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Yandere! Keigo Takami General Profile
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Yandere! Keigo Takami x fem! reader
Tw: kidnapping, stalking, mentions of non-con, implied masturbation, possessiveness, lots and lots of guilt, Stockholm Syndrome/you've kind of lost it by the end, mentions of eating/eating healthily, mentions of murder, Dabi makes an appearance and is directly responsible for your kidnapping, insinuation that Keigo's jerked it to some rather icky nasty stuff of yours, non-consensual photography, fem reader, MDNI
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WC: 15K (genuinely how)
DARLING PROFILE:
Smart
If Keigo was pressed to describe his type, the very first thing that he would blurt out is intelligent. He wants a woman that can match him in terms of intellect. Someone who can follow his quick-paced jokes, his sarcasm, someone that keeps up with him, really.
He finds it wildly attractive when a woman is confident in her own knowledge, and ideally his darling would be knowledgeable in an area he knows next to nothing about.
He likes hearing them spiel on about something theyā€™re passionate about ā€“ and he'll be listening, intently, with a hand under his chin and eyes glossed over because while their words are interesting, watching them is really whatā€™s fully engaging him. Thereā€™s something wonderful about the way that theyā€™re able to answer all the questions he prompts them with, never missing a beat and fully dissecting his question before giving their best thoughts back.
Itā€™s just wonderful, and although heā€™d never divulge any sensitive information to them out of fear for their safety, thereā€™s something euphoric about knowing that if he really wanted to, if he could, he thinks they would understand how he feels.
He thinks they could understand how careful he has to be, how he has to think out his every move and word dozens of times in advance, making sure everything is exactly how it should be.
And really, this helps Keigo feel less lonely ā€“ itā€™s less polarizing and solitary if he knows that his darling could support him, even if he wonā€™t tell them anything.
Just the knowledge makes him giddy, his heart beating faster because it feels so very good to not be alone.
Witty
Similarly to their intelligence, Keigo needs a darling whoā€™s able to dish out what he serves. A witty, silver-tongued darling would have him constantly on his toes, finding that speaking with them is entertaining and leaves him wanting more.
His darling isnā€™t boring, or a drag to speak to ā€“ their stories and commentary leave him on the edge of his seat, growing addicted to their voice and finding himself wanting more more more, eagerly asking all sorts of follow-up questions that he normally wouldnā€™t bother with.
And really, this is one of the first signs that his feelings for them have ventured beyond friendly ā€“ heā€™s never been this invested in someone before, never wanting to interact with them so badly, never wanting to be around them and hear their voice and watch their lips move to form syllables.
He finds his darlingā€™s sense of humor to perfectly match his own, leaving him winded and often more flustered than heā€™d care to admit.
Theyā€™re just so cute ā€“ the knowing little look they send him when they crack a bad pun that leaves him chuckling, the way their face scrunches up when they make an accidentally dirty joke.
Itā€™s endearing, really, and it only makes him fall for them harder, his desperation to see them growing stronger with every passing day because god, theyā€™re just so perfect.
Civilian
While Keigo is capable of developing an obsession with a fellow hero, itā€™s unlikely.
Part of what draws him to his darling is their innocence ā€“ they donā€™t understand the realities of their society, how violent and horrible the darkest members are, how much crime and unrest fills the city streets right under their nose.
Itā€™s the way his darling is able to be so happy and carefree in the face of such terror that draws Keigo in ā€“ they practically radiate positivity, talking about their own mundane life and managing to lull Keigo into a false reality that he, too is simply a civilian.
That he isnā€™t a double agent with a non-existent sense of self, that he isnā€™t bursting with stress and anxiety at any given time. Itā€™s a nice reprieve, really, and itā€™s one that he slowly begins craving. The moments of peace and tranquility addict him, causing him to view his darling as a sort of stress-reliever, someone he can go to when things become too heavy, too dark, too much.
He wants to hear about everything happening in their lives ā€“ their crazy neighbors, annoying coworkers, the cat they saw crossing the street, the latest thing broken in their apartment. He wants to know about the mundane things, the things heā€™s never experienced and never will experience.
His darling is a sort of portal to a totally different world ā€“ what he could have had if he hadnā€™t been born into the family he was, if he hadnā€™t had inherited his quirk, if he hadnā€™t have done this or that.
His darling represents possibility, a side of Keigo that he desperately, desperately wishes he could embrace ā€“ which is why he slowly begins fantasizing about a future with his darling, always complete with a nice little house, a few children, a pretty ring on their finger, and complete domestic bliss.
Itā€™s a dirty fantasy to him, really, something far off and dreamy, but with every interaction he has with his darling, it only stronger, and he only grows more desperate.
Empathetic
Keigo needs someone who is able to see past the layers of persona he puts on as Hawks and instead see him. Keigo Takami. He needs someone whoā€™s able to listen to his words and comfort him, to see the frightened, abused boy he still is at heart.
The idea of a darling whoā€™s able to understand him on such a deep, raw level leaves him feeling equal parts terrified and relieved, because heā€™s never really had someone there for him before.
The concept of a companion, of someone to rely on and love and cherish is such a foreign concept to him, and although he finds the idea enticing (having watched more than his fair share of rom-coms and trashy romance movies), Keigo doesnā€™t believe that heā€™ll ever get to experience it.
His life is too busy and hectic, and having a woman to hold and love and protect would add too much unnecessary strain. Except once he meets his darling and he feels seen for the first time, things begin changing. No longer does he find himself alone, internally grappling with his real identity and his hero identity, slowly losing himself with all the stress and obligations towards the commission.
No, heā€™s not alone because he has them ā€“ his darling, the one whoā€™s smile and a simple brush of their hand leaves him breathless, feeling like a little kid with a sense of wonder and hopefulness and love that makes his heart pound in his chest.
A darling thatā€™s able to incite these feelings in him is really the key to catching his attention in the first place ā€“ a cruel fate, really, considering his darlings is only trying to help him, only trying to help reassure him that he doesnā€™t have to be the ever strong, ever cool Hawks in front of everybody.
Itā€™s a noble thought, really ā€“ but ultimately one that dooms his darling, forcing the blond to latch onto them with incredible strength and never, ever letting go.
GENERAL YANDERE TRAITS:
Clingy
It takes quite a while for Keigoā€™s obsession to form. Heā€™s never really had the time nor desire to get close enough to someone to even consider a relationship, and while heā€™s a had a one-night stand or two, that one night of intimacy is the closest heā€™s ever gotten to someone. Heā€™s just not emotionally available, and for very good reason ā€“ heā€™s lived his entire adult life (and much of his youth) completely under the Commissionā€™s control, his every desire, action, and thought controlled by others.
Itā€™s sad and some part of him knows it, pitying himself even, but Keigoā€™s just not interested in developing any kind of romantic relationship with anyone. He doesnā€™t have time, and thereā€™s a small part of him that questions if heā€™s even able to form that kind of a connection with someone. A childhood full of abuse, training and emotional neglect has fucked him up in more ways than one, and heā€™s genuinely unsure if heā€™s even capable of something like love, if heā€™d even be able to give someone a healthy relationship, his heart.
He swears off romance, finding it trivial and just not something for him, but things begin changing the longer he knows you, the longer heā€™s around you and spends time with you. His feelings are purely platonic at first ā€“ youā€™re funny, someone he finds himself actually getting along with and not dreading seeing, and itā€™s always a pleasure when he happens to run into you when heā€™s out on patrol or just wandering around the city in a rare moment of free time.
(And at this point, it genuinely is random ā€“ thereā€™s no pre-planned meetings, no orchestrated attempts at just so happening to run into you, no attempt to follow you or know your location at all hours of the day. Itā€™s just fate, really.)
He slowly warms up to you, deciding that he actually really likes you, and as the weeks turn into months, thereā€™s this feeling that starts tugging at his heart. Itā€™s this strange phenomenon where when heā€™s lost in thought, planning out his next moves in making sure he balances his double agent lifestyle, thereā€™s this lingering thought of you.
Heā€™ll gear up in his hero suit, shrugging the jacket on over his wings and checking himself over in the mirror, only to let his hand linger over his jacket lapel. Heā€™d never noticed the small speck of blood on the tan material ā€“ had you? It was surely an enemyā€™s, some criminal that heā€™d roughed up a bit too badly before capturing, but it was still an unfortunate sight. His lips quirk down a bit as he thinks of whether youā€™d noticed it when youā€™d ran into him at the end of his patrol yesterday ā€“ you hadnā€™t mentioned anything, but maybe you were just being polite.
Something about the thought of you seeing him with blood on him leaves a sour taste in his mouth.
Itā€™s not until a notification on his phone gets his pocket buzzing that he snaps out of his small reverie, blinking at his reflection and feeling a small bit of confusion settle over him. Why was he thinking of you? Surely it wasnā€™t your blood, and you hadnā€™t been present during any of his fights yesterday ā€“ why had the thought of you popped into his mind?
Keigoā€™s not sure, but he pushes aside the thought as he jumps off his balcony, the wind catching his wings and letting him soar towards the Hero Commission building.
He doesnā€™t give it much thought, but then it happens again the next day; heā€™s out on patrol, flying a good ten feet above the skyline of this particular neighborhood, when he sees a woman walking with a bouquet of flowers. Theyā€™re pretty, he supposes ā€“ roses mixed with some greenery and tulips, the kind of perfect bouquet youā€™d see in a rom-com or some cheesy movie.
He smiles a bit, seeing the way the woman was sighing down at them with a dreamy look on her face, and before he can stop himself thereā€™s this flash in his mind of you with flowers in your arms. Theyā€™d be a different color, of course ā€“ your favorite color, and maybe even a different flower. Whatever one was your favorite, thatā€™s what heā€™d get you.
He freezes as the last thought flits through his mind, his wings freezing too and causing him to falter a bit mid-air, desperately flapping them to stay afloat. What the hell?
He doesnā€™t like it, at first ā€“ the way youā€™re slowly seeping into every aspect of his thoughts, always some little twinge of you sitting at the sidelines, an idle thought of wow, youā€™d look great with that shirt on or a small question of would she like this?
It makes him uncomfortable, because he doesnā€™t know how to deal with this strange new development ā€“ sure, he's heard all about love and falling for someone, because while he may not look like it, heā€™s watched his fair share of chick flicks and raunchy romances.
But still, this is different ā€“ itā€™s different because itā€™s him, because itā€™s you. And itā€™s different because Keigo notices, as time passes, that none of those films or stories mention just how all-encompassing the feeling is, or how it makes him want to swing by your apartment every night, flying outside your window and letting those honey eyes scan the room to find your familiar figure.
They donā€™t mention anything about the desire that eats him up at night, how he seems to see you in everything around him ā€“ his pillow is soft, but heā€™s sure your stomach would be softer. His dining chair is comfortable, but having you sit in his lap would make it more comfortable.
The ratty shirt with the massive holes cut in the back is loose on him, but where it looks sloppy on him, youā€™d manage to look cute, heā€™s sure. It scares him, if heā€™s being honest, because he feels his control over himself slowly slipping through his fingers ā€“ he canā€™t stop himself from checking over you when he knows youā€™re at work, repeatedly flying through the area when he really doesnā€™t need to, just to make sure thereā€™s no villainous activity.
(And always keeping an eye out for you when he knows your shift is over ā€“ he always gets too nervous and chickens out, but one of these days he swears heā€™s going to swoop down and pick you up, holding you in his arms as he flies around with you, chuckling in your ear and pulling you flush against his body under the guise of ā€˜safetyā€™ ā€“ just please ignore the hardness you feel against your back or the labored breaths in your ear.)
It scares him that he canā€™t stop himself from suddenly paying much more attention to your every word, listening to you like youā€™re spouting holy epiphanies as you tell him about your coworkers or this new film you watched, biting his lip and nodding along, letting his eyes occasionally flick down to your mouth as quickly as he can, just so you wonā€™t notice.
Thus starts a troubling pattern ā€“ Keigo starts slowly craving learning as much as he can about you, because with every thought that pops up into his head, he finds his knowledge about you is sorely lacking. He doesnā€™t know what your favorite flower is ā€“ he canā€™t get you that bouquet he was fantasizing of.
Ā He doesnā€™t know where your favorite take-out place is ā€“ he canā€™t surprise you with dinner on nights he can tell youā€™re tired. (He can tell because heā€™d followed you home from the air and noticed your slouched shoulders and the way youā€™d looked on the verge of tears when youā€™d stubbed your toe on the uneven sidewalk, but still.)
He doesnā€™t know what size shoe you wear ā€“ he canā€™t pick you up those new shoes he thought youā€™d like, or get you a new pair of those fuzzy, warm socks he noticed were looking a little ragged in your laundry bin.
Ā He doesnā€™t know what your ideal date is, so he canā€™t plan one with the knowledge that youā€™d be as happy as humanly possibly, all smiley and bashful and shy, all because youā€™re with Keigo himself.
It frustrates him, and he figures it wouldnā€™t hurt to look into you just a bit more ā€“ heā€™s got access to all kinds of information, security clearances associated with his status as both a hero, an agent of the Hero Commission, and an agent of the Meta Liberation Army making pretty much any piece of information he wants to get his hands on accessible. Heā€™s getting access to your computer and phone, sifting through your search histories, contacts, even your bank accounts and government information.
(How else would he be able to start depositing occasional bits of money into your account, gifts he knows you wonā€™t notice because you never check your transaction histories? You may not know about them, but he does, and it makes him feel good, important when heā€™s gifting you a hundred dollars here and there, making sure you have a cushion so that you can spoil yourself and indulge in all the things he knows you want to, but you donā€™t have the funds to do so.)
Heā€™s designating a specific feather to slip into your purse or pocket, attached to your person so that he can track where youā€™re going, feeling the vibration against your back when youā€™re talking, when youā€™re shivering because youā€™re cold, when youā€™re standing or sitting or laying or moaning and gasping and shaking ā€“
(Heā€™ll always stiffen up when the feather heā€™d managed to slip into your jacket starts vibrating with the sound of your cries, his cheeks and neck feeling unbearably hot as he starts to sweat, wings twitching uncontrollably and rushing to the nearest bathroom, clutching the sink and grimacing because god, youā€™re moaning so damn much, you must be touching yourself and heā€™s not even there to see it, not able to watch you fall apart ā€“ maybe youā€™re even thinking of him, of how heā€™d fuck you nice and deep, pushing your knees up to your ears and groaning your name over and over while he fills you full of his cum ā€“ Heā€™s in the bathroom for a suspiciously long time, and when he comes back with his pants just slightly askew, Dabi will cock a brow but not make a comment.)
Heā€™s even going so far as to set up cameras in your apartment, having broken in one day when you werenā€™t home, making sure theyā€™re placed in inanimate objects so you donā€™t find one and get scared.
(Though, he canā€™t deny that the image of you running to him in fear, crying and clutching onto him and telling him that someoneā€™s stalking you has a very nice ring to itā€¦ Ultimately, though, he knows itā€™s best for you to not take on the stress and burden of knowing your every move is being watched, recorded, stored onto his phone and computer so that when he canā€™t sleep at night or is particularly stressed from all the lying and sneaking around, heā€™ll have something pretty and sweet to look at, something calming and relaxing, something that makes him sigh and his lips quirk up into a small smile as his thumb rubs the technology, imagining it was your cheek.)
Itā€™s a slow slide into his obsessive tendencies, but once his feelings for you have formed in full, Keigo is a lost cause ā€“ and once you end up trapped with him, forced to depend on him for everything, this trait will only present itself more strongly, becoming harder and harder to ignore because he wonā€™t bother hiding it anymore.
Youā€™ll be scared and apprehensive every time he arrives with a glass of water right when you were beginning to feel thirsty, but really, you should know better. Youā€™ll be unnerved when he presents a new bottle of shampoo to you right as you start itching to shower, but itā€™s inevitable.
Keigo knows you better than you know yourself, after all ā€“ and he just wants to keep you happy, keep you safe. He's just in love, and doesnā€™t he deserve someone to love?
Doesnā€™t he deserve to be happy too, to finally, finally have something all to himself, something thatā€™s his?
Protective
Frankly, though Keigo hides it well, his protectiveness over you is unbearable. Heā€™s a seasoned pro-hero who spends a good amount of time with villains, and as a result heā€™s more than aware of just how dark of a place the world really is. He has intimate knowledge of just how many horrible people are hiding in plain sight, all the violent and horrific crimes they commit, and just how often they manage to escape unscathed.
And of course, he also knows just how many innocent victims get wrapped up in their schemes, often resulting in injuries and trauma and even death. And while Keigo generally is disapproving of murder, heā€™s even more staunchly against the concept when itā€™s your death, when youā€™re the lifeless body thatā€™s laying on the cold, hard cement, blood pooling around your head and your pretty eyes staring aimlessly above, your fingers cold and your neck bruised and oh god oh god ā€“
The realization that the way he feels for you has wandered into romantic territory is the same moment that he realizes that you could very easily be one of the civilians he was just a hair too slow to save.
Heā€™s helping an older woman crawl out of a pile of rubble left behind from a stand-off with a villain, part of the building having collapsed in on itself, and all of a sudden he sees something sticking out from below a large, cement cylinder ā€“ a foot, stained red at the ankle, and immediately he feels sick.
Evacuations arenā€™t always successful, and oh, look at that ā€“ the footā€™s complexion is oddly familiar, and he swears heā€™s seen that nail polish on someone elseā€™s fingers before. Bile actually rises up the back of his throat as he realizes that everything about this unfortunate soul reminds him of you, even down to the hair dotting her leg. Itā€™s a hard pill to swallow as images of you bloody and bruised flash through his mind, each one making his chest tighter than the last.
It leaves his fists clenching and his jaw tight enough to make his teeth hurt, and itā€™s in that moment that his body almost seems to operate on autopilot ā€“ the images of you battered and too injured to be helped are still swirling through his mind as his feet leave the ground, his wings beating faster and faster with every second, his desperation to reach you strong enough to get his heart practically racing out of his chest.
The wind is whistling in his ears as he flies to your apartment, his muscles aching from the exertion, his lip caught between his teeth as he mentally chants that youā€™re okay, youā€™re okay, please God you have to be okay.
Itā€™s only once he lands on your apartment balcony and sees you clumsily doing your dishes in the kitchen sink that relief floods his system, his entire body sagging against the railing as he finally lets out the breath heā€™d been unconsciously holding back.
Youā€™re okay.
Youā€™re alive and breathing, and as his eyes scan every exposed inch of your skin, he canā€™t find even a speck of blood. A hand comes up to rest over his heart, and Keigo swallows, Adamā€™s apple visibly bobbing with the weight of the motion.
He spends longer than heā€™d care to admit on your balcony that evening, those yellow eyes watching like a hawk as you move about in your tiny apartment, mentally assessing each and every movement. Youā€™re pretty like this, he thinks ā€“ youā€™re entirely unaware that youā€™re being watched, but thereā€™s something about seeing you be so natural and free thatā€™s exhilarating, making his heart pound and his cheeks flush pink because this is what youā€™re really like when no oneā€™s watching. It makes his chest ache to see it, his gloved fingers reaching out and pressing against the glass of your sliding door, the urge almost unbearable to be with you and hear what heā€™s sure is you singing along to some horrible song.
Heā€™s idly wondering if you cook all your meals, and thatā€™s why you have so many dishes ā€“ would you cook for him? He's a lousy chef and frankly a bit picky about his food, but heā€™d eat anything you make for him with a bright smile and trembling fingers, eagerly wolfing down the food and being nearly brought to tears because you made this for him.
Heā€™s imagining the way youā€™d let him hold you at night, sharing a bed with you and your body pressed snugly beside his, an arm draped over your side and your soft breaths tickling the expanse of his chest. Itā€™s a pleasant thought, but all too soon his phone is buzzing and heā€™s brought out of his reverie, glancing at the time and sucking in a sharp breath because itā€™s been an hour and a half of him just sitting here, gaping like an idiot at you.
Embarrassment creeps up his spine, but before he jumps off the balcony and heads to the Commission to report back, he spares a final glance over his shoulder at you, and the smallest of smiles sits on his lips, something warm blooming in his chest.
But from that moment onwards, Keigo slowly becomes more and more consumed by the idea of just how truly unprepared you are for any sort of villain encounter. You have a quirk, sure, but itā€™s minor and not especially useful, and it certainly wouldnā€™t help if you were to be cornered in some dark alleyway, or if you were to hear your front doorā€™s lock being picked, or if you were to be caught in the crossfire of a villain robbing a bank.
And itā€™s small things that remind him of these facts ā€“ he'll see you trip over seemingly nothing, losing your footing and stumbling for just a moment, and immediately fear is sitting heavy in his gut because god, youā€™d be dead meat running from a villain. Itā€™s endearing, of course, but itā€™s scary.
He hears you giggle sheepishly and rub the back of your neck as you admit to your friend over lunch that youā€™d forgot to lock your door when you left for groceries yesterday, his skin and feathers bristling and a small prick of anger bubbling inside him because are you asking to be the next tragedy covered on the news?
Ā He takes you out for dinner (that he hopes youā€™ll think of as a date, even if the restaurant is a simple diner that he knows you love) and sees a bandaid on your finger, his voice a touch lower than his previous joking tone as he asks if youā€™re okay, did you hurt yourself? Your response of how youā€™d accidentally caught the sharp edge of a razor in the shower makes his entire body tense, both at the idea of you in the shower and at the idea of your blood being drawn, of the way youā€™d probably hissed and bit your lip, the pain acute. Youā€™ll notice the way he freezes up, this look on his face that you canā€™t quite describe, but soon heā€™ll be flashing you that familiar grin, taking a sip of his soda and telling you that unshaved is better, hasnā€™t anyone ever told you that?
(He likes the way you roll your eyes and pretend that you arenā€™t embarrassed by his comment ā€“ at least, he hopes thatā€™s how youā€™re feeling, because the comment made him himself a little hot under the collar.)
Everything you do is a reminder to him that youā€™re weak, and itā€™s this constant mantra that moves Keigo to take his own measures to ensure your safety. Heā€™ll offer to walk you home from work every day, waving off your concerns by telling you that his patrols end right around that time anyways so itā€™s no big deal.
(They donā€™t ā€“ they tend to end much earlier, but this way he can fly around for a bit, trail you from the air and keep his eyes trained only on you, all with the luxury of lying when you notice his presence about how his patrol areas happen to line up with the district you work in.)
Heā€™ll tell you that heā€™s sure your cooking is good, but he knows what place has the absolute best lunches ā€“ and would you look at that, itā€™s not too far from your apartment! Maybe youā€™d be interested in getting lunch with him sometimes? He knows the owner pretty well because heā€™s always in there, maybe he could even get the both of you a loyal customer discount.
(Heā€™d only started eating there because a late night of watching you through your apartment windows had led to his stomach growling too much to bear, and heā€™d strolled into the twenty-four-hour establishment absolutely ravenous for food, still glowing from having watched your sleeping face.)
Heā€™s even making unsolicited, subtle remarks about your own habits designed to get you to change some of your more problematic traits ā€“ heā€™ll tell you that eating breakfast is actually very good for you, heā€™s heard that people who skip breakfast tend to have bowel problems.
(Itā€™s delivered as a joke and you snort because heā€™d been a little graphic with a bad pun thrown in there, and as Keigo basks in the sight of your smile and the sound of your laughter, he hopes that youā€™ll remember the sentiment ā€“ you need to be eating properly, after all.)
Heā€™s telling you that crime rates have been awfully high in your neighborhood lately ā€“ itā€™s recommended for all civilians to avoid speaking to anyone on the streets ā€“ just for safety purposes, of course.
(And because it dramatically reduces the number of men you interact with, something that makes both his protectiveness and possessiveness cool ever so slightly because that means one less man that you could meet and fall for and want and love-)
And why shouldnā€™t you believe everything that he says? Heā€™s the number two hero, a man whoā€™s saved more lives than you could imagine ā€“ how could he not be the authority on safety? Who are you to doubt anything he tells you, any advice he gives you?
And Keigo knows this ā€“ which is why heā€™ll start pushing further and further with time, trying to convince you to drop anything dangerous at all; did you know that more people cut themselves with knives than with all other cutting tools combined? You should really be careful, you know ā€“ besides, sometimes recipes are better with whole tomatoes!
(Really, he just wants to avoid seeing a knife in your hands ā€“ youā€™re not trustworthy with something so sharp, even if the sight of you in the kitchen slaving over the stove is strangely adorable, strangely right.)
Did you know that most animal attacks are from dogs? Maybe you shouldnā€™t consider getting that cute puppy youā€™d been gushing about ā€“ you just never know.
(Really, Keigoā€™s just worried that youā€™ll end up spending all your time and attention with said puppy, leaving him with only the most meager scraps that wonā€™t be nearly enough to satisfy him, and while heā€™s serious about the dog attacks, heā€™s mostly just selfish. Plus, an animal companion would make slipping through your window late at night almost impossible.)
Did you know that the vast majority of murder victims are women? You should probably take him up on his offer to be your personal chaperone ā€“ consider it a favor for a friend, heā€™d told you.
(Though heā€™d been gritting his teeth as he said the word ā€˜friendā€™, even the feel of it on his tongue making something ugly twist in his gut. The way he feels for you certainly isnā€™t friendly ā€“ it canā€™t be, not when heā€™s imagining waking up with you every morning, the way your lips would taste, how youā€™d look on your knees staring up at him while you gag and choke and suck so hard your cheeks hollow out.)
And once youā€™ve been kidnapped, this trait is only furthered, his paranoia eating away at him because he knows youā€™ll be rebellious, that youā€™ll want to lash out and hurt yourself and hurt him, and just the thought leaves him buzzing with anxiety, stress eating away at him because he absolutely refuses to let you get injured in any way.
You have to stay pristine ā€“ his gorgeous, precious partner that he loves, the only woman whoā€™s ever made him feel something so strong. You have to be okay ā€“ because if you arenā€™t, then he isnā€™t either, and the only thing more dangerous than a powerful, cunning man living a double life is a broken, apathetic man who wants everyone to know just how little life means now that his other half is gone.
Controlling
His controlling tendencies manifest as a result of both his extreme protectiveness, and as a sort of coping mechanism from the lack of control he has over his own life. He does love you ā€“ at least, he thinks this is love.
(If itā€™s not love, then Keigo doesnā€™t know what the fuck this could possibly be ā€“ what else would cause him to be thinking of you at all hours of the day, his body physically aching and yearning to be with you? What else could cause his breathing to hitch and become so uneven when youā€™re in his presence, his quirk nearly out of his control as his feathers ruffle and flutter and come down around you like some sort of cage?)
He loves you, sure, his obsession festering into something darker, deeper, more unmanageable and impossible to come back from, but thereā€™s a part of him that begins exerting this control over you as a way to satisfy himself.
By dictating your life, itā€™s almost like heā€™s dictating his own ā€“ like he gets to choose what happens, like he has self-autonomy, like he isnā€™t just a puppet being used by others. Itā€™s euphoric, cathartic, and this only furthers his dependence on you ā€“ not only do you make him feel something warm and gooey and suffocating in his chest, but you also make him feel calmer, more grounded, more whole.
But as lovely as it is for Keigo to finally get a grip on his own mental health, this has rather disastrous effects on you ā€“ even before heā€™s stolen you away, these controlling tendencies are present. Of course, theyā€™re difficult to spot when Keigo is still just the handsome, flirty hero who seems to have a soft spot for little old you. Youā€™re in a metaphorical honeymoon phase at that point, beyond flattered that someone like him has noticed someone like you.
And so, you donā€™t really notice the way that he tells you to stop hanging out with a particular friend that you keep rambling on about. Theyā€™re going through a hard time, youā€™re sure of it ā€“ itā€™s the only reason theyā€™ve been so snappy and distant lately, and itā€™s only natural for you to bear your burdens to Keigo, telling him how they were rude to you last weekend, how theyā€™ve been ignoring your calls, how youā€™re at a loss because what could possibly be happening?
And Keigo will grit his teeth, his smile tight and visibly strained as he clutches onto his coffee cup with white knuckles, eventually telling you wow, that really sucks, some friend. Maybe you should stop hanging out with them ā€“ obviously they arenā€™t as invested in the friendship as you are, sound like theyā€™re not as good of a friend as you are, frankly.
Itā€™s good advice, all things considered, but itā€™s presented in a way that flatters you, that makes you sound like youā€™re the reasonable, good friend and theyā€™ve simply dropped the ball. And so, youā€™ll follow his advice ā€“ that friend isnā€™t contacted again, and Keigo personally sees to it that youā€™ve blocked them, having gone in and manually done it on your phone while you were fast asleep.
You wonā€™t notice how he makes subtle comments about what you should order when youā€™re at a restaurant together ā€“ heā€™ll never make comments about your weight, but heā€™ll prompt you to eat something healthier, something more, something thatā€™ll leave you happy but nourish you as well. The comments are again difficult to spot ā€“ when he opens up the menu, heā€™ll pipe up and tell you that theyā€™ve got that salad you were talking about the other day ā€“ you know the one? Yeah, sounds good ā€“ do you want to split it? I think we should get some extra chicken on top, too.
(Once the salad arrives, of course, youā€™ll be eating the majority ā€“ Keigo will nibble at it, picking at it and making a bit show of always having his fork packed with the greens ā€“ and a lot of the chicken ā€“ but youā€™ll be the one shoveling food into your mouth, feeling full by the time Keigoā€™s eaten roughly ten bites.)
You wonā€™t notice it much at all, really ā€“ which is why itā€™s such a shock to one day wake up in Keigoā€™s luxury, king-sized bed, the soft white sheets smelling like fresh laundry and the pretty red, silky pajamas heā€™d changed you into feeling foreign on your body.
But just like his more needy and clingy tendencies, Keigoā€™s controlling nature will start to show itself once heā€™s stolen you away. Thereā€™s no point in hiding how he feels now, is there? Youā€™re aware that heā€™s in love with you (he tells you every fucking day, after all, with a hushed voice that sounds much too vulnerable for you to bear and a barrage of kisses along your jawline and neck), so whatā€™s the point in dialing down some of the more questionable aspects of his infatuation?
Heā€™d kidnapped you out of paranoia, and now that youā€™re with him constantly, heā€™s able to really, fully control your actions and the things youā€™re allowed to do. Heā€™s not too dehumanizing with it, but thereā€™s a lot of limits on things that you normally wouldnā€™t even think about ā€“ youā€™re allowed to watch TV, but only for an hour a day and only specific channels and programs heā€™s approved.
(Generally, the cutoff for what he considers ā€˜appropriateā€™ for you are things without graphic violence, nothing terribly sad, and nothing that would cause you tension or stress. So, all horror movies are off the table, all dramas, all action films, really only leaving the things he wouldnā€™t mind watching with you ā€“ romances, mostly, and the occasional film with much more erotica than he realized. His face will turn red as the actors moan and whisper hushed I love youā€™s, his yellow eyes nervously flicking over to you from his spot beside you, his fingers itching to reach out to you, the blanket covering you both suddenly feeling much too hot.)
Youā€™re allowed to eat what you want, but with a few very strict guidelines ā€“ you canā€™t have anything over a certain amount of grams of sugar, nor are you allowed to consume anything that isnā€™t paired with a vegetable. Heā€™s forcing you to eat protein, and if you donā€™t eat meat heā€™ll count out a specific number of nuts you must consume that day, just to make sure youā€™re getting proper nutrition.
He especially loves if youā€™ll let him feed the nuts to you, or any food, really ā€“ he likes to feel needed and helpful, and to have you looking at him with those pretty eyes, the fork pressed against your lips while you swallow and thank him for the foodā€¦ It makes Keigoā€™s breathing get a bit heavy, his mouth watering because god, he wants to use that fork after you, would you think thatā€™s weird?
Heā€™s not taking away any of your basic privileges like dressing yourself or using the restroom alone, but Keigo has a way of making you feel pathetic without even trying to; thereā€™s just something about the way he looks at you, all soft smiles and wide eyes, his palms always clammy and nervous, his touch always hesitant but eager.
He wonā€™t explicitly create a schedule for your daily life under his thumb, but youā€™ll essentially be in one, anyways. He leaves for work in the mornings, parting from you with a very, very tonguey kiss, and while heā€™s gone on his patrol all day, youā€™ll cycle through reading a few of the (pre-approved) books heā€™d gifted you, practicing your art skills, practicing your musical skills, and staring out the fifteen-story window, the one-way, bulletproof glass not giving you even the option to crack it if you wanted to brave the fall.
Youā€™ll be stagnant, really, something that Keigo doesnā€™t appreciate at all once he notices it happening, but it doesnā€™t change the fact that he absolutely canā€™t relinquish control ā€“ youā€™re his, and even if youā€™re unhappy, Keigo will be damned if he gives up caring for you and making your decisions for you. Thatā€™s love, isnā€™t it? He knows whatā€™s best for you, so why canā€™t you see that? Why do you fight him and tell him heā€™s a monster, a horrible, horrible man?
He just wants to keep you safe and happy and loved, so why are you making it so fucking difficult?
DEALING WITH RIVALS:
While Keigo isnā€™t too terribly possessive as far as yanderes go, he really only has so much self-control. Of course, he doesnā€™t like seeing other men around you, those already narrow eyes of his growing even sharper and smaller because he does not like this.
But what sets Keigo apart from others is that while heā€™s enraged, anxiety and anger prickling at his skin and causing goosebumps to litter his entire body, heā€™s smart. Heā€™s good at reading people, at fully assessing situations and making split seconds analyses, and thatā€™s exactly what heā€™ll do whenever he sees you in a situation where another man is showing interest.
Heā€™ll examine the manā€™s face ā€“ is he smiling? Laughing? Serious? Frowning?
Smiling and laughing generally means one of two things ā€“ either the man hopes to become friends or acquaintances with you, or heā€™s flirting and he thinks itā€™s going very well. Keigo canā€™t decide which option he hates more.
A serious expression or a frown normally means that the man is trying to create a mysterious air ā€“ to embody hypermasculinity, to try and lure you in by looking the part of the strong, dominant man whoā€™s only weakness is you. It makes Keigo cringe, his nose scrunching up in a wince as he thinks of how terribly stupid this man must be to think youā€™d fall for something like that ā€“ he obviously doesnā€™t know you or your intellect, at least not like Keigo does. Nobody knows you like Keigo does ā€“ not even yourself.
Heā€™s looking at the manā€™s body language ā€“ if heā€™s leaning towards you, he probably has less than innocent intentions, either trying to intimidate you or get close to you to fulfill some sick, perverted urge.
(An urge that Keigo knows all too well ā€“ the urge to feel you, to touch you, to smell you, to have your skin against his. Itā€™s an urge that heā€™s had to fight more times than he can count, stopping himself from scooping your into his arms and burying his face into the crook of your neck, his hands roaming every inch of your body because god, you smell good and youā€™re so fucking pretty and your voice is like heaven to his ears and you feel too damn good pressed against him like this and fuck you drive him absolutely insane.)
If the man has his hands in his pockets, that generally signals to Keigo that heā€™s not as confident at this as heā€™d like you to believe, showing the hero that the man is more than aware that youā€™re wildly out of his league, that really the man should have absolutely no business speaking with you.
Keigoā€™s noticing the distance between your body and the strangerā€™s ā€“ if itā€™s more than three feet, heā€™s able to take a small, minimally relieved sigh because at least the man isnā€™t likely to try something. But if heā€™s closer to you, dangerously close to being in your space and making you feel uncomfortable, immediately Keigoā€™s wings are flapping, the movements harsh and unconscious as his fists tighten and he grits his teeth because heā€™ll be damned if he lets anyone make you uncomfortable.
And heā€™s analyzing your body language, too, of course ā€“ if you like the interaction, if youā€™re pleased by the attention, if youā€™re scared, if you want to leave, even if you want to leave with the stranger himself. And while Keigo wishes he was wrong, the moments where you actually seem to be enjoying the flirting of a stranger make him bristle, a deep scowl settling on his face while insecurity and panic grip his heart because he has to stop this before it's too late ā€“ before you let yourself get wooed by another man before Keigo even gets the chance to fully earn your trust and adoration.
Seeing you approached by potential rivals for your love really brings out the worst side of Keigo ā€“ it brings out all the skills the Commission drilled into him, those eyes of his dissecting the other man like heā€™s merely a slab of meat, the blond finding every possible point of weakness in the manā€™s stature or attitude, just so Keigo can understand the full scope of what heā€™s competing with. Just so that Keigo can understand exactly how he can be better than this loser ā€“ how he can impress you and get you acting all bashful and dismissive of his witty flirting just like you should be.
Jealousy isnā€™t too pretty on Keigo, and while he wonā€™t just blindly murder any man that steals your attention for even a moment.
(Heā€™d lose his hero status very quickly, no matter how much he sometimes wants to send a feather clean through their neck, slicing their head off and feeling not a smidge of remorse because now heā€™ll finally stop running his mouth at you when youā€™ve clearly already been chosen to be Hawksā€™s woman ā€“ the number twoā€™s sweet, important little partner that he absolutely cannot lose).
His patrol had felt incredibly long today ā€“ no large villain sightings, with only a few petty muggers making the time pass. Keigo sighs, wings flapping and wind whipping in his ears as he eagerly scans the streets below.
Normally, youā€™d be walking to the grocery store right around now ā€“ heā€™d noticed you were low on eggs, so it was only a matter of time before you braved the cold autumn air. Suspicion immediately pricks along Keigoā€™s spine, however, as he slowly flies along the path that you take to the store. Youā€™re no where in sight ā€“ he doesnā€™t see your familiar jacket or notice the way the sunlight glistens off your hair, and immediately something uncomfortable is settling in his gut.
This wasnā€™t like you ā€“ youā€™d told him once that you prefer this time of day for your shopping because the store is the least crowded, and Keigo knows how you feel about interacting with strangers. And yet, youā€™re missing ā€“ something that makes him immediately pick up his speed, brows knitting together and his lower lip caught between his teeth. Eager eyes scan every sidewalk as he quickly makes his way to your apartment complex, every second that he doesnā€™t see you only furthering the feeling of dread slowly eating at him.
Heā€™s near the point of whipping out his phone to call you and check the tracker heā€™d installed into your phone when he lets out an audible sigh of relief, having spotted your familiar form on the sidewalk below. Youā€™re only a few blocks from your apartment at this point ā€“ and with a look of disgust, Keigo identifies the reason why.
Thereā€™s a man with you.
Youā€™re standing and speaking with him, tucked away at the corner of the sidewalk, and immediately the feeling of panic is replaced by anger, his shoulders tensing up. As he swoops down and lands on the top of the building above you, he cranes his neck to get a better look at this man. Keigoā€™s never seen him before ā€“ youā€™ve never interacted with him in all the months heā€™s been watching you, leading him to believe that this man is a stranger.
Keigo taps his foot impatiently, trying to decide if this is good news or bad news. On the one hand, itā€™s always good news to know that you donā€™t have many men in your life ā€“ Keigo should be the only one, really, the only person, even, not just man.
But it also means that this stranger probably stopped you to strike up a conversation, which can only means two things ā€“ either the man is asking an innocent question, or heā€™s interested in you. Interested in you, as in wanting to date you, to kiss your pretty lips and hear you whisper those three words and bend you in half and make you scream and moan and gush-
Keigo grits his teeth, left eye twitching slightly at the mere thought of this man being brazen enough to approach you like this. And based off the way he keeps steadily stepping closer to you and you keep subtly shifting away from him, Keigo suddenly understands exactly whatā€™s going on.
He hesitates for only a moment, a small pang of doubt registering in the back of his mind (wondering if this is how you look when youā€™re with Keigo himself, that annoying insecurity revolving around anything romantic and anything with you once again filling him with false worries), before heā€™s jumping from the rooftop, landing with a small grunt onto the sidewalk a few feet away from the two of you.
Clearing his throat, he walks with a bit more urgency than normal towards you, slinging an arm around your shoulder and leaning in.
Whatā€™re we talking about? Keigo asks, yellow eyes fixed on the man, any semblance of a smile gone from his face. His chest is puffed out ever so slightly, wings spread to make his physical presence as big as possible, to make him as intimidating as possible. Immediately youā€™re jumping, slightly embarrassed and slightly relieved at Keigoā€™s sudden presence. He feels you relax slightly against him and tries to ignore the way his throat goes dry and his pupils dilate ā€“ heā€™ll relive the memory of you feeling safe around him later tonight, but nowā€™s not the time.
The man steps back immediately, rubbing at the back of his neck and looking at the hero sheepishly, guilt written all over his face. Keigo scoffs under his breath, examining the manā€™s face in closer detail. Heā€™s somewhat attractive, and that same nagging voice comes back, idly wondering if youā€™d prefer brunettes like this man over blondes like Keigo, or if you preferred slightly taller men, because this stranger is easily a few inches taller than the hero. He frows, biting the inside of his cheek and willing the thoughts to go away ā€“ at least until heā€™s sorted this out.
Oh, Hawks, hey man, I didnā€™t ā€“ weā€™re not talkinā€™ about anything. Nice to meet you, miss. The man fumbles for his words, before quickly backpedaling and practically running the opposite direction, peeking over his shoulder every once in a while and wincing.
Keigo holds his ground, not moving, keeping those eyes locked on the manā€™s figure until heā€™s eventually a good block or two away. Only then does Keigo turn to you, his cheeks a little pink as he flashes you a smile. Heā€™s still got his arm wrapped around your shoulder, and he gives you a small squeeze that he hopes isnā€™t too forward ā€“ he wouldnā€™t want you to get the idea that heā€™s after the same thing that stranger had been.
(Though really, isnā€™t he? He just wants all of you, not only your body ā€“ and he can take much better care of you, canā€™t he? Better than that gangly, sleazy man ever could, better than any other man ever could.)
Heā€™s brought out of his small reverie by you profusely thanking him, telling him that the man had just approached you out of nowhere and you didnā€™t know how to leave the situation without it potentially escalating.
Keigo only smiles lazily, nodding at you and telling you not to worry, that heā€™s a pro hero, so itā€™s kind of my job, you know? Though for my favorite civilian, I donā€™t mind working overtime.
He winks at you after that, feeling only slightly anxious that youā€™ll find the action too arrogant, but you only blink owlishly at him, mumbling something about feeling guilty that itā€™s ā€˜overtimeā€™. Keigo waves off your concerns, releasing your shoulder and trying not to show loss on his face.
You thank him again, smiling at him in a way that gets his knees very close to buckling, but he just clears his throat and nods, saluting you playfully and letting his wings flap, already a few feet in the air as he tells you to enjoy the rest of your night and to call him if any other creeps show up. Youā€™re still smiling as he flies back over the roof of the building, but you donā€™t notice how he stops, peeking over the roof to see you make your way in the direction of the grocery store.
A small smile sits on his lips at the sight, smaller and more genuine than the smirk heā€™d been wearing moments ago.
Knew it, he thinks earnestly, already mentally predicting what youā€™ll pick up from the store. And as he hovers back into the air, cracking his neck and knuckles, he decides following you there couldnā€™t hurt ā€“ just in case any more men decide to mess with his woman.Ā 
TAKING HIS DARLING AWAY:
Keigoā€™s obsession with you is overwhelming, terrifying, and pushes him to do a number of things that force his morals to be flung out the window of favor of keeping you safe, happy, his, but thereā€™s still a few things that he canā€™t push himself to do, even with you in mind. One of these things is to steal you away.
Ā Kidnapping you is not something he wants to do ā€“ he may nurse a few beliefs about how youā€™ll eventually forgive him for being so obsessive and domineering over you, but Keigo isnā€™t stupid. He knows your image of him will never recover if he presses the chloroform-soaked rag up to your mouth and coos at you while you fall limp and into his arms.
He knows youā€™ll never truly forgive him if you wake up one morning in his apartment, breakfast in bed waiting beside you while he stares eagerly down at you, apologizing for having to be so extreme but trying desperately to convince you that he had no other choice, that he did it for you, that he did it to keep you safe.
He knows it wonā€™t go over well, and Keigo already feels so unsure of how to properly court you and make you genuinely like him and not just Hawks that he doesnā€™t want to do something even slightly risky. He already knows that stalking you, breaking into your home at night to restock your refrigerator and lay beside you on your bed is crossing enough boundaries and grounds for you to be seriously afraid of him, but kidnapping you is a line he simply isnā€™t willing to cross.
At least, thatā€™s how he initially feels ā€“ until something drastic happens, something that seriously threatens your safety and Keigo canā€™t just simply sit back and allow it to happen. And of course, itā€™s fucking Dabi ā€“ Keigoā€™s stomach drops when he hears you mention something about running into a man on your way over a cozy cup of coffee in a local cafĆ©, the air warm and smelling of espresso.
Heā€™d picked the cafĆ© because he knew it wasnā€™t super busy ā€“ as much as his pride swells when civilians notice him and beg him for autographs and photos right in front of you, it also makes him nervous because the last thing he wants is to come off as cocky or arrogant or rude.
(Plus, the thought of making you jealous of his fans ā€“ especially the adoring women ā€“ gets his heart racing, his face and ears feeling hot because it makes him feel good that youā€™re being possessive over him, but he really doesnā€™t want you to worry. Heā€™ll always be yours.)
But now heā€™s wishing it was full to the brim, voices chattering and making it difficult to hear the way you describe a man with so many piercings and a pretty serious skin condition came up to me, he knew my name! Keigo, why do you think he knew my name? Do you think I should be worried?
Heā€™s stiff, every muscle in his body tense and his grip on the coffee cup in his hand so tight that it shatters, coffee and ceramic shards getting everywhere. Heā€™s still staring at you, though, even as you gasp and stand up, running to grab some napkins and wipe up the still steaming coffee. Thereā€™s some on his hand but he doesnā€™t seem to care ā€“ to even notice, really, if the way heā€™s just staring and not even flinching is any indication.
Your brows furrow as you wipe the drink off of him, chest heaving slightly as you ask him if heā€™s okay, if it hurts, if heā€™s even listening to you. Keigo just swallows, still looking at you, before telling you with an unnervingly flat voice that itā€™s certainly weird, but I wouldnā€™t worry about it.
You donā€™t mention it again, instead trying to ignore the heavy atmosphere and the way heā€™s looking at you, all wide-eyed and not a single bit of emotion on his face. Itā€™s scaring you, to be honest, and youā€™re quick to give him a small side hug and thank him for meeting you for coffee. Keigo mumbles something back as he watches you walk away, something prickling at the corners of his eyes that almost feel like tears as he imagines how Dabi couldā€™ve possibly learned about you.
Heā€™d been so fucking careful ā€“ always making sure to not let his phone ever directly point at your face or your address, never explicitly saying your full name in case he was being bugged, never even breathing any bit of information that the greedy bastard could get his hands on.
And yet, itā€™d all been for nothing ā€“ because now that Dabi knows about you, everything has changed. Youā€™re in danger, because although Keigo believes that Dabi wonā€™t immediately kill you, he canā€™t simply rely on his gut ā€“ youā€™re in danger. And although heā€™d promised himself he wouldnā€™t snatch you away, that he wouldnā€™t betray your trust and make you hate him, he doesnā€™t really have a choice now, does he?
And so, with a heavy heart and red, puffy eyes, Keigo slips into your apartment, the sleeping pills heā€™d mixed into your water sitting on your nightstand leaving you out like a light, even as he fabricates the crime scene. Heā€™s shattering your window to mimic a home invader, tangling up your sheets and leaving dirty prints coming out your front door, your clothes ransacked and your television and computer destroyed.
It has to look real, after all ā€“ faking a death is difficult but heā€™s done it before, and as he soars away across town to his own apartment, with you clutched in his arms and your hair tickling his neck, Keigo can only whisper apologies against the crown of your head, squeezing his eyes closed and hoping that even in your unconscious state, you can feel how terribly, terribly sorry he is.
Of course, even though your kidnapping isnā€™t the idea situation for you or your captor, Keigo still tries to make the best of it. He doesnā€™t pretend to think that youā€™re happy with him ā€“ he expects the crying and screaming when you wake up the next morning, his expression carefully neutral as you accuse him of being a villain, a creep, even though it makes his chest ache in a way no injury ever has, his lips feeling numb because god, he canā€™t breath with how you look at him in disgust and hatred.
Itā€™s horrible ā€“ but he grits his teeth and bares it, avoiding the pillows (lush and top-quality, of course, covered in sheets of your favorite color) youā€™re throwing at him, not saying anything until youā€™ve had your fill. And really, his explanation once youā€™d calmed down enough to listen to it isnā€™t nearly enough ā€“ heā€™s at a loss for words, really, looking at you with such honest eyes that it only makes you cry harder.
Heā€™ll tell you that I need to keep you safe, and I ā€“ Iā€™m selfish, so this is the only way. Itā€™s lackluster and itā€™ll have you despising him, but as the days slowly pass, youā€™ll find yourself growing less and less enraged at him, instead growing more and more complacent about your new life.
Because really, Keigo absolutely fucking spoils you. Heā€™s certainly not hurting financially, and he wonā€™t bat an eye at buying anything and everything he thinks you could possibly want.
Heā€™s getting takeout every night, ordering all your favorites (without having to ask you, of course, something thatā€™d scared you at first, but thereā€™s something about the way he eyes you as you eat it that makes you pause, his small, almost shy question of do you like it sounding rushed and nervous) and making sure to pick up snacks and goodies on his way home from almost every patrol. He loves to see you smile, and even in the beginning, when youā€™re still afraid of him and betrayed, the way your lips quirk up ever so slightly into the shadow of a smile when he hands you your favorite snack makes him gulp, something warm and overwhelming and hopeful bubbling up inside him.
Heā€™s buying you pretty necklaces and jewelry that remind him of you, all the pieces startlingly within your tastes, his memory of the jewelry you used to wear so acute and strong that he knows your style even better than you do.
All of the clothing he buys for you (mostly comfortable clothing, lounging shirts and sweatpants and giant blanket ponchos) fits you perfectly, almost seeming to be tailored with the way they fit around your bust, hips, ass, shoulders, and thighs.
(He wonā€™t buy you any formal clothing, however ā€“ heā€™s faked your death, and he canā€™t exactly take you out for a nice date now, can he? He wouldnā€™t mind doing a candle-lit dinner in his own apartment, maybe sprinkling a few rose petals over the table and cooking you something that he really, really needs you to like, but he knows you arenā€™t willing. Youā€™d thrash and refuse, not eating his food and looking at him with those eyes, the ones that are hard and calloused and sting with pain. So, he instead purchases the pretty dresses with low tops and slits up the leg, storing them in his spare closet so that you never see them, so that you donā€™t feel forced into anything more than you donā€™t want. Kidnapping is enough ā€“ romantic dinners would be amazing, the kind of thing that Keigo thinks about with a small, sad smile on his face as he watches you sleep late at night, but certainly not a thing that could happen. Absolutely not ā€“ at least, not any time soon.)
Heā€™s embracing each and ever artistic and creative passion youā€™ve ever had, buying you unfathomable amounts of supplies and instruments of the highest quality, waiting with baited breath to see if you like them, hoping with his hands clutched into fists at his side that youā€™ll smile at him, that youā€™ll look at him in anything other than hate ā€“ and perhaps, if heā€™s lucky enough, youā€™ll even thank him.
(Just the thought makes him shiver, a blush rising from his chest all the way up his neck because he canā€™t not immediately imagine the way youā€™d thank him ā€“ perhaps youā€™d give him a kiss, full of tongue and spit and moans, or maybe youā€™d even sink to your knees for him, telling him that you appreciate his thoughtfulness, his love, how he works so hard to keep me safe, wonā€™t you let me thank you, Keigo? Please?)
Itā€™s wishful thinking, of course, but Keigo tries to do everything humanly possible to keep you as happy as you can be given the situation. Of course, heā€™s still controlling, laying down rules that youā€™ll be too afraid to disobey, because although Keigo is soft with you and treats you like youā€™re made of glass, youā€™ve seen the televised fights, the way his knuckles are sometimes bruised after patrols, the way he snaps angrily into his phone when the Commission calls him with yet another assignment. Heā€™s still dictating what you can eat, how much contact you get with the outside world, your limited sources of entertainment, anything and everything. But he tries his absolute hardest to respect you in every other way, if only to perhaps plant the seeds of you one day growing to tolerate him, of you one day even perhaps loving him.
And so, Keigo forces himself to do the hardest thing of all ā€“ not physically crowd you. Heā€™s always wanted to be touchy with you, the years of not having anyone to hold or even give platonic physical affection causing him to be touch-starved, and so once you come into the picture?
Well, heā€™s only a man ā€“ he canā€™t help but imagine the way your hand would feel in his, fingers intertwined and your soft skin pressed against his own rougher hands.
He canā€™t help but imagine kissing you, feeling how soft and gentle your lips would be against his, how you taste, how youā€™d make little sighs and whines when he starts kissing you harder, deeper, letting even just the smallest sliver of his desperation for you shine through.
He canā€™t help but imagine pulling your body against his own, keeping every inch of you flush with him while you watch a movie together, his fingers toying absentmindedly with your hair, deep exhales sounding from behind you each time he leans in to catch a whiff of you.
He canā€™t not imagine the way youā€™d get all shy and bashful when the hand thatā€™s been running up and down your sides suddenly dips lower, cupping at your ass while he lowly mumbles your name, telling you that he canā€™t hold back anymore, angel, canā€™t I have a taste?
Heā€™s being good ā€“ heā€™s forcing all those urges and fantasies to the side, not putting you in a position where you feel forced into physical contact of any kind, sexual or otherwise. Heā€™s respecting you, prioritizing you, even if it slowly destroys him. Having you right there, stuck with him, permanently bound to his side makes him want to grab onto you and never let go, to latch onto you like some sort of leech and take everything you have to offer and then some. It drives him fucking crazy, but he knows heā€™ll get nowhere by forcing anything onto you.
And so, he holds his tongue, forcing his hand to not reach out and touch, forcing himself to not say the compliment on the tip of his tongue thatā€™ll likely make you more uncomfortable than flattered. Heā€™s good, and eventually youā€™ll end up slowly coming to tolerate him. Sure, heā€™s kidnapped you and sure, youā€™re still understandably upset at him, but isnā€™t he right? Youā€™d seen the man that approached you before Keigo stole you away ā€“ if heā€™d attacked you, what would you have done? Youā€™d have hoped and prayed that Hawks would have shown up, that youā€™d been saved because you were too weak and incapable of doing it yourself.
So maybe heā€™s right ā€“ maybe you do need him, like he tells you late at night when he thinks youā€™re asleep. He sounds like heā€™s trying to convince himself, sounding more and more sure of himself as the night wears on and he repeats aloud that heā€™s keeping you safe, Iā€™m keeping you safe, I know you donā€™t understand it now but someday youā€™ll realize that I only took you to keep you out of harmā€™s way.
And once you get past that barrier of hatred and animosity, itā€™s disturbingly easy to let Keigo take full control, to give into him in every possible way.
Youā€™ll stop fighting his diet planning, youā€™ll gladly thank him for any book he gives you as entertainment, youā€™ll eagerly listen when he tells you about his patrol and how he encountered so many villains whoā€™d done horrible things. And Keigo will notice this change in your attitude ā€“ itā€™s too early to tell and heā€™s always been too pessimistic to be hopeful, but you almost seem to be liking him. Youā€™re starting to revert back to the woman he first became obsessed with ā€“ all smiles and laughter and snarky comments that left him choking on his drink.
And he canā€™t believe it ā€“ he has to pinch himself, staring at you in shock with a flushed face as you make some comment alluding to him being ā€˜too handsome for his own goodā€™, the fork in his hand clattering down onto the plate. From there, itā€™s a steady trajectory up ā€“ youā€™ll start getting even more little knick-knacks, shiny things and expensive things that he leaves in pretty, bow-wrapped boxes for you, a card written in his best handwriting that says something along the lines of for my angel.
Itā€™s cheesy and makes you laugh a bit, but Keigo keeps doing because god, please laugh like that again, say his name while you do it and maybe even reach out to touch his shoulderā€¦
He jumps at the opportunity to further your changing opinion of him, determined to make you like him, determined to let him love you like he knows he can ā€“ like heā€™ll do anything to prove to you.
PUNISHMENTS:
As a general rule, getting Keigo upset with you is kind of difficult. He views you as his own personal slice of heaven, the only thing that he truly has. Youā€™re the only thing that belongs to Keigo Takami, not Hawks, not the Commission, only him, and because of that he tends to idolize you.
Youā€™re his first real romantic partner, his first real romantic experience, and the combination of that plus his intense, pitifully strong desire to please you makes it hard for him to stay angry at you for any significant period of time. And so, while heā€™s far from the ideal captor (too clingy, too controlling, too awed when he looks at you), Keigo will avoid punishing you at all costs.
He just doesnā€™t see the point ā€“ he doesnā€™t want you to hate him any more than you already do, and the thought of purposefully hurting you makes him feel physically ill. He hates seeing you in pain ā€“ itā€™s part of what drove him to steal you away, after all, the terror he felt at knowingly putting you in harmā€™s way. Heā€™s protective and frankly anal about your health, and so to purposefully bruise your pretty skin or make you cry makes him angry enough to want to hit something, angry enough to literally writhe in his own rage.
And so, Keigo swears off any sort of physical altercations with you ā€“ heā€™s just too strong and youā€™re just too weak, and it would break him to know that he was the source of your pain and misery.
(He knows he is, already, but he canā€™t be the source of it physically, too, otherwise he might just shatter, feeling entirely numb and carrying out his missions like a robot, utterly unaffected by the world because he hurt you, and can he even call himself a decent hero, a decent man after that?)
However, while causing you physical harm is off the table, Keigo is realistic enough about your situation to know that punishing you entirely is something he canā€™t avoid. You will act out, heā€™s sure of it ā€“ heā€™d be concerned if you didnā€™t, really, and so heā€™s expecting you to lash out at him and try to hurt him. If he were you, heā€™d do it too.
But as much as he expects this behavior and wouldnā€™t fault you for it, Keigo knows that if he wants to make any progress, if he wants to give you even a chance at eventually growing complacent (itā€™s a selfish desire, really, but itā€™s the only route he can see to where youā€™ll be even remotely happy, or at least not fighting tooth and nail at all costs), he has to establish repercussions for when youā€™re throwing tantrums or acting poorly.
It feels condescending and Keigo hates it, but he decides that where physical punishments fail, he must rely on emotional ones. Itā€™s manipulative and it makes Keigo feel dirty, disgusting, like a poor excuse for your so-called-protector, but itā€™s his only choice. He has to get you into shape, both for your sake and his. Itā€™s the only choice, he swears.
You really hadnā€™t meant to stumble upon something you werenā€™t supposed to find, really. As a general rule, you donā€™t snoop through Keigoā€™s things ā€“ heā€™s a clean freak, first of all, the apartment he keeps you in minimalistic with everything in its correct spot. Itā€™s classy and pretty, sure, but itā€™s boring, and can you really be blamed for wanting to explore after a few weeks cooped up in this penthouse?
Certainly not ā€“ which is how you find yourself tiptoeing into Keigoā€™s bedroom ā€“ heā€™d brought up the idea of sharing a bed multiple times only to be outright refused by you, and so he kept his things in this separate room. And it wasnā€™t explicitly off-limits, your captor never actually telling you that you couldnā€™t venture in. And so here you are, opening up the tall, wooden cabinet in the corner of the room and immediately sucking in a sharp breath at what you find.
Youā€™d known Keigo had stalked you, the confession slipping from his lips early on into your captivity and the evidence difficult to deny.
(How else could he have known all your preferences before you ever voice them, knowing the way you like your morning drink, the products you use in the shower, hell, even the way you sleep ā€“ getting the pillows you like, pajamas similar to your own, even the type of sheet you prefer.)
Youā€™d known, sure, but this ā€“ this is something else entirely. The cabinetā€™s housing a variety of items that send a chill down your spine because theyā€™re yours.
An old bottle of perfume sits on the corner, the brand name smudged off from wear, and you bite your lip as you notice itā€™s still got just a bit left, though not nearly the amount you remember when itā€™d gone missing a few months ago. Your nose scrunches at the thought of him using your perfume, and bile rises in the back of your throat as you start imagining exactly how itā€™d been used, for what purpose and how often for that much to be gone.
Thereā€™s a few old lip balms sitting there, organized by flavor ā€“ cherry at the right, then melon, then mint, then peach and coconut. You donā€™t bother looking at them closely, too nervous to find signs of usage from someone other than you. (Which is good: the mint flavored Chapstickā€™s missing a chunk, with Ā what looks like teeth marks sunken into the material.)
Thereā€™s an old hairbrush you thought youā€™d left at a friendā€™s place, still a few tufts of hair left between the bristles, though something seems to be crusted against the handle, and you wince at the thought of what that could possibly be. Youā€™re scared, really, your heart screaming at you to stop searching, begging you to not look deeper because you donā€™t want to know what else heā€™s stolen from you, but your mind urges you to keep going, some sort of sick urge to know exactly what heā€™s taken, why heā€™s taken it.
(Though, you think you already know ā€“ the way he leans in close to smell you when he thinks heā€™s being subtle is telling, as is the way he has you sort out your used period products into a separate waste container, telling you that it's because the pads he gives you are compostable. Youā€™ve seen the way the bags linger, though, staying in his bathroom, blood sometimes sitting under his nails when he emerges, eyes dilated and licking his lips at you.)
But as soon as you spot the photographs, you crumble.
Of course youā€™d known he was stalking you, following your every move and watching you at your most vulnerable, but somehow this is worse ā€“ thereā€™s dozens of them, stacked neatly in piles that you canā€™t even begin to understand. Leafing through them with shaking fingers, they only seem to get worse and worse, images of you laying on your couch, cooking, doing your makeup, changing into your bathrobe, sleeping, and oh god, thereā€™s even one of you on your bed, legs spread and fingers thrusting and rubbing and oh god youā€™re going to be sick-
The photographs fall from your fingertips as you shakily take a few steps back, the sound of the front door opening and Keigoā€™s call of Iā€™m home making panic swim in your veins. Heā€™s quick to come find you, asking you in a voice thatā€™s edging on concerned where you are, but when he steps into his bedroom and spots you against the far wall, hands covering your mouth and the wooden door open and askew, Keigoā€™s clenching his teeth, jaw working.
Oh, is all he has to say, and it snaps you out of your horror.
Oh? Thatā€™s it? Thatā€™s fucking it, Keigo? What ā€“ what is this? Youā€™re sick, a sick freak! Why do you have my stuff? Whatā€™s wrong with you? Youā€™re yelling, pushing yourself further against the wall, and he can only frown, irritation and worry eating away at him because god, hearing you so upset is physically hurting him but thereā€™s nothing he can do.
