I don't know what to feel right now. I'm sorry.

Should I be sorry?

I don't know.

I don't know.

The play was great.

That older couple infront of me cuddling up to eachother made me think of you. A lot.

I'll send you an extra kiss tonight.

I'm seeing a play this Saturday. With my sibling.

You and i deserve to be going to a play together. I'll tell you all about it when i get the chance.

Sleep well, Moonbeam.

I've been in a good mood since I woke up from that dream, but I just figured out exactly why.

Because I've had that same calm warmness in my heart that I always did when we were together.

I asked the moon to send something good your way. I love you.

Huh, well then.

I just had a dream.

You messaged me out of the blue, and we got to talk for a few hours. Hang out.

I miss you already.

hey, can we talk for a second? it’s about your girlfriend. yeah, she’s great. no, yeah, I agree. It’s just that… she seems really devoted to you? Like really devoted. Almost as if you were the sole, fragile line mooring her to the shores of humanity. No, that’s not romant—ugh. Listen. Me and the girls, we’re worried you might be the last good thing to happen to her and that were some tragedy to inevitably befall you, she would tear the gods from their thrones and dye the infinite western seas wine-dark with their ichor. Do you think you could introduce her to a new hobby or something? we don’t want to have to argue over what color “wine-dark” is supposed to be

Huh, well then.

I just had a dream.

You messaged me out of the blue, and we got to talk for a few hours. Hang out.

I miss you already.

Thank you to everyone in my askbox. I truly appreciate the words, but I'll refrain from answering things that aren't questions so I have an easy pick-me-up to look at when needed.

💜

-L

Missing you more than usual lately.

I saw the moon on my way to take the trash out, I asked her to check up on you.

I love you, darling. Please be alright.

by jeremy ville

ur blog makes me tear up a little. i hope u and moonbeam can be together one day <3

thank you, i really appreciate the words :)

I've got not much else but hope to cling to, but I know we will. Eventually.

ha. call it 5

running on 3 months.

Fuck this.

My spring vacation has come to a close.

I've found myself wanting again, moreso than the constant yearn.

I hope you're okay. You don't deserve to be alone.

Thought about you a lot on the ride home from easter dinner.

I wonder if you would've liked the lamb.

Laying down to sleep, it's almost as if I feel myself hollow out.

Maybe not hollow out, moreso like... make room for you.

Replace all those pesky thoughts of spanish tests and subscription bills with your smile, the stable warmth you make in me.

Who needs a heated blanket, I've got a beam of moonlight all of my own to keep warm.

I wish I could gush about my hyperfixations to you. You were always so excited when I would offer.

I miss you so fucking much.

I was doing my laundry earlier and i couldn't get you off my mind.

That night I broke the dryer, just sitting on top of it kicking my legs while we talked.

We talked till damn near 4am, if I remember correctly. and when I passed out you tried to stay up until I woke up the next day.

Maybe I should've let us stay up that late a few more times.