inspiring
and terrible
and wonderful
and amazing
all at the same time
I WANT TO LOVE YOU
I WANT TO LOVE YOU
I DO I DO I DO
IM SORRY
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i. when you are here,
it is as if the flowers
are in full bloom.
ii. the image of you
laughing in my kitchen
will remain long after
you've moved to a
small house in new
jersey.
iii. it is so easy to be
with you. it is so easy
to love you. maybe if
i say it enough i'll start
to believe it.
iv. you are so radiant
that each time i lift my
eyes it is as if i am
staring into the sun.
v. sometimes i wish
that you had never
walked into my life. i
wonder why you just
had to come in and
make me love you as
much as i do.
vi. if i had never met
you, this would be so
much less painful.
vii. you were the one
who wasn't supposed
to leave me. you were
the one who was meant
to stay.
viii. thank you for being
everything that anyone
could have been. if
anyone could have saved
me, it would have been
you.
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"and i can no longer tell if my heart is beating too fast or too slow"
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girl says she comes from humble beginnings. says
that she was made
from mother and father and nothing
more. i say girl was crafted
from goddess. each thing she does screams
holy.
girl came from the womb without
tears. girl came from heaven and still called
herself demon. girl
rose hell without second thought. girl
doesn't give things second thoughts. girl is one
part lovely and three parts
terror. she is hellfire fueled by holy
oil. girl grew up in mansions. girl grew up on the
streets. sometimes the street
is your mansion.
sometimes your mansion is
nothing more than just home. girl told
me that she is sad. girl
told everyone that she was sad. girl is everything
and more. girl is sad and girl is
happy.
girl is great. girl is kind. people say that
sometimes girl is just a girl, and
i need to stop making hero out of her.
but with me girl gets the backstory she has always
deserved. girl watched armies fall.
girl watched
empires rise. girl watched
netflix with him, and when he tried to
chill with her, she
cut out his tongue. girl has
no chill. she is phoenix. girl rose from the
ashes of everyone who
ever dared to call her human. girl is so
human
that it hurts. she bleeds golden and sometimes it
spills from her eyes. coats
her thick brown hair
in the stuff. girl is golden. girl drips
honey and bleeds ichor. everything girl is made of spells out
"remember." girl will be remembered.
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stardust
“
my mother would tell me that i
was made of stardust. firecrackers in my
veins and love in my
heart.
words are born in my throat,
they rut against my lips and beg me,
“tell him, tell him,
tell him.”
he hides deep within himself. shoves
anything he deems unnecessary
down and doesn’t show it until
he is raw and hurting.
i want to help him.
i want to help him.
we are not supposed to love
each other. but the way his lips push
feverishly against mine, his hands so
warm and real; it
is brighter than every star united.
he tells me
that i am nothing but long limbs and
loud words and eyes so
bright.
he will never know
everything that he means
to me.
we are made of stardust. kids
thrust into something so vast, it is
incomprehensible. it is
exhilarating and
terrifying all at once.
but he is right there.
he is always right there.
”
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an ode to cherry blossoms
you look like letting go. each
delicate petal that drifts down sends a
shiver up
my spine. the lazy way
that your leaves sway; the languid movement of
your branches. my mother has always
been too allergic for us to all go near you. sit
beneath your shade
and have a lunch or two.
spend a day at ease in your infinite
calm. spend an eternity under the shade you
provide.
turned into a symbol for love, you
make your appearance in every music video.
you are the comfort of
home for each dying girl. the
blanket of warmth for each sad
boy. all of your flowers are beautiful. white
or pink, pure and delicate.
you have
turned heartbreak into something beautiful.
each melancholy poem written by
broken little kids has the scent of you
lingering between the lines. you rest
in the hollows of my cheeks, swing from the
bags under my eyes.
you are beautiful and terrifying. the
most deadly forest fire
come to life.
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We are all sunbeams, dancing
Through the cracks in our shells,
Pacing the limelight, drifting
Through its melancholy haze.
Watch me bloom in particles,
Pirouetting in patches of light.
Watch me dream the night away,
Barefoot, stepping sleepily.
I am stardust, abandoned,
Left to grace mere crevices.
I am atoms, drenched in flame,
Eternal.
Watch me shine.
poeticallyordinary, “Stardust” (via poeticallyordinary)
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dad,
thank you for being the only
person who has loved me unconditionally, no
matter
what. thank you for coaching
every sports team, attending every school function, and
working hard
every single day. you
are everything that i wish
i was. you are smart, you are funny, and oh,
you are so so
kind. you taught me that not all
men want to hurt me. you’ve taught me that my life can be filled
with so much light,
i am blinded in the most
glorious way. i do not tell you everything, and i am still
trying my best to be open with you,
and you are
constantly there. thank
you for being so there that i never have
to worry about being alone. we
are both only human, and we make so many mistakes, they
outnumber the stars; despite
all this,
you have never left my side. we are
so, so different, and
yet there is no one more similar to me. thank
you for sharing my love of stars,
of storms. thank you for
loving me even though i am so often storm. you have
taught me what it is
like to be totally, unequivocally happy. for
every late night, quick snack,
and stolen hug, thank you. i love you.
i’m sorry i'm not good
at telling you.
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Thinking of you is a poison I drink often.
A t t i c u s (via beautiful-words-on-a-page)
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