You werenā€™t supposed to see that, itā€™s, uhā€¦ He trails off, mind racing and panicking as he tries to think of what to say, but you donā€™t let the silence sit for long.
Thereā€™s something wrong with you, youā€™re a fucking monster! You think youā€™re a hero? Stalking some poor civilian, stealing her shit, photographing her while sheā€™s sleeping? Youā€™re disgusting, a horrible, twisted, sick creep! Stay away from me!
Youā€™re crawling backwards away from him as he comes towards you, his hands in front of him as a sign of peace. Youā€™re crying, he can see, and it only makes his chest ache more, shame and self-loathing away at him because youā€™re right ā€“ heā€™s sick in the head, he knows it, but he canā€™t help it.
I know, I know, calm down, youā€™re going to hurt yourself if you donā€™t stop crying, angel ā€“
It's the wrong thing to say and he immediately knows it, because you give him a glare that makes something sharp dig into his heart, so much so that he physically clutches at his chest, wincing and averting his eyes from yours.
I hate you, Keigo, you whisper, and it makes something ugly come from his throat, a mix between a gasp and a whimper. I hate you I hate you I hate you.
Heā€™s frozen for a moment, before swallowing, nodding his head and blinking the tears out of his eyes. I know, he starts, before turning on his heel and walking towards the doorway to the bedroom. I know you hate me, but youā€™re stuck with me.
And with that he walks to the front door, slamming it behind him and leaving the apartment empty. You stay curled up on the ground for a few minutes, still crying and hiccupping, the influx of emotion making your head ache. Youā€™d been here for weeks now, and you thought youā€™d moved on from these crying episodes, from these emotional outbursts, but something about the photos had opened the floodgates.
After another ten minutes, you shakily get up, still rubbing at your eyes and avoiding looking at the wooden cabinet. You all but sprint to your own bed ā€“ the bed he gave you, at least ā€“ and curl up on top of it, letting your eyes shut and exhaustion fall over you. Itā€™s not until you wake a few hours later that you notice Keigo still hasnā€™t returned home yet.
That was odd ā€“ heā€™s not on shift, and it was the middle of the night by now. Where was he? Shaking your head, flashes of the photographs race through your head, forcing you to stop thinking of Keigo. The night is quiet as you make yourself something small to eat ā€“ a piece of bread and a small amount of the low-fat butter Keigo eats, the apartment still eerily quiet.
You fall into a restless slumber soon after, your dreams filled with the sensation of something ā€“ someone ā€“ watching over your sleeping form.
When you awake, thereā€™s still no sign of him ā€“ everythingā€™s quiet and empty, and you bite your lip, equal parts relieved that heā€™s nowhere in sight but also slightly concerned. The feeling looms over you as the day slips away, his presence still gone. Itā€™s not until two days later that Keigo finally returns home, and by that point the paranoia at his absence leaves you perking up when you hear the faint jingling of keys.
Youā€™re immediately on your feet, practically tripping as you run to the front door, eager for him to return, eager to not be all alone and scared ā€“ something youā€™d realized about a day ago. Youā€™d actually been afraid of his absence. Perhaps it was survival, wanting to make sure you had enough food and someone with the locks to all the keys thatā€™d be able to let you out, or perhaps it was that you needed him. Maybe you needed some human contact, the total silence and your inability to contact anyone driving you stir crazy.
Regardless, you wait with eager anticipation as Keigo opens the door, those yellow eyes immediately catching yours, his expression carefully neutral though you can see something behind the practiced apathy. Itā€™s relief, you think, and something else ā€“ something more desperate, something more vulnerable, something that makes you launch yourself into his arms, nearly knocking the wind out of him as he stares wildly down at you, shock written all across his face.
Heā€™d expected that youā€™d be relieved that he came home, happy to have your source of food and care back, but not this excited ā€“ he swallows, frantically trying to not focus on the way your body is pressing against his and how he can feel all of you, instead letting his arms hesitantly wrap around you, not wanting to scare you.
Youā€™re saying his name, he realizes, and he furrows his brows, closing his eyes and letting the sound ring through his ears. Itā€™s wrong to be enjoying your clearly distraught state and he knows it, but he canā€™t help it ā€“ youā€™ve never initiated physical contact like this before, and is it really such a crime to be enjoying it?
Iā€™m here, angel, ā€˜m here, he tells you, petting a hand over your hair and letting you squeeze him tighter. Please never leave me again, Keigo, please!
Youā€™re begging him, he realizes, and it forces him to hug you just a bit tighter, his wings coming down to join the hug to. Closing his eyes again, Keigo lets out a slow, deep sigh, relishing in the way youā€™re clinging to him for comfort, begging him to never leave you for a moment.
And as he whispers a small Iā€™m yours, Iā€™ll never leave you again, you can only nod against his chest, disgusted with yourself for this display of your dependence on him. Because really, when had you become so fond of your captor? The photographs are still on the ground in his bedroom, all the things he's stolen from you sitting in that damned cabinet, but you find yourself not caring.
As you breathe in the now familiar smell of his cologne, hear his heart pounding away in his chest, you find that you donā€™t care about anything, really ā€“ because perhaps what heā€™s been saying along is really true.
Maybe you are in need of protection, needing him to provide for you. Because youā€™d been left alone for three days, and what do you have to show for it? Panic, loneliness, fear that heā€™d left you behind? Maybe you really are just as weak as he makes you out to be ā€“ and as you slowly pull back from the hug, you find yourself ever so briefly being thankful for him.
Thankful that youā€™ve finally, finally found where you belong: by Keigoā€™s side, letting him fawn over you and keep you locked up like some prized pet.
OVERALL DANGER:
6/10
Keigo is less dangerous and more paranoid. He has so many alter egos and warring identities that once you come along, encouraging him to just be Keigo around you rather than Pro Hero Hawks or PLF Hawks, he canā€™t let you slip away.
Thereā€™s something about you that doesnā€™t leave his mind ā€“ perhaps itā€™s your mannerisms, your looks, the way you speak, how you walk and how you smell and how you think. Maybe itā€™s some twisted form of fate, or some long-repressed part of his quirk thatā€™s beginning him to finally find a companion, a mate, someone to share himself with.
Regardless, once Keigoā€™s obsession forms, heā€™s a lost cause ā€“ heā€™s thinking of you constantly, unable to stop his mind from wandering into idle thoughts of what youā€™re doing or how youā€™re feeling. He finds himself unconsciously trailing behind you, watching over you from above with those sharp eyes of his narrowed in on your form, studying and memorizing the curves of your body underneath your clothing, the way you walk ingrained into him so deeply that when he closes his eyes all he sees is you.
His paranoia grows as his obsession does, too, the worrying realization that youā€™re weak making it difficult for him to ever part from you, anxiety swimming in his gut because what if you get hurt and he isnā€™t there to help you? What if you get into trouble and he isnā€™t there to swoop and be your savior?
(Some sick, twisted part of him almost wishes you would run into trouble, just so he could put himself into the position of being your knight in shining armor, of making you swoon for him, feeling the way youā€™d be so very grateful and want to make it up to him in any way you could. He forces the thought down, disgusted with himself for fantasizing about you being in danger, but during long nights where he tosses and turns in his too-empty and too-cold bed, the thought of you looking at him in such awe and gratitude makes something warm, wet, and shameful throb to life between his legs.)
He does eventually kidnap you, yes, but as time passes youā€™ll find that slowly youā€™ll stop caring about how he keeps you trapped by his side, how he controls your every day life, how he forces you into all sorts of loungey, comfortable clothing that always smells like him. Because really, Keigo is awfully pathetic ā€“ he thinks heā€™s good at hiding just how badly you affect him, but you can see the way he perks up when you enter a room, looking so hopefully and lovesick as he gazes at you that it almost hurts.
Youā€™ll be able to tell how his heart is racing in his chest when you get close to him, his breath turning ragged and his palms so sweaty that when he wipes them on his pants they leave wet marks. Itā€™s pathetic, sad, cute, and as time passes with Keigo as the only person in your life, slowly youā€™ll begin wondering if being loved by him isnā€™t bad.
Is what Keigo can give you ā€“ protection, adoration, reliability, devotion ā€“ really so bad? Is it so bad to just be loved?
And Keigo will be there waiting for you once you finally come around, his hands trembling as he hugs you, burying his face into your neck and you swear you feel something wet against your skin, his tears tickling you as his shoulders shake. He just loves you, and how cruel can you be to reject him, to leave him without the only person heā€™s ever cared for?
How could you be such a monster?
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Yandere! Gyutaro x fem! reader
Tw: non-con, dub-con, stalking, kidnapping, Gyutaro threatens a couple to let him watch them have sex, exhibitionism, masturbation, period sex, spitting, minor implications of somnophilia, mentions of physical violence, threats, murder, Gyutaro is a freak and likes to hold your hand during sex, fem reader, MDNI
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WC: 13K
HABITS:
Generally speaking, Gyutaro has never really touched himself. Perhaps when he was younger, still a human and going through puberty, but for the vast, vast majority of Gyutaroā€™s life, his demon biology has rendered every sexual urge he feels dulled to the point of disappearing.
That said, heā€™s still able to grow jealous at hearing when human partners are intimate with one another, their moans and cries grating on his ears and making him scowl, anger simmering in his veins because why canā€™t he have that?
Sure, he could find some random human woman and take what he wants from her, but thereā€™s something about the way humans clutch onto one another, moaning out praises and begging for more that enticing Gyutaro, making him feel shy and bashful and pissed because he knows that will never be him. Heā€™ll never have a woman gasping his name in anything other than fear, and although heā€™s accepted it, heā€™s wildly jealous.
However, because his actual sexual urges themselves are diminished, Gyutaro more often finds himself jealous than horny ā€“ a stark difference between the two. And consequently, he has minimal experience with masturbation, and he frankly doesnā€™t care. His logistical situation with Daki makes finding the time to touch himself in his own private space extremely difficult. Plus, thereā€™s something awfully pitiful about wrapping his fingers around his cock with the knowledge that theyā€™ll only ever be his fingers, no one elseā€™s ā€“ something that makes him warble and scratch himself bloody, effectively killing any libido heā€™d managed to feel.
But with all of that said, things begin changing once his infatuation with you develops. Heā€™s not immediately wishing to fuck you, but as Gyutaro becomes more comfortable with the idea of intimacy with you, lewd thoughts start tainting the edges of his mind, turning the relatively innocent fantasy of cuddling with you into grinding against your ass, grasping your thigh and lifting it up just barely so that he can slot himself inside, breathing hard into your ear and growling, the sound throaty and heady and so very needy.
And really, is that so unnatural?
Sure, his libido isnā€™t the strongest, but imagining the woman he thinks heā€™s in love with to be naked and laid out underneath him isnā€™t out of the ordinary, right?
Heā€™s sure all men think about the depraved thoughts that start worming their way into his imagination ā€“ theyā€™re mostly questions, really, tying into his obsessiveness and desperation to learn as much about you as he possibly can. Ā 
Heā€™s idly wondering how you sound when you moan ā€“ is it airy, high-pitched, low, gasping?
How do you look when you come? Does your face scrunch up, does your mouth drop open, do you close your eyes, does your back arch, do you curl your toes, do you reach out and grasp at anything you can find?
Whatā€™s your favorite position? Heā€™d be willing to try all of them if youā€™d like, if youā€™re unsure ā€“ Gyutaro secretly thinks his own favorite will be having you on top, your pretty tits mere inches from his lips and giving him a perfect view of both your own face and your cunt sucking him in again and again and again, the sight making him dizzy with pleasure and forcing him to grasp your hips and fuck up into you, just to hear you gasp and moan and scream his name.
Have you ever squirted? He hopes no man has ever touched you at all, much less made you squirt, but Gyutaro swears heā€™ll get you to do it ā€“ he wants to feel your release all over his face, coating his fingers, tongue, chin, and cock, smeared across every inch of his skin and worn proudly.
Do you like to be praised or degraded, and do you like your lovers vocal? Gyutaro sure hopes so, because he knows he wonā€™t be able to shut up when heā€™s buried balls deep inside you, your wet, warm, tight walls clenching down on him and forcing curse after groans out of him, practically milking him for both his cum and his moans. He wouldnā€™t mind praising or degrading you ā€“ what naturally slips out of his mouth when heā€™s fucking his fist is a healthy mix of both, imagining you in front of him and calling you my perfect slut or something of the sort.
Do you groom yourself, keeping everything perfectly smooth and shaved, or do you let nature takes its course? He hopes itā€™s the latter ā€“ he wants to relish in your scent, to bury his face between your legs and inhale deeply, getting a nose full of you, something made much easier when your hair and pheromones are tickling his cheeks.
(While he prefers you to not shave, Gyutaro himself will try to clean himself up routinely ā€“ starting way before he steals you away, just so that he can learn how to do it, to make sure he knows how to so that he doesnā€™t embarrass himself the first time you see him naked. The thought already embarrasses him enough ā€“ to have his body open to your scrutiny, to feel you looking at him, and he really doesnā€™t need the extra stress. Luckily for him, his quick regeneration means no accidental knicks with the razor knife last long ā€“ unfortunately, it also means that any cut hair regrows almost instantaneously, much to his displeasure. Heā€™s hopeful you wonā€™t be too disgusted by his pubes the first time you see him ā€“ though the dark hairs do a good job of framing the very, very long cock hanging between his legs.)
Quite honestly, he stalks you with such intensity and consistency that heā€™ll know the answer to many of these questions before long ā€“ he's memorized how you look when you come, your face ingrained into his brain and flashing behind his eyelids when heā€™s orgasming himself. But itā€™s different to be thinking about something like that ā€“ something so naughty. Gyutaro spends his time idly wondering these questions, a pale pink blooming on his cheeks because itā€™s just so dirty and youā€™re so very sweet, and thinking of you in such a lewd light almost makes him feel guilty.
Almost, because then he sees you, hiding from the shadows and getting the smallest whiff of your scent every few seconds, and then suddenly all guilt is gone because fuck, he needs you.
However, Gyutaro is still oddly shy about certain things with you. As such, when he first begins fantasizing about fucking you, thereā€™s that small, annoyingly human part of him that worries if youā€™ll find him revolting once heā€™s fully nude in front of you, vulnerable to your facial expressions and any words of negative reaction.
Heā€™s terrified, really, that youā€™ll find him unattractive or too repulsive to sleep with. He wants you to want him, to need him as he needs you, and if you were to call him ugly, a monster, anything of the sort? Well, it would take the demon a long, long time to recover from such a blow to his heart, old wounds tearing open fresh to endure another bout of pain.
And so, in a panicked and a frantic attempt to avoid any negative criticism from you once your intimate relationship begins, Gyutaro decides that he needs to learn more about actual sex, not just the crude, vulgar words he hears from the human men around him. If he wants to have any hope at making you actually enjoy sex with him (something he desperately, desperately wants), Gyutaro feels that he needs to see the real thing, to observe carefully and take notes.
Luckily, itā€™s not particularly hard to find a coupling around the Entertainment District, sneaking across roofs and peeking into windows until he hears moans and slapping sounds and sees writhing bodies and smells the musty, acrid odor of sex. And once he does, Gyutaro is quick to step down into the room, his presence casting a shadow against the moonlight and candle light of the room, the couple immediately stopping and staring at him in fear.
Before either person has a chance to scream, Gyutaroā€™s rushing forward, a hand covering each mouth and a sneer on his face as he tells the man that heā€™s so lucky, having a pretty woman to fuck every nightā€¦ show me.
The manā€™s eyes go wide and he shakes his head underneath Gyutaroā€™s hand, causing the demonā€™s sneer to fall into a scowl. He needs to see this couple make love ā€“ he needs tips and advice, to see how it really goes. Plus, the womanā€™s body is somewhat similar to yours ā€“ perhaps you have similar spots that feel particularly good, and Gyutaro will take any and every scrap of information and ideas he can in order to make eventual sex with you good.
Anything to get you moaning his name and pulling at his hair and begging him for more.
Let me watch you fuck her, or Iā€™ll kill you both. Whatā€™s your choice, huh? Gyutaro holds eye contact with the man, watching him debate, feeling the woman trembling and crying under his other hand.
His eye twitches ā€“ damn this man for loving the woman, because his slight hesitation in answering means he doesnā€™t want Gyutaro to see her nude, vulnerable, exposed, and itā€™s making Gyutaro imagine someone propositioning him this about you. Violent images of how heā€™d slaughter and kill whoever was threatening to see you moaning and gasping and naked flash through his mind, making him grit his teeth and press against their mouths harder.
At that, the man frantically nods yes, and Gyutaro snickers. Eh, you bastard, letting me watch you touch your woman? Pathetic, man, pathetic.
He takes his hands off their mouths, bracing himself for any screams, but when none come he smiles ā€“ a mean, twisted smile. I want to see everything, you know? Start over, act like Iā€™m not here. Iā€™m just watching, so give me a good show but be natural! Iā€™ll kill you if youā€™re not natural.
Gyutaro scratches at his chest as he settles back against a wall on the side of the room, watching as the couple shakily sits up. The woman is still crying, but the man cups her cheek in his palm, swallowing hard, before slotting his lips against hers. The woman immediately begins kissing him back, the motions slow and hesitant.
Gyutaro growls, his voice forceful as he tells them to kiss harder, Iā€™ll cut off your lips if you donā€™t.
That gets the two of them moving faster, the audible wet noises as her tongue slips into his mouth making Gyutaro lick his lips. Itā€™s all too easy to imagine you in the womanā€™s place and him in the manā€™s, his hand sitting at your breast just as the manā€™s is, idly squeezing and playing with her nipple. They spend a few more moments kissing, before the man carefully pushes the woman back, laying her down with her legs spread over, her hands held over her head.
Theyā€™re still kissing, and Gyutaroā€™s hand snakes down to cup at his bulge, the idea of wet noises and hovering over you making his breath short. Heā€™s watching them seemingly without blinking, reaching down past the top hem of his pants and firmly clutching at this balls, squeezing harshly and making him hiss through his teeth as the man shimmeys down, kissing and licking at the womanā€™s breasts.
She keens, biting her lip and trying to not look at Gyutaro, the man using his thumb and index finger to roll her nipple, pinching and tugging while flicking his tongue over its twin. Gyutaro pulls his hands out of his pants briefly to spit into his palm, hand slithering back into his pants and gripping the base of his cock in a death grip.
Heā€™s painfully hard at this point ā€“ the manā€™s head is suddenly between the womanā€™s thighs, and Gyutaroā€™s moving forward before he can even think about, still gripping himself under his pants as he nears the bed, wanting an up-close view of the manā€™s actions. They both tense at this, but Gyutaro scoffs.
Keep going, yeah? Just needed a better view.
The man swallows but obeys, tongue flicking out to lick a long stripe from her folds up and over her clit, making her sigh. Soon his tongue is flicking out and licking at the small bud, fingers pulling up to expose the area and make access easier. Gyutaro mentally notes that away ā€“ he knows women like when men play with their clit, and perhaps youā€™d be impressed by his knowledge of this, or the way heā€™ll pull your lips up, just so he can fully see that pretty, throbbing pearl on you.
The manā€™s free hand moves up to run a few fingers through her folds, his fingers suddenly soaking wet and glistening in the moonlight. Gyutaro licks his lips ā€“ god, he wants to taste you so bad, his tastebuds tingling and his mouth literally salivating at the thought of tasting your lips, whatā€™s between your legs, even your tears. Gyutaroā€™s hand slowly moves up, hand slicked with spit lessening the friction and making him lowly groan. The man slips a finger inside her, the womanā€™s small moan making the manā€™s brows twitch together.
Gyutaroā€™s careful to watch the manā€™s pacing ā€“ his tongue is licking steady, consistent circles over her clit, while his fingers are thrusting slowly, carefully, adding a second finger after a few moments. Would you like the same pacing? Gyutaroā€™s not sure, but the hand not diligently pumping at his cock beneath his pants mimics the same finger motion as the man, his tongue slipping out to mimic licking small circles. He matches the manā€™s pace, wide yellow eyes slowly starting to go half-lidded from the pleasure of his fingers wrapped around his girth.
Tell me what feels best, woman.
Heā€™ll snarl, keeping an eye on the way the man tenses up but doesnā€™t stop his actions. The womanā€™s flushed, her eyes darting to him before quickly looking away.
When ā€“ ah, when he curls his fingers up, fuck, and little circles on ā€“ oh! She cuts herself off with a moan, and Gyutaro (irritated that she didnā€™t finish but too focused on her instructions) repeats the words over and over in his head, modifying the hand motion heā€™s practicing to closely resemble her descriptions.
His fist moves a bit faster, creating a deft thump motion each time his fingers bump into his navel. The sound of the man fingering the woman is so, so very lewd, too ā€“ itā€™s wet, a squelching noise that makes Gyutaro drool, the idea that youā€™d be that wet making his throat dry, his hips bucking forward against his fist involuntarily.
Fuck her, now, nghā€¦
The man gulps, wiping the womanā€™s slick off of his lips and chin, and Gyutaro feels a particularly large glob of precum dribble from his tip, the extra lubrication making his pleasure just that much sharper.
Start over her.
He instructs as the man moves to hover over her, nodding at the demonā€™s words and slotting himself between her legs. Gyutaro watches intently as the man grips the base of his cock, aligning his tip with your hole, pushing forward and letting his eyes roll to the back of his head. Gyutaro sucks in a sharp breath ā€“ would you feel that good inside? He's sure you would; youā€™re so pretty and sexy, of course you have the best cunt. He bets itā€™s incredibly warm, wet enough to leave his cock, navel, and upper thighs coated in no time, and god youā€™d be so fucking tight, gripping him hard enough to make pulling out of you nearly impossible-
The woman lets out a wanton moan as the man starts moving, the pace immediately fast and bruising. The sound of his balls clapping against her ass fills the room, and Gyutaro pants, his fist moving faster and faster, biting his lip hard enough to draw blood. He transitions from moving his arm to thrusting his stationary fist, matching the manā€™s pacing and imagining itā€™s you getting fucked, that your cries are the ones ringing in his ears and itā€™s your pretty tits that are bouncing and jiggling with the force of the thrusts.
From behind ā€“ shit, from behind! He instructs, his voice strained with his impending orgasm.
The man listens, pulling out and carefully slipping her over, slipping back inside and listening to the way the woman cries out. Gyutaroā€™s eyes focus on her breasts as they sway and jiggle ā€“ you have a very similar size, and just the thought of him fucking you hard enough to get your tits moving makes his eyes flutter closed for a moment, eyebrows drawing tightly together at the thought.
This sight is even more erotic than the last position ā€“ itā€™s all too easy to imagine itā€™s him pulling at your hips, smacking his own against your ass again and again, making you feel him so deep, deep enough to get you chanting his name like a fucking prayer. Gyutaro moves forward and uses his free hand to grab the manā€™s, forcing his fingers into her hair and pushing her face down against the mattress, the new position making the man groan and the woman shudder.
Gyutaro curses, letting go and putting all his effort into fucking his fist to the same tempo, trying to match the manā€™s perfectly. He wants to fuck you like this, he decides ā€“ leaning over you like some sort of animal, mounting you, fucking you in the most raw, animalistic way.
Youā€™d look so damn pretty, and heā€™s sure your pussy would make wet noises like hers is, your slick dripping down your thighs and your pleas to give you more more more please Gyutaro, need your cum!
Gyutaro gasps hard as cum sprays all along the inside of his pants, his fist slowing to a stop as he rides out his high, eyes half lidded and all sorts of groans and sharp exhales filling the room.
The couple stares, bewildered, unsure of what to do ā€“ heā€™s still fucking her but more gently, and Gyutaro smirks at them, still dazed from the pleasure and the idea of doing this to you. Licking his lips, he climbs onto the windowsill, glancing over his shoulder at them.
Iā€™m coming back tomorrow night. He stares at the woman, a wide smile splitting across his features. Youā€™re gonna show me how to suck cock right, yeah? Gotta make sure I can guide her when she-
He stops, swallowing, his cheeks still blushed from his orgasm and from the vulgar idea of you taking him down his throat.
Donā€™t you tell anyone about this, eh? Iā€™ll find you, and Iā€™ll kill you.
And with that, heā€™s gone, disappeared from the windowsill and leaving the man and woman to embrace each other, shaking in fear. Meanwhile, Gyutaroā€™s running from roof to roof, adrenaline filling his veins because he has to see you now ā€“ heā€™s too pent up, and he needs to see you in person. As expected, youā€™re asleep by the time he reaches your home, sitting on your window edge, licking his lips and breathing hard.
Youā€™re so fucking pretty ā€“ he crawls closer, acutely aware to be quiet and not wake you. Youā€™d fallen asleep on your futon, the blanket still neatly folded in the corner, and Gyutaro swallows before grabbing the cloth, pulling it over you and up to your chin, his hands trembling.
He sighs, his fingers itching to reach out and touch you, to bend you into the positions heā€™d seen the couples trying, but he refrains. He doesnā€™t want to wake you, doesnā€™t want you to be aware of his presence quite yet. He has to be patient, good ā€“ heā€™ll allow himself one pleasure, however, as he dips a finger inside his pants, scooping up some of his still warm cum and gently, gingerly smearing it across your lips, practically moaning at the sight of white against your skin.
Youā€™re just so, so perfect ā€“ it almost makes him sick, but as he returns to the couple the next night, demanding the woman get on her knees, Gyutaro canā€™t help but shiver.
It may take him a while to actually touch you, but god, heā€™ll be ready.
FAVORITE BODY PARTS:
Your stomach
In general, one of the things that Gyutaro finds he adores about you as his obsession festers is how opposite the two of you are. Regardless of your weight, you are physically different from him ā€“ and Gyutaro notices this early on.
That is, his body is essentially just bone ā€“ skin stretched to cover his skeleton, while you have lovely warm, squishy skin covering your curves and pretty body. Youā€™re so fucking soft ā€“ nothing on you can possibly be as hard as he is, and from the moment he first holds your waist with a slightly shaking hand he canā€™t help but notice this difference every time he looks at you.
He grows to love feeling the areas on you that hold the most squishiness, and his favorite place of all is your stomach. Thereā€™s something so relaxing about how warm the area is, your skin practically his personal hand warmer as he slides his hands into your kimono, his palms pressed snugly against your tummy.
They donā€™t move much; stationary, just simply feeling, the intention not inherently sexual. However, as you bring back small traces of his long-buried humanity, you also bring back traces of his libido, something thatā€™s been noticeably gone throughout the duration of his time as a demon.
And so, as urges to kiss and touch you slowly begin seeping into his mind, Gyutaro slowly becomes fixated on the fact that youā€™re so fucking soft, the perfect thing for him to squeeze and lick and fuck until youā€™re crying and begging for more more more ā€“
His sex drive isnā€™t monumental, but Gyutaro would be blatantly lying if he said he hasnā€™t fantasized about how soft youā€™d feel underneath him before, your pretty body on display for his greedy eyes.
Heā€™s seen many humans naked, but the first time he sees you without any clothing on, his hands are immediately reaching out ā€“ and, surprisingly, heading directly for your stomach. His breaths come out harsher as he stares down at your exposed belly, the skin even softer somehow than when it touches it under your clothes.
As he starts regularly fucking you, get ready for his hands to always be gravitating towards your stomach, his fingers pressing into the soft fat while you writhe and squirm in his lap as he forces you up and down his cock, his eyes rolling back into his head while he practically drools.
He loses his composure during sex, and itā€™ll be more than apparent in the way he grasps onto your tummy like itā€™s his life line, as if youā€™re the only thing tethering him to Earth while his orgasm crashes over him.
And god, when heā€™s got you laying in front of him, your pretty legs parted to expose the soft, warm pussy he claims as his, Gyutaro uses your stomach as almost a pillow ā€“ heā€™s watching his fingers appearing and disappearing out of your cunt, your juices smeared across his pale skin as he rests his forehead on the softness of your lower belly.
His eyes are wide and unblinking, his lips parted in awe as he watches the way you just take them, your velvety walls clenching down repeatedly, hard enough to make his mouth water. Heā€™s always leaving small kisses against your stomach after sex, an oddly sweet gesture that makes every bruise he leaves on your body from the rough fucking feeling slightly better.
Itā€™s strange, his fascination, and at first you have the terrible, horrible fear that his obsession stems from wanting to grow his family with a child. Itā€™s a terrifying thought, one you try to put out of your head, but eventually (after he forces you to tell him, his eyes turning dark and threatening as he demands you to tell me, donā€™t keep any secrets from me, ever) the fear is lost, as Gyutaro regretfully informs you that demons are infertile.
Youā€™re relieved, but the question only seems to further ignite his obsession with your stomach ā€“ youā€™ll catch him speaking to it when youā€™re asleep, odd little confessions of if only I couldā€¦ when you wake up.
Essentially, Gyutaro is obsessed with your tummy because itā€™s soft and squishy and fuck youā€™re so very pretty.Ā 
His fingersĀ 
Generally speaking, Gyutaro isnā€™t particularly fond of any specific body part of his own.
Heā€™s proud of his ability to fight and destroy, but especially in the context of physical attractiveness, Gyutaro firmly believes what heā€™s always been told. He knows heā€™s unappealing; how could anyone ever like a monster with such a grotesque body and face?
Itā€™s a cycle of self-deprecation that heā€™s found comfort in for most of his life, but once you appear, suddenly heā€™s wildly disappointed that he isnā€™t more handsome. He wishes he had a fuller figure, muscle spanning his chest and back, just like all those slayers he sees.
He wishes he had softer hair, a more symmetrical smile, less facial blemishes, everything.
He hates that heā€™s limited to human beauty ideals, but he canā€™t help it ā€“ how can he, when youā€™re around him looking so cute and adorable? Youā€™re not perfect either (though he loves your imperfections perhaps more than anything else), but he wants to be perfect for you.
And so, while Gyutaro silently wallows in his self-misery, he slowly discovers that despite his lack of sexual experience and general understanding of human female anatomy, you seem to really, really like his fingers.
His nails were, initially, something youā€™d quickly stammered out a w-wait! to when heā€™d tried to shove a finger inside, and while he hadnā€™t appreciated your interruption, when you mentioned he could stab you and make you bleed with how sharp they were, he reluctantly digressed.
Itā€™s not hard to bite off the excess sharpness of the nail, grinding them down to a roundness against the flesh of his finger, perfectly safe.
The first time heā€™d fingered you, Gyutaro was shocked at how impossibly warm, wet and tight you were inside. It was like touching velvet ā€“ so soft, your walls sucking him in and seeming to almost invite him inside, as if you wanted him there, like you didnā€™t want him to leave.
Heā€™s staring transfixed at the way you take them, your pussy squelching as he slowly thrusts them in and out, your little squeals making his cheeks flush a very light pink. He loves the way you gasp when he curls them just so, brushing against the spongey spot heā€™s memorized as your favorite.
He loves to abuse the area; watching as your eyes squeeze closed, your fingers grasping onto his shoulders, your thighs tensing and clenching, your little cries of his name and yes ā€“ yes please ā€˜Taro, fuck please!
He loves how quickly he can get you falling apart with his fingers, how youā€™re reduced to nothing but a moaning, whimpering mess once he gets you below him. It boosts his confidence, and occasionally between thrusts inside, heā€™ll pull his fingers out and suck on them, his own little groan slipping out as he savors your taste, all musky and heavy.
And of course, once he discovers your clit, itā€™s over for you ā€“ heā€™s never leaving the small button alone, the bundle of nerves positively sore by the time heā€™s done with you. Heā€™s rubbing small circles against it, drawing figure eights, writing the kanji for his name with the tip of his finger, anything he can to get your back arching up, your toes curling and your lips parting into that pretty ā€˜oā€™ he loves so much.
Heā€™s constantly bewildered by just how much pleasure he can deliver you with only his hands, and so as he squeezes and gropes at your ass, breasts, stomach, anything and everything, just know that heā€™s feeling nearly as good as you are.
After all, those bandages as pants may be loose, but you can still see a very clear outline of just how excited he is ā€“ and just how much heā€™s enjoyed the way youā€™ve made a mess of his fingers, if the wet stain around said outline is any indicator. He just really, really likes using his fingers on you, so just let him, yeah?
DRIVE:
Gyutaroā€™s never been that horny. Having been turned into a demon while young, heā€™s never really experienced the human emotion of lust, his sexual urges having faded out from his teenage years to nearly nothing. Heā€™s too consumed by other emotions ā€“ anger, jealousy, pity ā€“ to really focus on something so arbitrary, something so human.
And so, as a result of this repressed sexual drive Gyutaro doesnā€™t immediately begin lusting after you once his obsession with you begins to form. He isnā€™t desperate to fuck you the moment he realizes he feels some twisted form of love, nor does he want to touch you in any way thatā€™s inherently sexual.
Instead, his urges to be with you and feel your skin are much, much more innocent in nature ā€“ of course, heā€™s still a man-eating monster, but he wants to touch your cheek just because it looks soft.
He wants to run his hands along your sides because youā€™re so small compared to his looming figure, and he wants to make sure that youā€™re real.
He wants to know how it feels to have you in his arms, because heā€™s seen human couples doing that and itā€™s a show of intimacy and connection between two people, and thatā€™s what he wants to have with you.
As time passes, his urges towards you slowly begin moving towards the area of lusting, however. Soon heā€™s wanting to kiss you; his lips are always chapped, of course, and heā€™s sure his breath smells atrocious, but your lips look so soft and warm, like theyā€™d be perfect to press against his own.
He imagines pressing you against his body as you kiss him, your hands resting against his chest as you sigh into his mouth, the human form of affection seeming so intimate and lovely and necessary.
Itā€™s some long lost repressed human part of him driving these desires, but Gyutaro canā€™t find it in himself to care ā€“ especially not after the first time he sees you nude. Heā€™s seen dozens of humans naked before; he lives in the Entertainment District after all, and when heā€™s devouring someone, heā€™s not particularly respectful with keeping them covered up.
However, thereā€™s something different about you ā€“ maybe itā€™s because he feels so attached to you, or maybe itā€™s because he suddenly canā€™t stop thinking about how it would feel to embrace your naked body with his own, free of any fabric separating the both of you while he indulges in your warmth, softness, the plush skin of your body.
Heā€™s not sure, but regardless, after that moment suddenly all those sexual feelings leftover from his time as a human come rushing back to him ā€“ heā€™s hard without even realizing it, his eyes bulging out of their sockets as he simply stares, his expression going dumb.
Youā€™re uncomfortable with it, he can tell by the way you avoid his gaze, but he canā€™t find it in himself to care ā€“ youā€™re so beautiful, perfect for him in every possible way. And so, after that night, Gyutaro finds himself inching closer and closer towards the final level of intimacy, pushing the boundaries just a bit more each night until heā€™s eventually got you perched in his lap, his hands placed on your hips.
Youā€™re both naked, your breasts placed tantalizingly close, close enough to be able to reach out and wrap his lips around your nipple, to suck and watch you keen, to maybe even sigh out his nameā€¦
Heā€™s rendered mute by your pussy the first time he fucks you, truly too pussydrunk to really even think, as embarrassing as it is. The big, strong Gyutaro falls so easily to your body ā€“ one clench and heā€™s shuddering, every nerve in his body on fire as he tries not to come quite yet ā€“ only lasting thirty seconds is wildly embarrassing, and while youā€™d never poke fun at him for fear of dying, Gyutaro grits his teeth and tries to hold on to his dignity.
And so, sex with you becomes a regular craving for the demon. His urges arenā€™t too unbearable, and he only ever acts on it a few nights a week, but be prepared because Gyutaro will fuck you, and you will like it ā€“ he'll make sure you come, and doesnā€™t that mean youā€™re enjoying yourself?
But until he gather up enough courage to actually fuck you, Gyutaro takes baby steps. He canā€™t do too much all at once ā€“ he gets too overwhelmed, too shy and embarrassed because youā€™re looking at him, your pretty eyes and face and voice giving him attention. It makes his lips go numb, anxiously scratching at his arms and struggling to meet your gaze because god he wants to touch you and hear you moan his name, but how does one go about that, exactly?
Sure, he knows the basics of sex and has watched couples initiate it, but itā€™s different with you. Itā€™s different because Gyutaro isnā€™t stupid ā€“ he knows youā€™re afraid of him, that heā€™s too grotesque and ugly for you to ever really want to be intimate with, and these thoughts make it hard for him to just take what he wants from you.
And so, he starts small ā€“ he'll touch you a little more, fingertips pressing hard into your sides when he ghosts his hands there, trying to be gentle but struggling to regulate his strength because youā€™re so close to him.
Heā€™ll let his fingers brush over your hair, never enough for you to feel but just enough for the texture to become familiar, always bringing his fingers up to his nose and smelling them afterwards, something between a growl and a moan slipping from his lips at the scent.
Heā€™ll reach out and lightly, oh so lightly press his thumb against your cheek, marveling at how soft your skin is and how warm it is, mumbling something under his breath about how youā€™re too pretty, how it makes him sick that youā€™re too damn pretty.
His breathing will be a little unsteady when his does this, those yellow eyes of his glancing between your own and your lips, contemplating in a way that he thinks is much more subtle than it actually is.
He wants all sorts of human intimacy with you, and the next thing that he wants to tackle is kissing you. The idea is strange to him - why do humans press their mouths together? It must feel good, but why? Heā€™s curious, but touching you has such an effect on him, so surely tasting you would suck the air right out of his lungs, leaving his knees feeling weak and making pink bloom across his cheeks.
He doesnā€™t ask you for permission, instead one day coming to sit beside you against the wall of the lair, that familiar concentrated look in his eye. Heā€™ll ask you some question whose answer he doesnā€™t care about ā€“ just to see your lips moving, watching with sharp eyes how your tongue contorts and moves inside your mouth, sometimes flicking out to lick at your lips, the sight almost making him whimper.
Soon, he canā€™t just watch ā€“ heā€™s rushing forward without any warning, pressing against you with a level of force that makes you yelp. His lips are dry and cracked (despite him having licked them excessively in preparation for this moment, wishing to make them as soft and pleasant as possible), and theyā€™re not moving ā€“ heā€™s staying perfectly still, eyes wide open and staring at you.
It scares you, because while you know what heā€™s doing, the experience is anything but pleasant. He stays like that for a few moments, before slowly, very slowly moving, his lips clumsy and unsure as they work at you. It feels like heā€™s trying to eat you ā€“ his tongue and teeth stay firmly inside his mouth, but his lips keep trying to fit more and more of you into his mouth at once, saliva smearing across bits of your cheek and chin.
Youā€™re still completely frozen, unsure of what to do, and Gyutaro pulls back, scowling. It had felt good ā€“ in a strange way, a way that made something in his stomach feel tight and warm, but heā€™s sure it would feel much better if you were participating too, if youā€™d actually kiss him back. Donā€™t just sit there, heā€™ll warble to you, not willing to actually ask you to kiss him back, his pride barring him from practically begging for what he wants.
(Though as your sexual relationship progresses, this pride slowly withers away and dies ā€“ to the point where heā€™ll get on his knees and beg for you to open your pretty mouth and suck him off, because even though he could force you easily, it always feels better when you consent, when you at pretend to actually want him.)
This time, as he leans in, your lips move too, trying to match his awkward kisses. Gyutaro groans at that, leaning further against you, the weight causing you to fall backwards, lying flat on your back. Youā€™d pulled away from the kiss during the fall, and as Gyutaro stares down at you hungrily, he swallows, sucking through his teeth harshly and trying to get every drop of your saliva down his throat. You must really, really want him, huh?
The sight simultaneously flusters and flatters him, and before you can say a word heā€™s scrambling over you, pressing his lips against yours harshly, with vigor, his tongue slipping out and practically forcing its way down your throat. You just taste so fucking good ā€“ it's addictive, and the knowledge that youā€™d laid down for him, wanting him to hover over you and mimic sex making his head swim. Heā€™s breathing hard through his nose, almost wheezing, and you quickly shut your eyes, not wanting to look at his still wide-open ones.
He kisses you for a long, long time ā€“ easily thirty minutes, not tiring of the feeling, his tongue still actively rubbing against yours, tracing every tooth and managing to dip into every crevice in your mouth, each new area making him groan and get just a hair more desperate.
When he eventually pulls away, he licks your lips and smiles shakily, a hand coming down to pet at your hair. Next time, will you take you shirt off? It probably grosses you out, huh, that request?
And when you nod with wide eyes, too scared to say no, Gyutaro will exhale slowly, nodding and muttering a series of slurred goodā€™s and your name under his breath, before stalking off out of the lair. Once out of your sight heā€™s stopping, a hand coming up to scratch at the area right over his heart, his face morphing into something between despair and prevenance.
Youā€™re just so damn pretty ā€“ he canā€™t handle the sight of you, and the image of you laid out before him, looking up at him with those eyes makes every muscle in his body tense, that familiar warm feeling in his groin growing tighter and tighter, and as a hand snakes down to palm at the now very noticeable and wet bulge in his pants, Gyutaro decides that he needs to speed this process up.
He doesnā€™t know how much longer he can take holding himself back ā€“ not if touching you and tasting you and making you gasp feel this good.
(Later that night, as he hovers over your sleeping form and tugs near painfully on his cock, Gyutaro decides that the next step can happen right then and there ā€“ youā€™d look so good with his cum smeared all across your face, wouldnā€™t you?)
MAIN THREE KINKS:
Praise
While Gyutaro has a difficult time believing your compliments initially, with time he grows much more willing (and desperate) to indulge in your sweet words.
Your kind praises of his caring actions ā€“ no matter how forced the words are ā€“ have him melting inside, his heart pounding in his chest while he struggles to hold your gaze. He reverts to a bit of a teenage boy in moments where you compliment him ā€“ and during sex?
Well, Gyutaro nearly passes out the first time you compliment his body. It takes so much courage for him to show you himself nude, if only because heā€™s so scared of the way youā€™ll react. What if you think heā€™s ugly, or weird, or repulsive? What if you wince at the sight of him, or cower when he tries to touch you or make you touch him?
Heā€™s so scared, so when you run your hands along his arms and tell him heā€™s handsome, heā€™s staring at you with wide eyes. Heā€™s simultaneously hateful and in love with the vulnerability you make him feel, so please, please compliment him during sex.
He needs the validation that you like him, that heā€™s making you feel good, and while heā€™ll never actually say it aloud, your words turn him on more than you know. Just hearing his name roll off your tongue has his eyes rolling backwards, his fingers twitching with the urge to touch you, to feel your soft skin. He loves when you tell him sweet things about his body; tell him heā€™s attractive, that you love how strong he is, that you love how muscular his arms are.
Tell him his eyes are pretty, that you love tunneling your fingers through his hair while he fucks you with his tongue, that you love the way his fingers stretch you out and get you seeing stars.
Compliment the things that he does in bed; tell him that you love how he growls and bites at your neck with those sharp teeth of his, that you love when he manhandles you and grunts into your ear as he rolls his hips into yours.
And of course, tell him how he makes you feel ā€“ heā€™ll groan your name and his hips will stutter if you say his cock feels so ā€“ so good Gyutaro, mm please! Need more, need more of you ā€“
Tell him that he feels so good inside of you, that heā€™s going to make you come because itā€™s all too much, and youā€™ll see him physically freeze up, his eyes wide and a bit of drool slipping from the corner of his mouth because god, are you talking about him?
Moan his name and make a show of writhing around underneath him, arching your back and gasping out that heā€™s so big! Tā€™s too much Gyu, gonna make me come!
Tell him anything and everything that comes to your mind, the more depraved the better. He likes to hear you become reduced to incoherent whimpers because of him, and with each praise that slips past your lips, Gyutaro feels his confidence slowly rise until heā€™s fucking into you with reckless abandon.
Heā€™ll be bearing his teeth and whispering the filthiest things into your ear, the confidence boosting his system like nothing else. Heā€™s calling you his, possessive petnames right and left as he practically abuses your cunt with his cock, pounding into you with such fervor that itā€™s almost like heā€™s trying to mold your pussy into the shape of his cock.
Heā€™s demanding you tell him how he feels; growls of tell me what you want me to do to you filling the space between you, the panting breaths and moans rushing into the empty air. Heā€™s telling you to take it, f-fuck, so damn tight, do I make you this tight, huh?
He wants you to mindlessly agree, to clutch onto his body and squeeze around him, milking him for absolutely everything he can give to you until youā€™re spasming around his cock, coming all over him and whimpering underneath him, your pretty eyes staring up at him with tears beading in your lashes from the overwhelming pleasure heā€™s giving to you.
And if you were to worship any part of his body?
Heā€™s not sure what youā€™re doing at first ā€“ why are you sinking to your knees and moving so slowly in front of him? Youā€™re taking your time with his cock, letting your eyes gaze over every single inch of him, the attention making his neck flush and embarrassing him. And yet, he doesnā€™t stop you ā€“ because when you whisper out that heā€™s so pretty, I love your cock Gyutaro, he nearly malfunctions, his nails digging into his palms as his hips involuntarily jerk, his cock bobbing slightly with the motion.
He wants you to kiss every inch of him, to suckle on his tip and let your tongue dip into his hypersensitive slit, the sensation making him gasp sharply and his eyes close tightly.
He wants you to gently fondle his balls, to whisper against his skin in between licks against his shaft that you wanna taste you, can I please taste you Gyu? Wanna make you come, you look so pretty when you doā€¦
Heā€™ll let you do anything you damn well please when youā€™ve got him like this ā€“ his eyes are watching your every move, his breath hitched, his heart fluttering in his chest as his orgasm comes much too soon, the emotional weight of your words and adoring actions making him desperate to give you the cum you claim you need.
He just really, really likes when you give him positive attention in the bedroom, so please narrate everything youā€™re feeling. He wants to know every possible detail, and heā€™ll strive to keep touching and pleasing you until youā€™re screaming his name and a jumbled, slurred series of yes and please and I love you.Ā 
Breast Fixation
Gyutaro, to put it lightly, develops a sort of fascination with your chest. He has no sexual experience with women, and consequently has neither felt nor seen a living, naked womanā€™s breasts before.
Of course, heā€™s been curious; victims heā€™s in the middle of devouring whoā€™s clothing has slipped down in the process of his meal, where their tits are hanging out of the fabric, looking soft and supple and perfect to touch. Heā€™ll reach out and halfheartedly squeeze, but the dead flesh isnā€™t the same as a living, breathing womanā€™s ā€“ besides, his hunger is too strong for him to really process how soft, pliable, and squishy it is.
And so, once he has you, someone to fantasize about and imagine naked (frequently), Gyutaro is suddenly very interested in seeing what you look like shirtless. Heā€™s always paid close attention to the way your chest looks in your kimonos; the fabric tightening through there, as if your breasts were practically begging to be freed, exposed to the world and awaiting eyes like his.
Heā€™s always noticed the way your top exposes the line of your cleavage when you bend down to pick something up, your tits pressed together by your arms while he gets a front row seat that leaves his pants feeling tight and his throat dry.
Before he steals you away, frequent nights are spent with the image of you straddling his lap playing through his mind. Heā€™ll imagine the way youā€™d shimmy out of your top, exposing your breasts to his greedy eyes, the soft flesh sitting only a few tantalizing inches away from his face.
Heā€™d focus in on your nipples, imagining the way theyā€™d slowly pebble from the cold air, growing tight and taut while heā€™s left to drool, his fingers begging to reach out and pinch, twist, and pull. Heā€™ll imagine the way youā€™d look down at him with a soft smile, cupping his cheeks and asking in that soft, breathy whisper of yours if heā€™d touch them please Gyutaro, I want you to play with meā€¦
He wouldnā€™t need to be told twice, his hands immediately reaching up to cautiously grope and squeeze.
Heā€™s nervous at first, his touches hesitant, but as he wraps a hand around your left breast and squeezes lightly, the sigh you make in response has him gulping and squeezing harder, his other hand following suit until heā€™s massaging and groping at your tits like theyā€™re his personal stress balls.
Heā€™s painfully hard below you, his cock desperate for stimulation, but as you push his head closer to your breasts he nearly loses his mind; heā€™s quick to envelope a nipple into his mouth, closing his eyes while he sucks and licks at the bud as you hum and praise him, little whispers of mmm, just like that baby going straight to his cock.
He twitches with every little keen you make, and this fantasy carries over into his sex life with you. Very, very early on youā€™ll notice that heā€™s always staring at your tits whenever youā€™re intimate with him.
When heā€™s bathing you, heā€™s staring and gulping, not doing well to hide the way heā€™s very clearly ogling.
When youā€™re changing, heā€™s quickly glancing away after you catch him stealing looks at you, his cheeks pink as he holds his hands over the tent slowly forming in his pants.
And once you start fucking?
Well, youā€™ve noticed his fascination, and youā€™ll capitalize on it. Grab his cock and trace your nipples with the tip, and just watch the way he shivers, his eyes unable to look away while he whispers a gravelly fuck under his voice.
Play with your tits as you wait for him to undress, pouting up at him and begging him to hurry up, to come fuck you please, youā€™re too horny to wait.
Push your breasts together and ask him to fuck them, telling him itā€™ll feel so good, and how you want him to leave his cum all over the soft skin.
Purposefully bounce more than you actually need when he fucks you while youā€™re on your back, so that the fat jiggles even more and watch the way his eyes widen, his pupils dilating as he fucks into you with new fervor.
Grope and squeeze at them as he hovers over you in missionary, and youā€™ll feel the way his thrusts grow faster, harder, more desperate, his eyes trained on the way you work at the soft, supple flesh.
The root of his love for your breasts really comes from just how soft they are; heā€™s not used to anything as welcoming or comforting as your chest, and when you let him rest his head there, fall asleep behind you with a hand cupping one, letting him idly suckle at a nipple as you card your fingers through his hair, how can Gyutaro not grow to love them?
And love them he will ā€“ the copious amounts of love marks, bruises and hickeys littering the sensitive skin will make his obsession more than obvious, as will the way he essentially creams his pants the first time his fingers brush against them.
The large stain against the fabric and the slack-jawed, red-faced expression he gives you will have you more than aware that just a simple flash of your tits will leave Gyutaro puddy in your hands, willing to do anything for you.
Hand Holding
Itā€™s not really a kink, but as your sexual relationship with Gyutaro progresses, youā€™ll find that more often than not he manages to snake his hand into yours. When heā€™s fucking you in missionary, hips smacking against you fast and hard, heā€™s holding your hands above your head, gritting his teeth and whining in your ear because youā€™re too ā€“ too fucking tight, shit, ā€˜m gonna come, you want that? You want my cum in you?
Heā€™ll start off with his hand wrapped around your wrist, but as the sex continues and he gets closer to his orgasm, heā€™ll switch to interlacing his fingers with yours, pressing your hand hard against the mattress, the tendons in his hands and forearms flexing as his abs and balls clench up, warm cum flooding your cunt and leaving him gasping your name.
When heā€™s got you bent over, pretty ass on display as he stuffs you full with his cock, heā€™ll lean over you, a large hand covering one of yours, dwarfing yours and overwhelming you even more, his body literally covering every inch of yours.
Even when perched on top of him, grinding against him and biting your lip because it feel so very good, heā€™ll alternate between cupping the globes of your ass and catching your hand, clutching it in his hand as he tries to keep his grounding and not come too quickly.
Frankly, itā€™s almost unconscious ā€“ he doesnā€™t actively realize itā€™s happening until you point it out to him, in which case heā€™ll grow defensive, telling you that youā€™re wrong and mistaken, embarrassed to admit that he naturally does something so human, so weak and gentle.
But really, itā€™s just another way to extend the intimacy with you ā€“ youā€™re so pretty and sweet and so very lovely, and though heā€™s kidnapped you and forced you into some twisted form of a relationship with him, thereā€™s something about the moments where heā€™s inside of you that leaves him feeling fuzzy, warm, wanted. And perhaps itā€™s the centuries of neglect and self-hatred that lead him to desperately chase that feeling of security and acceptance, or perhaps itā€™s just natural instinct left over from his human days.
Regardless, Gyutaro will almost exclusively only ever orgasm if your hand is somehow touching his ā€“ he needs that intimacy to let himself finish, emptying himself inside of you while clutching onto you, keeping you there and steady and still, stopping you from squirming away or escaping when heā€™s trying to give you his cum, gifting you with the most intimate, personal thing he could. And when heā€™s coming, heā€™s squeezing at your hand, hard.
The pleasure is just so overwhelming, and he needs something to grasp onto, something to keep him grounded and keep him from rutting into you and humping you into overstimulation, his cries and warbled moans sounding pitiful. He doesnā€™t mean to crush your hand, but sometimes heā€™ll hold so tightly that you wind up with big finger-shaped bruises across your palms and the back of your hands, the sight making Gyutaro ashamed because he hadnā€™t meant to hurt you, but also pleased because now heā€™s marked you.
Thereā€™ll be a constant reminder of him every time you look down at your hands, every time you do basic tasks or touch things. It's a thought that makes him weirdly smug, and so while Gyutaro will often try to deny your accusations of him always holding your hand during sex, but he knows itā€™s true.
(But really, you should be grateful itā€™s just your hand ā€“ at least itā€™s not your throat, where heā€™s much likelier to lose control.)
But even outside of when he orgasms, Gyutaro really, really likes to hold your hands. His favorite time to consciously do it is when heā€™s got you perched in his lap, his chin resting on your shoulder while you lean back against his chest.
Heā€™ll want you fully nude so that heā€™s free to explore and roam your body with his hands, occasionally pinching at your stomach or groping at your breast. He wants you sat on his cock, the hard length nestled inside of you while you both simply bask in each otherā€™s presence, him turning to bury his nose against your neck and deeply inhaling, his cock twitching inside of you.
Gyutaro grows a penchant for cockwarming with you as time goes by, because while he doesnā€™t always want to fuck you (though itā€™s not too terribly difficult to persuade him ā€“ just say please and heā€™s putty in your hands, so frantic to get his cock out that heā€™s ripping at the bandages of his pants) thereā€™s something about the intimacy of being inside you but just cuddling you or holding you that satisfies his clinginess.
Plus, this way he can indulge in the feeling of your cunt in a non-sexual way ā€“ youā€™re just so warm and inviting, taking his breath away every time without fail, the sensation so lovely and foreign to him that he wants to spend every possible moment inside of you, even if heā€™s not fucking you stupid. And the whole time he's lodged inside you like this, his fingers are wrapped around yours, marveling at the size different and tracing the lines and patterns on your hand.
Theyā€™re just so much softer and better than his ā€“ so innocent and not capable of so much death and destruction as his. Youā€™re just so cute, in a way that makes him crazy, and heā€™d be stupid to not take advantage of having someone like you to touch and taste and share his best.
And Gyutaro is many things, but stupid is not one of them.
OTHER NOTABLE KINKS INCLUDE:
Cock Worship
Although Gyutaro isnā€™t an inherently selfish lover, he canā€™t deny that having you fawn over him gets him hot under the collar, his pants growing uncomfortably tight and his mouth feeling dry. Thereā€™s just something about the idea of you worshipping him that gets him equal parts mortified and horribly aroused.
To have all of your attention on him in a non-sexual context steals his breath away, making him struggle to seem interesting and cool and attractive, even if he knows he isnā€™t. And so, in a sexual context this is only amplified ā€“ he wants you to like him, to find his body and him generally attractive, and to have you blatantly doing that during sex would make his head spin, embarrassment eating him alive even as he enjoys every second of it.
And to have you worship any part of his body is wonderful, but to have you worship between his legs?
Well, his cockā€™s not especially pretty, and he knows it ā€“ itā€™s long, long enough that itā€™s right on the border between hurting and pleasurable when he sinks inside all the way to the hilt. Itā€™s sensitive, always leaking precum so itā€™s sticky and wet and glistening, with a set of heavy, swollen balls sprinkled with black hairs hung right below.
Itā€™s intimidating and will leave you a bit nervous of how heā€™ll possibly fit inside of you, but Gyutaroā€™s eyes roll to the back of his head when he sees and feels your fingers wrap around him, pumping and flicking your wrist at the tip, the sensation of you jerking him off making his hips buck up into the air.
Having you give him long, slow, lazy pumps of your fist while you list off all the reasons you love his cock in between sloppy, wet kisses would have Gyutaro coming in mere minutes, the attention and praise going directly between his legs.
When youā€™re on your knees in front of him, make him shudder and flush by gripping him, making a show of licking from the base to the tip, suckling on the swollen, red tip and flicking your tongue against his slit, dipping in slightly and feeling the way he throbs in your mouth.
Move down to fondle and suck at his balls ā€“ if youā€™re able to fit a whole one in your mouth, youā€™ll hear a strangled s-stop, stop stop stop ā€˜m gonna come too fast, the pleasure literally too much for him to handle.
Give him the erotic sight of you tracing the outline of your lips with his tip, smearing precum all over them so that theyā€™re glistening with a clear, off-white sheen. Rub the outside of your cheek against his length while you stare up at him, licking your lips and smiling, and youā€™ll literally see his face turning red, his sharp teeth biting at his lip and drawing blood because fuck, youā€™re so sexy and provocative and having you say that you love his cock is making his heart flutter.
And when heā€™s inside you, thrusting in and out and making you clench and tighten up, purposefully flex the muscles, making everything tighter and more intense, telling him that he deserves the tightest you can offer, and feel the way he immediately busts inside of you, the groan that forces its way past his lips sounding pained and desperate and pathetic.
Ā Which brings us to another major facet of his enjoyment of cock worship ā€“ please worship his cum. Itā€™s a bit runny and thin, shooting out of him in long spurts, always wickedly warm and getting absolutely everywhere. Let him come inside you ā€“ whine out a Ā please give it to me Gyutaro, need you to come for me, please please want your cum!
Heā€™s stuffing you full every time he fucks you, those yellow eyes of his eagerly watching it ooze out of you after heā€™s pulled out. When youā€™re sucking and licking at him, let him push your head as far down as you can go, sending rope after rope down your throat, his nails digging into your scalp as he gives a few sad last spurts, only a drop or so managing to hit your tongue.
Let him pull out of your mouth and give himself a few good tugs, cum splattering all over your face while he groans your name and a slurred take it. Lick it off your lips and look up at him with cum all over your cheeks and chin, and youā€™ll see the way he snarls and throws you onto the makeshift bed he shares with you, immediately ripping your thighs apart and diving into you like a man starved, the wet noises of his tongue diving between your folds absolutely depraved. Ā 
Youā€™re just so, so very wonderful when youā€™re worshipping him, so please do ā€“ one the bright side, itā€™s the absolute fastest way to get him to come, just as long as you sound like you really mean it.
Spitting
This kink is one that takes both you and Gyutaro by surprise. It happens very suddenly, and it takes a moment for both of you to process exactly whatā€™s happened, Gyutaroā€™s spit sitting against your tongue and tasting like him.
Itā€™s a manifestation of his possessiveness over you ā€“ youā€™re his. His little human, his lovely woman, his pretty cunt to touch and fuck and bury himself inside of for hours on end. And so, when heā€™s got you folded into a mating press, strong arms keeping your thighs pinned to your chest with absolutely no wiggle room, your face all screwed up in pleasure and your occasional gasps of his name, how can Gyutaro not want to mark you as his?
Youā€™ll find that he often uses those possessive nicknames for you in the bedroom too, always going on and on about how youā€™re his girl, his cunt, his love.
And really, spitting in your mouth and on you is just a natural progression of this sentiment. He starts off with spitting onto your breasts ā€“ a glob of saliva landing on a sensitive nipple, making everything slick as he pinches and toys with the area, hearing you keen above him.
Then itā€™ll transition to him spitting onto your collarbone, rubbing the wetness over the bone, leaning down to suck dark hickeys against your skin, getting the area even more sticky with his saliva.
Heā€™ll move on to spitting directly onto your cunt after that, spreading your pretty folds and letting the spit land right over your quivering hole, loving the way you jerk slightly at the weird sensation. It makes it easier when he fingers you, just that extra layer of wetness making his fingers glide in and out of you, pulling moans and whines from your lips.
Heā€™ll spit at your asshole when heā€™s got you bent over, thumb rubbing against the hole and only slightly dipping in, enjoying the way you yelp and get all tense.
Itā€™s only after heā€™s grown comfortable with spitting all over your body that he finally ends up seeing your open mouth under him as he fucks you with fast, harsh thrusts, hovering above you and staring down at you without blinking. Heā€™ll spit directly onto your tongue, staring with panting breaths, before telling you in that familiar strained voice to swallow, his eyes watching the way your throat bobs as you do what he says.
Itā€™s hot, really ā€“ the kind of thing that makes his cock twitch and bob, the idea that you have his saliva inside of you making something in his gut sit pleasantly.
And if you were to spit in his mouth, Gyutaro would actually fucking whimper. He wants you to be possessive over him, to want him all to yourself, to think of him as yours ā€“ and if you were to be riding him, hips clapping against his as you milk him for everything heā€™s worth, Gyutaro would gladly open his mouth wide, waiting with baited breath and shut eyes to feel your warm spit against his tongue. Heā€™ll swallow for you, even opening his mouth again in case youā€™re feeling generous and want to give him more.
He just thinks itā€™s hot, and heā€™d be more than willing to bring spitting into your non-sexual lives too ā€“ itā€™s just so intimate and meaningful, donā€™t you agree?
BIGGEST FANTASY:
As a general rule, Gyutaro is a massive fan of touching you.
Thereā€™s quite literally nothing about your body or yourself that could ever turn him off; he thinks every inch of you is exquisite, no matter what your personal qualms may be. And because he thinks of you as something so wonderful and sweet and his, he finds everything that your body does equally as arousing as your pretty face.
Ā And so, while heā€™s never given it much thought, the moment he smells blood in the air around you, heā€™s immediately fighting off both his appetite and the intense fear coursing through him because why the fuck are you bleeding?
Heā€™s not sure whatā€™s going on initially, until he follows the blood source and finds it to be between your trembling legs. Youā€™re scared, understandably, at why heā€™s so suddenly yanking your legs apart, eyes boring right into your crotch, but when he starts ripping at the cloth covering you, thereā€™s not much you can do.
And so, once you explain whatā€™s going on after his frantic why are you bleeding is asked in a panicked voice, suddenly Gyutaro is stiffening up, his thoughts running wild. Heā€™d always been just slightly curious ā€“ you smell so sweet, and while thereā€™s no part of him that desires to eat you, thereā€™s something about the way your blood smells, the way you smellā€¦
He quickly learns that having sex with you while youā€™re on your period is his absolute favorite. Youā€™re so sensitive and pliable, your face screwing up at even the slightest presses of his fingers against your clit, your pussy always wet with blood, easy to slip his fingers in and out of.
He loves it, and the way your smell grows even more pronounced during this time has his head spinning, and fuck the taste ā€“
He thinks heā€™s lost his mind the first time his lips touch your pussy with a smear of your blood across it, the sweet and metallic taste making his hips involuntarily jerk, his orgasm dangerously close already.
Heā€™s always, always willing to pleasure you while youā€™re menstruating, to the point where heā€™s actively offering once he smells that familiar tinge of metal in the air, practically begging you with those half lidded eyes to let me make you feel good, yeah? Iā€™ll be gentle, or at least Iā€™ll try.
Heā€™s careful with his motions at first, though it doesnā€™t last long ā€“ his fingers press into your thighs, nails dangerously close to piercing the skin, while his tongue laps at your cunt like a man starved.
Besides, arenā€™t orgasms healthy for women, especially during this time of the month? Heā€™s heard so from the other Oirans (in hushed, embarrassed whispers), and what kind of a lover would he be if he didnā€™t attempt to take care of your every need?Ā 
You winced, the cramps in your lower stomach making shifting your sitting position difficult. Your period had arrived very suddenly ā€“ it was just starting, and a quick swipe of your fingers below your panties had you sighing in frustration. The dank light of the lair was bright enough to show the red stain of your fingers as you retracted your hand, and with a dejected sloop of your shoulders you leaned back against the dirt wall. Eyes closed, you let your arms wrap around your stomach, resigned to the knowledge that youā€™ll bleed out through your clothes and onto the dirt ground below before youā€™d ever ask Gyutaro for sanitary supplies.Ā 
Not that heā€™d say no ā€“ although, maybe that scared you more.Ā 
Daki scrunched up her nose as she registered the smell, sending you a look. ā€œWhatā€™s that stench?ā€
You bit your lip, quickly apologizing. ā€œIā€™m sorry, it should be over inā€¦ā€Ā 
Unsure of how much Daki knew of menstruation, you left the question unanswered, instead wincing as another cramp rolled through. She grunted, her brow twitching as she crossed her arms. ā€œArenā€™t you going to answer me?ā€
You glanced at her, begging with your eyes for her to leave it alone, and despite her scowl, she merely sighed and pivoted on her heel, jumping up to race out of the lair and into the night air far above. You sighed as well, closing your eyes and relaxing as much as you could.Ā 
Your relaxation was cut short, however, as a loud bang and a voice wailed out, ā€œWhy is there blood? Whatā€™s going on?ā€
Gyutaro had arrived, and as you opened your eyes, you were met with the sight of him rushing forward, grabbing a knee in each hand and spreading your legs with a surprising amount of force.Ā 
ā€œFrom hereā€¦ā€ He muttered, head leaning down as his gaze focused on your clothed pussy, the kimono and underwear youā€™d been dressed in earlier that day already seeped through with blood. The red stained the fabric, sending Gyutaro into a further state of panic.Ā 
Nails dug into his neck and chest as he stared wildly at you, leaning deeply into your personal space as he growled, ā€œWhat happened?ā€
You shrank back, stuttering out, ā€œI ā€“ Iā€™m menstruating.ā€
Gyutaro blinked, his breath heavy with the panic still running through him. ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œIā€™m menstruating. Iā€™m okay, Iā€™m ā€“ Iā€™m not injured.ā€ Your voice was weak, but Gyutaro didnā€™t seem to notice.Ā 
ā€œWhat is menstruation?ā€ He asked, the scratching sound of his fingers against his neck still prominent in your ears. ā€œWell?ā€
ā€œItā€™s um, a sign that Iā€™m fertileā€¦ā€ You whispered, fear squeezing at your heart.Ā 
Gyutaro stared at you for a moment, before glancing down between your legs. ā€œAre you in pain? Does it hurt?ā€
You shook your head, hoping heā€™d believe the lie.Ā 
A moment passed, before he visibly gulped. He slowly lied down on his stomach, his hands frozen for a second before suddenly ripping at your clothing. The area surrounding your pussy was ripped off, exposing yourself to the cold air as you gasped and shivered. The sudden motions were over before you can blink, Gyutaroā€™s eyes trained on your bloodstained folds.Ā 
He looked like a child in a candy store; dilated pupils, his breathing heavy, lips parted enough to allow drool to pool at the edges. You closed your eyes, willing yourself to not flinch when he was this close to you, especially as you saw his razor sharp teeth.Ā 
You yelped when a finger reached out to very lightly brush over your pussy, his skin just barely grazing your own. You bit your lip.Ā 
He repeated his ministration, adding a bit more pressure. A moan slipped past your lips as his finger passed over your clit, and immediately you clamped a hand over your mouth, eyes wide as his gaze snaped back up to you. His face was bright red, you realized, the blush heavy over his cheeks as licked at his lips. With his gaze still locked on yours, he pressed back on that same spot, your clit oversensitive and making you lowly groan, your thighs involuntarily jerking as he began rubbing up and down the area.Ā 
ā€œG-gyutaroā€¦ā€ You whined out, tucking your lower lip under your teeth as you lightly squirmed. He watched with rapt attention. You seemed to be enjoying yourself ā€“ do you like being touched while youā€™re ā€˜menstruatingā€™? As long as you werenā€™t injured with all this blood ā€“ this blood, that was such an intoxicating, delicious scent, the best thing heā€™s ever smelled.Ā 
With a small, wobbly smile up at you, Gyutaro suddenly dove in, lips pressing against your folds as you gasped and jerked your hips, sending him in even deeper so that his nose brushed against your clit. You gasped his name, encouraging him to dart his tongue out, your blood immediately registered on his taste buds. His eyes blew wide, his hips jerking forward against the ground, the sudden wave of arousal because of your scent making his knees feel weak. He moaned around your skin, his tongue eagerly licking and getting to work against your sensitive skin.Ā 
Groans and whimpers vibrated against you, his sounds rivaling your own as you moaned and reached a hand down to run through his hair. Gyutaroā€™s grip on your thighs tightened at the feeling, and when you tugged a bit at the roots, the growl that left his lips had your pussy clenching around nothing.Ā 
ā€œGyu-ā€œ You started, your eyes fluttering shut at the sensitivity of his tongue on you. It was too much ā€“ the pleasure too acute, but as a hand left the plush of your thighs and instead snaked down to press against your clit, you gasped.Ā 
A strangled moan slipped past your lips as Gyutaro worked his finger in circles against your bundle of nerves, his tongue still licking and slurping against your folds. The combination of the stimulation had your head spinning, the sensation nearly too much, and as you whined out his name and dug your fingers even more harshly against his scalp, Gyutaro couldnā€™t help but moan in response.Ā 
You tasted so fucking good ā€“ the best blood heā€™s ever feasted on. Sweet, yet savory, a taste entirely your own. His cock was achingly hard in his pants, pressing against the bandaged cloth as he ground his hips against the dirt floor of the lair, the pressure not nearly enough to relieve the terrible ache. He wanted more more more ā€“ more of you, more of your perfect little pussy, more of the sounds slipping past your lips, more of the taste of your blood.Ā 
Soon you were shaking, thighs trembling as your orgasm crashed through you, your head throwing back as you cried out, slick and blood mixed together on Gyutaroā€™s tongue, chin and fingers. His thumb never stopped its motions, continuing the bliss as you slowly came down from your high, your clit nearly rubbed raw as the overstimulation began hitting you.Ā 
Squirming, you tried to push his head away from your cunt, but Gyutaroā€™s growl had you stopping quickly.Ā 
Pulling back slightly (only enough to speak), Gyutaro warned in a low voice out of breath, ā€œDonā€™t move, stay still or Iā€™ll make you come so much you cry.ā€
You only gulped and nodded, the feeling of his nails pressing into your thigh making you shiver, your hips jerking at the overwhelming sensation of Gyutaroā€™s ministrations.Ā 
ā€œTastes so good, so so so good ā€“ā€œ Gyutaro moaned, the sound muffled against your skin as he gulped and sucked at your pussy, nearly making out with your delicate folds. You whined, squeezing your eyes shut tightly ā€“ it was too much.Ā 
But for Gyutaro, itā€™d never be enough; after all, how could he let such a delicacy between your legs be taken for granted? Especially when you looked so pretty all panting and bloody once heā€™d fucked you with his tongue, fingers and cock more times than you could count.
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Yandere! Kyojuro Rengoku NSFW Profile
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Yandere! Kyojuro Rengoku x fem! reader
Tw: kidnapping, mentions of non-con, dub-con, breeding, non-consensual touching, dry humping, masturbation, panty sniffing, a brief mention about virginity being sacred but no explicit mention of whether reader is a virgin or not, Kyojuro is a virgin tho so corruption kink kind of, pillow humping, coercion, allusions to lactation kink and pregnancy kink, choking, spitting, Kyo gets sex advice from Tengen, Kyo picks you up at one point but remember he's literally a Hashira and could pick anyone up no matter their weight, fem reader, MDNI
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WC: 12K
HABITS:
In general, Kyojuro isnā€™t an incessantly horny man. Not only does he hold women in a high respect and doesnā€™t inherently sexualize them, but to be quite honest he simply doesnā€™t have time to be regularly indulging in sex or even masturbation. Heā€™s a busy man, and when others are settled under their covers, either sleeping or moaning in anotherā€™s ear, heā€™s out in the dark, dangerous night hunting demons.
And so despite being in the sexual prime of his life, Kyojuro doesnā€™t have a huge amount of experience. Heā€™s never considered actually touching a woman before, mostly because he didnā€™t feel the urge to and because he firmly believes in the idea of saving himself for his wife and life partner.
And even once you step into his life he doesnā€™t magically become some sex-crazed monster ā€“ eventually he is, sure, but itā€™s gradual. It takes a while to reach that stage, for him to both desire you enough and desire sex enough to be wasting his time fantasizing about you and your body.
Little seeds will be planted in his mind as the weeks and month pass, his obsession slowly developing and leaving him floundering when small, inappropriate thoughts begin seeping into the edges of his mind.
Heā€™s noticing the way your kimono dips down just a bit one day ā€“ your collarbones are pretty, and he canā€™t help but have a fleeting thought of how soft the skin of your neck and shoulders must be.
(Heā€™ll return home that night and try to forget that thought, going through an even more extensive training regime than normal, but even by the end of the some four hour session, heā€™s still imagining how the skin of your collarbones must taste.)
Heā€™s suddenly noticing that your voice gets higher when you get flustered, the pitch raising just slightly, enough for him to notice and mentally file away for future reference.
(Would your voice get higher if he were to fluster you? How would you sound when heā€™s just kissed you, your lips swollen and your eyes dazed? How would you sound when heā€™s touching you, his hands settling at your waist or cupping your breasts, or perhaps even slowly, carefully dipping his fingers inside of you, feeling you tighten up and clench down and gasp and writhe and moan his name - )
He becomes acutely aware of the way you always seem to bend over to pick things up, your clumsiness coming into play as he finds himself unconsciously moving to stand so that he has an unobstructed view as you bend over, his eyes blatantly fixed on the curve of your ass, his lips slightly parted.
(Heā€™s definitely thinking of that image later that night, one of his rare nights off, with his hand wrapped deathly tight around his cock as he imagines you bending over for him - perhaps over his dining table, or maybe even over his knee as he gropes and squeezes and plays with you.)Ā 
The thoughts feel largely out of place initially, more often than not leaving him slightly dazed and confused because heā€™s never thought about how soft and smooth a womanā€™s thighs must be, nor about how your hands feel so small in comparison to his: less calloused and rough and warmer.
Itā€™s strange, but as his delusions grow deeper and his feelings for you only intensify, Kyojuro finds himself rationalizing that it isnā€™t so disrespectful to be thinking this way ā€“ youā€™re practically already courting, and while you may not yet possess the Rengoku name, you will soon enough.
And once youā€™re wed?
Well, surely you must know what married couples do ā€“ pleasuring one another, loving one another, spending hours tangled in the sheets with gasps and cries ringing through their ears, sweat and kisses and cum covering every inch of their bodies. And if thatā€™s your future ā€“ which heā€™s positive it is ā€“ then whatā€™s the harm in imagining it?
He imagines all sorts of domestic scenarios with you, so why should it matter if the clothing is removed and your pretty smile is replaced with a pretty moan?
Itā€™s fine ā€“ and so, while he still doesnā€™t wring himself dry to you every day, heā€™s sure to settle down and explicitly imagine being with you in an intimate way at least three times a week ā€“ even if that means unzipping the pants of his uniform with a demonā€™s blood still staining his hands, freshly killed and sending adrenaline through his veins.
(Adrenaline that then gets channeled into imagining the way youā€™d be so proud of him for outsmarting the demon and successfully eliminating it ā€“ perhaps youā€™d be so proud that youā€™d be willing to get on your knees for him, your soft lips wrapping around him and sucking, your little moans making his head spin and your nimble fingers kneading and groping at his balls. Ah yes, what a lovely thoughtā€¦)
So while heā€™s not the most horny yandere of his comrades, heā€™s certainly no saint. But really, how could he be when youā€™re so damn alluring?
When it comes to actually touching himself, Kyojuro finds that his pleasure comes easiest when heā€™s actually doing the work, actually putting effort into getting himself off. It feels okay to simply pump his fist up and down, but itā€™s not enough ā€“ because being with you would be so much more overwhelming, even just your body heat alone making the experience ten times more powerful, more intense, more enjoyable.
He wants to immerse himself in the fantasy of actually having your soft body to kiss and touch and love, and he finds the best way to really achieve this is to fuck something rather than fucking his fist. But heā€™s a loyal man, and would sooner end his life than fall into the arms of another woman, even if only for a night.
And so, he compromises by fashioning a pillow ā€“ one with a covering of your favorite color, of course ā€“ into a substitute for yourself.
And while it feels good to have the pillow at all, Kyojuro finds that even just the simple pillow isnā€™t enough ā€“ it needs more, to be more representative of you, to just be better at convincing him that itā€™s really your wet, warm cunt heā€™s sinking into with every thrust rather than the dense plush of the pillow.
And so, with dark ink, he musters up every bit of artistic talent he possesses and carefully, oh so carefully draws in your features as much as heā€™s able to. Heā€™s certainly no artist, but heā€™s slow and methodical with bringing to life this poor stand in for your own body ā€“ paying attention to every small detail, wanting everything to be as life-like as possible.
Your eyes are drawn on, correct down to the shape, even going so far as to try and ink on every eyelash, the flecks of color in your irises, any eye bags or wrinkles you may have.
Heā€™s drawing your nose, the outline of jaw and neck, and, of course, your lips. Heā€™s drawn them so that theyā€™re permanently parted, leaving you looking like youā€™re gasping in pleasure, even going so far as to try and shade them so that they appear to be wet.
(Presumably with spit, or perhaps something a bit thicker, a bit hotter ā€“ it depends on the fantasy.)
The drawings continue down your body, making sure to outline your neck and shoulders, even down to your hands and fingers. (One hand is drawn with all your fingers curled and your thumb touching your index finger, so that a circular hole is made.)
Heā€™s drawn your breasts, nipples, the swell of your tummy, your hips and thighs, even your calves and the arch of your ankles.
(Heā€™s drawn you so that your thighs are spread slightly, giving him a view into what lies between ā€“ heā€™s not entirely sure of the technicalities of female anatomy, so heā€™s negating drawing any specifics and instead simply leaving the area blank, not willing to misrepresent your lovely, gorgeous figure ā€“ thatā€™d feel disrespectful to you, as if the fact that heā€™s essentially created a sex doll in your image isnā€™t. Heā€™s seen enough mothers breastfeeding children to have an idea of the upper half of a womanā€™s body, but he still shivers in excitement at learning how your upper body looks ā€“ though he thinks he has a good idea based upon how your clothing fits you, his eyes greedily observing the way the material is taut around your chest.)
Once everything is drawn, itā€™s easy to tear holes in the pillow ā€“ one between your legs, one in the curled circle of your hand, one between your pretty, parted lips.
Once heā€™s completed his work he'll eagerly, gingerly bring the pillow to his bed, gulping excitedly and immediately stripping off his clothing. His cock is already rock hard, swollen and pressing against his lower stomach, the tip a bright red and shining in the firelight of the room, precum soaking the skin.
Heā€™d managed to get a guaranteed night off-duty this evening, which means there wonā€™t be a single interruption. Heā€™ll set the pillow down flat, excitement already licking at his every muscle, the room feeling incredibly hot already. Heā€™s quick to settle himself above the pillow, his weight resting on both knees and his forearm thatā€™s pressed against the ground. His free hand comes up to lightly trace at the drawn-on curve of your jaw, his face mere inches from where he imagines yours to be.
My flame, you are so beautifulā€¦ Heā€™ll tell you, tongue flicking out to lick at his lips.
His cock twitches as he leans down to softly press his lips against your drawn ones, the kiss soft and slow and meaningful, the Hashira pouring every ounce of affection he feels for you into the action.
He imagines you kissing back; would you be hesitant, embarrassed and shy? Or would you be just as eager, perhaps wrapping your arms around his neck and running your hands through his hair, maybe even pulling on it, biting his lip and letting him know how badly you need him?
He groans, his eyes closed, lips working harder against the pillow, his tongue coming out to dart against the hole cut out, imagining your own tongue tangling with his. His hand wanders down from your jaw to your breast, fingers groping and squeezing at nothing but cotton, but the motion alone has his hips bucking, cock brushing slightly against the pillow. It makes him hiss, pulling back from the kiss and licking his lips, his eyes already half lidded and dazed.
Forgive me, I canā€™t wait any longer, I must be inside you.
His voice is breathless, and as he shimmeys upwards slightly, heā€™s spreading his legs a bit, thighs flexing as he leans back, audible inhaling as he nudges his tip against the hole between your drawn on legs, already smearing precum against the material from just a bit of contact.
His fingers are trembling slightly as he pushes in inch by inch, going slowly just like he would if it was really you, wanting to make sure you adjust to him and he feels good, so that youā€™ll be ready for him to absolutely ravish you.
Heā€™s groaning as he bottoms out, balls pressed tightly against the pillow, his chest heaving as he stares wildly at your drawn on face. You feel ā€“ you feel amazing, my flame, oh ā€“
He presses his forehead against yours as he slowly pulls back, the muscles of his ass and lower back going taut, before sinking in slowly again, an uneven sigh of your name slipping past his lips.
You feel so tight around me, does it feel good? Does it feel good to have me inside you?
Just the phrasing of that makes his head spin, the idea that heā€™s inside of you (even if heā€™s really not) making his hips snap to life, his previously slow pace picking up quickly.
Heā€™s panting already, all the breathing control heā€™s mastered flying out the window because this is different ā€“ itā€™s your body underneath him, your pretty pussy sucking him in over and over and over, your moans ringing in his ears as you cry out his name again and again.
Kyojuro Kyojuro Kyojuro, please it feels so good!
Heā€™s imagining the way youā€™d moan his name, how your voice would get so breathy, your fingers raking down his back, your legs wrapping around his hips.
He groans your name again, hips snapping into yours hard enough to push the pillow up with every thrust, his mind running wild as he imagines how your breasts would bounce at the force, practically begging to be squeezed and sucked at. A hand comes up and begins groping at nothing again, his thumb brushing over where heā€™s drawn on your nipple, his eyes rolling to the back of his head as the pleasure begins mounting.
It just feels too damn good ā€“ itā€™s so easy to imagine you below him, crying out his name as he fucks you hard enough to leave you utterly destroyed, your perfect little cunt massaging him in just the right ways.
Heā€™s chanting your name under his breath, his eyes wide and staring down at your inked face, his voice getting faster and more strained as his muscles start clenching, his balls tightening and his hips stuttering and his heart racing because oh god oh fuck oh fuck ā€“
Heā€™s pulling out at the last minute, cum spurting all over the pillowcase, his moans of your name filling the room as his hand quickly tugs, wrist twisting and moving so fast itā€™s nearly a blur. The pleasure is immense, leaving his toes curling and every hair on his body standing up straight, feeling as if fire is running through his veins.
After the last few sad spurts dribble from his oversensitive, swollen tip, heā€™s left gasping, swallowing hard and letting a broad grin slip across his face. With still heavy breaths, he pushes back any stray hair from his forehead, the bit of sweat gathered there leaving him sighing. Heā€™s quick to lean down, pressing a soft, long kiss against your drawn-on lips, a whispered I love you murmured against the pillow.
He has to swallow hard as he pulls back, euphoria still swimming in his veins at the intensity of his orgasm. Pleasuring himself to the thought of you is nearly too much - it leaves him breathless, feeling a high that doesnā€™t fade for hours after, and as he lays down beside the pillow, still stained with cum as he pulls it against his chest, imagining spooning you, he canā€™t help but shiver.
Because if it feels this good to simply imagine, how would the real you feel?
FAVORITE BODY PARTS:
Your thighs
In general, Kyojuro thinks youā€™re absolutely beautiful.
He finds you to be the single most attractive woman on Earth, and even if heā€™s never seen your body in anything more form fitting than a kimono or a slayer uniform, heā€™s absolutely sure that whatever awaits him beneath the cloth will be heaven, the thing of wet dreams.
And the moment he finally, finally has you bare below him, your pretty skin on display and waiting to be kissed, fondled, marked as his, he finds that heā€™s not disappointed in any way.
Youā€™re gorgeous ā€“ and, naturally, the most gorgeous part of you is your thighs. Thereā€™s something about the sight of them that gets him swallowing hard, his eyes growing a bit brighter and wider.
His palms get a bit sweatier when he sees the way they splay out when you sit down, the fat jiggling with every step you take, the way they just look so touchable and squeezable. He nearly has a full body reaction the moment your thighs are out on display, his body temperature rising to extreme heights and his attention straining to stay on you rather than your pretty legs.
Even in settings where soft, loving affection is occurring, he's still eyeing them, appreciating the way you look in his clothing, the simple overshirt youā€™d put on that morning stopping mid thigh and leaving very little of your upper legs to the imagination.
Ā (Youā€™ll notice the way his fingers slowly creep down from your waist, moving inch by inch until theyā€™re finally laying over the curve of your thigh, idly rubbing and pressing into the warm flesh, marveling at just how soft you are.)
And when youā€™re both intimate with one another, his enjoyment of your thighs will be more than apparent ā€“ heā€™s always touching them, his hand coming down to squeeze and stay there, almost latching onto you as he throws your leg over his shoulder, his hips never stopping the brutal pace heā€™s established.
Every position he fucks you in involves your thighs somehow ā€“ heā€™s forcing you to wrap them around his hips when he's hovering above you and pressing down on you so tightly youā€™re only able to breath in him.
When heā€™s folded you into the deepest mating press possible, heā€™s holding you in position by pressing directly against the back of your thighs rather than your knees, often leaving fingertip shaped bruises there from the sheer force and strength he has to keep at bay every time he slips inside you.
Even when heā€™s fucking you from behind, your pretty ass on display as he sinks so deeply into you that it drives him crazy, heā€™s making sure to line his own thighs up to press against yours, relishing in the way his balls clap against your clit and the soft, plush fat of your upper inner thighs.
Heā€™s paying extra attention to nip and tease you when heā€™s got his head between your legs, sucking hickeys and pressing kisses against your inner thighs as he slowly trails up from the inside of your knees.
He wants you to cage in his head when youā€™re nearing your orgasm, to squeeze as tightly as possible while he licks and moans and thrusts his tongue into you, the only thing he can see and taste and feel and hear being you you you.
Even when youā€™ve got your lips wrapped around his cock, his eyes are fixated on the way your thighs look splayed out while you kneel on them, his hips bucking as he zones out slightly, the pleasurable feeling of your mouth making him moan and struggle to maintain his composure.
He just really, really likes that area of your body, and while thereā€™s certainly no part of you that he doesnā€™t like, his penchant for touching you there and always having a hand on your thigh will be very, very apparent to you.
So if you want to tease him, to see the way his eyes darken a bit and his smile grows a bit sinister, sit down with your legs slightly spread, stare at him with those pretty, pouty eyes of yours, and tell him that youā€™ve been feeling sore, will you please give me a massage, Kyo? I miss your touchā€¦
Youā€™ll have trouble walking the next day, and the littering of bruises, hickeys, and bite marks against your thighs will serve as proud trophies for Kyojuro, who will insist you not cover them up.
His mouth
In the context of sex, Kyojuro lives to please. Heā€™s being completely honest when he firmly tells you that your pleasure is his, because he really does feel that way.
When you touch him it makes his head spin and his hips involuntarily buck, but when he touches you?
Well, more often than not heā€™s coming alongside you when heā€™s fingering you, that telltale groan of o-oh and the wet warmth youā€™ll feel against your skin letting you know exactly how watching you fall apart is affecting him. And similarly, he gets very, very into it when heā€™s got his mouth working at you, his talented tongue drawing tight circles over your clit and his hair tickling the inside of your thighs.
Every sexual encounter with Kyojuro will involve him eating you out in some capacity, both because he wants you to feel good, and also because he genuinely enjoys the taste of you and the feel of you against his tongue.
And heā€™s good at it too ā€“ he starts off slow, teasing you with playful nipping and smiles against your skin, his eyes looking up at you the whole time, forcing you to keep eye contact because he wants you to see how he pleasures you, for you to see how right he looks between your legs.
Heā€™ll ghost around where you really need him for a while, making sure to pepper kisses at the juncture between your pelvis and thigh, the area right above your clit, even your lower tummy and hips.
Heā€™ll kitten lick at your folds, humming against your skin and letting the vibrations send shivers up your spine, his tongue dipping just a bit deeper each time, until heā€™s using his thumbs to physically spread your lips, lewd slurping noises filling your ears as he licks and sucks, pleasure making you sigh his name.
After heā€™s sufficiently teases you, heā€™ll press a few more kisses to your thigh, then move upwards, still staring you in the eyes, before licking his lips and pressing a soft kiss to your clit.
Heā€™ll tell you that he loves your body, my flame, especially this special spot that always makes you moan my name, before flicking his tongue along it, enjoying the way you jerk at the acute stimulation.
Heā€™s perfected the art of keeping a steady, consistent pattern against you, making sure that the rhythm can let the pleasure build, a dull warmth spreading through your entire lower body.
Meanwhile, heā€™ll always slip a finger inside of you, curling and pressing against areas he knows you like, feeling the way your thighs twitch and your moans get louder.
He likes when you run your hands through his hair as he uses his mouth on you, especially if you lightly tug or pull; the pleasure tinged with slight pain makes him blindly hump at whatever is closest to him.
And heā€™ll always, always keep going until youā€™ve reached your high, even if that means spending hours between your legs; anything to feel the way your cunt flutters against his lips, how you gasp and practically wail his name, your thighs seizing up and your slick coating his chin and lips.
His eyes close as he eagerly laps it up, addicted to your taste ā€“ and as he pulls back, his lower face glistening with your arousal and spit, heā€™ll kiss you, pulling you into a passionate, tongue-heavy kiss.
Even outside of going down on you, Kyojuro finds ways to utilize his mouth in regards to you in every situation he can ā€“ heā€™s always pressing kisses against your lips, cheek, forehead, neck, and knuckles, liking the way that it flusters you and leaves you biting your lip.
Heā€™s taking your hand in his and pressing kisses against your fingertips, singing your praises between presses of his lips, until heā€™s eventually slipping a finger into his mouth, holding your gaze as he sucks and runs his tongue up and down your skin, the intensity of the moment making you simultaneously aroused and uncomfortable.
Heā€™ll even go so far as to share your toothbrush, just because he likes the idea of a little bit of him being in a little bit of you.
(Youā€™re very aware of this, even without the whole toothbrush misfortune ā€“ his penchant for always, always finishing inside of you makes this abundantly clear.)
DRIVE:
Despite Kyojuroā€™s delusions about your relationship and how you feel for him, even he canā€™t misread the way you react so negatively to his mentions of being sexual with you. You always freeze up, eyes going wide, your head shaking no and your voice hurried as you tell him please, please no Kyojuro, Iā€™m not ā€“ Iā€™m not ready for that, please donā€™t!
Ā Heā€™ll respect that, firmly nodding and tell you to not worry, my love, I can wait for as long as it takes!
He doesnā€™t really understand it, however, because in his mind there really shouldnā€™t be a reason why you arenā€™t ready ā€“ youā€™re his, and you know it.
Ā Youā€™re living together (even if that wasnā€™t your choice) and you share a bed together when heā€™s home. You bath together (something that Kyojuro enjoys very, very much, his hands always wandering, his breath hot in your ear as he tells you that youā€™re beautiful, something hard pressing against you when heā€™s washing your hair), share a toothbrush, eat together and wear his clothing ā€“ youā€™re a couple, a partnership between a man and a woman, and wanting to express your love physically is a natural urge.
Itā€™s normal and healthy, and something he wants so, so very badly to do with you. But he understands that perhaps youā€™re not comfortable with that level of intimacy quite yet ā€“ heā€™s aware of how society views women whoā€™ve lost their virginity (heā€™d never explicitly asked you if youā€™ve touched another person, but he assumes youā€™ve saved yourself for him as heā€™s saved himself for you), and although youā€™d be giving it to the man youā€™ll spend the rest of your life with, he can respect that you might simply be afraid to lose something youā€™ve learned is cherished.
Heā€™s disappointed by your rejection of sex, but he means it when he says heā€™ll wait for you to be ready and wonā€™t force it upon you. That does not, however, mean that Kyojuro will completely abstain from interacting with you sexually. He just canā€™t help himself ā€“ sure, he may not be actively fucking you, but he finds other ways to placate the carnal desires practically begging him to rip off your clothing and press you against him while he makes you moan and writhe and fills you with him him him.
It starts small ā€“ heā€™s kissing you every chance he gets, letting them get longer and deeper, lasting sometimes minutes at a time while small moans and groans slip from his mouth into yours. His hand initially starts at your shoulder when he does this, but as time passes he gets bolder ā€“ it moves to your waist, your cheek, your hip, even over your ribcage right below your clothed breast, the edges of his fingers brushing against the underside of the pudge fat as moving up slowly, up until he pulls away from the kiss for air.
When kissing you becomes not enough, he moves to hugging you for longer periods of time, getting tighter and purposefully pressing parts of his body against you. Heā€™s always been touchy, and youā€™ve been getting hugs for nearly as long as youā€™ve known him (even before his infatuation formed, back when his feelings for you were strictly platonic ā€“ now, though, theyā€™re anything but).
But these hugs are different ā€“ heā€™s wrapping an arm around your waist and forcing you flush with his body, smiling at you with those wide, unsettling eyes while his breathing picks up ever so slightly, his pelvis pressed tightly against your own so that you can feel something ā€“ something warm, big, almost feeling like itā€™s moving against you, like itā€™s throbbing.
Heā€™ll ask you to give him a pair of your panties when he leaves for missions, smiling so brightly and boyishly when you hesitantly deliver the piece of cloth to his outstretched palm, licking his lips and bringing the garment up to inhale deeply before stuffing it away into one of the many pockets of his Demon Corps uniform, telling you with a laugh to choose a pair thatā€™s been used next time please, my flame.
(You never ask why he wants the underwear while heā€™s gone, simply because you think you know the answer already, but somehow hearing it from him would be worse, like confirming a truth you desperately wished to be false. Plus, youā€™re sure heā€™d tell you in extreme detail exactly how he uses them, too, perhaps even giving you a visual demonstration because heā€™s just so eager to interact with you, to feel your pretty eyes on him.)
Itā€™s disturbing, but itā€™s a small comfort to know that he may be pushy and make you uncomfortable but heā€™ll never truly force you into sex. Kyojuro may be many things, but heā€™s at least a man of his word ā€“ even if he very, very badly wishes he wasnā€™t sometimes.
And so as wonderful as kissing you deeper and hugging you tighter and fucking his fist to your panties is, Kyojuro eventually decides that he needs more. He needs to get as close to actually fucking you as he can without being inside of you, just as he promised.
And so the perfect solution is really just that simple ā€“ running through the motions without violating your wishes. Kyojuro is ecstatic just thinking about ā€“ which is why, when the mood strikes him, his cock straining against his trousers and his fingers itching to reach out and touch, heā€™ll strip off his clothing, smiling at you and running his knuckles against your cheek while telling you to take your clothing off please, love, I want to make you feel good.
And really, as much as you donā€™t want to, itā€™s easier on both of you if you just do ā€“ your options are let him hump you like a dog, or be forced to touch him, your own hand wrapped around his cock as he moans and sighs and thrusts into your hand while telling you how good you look. And so, once your clothing is off, Kyojuro will look at you with those eyes, licking his lips slowly and walking up to you, pressing himself against you again and letting his hands sit firmly at your waist.
My flame, heā€™ll murmur to you, his voice low and his breath a bit hitched because his cock is pressed up against your thigh and god, even that touch alone is enough to make his knees feel weak. Lay down for me.
Heā€™ll have you lay on your back, your legs spread for him and your arms over your head. Heā€™ll stand for a while, simply staring at you, the sight of you in such a provocative position making his cheeks tinge pink and his throat feel a bit dry. But soon thereā€™s too much precum dribbling from his tip to ignore, and heā€™ll climb over you, hovering over you and wrapping your leg around his waist, so that his face is mere inches from yours and his cock is pressed against your navel.
Heā€™ll swallow, leaning down a bit to press his lips against yours, relishing in the warmth of your body pressed against his own. Kisses are pressed against the corner of your mouth, then down the length of your jaw, down your neck and finally to your shoulder, the movements slow and meaningful despite the near painful aching between his legs. His hips seem to move on their own, slowly rocking forward and backwards, the friction of his cock rubbing against your skin and against the tufts of hair making him hiss slightly.
His lips find purchase at your ear, deep sighs and heavy pants impossible to ignore as he slowly picks up his pace. The stimulation feels good, but itā€™s not enough for him - he has to move faster, harder, be better, because this is really a chance for him to show you exactly what youā€™re missing out on. This is his opportunity to show you that if he were to do this inside of you, it would feel so much better for you ā€“ itā€™s his opportunity to convince you that sex with him would feel good, that youā€™d be satisfied, that he could please you.
And he commits to that desire ā€“ one forearm is pressed against the bed right beside your head supporting his weight while the other wanders from your waist up to grope and squeeze at your breast, deft fingers pinching and rolling your nipple between them. Heā€™ll groan your name, leaning down to lick at your lips and tell you that youā€™re so very beautiful, his voice strained. Heā€™ll bring the hand down to ghost over your stomach, right above where his cock is grinding and thrusting, moving to bury his nose against your neck while he chants your name. His voice is a bit slurred, the pleasure making his brows draw tightly together, his hips snapping and flexing harder and harder.
Heā€™s close, and he tells you as much ā€“ muffled against your neck, his low groan of f-feels too good, you feel so good loveā€¦
Ā With his orgasm approaching, he resorts to kissing your neck again, his hair tickling you and the feeling of his cock dragging against your skin over and over making your toes curl involuntarily, because even as humiliating and uncomfortable as this is, isnā€™t there something oddly sexy about this big, strong man making himself a fool on you, losing him mind from just the feel of you?
Heā€™s desperate for the pleasure heā€™s right on the brink of as he blindly reaches out to find your hand, his fingers interlocking with yours tightly, the moan that rises in the back of his throat high and uneven and raw. His whole body shakes as something warm and thick spurts against your stomach, a few drops landing on the undersides of your breasts, his breath heavy in your ear as he slowly, oh so slowly thrusts, riding out the last waves of his pleasure.
His hand is still gripping yours, and after a moment he pulls back and kisses you again, his tongue immediately pushing into your mouth and insistent, the red on his cheeks even more pronounced now.
Itā€™s still not ideal, grinding and humping against you like this, but Kyojuro is content to do it as many times as it takes until you finally, finally feel ready to let him love you like you deserve, to let him make you gasp and cry out his name and gush around him until youā€™re too incoherent to even think.
MAIN THREE KINKS:
Praise
Kyojuro is very vocal in bed. Heā€™s constantly talking to you ā€“ telling you how good you feel, telling you when something in particular feels best, warning you when his orgasm is dangerously near, just producing a constant stream of commentary as he fucks you. His voice is breathy the whole time, always turned up at the ends of his sentences because the pleasure is too strong, forcing him to slur his words together because fuck you feel good.
A lot of his vocalness stems from the fact that heā€™s just so excited to be intimate with you ā€“ heā€™s been fantasizing about this for a long time, long nights spent with his eyes closed and his cheeks a bit pink,
imagining the way youā€™d look underneath the pretty kimonos and clothing you wear.
Heā€™s imagined what your face would look like when heā€™s cupping your breasts, thumbing at your nipples and making your brows twitch, biting your lip as you tell him to squeeze just a hair harder, pressing yourself against him because having his hands on you feel too good.
Heā€™s imagined how your thighs would tremble when heā€™s got two fingers buried in your cunt, curling and scissoring and rubbing against your sensitive walls while you curl your toes and whine his name.
Heā€™s even imagined the way your pussy would feel as heā€™s fucking you, how it would clench down on him hard, practically begging him to stay inside, begging for every last drop of cum he can possibly give.
Heā€™s fantasized and daydreamed and imagined for months on end, each scenario only making him more anxious to finally have his hands on you, the buildup to actual intimacy with you leaving him wildly excited. And so, now that youā€™re finally with him, your perfect body warm and soft to the touch just as he knew youā€™d be, Kyojuro canā€™t help himself from telling you every little thing heā€™s thinking and feeling. Heā€™s rambling on about how pretty you look when youā€™re underneath him, your body spread out for him and completely bare.
Heā€™ll smile at you and kiss at every available inch of skin as his hands squeeze and knead at your sides, leaning back to admire the view of a flustered, bashful you underneath him all with a dreamy sigh and a small youā€™re so perfect, my flame, exactly as I imagined youā€™d be. And really, it would be sweet if it werenā€™t for the way he continues on to tell you exactly what heā€™d imagined, explicit details about how he'd fucked to his fist to the thought of you writhing below him, what pace heā€™d used, how heā€™d tightened up his grip to simulate how tight youā€™d grip him, even going so far as to tell you that this particular fantasy had him producing much more cum than normal when he eventually came.
Itā€™s too much information and will leave you feeling disturbed and a bit scared, but Kyojuro doesnā€™t seem to notice ā€“ heā€™s too deeply enthralled with the pleasure youā€™re giving him, the words seeing to slip off his tongue without him even realizing it as he thrusts into you with an almost inhuman speed.
But of course, even as lovely as it is to detail all of the fantasies heā€™s had of you, what youā€™ll most often get with him is praise. He generally thinks that youā€™re enchanting, viewing you as something perfect and lovely and so, so very wonderful, but when heā€™s intimate with you this perception of you only intensifies.
Every small burst of pleasure you give him only solidifies his infatuation with you, and he canā€™t stop himself from telling you how beautiful you look on your knees for him, your pretty lips wrapped around his cock and your eyes prickling with tears because heā€™s too big for you to take down your throat. Heā€™ll just smile, hand cupping the back of your hand and slowly easing you down his length, biting his lip at the sight and sighing out that youā€™re doing so well, you feel so ā€“ so good, yes love oh, suck just like that, it feels amazing when you do that.
Heā€™ll have you perched on his lap, tits bouncing in his face while his hands clutch at your hips and move you up and down his cock, his eyes rolling to the back of his head and a moan of your name falling past his lips, small chants of yes yes yes and gasps of your name filling the air between you.
Heā€™ll lick and suck at your clit with his head buried between your thighs, a lithe finger working in and out of you as he moans appreciatively against you, your taste on his tongue forcing him to pull back a moment to lick a long, flat stripe against your folds, his chin and lips visibly glistening as you tells you that you taste so delicious, I canā€™t get enough of you, give me more please my flame, I need more of you.
And when youā€™re gushing around his fingers a few minutes later, desperately grabbing at the pillow under your head and his hair, Kyojuro can only brokenly groan, his own orgasm not far behind yours as he thrusts his hips against the floor. Youā€™re just so pretty and perfect and wonderful, and how can he not tell you?
And after heā€™s emptied himself inside of you, heā€™ll curl you into his arms and hold you, breathing into your ear and telling you how good you did, how you did so well and made him feel so good. Kisses are pressed against the crown of your head while he does this, his compliments sounding so genuine and reverent that youā€™ll be equal parts flattered and uncomfortable because god, he really means it when he says youā€™re the most beautiful woman in the world, doesnā€™t he?
Kyojuro of course loves to be praised in turn ā€“ any positive comment from you is met with eager and wide eyes, his ministrations and motions only increasing, his desperation to please you and make you feel good nearly palpable. Your moans of his name and cries of yes and right there and please making something smug and warm swell in his chest, his obsession only deepening because you just look so right when youā€™re falling apart on his cock.
He lives to please you, so please praise him ā€“ heā€™ll return the favor with so much passion and vigor that youā€™ll almost be embarrassed for him at how high and whiny and lewd the groan he lets out when he spills inside you is.
Almost, because heā€™ll follow it up with heavy breaths and a stuttered that ā€“ that was for you, because of you, because you feel so fucking good.
Oral Fixation
Thereā€™s something about the taste of you that he simply canā€™t get enough of. Even before he stole you away, Kyojuro was quick to snatch any small item of yours that could potentially taste like you.
He managed to snag the small vial of lip balm heā€™s seen you use ā€“ the one that his eyes always get stuck on, watching the way you pucker and pop your lips, the smacking noises obscene and provocative and sexy. Youā€™d left it on the table after a lunch heā€™d invited you to, and Kyojuro ā€“ ever the gentleman ā€“ had pocketed it with the intention to return it to you later. Only, he didnā€™t ā€“ it stayed in his pocket until later that night when heā€™d fished it out, carefully opened it, and pressed the nearly empty balm against his own lips, closing his eyes and sighing because oh, if he licks his lips now heā€™ll taste youā€¦
Heā€™s got a cloth he keeps in his pocket thatā€™s reserved specifically for you ā€“ when youā€™re eating with him, going on outgoings that are strictly platonic to you but are anything but to him, heā€™ll use the cloth and wipe off bits of food sitting on your lips, some stray sauce on the corner of your mouth. The cloth is kept in his pocket until later, when his cock is bright red and swollen and drooling precum for you, his lip caught between his teeth as he uses the cloth to tug and twist at his sensitive head, the friction of the cotton against his skin making him shiver and writhe and curl his toes all the while your name falls from his lips.
And once heā€™s done, heā€™s quick to bring the cloth up to his mouth, tongue lolling against the material as he tastes his cum and you mixed together, a flavor that gets the last sad little spurt of cum oozing from his swollen tip, the sensation making him groan lowly.
Really, he just likes the taste of you ā€“ and once your physical relationship begins, this penchant he has for tasting you only increases.
Now, he doesnā€™t have to be sneaky ā€“ no longer does he have to rely on placing your used utensils in his mouth in order to get even the slightest bit of you on his tongue.
Now he can just wrap an arm around your waist and press you close, mouth dipping down to slot his lips against yours, a moan muffled against your mouth because god, youā€™re so sweet and warm and he wants to drink in everything you can give him.
(Yes youā€™ve watched him kiss you and pull back, swallowing and licking his lips, telling you that your spit tastes delicious, my flame, please give me more before diving back in, kissing you and sucking on your tongue so hard you can practically feel his desperation.)
Now he can press kisses against your neck and jawline, tongue lathing up and down your collarbones while he licks and sucks, the dark bruising making his eyes light up and his breathing a bit uneven.
(Normally Kyojuro is strictly against harming you, but thereā€™s something about hickeys that makes him sway ever so slightly on this rule. Perhaps itā€™s because heā€™s the cause of the dull pain, or maybe itā€™s because every time heā€™s working at your neck and shoulders you always let out these little whines that go straight to his cock, your fingers gripping tighter at his hair. Sometimes, when heā€™s particularly pent up and desperate for you, he swears he can even feel your cunt throbbing through the layers of clothing separating you, as if youā€™re just as needy and frantic for him as he is you. Ah, what a lovely thought.)
Now he can just gently press you against the wall, getting to his knees and throwing your leg over his shoulder while he pushing the pretty robe heā€™d bought you up to your hips, exposing the skimpy panties he'd bought for you as a present.
(Theyā€™re red, of course, with pretty lace details around the edges and a little bow at the very top, almost as if youā€™re a present for him to open and play with. Heā€™d bought them for you before heā€™d stolen you away, gifted them to you with a bright smile and not an ounce of shame, and had insisted you wear them despite your discomfort after noticing an odd stain onĀ  them ā€“ one that left a dark spot that Kyojuro refused to explain, only laughing and pressing a kiss to your cheek when asked.)
Heā€™ll lick over your clothed cunt, humming against you and chuckling when you squirm at the vibrations. Heā€™s suckling at your clit over the cloth, those eyes of his staring up at you from between your legs, the taste of you strong and making his mind spin even before heā€™s actually touching you.
But soon, Kyojuro canā€™t settle for just your phantom taste ā€“ he needs more, needs you, and so heā€™s suddenly standing up, picking you up with no effort and settling you down onto the bed, immediately laying between your legs. Heā€™s spreading your thighs and licking his lips, rolling your panties down and off your legs before absolutely devouring you ā€“ heā€™s licking and sucking loudly enough to make lewd, wet suction noises fill the room.
Thereā€™s wet schluck-schluck noises ringing in your ears as he pushes a finger inside, all the way down to his second knuckle and curling them, the pads of his fingers brushing against the spot that gets you moaning and your hips bucking up to meet his thrusts. All the while heā€™s playing with your clit, tongue tracing shapes and spelling his name, humming and moaning and sucking at you like a man starved. His stamina is high, and heā€™s keeping up the pace until youā€™re clutching at his hair and moaning his name like a prayer, the pleasure making you writhe and gasp and gush all over his fingers and chin.
But once Kyojuro gets a taste of you, heā€™s not simply satisfied with just one orgasm ā€“ he needs more, to feel you clenching down on his fingers and your clit throbbing as he fucks you through the high.
Heā€™ll simply laugh at your whines of too sensitive, I canā€™t Kyo please, keeping his steady pace and pressing a kiss against your clit that makes your hips jerk.
You can do it, heā€™ll tell you, slick and your cum smeared all across his lips, chin and cheeks. You can give me another one, let me make you feel good, my flame.
And even while heā€™s fucking you his fixation doesnā€™t decrease ā€“ you feel like heaven around his cock, sure, with your warm, soft walls clenching down on him and your slick coating his thighs, but that doesnā€™t stop his fingers from snaking up and pressing against your lips.
He'll push them inside two at a time, hot breaths against your ear telling you to suck, ngh suck for me, his hips snapping into you with more fervor as he feels your lips close around him, throat tightening and your little gagging noises as he thrusts his fingers in and out.
Youā€™re just so beautiful, and although his fixation mostly manifests as him using his mouth on you, he certainly wonā€™t deny you if you were to flip the script. You get on your knees for him, licking your lips and pawing at his cock over his pants?
The pants are off faster than you can blink, his hand already at the back of your head and guiding you down his length, his eyes rolling to the back of his head as he lets out a low groan of yes, o-oh, youā€™re so warm, Iā€™ve been thinking of this all day-!
He wonā€™t deny you when you press kisses against his exposed chest, your tongue tracing around his sensitive nipple and feeling the skin pebble, even grazing your teeth against the sensitive skin just to hear his breath hitch and the audible gulp that follows.
He just thinks the ultimate form of intimacy is to taste each other, and Kyojuro is always eager to get closer to you, and to prove just how much he loves you ā€“ and, of course, just how depraved you make him. Ā 
Breeding
Kyojuro will get you pregnant. Itā€™s not even a matter of discussion as far as heā€™s concerned ā€“ yes, itā€™s a sexual fantasy for him to stuff you so full of his cum that youā€™re literally leaking it, but itā€™s more than that. He genuinely wants to build a family with you, to have you as his sweet little housewife that he dotes on and provides for and cares for, and to complete the fantasy he needs a few children running around.
He gets this dopey grin and blushing cheeks when he imagines you with a toddler clutching at your leg and a baby nursing at your breast, something inside his chest swelling with pride and happiness. And so, every time he fucks you he will be finishing inside, stuffing you as full as he physically can.
The image of you pregnant gets his breathing shallow; something about seeing you round, your breasts swollen and nipples so sensitive you sharply gasp when he so much as brushes against them making him shift his pants, his skin feeling hot and clammy. He likes the idea of knocking you up so that youā€™re completely, utterly dependent on him for every little thing ā€“ youā€™ll be so sweet and lovely and incapable, allowing him to attend to your every need. Youā€™ll need him to walk any significant distance, to reach things on high shelves, to help you get up and out of chairs, to help with anything, really, and Kyojuro is more than happy to aid you in your time of need.
But even outside of actually getting you pregnant, the kink also satisfies some of his more shameful needs, some of his more masculine and carnal needs. After all, breeding you means coming inside you, filling you to the brim with his cum, something only he can provide you.
Thereā€™s just something about the idea of leaving you full with something so utterly him that gets him hot under the collar, his fingers twitching eagerly because just the thought makes him desperate to get his hands on you. He's not too terribly possessive, all things considered, but something about the idea of his cum settling inside you just feels right in a way he canā€™t describe, almost as if you were made to take it. As if you were made to take him, really, if the way your perfect little pussy sucks him in so well is any indication.
Besides, every time he finishes inside heā€™ll pull back and just stare, watching with bright eyes at the way his cum slowly dribbles out of you, white staining against the curve of your ass, his fingers coming up to scoop up the leaking bits and stuff them back inside you.
(And he will finish inside every time he fucks you, and even when your fist is wrapped around his girth or your lips are pressed against his base, tip making you gag at how deep he is in your throat. Heā€™ll warn you with a near-yell of ā€˜m close before pushing you down and spreading your legs so quickly that it knocks the breath out of you, nestling his tip just inside you and coming, the sheer volume and force of the spurts making you squirm because you can feel it.)
Thereā€™s lots of talk about how you mustnā€™t waste anything he gives you, how you must keep every last drop inside you, his voice strained and breathy as he groans that into your ear, a thrust punctuating each word and making you clutch onto him for dear life because heā€™s fucking you meanly, every clap of his hips against yours making you physically scoot up until you reach the edge of the bed.
Thereā€™s something about the idea of stuffing you full of his cum that makes Kyojuro near feral, his hips seeming to have a mind of their own as they snap and pound against you, his cock pushing deeper and deeper and deeper, tip nestling further inside you with every thrust.
While heā€™s fucking you, the only thing running through his mind (aside from the constant stream of compliments towards you and the indescribable feeling of how fucking warm you are) is a mantra of needing to get deeper, to go as far inside you as he can, to press right up against your womb so that when his abs flex and his pace stutters, a shallow gasp and low groan rolling past his lips, his cum can shoot directly where it needs to go. It can spurt and splatter and flood your cute little pussy, each twitch of his cock giving you more and more and more, until itā€™s literally leaking out of you, even while heā€™s still stuffed inside you.
And Kyojuro, ever the talkative lover, is more than happy to narrate the process ā€“ his orgasms always follow a rather wanton groan of your name, his voice strained and uneven as he tells you to take it, o-oh take it take it take it, take every fucking drop ngh yes yes yes!
Heā€™ll press down on your stomach as he finishes, the sensation making you impossibly tighter, the motion forcing his cum to shoot even deeper into you, his eyes wide in wonder and lust as if he can see the way his cock is twitching and throbbing, pushing out everything it can give you.
His voice nearly awed as he asks if you feel that, my love? Iā€™m breeding this lovely pussy, does it feel good? Itā€™s feels likes heaven for me, and soon youā€™ll be rounded and glowing and carrying my child.
Heā€™ll pause to press a kiss against your nipple, tongue flicking out to tease the sensitive skin, before cupping it with his hand and squeezing, his own voice turning a bit darker as he tells you that soon your breasts will be so swollen and heavy, youā€™ll be feeding our child, nursing our babyā€¦
He sucks at your nipple, hard. Iā€™m sure youā€™ll taste divine ā€“ youā€™ll give me a taste too, Iā€™m sure.
Heā€™ll run his hand along your stomach, sucking in a sharp breath and telling you that youā€™ll be full soon, that youā€™ll be swollen and big and his, your body proving to him exactly who you belong to, exactly who kisses you and fucks you and gives you what your body is made for.
He just really, really wants a family with you, so donā€™t be surprised when he forces you to lay by his side for hours after sex, his cock keeping you stuffed full, not allowing a single drop of cum to leak out, his hand pressed firmly against your stomach as he rambles on and on about baby names and how heā€™ll be there for the entire birth, how he hopes the baby has his hair and your personality, how heā€™ll protect the both of you from demons until his dying breath.
It would be sweet, really, if he wasnā€™t so insistent, if he didnā€™t have twenty names already picked out for you to choose from, if he wasnā€™t telling you that according to Shinobu the part of your cycle youā€™re currently in is your highest window of fertility, if he wasnā€™t clutching onto you and saying when youā€™re pregnant instead of if.
And when his cock slowly hardens once more inside of you, youā€™ll feel the palpable change in the air as he kisses your neck again, his hips slowly starting to move as he tells you that he has to make sure it took, I have to make sure youā€™re carrying my childā€¦ Open your legs for me, my flame, let me give you more of me.
And when he comes with a gasp of your name a few minutes later, even more cum flooding you and sending some dripping down over his cock and onto his pelvis, Kyojuro can only lick his lips, the sight of you with a rounded belly and swollen breasts making him near feral.
OTHER NOTABLE KINKS INCLUDE:
Marking
While Kyojuro isnā€™t the most possessive, thereā€™s something about the idea of physically marking you as his that gets his blood rushing, heat blooming on his cheeks, a wide grin splitting across his face.
Just the thought get him eagerly pulling you closer, nudging his nose against your neck, sighing heavily and letting you feel the way his pants slowly grow tighter, his breathing growing heavier as he groans your name.
Thereā€™s just something about the idea of claiming you as his own that makes some primal, animalistic part of him light up, so be prepared to be absolutely covered in marks as your sexual relationship progresses.
Hickeys will cover nearly all of your skin, leaving no area untouched by his lips and teeth. Heā€™ll leave love marks (as he calls them) in the shape of a heart situated on the plane of your chest, nestled right up your breasts. As heā€™s fucking you heā€™ll kiss over the area again, his hips never slowing their pace as he starts whispering your name under his breath, nearly chanting it with every clap his balls against the curve of your ass.
A ā€˜Kā€™ and an ā€˜Rā€™ are placed on your inner thighs, so that when he sits beside you he can reach over and grip the area, sending you a blinding grin and telling you that even under all the layers of clothing he can feel your love. Once the marks fade heā€™ll spend hours between your legs again, remaking the hickies so thereā€™s a letter per leg, so that every time he spreads them, excitement bubbling in his chest, heā€™ll see his letters, a mark of ownership, a reminder that youā€™re his and his alone, that your pretty skin and plush thighs and that lovely little pussy of yours is completely and utterly his.
Itā€™s just fucking hot to Kyojuro, so when he pins you down, your body nude and bared for his eyes, know that heā€™ll kiss you, lips working eagerly against your own, tongue coaxing yours in an effort to get you to engage, groans and grunts tumbling into your mouth as his hands wander down to grope at your breasts, squeezing your side, toying with the pubic hair settled on your navel.
Heā€™ll kiss you, then let his lips travel down, dipping to your neck to suck harshly against the skin, then down to your collarbone to lick and suckle, then to your nipples to bruise the area beside your areolas, then down your stomach and to your thighs, mumbling praises and sweet words of affirmation as he goes.
Youā€™ll wince and avoid looking at yourself in mirrors after heā€™s through with you, but just know that Kyojuro does it all out of love.
He doesnā€™t enjoy hurting you, but the pleasure and pride that swells in his chest when he sees you with his markings outweighs his small worries at your bruising.
Just let it happen, really, because heā€™ll be getting his way, one way or the other, and while eventually the dull throb and sting as he works section after section will grow slightly painful, at least his fingers are talented ā€“ after all, you can handle the hickies when heā€™s making you gasp his name, cream on his fingers and beg for more, more, more, right?
Choking
While Kyojuro is generally the more dominant partner in bed (regardless of your personal tastes ā€“ he likes to feel like your provider, so even if you want to peg him until heā€™s a sobbing, begging mess, little mewls of your name and p-please, need to come so bad slipping past his lips, youā€™ll likely be the one trapped below him), thereā€™s a certain allure to letting you take charge for a night every few weeks, letting you take the reigns for a few minutes.
Thereā€™s something oddly sexy about watching the way the power slowly goes to your head, how your eyes grow darker, your actions more passionate as you bounce up and down on top of him, your hands planted against his chest, pinching at his nipples, shoving your tongue down his throat all while he groans and enjoys the view.
He just likes to see the way you use him, his body simply a toy for you to get off on. Itā€™s the ultimate form of caring for you ā€“ and seeing the way youā€™re so unabashedly pleasuring yourself gets his blood pumping so hard he can hear it in his ears, the sight of you so raw and natural and not at all the shy little thing you were when he first spread your legs all those months ago making him lick his lips in anticipation.
And yet, thereā€™s a certain habit youā€™ve developed in these moments that Kyojuro absolutely cannot get enough of ā€“ that is, when your soft fingers wrap around his throat, your skin against his, pressing just hard enough to disrupt the blood flow to his brain, the feeling dizzying and disorienting and wonderful.
His eyes literally roll to the back of his head when you do this, your hips snapping and scooping above him as you tell him to hold it in, be a good boy, donā€™t come yet.
Heā€™s groaning and wildly bucking his hips, face turning slightly red as you lean down to kiss him, your lips harsh and demanding, the kiss rough and forceful.
Itā€™s heaven, Kyojuro thinks, as you clench around him, your fingers following suit, his cock twitching inside of you, his hands coming up to grope and knead at your ass as he bounces you harder and harder, the desire to come inside you suddenly washing over him.
Itā€™s something he finds himself craving as time goes on, and so while heā€™ll more often prefer to be the one on top, in charge, calling the shots, be prepared for the nights where he wants to let you do all the work.
But really, once youā€™re straddling him, sinking down onto his drooling, leaking tip and grinding, your hand wrapped around his throat, heā€™ll often do most of the ā€˜workā€™ ā€“ desperate, sad little humps up into you with his heels planted against the futon mat thatā€™ll leave you gasping and going limp, his cock reaching parts of you unexplored by your own fingers.
And when you lean down over him, your pretty face just inches away from his own flushed youā€™re your fingers wrapped around his neck, Kyojuro will eagerly obey when you tell him to open wide, his cock throbbing inside you as your spit lands against his tongue, your taste and the lewd sight of you spitting in his mouth making his orgasm hurtle towards him. As soon as he eagerly swallows his eyes are going wide, his words rushed and slurred and strained as he tells you that itā€™s so fucking good, oh here it comes, shit itā€™s coming, it ā€“ itā€™s-!
He just really, really likes the way it feels to have your pretty fingers around such a vulnerable area, so get used to it ā€“ because Kyojuro is a passionate man, and as his lover, you must be just as passionate, too.Ā 
BIGGEST FANTASY:
As a general rule, Kyojuro is vocal about every sexual desire he has with you. He doesnā€™t believe in keeping secrets, especially in the context of sex where you could both be benefitting.
He wants to share every explicit, lewd fantasy he has of you simply because he thinks you might enjoy it ā€“ you might have even been dreaming of doing the same thing, you were just too shy to tell him.
(He knows how you are ā€“ how youā€™re so very shy, always seeming to skirt away from him when he nears you, your wide-eyed looks you send him when heā€™s talking to you, how your hands are clammy and youā€™re shaking ever so slightly when he pulls you in for a kiss with far too much tongue.)
And so, Kyojuro is open and honest; painfully so, really. He wakes up one morning with you in his arms, your eyes already open as he leans in and kisses the shell of your ear, sighing and pressing his navel against your ass, telling you in that husky morning voice of his that heā€™d dreamed about tasting you until you cry, my flame, doesnā€™t that sound nice?
(And of course, youā€™ll not be leaving that bed for hours after the fantasy is spoken out into the air ā€“ Kyojuro is nothing if not determined, and his tongue seems to never tire.) After returning home from a mission, heā€™s announcing to you that heā€™d passed by a risquĆ© local shop and saw a drawing of a man and a woman where the woman was on top and oh, why didnā€™t you tell him that women sometimes enjoyed being the more dominant partner?
Youā€™ll be left to flounder, unsure of how to respond, but itā€™s too late because Kyojuro is already laying down on his back, his pants pulled down to his knees and his expression eager, the smile across his lips blinding as he tells you to come here, my love, the woman in the drawing looked to be enjoying herself, and I want to see that on you as well!
However, because he has no sexual experience before you, he doesnā€™t harbor any particularly intense fantasies for you. Heā€™s excited and aroused by the simple, straight-forward sex that he knows produces a child ā€“ missionary, mostly, or positions that involve spreading your legs and maintaining eye contact while he slides in, a hand cupping your cheek while he groans and tells you in a strained voice that youā€™re so beautiful, you feel so ā€“ ngh, so good!
And so, after a one-off chat with Tengen about wifely matters (heā€™s announced to the other Hashira that he has a wife, though none of them have met you or know that you arenā€™t actually his partner, just the woman he considers to be his wife), Kyojuro asks with complete sincerity if his friend has any advice in the bedroom.
Tengen had just laughed and clapped Kyojuroā€™s back, telling him that sex should be flashy, so donā€™t do the same things over and over! Mix things up ā€“ women love variety, so try some new positions, or a different method of pleasuring her!
When asked what other positions to try, Tengen had grinned, his eyes widening a bit as he said bend her over, sheā€™ll feel you deeper and the view will drive you crazy.
And so, that night after coming home to you, heā€™d gulped, his eyes narrowing in on your ass, his voice a bit gruff as he told you to come with me, my love, I want to try something new.
ā€œAre you comfortable?ā€ Kyojuro asks, though he sounds distracted.
Swallowing, you nod, embarrassment clear on your face. This position was beyond humiliating ā€“ Kyojuro hadnā€™t explained much when he approached you earlier in the evening, simply looking at you with those unblinking eyes and telling you to get undressed because he had something new he wanted to try out.
And now, here you are, on your hands and knees on your shared bed, clothing neatly folded in a corner of the room. Itā€™s cold, and the air is making goosebumps prickle along your skin and your nipples stiff.
If Kyojuro notices you shiver, he doesnā€™t say anything ā€“ instead, you hear him gulp, the sound suddenly much closer.
ā€œYouā€™re very beautifulā€¦ā€ He whispers, so quiet and unlike him that it makes you glance back over your shoulder. The sight youā€™re met with makes your embarrassment deepen, a mixture of shame and bashfulness seeping into your every bone.
Heā€™s standing behind you, those wide eyes of his fixated on your exposed cunt, with his cock in hand. Thick fingers wrap around his base, visibly squeezing, his balls periodically twitching even without being touched. He looks entranced ā€“ awed, almost, presumably by the sight of your ass presented on display like this.
ā€œKyojuroā€¦ā€ You start, anxious to just get started so heā€™ll stop staring at you like youā€™re something holy and sacred. Wiggling your hips, you hope heā€™ll get the message.
Instead, you hear a muffled groan and suddenly feel air brushing against your sensitive folds, the sensation making your arms feel a bit weak. You feel a sudden slimy warmth, and wet noises ring in your ears as Kyojuro presses his tongue against you, dipping in briefly to taste and rub at anything he can reach. Heavy breaths are muffled against your cunt, but the insistent press of his chin against your clit makes it difficult to focus.
ā€œKyo ā€“ oh, Kyo please need you to fuck me, donā€™t tease me.ā€ Your whines make him pause for a moment, before he slowly pulls back, pressing a single long kiss against your folds that has you biting your lip.
ā€œVery well, youā€™ll have to tell me how it feels, love. Tell me everything youā€™re feeling.ā€ He asks, gripping his base again and rubbing the tip through your folds, collecting your slick at the tip. His breathing is still loud, the way heā€™s sucking in air through clenched teeth making it obvious just how strongly the sight of you bent over and exposed like this is affecting him.
You look gorgeous ā€“ heā€™s intimately familiar with whatā€™s between your legs, of course, but this view feels so lewd. He can see your pretty hole clenching every few moments, tufts of hair decorating the pretty sight, and he can even see your other hole, the one you always tell him not to touch with a squeak and a slap of his hand.
Soon heā€™s swallowing hard and pressing himself inside, the breath sucked out of his lungs because somehow you feel tighter like this, your cunt seeming to suck him in so tightly that it almost hurts, the sensation making his knees buckle slightly.
And youā€™re certainly not helping, either ā€“ as youā€™d promised him youā€™re gasping, telling him in an airy voice, ā€œItā€™s so big ā€“ youā€™re so big, Kyo, fuck youā€™ve never felt so big, I canā€™t ā€“ you have to wait a second, please, ā€˜s too much-!ā€
And he does, with bared teeth and hands that find purchase at your ass, just as Tengen had told him to do. Heā€™s groping at the soft flesh, grabbing handfuls and pulling them apart to get a full view. A whine slips out of him at the lewd sight of his cock buried to the hilt inside of you, the angle letting him see just how you stretch to accommodate him, even seeing the edges of his balls pressed against your thighs. Itā€™s just too much, and as soon as your shaky ā€˜okayā€™ registers, Kyojuroā€™s immediately thrusting.
And the sight of him moving is even more erotic ā€“ pulling out of you and seeing the ring of white coating his base makes him lean more of his weight against you, trying to get more leverage as he thrusts back in so that he can fuck you harder, wanting to get impossibly deeper to feel more and more of you. Heā€™s entranced, watching with wide eyes the way he appears and disappears inside of you again and again, almost lost in a trance.
Your noises have him grunting, the desperate whines and rhythmic gasps every time he sinks back into you making his orgasm come creeping up much too quickly. Heā€™s just too overwhelmed, your pretty moans and cries of his name making his head spin.
Soon heā€™s bringing a leg up and pressing his foot flat against the ground, gaining better leverage and an angle that makes you scream, your cunt squeezing down on him so tightly that he struggles to pull back to just his tip. Heā€™s seen animals do this in the wild ā€“ heā€™s fucking you like an animal would, mounting you and grasping at your waist to pull you back against him harder, anything and everything to get him deeper inside, to reach a part of you that heā€™s sure no man or even you have touched.
Youā€™re just too damn pretty, and as he gasps your name and clutches onto you tightly enough to leave bruises while ropes of runny cum fill you, Kyojuro decides that he needs to try out all the other positions Tengen had told him about ā€“ perhaps heā€™ll try something called 69 with you tomorrow.
Maybe thatā€™ll get you to scream his name like this ā€˜Doggyā€™ has.
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Hi, I'm in love with your Hantengu headcanons since no one writes about him, only his clones and you totally stole my heart with your wonderful writing! Do you think you might... write him with a Breeding Kink? Oh, and Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas anon! and thank you for the kind message! youā€™re so sweet ā¤ļø
cw: pregnancy stuff / yandere hantengu / somno
I donā€™t think Hantengu actively thinks about wanting kids or wanting to get anyone pregnant, but once the thought crosses his mind it never really leaves. Itā€™s an abstract thought at first, rooted in both perversion and a sense of loneliness (or at least, thatā€™s what he tells himself). It only gets worse when he decides that you, unfortunately, have the displeasure of being his object of affection.
Hantengu is nowhere near lucid enough to realize that kidnapping you and locking you in an old, borderline derelict shack doesnā€™t make you two a married couple. But he is self aware enough to know that for some reason, you arenā€™t very happy with him. The feelings he has for you are so overwhelming that heā€™s almost incapacitated in your presence, your rejection of him is akin to rubbing chili pepper in his metaphorical open wounds.
The fantasy of so much as being able to cum inside of you, let alone get you pregnant, has Hantenguā€™s aged hands trembling and before you know it, heā€™s writhing on the floor and getting closer. Luckily for you (and unluckily for him), swatting at him with your sandal is enough to get him to back off. Heā€™s too fearful of rejection and making you upset to ever go through with his desire and need to fill you up.
Heā€™s no stranger to manipulation and guilt tripping, but that doesnā€™t mean heā€™s any good at it. Heā€™ll attempt to lay his head on your lap (made difficult by your outright refusal and the overall shape of his head) while he bemoans and whimpers about how youā€™re being so mean to him. He could make you feel good if you just gave him the chance, and having children together would make you two a proper couple. His words are somewhat incoherent and heā€™s trying to touch you wherever he can the entire time, thinking heā€™s being subtle.
You shove him away anytime youā€™re awake, but even when Hantengu slithers his way on top of you while youā€™re asleep, he canā€™t so much as undo your clothing before youā€™re awake and screaming at him. Turns out his heavy breathing and constant murmurings of how much he loves you would wake anyone up. Heā€™s tried once to give you a special tea that would ensure youā€™d be knocked out, but his hands were so shaky that he spilled half of it when trying to give it to you. The herbs he used in it were too strong and the smell was so overbearing you refused to drink it. Another loss for the demon.
He isnā€™t particularly strong (in his old man form yk), so just holding you down and getting it over with isnā€™t an option. He resorts to using your kimono as a cum rag and fantasizing about what a more domestic life with you would be like. What it would be like if you opened yourself (and your legs) to him and just let him make you happy. Sure, Hantengu cums within a minute, but due to being a demon he doesnā€™t feel the same exhaustion anyone else would from fucking you for three hours and cumming in your sore pussy far too many times than whatā€™s considered normal. Sure, at some point he does run a little dry, but thatā€™s not going to stop him. Ideally, by the time heā€™s done with you, youā€™d be too tired to tell him to leave you alone. No, in the perfect world, Hantengu gets to fill you up with enough cum (in your mouth too, just for extra loving) to the point whereā€™s heā€™s unintentionally made you feel a little sick. He could keep his cock or his boney fingers inside of your pussy to keep all of his cum from spilling out, wanting to ensure youā€™d get pregnant from it. In his perfect world, where heā€™s protected by his delusions, heā€™d get to do this to you everyday, and youā€™d love him for it.
But for now, Hantengu has to take whatever fleeting affection he can get (and ā€œaffectionā€ is a term I use very loosely here). Heā€™s sure that youā€™ll come around one day, though.
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Icky nasty stuff below the cut
And some are sneaky about it, too - Rengoku's a good cook, and you don't taste anything even slightly off with the dishes he proudly presents to you at the dinner you're to be sharing. (The dinner he'd invited himself to earlier last week, when you'd mentioned you wanted to host more often.) And what makes it worse is that not only does Rengoku get you to eat it, but he eats it too - knowing full well that a good three batches of his very own taste have been mixed in with the sauce drizzled over everything. He eats it with a smile, asking if you're enjoying it, asking if you like it, and you'll of course say yes, being honest and telling him that it's wonderful. And of course this is only confirmation of something Rengoku has known for quite some time - you're meant for each other, and the fact that you like the taste of his cum so much is proof. Ah, young love.
Feitan, on the other hand, arouses suspicion when he gives you the homemade casserole he'd slaved the day away making. Why is he giving you food? Where is this generosity coming from? Why is it so horribly burnt? (Because he can't cook - he really hadn't meant for the top, bottom and sides to be so charred, but his pride won't let him remake it.) It's confusing and it honestly scares you a little, but he's so insistent that you try it, even producing a fork for you - you can't say no. And when you bite into it, he's watching wide wide eyes, a sort of anticipation to him that makes you squirm under his gaze. He asks you how it is immediately after it touches your tongue, his voice almost sounding nervous. You answer with a forced smile that it's good and that you're thankful, and he seems to believe it. It is, of course, bad - it tastes burnt, the only flavor you can really make it being burned cheese. But perhaps it's better this way - you can't taste the bitterness of Feitan's special ingredient, so you really won't know or find the taste strange. (You will, however, find it strange when Feitan gives you the whole casserole to keep but specifically asks for you to hand him the fork back. You don't see him licking his lips under the cowl.) It's not until you're scraping the pan into the garbage that you notice a splotch of something white and sticky and a very strange consistency in the very center of the casserole, and though you don't quite know what it is, something makes you throw away the entire dish and immediately take the garbage bag out to the dumpster, not wanting whatever that is to be inside your apartment for any longer.
Some yanderes get creative with it, too - not just in food, but in drinks. The milkshake you'd told Phinks you've been craving? Well, vanilla wasn't the flavor you asked for, but you suppose it'll do. Just don't think about it too much when you take a sip and your face sours up, Phinks looking equal parts mad and embarrassed when you tell him you think the milk they used has curdled based off of the taste and consistency.
Salad dressings, mayonnaise, ice creams, soups - there's really no limit to what a yandere could imbue with his personal flavor. And if done properly, you really would have no idea - only a vaguely strange taste or a weirdly thick glaze. Aria, you disgusting, wonderful genius.
(And yes, Nobunaga is a perpetrator of this - his favorite is to tell you that the chocolates he gave you just have a white chocolate drizzle over the top. They don't.)
terrible thought of the day. Yandere that mixes their cum into your food and has you unknowingly eat said food. they think itā€™s romantic / further ties you two together.
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Yandere! Shouta Aizawa x fem! reader
Tw: mentions of dub-con, masturbation, stalking, kidnapping, voyeurism, toys, clothed sex, hair-pulling, this one is actually kind of soft and feels less yandere-y to me so sorry that this one is a little less creepy than normal, Shouta is a pleaser and lives for your praise, he gets off with a blanket you gifted him, very mild somnophilia, fem reader, MDNI
I do not condone any of the actions described in this post - this is fiction and should be treated as such. If you or a loved one is in a similar situation to anything contained in this post or my blog in general, please seek help. You're in charge of your internet consumption; please make responsible choices. With that, enjoy!
WC: 12K
HABITS
In general, Shouta isnā€™t that perpetually horny. Heā€™s a busy man with constant stress weighing on his shoulders; working as a pro while being a full-time teacher leaves him drained during the few times he gets to relax, and itā€™s a lot of work to get himself hard, to get off, and to clean up afterwards.
Itā€™s just not worth it to him ā€“ especially because itā€™s a bit sad to be left with just his fist and some low-grade, unrealistic porn as a man in his thirties, isnā€™t it?
He doesnā€™t have a partner, and hasnā€™t had one for quite some time ā€“ there was a girl a decade or so ago, but she didnā€™t last long, and the sex was subpar at best. And so, Shouta finds himself neglecting any sort of sexual activity most nights that heā€™s off work, not bothering to get himself all worked up and fuck away some of that pent up stress.
Except, then you show up.
His feelings for you form, and although it takes a long time for them to solidify, it takes an even longer time for them to turn lewd, any sort of sexual thought involving you not really taking root into heā€™s much further into his obsession.
This is for a few reasons ā€“ firstly, he just doesnā€™t have that high of a libido, and while seeing you naked when heā€™s watching from outside your window certainly gets him hot and bothered, he isnā€™t constantly fantasizing about bending you over and fucking you until youā€™re screaming his name.
(Not never, just not constantly ā€“ and at inopportune moments, sometimes. Moments where he really should be focused on the mountains of paperwork on his desk, not focused on how the desk is the perfect height for you to be standing on your tiptoes, ass poised out and your chest pressed against the hard wooden lacquer, your soft skin glistening in the dim light and your pretty thighs twitching and quivering as his fingers press deeper and deeper and deeper -)
Secondly, Shoutaā€™s already feeling such crippling guilt regarding his infatuation with you that adding on overt sexual fantasies for you would push him too far. He already hates that he thinks of you constantly, that heā€™s always idly worrying about your safety, wanting to know your location and who youā€™re with and what youā€™re doing.
He already dislikes that he canā€™t stop himself from swinging by your apartment at the end of his patrols, making sure that youā€™re in your bed asleep, safe and sound and looking so fucking pretty in the moonlight. He doesnā€™t like how wrapped around your finger you have him, so how could he justify wringing himself dry to you, depraved fantasies running through his mind as he imagines the way youā€™d cream on his fingers, how youā€™d clench down on him so, so tightly when he fucks you just right?
Shouta canā€™t ā€“ it would breach too many protocols of trust, the friendship formed between the two of you precarious enough as it is with Shoutaā€™s obsessive, disturbing feelings. He doesnā€™t think of you sexually, banishing every thought from his mind the moment it appears.
Or, at least, thatā€™s what he wishes could be true ā€“ unfortunately, his hormones get the better of him sometimes, leaving him rolling around in his bed, cock painfully hard and his mind insistently flashing images of you changing behind his eyelids.
Heā€™s embarrassed, more than anything, that he doesnā€™t have enough self control to successfully halt any lewd thoughts of you ā€“ itā€™s pathetic, really, because is he so desperate to touch you that he literally canā€™t stop himself?
Is he really so painfully, pitifully aroused by you that just the mere idea of you licking your lips or smiling at him can get him breathing hard, thankful for the bagginess of his pants?
He hates that the answer is yes, that his body is really that pent up and eager to get you under him, naked and soft and pretty, all for him and only him. Itā€™s demoralizing, but Shouta only has so much restraint ā€“ he tries to hold out for as long as he can, really. He swears.
Itā€™s torture at first, popping melatonin and chugging Nyquil, hoping heā€™ll be able to pass out and sleep off the horniness, but it never quite works. Instead, his dreams are full of you ā€“ on your knees, sucking him off so well that your cheeks are literally hollowing, drool spilling down your chin, a string of saliva and precum connecting your puffy lips to his swollen tip when you pull off for air.
Heā€™ll dream of you on your hands and knees, peeking back at him with glassy eyes and biting your lip, clearly embarrassed as you ask him to touch me, please Shouta, I need youā€¦
He always wakes up with soiled sheets, his entire pelvis sticky with now cold cum, and it becomes very, very difficult to look you in the eye that day, only able to conjure up the image of you all tied up in his scarf, your breasts perfectly framed and your thighs spread, slick covering them as you whine his name, desperate for him.
And though he tries to stave off, not letting himself actively fantasize about you sexually while heā€™s conscious, a particularly rough day of teaching and patrol have him giving up, throwing caution to the wind as he decides that he needs this, that a release is the only way heā€™ll be able to stay sane.
In the past, the few times heā€™s masturbated heā€™s always just fucked his fist, not needing anything too fancy. But for you, something about that feels disrespectful ā€“ itā€™s stupid and he knows it, but the idea of just thrusting into his hand over and over until he eventually spills all over his knuckles seems tacky, low-class, almost offensive to your image, like heā€™s tarnishing you and the way he idolizes you.
So, he relies on the next best thing he can scrounge up ā€“ youā€™d given him a blanket a few months ago, a birthday present that heā€™d tried desperately to cover his blush at receiving.
(Hizashi had pitched in, helping you decide which color and texture, having an expertā€™s opinion so that it would be perfect for the dark-haired man ā€“ a level of detail and attention to his desires that still, to this day, makes his heart flutter to think about. You cared, wanting him to be happy, and just that thought leaves his chest swelling with pride, his palms getting a bit clammy and his cheeks feeling too hot.)
Heā€™s kept the blanket on his bed, using it every single night for the limited sleep he manages to get, making sure the material is always, always touching his body. Itā€™s the only way he really feels close to you ā€“ the blanket was for him, sure, but youā€™d touched it, picked it out, held it in your arms while Shouta was dumbly gaping at you and struggling to utter out a strained thank you.
(If he tries hard enough, he thinks he can even smell you on the fabric ā€“ itā€™s not as good as if you were actually here with him, laying in his arms, touching him, but if he strains enough and pretends hard enough, thereā€™s the faintest whiff of you.)
Heā€™s gulping, throwing his uniform off and leaving it crumped up in the corner, before gently, daintily grabbing the edges of the neatly folded blanket (a stark contrast to the harsh pulling and tugging at his costume heā€™d thrown off moments earlier) and laying it out on the bed.
He lets out a shaky breath, gulping, before tying his hair back into a messy, low ponytail, excitement flitting through him because heā€™s really about to do it. Heā€™s really about to touch himself to the thought of you, allowing himself to fully indulge in the fantasy that is you, the fantasy that is imagining the way youā€™d feel against his body, your lips against his own, your hands in his hair and your thighs around his waist.
Heā€™s moving slow as he settles onto his knees on the bed, staring down at the blanket with furrowed brows. This isnā€™t quite right ā€“ the image of you laying before him, body nude and your legs clenched together in anticipation feels very, very right, but thereā€™s something missing.
A thumb comes down to idly rub at the blanket, tracing small circles against the material as he wracks his brain. Whatā€™s missing? How can he make this feel like you, like itā€™s your body heā€™s touching, like itā€™s your perfect little cunt heā€™s fucking?
Heā€™s not sure, but suddenly it hits him ā€“ your body, just as heā€™d been dreaming about.
The blanket doesnā€™t look enough like you ā€“ itā€™s two dimensional, flat and having no surface area to grip onto, nothing for him to fondle and touch and squeeze.
It needs to have more of your shape ā€“ quickly, methodically, heā€™s reaching down, grabbing handfuls of the blanket and bunching it up, forming a shape that vaguely resembles your torso. Heā€™s careful to get the exact shape of your waist and hips, making sure to leave mounds of crumpled blanket to represent your breasts, even creating a little space between your thighs that represents something soft, something warm and wet and tight ā€“ your precious little pussy, something Shouta would literally kill to feel.
He gulps as he looks down at his work, the atmosphere suddenly seeming much thicker, heavier, hotter, because now, the solid colored blanket seems like you, at least having your body shape and your vague proportions. Aizawa lets his hand run down what would be your side, pausing right over your pretend hip.
Fuck, he mutters under his breath, before shifting forward slightly, letting his weight rest on his knees and one hand as he carefully guides his cock to the space between your crafted thighs.
Heā€™d been careful to leave a fold in the fabric, a pouch of sorts ā€“ a place for him to push into, slowly spreading the two layers, trying to mimic the way your pretty lips would part for him, your walls sucking him and clenching him nice and tight, wanting to keep him inside and never let him pull out.
Shouta curses as he rubs his tip against the fabric, noting with a small, far-away sense of disdain that thereā€™s precum smearing all along the fabric, certainly leaving a stain that heā€™ll have to scrub out later. His thumb comes up to gently swipe along where he imagines your cheek to be, even feeling phantom sensations of warmth, of softness, just as youā€™d be.
He leans down slowly, throat bobbing, before letting his eyes flutter closed, his lips pressing against the blanket ā€“ right where he imagines your own to be. The kiss is soft, gentle, heartfelt, his tongue flicking out to lick against the blanket material, groaning and wishing it was your own tongue meeting his, your own spit coating his lips.
As he gets closer, body inching further down until his chest pressed up against whatā€™s supposed to be your breasts, he shuffles his hips forward, pushing past the fabric fold and into you. He groans, pulling back from the kiss to rest his forehead against where he imagines yours to be, letting his eyes shut tight, nearly squeezing them closed as he slowly rocks his hips.
The friction of the blanket feels a bit strange, not how youā€™d feel, but itā€™s better than nothing ā€“ and itā€™s so, so very easy to imagine you instead; your warm, slick walls, the way youā€™d squeeze at him when he brushes up against your spot, the way your legs would wrap around his hips, hooking your ankles and pulling him in closer, begging him to go deeper. He sighs out, biting his lip and furrowing his brow, the pleasure slowly beginning to mount.
He imagines the way youā€™d moan his name ā€“ he bets youā€™d be airy, a soft sound that gets his hips stuttering ever so slightly because he knows the way his name would sound spilling from your lips would be heaven, the sultry Shouta upturned at the end as he fucks into you just the slightest bit faster.
His hips pick up their pace at the thought of you crying his name, back muscles flexing as he slowly gets faster and faster, the slow, sweet, intimate pace heā€™d set blown to dust in the wake of his thighs propelling him forward, hips flying and smacking into the blanket so quickly and harshly that the mattress is shaking, bedframe slightly pounding against the wall.
Shouta groans, low and deep, imagining the way youā€™d beg him to go faster Shouta please, please please please you feel sā€™good, wanna come for you! Memories of seeing you touch yourself flash behind his closed eyes, seeing the way your face screwed up in pleasure, how you gripped at your pillows and bucked your hips and trembled and arched your back and gasped and came ā€“
Shoutaā€™s chanting your name, his hips sinking into the fold of the blanket over and over, and quickly heā€™s bringing a thumb down to rub frantic, uneven circles where he imagines your clit to be, desperate to get you coming, wanting to time your orgasm with his.
Fuck, come for me baby, give it to me, god youā€™re sā€™damn tight fuuuck - !
His eyes fly open as spurts of warm, milky cum spray from his tip, getting all over the blanket and making his hips stutter and jerk, the sensation of coming in something leaving his arms feeling weak.
Heā€™s panting, still saying your name under his breath, dark hair falling around his face as his thighs flex and clench, the last bits of cum dribbling from his tip and leaving him feeling spent. He canā€™t help but imagine the way youā€™d take him, if youā€™d thank him for giving him everything he has to offer, if youā€™d hold onto him until you both caught your breath, if your walls would still flutter and clench sporadically even after youā€™d come down from your high.
He closes his eyes again, heart practically in his throat as he leans down once more to kiss the blanket, tongue sneaking out and wet noises filling the room as spit and drool get slobbered all over the fabric.
Heā€™s still out of breath, panting when he pulls back, but itā€™s not until he leans back onto his knees and takes a good look at the blanket that his high begins to fade, the reminder that youā€™re not really there making a sharp feeling dig into his gut.
He stares for a moment, before sighing, slowly pulling out of the blanket and grimacing when he feels cooling cum sliding across his cock, the white mess all over the material and smeared across his skin.
He brings a hand to his forehead, covering his eyes and sighing. What was he doing?
Heā€™d just fucked a blanket ā€“ a gift, from you no less ā€“ while pretending it was you, his desperation to get you naked and in his grasp strong enough to make him lose him mind.
Pathetic, he was truly pathetic.
Heā€™s ashamed as he throws the blanket into the laundry, hoping the cum stains will come out with all the bleach heā€™d thrown in alongside it, and as he chugs his coffee, deciding to get to school early and try to collect himself, Shouta can only sigh.
You make him such a fucking fool ā€“ a freak, perverted and creepy and gross, and as soon as he catches sight of you in the staff loungeroom, looking all pretty in your simple blouse and slacks, he knows heā€™s a lost cause, every bit of self-respect falling by the wayside.
Ā Because as soon as he looks at you, all he can think of is how youā€™d look underneath him, stuffed full of his cum and a dazed, fucked-out expression scrawled across your face. All he can think of is how youā€™d be absolutely perfect to sink his cock into ā€“ and as he darts off to the nearest restroom, desperately trying to get rid of the insistent, raging erection in his pants, he can only sigh, letting his head hang.
He really is a fucking creep.
FAVORITE BODY PARTS
Your thighs
Shouta isnā€™t one to sexualize womenā€™s bodies. Heā€™s a man with urges, sure, but heā€™s never had trouble separating sexual attraction from respect for his female friends, even for strangers in the streets. A body is a body, and they arenā€™t made to be stared at and ogled.
Except where youā€™re concerned, of course, because while Shouta tries his hardest to not sexualize every thought of you, itā€™s difficult to hold himself back when heā€™s so utterly attracted to every single part of you.
Itā€™s hard to not fixate and stare and want when he looks at you, and so while he gives a valiant effort to not obsess over your figure in a less than innocent way, eventually he canā€™t help himself.
And Shouta discovers that while he loves every inch of you, thereā€™s something about your thighs that drive him absolutely fucking crazy.
Maybe itā€™s their shape ā€“ pretty expanses of your skin that look perfect to grope and squeeze, the soft curves making him salivate in a way that feels almost predatory.
Maybe itā€™s the way they feel ā€“ your skin is so soft, especially if he moves his hands further up, between them, nearing somewhere warm and wet and throbbing.
Maybe itā€™s the way they feel when theyā€™re around his waist, caging him in and keeping him right where he wants to be, and when theyā€™re around his head?
(Donā€™t mention the instances where heā€™s orgasmed just from simply eating you out ā€“ itā€™s embarrassing, and while he wonā€™t deny it, he will change the conversation and pray you donā€™t see the soft, barely-there pink blooming on his cheeks.)
Maybe itā€™s even the way you respond when he touches them ā€“ how you jump a little bit, his calloused hands feeling a bit cold as they skim along the sides, thumbs pressing into your inner thighs, a comforting finger brushing along the juncture of your legs and pelvic bone.
Heā€™s not entirely sure, but one thing he does know is that just seeing your bare thighs is enough to get him gulping, his dark gaze struggling to move away as he watches the area jiggle and flex while you walk, every step you take only making him want you more and more.
Even before heā€™s stolen you away, heā€™s fantasizing about your thighs ā€“ heā€™s bought more pairs of stockings and thigh-highs than heā€™d care to admit, keeping them neatly organized in a specific drawer in his closet, often fingering the material and biting his lip.
(The image of you wearing them makes him drool, the idea of the top hem squeezing your thigh and making a little bulge appear right above the socks getting his hand wandering down his torso, his fingers making quick word of his belt buckle because fuuuck, would you keep them on while he throws your legs over his shoulders and absolutely destroys you?)
Heā€™s always taking extra time and care to properly worship them when heā€™s got his head between your legs, letting his lips and tongue trail all along the soft skin, leaving teasing bite marks and hickeys and feeling the way you tremble under his touch because heā€™s so close yet so far from where you need him.
Heā€™s always got a hand on your thighs when heā€™s fucking you, his fingers clutching and digging into the skin while he shuts his eyes tight and wills himself to last longer, to prolong the moment, to give you more more more, just like you deserve.
He just really, really likes your thighs, so donā€™t be surprised when heā€™s got his hand casually placed on one when youā€™re watching a movie together, his gaze purposefully not looking at you because you canā€™t see how flustered he is from touching your clothed thigh in a non-sexual context.
You canā€™t.
His hands
In general, Shouta lives to please you in bed. Heā€™s by no means submissive (though he could be persuaded if you really, really wanted to be in charge for a night), but heā€™s a caring partner in every possible sense of the word ā€“ sex is about you, and any pleasure he gets from it is just a fun bonus.
And because of this, he takes every opportunity to learn new ways to please you, trying everything from teasing your clit with the tip of his tongue, buying a collection of vibrators, even letting you grind against the expanse of his thigh.
But his favorite method by far is using his fingers on you. Theyā€™re thick, with scars and callouses dotting the rough skin, but theyā€™re so gentle with you, always touching you like youā€™re something fragile and delicate and breakable. He's careful with you when heā€™s rubbing circles over your clit, the pressure consistent enough to feel good but not too hard, sometimes even teasing you. Heā€™s gentle when heā€™s running his fingertips over your folds, occasionally dipping in just a hair to feel the warm wetness he wants so very badly to sink into.
(He often sucks in a short, nearly inaudible gasp when he does this, his Adamā€™s apple bobbing because god youā€™re wet, and heā€™ll pull back to lick off his fingers, letting his eyes flutter closed as he tastes you.)
He particularly enjoys fingering you ā€“ heā€™s dexterous, and he always goes slow and purposefully, learning quickly exactly where you like to be touched. Heā€™ll angle the pads of his fingers against that spot inside of you that makes your toes curl, his lip caught between his teeth as he watches your face twist up, hearing your pretty sighs and moans, feeling the way you clench around him, your hips twitching a bit as if to get him deeper, to get more of him. He keeps his pace sensual, the come-hither motion slow and controlled, all the while keeping his thumb pressed firmly against your clit, drawing shapes that stay just consistent enough to get you closer and closer.
All the while, the other hand is gently working at your clit, his fingers expertly getting the exact pressure and pattern you like, making your thighs twitch and your little gasps and mewls louder and more insistent.
And when heā€™s not actively working between your legs, Shoutaā€™s always got his fingers pleasuring you in other ways ā€“ gently kneading at your breasts, pinching and rolling your nipples between a thumb and index finger, groping and squeezing at you like a man starved as his tongue flicks and sucks at your clit.
Theyā€™re grasping a handful of your thigh and squeezing reassuringly as heā€™s fucking you, his pace slow and deep, making sure you feel every possible inch of him as he folds you in half.
Heā€™s even slipping a thumb against your tongue when you take a break to breath, your chest heaving and your fingers wrapped around his girth, a groan slipping from his lips because god, the sight of his precum dribbling down your chin is enough to get his cock twitching on its own. Heā€™ll press down on your tongue, his lip caught between his teeth as you stare up at him, the sight indescribably erotic, a few praises falling from his mouth about how good you look, how pretty you are, how well you take care of him.
(All the while, heā€™s feeling you suck on his thumb, eagerly running your tongue along the skin and even swallowing around it to give the extra suction. Shouta curses under his breath, and suddenly stands, grabbing you by the hips and forcing you to bend over the chair heā€™d previously been sitting on, roughly spreading your legs and immediately diving in to lick and suck against your clit, a finger slipping inside of you because he just canā€™t not touch you after watching you drool all over him.)
He just likes to make you feel good, and while he enjoys pleasuring you with his mouth, nothing can beat the way you moan and shake when heā€™s working his fingers on you, pulling orgasm after orgasm out of you until youā€™re incoherent, your poor body trembling, the only thing you can think of him him him.
DRIVE
Though you inspire more sexual desire and drive within him than heā€™s experienced for the last twenty years, Shouta is still not absolutely desperate to fuck you at all times.
Sure, the idea is nice ā€“ being intimate with you is something he craves, but nine times out of ten this intimacy takes the form of simply holding you. Sitting beside you with your head resting on his shoulder, a blanket covering the both of your bodies as you snore softly and cling to him in your sleep, showing that you feel safe with him, that you trust him to protect you.
(Shouta is normally able to keep his staring in check and not be too terribly overt with it, but in times like these he allows himself to openly gape at you, those dark eyes of his examining every detail of your face. Every small wrinkle, every hair and mole, even every lash and baby hair that frames your cheeks. Youā€™re just too damn pretty, and like this he can commit every last detail to memory ā€“ as if he hadnā€™t already, as if he doesnā€™t sleep at night with your face dancing through his dreams, as if he sees flashes of you in everything he does. As if he isnā€™t thinking of you as unconsciously as he breaths.)
He generally imagines sleeping with you (and genuinely just sleeping ā€“ curling up with you in his arms and his face buried next to your neck, the scent of your body and shampoo filling his senses and making him breathe out something that walks the fine line between a sigh and a moan), the peacefulness and tranquility of just having you close to him in the safety of his protection and home.
Itā€™s a type of intimacy that gets Shouta red in the face, the idea so domestic and taboo and foreign that he comes to crave this on a near constant basis, serving as motivation and a way to calm himself when his students are out of control or a villain is being particularly difficult.
But of course, Shouta is only a man, and men have needs ā€“ no matter how he tries to keep his obsession with you as innocent as it possibly can be, sexual thoughts trickle in through the cracks of his mental fortitude and leave him with a phantom wonder of how youā€™d taste ā€“ would you be sweet, like the jellies Hizashi had gotten him? Would you be rich and savory? He hopes youā€™d have a strong musk to you, a smell that he can breathe in and think of you, something that gets his salivating and his body growing hot and his fingers restless and his breath heavy and labored and god ā€“
Heā€™s hard before he knows it, immediately covering his face with his hands because itā€™s equal parts embarrassing and terrifying how easily you manage to affect him, just the simple thought of you getting his entire body on edge.
And so he eventually takes up masturbation with you in mind, feeling dirty and disgusting each time he recovers from his orgasmic high, making it more and more difficult to look you in the eye without thinking of all the depraved things heā€™d imagined doing with you mere hours before.
But Shouta thinks he can survive ā€“ sure, he wants to fuck you, needs to kiss you, has to see the face you make when youā€™re coming, but he can control himself. He wonā€™t succumb to the urge to break into your (frustratingly poorly protected) apartment to run his fingers along your pretty skin and fuck his fist mere inches from your face, no matter how badly his body yells and begs him to. He wonā€™t cross this boundary ā€“ itā€™s hypocritical to think of himself not as a pervert at this point, but itā€™s the only way he confidently resists you.
Except, then you go and force him into kidnapping you ā€“ and now youā€™re with him nearly all moments of the day, your scent in his bedroom (though he knows you never willingly enter there, and he doesnā€™t force you to), your body always just a heartbeat away, the idea of holding you and kissing much, much closer now.
And even with the constant temptation, Shouta manages to hold out ā€“ itā€™s torture, really, forcing himself to be a good man and giving you privacy, to not touch you, to not press himself against you and feel the contours of your body against his own, but itā€™s worth it to him. He canā€™t force anything ā€“ he doesnā€™t want to scare you, and he has this horrible, sneaking suspicion that if he propositioned you, youā€™d feel too afraid to say no.
And just the thought is enough motivation to keep him from touching you, to keep him celibate from you purely by his choice ā€“ even if it starts affecting him physically.
(Heā€™d never, ever admit it to you, but his lust for you becomes so extreme that if heā€™s gone more than a week or so without having touched himself to the thought of you while youā€™re under his care, his cock starts physically hurting when he sees you, his hips involuntarily twitching when he hears your voice, his throat feeling dry and his cheeks blooming bright red because god, heā€™s never wanted to fuck something so bad.)
And so, Shouta forces himself to be an outstanding man ā€“ but no one can be alert every moment of every day, and itā€™s only a matter of time before you catch him in a moment of weakness. Because really, while Shouta was suffering, you were certainly undergoing a struggle of your own ā€“ youā€™ve been stuck with him for a few months at this point, trapped in his modest apartment with everything you could ever need with one glaring, important exception: human touch.
You donā€™t necessarily want to be physical with your kidnapper, but as the days pass and you slowly come to accept the fact that you wonā€™t be escaping Eraserhead, things start changing. Youā€™re still understandably frightened of him, worried that although heā€™s not harmed you in any way and hasnā€™t forced you into much aside from your captivity, heā€™ll show his true colors and make your life even more of a living hell.
But that doesnā€™t happen, Shouta staying that familiar presence youā€™ve become accustomed to; steady, quiet, consistent. Except the more days that pass, the more you start noticing other things about him ā€“ heā€™s strong, isnā€™t he? You see it when he walks from the bathroom to his bedroom with the towel tightly fastened at his waist, showing off the lean muscle of his arms and torso.
(He can feel your eyes sometimes, but tries not to dwell on what your staring at his naked chest could mean because getting his hopes up means getting them inevitably crushed.)
Heā€™s awfully attentive, isnā€™t he? He listens when you speak, those dark eyes boring into you and your every wish ā€“ aside from escape ā€“ granted without so much as a complaint.
And sometimes, heā€™s a little attractive, isnā€™t he? In a rugged, man-ish way ā€“ a way that makes you gulp and press your thighs together a bit, because something about the stubble that coats his chin and the veins that litter his hands and forearms makes it difficult to breath correctly.
And then the daydreams start ā€“ little thoughts about how it would feel for those hands to touch you, for those lips to brush against your own, for his hair to tickle your neck as he hovers over you, his hips moving slowly and rhythmically against you, gruff grunts of your name filling the air between you.
They scare you at first, really, but soon you canā€™t stop yourself ā€“ you know itā€™s the lack of human contact thatā€™s influencing you, but as time passes and you grow more desperate to know if heā€™s as attentive in bed as he is everywhere else, youā€™ll stop caring.
And Shouta can sense that somethingā€™s changing ā€“ he feels you watching him, notices the way your eyes follow him through a room, how you suck in the sharpest, smallest breath when he nears you, how you grow stiff when he has to flex a muscle in front of you to lift something heavy. Shouta knows that something is different ā€“ but itā€™s not until you grow brave one day that everything is confirmed.
Itā€™d been a long, tiresome day for Shouta ā€“ his class had been especially rowdy today, with a simulation villain attack that the teachers participated in, and of course heā€™d ended up assigned to spar with Todoroki ā€“ meaning heā€™d been moving about, his muscles tired and sore from multiple hours of repetitive fighting. Then heā€™d had an extra patrol directly after, the villains particularly restless and causing more trouble than normal. Coupled with a nasty rainstorm that had him half freezing to death, Shouta wanted nothing more than to melt into bed, ideally with you beside him but knowing better than to wish for foolish things.
And when heā€™d stepped in the front door, youā€™d been waiting for him, sitting nervously on the couch. Youā€™d stood up, but Shouta ā€“ despite feeling slightly more awake and alive at the sight of you, like normal ā€“ was still exhausted, already on the brink of unconsciousness as he gruffly greeted you. You looked nervous, twiddling your thumbs and biting your lip, but Shouta was too tired to properly ask about it, only mentally noting to check on you tomorrow.
Slumping towards his bedroom, he was abruptly stopped with you grabbed his hand, his entire body going rigid. Your voice was quiet when you asked him why he always seems to avoid touching you, asking if he didnā€™t want to, if he was repulsed by the idea of touching, if he was repulsed by you.
And Shouta, still half delirious with exhaustion, let the truth slip from his lips before he could help himself ā€“ explaining just how badly he craves to feel you, imagining you in every lewd position he can think of, noticing the way your pajama shirts sometimes grow tight when you sleep and roll over, exposing the outline of your breast and nipple and making him physically stop in his tracks and nearly drool like some horny teenager.
Every secret was spilling out of him, his voice still tired and coarse but making your jaw drop, the admission that heā€™s been fantasizing about making you a mess on his fingers and tongue and cock stunning you. Youā€™d known Shouta harbored some sort of feelings for you, but this?
When he finishes detailing the fact that he regularly fucks his fist to the thought of you at least twice a week after youā€™ve fallen asleep, you release his hand, immediately missing the warmth of his skin.
Shouta rubs at his eyes, still not facing you, but muttering a small goodnight and retreating to his room, only realizing whatā€™s happened the next morning. His hands shake and he bolts from his bed, his eyes wide and his heart racing, something horrible and feeling like shame and dread sitting in his chest because why the fuck had he told you that?
Facing you the next day has anxiety sitting in his every nerve, his actions jerky and on-edge, an heā€™d nearly bolted back to the safety of his room when he sawy you sitting at the kitchen table, but then youā€™d done something unexpected ā€“ youā€™d walked up to him, stood in silence for a moment, then grabbed his hand. Shouta had been confused, unable to ignore the way your hand fit into his own and the softness of your skin against his, but youā€™d not given him a chance to even ask questions ā€“ soon your lips were on his, and your hand had placed his on something warm and soft and squishy ā€“
Shouta gasped against your lips, the feeling of your breast in his hand and your tongue swiping at his lips nearly making his knees buckle. He didnā€™t respond to your kiss for a few moments, forcing you to pull back and stare at him, something like worry and rejection reflected in your eyes, but itā€™s not until you whisper in a very small voice that he snaps out of his stupor.
I want you Shouta, and I know you want me.
You were in his bed moments later, his hands frantic and eager and shaking as he practically ripped off your borrowed pajamas, fingers moving fast and settling over every part of your body, seemingly unable to decide on where to stay.
It was rushed, desperation clouding both of your senses, but as Shouta threw your leg over his shoulder and pressed wet kisses against the juncture of your shoulder and neck, his whispered affirmations of his love for you only had you pulling him closer, adoration and shock and something so happy it nearly hurt filling his chest.
Perhaps, just perhaps, something in you loved him as he loved you. Ā 
MAIN THREE KINKS
Clothed Sex
Itā€™s about convenience for Shouta ā€“ heā€™s not lazy in the bedroom, but although he finds you irresistible and is normally willing to expend what very little energy he has on sex with you, heā€™s willing to take any shortcut he can.
Of course, sex with you in an ideal world sees the both of you completely nude, your bodies pressed as close together as physically possible so that not a breath of space lays between them. He likes being close to you, feeling every inch of you, the intimacy of it unmatched and making Shouta revel in the fact that youā€™re really there with him, that heā€™s really getting to touch you, that heā€™s really getting to kiss you and touch you and fuck you, just as heā€™s been fantasizing of for months.
But that said, thereā€™s a strange allure to clothed sex ā€“ itā€™s taboo and a little dirty, something that makes him feel a little warm, his palms growing a bit sweaty because it could happen at any time. Whenever the mood strikes him or strikes you, he could simply unzip his pants, shuffle them down a bit and fish out his cock, and he'd be ready to go ā€“ already half-hard, the eager anticipation of your touch exciting him from nearly the moment you entered the room.
And itā€™s easy access to you, too ā€“ not that heā€™d ever take advantage of that fact, your consent still something he asks for every time he touches you. Itā€™s easy to slip your panties to the side, sinking you down onto his lap as he groans and his head lolls back, the feeling of your warmth making his toes curl. He just likes how easy it all is ā€“ no time is wasted with struggling to get off your shirt or his pants, and the desperation to be inside you that always seems to overwhelm him at the most inconvenient of times can be attended to that much faster.
He just thinks thereā€™s something so hot about it ā€“ heā€™ll specifically stock you with clothing to wear that makes this easy ā€“ flouncy skirts and shorts that make shoving everything to the side and bunching his fist into the cloth to get better leverage while he pounds into you.
Heā€™ll get you tank tops and things that make fishing your breasts out of your top easy, so that they can freely hang and jiggle as he bounces you up and down on his lap, your nipples hardening and shivers racing down your spine as he flicks his tongue at one.
Heā€™ll buy underwear that doesnā€™t chafe when he shoves it to the side, the pretty sight of lace against your skin making him feral, making him fuck into you harder and more frantically because you almost look like some sort of lewd present when youā€™re wearing that lingerie ā€“ like his very own present, the one thing in the world he wants more than anything else.
And heā€™ll wear clothing that makes this easy, too ā€“ pants that can be unzipped and boxers he can tuck underneath his balls, making sure that nothing gets in the way. And although having sex without clothes is much more common than with clothes, Shouta will surprise you and suddenly press up behind you in the kitchen, telling you that you look too good, that he canā€™t help himself, that he needs you, and has to fuck you right here, right now, I canā€™t wait.
And so when you nod, heā€™ll flip up that skirt of yours ā€“ the main culprit for the throbbing between his legs, of course, because the clear view of your legs and thighs makes his mouth water ā€“ and slip aside those panties, his cock already out and hard and dripping for you.
Itā€™s spontaneous, more than anything, and itā€™s one of the only ways in which Shouta is a little carefree with sex ā€“ one of the only times that he isnā€™t serious, or at least as serious.
The main way Shouta likes to engage in clothed sex, though, is through cockwarming. He just likes being close to you ā€“ heā€™s touch-starved, and although he doesnā€™t have the energy to actually fuck you, he still wants to be inside you, to have your body against his, to have you near and be smelling your scent and hearing your voice.
And so, itā€™s not a rare occurrence to have him pull you into his arms on his modest leather couch, your frumpy sweatpants and t-shirt (both his, of course, a fact that isnā€™t lost on him ā€“ he will not be washing either of those items when they eventually are off your body) covering your form and his own loungewear covering his.
Heā€™ll shuffle up behind you, pulling you against him so that heā€™s spooning you, and before long youā€™ll feel something poking at your ass ā€“ something hard and insistent, something that seems to be bobbing and moving every few moments.
Truthfully, Shouta couldnā€™t say what got him hard ā€“ perhaps it was just being with you, or maybe smelling you, or the sight of you in his clothes. It could be any number of things ā€“ but his breath hitches as you swallow and carefully tug down the hem of your sweatpants, pressing your exposed ass back against him.
He makes a sound like a low whistle, and then heā€™s fishing his cock out of his own pants, the tip already wet with precum as he shifts his hips to slip between your legs, propping your leg up over his so that he can push inside. He does so with a small groan, resting his forehead against your back, and he feels you clench down on him.
Heā€™s content to lay there ā€“ the warmth of his clothing and from you almost too much, but seeing the way you snuggle deeper into the shirt sending something warm and hot and possessive through his chest. Heā€™ll just pull you against him tighter, the slight shift making the both of you hiss at the small burst of pleasure. Heā€™s content to fall asleep that way ā€“ relaxed, his cock still nestled inside of you and hard as a rock, the feeling of your cunt lulling him into dreams filled with you naked and moaning his name, all bouncing breasts and desperate hands and begs for more.
(Donā€™t be surprised, when this happens, to wake up feeling something dripping out of you ā€“ yes, itā€™s cum and yes, that wet dream was enough to get him there. Donā€™t mention it, either, because Shoutaā€™s always disappointed that he wasnā€™t awake for it - after all, call him old-fashioned but finishing inside of you is arguably his favorite selfish part of sex.)
Overstimulation
Shouta is not a stingy lover. In the bedroom, he lives to see you enjoying yourself ā€“ it soothes this primal, horrible ache in his chest that yearns or your approval and happiness. A lot of his obsession is born out of a desire to please you and keep you happy and safe, and this translates into making absolutely sure youā€™re satisfied in every possible way between the sheets.
Sex isnā€™t really sex until youā€™ve had at least two orgasms, whether that be because of his fingers or tongue, and only then will he throw your pretty legs up over his shoulders, sinking into you with a sharp exhale and letting his face rest against your sternum as he wills himself to not get too excited, to keep his cool and not rut into you like wild animal. He wants you to enjoy sex with him ā€“ he craves intimacy with you and he needs you to crave it too, and heā€™s hopeful that by giving you the best attention and care in bed, youā€™ll be more inclined to kiss and hold him, to touch him and whisper those three little words in his ear.
(The three little words that make him gasp and shudder, cum immediately spurting out of his red, swollen tip, his knuckles turning white as he grips onto your thigh and the bedsheets tightly enough to keep himself grounded through the pleasure.)
And so, Shouta finds that thereā€™s something darkly pleasing about being the one to get you orgasming, being the source of your pleasure ā€“ seeing your face twist up, your mouth forming that pretty ā€˜oā€™ and your eyes rolling to the back of your head.
Shouta develops a bit of a sick fascination with seeing just how often he can make you come for him, and from what. It stems from a good place; a genuine desire to make you happy and get you shaking with pleasure and incoherent enough that all you can say is his name.
Ā He likes to choose how you come ā€“ will it be his fingers? Will he draw pretty circles on the inside of your thighs, teasing you and feeling the way your breathing picks up a bit, a whine of his name telling him that youā€™re growing impatient, that you need more, that you need him?
Heā€™ll get closer and closer to your folds, pressing a thumb against them and dipping in ever so slightly, the dull pleasure making you bite your lip, embarrassment eating you alive because it feels so dirty to be teased like this, to keep your legs so wide open for him, to feel the way his eyes are staring at you so fully and intensely, the adoration and lust swimming in those dark depths nearly too much for you handle.
Heā€™ll press two fingers against your clit and get to work, rubbing with light pressure and slowly increasing it, feeling the way the nub gets harder and more swollen, fingers swiping down to collect a bit of your slick to make things easier, the pads of his fingers gliding along your sensitive skin and making your hips jump and twist.
Heā€™ll use his other hand to finger you, rough calloused skin dragging against your walls and pressing right into the spot he knows you love ā€“ the one that makes your back arch up, your head pushing back against the pillow, your nails digging into the bedsheets and tangling through his hair. Working you through an orgasm with his fingers is his favorite and what youā€™ll most likely get ā€“ he gets a front row seat, watching with rapt attention as you fall apart for him, feeling the way your thighs tremble and close in around him when youā€™re right on the edge.
Thereā€™s this feeling of power, pride and desire making him light headed and only work harder at his ministrations, ignoring your yelps and gasps of overstimulation because he needs to see that again, to feel the way you clench down onto his fingers so tightly that he has to work to pull them out to thrust back in. Youā€™re just so damn sexy, the sight of you laying before him with your pretty legs spread wide open making him swallow so hard you can hear it.
But of course, Shouta also loves using his mouth to get you off ā€“ pink lips attaching to your nipple, sucking and running his tongue over your areola to make you squirm, your little keens making his cock twitch against your thigh.
Heā€™ll kiss at your hips, making a trail down to your clit, giving you little kitten licks while his eyes flick up to look at you, seeing the way you sigh and bite your lip, the rising and falling of your chest making him near feral. Ā 
He wants to see you moan and writhe, to feel you grasping at him and needing him, and so his patience wears out and he dives between your legs, slick coating his nose and chin as he licks and sucks and thrusts his tongue against you, eyes closed in concentration and hair getting in his face but he doesnā€™t care ā€“ how can he, when you sound so pretty moaning his name like that?
How can he, when your thighs are clenching around his head and youā€™re just so fucking wet for him, showing him exactly how much heā€™s affecting you?
It's euphoric, and soon youā€™ll be crying out his name and creaming all over his lips, shaking in his grasp so hard that he has to hold you down by the hips to help you ride out the pleasure, the taste of you making him so hard that it hurts.
And god, thereā€™s something about the way you respond to voice and his commands in bed that makes Shouta curse under his breath. You look up at him all wide-eyed, pleasure written across your face as you look to him for guidance, his voice gruff and thick with lust as he tells you to let go, come for me, want to see you come for me.
You immediately furrow your brows and bite your lip, grinding yourself harder against his fingers, feeling the pads of them brush against the spot that has you seeing stars, his name a prayer as you chant it over and over, only stopping to moan or gasp.
The sight is intoxicating, leaving Shouta gaping like a fish with parted lips and heavy breaths, staring at you like youā€™re something heavenly, divine, unable to tear his gaze away because he still canā€™t quite believe this is happening, that youā€™re moaning his name, that youā€™re letting him touch you and oh, he knows what that change in your facial expression means, how youā€™re blinding grasping at him, how youā€™re stuttering out a rushed ā€˜m coming, Shouta ā€˜m coming fuck-!
Watching you come undone right before his eyes has Shoutaā€™s cock throbbing, his hips subtly moving against your thigh because he needs friction, the sight of you and the knowledge that he made you this way nearly too much for him to bear.
And when you finally calm down, your breathing wild and your eyes a little glazed over, heā€™ll just swallow and quickly situate him hips between your legs, gripping himself at the base and impatiently prodding at your entrance, his words dark as he tells you that youā€™ve got another one in you, give it to me.
When he pushes in ā€“ slowly, so as not to hurt you ā€“ he lets out a groan, only muffled by the way he leans down to kiss you, feeling the way you tense up and eagerly return the gesture, wrapping your ankles around his waist and pulling him deeper, showing him that you need more more more if youā€™re going to finish like he wants you to.
And Shoutaā€™s happy to oblige ā€“ snapping his hips into you until his muscles are sore and screaming, a thumb relentlessly toying with your clit, his lips against your neck and whispering praise tainted with curses.
Heā€™s encouraging you to feel good, telling you to tell me how it ā€“ fuck, how it feels, youā€™re so goddamn tight, tell me how to fuck you ā€“ o-ohā€¦
Because really, while he loves to get you coming and falling apart on his terms, Shoutaā€™s pride flies out the window where youā€™re concerned ā€“ heā€™d do anything to get you clenching down on him and begging him to finish inside you.
Anything.
Voyeurism
Honestly, itā€™s a byproduct of having stalked you for such an extended period of time. Watching you was the only way to feel close to you ā€“ he wasnā€™t able to hold you and kiss you, to feel you and lay with you and make you whine his name, and becoming your shadow was the only possible substitution.
And even then, it wasnā€™t enough ā€“ all the guilt he harbors from watching you in your more intimate moments never fades, not even after years of having stolen you away, your pretty body and mind fully his to do as he pleases. Heā€™s still ashamed, but some things he just simply canā€™t unlearn ā€“ and so, even once your sexual relationship begins, Shouta finds himself still utterly excited by the prospect of watching you pleasure yourself.
Itā€™s dirty, horrible, something that makes him feel so guilty he can hardly stand it, but he canā€™t not stop and watch through the crack in your door when he hears what sounds suspiciously close to muffled whimpers.
He canā€™t not press his ear against the wooden door, closing his eyes and imagining what youā€™re doing to yourself ā€“ maybe youā€™re playing with that cute little clit, rubbing it in circles and biting your lip because it just feels so damn good, mimicking the way that Shouta works you up slowly and steadily, getting you so sensitive that your hips jump and twitch at just the slightest bit of pressure against your sensitive nerves.
(Heā€™s had dreams about the way you taste ā€“ he thinks youā€™d be musky, something natural and strong and savory, a taste he wants in his mouth at all hours of the day. And the way youā€™d tremble and gush for him if it was his fingers and mouth toying with the nub, how youā€™d tangle your fingers in his hair and pull him closer and closer to you, needing as much of him as possible, needing him him himā€¦)
Maybe youā€™re sinking your fingers inside of you, working up from one to three, stretching yourself out and imagining itā€™s him instead, that heā€™s the one filling you up and making your toes curl, that heā€™s the one causing all those pretty noises to fall from your lips.
(He knows just how much bigger his own fingers are ā€“ heā€™ll imagine the size difference, his eyes shutting tight when he thinks of how much more he can stretch you out, how much better he can make you feel, how the texture of his fingers must send pleasure up your spine in a way that your soft, comparatively dainty fingers canā€™t.)
Maybe youā€™re perched up on a pillow, straddling it with your cunt pressed snugly against the fabric, slick smearing across the cotton as you grind your hips back and forth, hunched over so that the angle is just right, imagining itā€™s him underneath you and itā€™s his thigh or cock youā€™re rubbing against.
(Heā€™s had wet dreams about this sight, always hoping and fantasizing that youā€™re just so desperate for him that youā€™re imagining itā€™s his face youā€™re riding, his mind conjuring up the sound of your voice moaning out his name and telling him yes yes o-oh fuck yes, Shouta ā€˜s so good, you feel so good! Heā€™d never seen you riding a pillow during all those months of stalking, but the ideaā€™s just too graphic and wanton and lewd for him to not fantasize about, the idea satisfying the part of him thatā€™s embarrassed and ashamed of just how badly he craves you ā€“ because surely if youā€™re humping some piece of cotton and pretending itā€™s him, then what does he have to be embarrassed about? Lots, really, but it makes him feel slightly better.)
Or maybe youā€™ve decided that you want something a little more physical, something to really mimic him ā€“ heā€™d seen you using your vibrator many, many times before he stole you away. His face always turned pink at the sight, his throat going dry and his grip on his capture weapon a little loose as he simply stared, the sight of your pretty body contorting and the plastic held against the crest of your pelvic bone making everything else fade away.
Youā€™re so damn pretty ā€“ the way you moan and sigh, how your legs twitch, how your breasts sway and jiggle with every motion, making his fingers ache to reach out and squeeze, to knead and touch and grope, like some sort of pervert.
And this fantasy and mental image has stayed with him long after kidnapping you ā€“ once your physical relationship begins and Shouta no longer feels it would make you even more uncomfortable and scared of him, heā€™s buying you a replacement for that trusty vibrator you used to use to death. Heā€™d left it on your nightstand one morning with a hasty note simply saying Iā€™m gone a lot, I donā€™t want you to get lonely.
Of course, this is only half the truth ā€“ he does want you to be happy, and he doesnā€™t want you to grow resentful of the times when heā€™s too exhausted to give you proper sex. But of course, the unspoken portion of this gift is that he wants to watch you use said vibrator ā€“ and badly.
He wants to sit in a chair at the side of the bed, legs spread wide as he grips the base of his cock, absentmindedly squeezing at his balls while his dark eyes stay trained on your figure. He wants you to be spread out for him, perhaps a skimpy set of lingerie covering your pretty body (or perhaps none at all, if youā€™re comfortable with it) with your legs spread wide, the vibrator in your hand hovering against your clit. He wants to hear the steady, dull buzzing sound mixing with your whimpers, to see the way your body tenses up and you whine, feet flexing and shaky breaths slipping past your lips as you slowly work towards your high.
He wants to see the way you eventually grow impatient, changing the vibratorā€™s setting and immediately crying out, the feeling much more intense and making your orgasm hurtle towards you, getting slick all over the bedspread as you cry out his name and writhe.
And Shouta doesnā€™t want you to look at him ā€“ he doesnā€™t want you to acknowledge that heā€™s there. Ignore him, just as you would have back when he was simply watching from outside your window ā€“ he wants to watch you, not have a show be put on for him.
Youā€™re just too pretty, and thereā€™s something about watching you that gets him hard as rock, his fist twisting and flicking so quickly itā€™s nearly a blur as he watches you transition to fucking yourself with the toy, your cries loud and wanton as Shouta grunts and curses under his breath. He wants to finish with you this time, his hips thrusting against his hand in an effort to match the pace youā€™ve set for yourself. Itā€™s a dirty secret of his, and while Shouta wonā€™t force you into it, just know that he would love to catch you masturbating ā€“ just the sight of you pleasuring yourself is enough to get him hot under the collar immediately, hand rushing into his trousers to cup himself because god.
He just likes to watch you, and even during regular sex when heā€™s folded you in half, those eyes are alternating between watching your face, your bouncing breasts, and your cunt swallowing his cock again and again and again, his cheeks a rosy pink and a bead of sweat dripping from his brow.
Youā€™re just too pretty, he canā€™t take it ā€“ how can he not immediately want to get something of his on you, staining your lovely skin and gorgeous face with his cum?
OTHER NOTABLE KINKS INCLUDE
Hair Pulling
But not on you ā€“ unless you like it, in which case he might consider but will only ever do it lightly. He doesnā€™t like causing pain in general, and would only be willing to do it in very specific scenarios ā€“ and even then, it will be as gently as he possibly can.
Rather, Shouta likes when you pull his hair ā€“ he doesnā€™t let most people touch it, and itā€™s a rare day that he actually runs a comb through it, so as a result his scalp is extremely sensitive. And so, when you tunnel your fingers through his dark locks and pull, Shouta audibly groans, the tingling pain sending pleasure racing down his spine.
Thereā€™s just something naughty about it ā€“ only you get to touch him like this, so only you get to run your fingers through his hair and tug at it.
He particularly likes when you pull it while heā€™s got his face between your legs. He likes how your fingers tunnel through it and scrape against his scalp, and heā€™ll often use it as an indicator of whether heā€™s doing a good job or not. If you pull often and hard, he knows heā€™s doing what he needs to do ā€“ heā€™ll keep the pace up and stay in that same spot, doing everything and anything in his power to keep you pulling at it, working through any pain in his jaw or tongue because he needs to make sure youā€™re feeling good even at his own expense.
When heā€™s got you perched on his face, your pretty thighs framing his head so that all he can smell and taste and feel is you, he likes to have you reach down and still pull lightly at the roots, your breasts squished together and nipples taut, the visual alongside your taste and the slight pain from his scalp making his eyes roll to the back of his head and precum dribble down his length.
When heā€™s hovering over you and thrusting into you, balls clapping against your ass and your legs wrapped around his waist, he likes to have you tug at his hair, moaning out and crying his name with each tug and letting his ego swell, each burst of light pain making his hips go harder, faster, deeper, anything to get you louder and clenching around him tighter.
Even when youā€™re just kissing ā€“ simple, innocent kisses full of smiles and his hands gripping you just ever so slightly, Shouta likes to have you running your hands through his hair and tugging lightly, keeping him on his toes and forcing his cock to life.
He just really, really likes to have you touch his hair ā€“ itā€™s something intimate and something heā€™ll only ever let you do, so really, you should count yourself lucky. Shouta sure does when heā€™s buried deep inside you, watching your face and feeling your hands in his hair as he gives you every last drop he has to offer.
Mirror Sex
In general, Shouta absolutely loves watching you in bed. He thinks youā€™re genuinely the most beautiful woman heā€™s ever seen, and when youā€™re gasping on his cock and moaning his name, youā€™re even prettier, even more breathtaking and lovely and perfect.
And while he prefers positions where he can see your face, he wants to be able to see your expressions always, even if heā€™s got you bent over while he presses his back to your chest and mounts you like some sort of wild animal.
And so, to solve this problem, Shouta invests in a modest, simple mirror that he keeps facing the end of your ā€˜sharedā€™ bed ā€“ itā€™s roughly four feet tall and two feet wide, the perfect size so that when heā€™s got you on your hands and knees for him, your back arching and your arms threatening to give out, he can watch your eyes roll to the back of your head.
Heā€™ll experiment with the pacing of his thrusts, going deeper and harder to see the way your brows scrunch up, how your jaw drops and the most depraved whine slips out of you, pride and arousal swelling in his chest because he made you make that noise.
Heā€™ll go slower and keep his thrusts brushing against the spots that make you gasp just so that he can see the way your lips twitch.
Heā€™ll speed up, fucking into you so fast that his balls slap lewdly against your ass, the noise filling the room alongside your pants and his groans, watching all the while how your eyes flutter and your back arches. Heā€™ll sit you in his lap facing the mirror, spreading your legs and getting to work with his fingers curling and rubbing inside of you, a thumb circling your clit and his lips at your ear as he tells you to watch, pretty, see how good you look?
Heā€™ll kiss a line from behind your ear, down your neck and over your shoulder, occasionally glancing up to the mirror to make sure youā€™re actively looking, whispering praises against your skin each time.
And heā€™ll bring you close to the mirror, too ā€“ sitting you only a foot away from the reflective surface, letting you get a nice view of Shoutaā€™s favorite sight ā€“ your cunt, all spread out and wet, practically begging for something big, heavy, and throbbing to fill it, to stretch it out and make you see stars.
Heā€™ll spread your lips, exposing your clenching hole, smiling at your reflection and making you tell him that youā€™re pretty, forcing you to grow comfortable with your body because he knows that it makes you insecure to see so much of yourself, and it drives him crazy.
Heā€™ll even fuck you against the mirror ā€“ forcing you to watch your face from mere inches away, your hot breaths fogging up the glass, and heā€™ll make you come like that ā€“ holding your chin straight ahead and telling you to watch, sh-shit, watch, donā€™t take those fucking eyes off your face in a strained voice.
He just likes getting a good view of you during sex ā€“ youā€™re too pretty not to be seen, after all. Ā 
BIGGEST FANTASY
In general, Shouta absolutely loves being intimate with you. While heā€™s no virgin, he doesnā€™t have an extensive amount of experience, and frankly heā€™s never been the biggest fan of sex ā€“ itā€™s too messy, too energy draining, and just a massive hassle.
However, when itā€™s with you, and when you moan his name just right and leave your nail marks down his back, Shouta will gladly strip his clothing at your beck and call, his lips already on yours before you can even finish your sentence.
And while he loves good, rough, passionate sex thatā€™s full of smacking hips, gasps, moans and growls, thereā€™s something to be said for slower, gentler sex, the kind thatā€™s full of airy breaths and slow, meaningful kisses.
Itā€™s the kind of sex where you can really feel him; every inch of him, the way his body covers yours as he hovers over you, the tickle of his hair against your jaw and neck as he buries his face in the juncture of your shoulder and collarbone, his hips rocking into yours and managing to grind against that one perfect spot that gets you sighing out a moan. Itā€™s just more intimate this way, less of a wild, frantic race to get inside of you and more a slow, controlled love making, as embarrassed as he is to use to term.
Regardless, youā€™re most likely to get this type of sex from Shouta in two specific scenarios ā€“ the first of which being after a very long day, filled with a harrowing patrol where he maybe wasnā€™t able to save everyone, or things didnā€™t go according to plan. When this happens, he needs to just hold you, to feel you, to hear you whisper his name under your breath and tell him how good he feels, how heā€™s the best youā€™ve ever had, how heā€™s the only one youā€™ll ever wantā€¦
The second ā€“ and far more likely ā€“ scenario is in the early hours of the morning, when the sunlight is streaming into the modest apartment he keeps you in, your shared bed feeling warm with your bodies pressed against one another. Soft, sleepy morning sex is Shoutaā€™s favorite, and something that he tries to incite as often as he possibly can.
Thereā€™s just something about it that gets him hot under the collar; maybe itā€™s the casualness of it all, the way it feels so natural, so human and so right, as if your bodies were made for each other. Maybe itā€™s the way it feels so intimate, like youā€™re both raw, yourselves in the most wonderful way.
Or maybe itā€™s the way youā€™re still just slightly sleepy, and youā€™re much more likely to be clingy at this time, touching him more and letting your real noises come out, not hindered by any shame or hate or embarrassment.
Regardless, Shouta loves it ā€“ so on the rare weekends where heā€™s off, expect to be woken up on the brink of an orgasm just as you deserve.
A yawn slips past Shoutaā€™s lips, eyes peeling open and seeing the gray of his bedsheets. Everything is warm and soft, and as he shifts slightly, something moves next to him.
Nothing seems real for a few moments as he gazes down at you, your body curled up next to his own. It doesnā€™t feel real that youā€™re really here ā€“ in his bed without any clothing, happily sleeping without a care in the world. He swallows, something coming over him and moving him slowly ā€“ carefully ā€“ peel off the covers, moving down to where your legs slightly part.
He leans down, face mere inches away from the tufts of your pubic hair, his eyes fluttering closed as he inhales. Youā€™re perfect ā€“ and as he gently pries your legs open further, Shouta canā€™t help but think of how often heā€™s fantasized about this very moment ā€“ how often heā€™s dreamt of whatā€™s between your thighs, how heā€™d lay awake at night and press his fingers between two pillows, grinding his fingers against the cotton and pretending it was you, imagining how warm and wet youā€™d be for him.
He swallows, determination setting his brow as he lays onto his stomach, shuffling so that he can lightly lick at your inner thighs, eyes closing at the familiar taste of you. He takes his time, going slowly and softly, licking closer and closer to your pretty folds, eventually reaching them and licking his lips at the taste.
A thumb comes up to slowly press against your clit, knowing too much pressure would hurt and not warm your body up the way it needed. He continues his licks, before switching roles and starting to suckle at your clit as a finger dips between your folds, collecting the slick and rubbing it between his fingers.
Soon heā€™s pressing one inside, feeling the way your thighs twitch slightly, a small, sleepy moan ringing in his ears. God, youā€™re so damn perfect ā€“ even unconscious youā€™re enough to get his cock throbbing against the cotton sheets.
He keeps his pace slow, but as time passes you stir a bit, and when he hears your sleepy voice mumble out his name, Shouta curses, his fingers speeding up a bit.
That gets you more awake ā€“ soon your fingers are carding through his hair, sighs and murmurs of his name sounding like heaven.
ā€œMm, Shouta, that feels goodā€¦ā€ You mumble, still dazed from waking up. Your hips are twitching now, a sign that the pleasure is slowly beginning to build.
Shouta groans against your cunt, the sound muffled.
Soon his fingers are picking up the pace again, his circles and licks at your clit growing more insistent, and the hands weaving through his hair start to tug ā€“ the sensation gets him humping at the bed for a moment, the morning glow still shining on you as he glances up at your face. You look like an angel ā€“ shining in the sunlight, your lips parted in a moan, head thrown back in pleasure.
Shouta pulls back for a moment, sending a kiss to your clit that makes your hips buck. He chuckles a bit, licking his lips.
ā€œYouā€™re so beautiful..ā€ He whispers against your thigh, pressing open mouthed kisses against the skin. You hum at his compliment, and he watches as you smile, his breath practically punched out of his lungs.
ā€œShouta, youā€™re too good to meā€¦ā€ Your voice is soft, too, and soon heā€™s back to sucking at your clit, feeling the way your body jolts slightly, the pleasure making you sigh and swallow. He watches the movement of your throat.
ā€œFeels good, mm yes, oh Shouta - just like that,ā€ You start, eyes closed again, and Shouta finds himself abandoning the gentle pace heā€™d adopted, instead being more insistent, more pushy ā€“ suddenly overwhelmed with the urge to get you coming on his fingers.
You gasp lightly at the new change in pace, grinding your hips to match the new stimulation, and it makes Shouta dizzy. How can you be so attractive? How can you look so perfect in this moment; in his bed, moaning his name, looking and tasting and smelling like his own personal slice of heaven?
Itā€™s cheesy and heā€™s almost embarrassed, but tears prick at the corners of his eye.
Soon your gasps have turned to moans, and all too soon you warn him in a slurred voice that youā€™re coming, your back arching up off the mattress and your moans light and airy as you gush against his fingers, white coating all the way down his knuckles and onto his palms. It makes him choke a bit, the feeling of your cunt rhythmically clenching down on him and your chest heaving, and with a final lick to your clit that makes you jerk, heā€™s moving up to kiss you.
The kiss is slow, his tongue brushing against yours and wet sound filling the room, but Shouta doesnā€™t mind. How could he, when heā€™s never felt this relaxed before?
His eyes slowly open as he feels your fingers wrap around him, a thumb brushing along his tip to collect a bit of the wetness there.
ā€œShouta, let me make you feel good.ā€ You tell him, your voice just a whisper.
He looks at you, his lips parted for a brief moment, before a small smile quirks up the corners of his mouth. ā€œWhy would you do that?ā€
You trace the line of his jaw with your free thumb. The slow strokes of his cock have him a bit distracted, but he hears every word you speak to him. ā€œBecause I love you.ā€
He swallows, the words making something feel tight in his throat.
You laugh a bit at his silence and the dumbstruck look on his face. ā€œWhat? Do you not love me too?ā€
And to answer that, Shouta scoffs, leaning down to kiss you again as he grasps himself around the base, pulling himself away from you and pushing into you, feeling your sharp intake of breath against his lips.
His pace is slow, soft, like heā€™s trying to tell you something ā€“ hips moving slowly and deeply, letting you feel every inch of him. He kisses your neck as your head falls back, your eyes fluttering closed.
Pressing a kiss against your collarbone, Shouta smiles against your skin, a groan falling from his lips.
ā€œI love you, more than youā€™ll ever know.ā€
And he means it ā€“ youā€™ll donā€™t know half of the things heā€™s done for you, and as he squeezes at your breast and hears your soft moan, he knows heā€™ll never tell you.
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Yandere! Jin Bubaigawara x fem! reader
Tw: kidnapping, stalking, mentions of masturbation, mentions of non-con, mentions of murder, threats, slight emotional manipulation, Jin is a creep and goes through your stuff, breaking and entering, mentions of horrible men who don't respect women (not our lovely Jin), brief mention of strip clubs, mental breaks/Jin's Splits, fem reader, MDNI
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WC: 11K
DARLING PROFILE:
Perceptive
More than anything, Jin looks for a darling that can understand him.
He so desperately craves a human connection full of trust and caring, and having a darling who is able to read him like a book would be absolutely perfect.
He needs someone who is able to tell at a glance what heā€™s thinking ā€“ not getting bogged down by the multitudes of personalities shining through at any given time and instead seeing what the real him is feeling.
He craves someone who can offer him a sense of normalcy, someone who can make him feel like less of a freak, like less of a fuck-up, more like a real man. He grows attached to a perceptive darling quickly, feeling at ease in a way that he normally doesnā€™t.
Theyā€™re just perfect ā€“ he feels like he can be himself, letting himself be truly authentic and truly Jin.
Itā€™s a luxury heā€™s nearly never afforded, his darling creating a safe space for him without even realizing it ā€“ something heā€™s beyond grateful for, and something that keeps him running back to his darling at every turn because it feels so damn good to just let himself go and not hold himself back.
Itā€™s wonderful, and as soon as his darling displays this quality, Jin is helplessly, hopelessly hooked.
Sweet
At his core, Jin is a good person whoā€™s made many bad mistakes.
Heā€™s not a bad person by nature ā€“ and as a result, Jin finds himself attracted to people who are similar to him. He wants someone who is genuinely a good person ā€“ someone who is nice, sweet, someone whoā€™s heart is generally positive and full of happiness.
And Jin particularly likes when this trait is aimed at him ā€“ compliments melt his heart. As soon as the words slip off his darlingā€™s lips, Jinā€™s gaping at them, his heart racing in his chest and his face feeling hot because when was the last time he was complimented?
Ā When was the last time someone praised him, the last time they smiled at him like that, the last time they seemed so genuinely happy to see him?
It doesnā€™t feel real when he first meets his darling, his interest immediately peaked because god, it really feels like they see him, like they understand him.
Ā Itā€™s euphoric in many ways, leaving his skin prickling in excitement and his stomach fluttering in nerves and pride.
A sweet darling is ideal for him ā€“ because even as his obsession festers and his behavior becomes more and more extreme, a darling who remains kind to him will only fuel this infatuation, only pushing him to try harder to win them over, to become more and more desperate to have them as his, just as he begins daydreaming about.
Itā€™s just perfect for him ā€“ and heā€™ll do his absolute best to return the favor, complimenting his beloved as often and as honestly as he can, even if the compliments are more disturbing than flattering.
Calm
Jin needs a darling that can handle his Splits. He needs someone who is not only patient with him, but is also able to take the things he throws at them in stride, not even blinking when Jin falls into a particularly nasty split thatā€™s got him spouting nonsense and panicking.
They need to be able to be calm and help them, assessing the situation and knowing exactly how to talk him down from the episode, to keep him breathing steadily and hold him so that he stays oriented.
He needs a darling that can handle the way his mouth doesnā€™t seem connected to his brain ā€“ random words spilling from his lips that sometimes embarrass him.
When a personality reveals something embarrassing that Jin did as a way to get closet to you, his darling needs to be able to calmly respond, to assess the situation and hopefully come to the conclusion that itā€™s not true, that thereā€™s absolutely no way that Jin would do something so crazy and strange.
And yet, a calmer darling will be absolutely shocked when they learn that all of the things Jin had divulged without meaning to are true ā€“ all of it, down to the stolen socks and stalking to the graphic dreams and preparations of his apartment to make it seem a little more like his darlingā€™s ā€“ a little more like them.
A calmer darling is ideal for Jin because heā€™s simply too excitable and tightly strung to not have a calm darling.
Oblivious
A darling that doesnā€™t notice the multitude of red flags in his behavior would make Jinā€™s life much, much easier.
A darling that is oblivious or perhaps blinded by their positive assumptions about people would work in Jinā€™s favor, because it would allow him to push the boundaries just a bit, just as he does without meaning to, all without having to explain the slip-ups he makes, all without having you grow scared by the way he seems to become more and more present in your life.
He needs a darling who doesnā€™t realize just how deeply Jin has invaded their life ā€“ so they canā€™t run before he manages to ensnare them, so they canā€™t leave him and abandon him like heā€™s so afraid they will.
Plus, thereā€™s something endearing about this trait that Jin just canā€™t shake.
It makes him feel like a protector, making it easier to convince himself that his darling needs him to be around in order to safely function, to not be taken advantage of by some creep with bad intentions.
It makes justifying his actions much, much easier, lessening the small sense of guilt that eats away at him, lessening the insecurity that pushes him to draw back every once in a while, convinced that heā€™ll never be good enough for his precious lovely darling.
An oblivious darling would allow him to operate with less secrecy and fear, something that Jin is grateful for. Plus, theyā€™re just so damn cute ā€“ cute enough to eat.
GENERAL YANDERE TRAITS:
Clingy
Once Jinā€™s feelings for you take root, itā€™s over.
Heā€™s so broken and lost, quite literally unsure of his place in the world, his purpose, himself. And so once you step into his life, with your pretty face and even prettier voice that says the nicest, most caring things to him, Jinā€™s reaction is nearly out of his control.
How can he not become absolutely, utterly enraptured with you when youā€™re so kind to him?
When you smile at him like that, all teeth and appled cheeks and this sparkle in your eye that he can tell isnā€™t forced, how can he not find himself swooning? How can he not be smitten with you when you look at him like heā€™s a person, like heā€™s worth something, like he has value and isnā€™t just a waste of space?
Itā€™s euphoric, something that makes his pulse race and his cheeks tinge pink, and so of course heā€™s desperate to spend time with you, to be in your presence and soak up every ounce of you that he possibly can. In the beginning, when his feelings are freshly formed and still having some semblance of normalcy, Jinā€™s too shy to directly ask you to be with him.
Heā€™ll struggle to look you in the eye, rubbing the back of his neck and letting his gaze flick to you every few seconds as he mumbles out a rushed, awkward, so um, I was uh, wondering if youā€™d like to see that new movie this weekendā€¦
Itā€™s hard to hear and youā€™ll ask him to repeat himself, only furthering his embarrassment and making him wince because obviously youā€™re going to say no ā€“ youā€™re too pretty and smart and sweet for him, why would you ever say yes to a washed-up criminal like him? But before he can even get the chance to respond, heā€™s blurting out a let me take ya to the theater, yeah? We can get seats in the back where itā€™s just the two of us.
Heā€™s mortified, immediately clasping a hand over his mouth and his eyes going wide; he didnā€™t mean it like that! Well, okay, maybe he did, and maybe the idea of being a dim, warm place with comfortable velvet seats and sugary drinks with his body pressed right next to yours is incredibly enticing and enough to make him salivate and pant like some fucking dog ā€“
Except youā€™ll still say yes, because at this point Jinā€™s infatuation ā€“ while still painfully obvious ā€“ seems like just a crush. Heā€™s awkward and flustered around you, but thatā€™s kind of endearing and sweet, isnā€™t it?
A fully grown man ā€“ and one whoā€™s seen more horrors than you can imagine ā€“ is bashful over you?
Itā€™ll have you looking past the way that he always seems to show up at the places you frequent, that same nervous and hopeful look on his face as he scans the crowd for your familiar figure.
Itā€™ll have you looking past the way he puts his hand on your back and keeps it there for much, much too long, never moving downwards but always staying firm, as if heā€™s glued to you, as if separating himself from you is physically painful.
Itā€™ll have you looking past the way he begs you to share just one more glass of cheap booze, telling you that itā€™s good for you, that itā€™ll help you relax and destress from that job of yours that you hate.
(Plus, you look so damn cute when youā€™re tipsy ā€“ all clumsy and giggly, your inhibitions lowered so that you donā€™t notice when his gaze lingers on you for just a beat too long, when his hand skims across your thigh, when he leans in much too close and inhales much too loudly.)
Youā€™ll write off most of Jinā€™s clingy behaviors with a wave of your hand and an excuse that itā€™s simply how he processes his trauma. And itā€™s true, to some extent. Except you donā€™t know the full extent ā€“ you donā€™t know how he follows you home every night, trying his best to stay quiet as he lurks in the shadows, making sure no one approaches you on your commute back to the quaint little apartment heā€™d give absolutely anything to share with you.
You donā€™t know the way he borrows small items of yours, keeping them on his ragged nightstand next to the bare mattress he sleeps on, your hair clips and toothbrushes kept as pristine and safe as he possibly can.
(Heā€™ll pick them up with trembling fingers, scared that even simply touching something of yours will break it, yet simultaneously thrilled that he has something of yours, something of an angelā€™s.)
You arenā€™t aware of the way he fantasizes about you constantly, imagining everything from linking your pinkies together to burying his face between your legs. (And in vivid, vivid detail, too ā€“ even going so far as to mimic your voice and sit on his own hand so that it'll go numb, just like some teenage boy.)
Youā€™ll write it off, but Jin sees this as permission to push further, to try harder, to test the boundaries of your ā€˜friendshipā€™ as far as he can without you growing suspicious. Heā€™ll pull you into hugs with higher frequency and longer times, keeping you pressed against his body while he buries his face into your neck and tries not to moan at the smell of you.
Heā€™ll spam your phone with text after text, conveying conflicting messages that showcase just how little control over himself and his split personalities where youā€™re concerned.
(Youā€™ll have to turn off your ringer permanently with him around ā€“ he will drive you insane, the buzzing noise and the obnoxious little bring making you lose your mind. He texts you day and night, your peaceful sleep interrupted with the notification of fifty unread texts from him, ranging from single sentences to near paragraphs.)
Heā€™s not exactly subtle, and while youā€™ll cling to your excuse of him just being lonely and struggling to cope with his past, eventually youā€™ll have to realize that Jin isnā€™t just using you to help him work through his previous experiences ā€“ no, he wants more.
He wants you. He needs you, to a degree where his every waking thought revolves around you, and most of his dreams do, too. Heā€™s clingy and needy and always, always demanding your attention, and eventually youā€™ll find yourself nearly ripping your hair out because you just canā€™t seem to get a moment of privacy around the blond, his eyes always watching you and his fingers always itching to reach out and touch, to press against your skin, to make sure that youā€™re real and present and with him.
He just needs the reassurance that you wonā€™t leave him, that youā€™ll stay with him, that youā€™ll always be with him ā€“ you keep him from splitting after all, and how could he ever thank you?
By being your personal watchdog and eagerly completing each and every request of yours, no matter how depraved or inhumane and dehumanizing. Anything for you.
Obsessive
Tying hand in hand with his clinginess, Jin finds himself drowning in a sea of you once his feelings form. He finds himself so overwhelmed with all the warring desires in his heart ā€“ he wants to see you, his fingers twitching and itching to set his eyes on you, to be in your presence and bask in you you you.
But he also wants to spend time laying on his dingy mattress, his eyes closed as he mentally lists all of the things he loves about you, all the things that leave him breathless and blushing and reaching out towards you with trembling hands.
He wants to speak with you, to maybe make you laugh and hear that wonderful laugh of yours all because of something he said, but heā€™s also too afraid to instigate conversations with you because heā€™s worried heā€™ll somehow fuck up and scare you off.
(And just the mere thought of that gets him in a cold sweat, hands gripping at his blond hair and his eyes squeezing shut, lips moving like lightning as he repeats the mantra that you want him you want him you want himā€¦ Splits caused by his doubt for your feelings for him are always the worst ā€“ they last longer, they leave a more harrowing impact, and ā€“ worst of all ā€“ heā€™s so distracted by his feelings that he loses all awareness of his surroundings. Heā€™s no longer aware of the vase nearby, knocking into it and sending the thing shattering against the floor, the sound and the feeling of glass shards pricking at his feet not even pulling him out of his stupor.)
Heā€™s a mess in every meaningful way, and yet the only thing he can regularly, consistently bring himself to do is amass more and more information about you. Youā€™re his own personal drug; one that calms him slightly, that makes him feel more whole ā€“ thinking of you is the only thing that can keep him focused, and this manifests itself in many ways.
Mainly, Jin takes to stalking you very, very early on. Heā€™s simply too intrigued and attached to not follow you home, unwilling to let you out of his sight for even a few seconds. Heā€™s worried for your safety, sure, because heā€™s sure that a sweet, lovely thing like you could never defend yourself should a villain confront you, but thatā€™s not why heā€™s trailing you in the shadows like some loser, like some freak.
No ā€“ the real reason is much more depraved, sadder and more pathetic than Jin himself would like to admit. Itā€™s really because with every moment he watches you, he learns more and more about you.
Each night that he trails you home from work, heā€™s learning enough things to fuel his dreams that night ā€“ you avoid sidewalks with people when itā€™s late at night, preferring instead to cross the street so that you wonā€™t pass them.
(Not that heā€™d let anything happen to you ā€“ heā€™d kill whoever laid a finger on you. Heā€™d start by punching them, getting them to the ground and sinking his fist against their cheek and jaw again and again and again, then wrap his fingers around their neck and squeeze, feeling the way theyā€™d wheeze and choke and desperately grapple at this fingers, begging him to save their worthless life. Begging with that same voice that they couldā€™ve been calling out lewd and inappropriate things to you in, touching him with those hands that heā€™s sure they wouldā€™ve used to touch you, to taint and mar your pretty skin and leave you scared and trembling and shaking and needing someone like Jin to come and rescue you ā€“
The man would be dead before Jin knows it, his lip caught between his teeth because although killing someone doesnā€™t necessarily feel good, thereā€™s something pleasant swimming in his gut because now this person will never, ever get near you again.)
He learns that you always stop to look at pretty window displays, the glittering Christmas lights and decorations making you twinkle in turn, the colors shining against your skin and clothes in a way that makes Jin swear youā€™re an angel, as if youā€™re a personal piece of heaven just for him, no matter how undeserving he may be.
He learns that you keep your spare apartment key under your welcome mat, always fishing it out before you slip into your apartment. Your apartment, which heā€™s visiting numerous times ā€“ enough times that if he had to, he could navigate with his eyes closed. Heā€™s poured through every square inch of your home ā€“ digging through drawers and marveling at each little trinket he can find, no matter how mundane.
He rifled through your kitchen drawer last month, noticing with baited breath that you have a variety of spices in your cupboard ā€“ you must like your food well-seasoned. Heā€™s not a very good cook, but for you, he could be ā€“ and all too soon images of you leaning close to him, your lashes fluttering and your eyes sultry as you eat the bit of food off his outstretched fork, making a show of swallowing and telling him that his cooking is so good Jin, youā€™re so wonderful for meā€¦
Heā€™d also found a pair of scissors, something thatā€™d made his brows furrow in worry because although he trusts that youā€™re responsible, it still makes him nervous for you to have something like this laying around your house ā€“ something that could easily cut you, something that has the potential to hurt you.
Heā€™s gone through each and every piece of silverware you own, looking at each fork and knife and gulping, his cheeks red as he thinks of the way youā€™ve used these pieces of metal ā€“ your lips and tongue have pressed against the material, your saliva coating the forkā€™s prongs, the slurping and sucking noises you make as you eat the soup off of your spoon.
Heā€™ll gulp, looking around your empty apartment, then quickly shove the fork into his mouth, his eyes practically rolling to the back of his head because although youā€™ve washed it, he swears the fork tastes like you ā€“ and isnā€™t this almost a form of an indirect kiss? Arenā€™t his lips touching something yours has, his tongue rubbing and caressing the prongs just as yours might have?
(The thought leaves his knees weak, his pants unbearably tight, the fork clutched tightly in his fist as he wills himself to stay strong, to keep going and not crumple to a ball in the middle of your kitchen and fuck his fist like he so desperately needs to.)
Heā€™ll sit on your couch, his breath uneven as soon as the soft cushions rest below him, his muscles tense and tight because heā€™s seen you sit here, watched as you laughed and roared at some television show, your pretty body molding to the couchā€™s cushions, your pajamas looking so cute and adorable and sexy on you.
His hands idly run over the couch fabric, his Adamā€™s Apple bobbing because oh, youā€™ve touched this before, havenā€™t you? Heā€™ll meander into your bathroom, fingering your towels and letting his tongue slip over his lips, internally debating if itā€™s really such a good idea, if itā€™s crossing a boundary, if it really wouldnā€™t hurtā€¦
And soon heā€™s stepping into your shower, the hot water (set to the temperature he knows you like) cascading down his nude body. Heā€™ll open each of your shower products and eagerly smell them, something like a strangled groan slipping past his lips with each smell. Heā€™s using your hair care products, lathering himself in your body wash, using your loofah and even using your razor, just because he wants the full experience of you, to be as close to you as possible given your current absence in the apartment.
And of course heā€™ll be using the towel once heā€™s finished ā€“ your towel, the one that still smells like you and has a strand or two of your hair sitting so perfectly and neatly on it.
(Jin picks up the hairs in awe, swallowing and bringing the hair up, his tongue brushing against the strand, his teeth clenching down as he chews at it.)
He wants to touch your toothbrush (so badly that it nearly hurts), but he stops himself, deciding that he should save that honor for when youā€™re sharing a toothbrush, when youā€™re with him every morning and night.
And of course, heā€™s tiptoeing into your bedroom, his eyes going wide and his nostrils flaring because oh god, it smells exactly like you and he thinks he might faint because it feels like youā€™re really here with him, like youā€™re by his side and hugging him and heā€™s surrounded by you you you.
Heā€™s mostly respectful ā€“ or at least, as much as a man breaking-and-entering into your apartment can be, avoiding your underwear drawers despite the voice in his head urging him to snatch a pair of panties.
(The sexy ones, you know ā€˜em ā€“ the lacy black ones, the ones you were thinkinā€™ of last night when you jerked off so many times you were shootinā€™ blanks.)
Heā€™ll open your closet, whistling at the sight of all your clothes. Heā€™ll try on as many things as he can, hoping that things will fit him, always careful to hang them back up exactly as he found them, though a small part of him hopes that you can smell him on the clothing, that youā€™ll be reminded of him and be comforted. Heā€™ll sit on your bed, breath hitched as he feels the way the mattress sags under his weight, before laying down slowly.
Heā€™d showered that morning and was suddenly thankful for it ā€“ he wouldnā€™t want to sully your comforter with any dirt or grime. Heā€™ll even dare to get under the covers for a moment, letting his eyes flutter closed as he imagines laying with you, spooning you with sunlight streaming in through the window, feeling your body (nude, of course, because he sleeps nude and all couples should sleep without clothing, yes?) against his and relishing in the smell of your hair and the nape of your neck.
All the while, Jin is noticing and mentally cataloguing every little detail he can process while in your apartment ā€“ the color scheme, what photographs you have up, what decorates your walls, whether thereā€™s dirty clothes on your floors or bed or if youā€™re perfectly clean. Because really, everything is important ā€“ every little scrap of knowledge he can glean about you feeds the insatiable desire he harbors for you, this uncontrollable urge to be with you at all moments of the day.
This satisfies him, for now ā€“ itā€™s enough for the time being to be living as your shadow, but soon heā€™ll want to be by your side, hearing you say his name and feeling your soft hands touching him.
And heā€™ll do absolutely anything you tell him ā€“ all with an eager nod and a franticness to his actions that would leave him wildly embarrassed if it was anyone other than you.
Anyone other than the woman heā€™s hopelessly infatuated with ā€“ the one he'd get on his knees and literally beg for, even just for a simple glance his way.
Gentle
As a general rule, Jin absolutely does not want to hurt you.
Despite his status as a villain, heā€™s caring and soft to almost a debilitating degree, the notion of violence often necessary but not something he actively pursues. And so, of the small list of people in this world that he cares about, he would never purposefully harm any of them ā€“ and because you sit smack at the top of that list, this sentiment is only more extreme.
He thinks of you as perfection, idolizing you in every possible way, and so to even entertain the idea of leaving any sort of physical or emotional damage to you makes Jin physically ill, a Split oncoming as his stomach heaves, his head feeling dizzy and light as panic engulfs him. He absolutely does not want to harm you or upset you in any way, and this ultimately results in Jin being a yandere who is neither harsh nor patronizing, but rather simply gentle.
He treats you like an absolute queen; though heā€™s in a financial position that makes legally procuring gifts for you a little trickly, Jin goes out of his way to try and provide you with everything and anything he can to make you happy.
Before kidnapping you, this looks like buying you small, simple little token gifts ā€“ a small, modest bouquet of flowers (bouquet being a stretch ā€“ more often than not itā€™s just a single flower that he himself plucked from the ground, keeping the flower safe and preserved on his journey to find you ā€“ searching your most frequently visited locations, of course, and tapping into the tracker he'd managed to get Skeptic to install into your confiscated phone).
It looks like him offering to treat you to dinners and lunches, always at places that are within his price range (because stealing food in front of you would be a tacky move and although he canā€™t keep the faƧade of his occupation away from you forever, heā€™d like you to think of him as a dignified man), with greasy tables and even greasier meals, dingy lighting and seats with duct tape holding the leather booths together.
Itā€™s not much, but itā€™s all Jin can offer you ā€“ and he does so with the most heart-melting, hopeful smile, his eyes soft and this look of utter vulnerability scrawled across his face thatā€™ll have you giving in almost immediately, agreeing to getting lunch with him despite the way that his blatant staring bothers you.
(As does the way he leans in and inhales deeply when your back is turned. You can hear the breathing, the strange gulping sound that follows, and although it makes the bad kind of shivers race up your spine, you donā€™t bring it up with him.)
And once heā€™s stolen you away, that faƧade of being a dignified man is up ā€“ heā€™s still spoiling you, even more so than before your forced captivity with him, but now he doesnā€™t feel that he has to pay to spoil you. Now, he can steal your favorite things ā€“ because really, anything is worth seeing your smile light up your whole face when he brings home that expensive pastry he knows you love.
(The sweet is perfectly preserved, not a single wrinkle in the pretty, ornate parchment paper itā€™s wrapped in, nor is any portion of the sweet itself squished. Heā€™d paid extra care to keep everything perfectly in-tact ā€“ perfect for you, because anything less than that would be an insult to his love for you.)
Heā€™s bringing home all sorts of movies for the two of you to watch together, his hand slowly inching to your thigh as you sit side by side on his shitty old couch, the television on but all his attention focused on trying to be subtle about showing you just how badly he needs to touch you. Heā€™s trying his best to get your favorite foods every night, getting you a few new clothes (and some of his own ā€“ heā€™s got a few sweatshirts that he will be forcing you into wearing, the sight of you in his clothing making his face scarlet and his face buried in his hands, his lip caught between his teeth as he tries and fails to compose himself because god, you look so good and it looks so fucking right to see you in something of his.)
Really, while Jin knows that he canā€™t buy your love and acceptance of his feelings, heā€™s desperate for any sort of help to get you moving that way. Any aid he can enlist in helping spark and develop any sort of reciprocation of his obsession with you is eagerly used, hope springing up inside his chest that maybe, just maybe, if he can make you happy enough youā€™ll forget that heā€™s a criminal, that heā€™s kidnapped you, that youā€™ve found out about all the stalking and stealing used socks and living in your apartment while you werenā€™t home.
Heā€™s hopeful that all his hard work will pay off ā€“ youā€™ll see him as a man who really, truly loves you, even if he doesnā€™t deserve you.
God, heā€™ll never deserve someone like you ā€“ but heā€™ll never stop wanting you, either.
DEALING WITH RIVALS:
In general, Jinā€™s jealousy stems less from a place of selfish possessiveness and more from a place of insecurity and genuine worry for your safety.
Jin is more than aware that heā€™s not your ideal man ā€“ heā€™s a criminal with deaths to his name, renting a shitty apartment he can barely afford, riddled with mental health issues stemming from his quirk, and perpetually smelling like cigarettes. Heā€™s very aware that if you were left to your own devices, youā€™d never pick him ā€“ and he canā€™t blame you, honestly. Heā€™s a loser, a grown man with so many voices inside his head that he canā€™t keep track of them, and if he were a woman as pretty, sweet, and smart as you, heā€™d choose someone more successful, wealthier, more stable, just better.
And so, when he sees another man interact with you, his initial thought is that this is it ā€“ youā€™ll like this man more than you like Jin.
Maybe heā€™s funnier and wittier, or maybe heā€™s charming and suave with his words, two things that Jin himself certainly isnā€™t. Maybe heā€™s more attractive ā€“ without a nasty scar down the center of his forehead, or maybe you prefer brunettes like him, or maybe heā€™s taller.
Regardless, insecurity immediately eats away at Jin, forcing him to notice all of the things that man does better than him, all of the things that could pull your attention and feelings ā€“ whatever those may be ā€“ away from Jin and instead towards this stranger.
And while he initially feels that this is true, that this is the natural course of things and itā€™s how it should be, the longer he watches the interaction, the less satisfied with that he becomes. He grows restless, his fingers twitching at his sides, his muscles tensing and flexing and urging him to do something, whether thatā€™s interrupting the two of you or causing a large enough distraction to end whatever conversation youā€™re having. Itā€™s nearly unbearable, an internal war raging the longer he watches on, his lips moving and all sorts of different arguments and urges slipping off his tongue.
Go interrupt them!
No, it would be wrong of me to insert myself into a conversation that Iā€™m not a part of.
Fuck that, he wants to steal her! He wants to make her his own!
You donā€™t know that, you canā€™t claim something that extreme without any foundation to base it on!
You can see his face, you can tell he wants to fuck her ā€“ look at that, heā€™s practically undressing her with his eyes!
It goes back and forth, seeming to never end, until eventually Jin forces himself to turn around and walk away, the part of him thatā€™s insecure finally winning out the longer he notices things that are simply better about this stranger. Itā€™s torturous and makes him bit his lip so hard it draws blood, his steps labored and heavy, but itā€™s the right thing to do.
And if you respond to his texts later that night, Jin will know that you havenā€™t completely forgotten him ā€“ perhaps youā€™ve forgotten this stranger, though, because youā€™re choosing to respond to Jinā€™s texts, not his. And this idea makes a wobbly smile spread across Jinā€™s face, his thumbs typing away at his cracked phone, deleting and retyping over and over again as he tries to think of ways to keep the conversation going, wanting so very badly to keep talking to you and keep your attention on him.
However, although Jin is fairly complacent and non-confrontational when it comes to most of your interactions with other men, there are a few circumstances where heā€™s not nearly as controlled ā€“ that is, when Jin can tell that the man has bad intentions.
Itā€™s one thing to see you talk with a man that clearly finds you attractive, but itā€™s an entirely different story when Jin can see the gun or knife glinting in the manā€™s pocket, or when he recognizes the manā€™s face as a petty criminal known for pickpocketing defenseless women. Itā€™s in these circumstances where Jinā€™s face will harden up, his lips a thin, straight line as he approaches the both of you, butting his way in with an excited greeting aimed at you, his eyes cold as he stares the man down.
And frankly, most petty villains will recognize him ā€“ sure, he isnā€™t the most famous villain, but heā€™s still a member of the League, and the perpetrator will often make some excuse and scurry away, not wanting to stir up any trouble with the League over some stupid woman.
And though Jin wonā€™t want to explain why the man fled so quickly, heā€™s absolutely smug that his mere presence was enough to deter the man from bothering you anymore. Heā€™ll look at you with excited eyes, his cheeks lightly flushed, hoping and praying that youā€™ll compliment him, that youā€™ll praise him and thank him because really, you wanted the man to go away but you were too scared to do it yourself.
And maybe, just maybe, if heā€™s really lucky, youā€™ll even give him a peck on the cheek as a thanks, the feeling of your lips against his skin making his heart race, this strange half-whimper slipping from his throat because youā€™re so close that he can smell you, and itā€™s fresh and real this time ā€“ not just the residual scent of your pillow your towel.
Itā€™s wishful thinking, but Jin likes being your guardian angel ā€“ heā€™s anything but an angel, really, but it makes him feel important, needed, good. Like heā€™s actually giving you something, instead of just taking and taking and taking.
This is wrong, and Jin knows it. He shouldnā€™t be here ā€“ the cute little cafĆ© is a public space, sure, but there was absolutely no chance that he wouldā€™ve found himself here if he hadnā€™t been trailing you for the last thirty minutes.
And heā€™d enjoyed it ā€“ watching you walk, seeing how your hair flittered a little in the breeze, the sway of your hips (something he tried hard not to look at but still found his gaze wandering down to every few minutes, his cheeks growing pink and palm coming up to smack at his cheek).
But the moment youā€™d entered the cafĆ©, Jin following a few steps behind, he knows something is wrong. Instead of sitting at your own table, you make a beeline to the larger wooden one by the window ā€“ the one where a man is already sitting. Jin sits at his own table, some twenty feet away, bringing a flimsy newspaper up to cover his face.
The man greets you with a smile, introducing himself, complimenting your outfit and even pushing your fucking chair in, and suddenly it becomes very apparent whatā€™s happening.
Youā€™re on a date. A fucking date. Jin feels his face slip, a deep frown etching its way onto his lips. Itā€™s torture to listen to you; your voice is a little higher than usual, he notes, and something sharp wedges its way between his ribs.
You never speak to him with that kind of voice ā€“ does that mean you arenā€™t interested in him? Does that means you donā€™t like him? Donā€™t say stupid crap like that! Are you stupid? Itā€™s probably true! He winces, knocking at his head with his hand as a feeble attempt to get the warring thoughts to stop.
The date goes well, as far as Jin can tell ā€“ conversation flows easily, and with every passing moment he finds himself growing more and more restless, the hopelessness beginning to take its toll. He wants to interrupt ā€“ badly, really, with every fiber of his being. But that wouldnā€™t be fair to you ā€“ you obviously seem to like this man, perhaps even more than you like Jin, as loathe as he is to say it, and what right does he have to take that happiness away from you?
It hurts him, yes, but if it means staying in your life and seeing you happy, even if itā€™s with another man, heā€™ll grit his teeth and not play dirty. Your happiness is top priority, after all ā€“ and as you leave the cafĆ©, you and the man going your separate ways, Jin can only hope that you will not be receiving any calls or texts from the man, even as you happily give him your number. Heā€™s still gripping his hands into tight fists, even as he begins trailing the man.
This sight is significantly less pleasant than when he follows you ā€“ he doesnā€™t mind looking at you, not when youā€™re all pretty and sweet and you seem so very innocent. But this man? Well, as he approaches a bar a few blocks away, Jinā€™s brow cocks up. A mid-afternoon drink seems a little strange, and as Jin steps inside the bar after the man, a small burst of pride blooms in his chest.
Because really, this is not just a bar ā€“ thereā€™s a stage, at the far back of the establishment, with all sorts of different colored lights beaming down on the main act: a scantily clad woman leaning back on a pole, winking at a man sitting in the front row. Jinā€™s taken aback ā€“ surely this canā€™t be a good sign, right?
You didnā€™t need to be seeing any men who frequent strip clubs ā€“ and with the way the man immediately went up to the bar, ordering a shot and acting friendly with the bartender, Jinā€™s sure this isnā€™t the first time heā€™s visited.
With a smile, Jin decides that this is finally something that Jin is better at ā€“ heā€™s many things, sure, but he only has eyes for you and heā€™d never seek out the visual comforts of another woman.
And as Jin approaches the bar, ears perked up, anger brews in his gut. Yeah man, just wrapped up a date ā€“ girlā€™s awful, talking about her family and shit, who the hell wants to hear that? Sheā€™d look better if she just shut the fuck up.
Jinā€™s jaw is on the floor, rage swimming in his veins. How dare this man speak about you that way ā€“ as if youā€™re just some random woman, as if everything you say isnā€™t gospel, something worthy of being revered and paid the utmost attention to. How dare this man dismiss you like that ā€“ after youā€™d been so happy, after youā€™d thought the date had gone so well, after heā€™d asked for your number, for Godā€™s sake.
And with that, Jin sinks into his jacket, closing his eyes and trying to subdue the urge to walk over and sock the guy across the face so hard that he spits out a few teeth. No, that wouldnā€™t accomplish anything except a few moments of satisfaction ā€“ no, Jin has to take more drastic measures, something that will ensure that you and your fragile little heart wonā€™t be hurt by this horrible, disgusting man.
And so, as Jin slips away, itā€™s not so hard to send you a fake text from the man, asking if he can swing by your apartment.
And you, being flustered that your date had contacted you to fast and so eagerly of course say yes, inviting him over for dinner. Jin smiles down at the phone with a big, bashful beam, able to pretend for just a few moments that he was supposed to be the recipient of that text, that really it was him you were inviting over for a homecooked meal, then maybe a movie, then maybe youā€™d stay up and talk with him for hours, falling asleep in his arms and letting him hold you like he spend hours dreaming of.
(Or, if youā€™re feeling a bit frisky, perhaps youā€™d let him spread your legs and spend hours with his head trapped between them, your taste and smell clouding his senses as he brings you to your high over and over and overā€¦)
Itā€™s not hard to make a copy of the man, to get him at your apartment door, that same suave walk and the high cheekbones making you bashful as you open your apartment door. But then, the man sneers at you, looking you up and down just as Jin had instructed, scoffing under his breath and telling you that youā€™re even uglier the second time I see you. I just came by to tell you that I donā€™t wanna see you anymore ā€“ youā€™re not my type, you know? I like ā€˜em a little more interesting. But if you wanna fuck, Iā€™d be more than happy to ā€“
You slam the door in his face, chest heaving and tears pricking at your eyes, and although it nearly braks Jinā€™s heart, he closes his eyes and breaths deep, reminding himself that although hurting you is making every bone in his body feel brittle and about ready to snap, this is necessary.
Itā€™s necessary because the man probably wouldā€™ve done worse if left to his own devices ā€“ if his conversation with the bar tender was any indication, you wouldā€™ve been used for your body and then unceremoniously dumped in the trash. And you deserve so, so much more than that ā€“ Jin is sure of it, and Jin can give you that if youā€™d just let him.
He gives you some time, sure that youā€™re sobbing behind the front door, and itā€™s only an hour or so later that he texts you (from his real number, of course) if youā€™d like to grab dinner. Heā€™s equal parts nervous and ecstatic when you respond with a simple yes, already eager to get you distracted from that loser ā€“ and, perhaps, even manage to show you how much better Jin can treat you.
He's charming that night, on his best behavior, telling you all sorts of jokes and asking about things he knows you love to ramble on about, just wanting to hear your voice and watch your lips move. And soon, the guilt is totally washed away ā€“ because really, would you have ever been able to speak this freely with that man? Absolutely not. Jin may not deserve you, but at least he can treat you well ā€“ so why canā€™t you see that?
TAKING HIS DARLING AWAY:
Jin doesnā€™t want to kidnap you, but he will eventually reach a point where his anxiety, paranoia and profession leave him with no other choice. Heā€™s fully aware that his obsession with you has grown to such astronomical proportions that itā€™s literally controlling his life, but he doesnā€™t seriously entertain the notion that youā€™re just as deeply in love and devoted to him as he is you.
(Obviously he likes to think that you are ā€“ pleasant daydreams star you with your lips pressed against his jaw as you tell him just how much he means to you, just how badly you want him, just how much you need him, but heā€™s always brought back to reality with a cruel slap, Dabi barking his name or an alarm clock going off and leaving him feel empty, alone, restless for you.)
He knows that he possesses a one-sided love for you, and in the beginning of his obsession, that was enough. It was enough to simply be seen by you ā€“ to have your attention on him if only for a few seconds, your smile and warm and inviting and genuine as you spoke to him. It was enough that he was a silent admirer, watching you from the shadows of your life and eagerly anticipating your next encounter, no matter how large or small.
It was enough, until suddenly it wasnā€™t. Suddenly Jin needed to have more contact with you ā€“ getting your phone number had been one of the most nerve-wracking things heā€™d ever done, his fear of rejection so incredibly high that it made his voice a bit scratchy and heā€™d almost stuttered, leaving him mortified but only more enamored with you when you just laughed and gladly filled out your contact information into his phone.
And that had been enough for a time, too ā€“ he could text you, sending you photos of the sunset that he spent five minutes trying to find the perfect camera settings and angles for, just so that he could send as good of a photo to you as possible and have you be impressed.
(Heā€™d been hoping youā€™d even compliment him as a response, perhaps telling him that itā€™s so beautiful, Jin! Youā€™re so talented at photography! Or, in an even more idealized world, youā€™d tell him how beautiful the stars are and then immediately follow that up with an offer to go star gazing, to spend the evening together curled up in some remote field staring up at the sky and using each other as body heat to stay warm in the cold night air.)
But then the texting and calling wasnā€™t enough ā€“ soon he needed more, and thatā€™s when the stalking began. Heā€™d follow you to work, then immediately return to your apartment and snoop around, touching everything and picking everything up just so that there was at least some memory of him on everything you own.
And this had to be enough ā€“ this was the furthest Jin could get away with without you noticing, without you cutting him out of your life completely once you realized just how truly deranged for you he was.Ā 
But then somehow a hero finds out about you, and suddenly your position in his life is threatened, and Jin panics. He totally, utterly panics, a Split intense enough to bring tears to his eyes forcing him to rely on the one person he trusts more than any other soul on the planet: you.
He comes to you, babbling and going on about some sort of internal debate that you canā€™t follow, and as you try to calm him down, your words start slowly sinking into Jinā€™s psyche. You keep saying that youā€™re there, that youā€™ll always be there for you, I promise.
Youā€™re pulling him into your side, a cloth bag placed over hie head while you rub at his arms and back, shushing him gently and even rocking him back and forth every so slightly. And so, as the Split slowly fades and he calms down, two things happen ā€“ one, you sigh in relief and hope that Jin has processed some of his emotions and will leave, and two, Jin hearing your words as a promise that you want him, that you need him, that you want to stay by his side for the rest of your life.
And so, in the aftermath of a horrible mental health episode, Jin decides that youā€™ve essentially given him permission to make sure you really are always going to be there for him, just like you said.
Itā€™s not hard to sneak into your apartment that night, the chloroform soaked rag sitting underneath your nose in a way that made it difficult not to swoon over your adorable sleeping figure.
(Jin gulps and swallows as he stares at your limp body, his hand reaching out to very, very lightly brush his fingertips over the expanse of your clothed hip, wide eyes staring at you as if youā€™re some piece of art, something for him to keep and cherish and love.)
And when you wake up the morning, youā€™ll find yourself in a strange bedroom with a strange man whoā€™ll spoil you rotten ā€“ even if you beg him not to, even if you say the only gift you want is to be let free.
As a captor, Jin isnā€™t too terrible ā€“ all those desires to spoil you and make you happy are still very much present within him even once heā€™s stolen you away.
In fact, if anything heā€™s even more desperate to get you smiling, to see you be happy and looking at him with anything other than fear and hate. Because really, after that Split that led to him kidnapping you calms down, Jin is only left with complete and utter regret ā€“ youā€™ll hate him now, heā€™s sure of it.
Youā€™ll be afraid of him, thinking of him not as the sweet, funny, and harmless Jin youā€™ve come to know but instead a monster, a criminal capable of hurting you in more ways than one. And this kills him ā€“ he hates being looked at like heā€™s ruined your life, even if he basically has. And because of this, he decides that the only way to get you to slowly see him in a positive light again is if he makes your life with him as good as possible ā€“ if he spoils you, treats you like a queen, pampers you and cares for you with the level of devotion that you deserve.
And frankly, Jin is more than happy to give you this ā€“ heā€™s a worshipper through and through, already revering you like youā€™re something holy and in need of constant praise. Heā€™ll outfit his dingy apartment the best that he can ā€“ thereā€™s freshly stolen furniture in your favorite colors and fabrics, changed lightbulbs for his overhead lights work, a stocked refrigerator, a new mattress.
(Only one though, so youā€™ll still have to share with him ā€“ but donā€™t be too worried, because he wonā€™t actively try anything without your explicit permission. At least, he wonā€™t while heā€™s awake ā€“ when heā€™s asleep is an entirely different story, because thatā€™s when his real desires come out, unchecked and uncontrolled as he grinds his hips against your ass, his little moans and whispers of your name as he presumably has a wet dream about you more than a little awkward to lie next to. Donā€™t mention it to him though, please ā€“ he can tell that his cum is staining his boxers, but heā€™s always hopeful that you slept through it all, that you didnā€™t notice the way he was probably trying to get stimulation, that you didnā€™t see just how depraved and desperate for intimacy he is.)
Heā€™s getting you comfortable clothing; lots of sweatshirts and lounging pants, fuzzy socks and even a few hats for when the heating in the building goes out (as it often does).
(He really likes to see you in his clothing, of course, but Jin isnā€™t too terribly pushy ā€“ heā€™d be ecstatic if you willingly wore something of his, his face bright red and all sorts of things coming out of his mouth, but heā€™s really and truly pleased, a satisfied and smug feeling burrowing in his chest thatā€™s difficult to hide. Sometimes heā€™ll even wear the new clothing first, making sure that it smells like him, before handing it off for you to hear, biting his lip and struggling to stay calm because god, you look so damn good in what heā€™d just worn, god youā€™re really here with him right now and looking at him and touching him and acknowledging him.)
Heā€™ll stock up on all your favorite foods, paying special attention to making sure he has every snack under the sun. And while he does care about your health, when heā€™s buying you all these snacks, heā€™ll get absolutely anything you want, even if thereā€™s so much sugar and such little nutritional value that it makes him nervous.
He canā€™t cook very well, but heā€™ll order takeout or swing by a restaurant and steal something for dinner, always loving the look of hunger and shy thankfulness as you bite into the meal heā€™s brought you, trying hard to ignore the way heā€™s blatantly staring at you and awaiting your approval.
And really, thatā€™s another part of your captivity with him ā€“ the staring, the touching, the constant talking, the constant him. Heā€™s always been clingy with you, but itā€™s even more so once he's got you trapped under his thumb. He always has to be looking at you, observing you and feeling like heā€™s a part of whatever youā€™re doing. He wants to see everything youā€™re up to ā€“ when youā€™re watching television, heā€™s watching you.
(And nervously playing with his fingers, like thereā€™s something he wants to ask you but is afraid to, right up until he blurts it out, something crude and rude and it immediately makes him apologize, gripping at his hair a bit and telling you about how he didnā€™t mean it, oh man I promise I didnā€™t mean it!)
When youā€™re doing one of the puzzles heā€™d stolen to help keep you entertained while he was busy, heā€™s sitting on the other side of the table, those eyes of his glued onto your fingers as you try each piece, watching with rapt attention and marveling at how you slowly make progress, feeling smug and prideful because his girl is so smart.
When youā€™re stepping into the shower, you can see him out of the corner of your eye, not peeking at you but simply staring at the open doorway of the bathroom, his back facing the shower but his presence still suffocating you.
(He refuses to leave alone during showers, simply because heā€™s terrified that youā€™ll slip and fall, that youā€™ll crack your head open or accidentally swallow shampoo or any number of other wild, outlandish things. And, as he listens to the sound of running water, heā€™s hoping that one day heā€™ll get to join you ā€“ that one day youā€™ll be able to bathe together. Heā€™ll run his fingers over your roots, massaging the shampoo into your hair slowly and deeply, your body pressed close to his as the water cascades down your back. Heā€™ll have you lather up his body with that scented body wash you love, and maybe youā€™ll even draw shapes with the bubbles, press kisses to his naked chest or press yourself against him, whispering in your ear that you love him...)
Truly, Jin is not so bad ā€“ he's clingy and youā€™ll have absolutely no time to yourself, but heā€™s not too invasive. He doesnā€™t treat you like an incompetent child, and he at least tries to make you happy ā€“ he wonā€™t push you into a physical relationship, not does he demean you in any purposeful way.
The only true negative with Jin (aside from your kidnapping in the first place, not to mention the stalking and hyper fixation) is that although he tries his best to control it, Splits are not pretty, and youā€™re always the one he comes to her help. When youā€™re around they happen significantly less often, his comfort level higher and his concentration wavering from his own identity crisis and instead towards you, just as his thoughts often do, but they still happen.
And when they do, heā€™s blindly searching for you, reaching out bleary, teary eyes and all sorts of babbles and rambles coming from his mouth, every muscle in his body tensing up as he clutches onto you, begging for you to help him, to please, please make me whole again, ā€˜m not sure whatā€™s ā€“ whatā€™s real.
And while you may hate Jin for kidnapping you, for occasionally breaking into your apartment while youā€™re asleep and watching you rest, for threatening others in your name, for keeping you safe and sound, you still canā€™t watch this. Somewhere buried inside the monster that stole you away is the Jin that you were friends with ā€“ and thatā€™s the Jin you want to help, the one thatā€™s driving you as you shove the paper bag down over his head, letting him engulf you in a nearly too-tight hug as he sobs and his shoulders shake.
It takes him a while to calm down, but as his grip grows tighter and he starts murmuring your name under his breath like a chant, heā€™ll slowly pull away, swallowing heavily and telling you that he loves you, that he needs you, that youā€™re the best thing thatā€™s ever happened to me. And perhaps itā€™s Stockholm Syndrome, or perhaps youā€™ve simply gone crazy, but as time passes something about that sentiment will start becoming romantic to you, something that makes your heart race and gets your palms sweaty.
Because really, eventually you will end up playing out Jinā€™s fantasies ā€“ where the two of you are deeply in love, living together, sleeping together, bathing together, eating together, doing every possible thing in one anotherā€™s company because he simply canā€™t stomach the idea of being aware from you for any small amount of time.
Itā€™s bliss, everything heā€™s ever dreamed of ā€“ and heā€™s willing to do whatever it takes to get there, even if it means acting like your slave just to see you smile at him once a while and give him any scrap of positive affection you can muster.
Anything at all.
PUNISHMENTS:
As a general rule, Jin worships you. He finds you to be absolute perfection ā€“ youā€™re beautiful and caring and patient, everything wonderful and nearly too perfect to even be real. Youā€™re certainly too perfect for a fuck-up like him ā€“ and yet he wants you, in such a primal and raw way that he canā€™t hope to fight it.
Youā€™re like air to him, and because heā€™s grown so attached to your praise and presence in order for his mental health to stabilize for a few moments, Jin canā€™t stomach the thought of punishing you.
Youā€™re supposed to be happy with him ā€“ youā€™re supposed to be growing to love him, something that he works hard at every day that he has you trapped with him. He gets you flowers (theyā€™re a little wilted and old, but theyā€™re the best he can find), little chocolates (never quite in the flavors and styles you like, but as close as he can get), and tries to keep you happy and placated by having all your favorite things in the apartment.
And so, even more than being upset that you attempted to escape or hurt yourself, Jin canā€™t really fathom why youā€™d even bother doing something worthy of a punishment in the first place ā€“ are his efforts not enough? Is it not enough for him to run himself ragged trying to think of ways to keep you happy, to show you that despite having kidnapped you, heā€™s not an entirely bad person?
Itā€™s demoralizing and sends him spiraling into a state of panic and confusion, leading to particularly bad Splits that get him ripping at his hair and frantically grabbing for something, anything, to stop the episode in its tracks.
And so, punishments arenā€™t common at all ā€“ with a few hard exceptions that he does, with time, deem as worthy of his punishments.
(Harming yourself is a large one, as is attempting to harm Jin. Most other things are fair game, and things that he understands why youā€™d do. But once thereā€™s the question of safety, Jinā€™s hairs are standing on edge, worry eating him alive because he absolutely cannot have you bleeding or in pain or any number of horrible things.)
Youā€™ll never, ever be physically harmed while with him ā€“ the mere thought makes him anxious enough that he feels like heā€™ll hurl, the images of you bruised and battered flashing behind his eyes and making him feel on edge, anger boiling up in his chest because he absolutely will not stand for you to be harmed in any capacity, whether by another person or by himself.
And he doesnā€™t even really like to emotionally punish you ā€“ heā€™s not the best manipulator in the world, and something about purposefully warping your mind makes him feel dirty, a grimy feeling that makes his skin crawl and that he wants to avoid at all costs. But sometimes, certain infractions ā€“ especially towards the beginning of your captivity ā€“ have to be addressed, the bad behavior in you stomped out before it can really take root.
And so, Jin relies on other methods to get these points across ā€“ that is, he decides to show you just how good you have it with him by taking some of that good away.
Heā€™ll revoke your dinner privilege for a night, or showering privileges for a few days.
Heā€™ll forbid you from listening to music by removing all electronic players in the apartment, his phone hidden on his person (and yours having been long destroyed, even from before he laid your unconscious body out on your bed, marveling at the sight of you and oh-so-gently brushing a strand of hair out of your face).
It doesnā€™t feel good, you being even minorly uncomfortable in any way a difficult a difficult sight, but Jin pushes through, his personalities arguing audibly but all eventually agreeing that showing you exactly what you do have is the best method to go about making you as happy as you possibly can be with him.
Besides, thereā€™s something inexplicably satisfying about the moment that you finally admit that you need him, that as much as you hate the hell heā€™s created by kidnapping you and keeping you all for himself, you must rely on him if you want to survive.
And Jin is smug ā€“ finally, youā€™re starting to see that he can be good, that heā€™s really not the monster youā€™ve cracked him out to be. And as soon as the punishment is over, Jin is back to the ever-loving, clingy mess that he always is, desperate to be around you and get your attention.
Jinā€™s hurt, more than anything, when you lunge at him and swing your fist like youā€™re trying to punch him.
He stops you easily, of course, but thereā€™s something about the look in his eyes that has you shrinking back, shame withering through your body because god, how can he look so genuinely heartbroken, so genuinely betrayed?
Itā€™s silent for a few moments as he holds your wrist in place, his mind too distracted to even focus on the feeling of physical touch that you initiated, even if the intention was less than ideal. His voice is small when he asks you what youā€™re doing, hurt lacing his words as he asks why are you trying to punch me? Are you mad at me? What did I do?
And in a different voice, though still somber are you on your period?
And although you have a few choice words to spit at him, all kinds of answers popping into your mind immediately, thereā€™s just something about the way heā€™s slumped over, shoulders drooping and defeated, the downturn of his lips and the soulful look in his eye that have you unable to speak, the words simply not rolling off of your tongue.
Jin waits for a moment, expecting a barrage of hatred to spew from you, but nothing comes. And so, with careful fingers and slow movements, he slowly lets go of your hand, watching with careful eyes for your next move.
When you donā€™t swing at him again, Jin takes a step back, the action looking like it physically pains him.
Itā€™s late, we should get to bed. Itā€™s silent again for a moment, but then he moves towards the couch.
Listen, I donā€™t want to be the bad guy, but tonight youā€™ve gotta, uh, youā€™ve gotta sleep here tonight.
You look at him like heā€™s a little crazy, and he sends you a sorry glance, that same hurt written across his features.
Youā€™ve gotta understand that Iā€™m trying to do whatā€™s best for you, I promise! I know kidnapping you was wrong, but youā€™re here now and weā€™ve gotta make the best of it.
God get over it already! Itā€™s already been a month!
You watch with wide eyes as he grabs the blanket off of the back of the sofa, folding it over his arm and gesturing to the furniture.
Sleep here, youā€™ve gotta learn that hurting me isnā€™t okay, and neither is hurting yourself so donā€™t you try anything!
Iā€™ll sleep with an eye open, you hear?
The night is long without the blanket, the apartmentā€™s heating out again as you shiver against the material, using the mangy couch cushions as a makeshift blanket. Itā€™s horrible, and you roll over with a sigh, sure that youā€™ll never manage to fall asleep in this position but fully knowing that Jin would wake up if you tried to join him in the warm bed. Shutting your eyes and sighing, you again try to drift into sleep ā€“ unaware of the way Jin lays in the bed, staring across the room at you with fully awake eyes.
Watching you struggle is torture; he wants more than anything to get up and come bundle you up in the blankets, the sound of your clattering teeth and shivering audible even from his position. But he canā€™t ā€“ not if he wants you to learn your lesson.
Not if he wants you to understand that you absolutely cannot be trying to instigate violence between the two of you ā€“ youā€™re supposed to be a loving couple, happy with one another and perfectly content to live out the rest of your days together.
A punch doesnā€™t exactly fit that happy dream that Jin has whipped up, and although he knows itā€™s far off in the future, he fully expects it to become reality one day ā€“ youā€™ve just got to stop fighting it so hard.
And as morning arrives and you both lie in your respective places, neither of you having slept a wink, Jin decides it was worth it. Because when you get out of bed, crawling over to him and asking with that fucking look on your face if you can use the blanket or get in with him, heā€™s crumbling.
Youā€™ve never asked before ā€“ youā€™ve never used the word ā€˜pleaseā€™ with him since being kidnapped, and here you were now, asking him for a favor, politely, sweetly, like you actually appreciate him.
All he can do is stare dumbly at you for a few seconds, but then heā€™s sputtering out a yes and scotting over, opening up the sheets to expose the beaten-up white tank top heā€™s sporter and the boxer shorts. Immediately you jump in, the sudden warmth feeling heavenly on your chilled bones, but Jin can only shudder, the feeling of your body so close to his driving him crazy, your smell engulfing his senses and he swears he can even taste you.
Heā€™ll pull you close, experimentally, and when you donā€™t fight it heā€™ll let out a slow, long breath, letting his hand rest on your side lightly, almost as if heā€™s afraid to touch you.
Almost as if youā€™re not real ā€“ and by extension that this sort of fondness you seem to be developing for him isnā€™t real either. But God, he hopes it is.
OVERALL DANGER:
5/10
Jin is not particularly dangerous.
Mostly, heā€™s just incredibly and overwhelmingly needy. Heā€™s so sure that heā€™s not worthy of you, that youā€™re much too good for him that it causes him to overcompensate, to try much too hard to get you to like him, to get you to want him.
Heā€™s always texting you, running into you at seemingly random places and times, always talking your ear off and looking so genuinely enraptured and intrigued when you respond to him that itā€™ll make you a little uncomfortable, the intensity in his eyes a bit scary.
He sees you as being something genuinely divine, his idolization of you terrifying in its sheer degree. He spends every free moment trailing behind you, always living in your shadow, pretending with a dopey grin that heā€™s actually living out your life with you, that youā€™re somehow aware of him stalking you, that you actually want him to be involved in your day to day life.
(And he only feels a little pathetic about this ā€“ his love for you and his intense desire to be recognized by you too strong to bar him from having some dignity and stopping this disturbing obsession.)
Heā€™s always trying to interact with you, becoming addicted to hearing your voice and feeling your attention on him, becoming addicted to the feeling of protecting you, of being needed. And when he eventually snaps and steals you away, Jin only becomes more needy, trying desperately to compensate for the fact that heā€™s kidnapped you by spoiling you with any gift he can, respecting your privacy and autonomy, trying to keep you as happy as possible given your situation.
And really, while youā€™ll hate him at first, betrayed beyond belief and scared of this strange new person that seems to have replaced the Jin you knew, eventually youā€™ll slowly come around. Youā€™ll start to realize just how truly pathetic he is, how he canā€™t help himself but want you and your attention, and although youā€™ll hate yourself for it, some part of you will be flattered by how badly he wants you.
Some part of you will be pleased that someone desires you so much that theyā€™ve become such a mess, that they want to please you badly enough that theyā€™re willing to throw their pride out the window for you. Youā€™ll feel guilty and like youā€™re betraying yourself, but really itā€™s in your best interest to not fight this new development ā€“ because really, while Jin may seem a little scatterbrained and easy to manipulate, heā€™ll find you if you escape.
And heā€™ll find you remarkably fast ā€“ and although he still wonā€™t hurt you upon your reunion, youā€™ll come to find that Jin has treated you very, very well. And when thatā€™s suddenly taken away, youā€™ll find yourself wishing that Jin ā€“ your Jin, the one that would steal the stars and sky for you ā€“ was back, that he was with you and telling you just how beautiful you are.
Youā€™ll slowly learn that you need him just as badly as he needs you, now ā€“ a sentiment that makes Jin beam so brightly that it nearly hurts.
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Enji Todoroki General Yandere Profile
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Yandere! Enji Todoroki x fem! reader
Tw: kidnapping, stalking, power imbalances, financial trapping, mentions of physical/domestic abuse, mentions of non-con, sexist undertones, Enji wants you to be his cute little housewife, mentions of breeding/pregnancy, a few mentions of making sure you eat enough/food, Enji is patronizing whoo boy, he makes you share a toothbrush and yes he's weird about it, this is set in a divergent timeline where Enji and Rei are formally divorced and his relationship with his family is loose and not super tight, fem reader, MDNI
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WC: 11K
DARLING PROFILE:
Kind
Enji is, simply, harsh.
His quirk, his mannerisms, his attitude, his everything, really, is a bit rough around the edges, forming a man with only enough self control to get what he wants. Heā€™s lived his whole life bitterly, constantly jealous, constantly wanting, willing to throw everything away in order to achieve his goals.
And once everything starts caving in around him, his family and career both taking unexpected turns, Enji finds himself so, so painfully alone. He doesnā€™t pretend to delude himself into thinking heā€™s not deserving of his fate, but this places him into a positionĀ where he shoulders the guilt while desperately trying to find any outlet to forget it.
And this is where a darling who is kind comes into play ā€“ he needs someone who wonā€™t judge him for his past. He needs someone who doesnā€™t treat him like scum, who is still polite and empathetic to him and his emotions. A darling who is able to consistently praise him will have him smitten quickly, growing emotionally dependent on hearing their sweet words in order to function, in order to not let the depression and stress get the better of him.
And even once his obsession has formed and heā€™s deep in the depth of his infatuation, a darling who is just too kind to kick him to the curbside is absolutely essential for him ā€“ they must be doting and caring, helping rebuild his shattered confidence and psyche, and with every compliment they dish out, Enji vows that heā€™ll return the sentiment tenfold, in his own way of course.
(This means buying his darling millions of yen worth of their favorite things, all kinds of wonderful gifts that he hopes will sway them in his favor, that will get them drooling over him and all that he can provide for them.)
Hardworking
Although heā€™s in a mental state that leaves him much more susceptible to finding a partner once he divorces Rei, Enji is still a picky man. He wonā€™t fall for just anyone ā€“ no, they must fit his standard, be acceptable and meet the rather long and detailed checklist he has for those he considers as potential romantic partners.
And near the top of this list is determination. Heā€™s a man motivated by his own goals and is willing to stop at nothing to achieve them ā€“ and so, a darling that can at least somewhat match this aspect of his personality is critical.
He has no patience for a darling that gives up easily; he wants someone thatā€™s willing to put in the effort to see it pay off, someone who understands the concept of self-discipline and holding yourself to certain moral standards.
He finds it wildly attractive when someone has strong character, and his interest would immediately be piqued with a darling who brings an attitude of perseverance and hard work into every aspect of their life, be it work, their hobbies, their relationship, and everything in between.
He wants someone who is perhaps not quite as stubborn as him, but is still serious in their goals.
(He hopes that one day, making him happy and pleasing him will be one of these goals ā€“ just as pleasing his darling is one of his own. And heā€™s more than happyto please them in whatever way they so desire. More than happy.)
Motherly
Because he views his darling as the perfect wife, his darling absolutely must possess at least somewhat of a motherly air about them. He likes the idea of having a nurturing partner, if only because he finds it endearing when they care for others.
As a hero he shares this sentiment, and although it may sometimes be overshadowed by his need to become the best, deep down inside he does very much wish to help others ā€“ his methodology is just a little more violent, a little more overt.
His darling, by contrast, should prefer a methodology thatā€™s much gentler, something that focuses more on making others feel safe and heard and cared for.
Besides, Enji very much desires to have children with his darling; to build a second family, one that heā€™ll care for and nourish much better than his first. And so, if his darling is to be a good mother, they must embody these traits.
Besides, although he doesnā€™t fall for his darling because of his fantasies of making them a mother, once the feelings are formed these daydreams only further his feelings, deepening his obsession because oh, heā€™d give absolutely anything to see them pregnant with his child, carrying his seed, creating something that symbolizes the love and dedication between them.
And so, his darling needs to be someone who naturally takes care of others ā€“ and in return, Enji will take care of them. Just how it should be.
Pushover
This trait is a bit less crucial compared to the others, but itā€™s still most definitely a positive from Enjiā€™s perspective.
Of course he likes a darling who has strong opinions and stands up for them, but he loves a darling that will let him guide them through any hard decisions, or really any decisions at all.
Although heā€™s not as outright controlling with his darling, he still very much feels that he wears the pants in the ā€˜relationshipā€™, and thus he is the one calling the shots.
A darling who is happy to let him take over their life like this is a massive help to him ā€“ he doesnā€™t have to fight for control, nor does he have to argue with them about why certain decisions really should be made by him as the more dominant partner, as the one who knows more about the world, as the man. Itā€™s an outdated view and itā€™s one that he doesnā€™t really want to admit out loud, but he enjoys the idea of a partner who will revere him and allow him full control.
He wants to be loved and cherished, and in return for a love like this, heā€™ll do his best to provide for and take care of his darling in every way he possibly can ā€“ so really, if his darling knows whatā€™s best for them, theyā€™ll step back and let him make all the tough decisions.
Theyā€™ll nod and smile and agree with whatever he chooses, pressing a kiss against his cheek and telling him how much they trust him, how they know heā€™d never hurt them, how he only wants whatā€™s best for them.
Just the thought makes something warm swell in his stomach, the level of trust making him feel wanted, needed, a concept so foreign that it almost feels wrong. But oh, how he likes it.
GENERAL YANDERE TRAITS:
Controlling
But in a very, very strange way ā€“ a lot of what fuels Enjiā€™s obsession is this desperate, innate need to right his wrongs. Heā€™s very, very aware of how thoroughly he ruined his family, how horribly he treated Rei, how he was a poor excuse of a father and husband, and he sees his love with you as almost being his second try. With you, he can do all the things he should have done with Rei and his children ā€“ he should have been sweet and loving, a present father that cared about each of his children equally. He should have been a doting husband, spoiling his wife and making her feel loved and desired.
But he didnā€™t, and although Rei has long since divorced him, Enji finds himself feeling lonely, incomplete, restless to try again, to properly provide for a sweet little thing he can call his own. And this is where you come in ā€“ and from the moment he realizes his feelings for you are more than a simple attraction, he dives in head-first.
He decides he'll approach everything with you in a way as opposite from his previous marriage as possible ā€“ he's all grand, romantic gestures, always showing up with a bouquet of flowers in hand and just the slightest pink tint on his scarred cheeks.
The grand, romantic gestures are, of course, merely things heā€™s seen in rom-coms; the women always look happy when the love interest swoops in with flowers and gifts and pretty clothing, the beaming smile and large hug the man gets as a reward seeming very, very appealing to Enji, despite his rigid exterior.
(Just the thought of you hugging him has his heart racing ā€“ itā€™s something so intimate, so entirely new that it makes every nerve in his body stand on edge, a shiver running up his spine as he imagines the way your body would feel pressed against his, how youā€™d sigh and sink further against him, how youā€™d squeeze him and god, the view heā€™d get when he looks down to see your body pressed so tightly against him that not even a breath of air could separate you -)
Heā€™s scouring through womenā€™s magazines, burying his nose in the glossy pages and searching for ideas and clues as to what women enjoy as courting gifts.
(He has to scoff under his breath every time he sees a new dieting tip or regiment, internally frowning and worrying that youā€™re seeing these ads and potentially obsessing over your weight. The last thing heā€™d want is for you to be unhappy with your body ā€“ certainly not when heā€™s so very happy with it. Not to mention the nutritionally heinous foods the magazine recommends ā€“ heā€™d sooner have you eat raw paper than follow this ludicrous advice.)
Heā€™s even caving and very, very awkwardly asking his female sidekicks and employees at his agency about their tips on how to seduce a woman. He struggles to make eye contact with them when he asks, his imposing figure almost reminding them of a shy, nervous teenage boy with the way heā€™s so earnest about his question, his eyes lighting up when they mention an idea he hasnā€™t tried yet, pressing them for details and specifics and you must tell me what to say to her ā€“ how does one follow up gifting a puppy?
It would be sweet, really, how devoted he is to making sure that youā€™re absolutely spoiled, that you get a whole variety of lavish gifts designed to sweep you off your feet. It would be wonderful, really, except that Enji has never understood the concept of being too much ā€“ which is how everything will start to feel very, very early on in this process.
Ā It was nice at first to receive a fresh bouquet of roses every morning at your desk with a handwritten card attached. (Written in impeccable handwriting, the cursive letters looping and elegant as they spell out short, simple, sweet messages signed with a capital E at the bottom, reading please make sure to eat enough today and that skirt looks lovely on you.)
Ā It was nice at first, but after the second week of daily bouquets and even a few finding their way to the doorstep of your apartment, the sight of the pretty red flowers makes a sinking feeling swirl in your gut.
(Enji notices this, dismayed and frustrated by your lack of a positive response, and decides to double down and just gift you bigger flowers, because maybe your lack of joy at receiving the bouquets is because they arenā€™t big enough, arenā€™t grandiose enough, arenā€™t good enough.)
It was nice to get the cute, small stuffed bunny on your desk one morning, and youā€™d even grown so fond of the little thing that you perched it on the edge of your desk, assuming it was a one-time gift. But it wasnā€™t ā€“ the stuffed animals kept coming, getting bigger and more detailed and much, much more expensive, youā€™re sure.
(Enji is careful to remove each and every price tag on every gift he sends you, simply because he doesnā€™t want you to feel that you owe him financially, nor does he want you to be swayed into accepting him as your partner by mere economic standing ā€“ thatā€™s an asset that youā€™ll come to know, of course, but heā€™d rather lure you in via more traditional ways. It doesnā€™t exactly stay secret, though, because once the necklace with a delicate array of at least five diamonds in it arrives at your front door, your secret admirerā€™s wealth becomes very, very difficult to hide.)
Heā€™s gifting you jewelry with more precious jewels and gold and silver than you could possibly wear, and outfitting your closet with all kinds of dresses and skirts out of materials and cuts you could never hope to afford for yourself.
(And, of course, theyā€™re all tailored to fit you perfectly ā€“ how Enji managed to get your exact sizes is still a question that haunts you, one that makes you scared to upon the nicely wrapped boxes that you find in excess outside your front door.)
Itā€™s all just too damn much ā€“ Enji is suffocating with his attempts to woo you, his every gift and gesture leaving you feeling uncomfortable. What heā€™s trying to do is very, very obvious ā€“ and it feels wrong. Heā€™s the number one hero, a busy man with much more important things to be doing ā€“ so why is he going after you? And why with such ferocity?
His forwardness will scare you off, driving you to avoid him and grow suspicious of his motives, and Enji does not like this development. This wasnā€™t supposed to happen ā€“ youā€™re supposed to want him, to be seduced by all of his efforts, to be swept off your feet and swooned by his gifts and words (delivered with the grace of a garbage truck, of course, but the sentiment is there ā€“ even if looking at your pretty face distracts him, all the words leaving his head and making him stand there gaping like a fool).
Ā Enji doesnā€™t like it, and so he presses harder, stepping up the frequency and volume of his gifts, only effectively pushing you further and further away from him as you grow more uneased and unsettled. And if you were to confront him about it?
Well, this is where his controlling tendencies come into play ā€“ denying who he naturally is can only last for so long, and despite being a man with superb self-restraint, the moment that Enji feels youā€™re slipping from his fingers heā€™s morphing back into the man that commands your every move.
Suddenly heā€™s no longer presenting you with the newest shampoo youā€™ve been talking about (itā€™s salon grade, the best stuff out there, and much too expensive, but not for Enji ā€“ nothing is too expensive for him when itā€™s for you) but rather letting this expression wash over his face, one that youā€™ve never seen before.
Itā€™s cold, remarkably so; his lips are pressed tightly together, his brows perfectly straight, those eyes lifeless as he tells you to stop fighting, go inside and change into the green dress I gave you last week. Weā€™re going for dinner, and youā€™ll order the house salad and a slice of chocolate cake for dessert. Do you understand me?
Ā Itā€™s weird and unexpected and scary, and itā€™ll have you immediately stuttering out a yes and scurrying inside, too frightened to disobey. And really, while Enji winces every time he does this, eventually he finds himself trying to justify it as simply ensuring your relationship will last.
Obviously itā€™s not good that he has to force you into these small, minor, inconsequential things (like going on a date with him or letting him accompany you home afterwards), but this is different from with Rei ā€“ you want this, right? Youā€™re just too shy to tell him how flattered you are about all the attention heā€™s giving you.
Youā€™re just playing coy, acting on your age-old feminine instincts to make men chase after you, to be demure and make your partner work for your affection and love. And eventually, Enji will convince himself that this is different, heā€™s wooing you and getting you into a relationship with him willingly ā€“ you want him.
You practically love him already ā€“ things are going well. Theyā€™re successful.
They have to be.
And so, while Enji doesnā€™t mean to be controlling, the end results is that although he plays the nice guy that spoils you and gives you anything your heart desires, at the end of the day he is the one in charge, and he is the one dictating your relationship.
And really, what can you do to stop him? Heā€™s strong, both physically and with the general population ā€“ one word from him and youā€™d be hunted for like a madman, ostracized from the community, brought back to him like a pup to its owner.
You belong with him, and itā€™s his job to make you see that ā€“ even if you want to remain blind.
Possessive
Enji Todoroki doesnā€™t share. Once he decides that he wants you, you become unequivocally his.
Sure, he wants to do things a bit differently with you and get you to harbor more loving feelings towards him, but from the moment his infatuation forms you donā€™t really have a choice in the matter.
Ā You can pretend like you do, if it makes you feel better (and it will, because at least you can pretend that you have even an ounce of control in the relationship, that you arenā€™t just some adorable little thing heā€™s decided he wants hanging off his arm and warming his bed), but at the end of the day youā€™re subject to Enjiā€™s whims.
And although Enji lets you harbor this fantasy of your relationship being truly consensual, the moment something occurs that threatens it, his true colors are shown. Namely, when he thinks your attention is veering away from him, his jealousy and anger become difficult to keep in check, his quirk acting up and letting off small sparks and flames all along his body. His fists clench and his jaw tightens when he sees another man around you, and although he tries to rationalize that the man likely doesnā€™t want anything to do with you, just simply being in your presence is enough to make Enji suspicious.
Even if the man isnā€™t talking to you or acknowledging you in any way, heā€™s anxious ā€“ heā€™s scared that something about this man will attract you, that youā€™ll somehow find him better than Enji.
Maybe the man is friendlier ā€“ Enjiā€™s aware that he isnā€™t exactly the most approachable person on the planet.
Maybe he's funnier ā€“ Enji knows he canā€™t crack a joke to save his life.
Maybe heā€™s a better conversationalist ā€“ less formalities and awkwardness, able to get you laughing so hard you snort.
It makes Enjiā€™s skin crawl, his knuckles turning white from how hard heā€™s fisting his hands, and before long he will intervene. Heā€™ll grab you as gently as he can on the elbow, guiding you carefully but quickly away to the other side of the room and physically maneuvering so that his body is blocking your sight of the man ā€“ and more importantly, blocking his sight of you.
Heā€™ll try to talk with you, trying to distract you and get your mind off of the other man, all in an effort to get your attention back on him. Heā€™s reminding you that you have him, that you donā€™t need some other man, that you already have one whoā€™s capable of providing for you and caring for you as you deserve.
Frankly, he discovers just how deeply his feelings for you run in a situation where jealousy gets the best of him ā€“ youā€™d been approached at a small gathering by a man from another agency who was clearly hitting on you. He was leaning in close, smiling with a smarmy smirk and nursing on his cocktail like a lifeline.
Enji had noticed the two of you out of the corner of his eye, and immediately heā€™d gone stiff. He couldnā€™t stop staring at the way the man kept getting gradually closer to you, how he kept leaning in further, how his hand slid from his pocket to your shoulder, then your arm, down to your hand and oh, oh god, it looks like heā€™s bringing it down to your waist ā€“
Enji had been by your side in mere moments, his gaze card and harsh as heā€™d stepped in front of you, making some poorly toned excuse about needing to speak with you for a moment, before unceremoniously dragging you away from the stupefied man.
From that day, Enji absolutely refuses to allow anyone close to you. And really, can he be blamed? After all, he fell for you, so why wouldnā€™t anyone else? Youā€™re beautiful and caring, smart and dignified, and if he can see your potential as a lovely, perfect little wife, surely others can too.
And so, Enji ramps up his controlling tendencies the more heā€™s presented with situations where the green-eyed monster accompanies him. And this control takes its main form through financials ā€“ that is, while Enji originally didnā€™t want to attract you to him via his material wealth, he decides itā€™s a necessary evil in order to have you staying by his side only.
He starts ā€˜forgettingā€™ to peel off the price tags of the gifts he gives you, pretending not to notice how your eyes practically bug out of your head when you unbox the pink pendant heā€™d bought for you.
He starts inviting you out for lunches and dinners more often, ordering for you and choosing the most expensive items off the menu despite your numerous pleas that youā€™ll opt for something ā€“ anything ā€“ cheaper.
(Itā€™s frustrating, too, because as angry as you want to be at him for ordering for you, he always chooses something you end up liking ā€“ of course itā€™s because heā€™s done extensive research and stalking, finding out your favorite foods and what flavors you dislike, but it all seems like one large, awfully strange coincidence to you.)
Exerting financial control over you keeps you complacent, because the guilt youā€™ll feel at how much money heā€™s sinking into you will have you following his every word, even if it his commands are a little strange and off-putting ā€“ like spending less time with any male friends (or really any friends for that matter) or slipping the small photograph of him into your purse (itā€™s weird and you do so hesitantly, making sure the polaroid is at the bottom of the bag ā€“ and trying to ignore the way his muscles are oh-so fucking defined in the tight black shirt heā€™s sporting in the photograph).
Itā€™s all just a big ploy to keep you from running off with some other man ā€“ but really, if you somehow did manage to do that, Enji wonā€™t be particularly merciful. He will be cornering the man as he leaves your apartment and he will be holding him by the neck against the cold concrete wall, threatening him to leave you alone or experience the rather unpleasant sensation of burning alive.
Itā€™s not particularly heroic, but Enji doesnā€™t care ā€“ he canā€™t, not when the threat of you leaving him for another man is very much present and real. Itā€™s too scary, too much for him to handle ā€“ it would mean you rejecting him, his second fuck-up in love, and the loss of someone who fits absolutely every one of his desires in a woman.
Youā€™re too perfect for him to lose ā€“ so instead, heā€™ll own you.
Dependent
He will never admit it, but thereā€™s this part of Enji that grows stronger day by day, every time he sees your face, that tells him in the most raw, real way that he absolutely needs you.
Heā€™s essentially lost what he had of his family, and with the sharp uptake in responsibility as the new number one hero, the new symbol of modern peace, Enji finds himself turning to you in his time of need, in his more vulnerable moments.
Because really, though his exterior is tough and jaded, heā€™s only human ā€“ he too needs someone to love, someone to hold and latch onto, and latch he does. Youā€™re his, and he expects you to understand that even if he doesnā€™t verbalize it.
He cherishes your very existence, each and every thing you do, finding you to be remarkably weak yet remarkably endearing, your inability to defend yourself simultaneously adorable and frustrating. He needs you to realize that youā€™re his everything; his whole reason for living now, even if he doesnā€™t give you many clues into this.
He isnā€™t the best at expressing his emotions, and although the love and desperation he feels for you is constantly overwhelming him, overflowing from his chest and making him dizzy, he doesnā€™t articulate just how deeply these feelings run.
Of course heā€™ll tell you how youā€™re beautiful, or that youā€™re my responsibility to protect, but heā€™ll also say significantly less romantic things like how you belong to him, how he's never letting you out that front door, how heā€™ll never let those disgusting, filthy villains touch something as perfect as you.
He thinks itā€™s sweet and exactly what you want to hear, but itā€™s not ā€“ itā€™s scary and strange and weird, but these are your biggest clues as to his dependence on you.He wonā€™t tell you, but his expectations for you are honestly monumentally high; he wants you to be his perfect little wife, everything that Rei wasnā€™t, and this includes giving you every ounce of his love.
He wants you to be diligently cooking him hearty meals, keeping the house tidy and clean for the two of you, to be massaging his shoulders while he relaxes from a stressful day at work. (Hell, he even wants you to wear cute little aprons, collars with his name stitched onto them, those maternity/breast feeding bras before youā€™re even pregnantā€¦)
He wants a domestic fantasy with you, and this extends to other, more vulnerable things as well. He expects you to embrace him as he walks through the door everyday returning home, to give him a light peck on the cheek and ask about his day, to let him hug you from behind and kiss your neck as you slave away over the stove.
He never really got the chance to do such loving things with Rei (not that he particularly wanted to), and as a result he honestly feels like heā€™s having to make up time, that he needs to be taking every single ounce of affection and love you can possibly give him, and heā€™ll feel no guilt at all.
He wonā€™t outright ask you to cuddle him, but when he sits on the large, overstuffed leather couch and stares at you expectantly, youā€™ll quickly learn to run over to him and snuggle up into his side, to bury your face into his chest and wrap your arms and legs around him even if his body heat cooks you alive.
He wonā€™t ever explicitly ask you to give him those fluttery, soft morning kisses heā€™s seen all the time in terrible corny rom-coms he religiously watched for inspiration while trying to court you, but the moment you smile sleepily at him and press a kiss against his lips while you holds you close in the morning glow?
God, itā€™s in those moments that he wants to give you absolutely everything he has ā€“ every part of his body, soul and heart, every single cent he owns, every piece of fame and fortune heā€™s ever amassed.
Enji just wants to please you, and although he comes off as an odd mix of demanding yet generous, terrifying yet strangely awkward, inside his heart is hammering against his ribcage every time you so much as smile at him, every time you so much as look at him. In the hazy afterglow of a round of passionate morning sex (in which youā€™ve realized that fighting will get you nowhere ā€“ itā€™ll only earn you an Enji thatā€™s more frantic and desperate to get you moaning and crying out his name), when he latches onto your smaller, exhausted and sweaty body, pressing you as tightly against him as possible, sometimes his demeanor will crack.
Heā€™ll lean down to deeply inhale the scent of your hair, to watch the way your chest rises and falls, and heā€™ll whisper in the softest of voices that he loves you, youā€™re the light of his world. He doesnā€™t know what heā€™d do without you, but Enji is hellbent on never finding out ā€“ after all, there is no chance of escape with him, and heā€™s sure youā€™ll learn your place soon.
After all, pretty, submissive girls like you always do.
DEALING WITH RIVALS:Ā 
Enji is, regrettably, terrible at hiding his jealousy.
Heā€™s always been in a constant state of envy, whether it was vying for the top spot in the heroing world against All Might, desiring the perfect offspring in order to have the Todoroki name and himself live on, and countless other examples. Heā€™s prideful and so fucking jealous of everyone around him, and this is only heightened when it comes to you ā€“ his possessiveness over you is nothing to sneeze at, and the minute he feels that your attention is threatened, that you could possibly be yearning for another?
Heā€™s wasting no time stepping in, mercilessly shutting down each and every opportunity you could possibly have of being with anyone other than himself.
As much as heā€™s loathe to admit it, his jealousy and possessiveness stems from a place of insecurity; heā€™s aware that heā€™s by no means the perfect partner, and he rationally knows that you could do much, much better than him.
And so, as a sort of panic-induced response, Enji decides that you simply arenā€™t allowed to interact with any other men ā€“ this way, you arenā€™t presented with the opportunity to even let the feelings form. And heā€™s diligent with this theory, too ā€“ heā€™s always standing near you, acting as your shadow with watchful, hawk-like eyes trained on your figure.
Heā€™s never been the best at reading people, but heā€™s able to tell from miles away when someone approaches you with intentions that are less than innocent, and immediately his lips are thinning, his brows furrowing, his entire body temperature raising by five degrees because youā€™re his, and this piece of scum disguised as a man obviously doesnā€™t realize this.
Heā€™s your guardian angel in many ways (though really, he takes the guardian portion much too far ā€“ even men who have no romantic intentions with you are viewed as potential threats, shooed away with a vengeance that will make them too afraid to even think about you without imagining themselves engulfed in flames), though at times it will make you feel more than a little patronized.
Itā€™s as if he doesnā€™t trust you ā€“ you donā€™t really have a relationship, at least in your eyes, but you know the number one hero wants something more than friendship with you. And so, you do your best to avoid evoking his anger and wrath by not romantically involving yourself with another man ā€“ and yet thatā€™s not enough for Enji.
It canā€™t be, simply because as pretty and sweet and smart as you may be, Enji will always know better. Itā€™s a controlling tendency and a mildly sexist view, but he thinks of you as his doting, loving housewife-to-be, and itā€™s the manā€™s job to make these sorts of decisions.
Youā€™re just too sweet and outgoing for your own good ā€“ youā€™ll get mixed up in all sorts of trouble if youā€™re not careful, and lucky little you has someone like Enji to watch out for you and make sure your pretty head has nothing to worry about. And so, Enji sticks to you like glue, warding off potential suitors with grueling stares and a presence and reputation too strong to ignore.
Enjiā€™s day had been long, and one of those days that made him seriously question his abilities as a hero. A villain had managed to trick him, and although Enji had of course eventually arrested the perpetrator, his deception had led to a lot of wasted time and more damage to surrounding buildings than was acceptable.
His head was pounding, his body still feeling overly hot from all of the fighting, and though not normal, heā€™d decided he was done for the day and left the rest of the agencyā€™s calls to his sidekicks. Leaving early had felt almost freeing in a way, the world looking a bit different with all this extra time ā€“ walking down the sidewalk, Enji scanned the windows of each shop he passed.
As per usual, youā€™d been on his mind all day ā€“ flashes of your face sitting just behind his eyelids, your name just a hair away on his tongue, the feeling of your phantom touch sending shivers down his spine. It was irritating, distracting, heavenly, and with each window he passed, he kept an eye out for anything you might like.
Heā€™d gotten you a pretty tea cup set yesterday, and although youā€™d been hesitant and visibly uncomfortable at receiving such a gift (the set was very, very obviously expensive, the marbled china too perfect and pristine to have costed anything less than a yearā€™s worth of your salary), Enji was eager to gift you something that would be received better today.
Streets passed by, nothing quite suiting his vision for what you deserved ā€“ heā€™d need something more subtle today, something simple and sweet and something he knows you like ā€“ The confectionary is small, with swirling black letters over a baby pink banner spelling out the name of the store. The windows are lined with all sorts of chocolates and candies, all wrapped up in pretty, ornate packaging that makes Enji immediately pick up his pace, practically storming into the small shop.
It smells like vanilla and sugar as the door shuts behind him, and although it makes him wince, he knows youā€™d love it. Shelves nearly as tall as him line the shop in narrow rows, displaying all sorts of sweets that heā€™s never heard of before ā€“ caramels, gumdrops, chocolates, lollipops, anything and everything under the sun.
Heā€™s only been in the store for roughly five minutes, staring at a collection of truffles with furrowed brows and a downward curl of his lip when he hears a small laugh over the gentle, happy classical music playing quietly over the speakers. Immediately heā€™s perking up ā€“ the laugh sounds familiar; the lilt of it, the tonality, the soft intake of breath right after it stops.
His lips part, eyes going wide, and before he can even really control himself heā€™s rushing towards the source of the noise, his entire face growing warm when he sees you ā€“ youā€™re at the register, a few candies sitting on the wooden slab, your purse in hand as you fish for presumably your wallet.
You look gorgeous today ā€“ youā€™re wearing a shirt heā€™s never seen before and your favorite pair of jeans (the ones that make your ass look so, so very perfect ā€“ perfect to squeeze at, to grope and touch and smack and press himself againstā€¦), and although heā€™s briefly disappointed that you arenā€™t wearing an item of clothing that heā€™d gifted you, he notices the clerk all too soon.
The clerk ā€“ Hyoshi, his nametag says ā€“ is smiling at you. Heā€™s all teeth, a grin that makes the hairs on the back of Enjiā€™s neck stand up, his nostrils flaring because youā€™d been laughing, and it must be this manā€™s doing. This man, whoā€™s visibly weak even under the ridiculous confectionary uniform heā€™s sporting ā€“ arms that couldnā€™t hope to lift even a fraction of what Enji can, a chest that isnā€™t ruggedly defined like the heroā€™s, and a stature thatā€™s frankly pathetic compared to the frame of the redheaded man behind you.
Enjiā€™s angry, and as the man opens his mouth to presumably say something else (potentially something thatā€™ll make you laugh again), his words die on his tongue as he glances behind you to see the behemoth of a man whoā€™s quite literally acting as your shadow.
His eyes widen and immediately heā€™s stuttering out a w-welcome in, Endeavor! At that, your shoulders go stiff, your mouth parting into an adorable little ā€˜oā€™ that Enji can practically see in his head, and you slowly turn around.
Oh, hello Endeavor, arenā€™t you normally on patrol right now?
Enjiā€™s jaw works, and although a small part of him is pleasantly surprised that youā€™d remembered his patrol shift, your words only serve to further frustrate him. You knew it was his time on the clock ā€“ and yet, youā€™d still ventured out into the heart of downtown, completely on your own, defenseless except for the measly, very sad pepper spray you keep in that worn purse of yours ā€“ both of which he keeps pleading with you to let him replace.
(Heā€™ll get you new pepper spray and a taser and a pocketknife, just because he knows how dangerous these streets can be, and with your pretty face and your pretty body heā€™s sure villains would be lining out the door to get a taste of you. And of course, the new bag ā€“ heā€™s bought you plenty, in a wide variety of styles and colors, each gift getting more and more desperate to be the one you finally deem as being good enough to use, but alas.)
Enji doesnā€™t even bother with a greeting, instead stepping up to the counter, slamming down his credit card and stepping in front of you. Iā€™ll be paying for her sweets. His voice is cold, firm, and sends the clerk into a scurry to process the transaction, meanwhile youā€™re staring in mild shock from behind the hero.
Of course youā€™re not surprised ā€“ how can you be, when he insists on spoiling you in every possible way? And yet the raw animosity heā€™s radiating right now canā€™t be ignored ā€“ you get the feeling as if youā€™re somehow in trouble, though you canā€™t figure out what for. As soon as the card reader beeps, Enjiā€™s scooping up the card and your sweets, his thick fingers wrapping around your wrist just barely too tightly and marching out the door, telling the clerk over his shoulder to keep the receipt.
It takes every bone in his body to not turn back around and swing at the man behind the counter, his eyes shutting tightly in concentration as he tells himself that itā€™s not worth it, the media will find out, your reputation will be damaged. But as his eyes peel open and he realizes the way youā€™re squirming in his grip, he only sighs and releases you, those teal eyes of his appraising you with a frown.
Youā€™re feeling guilty again, unsure of yourself as you gently rub your wrist, and for a moment Enji feels regret ā€“ did he hurt you? He hadnā€™t meant to, heā€™d just been angry and it was already hard enough to not harm the man whoā€™d made you laugh, and surely youā€™d understand that he didnā€™t mean to ā€“
You break the silence before he can voice his concerns, clearing your throat and thanking him in a meek voice. Enji merely nods, a small grunt your only response as he begins walking again, your sweets ā€“ and your purse ā€“ firmly in his hands, just so that you wonā€™t have to carry them.
When you donā€™t immediately follow him, Enji pauses, looking back over his shoulder with a brow cocked.
What? Follow me ā€“ we have dinner reservations this evening, at that new seafood restaurant by the harbor. Fuyumi tells me itā€™s quite good; order the crab legs and the caviar.
Thereā€™s no room for disagreement in his tone, and for a moment you just blankly gape at him, the situation too strange for you to really process.
But all too soon his eyes are narrowing, and youā€™re practically tripping over your feet to follow him, keeping your gaze cast downwards as Enjiā€™s hand rests on the small of your back, guiding you even though thereā€™s not a civilian in sight on the desolated sidewalk he leads you down.
TAKING HIS DARLING AWAY:
Honestly, Enji is complicated as a yandere; thereā€™s a part of him that knows that there are aspects of his relationship with you that mirror that of his previous marriage. He knows that although you may not be treated as terribly (and that you have more purpose to him than simply an incubator), youā€™re still trapped, essentially a slave to his will.
And yet, as time passes and his dependence on you grows stronger, he canā€™t help but justify his actions, deciding that yes, you may be stuck with him, but at least he spoils you rotten with your favorite foods, expensive clothing and jewels, an unlimited supply for each and every hobby you may have. He may have you trapped between a rock and a hard place in terms of leaving him, but at least he genuinely loves you - he aches to spend time with you, to hold you in his arms, to feel your heartbeat against his ear, your lips against his, your body writhing below his.
Heā€™s convinced himself that this time is different, that youā€™re different, and as such he eventually decides that itā€™s really in both your best interests to just relocate you, to get you officially by his side.Ā Itā€™s really paranoia that drives this decision ā€“ heā€™s a working hero and a man with many, many enemies, and so itā€™s really the only option that keeps you safe.
Stealing you away into his private home ā€“ heā€™s the sole inhabitant, aside from a cleaner or two, since moving out of the Todoroki household ā€“ is the best option for a multitude of different reasons. Youā€™re safer this way ā€“ the state-of-the-art security systems heā€™s installed around the estate are the best money can pay for, able to detect intruders and any suspicious activity in the blink of an eye. Enemies donā€™t have much of a chance of getting inside, and even if they had managed to, Enji will be right there to burn them to a crisp for even daring to get close to his beloved.
And even aside from outside threats, keeping you trapped at home will allow him to keep an eye on you and make sure that you donā€™t accidentally hurt yourself ā€“ youā€™re ridiculously clumsy to him, your every action having him hold his breath slightly in anticipation, in fear that youā€™ll somehow trip or fall or bruise your pretty skin. Plus, this way heā€™ll know that youā€™re eating healthily and in the right quantities, that youā€™re getting proper exercise, that youā€™re relaxing as you should, that youā€™re spending adequate amounts of time in the interior courtyard heā€™d prepared in preparation for you.
(Itā€™s beautiful, as loathe as you are to admit it ā€“ all kinds of flowers bloom along the walkways, bamboo and tall grasses and trees growing in neat lines and providing shade for the flowerbeds on hot summer days. Thereā€™s even a small stream flowing through it, the gentle trickling noise almost enough to cancel out the painful silence that exists between you and Enji when he decides to join you for your scheduled garden time in the afternoons ā€“ uninvited, as always, and yet still unable to sense how desperately you wish youā€™d get these times alone to yourself.)
Aside from your safety, keeping you in his home helps feeds into his domestic fantasies of the two of you ā€“ youā€™re so very precious to him, and from nearly the beginning of his obsession with you, heā€™s always viewed you as the perfect wife ā€“ specifically, the perfect housewife.
Heā€™s a traditional man, believing in traditional gender roles, and although he doesnā€™t view you as being less-than based upon your status as a woman, he does expect certain things from you. Heā€™s the breadwinner, the strong, capable one who provides you with a roof over your head, food, and any gift under the sun the moment you make even the slightest inclination of wanting it.
And in return, youā€™re to be his caring, nurturing wife ā€“ the one who keeps the house neat and tidy, a room dedicated to only cleaning supplies that you get always stay stocked and ready for you, should you become inspired and wish to fulfill this domestic fantasy of his. The cleaning products are all diluted down to a level that wouldnā€™t be dangerous if you were to ingest them ā€“ youā€™d get sick, surely, but itā€™s nothing a home-trip from a doctor whoā€™s been sworn to secrecy canā€™t handle.
Thereā€™s also, unfortunately, a drawer within the room that a particularly bored you had one day opened only to immediately slam it shut. Dozens of cleaning outfits sat neatly folded in the drawer, the black and white getups looking much too tight and much too short. A few weeks later youā€™d returned to the drawer, bored out of your mind while Enji was away at work, peeling one out with careful and trembling fingers. And of course, to no oneā€™s surprise, the outfit fit like a fucking glove ā€“ hugging your curves and accentuating them, the skirt full and flouncy and very easy to flip up, the bustline practically choking your breasts with how tightly the black cotton pressed them together. Youā€™d changed out of it shortly after, the rather disturbing and shameful fleeting question of whether this was the type of thing Enji liked making you too disgusted, guilty, and bashful to really consider.
In his idealized domestic world, youā€™d cook for him, too, but it takes a very long time for him to trust you enough to not purposefully burn or cut yourself in the kitchen. He has daydreams about coming home from a hectic work day to see you standing over the stove in a cute apron, humming some song and lighting up when you hear the door open and close, his announcement of being home making you practically bounce on your heels.
He wants to have you cook for him, to see you slave in the kitchen putting every ounce of your concentration and time into making him a meal you know heā€™ll enjoy, but that fantasy has to wait for the time being ā€“ just until he thinks youā€™ve finally lost that rebellious streak of yours, just until you finally come to realize that you belong by Enjiā€™s side.
And so, in the meantime heā€™ll have you make him small things that hold little potential for you to hurt yourself with ā€“ simple sandwiches with pre-sliced ingredients, so that you wonā€™t cut yourself chopping tomatoes or slicing bread. He'll have you prepare a sandwich for him and one for yourself, too, ordering you to sit down at the dining table with him and share a meal ā€“ though the conversation is hard to come by, and each attempt he makes at starting it is only met with single word answers from you.
(Another domestic fantasy he harbors but would never tell you about is to have you sitting with him at the table, looking at him with those pretty eyes and your voice dropping to a sultry volume, your chopsticks bringing the food you diligently and loving prepared for him up to his lips, your tone teasing as you tell him to open wide! Heā€™d keep eye contact the whole time he chews, never once breaking it as he tells you in that low, gruff voice of his that itā€™s perfectly done, the seasoning is impeccable. He wants you to be bashful, to smile and hide it with your hand, your lashes fluttering as you glance at him then back to the food again, too shy to say much but your body language showing just how much his praise effects you, just how good it feels to be the center of his attention, the apple of his eye, his absolute everything.)
He wants you to be his sweet housewife, and although he wonā€™t force you into any of the work, itā€™s extremely obvious what he wants of you ā€“ heā€™s always telling you about when you get adjusted, how youā€™ll be more open to fulfilling your role.
When youā€™re more adjusted, youā€™ll be happy to iron his clothes; perhaps youā€™ll spritz a bit of the perfume he buys you onto his shirts, just as a reminder of you during his long days.
(As if he needs a reminder ā€“ certainly not, when youā€™re on his mind nearly every minute of the day.)
When youā€™re more adjusted, youā€™ll be pleased to see the positive pregnancy test in your trembling hands, your voice riddled with joy as you announce the good news to him, watching him drop the phone and keys in his hand and instead hoist you into the air, spinning you with a grin on his face so bright it nearly blinds you, concluded with a passionate kiss and a few tears on his cheeks because he just canā€™t fucking wait to have you as the mother of his child.
Itā€™s all this talk of ā€˜when thisā€™ and ā€˜when thatā€™, but the strange thing about Enji as a captor is that heā€™s incredibly patient with seeing these fantasies come to fruition ā€“ sure, he may be forcing you into being a housewife just as he did with Rei, but this is different ā€“ you get a choice about some of it, unlike her. You donā€™t have to do the dishes, but you can if youā€™d like. You donā€™t have to bear his children, but you can if youā€™d like.
(And frankly, itā€™ll be hard not to ā€“ once your need for human contact and your strange, mixed feelings for him grow, youā€™ll eventually give into his requests for intimacy, and once the floodgates are open, you will end up pregnant from the sheer frequency and volume at which he pumps you full of his cum.)
All that being said, life as Enjiā€™s captive will honestly not be too terrible ā€“ heā€™s still following you around the house like a shadow, but heā€™ll let you sleep in your own bed at the start, let you have your own bedroom and bathroom, and he wonā€™t even force you into spending time with him at the beginning.
Because really, as tortuous and painful as keeping you away from him is, he repeats the mantra over and over in his head that eventually itā€™ll be worth it ā€“ eventually youā€™ll see things his way, and eventually youā€™ll come to see just how deeply his feelings for you run. Youā€™ll realize that heā€™s only ever loved you, that he cares for you more than any other man possibly could, that he only has your best interests at heart ā€“ thatā€™s why he always swung by your apartment at the end of his patrols, peering in at you through your windows, just to make sure you were safe and sound.
Thatā€™s why he kidnapped you, to ensure your safety and keep you in the arms of the only man truly capable of providing for you, just as you deserve.
Thatā€™s why heā€™ll never let you escape him, no matter how you beg and plead for your freedom ā€“ you donā€™t understand the outside world like he does. You think you do, but each villain he arrests is a nail in the coffin of your freedom ā€“ you have no fucking clue how dangerous the world is, and Enji isnā€™t hesitant to remind you of this.
Youā€™re unhappy with him? Well, your options are here, in his warm house where heā€™s willing to give you every ounce of his attention, love, and touch, or out in the big, scary world where women like you are easy targets for men who love destroying easy targets.
So really, youā€™re in the best hands with Enji ā€“ he knows how to take care of you, and heā€™ll spoil you with every possible treasure you could want. Whatā€™s not to be happy about?
PUNISHMENTS:
As a general rule, Enji doesnā€™t ā€˜doā€™ punishments. Because he views his relationship with you as his second try at finding a companion, there is no part of him that actively desires to hurt you. He loves you, in some sick, twisted way thatā€™s much too obsessive and desperate to ever be considered healthy, but itā€™s still love nonetheless.
And as such, Enji does genuinely want your relationship to be as wholesome and sweet as possible; he wants you to want him, to actively choose to spend your time with him, to want to be in his presence every moment of every day. He wants everything to be as perfect as possible ā€“ the idealized life, a life where heā€™s the number one hero coming home to his lovely wife who cherishes him and he cherishes in return.
And so, when you do something that doesnā€™t quite line up with this fantasy, Enji is understandably upset. Why canā€™t you just accept that this is your reality now? Why do you insist on fighting him, even when you know you wonā€™t win? How could you?
Heā€™s Enji Todoroki, Endeavor the Flame Hero, and youā€™re just you. Youā€™re pretty, of course, and smart and sweet and caring, but youā€™re still just you. Thereā€™s nothing you can do against someone like him ā€“ which is why Enji is able to excuse your poor behavior most of the time.
He understands; itā€™s difficult to accept that youā€™re weak and powerless, and he understands that when you lash out and act out, youā€™re just expressing frustration and fear at being taken care of so wholly and completely by someone so much stronger than you. It must be scary, after all ā€“ Enji can be so intimidating and he knows it, so heā€™ll try his absolute best to calm down anytime his anger starts to flare.
The last thing he wants to do is harm you, and he wants everything in your relationship to be as different as possible from that with Rei ā€“ and hurting you in any way would too closely resemble his previous marriage, ruining the beautiful illusion he can live under with you.
And so, most of the time Enji is able to grit his teeth and shut his eyes, letting the anger subside by telling himself about all the wonderful things about you ā€“ things that always get him feeling calmer, that make the buzzing sensation in his head and the suffocating feeling of anger dissipate. Nine times out of ten, heā€™s able to calm himself down this way ā€“ and if thatā€™s not enough, normally exiting the room and getting a breath of fresh air is enough. Heā€™ll tell himself that he absolutely cannot fall into the same habits he did with Rei ā€“ youā€™re different, youā€™re special, and heā€™ll calm himself down as often as he needs to in order to avoid being seen by you as the big, scary man who will hurt you if you disobey him.
Thus, getting Enji angry enough to the point where he canā€™t simply calm himself down is actually quite difficult ā€“ generally, this involves you hurting yourself. Most other things he can twist into seeming not so bad, rather just being you not having adjusted to life as his woman quite yet. He can write off your escape attempts as you still clinging to this ludicrous sense of independence you seem so hellbent on keeping.
Attempts to harm him can be discarded as your misplaced sense of anger at your situation, because although in your heart of hearts heā€™s sure youā€™re happy to be in your natural familial setting (as the wife of a strong, capable man of course), youā€™ve confused yourself by trying to reject something thatā€™s just so right.
Of course these events donā€™t make him happy, but theyā€™re able to be disregarded ā€“ but when your blood is drawn by your own accord, even Enji canā€™t pretend this is something else. This is you purposefully trying to injure yourself, purposefully trying to show him that you arenā€™t happy, that you donā€™t want this ā€“ an idea that makes him panic, that sends his fists clenching, that gets him pacing and his mind racing as he tries to figure out how to set you straight without harming you. And so, Enji eventually decides that after he cleans up your injury, rather than simply hitting you
and physically showing you that he wonā€™t stand for this sort of misbehavior, he has to be more restrictive with you. He wonā€™t be so lenient for the days following your bad behavior ā€“ you wonā€™t be so spoiled, your rights wonā€™t be so freely handed to you.
You must understand that Enji is charge, and that heā€™s being generous and loving and kind by allowing you such free reign around your shared home. Really, he doesnā€™t need to be so generous ā€“ and heā€™ll teach you that an angry Enji is much, much worse than the normal doting, lovesick Enji youā€™re used to.
Enji is frozen as he opens the front door. Heā€™d come home a bit early from running some errands, the groceries in his hand dropping onto the hardwood floors below him. His jaw is dropped a bit, the sight of your bright red blood staining your forearm making a wave of sickness wash over him.
Who did this?
Who couldā€™ve hurt you like this? Thereā€™d been no security alerts while he was gone, and there was absolutely no way that youā€™d left the interior of this house in the two hours he was gone. In the next breath heā€™s rushing forward into the kitchen, by your side before you can even blink, paying no mind to the way you gasp and stumble away from him, as if youā€™re afraid of him.
It makes Enjiā€™s chest ache, but the sight of your blood is too distracting for him to focus on the uncomfortable ache. Instead, heā€™s thrusting your arm under the kitchen sink, the lukewarm water making you wince ever so slightly as it runs over the wound.
Enjiā€™s brows furrow as he examines your arm; the cuts are long, zigzagging in every direction in a way that looks strange, not like any normal attack pattern heā€™s seen before. This doesnā€™t look natural, either ā€“ not like a regular scratch, not like you just slipped and fell and had unfortunate luck. No, this looks like something else entirely ā€“ like something purposeful, like their appearance marring your pretty skin isnā€™t accidental in the least. Itā€™s only then that Enji sees the glinting silver fork out of the corner of his eye, sitting on the edge of the counter with a bit of red staining the ends.
Immediately his body is freezing, his grip on your arm squeezing tighter as the gears turn in his mind. You must haveā€¦
His jaw flexes as he grinds his teeth, those blue eyes of his slanting over to look at you with such intensity and anger that you physically shrink in on yourself. His grip is too firm for you to pull your arm back, Enji absolutely unwilling to let you run away from this.
Did you do this to yourself?
His voice is surprisingly even, given the look on his face, and immediately youā€™re shaking your head, your entirely body paralyzed with fear. Youā€™ve never seen Enji look this scary before ā€“ or at least not towards you.
Your answer only serves to further anger him, it seems, because soon heā€™s literally snarling, his face twisted up into this ugly look ofĀ  rage thatā€™s only heightened by the scar across his eye.
Donā€™t lie to me, I will always be able to tell when youā€™re untruthful with me. He pauses, taking a deep breath, his voice just the slightest bit unsteady. Did you do this to yourself?
This time you nod yes, tears prickling at your eyes and starting to spill down your cheeks, and at the sound Enji makes, they only flow faster. He looks like heā€™s in more pain than you are ā€“ his face is red, and a few flames lick up around his shoulders. The heat washes over you, and soon the begs are slipping off your tongue before you can help yourself.
Enji pays you no mind, every ounce of his self-control going towards not slapping you in the face for your blatant stupidity. Soon heā€™s letting go of your hand, stomping towards the small first aid kit he keeps in the kitchen, entirely silent as he carefully wraps your arm in bandages, not paying your rambling any attention or mind.
As soon as youā€™re securely bandaged, he leaves the room and you hear the sound of his bedroom door slamming shut reverberating throughout the house.
The rest of the night passes in a blur, with you somehow getting from the floor of the kitchen where youā€™d laid down and eventually fallen asleep all the way to your bed, with the blankets carefully slotted over your body.
Nothing seems to be amiss the next morning, your footsteps cautious as you approach the bathroom, your brows shooting up when you notice that the counter is completely bare ā€“ your toothbrush, toothpaste, floss, and mouthwash are all missing, as are all the expensive lotions and facial scrubs Enji normally keeps in piles for your convenience.
The kitchen is empty, too, you notice ā€“ the silverware drawer is completely empty, and there are no cups or mugs of any sort in any of the cupboards. Itā€™s unnerving, and immediately youā€™re getting goosebumps all over your body, the air feeling prickly and cold, as if thereā€™s something lurking that you donā€™t know about. Biting your lip, you make your way to the table, gingerly sitting down and trying not to jostle the bandages too much ā€“ the bandages that had been changed, you distantly notice.
A few minutes later, Enji joins you in the kitchen, his expression not exactly jovial, but not particularly hostile. He greets you as he normally does, before placing the mug you now notice is in his hand under sink. The sound of rushing water gets your mouth watering, not having realized how thirsty you were until this moment.
Wide eyes watch him turn towards you, making his way to your seated figure with slow, heavy steps that get your heart thudding in his chest. He stops right next to you, before telling you to open your mouth. Hesitantly, you do as he says, jerking slightly when his fingertips ā€“ always unnaturally warm ā€“ cup your chip and bring the cup up to your lips, the water cold as youā€™re forced to drink it.
Enji watches with neutral eyes, though you see the corner of his lip curl up slightly as you drink the entire glass, the pacing of the water flow nearly too much and nearly choking you. Soon itā€™s gone, and Enji uses his thumb to wipe at the corner of your lips.
Since yesterdayā€™s little spectacle has shown me that you canā€™t be trusted with basic household supplies, let me know if you require another drink, if youā€™d like to brush your teeth, or if youā€™d like to wash your hair. You obviously canā€™t do it alone, so I will be joining you. Now, go lay down on the couch. I need to change your wrappings again.
Youā€™re dumbfounded, watching him keep the mug in his grasp as he heads towards the living room. And though the threat seems too extreme, Enji means it ā€“ you only last a few hours before you reluctantly ask for another drink, your throat too dry and sore to go without it.
And that night, when you shamefully ask him for your toothbrush, youā€™re not particularly pleased to find out that heā€™ll be the one brushing your teeth, using his very own toothbrush to get the job done, just to make sure you donā€™t even think about trying to choke yourself with the brush.
(And when you finally have to shower, well, Enjiā€™s face turns bright red when you ask, rushing to his feet much too quickly, grasping your hand and practically pulling you to the bathroom before applying all sorts of soaps and scents to the bath he draws for you. His breath is hitched as he turns around so you can change in privacy, but donā€™t be surprised to see him sneaking glances at your bare body beneath the waterā€™s bubbly surface. Donā€™t be surprised when later that night you hear a suspiciously rhythmic thumping sound and muffled groans through the wall thatĀ  your bedrooms share, the faintest wet, squelching noise accompanying them.)
And, roughly a week later when you wake up to the cups and mugs back in the cupboard and your shampoo back in the shower, youā€™ll decide against hurting yourself anytime soon. Itā€™s not worth it ā€“ not if thatā€™s how youā€™ll be treated; forced to ask permission for your basic needs.
And Enji couldnā€™t be more pleased ā€“ now youā€™ll think twice about using that fork again, or anything else for that matter.
(And he can still force you into using his toothbrush ā€“ under the guise of furthering your bond and intimacy, of course. And because heā€™ll use it after you, savoring the feeling of the bristles against his tongue like some sort of drug.)
OVERALL DANGER:
Ā 7/10
Enji isnā€™t necessarily dangerous, but rather inevitable.
Heā€™s a determined man, driven by motivation for his goals, no matter the methods he uses to get there. And once he sets his sights on you, deciding that he wants you, that he loves you, youā€™re certainly no different ā€“ he will have you, and thereā€™s not a single thing you can do about it. Heā€™s a force to be reckoned with, and really, what sway do you have?
Heā€™s a professional hero, known in the public sphere responsible for saving more lives than you could ever hope to, and who are you? Youā€™re just a pretty face, a woman who happened to have the exact set of traits and physical appearance that Enji finds desirable ā€“ you have no real way to combat him, and who would believe you, anyway? Enji is the new symbol of peace ā€“ as far as the Commission is concerned, he can have whatever the hell he wants, and if that one thing is some civilian, then you can kiss your freedom goodbye.
But really, all things considered, Enji isnā€™t too terrible ā€“ heā€™s trying desperately to right his wrongs, to love you in a way that prioritizes your happiness and is just better, and although youā€™re certainly not happy being trapped by his side, he can at least pretend like this is better.
He wants you to be his pretty little thing, to be his housewife and treat him like your devoted, loving husband. He wants you to greet him with a kiss on the lips when he comes home from work, helping him out of his jacket and asking about his day, then lead him into the clean kitchen where youā€™ve got dinner waiting for him, then join him in the shower and then the bed, letting his hands wander to where they please, then fall asleep on his chest, letting him feel like heā€™s protecting you even in his sleep.
Is that really so much to ask for? Enji thinks not ā€“ besides, isnā€™t that the dream for you?
All you have to do is let him take care of you, to spoil you with flowers and chocolates and jewelry and all sorts of things that make women swoon. Youā€™ll be spoiled rotten, treated like a goddess, and all you have to do is let Enji make all the decisions for you, to let him take control of your life and your future ā€“ itā€™s better this way, he promises.
This way, youā€™ll be properly cared for, kept safe and secure and comfortable by his side. You may not see it yet, but Enji is sure this is really what you want ā€“ youā€™ll come around eventually, heā€™s sure of it.
And if you donā€™t? Well, at least heā€™s not a monster, right?
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I've gotten a few asks about this, and I'm sorry for not having clarified this before/in my bio!
I do not write platonic yanderes - strictly romantic ones. This is just because I always end up making my yanderes perverted and utterly depraved, and I'm uncomfortable applying those themes to a familial/platonic setting.
Thank you for asking, though! I'll be sure to change that on my rules page :)
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i want you to know that nobunaga cum jar feeding lives rent free in my head and haunts my mind on a weekly if not a daily basis
(this is the post, also if u havenā€™t checked out @depravitycentral literally what are u doingā€¦ everything they write is soooo good)
pls anon i couldnā€™t get it out of my head when I read it. I forced my beta reader/best friend to read it with me. I canā€™t think of nobunaga anymore without the visual coming into my head .
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Daichi Sawamura Yandere NSFW Profile
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Yandere! Daichi Sawamura x fem! reader
TW: dub/noncon, kidnapping, masturbation, voyeurism, groping, cum eating (literally and in a kinky way), Daichi is icky and you should never eat any food he provides for you, roleplaying, begging, breeding, Daddy kink, mentions of pregnancy, brief mentions of lactation kink, mild undertones of misogyny, obviously this is post-timeskip Daichi, fem reader, MDNI
I do not condone any of the actions described in this post - this is fiction and should be treated as such. If you or a loved one is in a similar situation to anything contained in this post or my blog in general, please seek help. You're in charge of your internet consumption; please make responsible choices. With that, enjoy!
WC: 10.0K
HABITS:
Before you walked into Daichiā€™s life, he wasnā€™t an avid fan of touching himself. He had no problems with sex ā€“ it was normal, natural, and he was most certainly no stranger to the incessant pull of hormones, to the intensity of late night bouts of horniness.
And yet, heā€™d never really been one to get himself off obsessively, to wrap his fingers around his aching cock and jerk away until a stuttered grunt and sharp exhale of breath tumble past his lips as ropes of white splatter against his chest every night.
Sure, he had stress from his everyday life; stress from his job, his friends, his parents, everything ā€“ and heā€™ll admit that his hand, some lube, and a rather explicit video certainly helped make the stress go away, if only for a bit. He wasnā€™t necessarily unpopular with women before meeting you, but heā€™d never really held much of an admiration towards any particular girl for any longer than a week or two, anything deeper than a fleeting attraction that eventually died down and turned to something more platonic.
His feelings are guarded, and it most certainly did not feel right to be fucking his fist to the thought of some girl who heā€™d never spoken more than fifty words to. Past girlfriends have helped curb his libido a bit, offering him a better alternative than his hand, but Daichi has never felt that enthralled by touching himself and others.
However, once you step into his world, suddenly Daichiā€™s entire outlook on sex and masturbation changes drastically. He prides himself on being a man of restraint, of respecting the boundaries of others, but where youā€™re concerned?
Well, is it respectful of him to be daydreaming about bouncing you up and down on his cock, hearing you cry out his name and watching your pretty tits bounce along with you?
Is it disrespectful to think of the way your ass would jiggle as he spanks you, how your voice would sound so airy and breathless when you call out five ā€“ oh! Five, Daddy!
Is it crude of him to imagine the way youā€™d choke and gag as you pull off of his cock, a string of saliva connected to your puffy lips to his swollen tip, cum smeared all along your cheeks as you beg him to let you give him just one more, wanna make you feel good one more time, please!
Heā€™s normally not especially sexually driven, but itā€™s almost like a switch gets flipped once Daichi realizes how fucking in love he is with you ā€“ mind, soul and, of course, body.Lonely nights spent thinking of you and your perfect figure that Daichi desperately wants to touch become more and more frequent, more and more urgent because when heā€™s laying underneath his covers, his body growing hot as he thinks about what could be hiding under your clothes, how can he not vividly begin imagining the gentle curve of your ass, the plush of your thighs and the wonderful, sweet treat laying between them?
How can he not fantasize about tasting your slick, dipping his tongue between your folds and feeling your fingers tug at his hair while your pretty whines fill his ears?
Because of his stance on getting busy with himself being a time for imagination of someone, Daichi is actually quite touch starved, and once he has his hand wrapped around his achingly hard cock with you in mind for the first time, he starts to question why he didnā€™t start doing this much sooner.
When it comes to touching himself, he has a pretty set in stone method for how to best get himself off, for how to make the experience the best that he can.
(Everything he can do to himself is subpar in comparison to you, though ā€“ just the thought of what your soft fingers could do, your warm mouth, your soaking pussy, your bouncy tits, your pert little asshole is enough to get him groaning and wishing you were with him.)
Daichi has a pattern established on how he touches himself, and he rarely strays from it. It works very well, and it allows his mind to run wild with fantasies of you. Daichi is a dom through and through, and every fantasy he harbors between the two of you (and there are many to choose from) involves him in the more dominant position -Ā him above you, thrusting into you as deeply and sensually as he can, whispering in your ear how good you are for taking his cock so well.
Him sitting up in bed, your legs straddled around him and your fingers splayed over his chest while he moves you up and down, growling out your name and sucking hickies into your neck, occasionally coming up to smack and grab at your ass. Heā€™ll even grab you firmly and thrust up into you from time to time, the abrupt change of pace and force making you cry out and collapse forward, pressing your chest into his face while he sucks at a nipple and growls under his breath.
His obsession with caring and watching over you that plagues his everyday interactions with you translates into the bedroom too - every sexual urge and desire he has about you is really about taking care of you and your needs. Heā€™s the ultimate pleaser, in all honesty, though he does his fair share of teasing at times.
Ā Of course though, he has a few selfish fantasies (namely, heā€™d love for you to give him head, to be on your knees, sucking and drooling all over his cock while he runs his fingers through your hair, grunting out praise for you and thrusting into that tight throat of yours) that he indulges in once in a while, but generally when heā€™s alone with just his fist as a poor stand in for your warm, tight, dripping cunt, he focuses on mainly the idea of pleasing and fucking you.
And while he doesnā€™t ever want to admit it, Daichi has a bit of a dirty secret when it comes to how he masturbates ā€“ heā€™s very much the standard fist fucker, jerking himself off until heā€™s nearly numb, until heā€™s panting and his cock is left bright red and swollen, aching for more but too sensitive to endure anything else.
He doesnā€™t do anything too risquĆ© when heā€™s jerking his wrist up and down, flicking it slightly as he nears the tip and occasionally letting his thumb glide over his slit, making his hips jerk. Heā€™s not too crazy in that regard, but the small glass jar he pulls out from under his bed and sets on his bedside table is anything but normal. Its half filled with white, sticky semi-liquid, a light film covering the entirety of the jar, looking sinister and kept safe and out of harmā€™s way so as not to spill a single drop.
When heā€™s in the mood, his cock already flushed and desperate for contact (which is after nearly every interaction with you, no matter how small or innocent), heā€™ll just gulp and bite his lip, retreating away to his bedroom with excitement building in his gut. Heā€™ll start by locking the door and dimming the lights, before heading over to his bed and stripping down to nothing.
Heā€™ll twist the lid of the jar off, the potent smell enveloping his senses and leaving him to wonder how youā€™d react to the aroma, whether youā€™d be flustered and shyly look away, or whether youā€™d grab the jar and bring it up to your nose, deeply inhaling and letting your eyes roll to the back of your head, moaning something about how he smells so good, how you want to taste him, how you need him.
Setting the jar back on the table, heā€™ll sit on his mattress so that heā€™s leaning back on his knees, his entire chest upright and exposed as his cock slaps up against the skin of his lower stomach, red and drooling precum and absolutely begging for attention.
Heā€™ll run a hand along his chest, scratching lightly at the hard muscles and reaching down to his dark pubic hair, a low groan escaping his throat as he closes his eyes and imagines itā€™s your wandering hands, so much smaller and softer than his own.
Heā€™ll imagine you laying down before him, spread out and looking so welcoming and ravishing, your hair all wild and your eyes wide with desire, lips already swollen from kissing and dark marks sucked into your neck claiming you as his his his. His cock bobs at just the thought, a thick glob of precum oozing from the tip.
Heā€™ll start slowly, ghosting a hand over his raging erection, feeling how he twitches slightly at the airy contact. He runs his fingertips over the prominent vein on his left side, feeling the way it stands out against the smooth skin of his length, the touch making his toes curl and his thighs twitch.
Sometimes heā€™ll imagine your soft, perfect lips wrapped around his length, sucking and swirling your tongue around his sensitive head while his fingers are buried in your hair.
Other times, heā€™ll imagine you under him, looking up at him with those wonderful eyes clouded in lust and ecstasy as he absolutely destroys that precious little pussy of yours, pounding into you so hard that youā€™re fisting the sheets and crying out for dear life because fuck heā€™s hitting so deep, and youā€™re going to come much too soon.
The only sound filling the room while his fist works at his length is the dull thump of his pelvis, along with ragged breathes and little growls of your name and fuck yes, good girl, god just like that, fuck baby howā€™re you so damn tight mixed with incoherent little gasps of mine as he nears his high.
His pace starts to speed up too as he gets closer and closer to his release, grunts escaping him while he chants your name under his breath, until eventually his hips are bucking over and over into the air, desperate to be thrusting as deeply inside you as possible, and his orgasm tears through him with a low, throaty grunt.
Quickly heā€™s scrambling to grab onto the jar, knocking things over in his haste as he groans loudly, chanting your name and going on about how youā€™re so good, so fucking good, fuck wanna ā€“ wanna fuck you so bad ā€“ take it take it take it ā€“ !
His eyes squeeze shut as thick ropes of cum shoot from his red, engorged tip and directly into the open jar, the spurts blending in with the other older, thicker loads stored in the container, and heā€™ll lowly growl your name, imagining praising you for taking his cock so well and how youā€™re such a good girl for taking every last drop of his cum while he empties his balls inside the container, keeping his hand lightly pumping to make sure he gets every last drop out. Heā€™ll even grip the base and shake himself a bit to make sure everything he has to offer comes out, drooling from the swollen slit and dripping in big fat drops into the jar.
It takes him a few minutes to recover, and once he does, heā€™ll smile crookedly down at the glass, bringing it up to nis nose to lightly sniff, the image of your face when you bite into the little snacks he makes you flashing through his mind.
Youā€™re so cute when youā€™re munching on the little mini bite sized sandwiches he brings you every week during your lunch break, your adorably clueless self never wondering why there seems to be so much mayonnaise, why thereā€™s always a slightly bitter, salty undertaste.
But Daichi doesnā€™t mind ā€“ itā€™s worth it to see you lick your fingers clean, his mouth going dry at the thought of you licking his cock clean in the same manner, and as he shuts the jar lid and carefully places it back under his bed, knowing heā€™ll likely have it filled the other half way by the weekend with the sheer amount of cum he produces and the frequency with which he collects it.
And as he leans back against his pillows, heā€™ll be more lonely than ever, because all he wants in that moment is your warm, beautiful body to be there with him, cuddling into his naked chest and telling him how much you love him.
All he wants is your soft, sticky body clutching onto his, your face nuzzling into his chest and the mixture of his cum and your slick dripping down your thighs and onto him to lull him to sleep. Youā€™re so perfect, and as Daichi slips into a land of dreams filled with your face, he can only hope the day soon comes when his imagination becomes reality.
FAVORITE BODY PART:
Your thighs
He canā€™t quite explain it, but thereā€™s just something about the expanse of your thighs that gets him gulping, having to adjust both the collar of his shirt and the waistband of his trousers. Size is completely irrelevant to him; you could have the leanest thighs with hardly any fat, the most muscular legs heā€™s ever seen, or a lovely plush to them that jiggles with your every move, and heā€™d still be completely, whole-heartedly in love.
Thereā€™s just something about the smooth expanses of skin that really get Daichi hot under the collar - maybe itā€™s the fact that they look so soft and squishy, like he could just reach out and grab a handful, get you flustered and squeaking in surprise as he massages the soft flesh under his palm.
Maybe itā€™s the way they splay out when you sit down, looking perfect, so fucking tempting, like they could suffocate him so easily and fuck, now heā€™s hard and staring at your thighs from across the room and god, whereā€™s the nearest bathroom with fairly soundproof walls?
Or maybe itā€™s because he just knows that thereā€™s a wonderful, sweet surprise waiting in the middle of them, ready for him to love and touch and taste and god, heā€™s never wanted to fuck something so bad, never wanted to shove his cock into something so much, to fill to fucking brim with his cum and make a completely fucking mess of something as badly as he does your luscious fucking thighs ā€“
Regardless, heā€™s completely in love with the supple flesh; he wants nothing more than to run his hands up and down them, take a handful and squeeze, nibble until a nice, possessive hickey taints the delicate skin. He wants to touch you so badly, to get the opportunity to love and worship every inch of the supple flesh, to show you just how beautiful you are, how much he loves and appreciates your body.
Each time the thought of them flashes through his mind (something that happens very frequently), heā€™s practically drooling, his mouth watering and saliva pooling up in his cheeks at just the thought of getting to touch them, of getting to knead your soft skin and hear the way you sigh out in pleasure, of sucking dark hickeys into the delicate skin of your inner thighs, of getting to push them together and fuck the space between them.
Itā€™s honestly pretty bad how quickly and easily your thighs can arouse him - when he sees you wearing anything shorter than full length pants, he has to will his eyes away for fear that heā€™ll grow hard right then and there, his face flushing red and his throat growing dry.
Itā€™s all too easy to imagine those thighs hooked up over his shoulders, bending your body in half while he pounds into you again and again and again until youā€™re incoherently crying out, fingernails scratching down his back while he hisses and grunts and pounds into you deeply enough to imprint the shape of his cock onto every part of you.
And once heā€™s stolen you away, Daichiā€™s obsession really begins to show ā€“ constantly touching you, always groping you and resting a hand against them (preferably between them when you cuddle or watch TV, because the heat alone is enough to have his eyes fluttering closed, a sharp inhale sounding while he shifts around below you) always eyeing them from the corner of his gaze, always forcing you to throw a leg over him when heā€™s cuddling you in the much too large bed Daichi bought for the two of you.
(Heā€™d purposefully bought such a large size, if only because he wants to have all the room in the world to spread you out as he sees fit, to get you open and exposed and vulnerable to his probing stare, his wandering fingers, his eager mouth.)
If he could, heā€™d have a hand on your thigh at all times of the day, regardless of who youā€™re with, where you are and what youā€™re doing - he just canā€™t control himself.
His chest
While he isnā€™t overly buff, heā€™s put in his fair share of physical care and generally keeps himself in pretty good shape not only for his job, but for his own health as well.
He most definitely has muscle, and his upper body is actually quite defined ā€“ pectorals that physically stand out, a pair of pebbled, sensitive nipples, planes of light abs that flex and harden under your curious fingertips. He works hard during required workout sessions for the force, and although he isnā€™t the most purely athletic on the force, he does regularly visit the gym and lift.
And once you walk into his life, suddenly Daichi has someone to impress, someone to imagine gushing over his muscles and trailing their fingers over him in awe. And really, youā€™re by far the best motivation he could ever ask for; he wants you to be impressed, to be in awe at his body and the muscles lining his form, if only to prove that he can provide for you, that he can protect you and take care of you like he should, like you deserve.
And thatā€™s what running through his mind as he pushes the bench press above his head, as he grits his teeth and pushes himself just a bit further, just a bit harder, because imagining the look of awe and attraction in your eyes the first time heā€™s shirtless around you is enough to have him eagerly upping his regiments, wanting to resemble to cover models for the menā€™s activewear magazines he sees around.
He has a lot of fantasies that involve his chest where youā€™re concerned ā€“ he wants you pressed up against him, your warm, soft and supple body flush against the hard lines of muscle.
He wants to feel your breasts pushed up against him, feel your hard nipples against his own, the swell of them against him as he pulls you closer, kisses you, hands grabbing fistfuls of your ass while he groans into your mouth.
He wants to hover above you and absolutely destroy that cute little pussy of yours, to leave you sobbing and writhing around below him in pleasure with your hands firmly pushing against his chest, arms too weak to even remotely put up a fight as he just keeps going, as his cock drives into you again and again and again.
The ideas make his head spin, his throat feel dry with want and his fingers idly clenching into fists, the desperation to have your admiration and awe pointed at him so potent that itā€™s nearly painful.
And once youā€™re trapped in his home, Daichi tries to speed up the inevitable by simply forgoing any type of shirt in the presence of you ā€“ his muscles are on display, abs tightening and flexing when he reaches up to get something off the top shelf, clenching his core tightly when he forces you to sit on his lap while he feeds you dinner.
Having a strong, masculine chest only furthers his idea of him being your strong, brave protector in his mind, and you being his sweet little darling, the one who is so delicate and in such desperate need of saving.
Daichi is proud of his physique, and while he tries not to let it show, the first time heā€™s half naked around you the desperation to get your approval is practically palpable ā€“ so really, just run your hand from nipple to nipple, trace the hard lines of his abs, the deep v right above the hem of his pants, and whisper a sultry voice, youā€™re so handsome, Daddy, and Daichi will nearly come right then and there.
He just wants your approval, so badly that it nearly suffocates him.
Ā 
DRIVE:
Before meeting you, his sex drive was low ā€“ occasionally getting himself off, though often finding himself too busy to really indulge in even a quick session with his wrist tugging and jerking on him while he grunts and groans.
It just wasnā€™t important to him, something that he didnā€™t have the time, energy or interest in investing in. He didnā€™t have anyone to think of or imagine, and while there were plenty of pretty women he got along with, he could never manage to form developed enough feelings to get to the stage of wanting to be with most of them in that way, of wanting to see them naked and touch them.
Ā However, this does a complete 180 when his obsession with you forms - suddenly heā€™s wrapped up with all of these lewd ideas of you, all of these fantasies that make his face turn red and his entire body feel like itā€™s on fire.
Frequent wet dreams that leave him washing his sheets three or four times a week have him focusing on hazy imagery of you reaching down to spread the lips of your cunt for him, letting him see the shining wetness inside, the clenching hole he so desperately wants to fuck, the slick he wants to lap up every drop of.
Ideas of you on your knees, looking up at him through teary eyelashes while you gag and choke against his cock have him groaning and steadying himself against the wall, his knees quite literally going weak at the mere thought of you.
Heā€™s horny for you at all times, and nothing can sate his desire for you and your body until youā€™re there in front of him, naked and getting your brains fucked out by your beloved. Getting himself off makes it more manageable, but he isnā€™t truly happy until his thick, aching cock is buried as deeply inside you as possible, where it truly belongs.
He wants to fuck you all the time, and with every innocent expression you give him when heā€™s with you and every time he sees that fucking skirt you love ride up just a tad, it gets harder and harder to deny himself of his urges.
With every little sound you make as you work on your work assignments, as you stand stirring something over the stove or settle into bed, the urge to pin you down and claim you as utterly and completely his (via stuffing you full of his cum and leaving so many hickeys on your neck that youā€™ll look like you were attacked by a wild animal, of course) becomes more intense. It becomes more difficult to hold back as his fingers dig into his palm, his eyes squeezed shut in concentration as he tries not to think about the way youā€™d sound begging for his cock, how youā€™d plea and cry out for him to fill me up, please please Daddy! Iā€™ve been so good, want your cock, wanna be fucked stupid, please!
Daichi is a bit of a demon in waiting, and once youā€™re in his grasp, heā€™s throwing the idea of holding himself back out the window, because fuck it all if you donā€™t look like the sexiest thing heā€™s ever seen all dolled up in his t-shirt and the lacy pair of crotchless panties heā€™d forced you into that morning.
Youā€™re gorgeous, and because of you his libido spikes to the point of him feeling overwhelmed by every little thing you do ā€“ but surely, you must want him just as badly as he needs you, right?
However, Daichi will not force anything sexual on you. He wants it to be consensual, for the both of you to enjoy it, and he canā€™t enjoy himself if youā€™re in tears and begging him to stop.
(Unless youā€™re begging because heā€™s made you come so many times that you canā€™t even think, something that crosses his mind often late at night, when thereā€™s a flush high on his cheeks, his fist moving so quickly that he canā€™t hope to stop himself, not when the orgasm heā€™s so desperate for ā€“ that he pretends youā€™re desperate for - is so fucking close -)
His morals where youā€™re concerned are fairly skewed, but even Daichi, in his state of absolute obsession with you, knows that sex absolutely needs to be consensual, regardless of the fact that he could die happy if youā€™d just move those panties to the side and give him five minutes to do whatever he desires, five minutes of pure, unadulterated pleasure that could give him enough material in the spank bank for the rest of his lifetime.
So, he steals himself and tries to ignore it the best he can, but sometimes it gets to be too much, the yearning and desire at such a level that Daichi is helpless in the face of how his cock throbs, aching and practically begging him to get release, to bury himself as deeply inside your tight little pussy as he possibly can.
And anything can trigger this intense reaction, really ā€“ seeing you bite your lip while you contemplate whether itā€™s worth cuddling with him to get the warmth that the blanket heā€™s using has to give you is enough to have Daichi groaning, a rather noticeable bulge in the blanket right over his crotch making the decision for you.
When you idly hum a tune to a song you love, immediately Daichiā€™s wondering whether youā€™d like him to fuck you to that song, to let your cries and moans blend in with the singerā€™s voice, his own groans and grunts matching the bass perfectly.
He really doesnā€™t want to make you uncomfortable, but the pure lust you inspire within him, the desperate desire that your mere presence ignites in his heart isnā€™t always easy to ignore - he gets desperate, his body telling him to drop everything and come, and sometimes he canā€™t even make it to the bathroom.
Which leads to him jerking it right in front of you, his trousers zipped down to expose the thick, tan length as his hand mercilessly pumps up and down, up and down, again and again. It obviously makes you uncomfortable (because it always, always happens when youā€™re in the same room, when you were just doing something that gave him such intense mental imagery that he just couldnā€™t hold back the lust), but Daichi canā€™t bring himself to care.
Heā€™ll shamelessly be grunting your name, not scared to praise fantasy-you while you stand a few feet away from him and watch with wide eyes as he steadily yanks at his intimidatingly thick member.Ā 
His eyes go from squeezing shut tightly and peeling open to stare you directly in the eye as he groans out fuuuck, shit baby so fucking tight ā€“ hngh, gonna ā€“ gonna make you come for Daddy, fuck, his fist squeezing his cock in an effort to mimic the way your own walls would milk him dry.
He comes faster knowing youā€™re watching, knowing that the presence he so desperately longs for is right next to him, that your soft skin and pretty lips are right fucking there, perfectly visible for his eyes and imagination to run wild.
Heā€™ll grip himself tighter and tighter, telling you that youā€™re so damn tight baby, oh f-fuck, clenchinā€™ me too damn much while his head falls back, his eyes squeezed shut and his brows furrowed as the pleasure mounts and mounts and grows, everything feeling hot and heavy and ready to absolutely burst ā€“
His cum is suddenly landing in long, thin white stripes across his chest as he heaves, his eyes fluttering open to stare at you as the last few spurts land against his tan skin, his fingers ā€“ trembling ever so slightly ā€“ give himself a few good shakes, just to make sure he gets absolutely everything out. And all the while heā€™ll just grin, the sight almost boyish as a breathless chuckle tumbles past his lips. Ā 
He wishes that couldā€™ve been inside of you, that he couldā€™ve stuffed your sweet little pussy full of his cum until you were begging for more, but he notices the way your thighs clench together, how your face is flushed from embarrassment but also arousal, and it makes him fucking smug.
He knows itā€™s only a matter of time until you cave and beg him to touch you, and Daichi canā€™t wait for that day. You better know what youā€™re getting yourself into because once heā€™s done with you your throat will be raw from screaming and you wonā€™t be able to walk for a few days.
MAIN THREE KINKS:
PraiseĀ 
During sex, Daichi is quite vocal ā€“ thereā€™s a lot of noises, mostly grunts and groans, along with the occasional growl.
Heā€™s cursing under his breath when you tighten up, the sensation of your walls clenching down at his length making his breath come out in harsh pants. when you let out a particularly sexy moan that goes directly to his cock, heā€™s gasping sharply and muttering your name, his words slurred slightly as he tries to veer himself away from his impeding orgasm.
Heā€™s incoherent as he tips over the edge, ropes of cum staining your tummy, pussy, tits, face, anything and everything ā€“ his words donā€™t make sense (tangled moans of so good and ā€˜m coming and take it please please please -).
Itā€™s never quiet in the bedroom with him between his words and the sounds of his balls clapping against your ass and chin, the lewd squelching noises ringing in his ears while he fucks you hard enough to see stars.
Thereā€™s all kinds of noise, and thereā€™s almost always a constant stream of commentary coming from him as well. He canā€™t help himself; the sight of you below him, writhing in pleasure as he thrusts into you and rubs quick, tight circles along your clit is just too much for him to not say anything about.
Youā€™re just so fucking cute when heā€™s got you split open on his cock, your breasts bouncing in every direction as his hips snap into yours so harshly youā€™re sure youā€™ll break, that heā€™ll tear you in two.
He is quite the dirty talker, and while most of it is short and possessive mutters of mine, Daichi isnā€™t afraid to express just what youā€™re making him feel. Heā€™s grunting out that youā€™re mine, babygirl, this pussy fucking belongs to me as he sinks in inch by inch, slowly filling you and making your eyes squeeze shut as he just keeps going, his length never seeming to end even as his tip nudges against parts of you that you didnā€™t know existed.
Heā€™s burying his face into your neck as he bends your knees against your heaving chest, the angle letting him hit deeper and harder, your walls milking him for every last drop of cum as he groans lowly that heā€™s gonna make you come, wanna make you squirt, fuck want you to make a mess for me, let go baby.
Heā€™s running his hand through your hair and tilting his head back with closed eyes as his hips jerk up lightly, thrusting without his control as he nearly whines out about how thatā€™s it, oh fuck baby, look so pretty sucking my cock, like you were made to choke on me ngh ā€“ Ā 
It really gets him off to see you respond to his words; when you clench around him as heā€™s telling you how good youā€™re being for him, how youā€™re such a good girl for Daddy, it only makes him want to go harder, deeper and faster until youā€™re spasming around his cock and milking him for absolutely everything heā€™s worth.
When he tells you that heā€™s so proud of you while you drool and gag all over his cock, Daichi loves to see your eyes light up, the way your thighs rub together as you move to suckle at his balls, your hand taking over and spreading his precum mixed with your saliva all over his twitching length.
When you make that fucking adorable little gasp as he tells you how heā€™ll never get pussy this good from anyone else, his heart melts and his desire to see you come undone because of him skyrockets.
Heā€™ll call you his baby girl, tell you how good that pretty little mouth feels wrapped around his cock, or how tight your precious cunt feels around him as he ruts into you.
Heā€™ll rant and rave about how good it feels when you come on his cock, your walls spasming and massaging at his length, triggering his own orgasm that fills you up with white until itā€™s leaking down the sides, spilling out of your messy little hole because itā€™s all just too much.
Itā€™s always positive praise; heā€™s not a fan of degrading you, if only because he genuinely views you as perfection, as someone who deserves to be loved and cared for, not ridiculed and humiliated. Itā€™s designed to subtly show how dominant he is (as if the bruising pace of his hips and the sheer power behind his fingers gripping onto your waist werenā€™t enough) and to show you how much heā€™s enjoying whatever it is that heā€™s doing to you.
Sex with him is never quiet; between your moans and his grunts and hissed words, and of course the slapping of skin against skin and the squelching of his cock stirring up your insides, the bedroom (or kitchen, or shower, or wherever else the two of you find yourself getting down and dirty) will be filled with the passionate sounds of your lovemaking.
And of course, the unmistakable sound of Daichi cursing and calling you his good little girl, his little angel.
Daddy kink
Daichi is dominant in bed. Thereā€™s very little chance of you ever convincing him to let you take control between the sheets, and while he may briefly entertain the notion as he lets you push him onto his back and climb on top of him, your moment of power wonā€™t last long.
Soon, heā€™ll have his hands on your hips, a small smile on his flushed face as he guides your pelvis to grind against his own, dirty words falling from his lips as he commands you to touch your clit for me, wanna see you all gooey and wet for me.
In the bedroom he wants full control, to be the one calling the shots and deciding what goes on, how you get off and whether or not youā€™re being a good enough little girl to even get touched.
He wants to be the one deciding whether you come from his fingers or tongue ā€“ heā€™ll murmur into the skin of your thighs as he plants kisses leading from your knee to your folds that youā€™d better behave, wanna see you come on my cock tonight, not my tongue.
He wants to be one to control how many times you orgasm in a single night ā€“ heā€™s warning you that he wants at least four babygirl, and I want them loud; tell me youā€™re feeling good, and Daddy will keep letting you get there, okay?
It stems from his compulsive, obsessive need to protect you and care for you. He sees himself as your protector, your caregiver, and in order to fully care for you, he needs to make sure youā€™re getting what you need from sex. He honestly feels like he knows whatā€™s best for you, that his decisions are really the correct ones, even if you donā€™t see the truth in them now.
He knows that the solution to your homesickness is to fuck you stupid on his cock. He knows that when youā€™re getting mouthy with him, shoving his girth into your throat until youā€™re gagging and tears prick the corner of your eyes is the only way youā€™ll learn some respect. He knows that when youā€™ve had a long day alone while he works on the force, you need a reminder of how much you mean to him, and what better way to show that than spend hours between your legs, your slick smeared from his chin to his cheeks?
He genuinely believes that he has your best interest at heart every moment, and when youā€™re such a crying, babbling mess as he impales you on his cock over and over, obviously you canā€™t make any decisions, let alone speak a coherent sentence, so it must be his responsibility then. Youā€™re just too cockdrunk to know what you really need ā€“ so Daichi knows for you.
As a result, there is absolutely no chance that youā€™ll ever dominate him, no matter how badly you want to - he takes care of you outside and inside the bedroom, and he isnā€™t relinquishing control no matter how hard you beg.
Even if you get down on your knees and grasp at his pantleg, pleading with him to please let me peg you, please? Iā€™ve been such a good girl lately, Iā€™ll do anything you want if youā€™ll just let me!, heā€™s still not budging, just sighing and telling you to quite being such a brat.
Even if you perch yourself naked on his thigh, desperately rubbing your cunt against the knee of his pants, smearing your pretty slick all over the material, Daichi wonā€™t let you tie him up and use him how you please, even though heā€™s hard as hell. Heā€™s fairly lenient on a lot of other aspects of your captivity with him, but the second you ask if you can top him, if you can call the shots, Daichi canā€™t help but laugh because do you really think you could do it by yourself?
Do you really think you have the ability to control a man as strong and large as him? Donā€™t make him laugh.
He wants to showcase his dominance over you in every single way he possibly can when youā€™re both naked and sweating, and though he does a lot of this through raw physical maneuvering (grasping your hips and controlling the pace when you ride him, pushing your knees up to your ears when he folds you into a mating press, leaning forward so that his entire chest is flush with your back as he ruts into you from behind like a dog in heat) it doesnā€™t just stop there; you are required to call him Daddy in bed, regardless of whether you want to or not.
Something about the power that comes with it goes to his head; the complete and utter trust that you have in him in order to give yourself over to him like that, to hear you refer to him as such a power figure.
It makes him dizzy with pride, arousal and adoration, and heā€™s honestly in heaven each and every time you gasp out the name. When he slurps against your folds, tongue eagerly working at your clit, his eyes roll to the back of his skull when you grasp at the pillow under your head and whine out a Daddy, mm, oh just like that, please donā€™t stop!
When you moan it out while he sends a sharp slap to your ass as he pounds into you from behind, his thrusts only get harder, more aggressive, surely strong enough that youā€™ll have two large bruises on your ass the next day from where his hips smacked against your skin over and over.
Every time you whimper it as he doesnā€™t stop his ministrations against your engorged clit even after youā€™ve reached your high and told him youā€™re too sensitive, that you canā€™t Daddy, oh please itā€™s too much, he just growls and keeps going, the power going to his head because he knows you need one fucking more.
He loves the nickname so much, in fact, that heā€™ll start requesting you to refer to him as that outside of the bedroom as well ā€“ when youā€™re tired, heā€™ll only let you go to sleep if you ask him in a sweet voice whether heā€™ll tuck me in, please Daddy? You do it just how I like it.
To him this is, of course, code for you asking him to fuck the absolute shit out of you without actually having to say it, and most of the time it works ā€“ Daichiā€™s libido is extremely high when it comes to you.
But on the nights where he wonā€™t give in until you swallow your pride and push your arms together in your front, squeezing your breasts together so that the outline of your nipples show while you whisper out a please Daddy, canā€™t sleep without your cum in my tummy, his pupils dilate and he gulps, quickly ushering you off the bedroom when you know youā€™ll spend the next two hours with your face buried into the mattress and your ass high in the air while he gropes your tits and fucks you like a man possessed.
He wants to give you the love and pleasure that you deserve, so just let your Daddy take care of you.
Roleplaying
While Daichi could never, ever get bored of fucking you, he likes to mix things up in the bedroom occasionally. His hard and fast rule of always being the one in charge never changes much, but heā€™s a proponent of roleplaying when the both of you are getting intimate.
Perhaps itā€™s the product of years of relatively secretly watching porn, or perhaps itā€™s all those horrible ā€˜sexyā€™ costumes heā€™s seen during Halloween. Heā€™s not sure, but regardless, heā€™s very, very interested in playing out some common sexual tropes with you.
Of course, heā€™s more than willing to play the police officer that catches you in the midst of a very minor crime ā€“ a speeding ticket, where youā€™ve got to do him a favor to get out of the cost.
(Generally, a very, very messy, drooly blowjob does the trick; he wants spit dribbling down your chin and down his length, his balls coated in a sheen of it while you gag and choke, his groans of I suppose I can let you go this once making relief sink to your guts.)
His favorite cop fantasy is finding you committing public indecency ā€“ youā€™ll make up some cover story of how you lost your shirt and bra at a friendā€™s house and now youā€™re in the middle of the park, the world subject to seeing your pretty tits and tummy. Daichi will pretend to scold you, chiding you for being so reckless, but itā€™s hard to take him seriously when those brown eyes are staring at your chest the whole time, fixating on how they jiggle with every step you take, just practically begging to be touched and groped.
(Heā€™ll tell you that he has to take you back to the station ā€“ the bedroom ā€“ and teach you some common decency; ironic, considering more clothes come off than on when this happens, but your face will be buried in the pillows as he pounds against your ass so hard youā€™re seeing stars and tearing up, so you canā€™t focus on that too much.)
He enjoys other roleplay dynamics as well; anything with a clear power imbalance.
Heā€™ll be the CEO of an important company and you his sweet little assistant, delivering paperwork and reminding him about that big meeting heā€™s got later in the day.
(Soon your skirt shortly flipped up over your ass as he pounds you against his desk, the wood creaking with every thrust as he relieves the pent up stress heā€™s feeling because this is a very important business meeting heā€™s got.)
Heā€™ll play your patient and you his nurse whoā€™s oh so willing to do anything her patient needs to get healthy again, even if the doctorā€™s prescribed cure is as many orgasms as possible.
(He likes when you look over every single inch of him, especially if you have to undress him ā€“ heā€™ll be commenting on how lewd it all is as you peel off his shirt, but his breathing is noticeably heavier and his pants are noticeably tighter ā€“ not to mention damp.)
Heā€™ll play the fireman saving you from a burning house, and youā€™re just so grateful for his heroics and courage that you must repay him somehow!
(And who would he be to turn down your offer of letting him blow his load right into that tight little cunt of yours ā€“ as repayment for his hard work, of course!)
Heā€™ll be the professor and you a college student, your grades desperately needing raising as you slowly shimmy off your cardigan, revealing the extremely tight and cropped shirt youā€™re wearing, the white fabric letting him see everything from your waist and above.
(Heā€™ll have you lean forward, looking at him with sultry eyes as you ask if thereā€™s anything you could do, because youā€™ll do anything to preform better, sir, because I promise you once I start something, I donā€™t stop until I finish it.)
Heā€™s game to try almost any scenario, and for the most part it all ends with roughly the same thing ā€“ heā€™s fucking you until youā€™re nearly sobbing from the overstimulation, his calloused hands running along your body as his labored breaths sound in your ears, his depraved moans in both the scene and of his own volition making your head spin.
Heā€™s a sucker for nearly any kind of roleplay, and if you were to bring up a certain scene? Oh, well ā€“ Daichi will almost never say no, but youā€™d better be prepared to dive deeply into the context because he will be making you play your character.
Itā€™s just so hot to him how your relationship suddenly becomes taboo in the blink of an eye, and yet despite all the compromising situations you pretend to play out, Daichi likes that youā€™ll start associating him with a character whoā€™s life is inarguably intertwined with yours ā€“ after all, where would the multi-billion dollar CEO be without the tight piece of ass he keeps in his office just to service him when things get a bit stressful?
Youā€™re more than that to him, but the effect is the same ā€“ heā€™d be nothing without you, and doesnā€™t that just make you feel so very special?
OTHER NOTABLE KINKS INCLUDE:
Breeding
Diachi is very much a family man. Heā€™s known from quite early on in his life that he eventually wants children, that heā€™d love to have a few sons running around shooting Nerf guns at one another, to have a few daughters running around playing tag and pretend.
Itā€™s so heartwarming to him, to think of having his very own family, and once you wander into his life? Well, that desire for children and the parental gene that was semi dormant before suddenly become wildly active ā€“ Daichi so badly wants to knock you up, to fuck a baby into you that it becomes something he fixates on any time the two of you have sex.
He still fucks you with the goal of making you both feel good, but now he wants to make you feel good so that his seed will take, so that your tummy will be growing round with his baby.
Each time the two of you are in bed, his hands groping and wandering at every inch of your lovely body, Daichi is imagining the way youā€™ll look once youā€™re pregnant.
His fingers squeeze and press into the delicate skin of your breasts, imagining how theyā€™ll swell up, your nipples darkening as milk weighs them down. He imagines how heavily theyā€™ll be as he cups one in each hand, his lips closing around the buds as he suckles, mind filled with fantasies of how youā€™ll look with droplets of white leaking form your puffy, engorged nipples.
He presses down on your tummy as he fucks into you, marveling at the image of your belly so big you can barely walk, your frail body needing his support to do the simplest tasks, totally dependent on him as you carry what he gave you.
Heā€™ll lick and suck at your clit and pussy, imagining how youā€™ll grow swollen and hypersensitive, your body having gone without his cock for far, far too long ā€“ he can only imagine how insatiable youā€™ll be after you recover from birth, practically forcing him to stuff you full of him him him.
He will be coming inside you every time, not letting you anywhere near birth control, not having a single condom laying around your shared home ā€“ no, itā€™s just his bare cock and your sweet, fertile and unprotected cunt, joined together and creating something wonderful.
Every time that he fucks you he has the trusty plug nearby, stopping you up once he pulls out to make sure that none of the creamy, sticky white stuffed between your legs leaks out.
Heā€™s spending a few moments to caress your stomach as he tries to catch his breath, dark gaze mesmerized by the image of his cock stuffed into your cunt, almost talking himself into believing your tummy is already swollen from the cum heā€™d just filled you with.
Daichi will get you pregnant, whether you want him to or not, and once the news comes he couldnā€™t be happier ā€“ after all, youā€™ll make such a wonderful mother, your stomach round and full and your tits leaking with milk.
Breast Fixation
While your thighs are his favorite part of you (though he doesnā€™t really have a least favorite part of you ā€“ youā€™re his ideal woman after all), thereā€™s something about your breasts that make Daichi absolutely swoon.
Heā€™s never really identified as a tits man before, firmly preferring legs and thighs. Every bit of porn heā€™s ever watched heā€™s all but fast forwarded through the fondling portions, the zoom-ins of the womanā€™s breasts not doing a huge amount for him compared to way the camera captures the lovely curve of her calves and the plush of her thighs.
But the second that your soft, supple mounds are in front of him? Well, Daichiā€™s body is reacting before his mind can catch up, before he can realize that heā€™s reaching out and kneading at the soft flesh, callused hands rubbing and squeezing, a harsh moan tumbling from his lips because fuck youā€™re so soft, how is that even possible?
Heā€™s reaching out to fondle you at the most random times; in the morning, when your sleeping body is spooning up against his own, heā€™s reaching around to carefully squeeze and lightly toy with your nipples, feeling the way the soft flesh slowly hardens, how you twitch in your sleep slightly at the minute pressure.
Heā€™s reaching across the dinner table as you chew at your food, fingers giving a firm, purposeful squeeze before he sits back down, content to finish his chicken as he dreams about exactly how your tits will look tonight as he fucks you hard enough to make them bounce.
Heā€™ll teasingly pinch at your nipples when he walks through the door from work, his officer uniform on as he grins and sees the outline of them through the incredibly tight shirt heā€™d had you put on this morning. And during sex, this doesnā€™t change; heā€™s rolling and pulling at your nipples, addicted to the way they pebble, how they slowly tighten up when he blows air onto them.
When his hands arenā€™t groping your thighs thereā€™s a strong, strong chance that theyā€™re instead present at your chest instead ā€“ idly fondling, making you squirm in place as he pushes his hips up against your ass, a murmur of do you feel what these pretty tits do to me babygirl? Can you feel how bad I wanna fuck them?
(And once you get pregnant? God, itā€™s game over for your chest ā€“ heā€™s fascinated by the way they swell up, how your nipples grow darker and areolas larger, how theyā€™re heavier in his hands. And the second that you start lactating, Daichi is done for ā€“ you arenā€™t allowed to wear a shirt anymore, so that he can constantly be gazing upon your swollen belly and leaking tits, so that he can come by and squeeze one, watching a spurt of milk dribble down, rubbing it all along your skin. He likes nursing on you, muttering how youā€™ll be such a good mom, how his child is gonna be spoiled for life after getting to suck on tits this fine, this perfect and tasty.)
Really, he just loves your breasts, no matter the size, and Daichi has no shame showing his love ā€“ youā€™re perfect after all, so why should he ever be ashamed of recognizing that?
BIGGEST FANTASY:
While Daichi is completely swamped with explicit fantasies between the two of you, thereā€™s most definitely a hierarchy in terms of what he deems the hottest, whatā€™s most appealing to him, what heā€™s most desperate to try out with you.
(Of course, heā€™s not complaining about the onslaught of sexual thoughts he harbors for you ā€“ oh no, how could he? How could he possibly be upset when heā€™s waking up sweaty and panting from dreams starring you without any clothing on? How could he be upset when heā€™s spending nearly every night wringing himself dry to you, his cock swollen and sore and still aching for more, aching for you? Ā The only downside is the cost of having to replace the bottle of lube he keeps on his nightstand ā€“ he goes through an entire bottle in roughly two weeks, spreading so much around his length just to try and replicate what heā€™s sure is your incredibly wet, warm pussy.)
Heā€™s watched his fair share of porn over the years, and slept with a few different women. Consequently, heā€™s aware of most kinks and activities in the bedroom, and as a result he feels he has a grasp on all kinds of different things he could do to get you moaning and gasping, your nails raking down his back, your lips parting into that pretty ā€˜oā€™ shape when you come.
However, most of his favorite ā€“ most eager ā€“ fantasies are more conceptual than specific situations. Heā€™s constantly fantasizing about knocking you up; stuffing you so full of his cum that youā€™re leaking down your thighs, your skin stained with the creamy white while you shake and shudder underneath him, looking so pretty and warm.
Heā€™ll fantasize about making you squirt, your pretty thighs quaking as his fingers rub desperately over your clit, your cries making his cock so hard it hurts. He dreams about fucking you up against a wall, using every muscle in his body to hold you up while he destroys you with his length.
However, Daichiā€™s biggest fantasy is to hear you beg for him. Nothing gets him harder than hearing you say how badly you want him, how much you need him. Nothing is more appealing to him than having you verbalize how badly your body craves him, how youā€™ll never be truly happy and satisfied until heā€™s buried balls deep inside you, drooling pink tip nestled snugly against your cervix.
Itā€™s the stuff of wet dreams ā€“ in fact, many, many nights Daichi has awoken an hour or so before his alarm, sweat dripping from his temples and the very obvious tent his cock is making in his bedsheets letting him know that the ringing please Daichi in his head is the culprit. It satisfies his protective and possessive side, knowing that heā€™s the one youā€™re craving pleasure from, that only he can give you what you want, what you deserve.
As soon as he imagines you saying please, oh god please heā€™s rock hard and desperately craving a release from your fingers, mouth, and pussy. Heā€™s craving to hear the way your voice changes pitch as you get closer and closer, how your back arches up slightly and your grip grows more insistent against his biceps, your voice turning whinier and your words slurred and your pussy getting so goddamn tight - Ā 
The more he imagines you begging for him, for his cock, his cum, anything, the closer he gets, and itā€™s a sure fire way to obtain a shatteringly powerful orgasm for him. It just turns him on so much.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  His lips press light kisses against your neck, tickling the sensitive skin and making you gasp slightly. His hands ghost against your bare sides, calloused fingertips marveling at your soft skin and making you shiver. Heā€™s above you, hovering over you so that all you can really see is him ā€“ his shoulders, rounded with muscle, his jawline (sharp, with a hint of stubble lining the skin), his brown locks falling slightly into his half-lidded eyes, his mouth set into an expression that you can only describe as a mix between utter adoration and lust. Itā€™s a bit overwhelming, and between the pounding in your lower body and the way his fully erect cock is resting against your thigh, you know you canā€™t just lay down and wait. You need him.
Now.Ā 
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œP-pleaseā€¦ā€ You whisper, eyes squeezed shut as you buck your hips, desperately trying to get some friction to calm the pounding of your lower body. Daichi chuckles, pressing one last kiss against the soft skin of your neck before sitting up. He stares down at you, taking in the messy state of your hair, the rise and fall of your chest, how your lips part just slightly. He smirks down at you, fingertip tracing your jaw as his mind focuses on how fucking perfect you look in this moment.Ā Flustered, disheveled, desperate all for him ā€“ exactly how he likes you.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œPlease what, baby girl?ā€ He asks, voice low. You gulp and avert your eyes.Ā 
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œPlease, Daichi. T-touch meā€¦ā€ You whisper, still looking away from him. Daichiā€™s heart swells as his cock visibly twitches against your thigh - youā€™re just too adorable like this. So needy and horny all for himā€¦
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œNow now, princess. You know only good girls who look at Daddy when they beg get what they want.ā€ The finger tracing your jawline moves down your neck, ghosting over your jugular before dipping down over your collarbone to trace around an areola. You shudder, opening your eyes and looking shyly up at him.Ā 
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œDaddy, please. I need your big, thick cock.ā€ Your voice is whiny, high pitched and so needy, just how Daichi likes it. His heart flutters at the praise; you know exactly what to say to get him aching for you, his primal instincts taking over and pushing him to just ravish you until youā€™re shaking and too weak to properly stand. And you can feel how itā€™s affected him; his cock twitching against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, only coaxing on your own desire to be filled, to get the pleasure your body is craving. His fingers close in on a nipple, watching as it hardens below his calloused fingertips.Ā 
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œWhat does my baby girl want this cock to do, hm?ā€ He asks, accompanying his words with a thrust against your thigh. You moan, shivering at the friction against your skin. Daichi smirks once more, pinching your nipple between his pointer finger and thumb. You whimper at the feeling, and as he lightly pulls and tugs, your eyes fly open, catching his brown gaze thatā€™s boring into you so intensely that youā€™re sure he can see right into your soul.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œW-want Daddy to fuck me, please! I n-need Daddyā€™s cock inside me, want him to make me come so bad. Please, please!ā€ You beg, your voice so clear and ringing out in the hot silence of the bedroom. Daichi pauses for a moment, his lips parting just slightly as he commits this moment to memory - you looking up at him in such desperation and desire, your arms tossed above your head, hair spread out and looking like a halo, and of course your naked, shivering body thatā€™s just begging to be touched, loved, fucked. The next thing he knows, heā€™s lost complete control over himself, and heā€™s leaning down, capturing your lips in a heated, messy kiss.Ā 
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  When he pulls away for air a few moments later, heā€™s panting and practically buzzing with excitement and need. He leans down and licks the shell of your ear, and growls. In the low, gravelly tone youā€™ve learned to associate with a sore pussy for several days afterwards he groans, ā€œGet ready baby girl, gonna fuck you so hard youā€™ll be screaming Daddyā€™s name all night.ā€
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  And with that, he pushes in, cursing sharply at the feeling of how you clench down on him as your startled moan rings through the air. He grunts; youā€™re so fucking warm and wet, and immediately his hips are snapping back, thrusting, creating a bruising pace that leaves you scratching at his back as you chant ā€˜yes, Daddy, yesā€™ under your voice over and over.Ā 
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œA-ah, oh Daddy yes yes yes please ngh, oh more -!ā€ You cry out, throwing your head back and clutching desperately at his shoulders, hearing him grunt from deep within his chest.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œMore what babygirl? Tell ā€“ fuck, youā€™re so fucking tight ā€“ tell Daddy what more you want.ā€ He growls, slowing his pace ever so slightly as you whine and buck your hips.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œWant Daddy to fuck me stupid, wanna be his silly little ā€“ little girl.ā€ Youā€™re desperate at this point, the stretch of his cock and painfully slow movement against your walls not giving you nearly enough stimulation.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  Daichi smirks, leaning down to press his forehead against yours. ā€œYeah? Wanna be Daddyā€™s dumb little girl, all stuffed full of cock?ā€
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  You nod your head, biting your lip and squeezing your eyes shut as he slowly starts moving again, the slap of his balls against your ass making you cry out in pleasure and happiness.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œFuck youā€™re so pretty, my pretty little baby, getting destroyed on Daddyā€™s fat cock, fuck ā€“ā€œ His words are nearly unintelligible, said mostly for his benefit, but it only makes you cry out louder, a few tears gathering in the corners of your eyes as the minutes pass by, the trace edges of your orgasm creeping up on you.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  And Daichi can feel the way you slowly grow tighter, your moans changing in pitch and volume. He grunts, snapping his hips into you and asking you in a shaky voice, ā€œSomething the matter babygirl?ā€
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  You whimper, eyes peeling open to stare into the brown depths of his own. ā€œGonna ā€“ gonna come Daddy, please let me come, wanna come so bad!ā€
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  And when youā€™re looking at him with teary eyes, desperation written across your face as your walls clamp down on him hard enough to leave him breathless, how could he possibly deny you?
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ā€œShit, yes ā€“ fuck, come for Daddy, cream all over this cock.ā€
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  And all Daichi can do is bury his face into your neck, and keep his hips pistoning into you as he reminds himself that this is finally real, that heā€™s finally getting to be with you and touch you, and when you clench down around him a good five minutes later, a moan of his name ripping from your throat as you come, Daichi thinks he must have found his heaven on Earth. After all, nothing else can explain the way your body makes him feel, the way you make him feel.
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PRECISION
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Itā€™s ironic, Feitan thinks, to sew up the wounds of his victims. But they canā€™t die just yet.
His thin, long fingers push the needle through the victims skin of their inner thigh, and he gives out a light scoff in mockery when they whimper. Little rich boy canā€™t handle a little pain? He hates these rich types that think they can pull one over on the troupe. They were fun to interrogate, they always worked up his temper where taking it out on them was something he looked forward to. Due punishment, not only for their bratty, pretentious attitude, but their lucky pull in birth circumstances. Feitan acts as their comeuppance.
Heā€™ll give it to this victim, however, still holding on to the information despite it all. Usually his male victims would start spilling whatever they knew when Feitan picked up a hammer and pushed their thighs apart. But here his victim was, crying and whimpering, and now a eunuch, and still not speaking.
Feitan finishes his stitches with a clean knot, and sets the needle and thread aside on his medical tool tables. He likes to pride himself in his efficiency and perfection. After all, torture required just as much knowledge of the human body as a surgeon. The image of Feitan as a doctor, in a different life, flashed in his mind and he laughed aloud. Maybe. Maybe if he was born lucky. Maybe if he didnā€™t have to learn surgery and amputations from the cruelty of his home.
After all, doctors canā€™t save everyone. And he didnā€™t see the point in willingly putting that responsibility and burden on yourself. Especially for ungrateful rich brats.
No, it was much easier to take life than to protect it. Much more fulfilling too. Other people arenā€™t your responsibility.
How funny though, Feitan thought. To now have something to willingly burden yourself with.
His ears pricked up to his victim shuffling in his chains, and he turned to them. The man wasnā€™t remarkable, only one person really was in Feitanā€™s eyes. The only thing noticeable now was the manā€™s family crest Feitan had carved on the skin above his heart.
How can you claim to belong to something, if you canā€™t even mark yourself with it? When you die, how will people know where you belonged to?
Feitan takes the manā€™s face in between his hand, and moves his head around to inspect his work. He debated between leaving the cut next to eye, dropping a few drops of an infectious bacteria into it so the eye would eventually eat itself. Itā€™d take about a week, and then another for the infection to spread to the rest of the body.
Feitan couldnā€™t help but smile at the image. He gripped his victims face with his nails, and told him so.
ā€œItā€™d be funny to see you swell up with blood and pus. I wonder if youā€™d get fat like an ugly cyst, but you already donā€™t look all that different from one.ā€
He let him go unceremoniously, and watched as his head fell forward. Feitan will grant him the mercy of sleep. After all, a dog will still endure abuse if you feed it often enough.
ā€œFeitan?ā€
He heard you before you reached the basement door of course. He knew where you were in the house at all times after all.
You knew you werenā€™t allowed to open the door. If you needed him, just knock or call his name. You think itā€™s because heā€™d have to kill you if you saw what he was doing.
He knows that, and thinks youā€™re silly. He wipes his bloodied hands with a clean cloth as he walks to the door. His eyes meet yours when he opens the door, and his gaze doesnā€™t leave yours as he closes it. You donā€™t even know what color the walls of the basement are.
Feitan looks you over, with the same precision he gives to everything. Youā€™ve been picking at your hangnails again and for some reason you didnā€™t bother bandaging your thumb, where you had ripped and tore at the skin enough for it to bleed. Another thing is that youā€™re wearing nothing but a towel, which means one thing.
ā€œI want to take a bath,ā€ you say, your clasped hands nervously squeezing themselves. It was another thing you werenā€™t allowed to do on your own. You didnā€™t understand why, and you didnā€™t understand why he did the things he did. Heā€™d set the water the way you like it, even though you donā€™t remember telling him. He scents it with fragrances and oils that you can tell are expensive, in your favorite scents too. He helps you in and then holds out your towel so he doesnā€™t see your naked body, and he swiftly turns and closes the curtain. He does the same when youā€™re ready to come out.
He has a chair he sits on, quietly and unmoving as he watches your silhouette. Maybe itā€™s a kink or fetish of some kind, you think. It had taken you a while to get use to. But something tells you it wasnā€™t that exactly. One time you had slipped when washing your body, and before you could fully gasp out in surprise, you were in his arms with his face to the side.
He didnā€™t act the way you expected a kidnapper would. But it still didnā€™t explain why you were here at all.
Feitan nods at you, and you lead the way. Youā€™ve learned he preferred to be your second shadow than to be your leading light.
Your large bathroom was attached to your equally large room. Funny how youā€™ve started to refer to them as ā€˜yoursā€™. Itā€™s difficult not to, when he is somehow able to let you decorate it the way you want. Feitan does that often, youā€™ve found. No matter how expensive your request, and you have tested that, he will get it for you. Youā€™re scared to ask how.
He begins his routine when you both step into the bathroom. He gets the water to the temperature you like and let the bath tub fill. The sound of the tub jets fill the air, and you watch as he drips expensive oils into the water. His movements are methodical, and somehow heā€™s figured out the ratio of water to oil thatā€™s right for your skin.
Feitan doesnā€™t dare mix the water with his hand.
Your nose is soon filled with the scent, and you feel your tense shoulders slowly let go and relax. Heā€™s watching you, you know that. He stops the faucet when the tub fills up, and you walk up the small steps and stand in front of him.
A part of you is always tempted to touch. His pale skin is smooth and such a contrast to his dark hair. This close, you can see just a hint of green in his black eyes, the way they donā€™t seem to blink. You wonder if he is even human.
You nod softly and he moves behind you. You canā€™t even feel his presence, hear his breath, and you slightly jump when he reaches to gently clasp the small fold that holds your towel up.
Feitan waits until you calm again to continue. He never touches you directly, not even a stray touch from any finger. He takes off your towel and spreads it as a barrier between you and him.
But then you do something that has his heart beating and stopping erratically. His breath catches in his throat, your gaze turning to him and he feels trapped beneath it. How do you not know how much power you have over him?
His eyes instantly move to the way you nervously bite at your lip. Somehow he can know everything about you, how you think, how you word those thoughts, and yet now, he canā€™t believe what he thinks youā€™re going to say.
ā€œā€¦help me?ā€ You say slowly, so quietly that a normal person wouldnā€™t have heard you.
But you know he did. And you donā€™t drop your eyes from him.
Feitan, in return, lets the towel drop.
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Muzan Kibutsuji General Yandere Profile
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Yandere! Muzan Kibutsuji x fem! reader
Tw: kidnapping, stalking, mentions of non-con, violence, graphic gore, mentions of cannibalism, verbal and physical abuse, murder, one brief mention of throwing up, brief mention of Muzan slutshaming you, mild sexism, verbal abuse, mentions of Stockholm Syndrome, mentions of low self esteem, fem reader, MNDI
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WC: 10K
DARLING PROFILE:
Human
Muzan is not one to easily develop feelings for others in any positive context.
Heā€™s a selfish, cruel being, utterly bent on his own self-preservation with no regard for the lives of others.
Heā€™s self-centered to the extreme, and as such, if he develops feelings for someone (especially romantically), it takes a very, very long time and can only be achieved under specific circumstances.
His darling has to be someone intelligent, quick-thinking, perceptive, ambitious, charming, and a whole list of other things that are almost impossible to achieve.
And yet, the biggest, most glaring trait they must possess is their humanity.
Itā€™s strange and a juxtaposition to Muzanā€™s own inhumanity, but thereā€™s just something that draws him in about the idea that his darling is so very flawed by the very nature of their being and yet so alluring and tempting and intoxicating.
It enrages him, quite frankly, but his darling must be a human in order for these feelings to form. He initially only feels a mild curiosity towards them ā€“ mixed with irritation and contempt, of course, but thereā€™s this nagging feeling urging him to learn more about them, to interact with them, to understand why his pulse picks up ever so slightly when theyā€™re around.
He likes the fact that his darling is so weak; heā€™ll never tell them, of course, but it only reaffirms his own superiority complex, convincing him that heā€™s the strongest, and his darling is the weakest.
Theyā€™re a pet, in a lot of ways, but Muzan finds himself oddly intrigued ā€“ his human is so complex, the emotions they feel and their motivations something heā€™ll never fully understand, but as time passes he finds himself hating their presence less and less, sometimes even desiring to touch them ā€“ a notion that makes his skin crawl in both disgust and a strange, potent sense of desire.
Itā€™s frustrating and confusing, but Muzanā€™s darling will be a human ā€“ though not for long.
Intelligent
Itā€™s no surprise, really, that Muzan is absolutely incapable of handling a darling that doesnā€™t possess above average intelligence.
They donā€™t need to be a genius, but his darling must have a strong grasp of both academic and social intelligence.
Where these intelligences lie is flexible; heā€™s equally impressed by a darling that can recite complex physics formulas and one that can analyze some of the most classical literature ever written.
It doesnā€™t really matter where the smarts lay, but his darling must be able to showcase at least some level of critical thinking in their daily life; Muzan is enticed by someone who can come as close as possible to being his equal, and as a creature that views himself as smarter and superior to all others, his darling must be something special, too.
(Of course, his darling will never truly be an equal ā€“ heā€™s still the most magnificent, perfect creature, tireless in his search to become immune to human constraints like sickness and aging, but thereā€™s something endearing about a darling that can entertain some of his conversation, who can at least follow some of his logic when heā€™s feeling generous enough to include them in his plans. Besides, and heā€™ll never admit to it, heā€™s fond of hearing his darlingā€™s opinion ā€“ heā€™ll continue with what he thinks best, of course, but if his darling present sound reasoning, Muzan will often entertain the notion for a bit, distantly surprised if his darling has considered an idea he hasnā€™t yet, or if they present a line of argument that manages to stump him.)
And so, in order for Muzanā€™s interest to be piqued, his darling must be intelligent and must be unafraid to showcase this ā€“ but as his attention is initially fickle (it does not remain this way, however), they musnā€™t be too proud of their intelligence.
Pride is a sin only he can indulge in, not some lowly human.
Perceptive
Muzan is, unsurprisingly, easy to upset.
Being in his presence is akin to walking on eggshells, with the repercussions of a single step out of line costing a life. And while he wonā€™t ever kill his darling, but itā€™s still very much in their best interest to learn his triggers and what makes him particularly angry or calm.
His darling must be able to analyze others and understand them quickly ā€“ a certain level of empathy is needed, and while heā€™ll never admit that his darling can read him like an open book, in order to survive they must be able to.
Heā€™s attracted to the idea that his darling understands when to speak and when to stay silent, when to approach him and when to give him space, even when to refer to him as my Lord rather than his actual name.
(He always prefers his actual name, as the way the syllables sound rolling off his darlingā€™s tongue is heaven and sends shivers down his spine, but he must maintain a certain level of control over them and forcing such a title is a good way to highlight the difference in power between them.)
And so, a darling thatā€™s able to pick up on these silent cues and patterns is immensely attractive to him ā€“ he has very little patience for idiotic people, and he already harbors enough resentment towards his darling for catching his attention that they must be able to navigate the treacherous waters he places them in.
Besides, thereā€™s something indescribably pleasing when his darling knows exactly what he wants, able to predict his desires often before he can express them or realize them himself.
It makes him feel good, his ego getting stroked and relaxation spreading throughout his entire body, and of course, it only makes his feelings for his darling grow, taking root in his gut and twisting and turning these roots until theyā€™re wrapped so tightly around his heart it may strangle it.
And while Muzan likes to think heā€™d never let someone hold such a grip on him, heā€™s simply in denial of how truly dependent he is on his darlingā€™s presence ā€“ heā€™s in much, much too deep.
Quiet
Muzan himself is not a particularly talkative man ā€“ even during his human years, his voice was reserved mostly for complaints, yells, with a scowl sprawled across those pale pink lips of his.
Heā€™s not one for idle conversation, and while he can force a pleasant smile and white lies and it suits his purposes, he generally doesnā€™t desire being in the company of those who talk incessantly.
Itā€™s annoying, frankly, and Muzan isnā€™t exactly understanding or patient once heā€™s deemed someone irritating.
And so, a darling who is naturally less talkative is incredibly attractive to him ā€“ he likes that theyā€™re quiet, that they only really speak when they need to, if only because he enjoys silence.
A more selfish part of him also enjoys the knowledge that a less talkative darling means a significantly lower chance of them interacting with other men ā€“ they arenā€™t likely to strike up a conversation with a stranger on the street, barring them from potential danger and potential suitors.
His darlingā€™s quietness is pleasing, yes, but there are times when Muzan becomes annoyed by this particular trait, however; his darling should be quiet but still talk to him, when he desires it. They should be silent around others, sure, but they should still respond eagerly and enthusiastically when he initiates a conversation with them.
He wants to see them smile at him and treat his every word as if it were gospel, as if it were something precious and important and cherished.
And so, while his darling should watch their tongue around others (and around him too, really), they should be actively engaged when speaking with him.
But not too much ā€“ Muzan can tell when theyā€™re forcing themselves to be eager, and it bruises his ego a bit to know that his darling isnā€™t being totally honest when they compliment his latest strategy in finding the blue spider lily or the Ubuyashiki manor.
It makes a wave of insecurity settle in his gut, a feeling he resents possibly more than feeling weak ā€“ it infuriates him, so itā€™s best to avoid laying it on too thick.
Really, being his darling is just one big balancing act ā€“ theyā€™ve got to keep him pleased and happy, a task that could quite literally result in life or death.
GENERAL YANDERE TRAITS:
Possessive
In general, your existence absolutely infuriates Muzan.
It takes an incredibly long time for his feelings to form, and even then, heā€™s entirely unsure of why he even likes you ā€“ youā€™re plain, weak, boring, worthless compared to him. Why is he wasting his time with you? Youā€™re simply one human in a sea of them, all doomed to slowly wither away and die some miserable death, inevitably suffering and growing weaker with every day. Why would he ever find himself even remotely interested in a creature with such a glaring flaw?
How could he allow himself to ever hold even a flicker of intrigue towards a being with such obvious limitations?
Centuries and growing power have left Muzan with such an extreme level of arrogance that heā€™s equal parts enraged and in denial of his interest in you ā€“ early on, he tries his best to simply pretend that you donā€™t exist. Perhaps heā€™s having to live in human society for whatever reason, and youā€™re a neighbor or a woman he occasionally sees near his home.
Regardless, heā€™s making a point to not speak to you, to not even look at you, fully not acknowledging your presence all in the hopes that the weird, scratching feeling in his heart will go away and heā€™ll no longer be plagued by this weird, horrible awareness of you.
Except, while he likes to think that it works, the moment he sees another man look at you or converse with you, his nails sharpen and veins sprout along his temples, a new kind of irritation coursing through him. He doesnā€™t like the way you make him feel, but he likes this even less ā€“ this man, this human, whoā€™s standing so very close to you and has absolutely no reason to.
The feeling is strange ā€“ itā€™s envy, he thinks, something heā€™d felt often back in his human days, but this is different. Thereā€™s something else, something sharper, something thatā€™s twisting and burning, something that makes him grit his teeth, that gets his feet moving before he can really even think about it. Heā€™s quick to separate you and the stranger, physically separating you with his body between yours, his breathing a bit uneven and strained, those blinding red eyes of his trained directly at the stranger.
He has enough self-control to not immediately slaughter the man (youā€™re in far too public a setting ā€“ killing every human in the crowded plaza square wouldnā€™t be hard by any means, but itā€™d certainly be a hassle), but heā€™s only brought back to reality out of the angry trance heā€™d been placed into when he hears your small, irritating, alluring voice saying the human name heā€™d flippantly told you.
Immediately heā€™s scoffing, glaring at the man for a final moment before turning on his heel, quickly sauntering away from you while trying to figure out why the fuck heā€™d just unconsciously rushed to your location. Heā€™s unsettled, quite honestly, and angry, of course, but more than that heā€™s worried ā€“ he'd done that without his control, his body not waiting for his permission to approach you, to interrupt whatever that human had been trying to do.
(He personally raids a small village that night, slaughtering every human he can find in ways that leave blood pooling across every floorboard, his pretty, pressed clothing stained red and feeling wet and heavy against his skin.)
And even once Muzan eventually realizes that what heā€™s feeling for you is attraction ā€“ and, dare he say it, fondness ā€“ this possessiveness doesnā€™t subside. If anything, it grows worse. Because now, rather than simply being uncomfortable and angry with other men (and women) approaching you, heā€™s angry because theyā€™re approaching something thatā€™s his ā€“ youā€™re his human, his woman, his plaything.
And why do these stupid, irrelevant humans think they have any right to look at you, to steal your time and attention, or god forbit touch you? Heā€™s overwhelmingly possessive, and while there is some part of him that feels something loosely resembling love for you, his feelings akin you much more to a beloved object rather than his partner. You are not an equal with him ā€“ he is in charge, and heā€™s the one who decides your fate.
And even once heā€™s stolen you away this feeling persists ā€“ heā€™s not loving, and he doesnā€™t really make any attempts to hide how he views you. Heā€™s not particularly expressive, so thereā€™s a very good chance you wonā€™t be aware of his romantic intentions towards you until later into your captivity, but youā€™ll know that youā€™re below him from day one. H
eā€™s constantly verbally reminding you that heā€™s superior, that any efforts you take to escape, disobey him, rebel, or call for help can and will be dealt with accordingly ā€“ often with a few lives lost. Heā€™s possessive and selfish, genuinely believing that you have no reason to interact with another living thing on Earth besides himself ā€“ youā€™re his partner, his woman, and although youā€™ll never be an equal, he should be absolutely everything to you.
So, youā€™d better get good at acting.
Obsessive
While Muzan never fully comes to terms with the level of his obsession with you, his actions speak much, much louder than his words. He may speak to you like you mean nothing to him, but if you knew the extent to which heā€™d stalked you, watched you, and collected information about you prior to kidnapping you, youā€™d become even more terrified of the demon.
Heā€™s not particularly subtle about his emotions, but he keeps a very strict barrier between the two of you. He holds every ounce of control in the relationship ā€“ he knows everything about you, but you know very little about him.
You only know his name (and only Muzan, not Kibutsuji), that he prefers the small home he keeps you in to be extremely clean, that he doesnā€™t enjoy physical touch (at least, you donā€™t think he does ā€“ if you knew the extent to which he imagines touching you or the things heā€™s imagined doing to you, youā€™d never enter the same room as him).
You donā€™t know a lot of basic information about him that you really, really wish you did ā€“ why did he kidnap you? What is he? Does he want to kill you? Questions swirl in your head constantly, but the same canā€™t be said of Muzan ā€“ at least, not in the sense that youā€™re a complete enigma to him.
On the contrary, he understands you almost scarily well ā€“ courtesy of the extent to which he watched you before kidnapping you. Because he was so angered at himself for developing an interest in a human woman, he found himself desperately hoping that by finding out more about you, all of his interest would fade and vanish, allowing him to simply kill you and continue on with his life.
And so, he took to watching you ā€“ youā€™re remarkably weak, he finds out. You live in a home thatā€™s very, very easy to break into, the locks on your doors hardly putting up a fight before budging under his strength. He scoffs at this information, though it does make a small sense of envy eat away at him ā€“ has any other man done this before? How often do you get visitors in the night? Are you secretly whoring yourself out to other men?
He finds himself digging through every corner of your small, modest home ā€“ every drawer is opened and searched, every cabinet thoroughly analyzed, every closet and shelf picked over in extreme detail. Heā€™s noting each and every thing he finds, his eyes narrowing or his eyebrow cocking up because wow, there is nothing even remotely remarkable about you.
You donā€™t have any particular wealth, nor do you have any supply of medicine, nor do you even have any particularly enjoyable artwork or cooking materials. Heā€™s disappointed, but as he moves towards your bedroom and slowly slides open the door, his breath catches. Youā€™re laying on your back, the small gap in the window letting in moonlight that shines across your face, your eyes dancing rapidly behind your eyelids.
He frowns, his nails digging into the wood of the door, irritation settling deep in his gut. You arenā€™t supposed to have this affect on him. He isnā€™t supposed to lose himself momentarily just from the sight of you ā€“ you, who has absolutely nothing to offer in the face of his power, wisdom, and resourcefulness.
Ā And yet, here he is ā€“ staring at you like some sort of lovesick fool, his eyes unable to stop detailing the curve of your nose, or looking at the very vague outline of your chest from underneath the blanket. He leaves, that first night, finding an innocent to slaughter and only feeling marginally better. Heā€™d hoped that one visit would be enough, trying to focus his mind on the fact that youā€™re so painfully average, that thereā€™s nothing remarkable about you ā€“ but for every negative thought he has, a glimpse of your voice or the sound of your voice overpowers it.
And eventually, he convinces himself to return to your humble home, this time going directly to the bedroom. Youā€™re asleep again, this time on your side, with strands of hair framing your face. Your soft breaths make his brows crinkle, and a sudden, fleeting thought runs through his mind ā€“ youā€™re so vulnerable in this moment, he could kill you with very, very little effort.
And soon his nails have grown sharp, and his elbow is cocked, adrenaline surging through his veins because if he could just kill you, perhaps this whole stupid infatuation could be done with. But the elbow stays cocked, doesnā€™t move, even as his eyes stay staring at you, not blinking, every nerve in his body screaming at him to end your life.
He canā€™t.
And that realization is the most upsetting of all ā€“ he canā€™t bring himself to kill you. Him - Muzan Kibutsuji, the Demon King, canā€™t bring himself to murder a sweet little thing like you. Itā€™s comical, really, and although it infuriates Muzan, it represents a turning point in his feelings for you.
After that night, he no longer tries to force himself into forgetting about you or ignoring you ā€“ instead, he pushes himself to learn more about you, becoming fascinated with understanding why you of all people have caught his attention.
And really, this is where his more obsessive traits come into play. Suddenly heā€™s making a point to watch you sleep every night, always staring and watching your chest rise and fall, marveling at what power something as weak as you has over him. Heā€™ll thumb through your closet, pulling each article of clothing out and appraising it, deciding if he likes it or not.
(Those that he doesnā€™t like are taken away with him, thrown into the trash and discarded so that only what he chooses actually adorns your figure, just as it should be. Later on into your ā€˜relationshipā€™ this will still be true ā€“ heā€™s choosing what clothing you wear around the cabin, even what undergarments you wear. Heā€™s particularly fond of silk and satin, liking the luxury feeling of the texture on you and the way it feels against him when heā€™s pressed up against you.)
Heā€™s following you every night, walking around as your shadow and keeping a watchful eye on you, noting with disdain when you stumble or when you spend too much money on a snack or when you arenā€™t aware of your surroundings.
Heā€™s especially stuck as your shadow when your period comes about ā€“ heā€™s on you like fucking glue, even going so far as to carefully pull back the sheets and spread your legs as you sleep, kneeling between your knees and pressing his face a few inches away from your clothed cunt, letting his eyes flutter closed as he inhales, smelling you you you.
(Masturbating feels beneath him, but the first time he smelled you while youā€™re menstruating, heā€™d decided his pride was worth sullying if it meant getting the release his body was desperate for ā€“ desperate enough to have soaked a visible portion of his slacks with precum.)
So really, while heā€™s an arrogant, narcissistic creature, your presence is his one weakness, his one guilty pleasure that allows himself to indulge in ā€“ if only just understand how the hell someone like you managed to snag the attention of someone as powerful and important as him.
Controlling
Muzan doesnā€™t see you as an equal. Youā€™re a possession of his, something that he has full control over and can dictate every part of their life. Heā€™s so much stronger than you, literally able to kill you with just his pinky alone, and this power dynamic is certainly not a secret to you. Youā€™ll be very, very aware of just how liable you are to what he wants.
Even before he kidnaps you, youā€™ll be aware of the presence of something in your life ā€“ to you, Muzan is simply a loose acquaintance. You donā€™t know each other well, but he always seems to show up at the strangest of times ā€“ with excuses of just passing by, wanting to catch up, or some other innocent, plausible explanation.
And so, when heā€™s telling you at the fruit stand that pears really arenā€™t the best for your health, consider apples instead, you simply nod and thank him for his insight. (Of course you donā€™t know that he wants you to eat the apples instead because he canā€™t stand the smell of pears, and to have you reeking of the fruit would be a serious deterrent his experience of watching you for the rest of the day.)
When you decide to be bold one day and wear the pretty, colorful kimono you own, Muzan happens to run into you and comments on it, telling you that you look so lovely in more neutral colors, donā€™t you think? (You donā€™t need to know that he wants you to be wearing less flashy things so that others wonā€™t notice you as much, so that you wonā€™t draw too many eyes, so that you wonā€™t be lusted after and pined after by so many men ā€“ you wouldnā€™t their blood on your hands, now would you?)
Heā€™s subtle about it, never making you believe that youā€™re being swayed one way or another, but that changes after heā€™s stolen you away. Once youā€™re in his clutches, youā€™ll become very, very aware of just how much Muzan inserts himself into your daily life.
Heā€™s obviously chosen where youā€™re to live, forcing you stay with him and keep you isolated from everyone else on Earth, just so that your dependence on him will grow, just so that no one else can see you, just so that he becomes your entire fucking world, just as he should be. But he chooses more subtle things, too ā€“ things that border on uncomfortable, things that really should be solely your choice.
Ā He instructs you on which clothing to wear each day ā€“ giving you a specific outfit, telling you to style your hair in a particular way.
Heā€™ll tell you whether to bathe that day, and the order with which you should clean yourself ā€“ always hair first, then arms, breasts (this is part that heā€™s most fervent about watching, claiming that you donā€™t do a good enough job and he must be present to ensure that youā€™re truly clean), stomach, back, legs, and between your thighs.
(Heā€™ll allow you to privately clean yourself there at first, but as time passes he stops allowing you to turn your back to him, instead standing over the washing tub and scrutinizing your technique with his eyes, insisting that you havenā€™t thoroughly spread yourself, that you havenā€™t pressed inside yourself deeply enough. And, once youā€™ve begun having sexual relations, heā€™ll insist that you arenā€™t capable of being fully clean unless something else helps clean out inside of you, too ā€“ something clean and meticulous and cared for like whatā€™s between his legs, of course. So let him settle into the bathing tub and seat yourself on him, allowing him to maneuver you to really, thoroughly clean you.)
Heā€™s even instructing you on what order to eat your meals ā€“ vegetables first, then protein, then carbs, those watchful eyes of his like a hawkā€™s making sure that you follow his commands to a tee. It gives him a sense of control, like a palpable sense of superiority over you ā€“ sure, you make him feel emotions that he has no control over, making his body respond in ways he despises, but at least he controls you. Itā€™s a weak ploy at maintaining his ego, but itā€™s effective ā€“ because as time passes, slowly youā€™ll forget what it was like to live a life where your every decision wasnā€™t made for you, and the thought will honestly scare you ā€“ how did you survive? How were you able to stomach the thought of so many small decisions, so many unknowns, so many things that couldā€™ve gone wrong?
And Muzan will feed these delusions ā€“ commanding you with a firm, almost bored voice and following it up with an weak women like you shouldnā€™t be making too many choices, youā€™ll always choose incorrectly. You wouldnā€™t have survived without me, donā€™t you agree?
Which connects to another key aspect of his controlling tendencies ā€“ Muzan is extremely manipulative. Heā€™s a selfish creature motivated by his own personal gain, and he is gifted at deceiving others in order to get what he wants. Heā€™ll never explicitly lie to you, but Muzan has no qualms with warping your world perspective a bit, feeding you delusions, forcing you into believing that you truly are nothing without him, that you truly need him in the way he claims that you do.
And itā€™ll work ā€“ all those comments about you being beneath him and unable to take care of yourself will eventually become a mantra for you, and while youā€™ll still be terrified of the demon, youā€™ll start slowly depending on him.
Youā€™ll start needing him in a way that makes Muzan smug ā€“ because now, heā€™s not the weak one, right? You need him much more than he needs you. (This isnā€™t true, but Muzan convinces himself of it ā€“ it has to be true.)
DEALING WITH RIVALS:
Quite honestly, itā€™s rare that you find yourself in a situation where another physical person is around you aside from Muzan. Heā€™s very, very possessive over you, treating you more akin to a pet or prized possession rather than a partner. And because of this, heā€™s able to easily control the people who interact with you ā€“ who they are, when they see you, how long theyā€™re permitted to be in your presence, even what words they say to you.
Generally speaking, if heā€™s feeling kind, youā€™ll be permitted to see the Upper Moons, but even then itā€™s in extremely sparing quantities.
He doesnā€™t like the way Douma touches you, clinging onto you like some sort of leech and getting his filthy hands all over you.
He doesnā€™t like the way Akaza bends to you as if you have some sort of power over him, as if you were equal to Muzan himself ā€“ it makes some part of him smug to think that his underlings recognize that youā€™re his, but it still bristles his ego to think that youā€™re even remotely close to his status, even if youā€™re objectively higher than other demons.
He doesnā€™t like the way Hantengu sneaks glances at you that Muzan very much notices, just the mere act alone making him scowl and slice off the demonā€™s neck, sending him squealing and scampering away.
He doesnā€™t like the way Gyokko is always complimenting your beauty ā€“ youā€™re gorgeous, true, but only Muzan is allowed to admire you. Only he is allowed to take in the curves of your face and body, the softness of your skin, your alluring smell, the gentle lull of your voice. Besides, only Muzan is allowed to compliment you ā€“ even that alone is a huge, huge struggle for him, if only because positive affirmations of anyone aside from himself is a foreign concept, and he simply cannot have Gyokko undoing all the hard work Muzan has undergone to break down your confidence and build it back up himself.
He doesnā€™t like the way Daki insults you, because although Muzan doesnā€™t want anyone to compliment you, itā€™s almost more offensive to have an underling openly mock and ignore you ā€“ canā€™t she tell that youā€™re so, so much more important than sheā€™ll ever be?
He doesnā€™t like the way Gyuutaro openly stares and leers at you, licking his lips like some sort of animal ā€“ as if heā€™d ever let such scum touch you. Your body is his to touch and fuck, and for the other demon to even briefly entertain the notion of being intimate with you makes bile rise up the back of his throat and his nails to sharpen without his permission.
The only demon Muzan is somewhat likely (emphasis on the somewhat, because he still rarely ever lets you interact with anyone besides himself) is Kokushibo, simply because Muzan knows that the Upper Rank 1 will keep both himself and you in line. He trusts that Kokushibo, ever loyal to his leader, will not entertain any inappropriate thoughts or actions towards you. He also trusts that Kokushibo wonā€™t allow you to step out of line, his punishing hand swift as he ties you up and forces you to await Muzan, the one who will give you your real punishment for nervously playing with your fingers.
(Thatā€™s unwomanly of you, Kokushibo will tell you, all six of his eyes glaring down at you. A woman capable of standing beside Muzan should be regal and confident, you are not worthy of him.)
And so, you effectively will have no interaction with another soul aside from Muzan ā€“ but before his obsession pushes him to the extreme of stealing you away, he was certainly no stranger to envy or jealousy.
It's an innocent thing, really ā€“ the man in the gray kimono was just trying to keep you from falling. The lantern chain you were trying to hang on the ledge of your roof wasnā€™t too complex, but the stepstool you were precariously balancing on was another story. Reaching high over your head to attach the chain to the wooden beam was extending your limbs to their furthest ability, leaving you wobbly and liable to fall at all any moment.
And, of course, you did ā€“ suddenly you were falling backwards, the lanterns slipping out of your hands and a yelp slipping past your lips. Squeezing your eyes shut, you brace yourself for impact on the hard ground below you, but the air is knocked out of your lungs by a pair of arms slipping underneath your legs and below your back rather than the cold Earth below. The man carefully helps you stand up, laughing sheepishly as you profusely thanked him, rubbing at the back of his neck.
Youā€™re smiling, Muzan can see from his spot at the end of the street, his gaze fixed on you even over the buzz of life at the nighttime market.
Your shop is easily one hundred feet away, but he can still smell you clear as day, your scent alluring and musky and rich, only now tinged with the slightest bit of embarrassment, appreciation, and attraction.
Muzan scowls, his dark brows drawing inward so tightly that wrinkles were sure to form. His fist curls in on itself, sharp nails already slicing into his palms and letting blood drip onto the ground below him. Every muscle in his body clenches, taut with anger, anticipation and the uncontrollable urge to do something, veins standing out against the paleness of his neck and forehead.
That man was touching you.
Helping you.
You, who was stupid enough to get on a ladder and hang up those incessant lanterns ā€“ you, who was careless enough with your own miserable, misfortunate human life as to potentially throw it away for some measly lights. Anger clouds his every thought, but he forces himself to stay still, to not immediately jump onto the man and tear him to pieces bite by bite until he was screaming and sobbing and begging ā€“
Soon the man is on his way, leaving you behind as you disappear into the depths of your shop, the man tucking his hands into his pockets with a smile curling on his lips that makes Muzanā€™s self-control snap, his legs finally pushing him into action.
Itā€™s not hard to snatch the man by the throat, his claws digging against the soft, thin skin and dragging him away to a deserted back-alley.
Itā€™s not hard to hold him in the air, his feet not touching the ground as desperate fingers clumsily grope at Muzanā€™s, unable to break the inhuman grip the demon has on his neck.
Itā€™s not hard to watch the manā€™s face slowly turning purple, his actions getting weaker and weaker, and itā€™s only once the man is right on the verge of losing consciousness that Muzan lets go, throwing him to ground and hearing a sickening crunch noise as the man wheezes. Muzanā€™s lips curl, his eyebrows still furrowed, his expression looking halfway between pained and exhilarated.
You worthless human. His voice is full of disdain, hatred seeping into every word as he kicks the man in the stomach, the action causing him to cough up blood, more wheezes and desperate heaves filling the back-alley.
Who gave you permission to breath? Who gave you permission to touch her? Who gave you permission to touch whatā€™s mine? He kicks him again, the curl of his lip deepening.
The man is curled up into a fetal position, blood flowing onto the dirt below him. Muzan scoffs. Pathetic. You must think youā€™ve done a very heroic deed, saving her from falling.
Muzanā€™s smile drops. You did nothing. You are just a weak, useless human. What could you offer her?
He waits for a moment, just to see if the writhing mess of a man before him wasnā€™t as pitiful as he appeared, and his brows cock up ever so slightly when his wheezing, strained voice asks, then why didnā€™t you save her?
And with that, Muzan slices his head clean off, only the smallest of whimpers ringing in his ears, followed by the dull thud of the now decapitated head falling to the ground. Muzanā€™s chest is heaving, his red eyes wide, a few curls knocked out of place at the exertion, and for a moment heā€™s frozen.
Thereā€™s genuine rage swimming through his veins, and the sheer amount of that manā€™s blood staining his clothing makes him pause. Why had his words effected him so? Heā€™d quite literally lost control of his body once he heard the question ā€“ why didnā€™t he bother to save you? Why had he only watched, allowing this other man to step in and keep you from cracking your head open on the ground?
Muzanā€™s scowl deepens, and soon heā€™s turning back to the body, sharp nails ripping and slicing at the man until all that remains are scraps of clothing and a face so disfigured that identifying him would be impossible.
And even then, Muzan doesnā€™t feel the sense of satisfaction that killing someone who insulted him would normally bring ā€“ instead, the rage is calmed ever so slightly by a strange feeling that makes his fingers tremble, his throat feel swollen, and his heart race in his chest.
And when he returns to the busy streets of the night market, inhaling over and over and over, heā€™s quick to catch your scent, trailing behind you with those red eyes trained on your form.
TAKING HIS DARLING AWAY:
Because Muzan is in denial about his feelings for you for most of the beginning of his obsession with you, kidnapping you isnā€™t the first thing that comes to his mind. He tries to ignore you for as long as he can, holding out and believing that whatever it is that youā€™re making him feel will eventually go away if he doesnā€™t pay attention to it.
Except that it doesnā€™t, and as time passes he becomes more desperate to see you, to hear your voice and speak with you and be in your presence and ā€“ god forbid ā€“ touch you. And so, while not seriously considering stealing you away in the beginning, once Muzan comes to terms with the fact that his infatuation isnā€™t going to simply go away on its own he decides that keeping you by his side permanently is the only acceptable solution. Itā€™s the only solution where he wonā€™t lose his mind, honestly.
He grows so dependent on the idea of you that it starts affecting his daily tasks and life ā€“ heā€™s distracted, every moment he has to himself filled with idle thoughts of you and what you could be doing in that particular moment.
Are you eating enough? He knows humans have to eat more often than demons, and you have to be careful about balancing your nutrition and portion control ā€“ heā€™s sure he could a much better job at managing your dietary health than you can.
Are you sleeping enough? Demons donā€™t have to sleep, and as a result itā€™s been centuries since heā€™s had a full nightā€™s rest, but he knows that you spend over a third of your day asleep ā€“ a massive waste of time, as far as heā€™s concerned.
(This doesnā€™t stop him from stopping by the measly apartment you call home, however, standing at the end of your bed with an unreadable expression on his face as he watches you sleep. Sometimes heā€™ll even get closer, kneeling beside you so that he can see your face better, perhaps even ghosting a few fingers over the curve of your cheek, your bedroom so silent he can hear his own breathing falling in time with yours.)
Are you with other people? Are you speaking with others? Are you wasting your time and energy on all of those ridiculous ā€˜hobbiesā€™ of yours? Muzan wants to know ā€“ needs to know, and as time passes he simply canā€™t stand not knowing every single thing that youā€™re doing at all times.
And itā€™s not like kidnapping you would be hard ā€“ youā€™re practically defenseless, your reaction time not nearly fast enough to even pose the smallest fight against him. And so, itā€™s easy to scoop you up into his arms one night, picking you up out of your bed and taking a moment to lean down closer to your neck, his curls brushing against your jaw as he slowly, deeply inhales, the moment of vulnerability passing just as quickly as it occurred as he gulps and stares for a moment, only to immediately take off running towards the cabin heā€™s prepared to keep you in.
The cabin itself is in the middle of nowhere ā€“ in the countryside, at the base of a mountain, with tall trees and no trails leading anywhere. The cabin is wooden, with a fireplace and a meager dining area (only youā€™ll be using that dining space, of course, but Muzan grows fond of watching you eat ā€“ if only to comment on how pathetic it is that you need to sustain yourself with food so much more often than he does). A futon has been placed in the corner of the cabin ā€“ itā€™s big enough to fit two people, but thankfully he hasnā€™t tried to share it with you yet, not that youā€™re confident he will.
(Youā€™ve woken to see him sitting beside you on it, however. He was still fully clothed, with an expression on his face that youā€™re not sure how to describe, but heā€™s never actually joined you in bed. Thank god.) tā€™s not horrible, per say, but your life within the cabin will far from idyllic.
Muzan is not a kind man. Heā€™s not even a man ā€“ and this becomes apparent to you very quickly. Itā€™s not unusual for him to return home from long periods of time away with blood staining his clothing, that familiar sour look on his face as he stares knowingly at you, expecting you to grovel at his feet and thank him for finally returning to you.
Youā€™ve never seen him eat ā€“ he doesnā€™t touch the food he brings to you (and itā€™s good food, too ā€“ nutritious and surprisingly delicious, making you wonder exactly how he obtained it), and almost seems disgusted when he has to touch it.
You know thereā€™s something wrong, but multiple things bar you from ever asking why his nails grow so long in such short intervals, or why heā€™s so inhumanely strong, or how he can be so silent when he moves ā€“ those things being the many silent, unspoken rules he has laid out for how you should act. Heā€™s controlling in every sense, and although he doesnā€™t communicate exactly what he expects of you, youā€™ll quickly learn that he's picky, and he wonā€™t settle for any behavior less than perfect.
Most of these rules revolve around the fact that you arenā€™t allowed to escape or disrespect him. Attempting escape is a rebellion against being his woman, and just as an owner does a dog, he will punish your ill behavior and pulling your metaphorical leash much, much further than you should.
Plus, your attempts to escape are a form of rejection in his eyes ā€“ he never makes it explicitly clear that heā€™s romantically interested in you, but he feels that you should just know this, and thus your insistence on getting away from him feels like a personal slight against him, like a slap in the face designed to hurt him in the most acute, intimate way possible.
Of course you donā€™t know this, but after each escape attempt, heā€™ll punish you, then promptly return to his office (a small, adjoining room in the cabin that youā€™re strictly forbidden from entering), sitting on his leather couch and letting his head sit in his hands, taking deep breaths and willing himself to stop letting such stupid, weak, human emotions affect him so.
The only thing that works, though, to calm his heart is to once again watch you as you sleep, allowing himself to get close to you, closing his eyes and inhaling your scent, perhaps even holding a shirt in his hands and imagining the way your skin would feel against the fabric. Itā€™s a reminder that although you were disobedient and tried to leave him, you werenā€™t successful ā€“ youā€™re still here, with him, as you should be.
Disrespecting him is also, of course, a severe infringement of the unwritten code he expects you to follow. He has to maintain some sense of superiority over you, and the moment you disrespect him either with words or actions, this fragile hierarchy is threatened, and you come dangerously close to the uncomfortable truth ā€“ that despite all his grandiose talk about you being beneath him, he would be absolutely nothing now without you.
He would be a mess, unable to function, unable to find purpose in avoiding death and sickness, unsure of how to move forward with a life that now no longer seems worth continuing. And so, as long as you avoid those two major triggers, most of your time spent in the cabin will be passed with Muzan simply sitting in your presence, those red eyes watching you like a hawk and making you beyond nervous. He scares you ā€“ heā€™s a monster and you know it, heā€™s stolen you away from your life and forced you into some strange, pseudo-relationship of roommates, though his intentions are much more sinister than you can imagine.
The one silver lining of being stuck with Muzan is that his crippling fear of rejection bars him from making any sort of sexual advance on you. Of course, he very, very much wants to fuck you (thought the thought shames him, because youā€™re a human woman, and the idea of touching a human and being touched by a human makes his skin crawl), but the idea of you not being as passionately and needily engaged and eager as him is enough to stop him from attempting anything.
This has an unfortunate side effect though, which is that he channels this anger and fear of being rejected by you into meanness directly at you ā€“ comments of how youā€™re clumsy or loud or irritating slip past his lips. And although he doesnā€™t often mean them, the venom in his voice will get you shutting up, fearfully and self-consciously staring down at the floor.
He feels the smallest pang of guilt when this happens, because although heā€™s a sadistic creature, seeing you upset isnā€™t nearly as pleasing as heā€™d expected. But itā€™s a necessary evil in the larger scheme of things ā€“ he has to keep you in line, and by stealing you away so that he can keep constant surveillance on you and control your meal times (he decides when you eat, even if youā€™re not hungry or donā€™t want the meal heā€™s brought), how often you bathe yourself (often heā€™ll watch the process, those red eyes raking up and down your figure, making sure to wear loose bottoms so that you donā€™t see how the sight of you wet, soapy, and embarrassed effects him), and make sure you interact with no one, heā€™s ultimately fulfilling a self-serving goal: preserving you, and keeping you all locked up and safe for him to enjoy.
And only him.
PUNISHMENTS:
Despite Muzanā€™s strange fondness for you (or, more accurately, his dependence on your presence), heā€™s by no means a gentle lover. Heā€™s cruel, demeaning, incredibly strict and harsh with you, with expectations that he never clearly communicates with you. Itā€™ll leave you guessing in the dark, hoping and praying that your every action, word, and even thought wonā€™t trigger some sort of negative response from him. Heā€™s fickle, his mood changing quicker than you keep up with, and because of this, Muzan finds himself angry with you much more often than heā€™d care to admit.
He was resistant to developing feelings for you at first, embarrassed, disappointed and frustrated with himself for stooping so low as to develop an attraction with a weak human like you, but as time passes he finds himself growing less resentful and more desperate. Heā€™s still angry with himself, ashamed that heā€™s allowed himself to let you become his one weakness, and because of this heā€™s a bit trigger-happy with punishing you.
Heā€™s always looking for reasons to belittle you, to put you down in order to make himself feel better. Heā€™s an egotistical, narcissistic creature, and just because youā€™ve managed to worm your way into his heart doesnā€™t mean that you are exempt from this aspect of his personality.
Heā€™ll find ways to twist your words and actions into somehow being displeasing to him, whether by being disrespectful to him, or an attempt to escape.
Youā€™re quiet and avoid speaking with him or looking at him? Sure, youā€™re scared, as you say, but this could also be an attempt lulling him into lowering his guard around you, like youā€™re waiting for the right opportunity to try and run or hurt him. (Just the thought along is laughable ā€“ as if you could ever do serious damage to him.)
So, heā€™ll force you into speaking simply by threatening any remaining family you have. Thatā€™ll get you spluttering and talking, heā€™s sure ā€“ your weak sensibilities and this absurd devotion to your family that you seem to possess is perfect to exploit. (Plus, itā€™ll get you to stop ignoring him, something that makes his heart feel like a knife is twisting inside him, making every part of him ache and bile rise in the back of his throat. But you donā€™t need to know that ā€“ heā€™ll never admit it.)
Youā€™re refusing to eat the food heā€™s brought for you? You ungrateful thing ā€“ heā€™d gone so far as to get the best quality, fanciest food he could find for you ā€“ things that he could imagine himself stomaching back when he was a human. Things that ā€“ despite you being below him ā€“ you deserve as his pet. Heā€™ll merely scoff, throwing the food off to the side, before returning a few hours later with something warm and wet and fresh ā€“ blood is dripping off the pretty white plate heā€™s dished the human heart on, his face carefully neutral aside from the smallest of smirks while he tells you to eat up, you wouldnā€™t want an ended life to be in vain, would you?
Itā€™s cruel and itā€™s evil and itā€™s horrible, but pinning your compassion and disgust at him murdering innocent people because of your rebellions against you is the most successful and effective tool he could use to keep you in line. It works ā€“ every single time.
And Muzan has no qualms with using every possible resource at his disposal ā€“ sure, you may be angry at him, perhaps even hate him, but heā€™s confident that with time, youā€™ll realize that heā€™s all you have left. Youā€™re weak and incapable and youā€™ll never, ever be rid of him, so why wonā€™t you just obey him like you, as the inferior life form, should?
Your fingers are trembling as he nears you, that same unearthly silence to his steps that makes every muscle in your body stand at attention, your fight or flight instincts begging you to run as fast as you can away from the monster in front of you.
Thereā€™s nothing in his hands, but that doesnā€™t make you feel better ā€“ you know what he can do with those hands, and you curl up tighter against the corner youā€™ve sat yourself in.
Muzanā€™s got a half-smile on his face ā€“ itā€™s the closest he can get to a genuine smile, you think, but it still makes your skin crawl, unease and dread eating away at your gut. He stops in front of you, crouching down so that heā€™s at eye level with you. His curls sit around his face, the casual white dress-shirt he sports perfectly pressed and rolled up at the elbows.
Hello, how are you faring? He asks, and immediately you grow suspicious ā€“ this is unusual. He never directly asks you about yourself ā€“ he normally talks about himself, only occasionally dropping a comment or two about you that lets you know he recognizes your presence in the room.
What is he playing at? How do you respond?
Iā€™m okayā€¦ you start, nervous that heā€™s looking for an answer that you donā€™t know. At your response, he makes no noticeable change, but instead stands once more. Heā€™s still staring down at you, those red eyes feeling heavy and piercing.
Come with me.
And then heā€™s walking, and youā€™re scrambling behind him to keep up with his long strides. He settles down onto a leather couch in his study, and for the briefest moments you hesitate at the threshold, having never been allowed in this room.
He notices your resistance, and rolls his eyes slightly. Come here.
You do as youā€™re told, and carefully, tentatively sit down on the other end of the leather couch. Itā€™s silent for a few moments, before Muzan breaks it, his voice a bit deeper than before. Come here.
Confusion settles over your features, but you slowly scoot over a bit, so that youā€™re an inch or so closer to him. Muzanā€™s still staring at you, you can see it out of the corner of your eye, and a frown sits on his lips.
You scoot over a bit more, continuing when he doesnā€™t say anything until thereā€™s just the smallest sliver of space between your bodies. You can hear his breathing, having never been so close to him before. Heā€™s still looking at you, but you focus your gaze on your hands in your lap, trying desperately to not visibly show your nerves.
Are you afraid of me?
His question startles you, and you stiffen up, peeking at him for just a moment. Unsure of how to respond, you merely nod, your voice small as you murmur yes. Muzan hums, and suddenly thereā€™s a hand sitting on your thigh, his skin cold and dry, the weight feeling heavy. And although you try to stop yourself, knowing the consequences will be anything but pleasant, the unforeseen physical contact makes you jump, scooting away from him ever so slightly.
The room is still for a moment, before you hear his sharp inhale, literally seeing his face morph into one of rage. Heā€™s breathing hard as he gets to his feet and practically storms out of the room, his steps still nearly silent. Youā€™re still frozen, trying to process what youā€™ve just done ā€“ you rejected him.
Obviously you donā€™t want him, but this surely must be one of the unspoken rules youā€™re supposed to follow ā€“ surely such an arrogant man wouldnā€™t appreciate being you being so blatantly repulsed.
Unsure of what to do ā€“ does he want you to leave his study? Stay? ā€“ you stay in place, every part of your body shaking in fear and horrible anticipation at your punishment for such a grave offense.
You donā€™t have to wait for long ā€“ ten minutes later heā€™s barging through the door, dragging a woman by her hair into the space. Sheā€™s already stained with bits of blood, her hair matted with it and her pretty clothes darker than they should be.
Muzanā€™s staring at you, a wild look in his eye, his hair a bit messy and a few more buttons of the dress shirt undone. He throws the woman to the ground, and you notice how shallow her breathing is ā€“ she must be on the verge of death.
Muzanā€™s voice is deep, husky in a way that stills you to your very core as he growls out you will never, ever reject me. Do you understand? You have no place or authority to reject me. You are nothing. I am the only worthwhile thing in your life. Do you understand?
You nod, over and over, eyes flashing between his piercing gaze and the woman whoā€™s slowly trying to get to her feet. Every time she gets close, Muzan pushes her back to the ground, the tears clouding your lashes just barely letting you make out the way her face twists up in pain.
You are nothing. You are nothing.
Muzan is repeating it to himself over and over again as he picks up the woman, forcing her to face you. Briefly, youā€™re shocked ā€“ youā€™ve never seen this woman in your life, but something about her seems oddly familiar, like youā€™re looking in a mirror.
Her hair is remarkably similar to yours ā€“ the same texture, the same color, just a different length.
Her nose is similar to yours, her skin color, even her eye color.
Her body is similar, too ā€“ a similar build, proportions, and suddenly youā€™re sick.
This woman is you.
Muzanā€™s still breathing hard, his face contorted into that ugly scowl, and without a word, his hands are tangled in the womanā€™s hair again, pulling and yanking upwards until a wet squelching noise fills the room, and suddenly her body falls backwards, limp, with her head still held in the air, his forearm flexing.
You canā€™t stop yourself from vomiting, the sight and sound too much for you to bear. Muzan watches with pursed lips, his eyes still wide and barely blinking. You look pitiful like this ā€“ shaking like some sort of scared mouse, staring at him like he's a monster, like heā€™s the Devil himself.
And as he stares down at you, something pleasant settles in his gut, because while heā€™d prefer your adoration, the way youā€™re looking at him now is good, too. Because youā€™re looking at him, giving him the attention he was craving earlier.
Perhaps he shouldnā€™t have tried to be kind in his approach at initiating physical contact with you. After all, itā€™s not as if you really have a choice ā€“ itā€™s such a strange, human desire to want to touch another, and really, isnā€™t it your fault that heā€™s feeling this urge?
(Isnā€™t it your influence and doing that he wants to touch you, to feel you, to be inside of you?)
He bares his teeth, an eyebrow cocking up. Do not reject my advances. Your death will not be as merciful as hers.
And to that, you simply nod.
OVERALL DANGER:
10/10
Muzan is, undoubtedly, a nightmare to have infatuated with you. Heā€™s so deeply in denial in the beginning that he forces himself to stay away from you, only for that to make him crave you more, to realize that his feelings for you arenā€™t simply going to go away.
Heā€™s possessive and controlling, seeing you as his in every sense of the word and feeling completely justified in taking over every aspect of your life.
Heā€™s paranoid, always keeping an eye on you because being this emotionally tied to another living thing is incredibly nerve-wracking, your weak human body and disposition making him nervous that even the wind will send you knocking on deathā€™s door.
And even then, he doesnā€™t express this worry in any healthy way ā€“ heā€™s not afraid to verbally degrade you, using harsh words as a shield so that you donā€™t see just how pathetically deep his obsession and attraction to you is.
Itā€™s demoralizing, embarrassing to a degree that forces him to treat you like a pet of sorts ā€“ punishing you with threats, stealing you away to be stuck in some remote cabin in the woods where not a soul will dare near the home, smelling both him and the scent of death strongly in the air.
Heā€™s so emotionally out of touch, and as a result your life with him will be a constant series of walking on eggshells around rules and expectations you donā€™t even know about. Itā€™s difficult, and frankly youā€™re viable to find yourself quickly losing your sanity.
But donā€™t worry too much ā€“ Muzan may not act like it, but he does care about your health and safety, and youā€™ll be in capable hands to help reshape and remold you into the perfect little human partner.
Perhaps youā€™ll even become a demon ā€“ a very, very likely event, considering the fact that as a demon, you have to obey his every command.
(Just the thought of you completely obedient and submissive makes him smile, his eyes narrowing a bit and his nails tapping on the nearest surface, those slacks of his feeling a bit too tight.)
He wants you to be his, and a man as selfish as him knows no bounds. So really, get ready ā€“ you will be his, and will never escape him. Lucky you.
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Tw: misogany, non-con, incels, gender/power dynamics, writing this made me feel icky, if you are a person who genuinely believes in anything described in this post please consider changing your opinions, fem reader, MDNI, don't ask me where this post came from because I don't know
Thinking about men that think your rightful place is by his side as his woman.
You bring out this side of him that's brand new to him; this side urging him to utterly dominate you, to be in full control of your bank accounts, your friendships, your hobbies, even your own body. There's this new urge to make you ask for permission for everything, to just pin you down and stuff you full of him every hour of every day because it's your job. It's your duty to take his cock - you were made for it.
He's never been particularly misogynistic, but when he looks at you, all he sees is the beautiful, wonderful, perfect woman that he must domesticate. You're too wild on your own - too free-spirited, brainwashed into believing this 'modern woman' crap - there's a reason the man does the work and the woman stays at home. Don't you know that?
He's strong - you're not. (And he knows it, too - after a night of fucking, all the bruises littering your body and the way your legs struggle to hold you steady is proof enough. The way he can easily lift the heavy wooden bedframe of your shared bed is enough - you can only lift a corner of it off the ground, after all. The way he can get you to shut up with just a simple, stern look should be enough evidence.)
He's street-smart - you're not. (He understands what other men want and what you're good for - it's not sexist when he tells you that the shirt you're wearing is too revealing. He won't hesitate to tell you that your entire chest is basically out, angel, and you can't be showing the world one of your best assets. He understands that you're not strong or skilled enough to fight another man off should he decide he wants you - you'll try to fight, sure, but that'll only get the other man going, your resistance only getting them harder and more lustful, and when you inevitably give in - because you always will, all women will - he knows you might even enjoy it.)
He's smart - you're not. (You think you are - and you're right about some things, sure. You know the best ways to bathe yourself - he's never been as thorough as you, he's humble enough to admit that - and how to make delicious pie, and the best way to make the bed warm and soft. But there's a lot of things you don't know, like who to vote for at the next election, or how to change a tire, or how to use a debit card.)
He's a man. And you're not. And he likes that you aren't - he's attracted to you because of your feminine charms; your curves, your softness, your smell, the sound of your voice, and - of course - the fact that you are utterly, utterly his property. As his wife (your consent in the matter is hardly important; his last name is yours now, and that's all there really is to it), all your decisions are made by him. He tells you what to wear, what to get at the grocery store, how to address other men, how to smile, everything that he knows is too much for you to handle.
And, of course, he teaches you other things. Things that he knows you are - should be, at least - clueless about. So cute, huh?
He's patient when he tells you to sink to your knees, palms pressing on the top of your head as he pushes you down, softly shushing you when you start to protest. He's patient as he slips his briefs down, his cock already red and throbbing and big, making your cheeks look even softer and rounder, your glassy eyes and prettier. He's talking you through it as he traces his tip - wet and sticky and leaving a smear of bitter precum on your skin - around your lips, the look in his eye nearly boyish with excitement.
He's gentle when he grasps your chin between two fingers (much stronger than your own, of course) to keep you steady, shuffling his hips forward so that his tip (bulbous and red and positively glistening, already looking so swollen you're sure he won't last but a minute) slips past your lips. He keeps going until you're gagging, letting his eyes flutter closed for a moment before immediately opening them once more because the sight of you below him, on your knees for him, shutting you up with his cock down your throat is oh so right.
He's patient when he pushes you face-first into the bed, running a hand over your hair and sighing to himself because god, aren't you pretty? His hands are on your hips immediately, pushing down on your lower back to get the arch of your back deeper, tighter, more intense because it looks better this way - it's better for him this way, and isn't sex really only about the man?
He's even generous enough to be gentle when he's pushing himself inside you - keeping the pace slow but consistent, hissing and letting a few comments of 's so damn tight, fuck and cunt was made for me, shit slipping past his lips. He's kind enough to give you a few moments (perhaps three) to adjust to his size, before he's smacking your ass and pulling your hair, fucking into you like an animal because you're his to use.
And he's not afraid to say it - t's all harsh thrusts that make audible slapping noises as his balls - very, very sensitive and very, very full - smack against you over and over, strong fingers grabbing at your skin and keeping you in place, just so he can ram into that one spot over and over and over, because he thinks the deeper he goes the more he's claiming you. He's groaning at you with stuttered breaths that you were made to get fucked by me, o-oh shit, this tight hole's only thing you're good for and accentuating the idea with his fingers groping at your breast and using it as leverage to pull you back further and get deeper.
The air is hot and smells like musk and cum and sex, every inch of your body unable to think of anything but him - just as it should be, really. He's grabbing onto the pretty, silver collar he's forced around your throat as he thrusts, the tracker inlaid into the metal feeling familiar to his fingertips and making his thrusts harder because he must know where you are at all times - you're his property and he can't lose you.
After all, if you were gone, who would he dress up to look all pretty for him then? (He's still dressing you up even in the humiliating outfits he forces you to parade around in at home - the cooking aprons and nothing else, giving him easy access to hump your bare ass from behind while you work at the stove, cooking him dinner all the while you keep his cock warm between those pretty legs of yours.)
If you were gone, who would wake him up with lips around his cock, soft gagging noises filling the air alongside songbirds as he gets a proper good morning?
If you were gone, who would listen to his endless rants about his horrible coworkers and friends and anyone that pissed him off all while he pounds a beer and jokes about how good you look while you load the washing machine full of his dirty clothes - you look nice bent over, sweetheart, why don't you stay in there for a bit and let me blow off some steam?
Of course, all of this is fine and dandy - owning you is the dream, and having you as his pretty, helpless, clueless little wife is the ultimate fantasy. He lays awake at night sometimes imagining how you'd be as his housewife - the pretty ring on your finger, how you'd eagerly wait at the door for his arrival home from work everyday, how you'd meticulously put on your makeup and style your hair and wear the pretty lingerie he'd bought you just so that you look as attractive and desirable to him as possible.
But first, he needs to show you your place as his woman, and get rid of this misplaced sense of independence you seem to be clutching onto for dear life. Stupid girl.
(His belt is unbuckled as soon as the door closes behind the two of you, his smile something between sinister and elated as he tells you to not bother working at the knot keeping your hands tied behind your back - tying knots is men's work, and you'll hurt your pretty fingers and hands. You'll need those later, so quit picking.)
Enji Todoroki, AFO, Nobunaga Hazama, Illumi Zoldyck, Daichi Sawamura, Kenjiro Shirabu, I don't write for aot or jjk but also Floch Forester, Eren Jeager and Naoya Zenin
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Hi! I know you already discussed this with the hxh yanderes, but do you think some yanderes in demon slayer, hashiras and demons, would want to get married to their darling? Hashiras probably would, but i'm not so sure about demons.
Hi anon!!
I'm always happy to write about kny, and this is a good question! I'm not too much of a buff on Japanese history/historical time periods, so hopefully I'm not too factually off - based off of Tanjiro's reactions anytime skin is shown/ Zenitsu's insistence on marriage, I'm going to guess that marriage was probably more expected than it is today. So we're going to move forward with that in mind!
(Also I know next to nothing about traditional Japanese weddings, so you're getting my Western norms/knowledge... sorry! Also, I'm still debating on whether I want to write Mitsuri and Obanai as separate or poly yanderes because I really can't stomach the thought of separating them, so you're getting poly for this!)
Without further ado, let's discuss!! (This is long I apologize)
First of all, you're right - almost all of the Hashiras have marriage on the mind once their obsession forms. They're dreaming of you in pretty white gowns, boquets of flowers everywhere, and a pretty, glittering ring on your finger. There's something comfortable and good about knowing that you're safe, that you're protected, that you're theirs, both in the eyes of the law and of each other.
The demons, on the other hand, are more of a mixed bag - none of them really remember their time as a human, but some are more connected with their human sides than others - and thus, some of them are much, much more desperate to make you theirs in a way that satiates their remaining scraps of humanity. (Plus, this is a way to bind you to them that the demons know you'll recognize the weight of - after all, it's not like divorcing them is really an option; you can't even run two feet without them immediately catching and immobilizing you. What makes you think you could ever truly escape them?)
But of course, let's start with the beloved, oh-so-righteous Hashira. They each have a different level of motivation for getting you to share their last name - personal trauma, dependency, and their awareness of your feelings for them make each individual approach in asking for your hand very unique.
(Though each is laced with just a hair of hesitance, their vulnerability coming to light when they pop the question, because even if they've already stolen you away, even if Stockholm Syndrome has already bent and warped you, there's still the possibility of rejection. There's still the possibility that you don't want them as badly as they do, that you don't need them like they need you. You'll say yes, they'll make sure of it, but you need to mean it - you need to love them, too.)
Kochou Shinobu wants to marry you, and while she won't force you to, she's not too shy to drop hints. In general, she's not too terribly controlling, aside from her extreme overprotectiveness, and this extends to her plans of marriage with you.
She wants to bind you to her permanently, to get you officially and legally tied to her in a way you can't deny no matter how badly you may want to, but she won't force it. After all, while she does force you into all sorts of things in the name of protection and your wellbeing (forcing you to eat certain foods, keeping you inside the Butterfly mansion with scheduled times for you to sit outside in the garden, and a whole variety of other things that make you bristle with indignation and shame), she wants big steps in your relationship to be consensual.
(Aside from your kidnapping, of course - though she sees your captivity less as a step and more of a necessity, more of something she's doing to make sure you aren't the victim of some horrible, disgusting demon. And, of course, so that you're alive and well and she can see you and hear you and smell you and touch you.)
She'll pop the question once she thinks Stockholm Syndrome has set in, and even then, the moment is actually quite nice. She'd set up a nice meal for you (with foods you actually like, not the overly healthy, bland slog she always forces down your throat), with a few candles glowing and nice, fluffy blankets surrounding where you both sit on the floor.
Her voice is strangely soft and sweet when she asks you, this odd look in her eye that almost looks scared, as if she's genuinely afraid of how you'll respond to her slightly wobbly will you marry me? She wants you to say yes, needs it, really, but if you say no she'll respect that.
She won't let you go, of course, but she won't force it onto you. She'll be more distant, a little more snappy, and she'll spend noticeably less time physically close to you, but once she's recovered a bit (meaning she's slaughtered enough demons that her anger is slightly quelled, though the hurt is still very much present), she'll return to you, working even harder than before to make you happy and want her.
Perhaps you'll change your mind if she's more accommodating, if she's sweeter, if she's just better.
Giyuu Tomioka, for one, probably won't ever ask you to marry him.
It's not that he doesn't want to, but rather that it seems like this unnecessary step that doesn't need to happen for your relationship to be stable and happy and loving. He's a bit of an odd duck as a yandere - he's emotionally stunted and difficult at communicating his feelings, and because of this, he often worries that you're feeling things that he's unaware of.
He's paranoid that you secretly hate him, that you're lying every time you say something even remotely nice to him, that you wish he was dead or being tormented by a demon. (And frankly, this isn't entirely false - he does eventually kidnap you, once his hand is forced, and of fucking course you hate him after that - you're terrified of him, and it nearly breaks Giyuu, sending him into a spiral that'll take months of you eagerly convincing him otherwise to move past.)
And because of these fears, Giyuu is hesitant to really do anything romantic at all with you - anything from calling you pet names to cuddling you takes a long time for him to feel comfortable with, and so marriage?
It's unlikely that he'll ask, but not impossible - after all, he does harbor strong feelings for you, finding you on his mind constantly, his hands always twitching and itching to reach out to you, his eyes always seeming to wander back to your figure, his entire body just yearning for you you you.
Giyuu does genuinely want to marry you - he likes the idea of you having his last name, and the idea of being tied to you in a real, tangible way. It makes some of the paranoia quell, because would you really leave him if you were married?
Widows don't survive easily in this world - you'd find it extremely hard to remarry. (That thought leaves a sour taste in his mouth, though he does like that it means you're less likely to leave him.)
So while Giyuu probably won't ever ask, just know that when he's staring at you so longingly, gazing at you with those wide eyes that never seem to blink, he's imagining the way you'd look in lace, how your pretty face would look at him from under a veil, how your voice would caress his name when you say your vows.
It's a sweet thought that he harbors, and it's only many, many years into the future that he'll admit this to you. (And even then, it's only in passing, only when he's in your arms, on the brink of sleep and feeling the most calm and vulnerable and safe he's felt in his whole life - you'll hear a small would you want to be a wife? He won't elaborate if you ask him to repeat himself, instead pretending it never happened, but that's probably the closest you'll get to admittance.)
Kyojuro Rengoku knows marriage is in his future from a young age. He's always dreamed of having a loving family, of having another family for Senjuro to grow close to.
And really, you just make it so easy - it's disturbing how quickly he's fantasizing about dropping to one knee, imagining your face - in detail - when he pops the question; he's sure your jaw will drop, your eyes going wide, maybe you'd even cover your mouth with your hand because you can hardly contain yourself with excitement.
And then you'll say yes - over and over again, crushing him into a hug that he eagerly returns, burying his nose into your hair and smelling and breathing and yearning -
Nights he spends fantasizing about your future normally end with flushed cheeks and sweat coating his body, his chest heaving and dried cum splattered along his navel.
He expects marriage, really, simply because he's a traditional man and he wants to become your protector and provider - he's lenient on most things involving the wedding, however. He's daydreaming about you in your dress, of course, but he'll be delighted with whatever style or color you choose, tears of joy in his eyes when he sees you walking down the aisle towards him, towards your future.
He'll let you decide the flowers and how you style your hair, and he'll even let you choose his own clothing - he will be incorporating the flame somehow, however, and that goes for more than just his clothing. Your ring will have a large, somewhat gaudy opal jewel in it, along with a flame engraved on the inside of the ring, so that you're close to him always, even when he's away on missions.
Kyojuro is so very sure that you'll become his wife one day that even before you're aware of his obsession with you, he's referring to you as my flame and my spouse and my lovely wife both in private and public. It's off-putting and strange, but no amount of explaining or pleading will get him to stop.
He's genuinely dead set on becoming your husband, and he'll even allow you to invite a select group of your family and friends to the event - after all, it's not like they could stop it. What could they do? He's the Flame Hashira, responsible for saving more lives than you could count - he can have whatever he wants, and that includes you.
(At least Shinobu will be on your side at the wedding - she'll watch with sad eyes, sad for you but happy for her comrade, though ultimately she can do nothing as well - even when she sees the way he looks at you, the way his eyes absolutely devour you.)
Marriage isn't exactly necessary for Gyomei Himejima, but it's still certainly a thought that lingers in the far corners of his mind, dancing behind closed eyelids on the rare night he's laying in his own bed, the blankets feeling cold and empty.
He normally wills away any sort of fantasizing about you at night - both on principle and because once he starts thinking of you, you don't leave his thoughts for hours, making sleep - something already a bit difficult for him - even harder to come by. But on the few nights where his self-control wavers ever so slightly, he allows himself to imagine the way your hands would feel with a pretty, smooth ring adorning your finger, standing out against the softness of your skin.
He'll move his own fingers against the fabric of his futon, pretending the lackluster linen is you instead, moving up to cup your face, brush over your hair, let his fingers trace the curve and juts of your collarbone.
He'll let himself imagine coming home to you, how the smell of you would fill his nostrils the moment he opens the door, how your voice would sound calling his name, telling him I'm so glad you're home, my love, it's lonely to be a wife without her other half by her side...
It's a desire he nurses, slowly letting it fester and grow and rot in his heart, and so when the day finally comes that you've given up on fighting him, that you've reluctantly accepted that he is your future now (and after months of him calmly and simply stating that I'm doing what is best for you, you are weak and you need protection, helpless creatures like yourself cannot be left to the wolves), he'll swallow and ask you, with a voice that's just slightly uneven, if you'd do him the honor of becoming his wife, if you'd share yourself with me, both in life and death?
It's not like you really have a choice, but he can't help the tears that slip down his cheeks when you answer him, those big, scarred hands of his slowly slipping down to your hips, excitement brewing in his chest that makes him feel both elated and sinful because married couples show love in much more intimate ways, and he's been holding himself back for so long, far longer than any other man could endure...
Sanemi Shinazugawa is, even to you - the love of his life, the woman he finds himself so ardently and frustratingly obsessed with - difficult to understand. He never explicitly tells you about his past nor childhood, only dropping small, hardly-there hints once in a blue moon.
All you've managed to gather is that something horrible happened to him, and that despite seeming rough and callous and cruel, he's significantly softer at heart than you'd expected.
And so, when Sanemi bites his lip a few months into your kidnapping, his fingers tapping together in his lap and his eyes struggling to stay fixed on you while you quietly and calmly folded the pretty, new kimono he'd just returned from a recent mission with, you're completely floored by his question.
Will you marry me?
It's rushed, nearly slurred, full of doubt and sounding more like a statement rather than a question, but when you freeze and flick your eyes to him, he only furrows his brows and looks angry. Truthfully, he'd been planning on asking you for months - marriage was on his mind embarrassingly early into his infatuation with you, though he'd never made any action to make you believe so.
He has a cold exterior and is outwardly brash and rude to those around him, but he's still the young, caring, gentle boy he once was - and when he's with you, ever protective instinct long buried from his childhood comes back in full force, urging and begging him to wrap his arms around you and protect you from each and every horrible thing in this world.
(And, of course, so that he can feel you - your heart beating against his chest, your breaths tickling his hair, your soft body pressing flush against his own, so opposite to his own scarred, calloused skin.)
And so, when you eventually tell him yes after a very, very long period of silence, Sanemi can only nod and chance a glance at you, a small pink rising to his cheeks because fuck, somehow you're even prettier now, like you're practically glowing, like you're practically his - and now, you are.
He's a lot more gentle to you after you accept his proposal - he's always treated you like you're made of glass, but his touches are even more feather-light now, his voice noticeably softer, his eyes noticeably wider when they follow your every move, this shy, boyish smile slotting onto his lips when he sees you humming to yourself or reaching for something on a high shelf or sleeping soundly in what is now your shared bed.
Marriage domesticates him, and while he's still obsessively checking your health and forcing you to report what you did every moment he's not at home with you, he's different. Softer, happier, needier.
Tengen Uzui pops the question early. Extremely early. The idea of marriage is no foreign concept to him - and as his darling, you are also, by default, his wives' darling. And so, while Tengen alone is overwhelming with his flirtations and overprotectiveness, it's something else entirely to have three other people also doting on you, keeping a careful eye on you and making sure you're always, always out of danger's way and never having a moment of privacy to yourself.
And so, while Tengen is the one who actually asks for your hand, all of the wives are dropping hints and not-so-subtly mentioning how things will be once you're an official wife, too. It's always when you're their wife, not if - and they're not shy about it.
Hinatsuru will be standing behind you while you sit at the vanity, brushing her fingers over your hair and smiling down at you, pink sitting high on her cheeks while she tells you that Master Tengen will buy you the most lovely dress for the ceremony, Makio and I have already picked it out. You'll look so very beautiful, though you always do.
Suma will clutch onto your arm and beg you to do her vows first, to tell her that she's pretty and sweet and beautiful and perfect and exactly your type.
Makio will swat your hand away from sweets when she thinks you've had enough, telling you with a pout that you must stay healthy and not grow a stomachache, I saw the ring in Master Tengen's room early this morning and the whole moment will be ruined if you've eaten yourself into illness!
(Of course, you're allowed to have more sweets if she feeds them to you, but this is just a technicality.)
And Tengen himself is even not particularly subtle about the whole ordeal - he'll wrap an arm around you and plant a kiss to the crown of your head, telling you that the proposal will be quite extravagant, I can't wait to see your face!
Marriage has always been an assumed milestone that you will complete with the Uzuis - it's only a matter of time, and even if you say no over and over again, you will end up their spouse, one way or another.
(It's been such an ingrained concept in their minds, of course, that even before they stole you away, more than one night was spent with all four in bed, each imagining you on your wedding night, laying in silk fabrics with four wedding rings glistening on your fingers and your face all twisted up in ecstasy and their names tumbling form your lips like some sort of prayer...)
Mitsuri Kanroji and Obanai Iguro are both partial to the idea of marrying you, but Mitsuri is considerably more likely to make it a reality.
Obanai wants to wed you, to call you both his wives, to share your bed every night and to know that you're his. But there's still lingering fear and self-resentment that bars him from ever actually asking you simply because he thinks he doesn't deserve someone like you. You're utterly perfect - divine in a way that's hard to stomach, as if the air is being sucked out of his lungs every time he so much as glances at you. He's shy, frankly, and afraid to confront his own feelings, and so it's left to Mitsuri to make your marriage a reality.
And oh, she doesn't mind this responsibility at all - marriage plans are happening early on, her brain filled to the brim with ideas of different color schemes, which flowers to use, which songs to play, even which undergarments to have you wear to make undressing you even sweeter.
She's daydreaming about it near constantly, and similarly to Uzui, she's not particularly great at keeping it a secret. She doesn't purposefully blurt out how good you'd look in a particular dress style, but when she sees you, her brain turns to mush and it's like she has no control of her words.
(Or her actions, it seems, because she'll always, always greet you with a hug that's just a bit too long, your body pressed flush and tight against her own in a way that feels too purposeful to be innocent.)
So as their darling, marriage is likely in the cards - but contrary to others on this list, Obanai will persuade Mitsuri to actually take your wishes into considerations as far as decorations or style goes - you get to choose your wedding dress and the food that's served (Mitsuri's only stipulation is that there is a lot), along with most other personal items you wear/interact with.
So from that aspect, marriage actually doesn't sound too bad with them - the only unfortunate portion is that you're marrying your captors, of course, and the vows. They're long and sappy and extremely detailed, sharing facts you weren't previously aware of but really shouldn't surprise you - admittance of stalking you, stealing some of your clothing or personal items, even to sometimes tampering with your food just to make things 'taste better'.
It's hard to stomach and it's things you really already knew in your heart, but it's hard to hear it nonetheless - especially when it's spun in such a way as to sound romantic, as if it's some testament to their love for you - pretend to be wooed, or things will get ugly. And you wouldn't want your wedding night to be forceful and rough, now would you?
And then of course there's the demons, who have a very, very wide variety of opinions regarding the topic of marriage.
For Muzan Kibutsuji, the context in which his obsession developed is extremely key to how he feels about marrying you.
Most likely, you were some human he came into contact with frequently during one of his many false human aliases. He finds you annoying at first, of course, deeming you as horribly pathetic and someone literally not even worthy of his time to consider, but then one day something changes - some small act of kindness or defiance that piques his interest, and suddenly he's finding himself idly thinking of you, noticing you amongst the crowd, recognizing your scent even in crowded spaces.
And he doesn't like it. At all.
It takes him a very long time to navigate his feelings for you - he's intrigued and feels this strange, carnal urge to be around you, but he's also disgusted and angry and irritated that you have this control over him. And so, it's most likely that he won't marry you - the anger and possessiveness he feels for you will likely overwhelm him and lead to him kidnapping you, and once you're stuck with him, under his thumb, what's the point of marrying you?
You're his, the possession of the Demon King - what are you going to do? Run away? Try to fight him? (Some part of him wishes you would, just so he could punish you, just so he could pin you down and see those pretty tears roll down your cheeks, just so that for one solitary moment, you're looking at only him and thinking of only him and seeing only him.)
He doesn't see the point in marrying you if this is the route his obsession takes - the only benefit is making you more complacent, which isn't too much of an issue anyways because Muzan makes it clear from the very beginning that he's in charge.
If you were to catch his attention in another way (say, if he'd chosen to get close to you for a strategic reason - perhaps you're the daughter of some important figure or a powerful merchant), then he'd intend to marry you. It'd been the plan from the beginning, but once he gets to know you and decides that you aren't absolutely abhorrant, the marriage becomes less of a chore and more something that pleases him, because now you're his.
Tied to him, irrevocably his property that no man will ever touch. It quells his possessiveness and strokes his ego, all the while he'll tell that it's your duty to provide your husband with your heart, body, and soul - the smirk that curls onto his lip when he pins you down is hard to miss, as is the way he sneers out show me how devoted you are to your husband.)
Kokushibo is traditional. He's a fan of power structures and order, and while he doesn't necessarily believe that women are weaker (he doesn't respect Daki, but he can admit that she isn't horribly weak), he does believe that women are incomplete without a male partner. It's a sexist view and a product of his left-over human morals from many centuries earlier, but it stands strong in his relationship with you.
Similarly to most other demons, he doesn't really view you as a partner - you're his, his possession, a human that he finds himself oddly fascinated with despite himself. And so, he doesn't really care about your opinion in the matter of marriage - you're his woman, and he'll marry you.
It's about possession, not romance - he's certainly not bound by any laws, but marrying you might get you to realize the extent to which he owns you, the extent to which he's in charge of every aspect of your life. And the traditional values don't simply stop at the idea of marriage - they bleed into marriage as a concept, too.
He has strong opinions about what you should be wearing, how you should be acting, how the ceremony itself should be run. He's a bit domineering, and while he does hold a feeling as close to love as demons can have, it manifests itself mostly as controlling behavior.
He's running the ceremony, essentially, and it's extremely small - you're both in attendance of course, as are his fellow Upper Moons, but that's the extent. It's small, quick, and seamless, and before you know it you'll be back in the small, remote cabin he keeps you in, his form standing in the doorway and the room entirely silent.
He's controlling and doesn't fully view you as a person, but it's in moments of intimacy that just a sliver of his humanity comes crawling through, because no matter how badly he wishes to, he simply can't allow himself to touch you without your approval. He doesn't enjoy the sight of you crying, and he's internally conflicted about what the wedding night should look like. He should be fucking you, claiming you as his in the most primal and natural way a husband can, but you'll start sobbing again, and he doesn't want that. And so, instead, he compromises by simply holding you, his voice monotone as he tells you we can make love, if you'd wish.
It's awfully open-ended, and if you were to take him up on the opportunity, he'd be overjoyed - you'll find yourself waking up the next morning with a new kimono laid out on the bed, a small note written in extremely neat, near-perfect handwriting: a gift for my wife.
He's a bit of a sap, though it's hard to see - he'd never admit, either.
Douma doesn't have any particular desire to marry you, but he is admittedly intrigued by the idea.
It doesn't even cross his mind until one of his followers mentions something offhandedly about when the leader will marry his clearly favorite follower, and it gets him thinking. Marriage seems pointless, really, but humans do seem to like it, and he does like it when you smile and when you look at him all shocked and flustered.
And so, he considers the idea and decides that maybe he should do it - it'll force you to be closer to him, which is never a bad thing, and perhaps it will finally deter all other cult members from getting close to you in any way.
(Not that any of them are currently - they all know that you're Douma's, that you're staunchly off-limits. They know that everyone who approaches you disappears, and while Douma writes it off as a coincidence, it still leaves most people wary of your presence. But still - Douma likes the idea, his possessiveness quelling and his excitement sky-rocketing because it means he'll be all you have, and therefore you'll have to give him all the attention he craves from you.)
He pops the question in a not-at-all romantic setting, but he does gently cup your chin, tilting your head to look at him, those flashy eyes of his sparkling as he asks you whether you'd like to be my wife? He can't help the sigh he lets out at your bashful expression, the sound seeming much, much too high pitched to be normal (mimicking something more akin to a moan), and when you stutter out a y-yes, I would like to, Douma is pleased beyond words. It strokes his ego that you said yes, that you clearly want him, and he's quick to get the preparations rolling.
The wedding is extravagant and honestly way too much, but Douma wants everything to be over the top. The entire cult is in attendance, your dress has a train that drags a few feet behind you, and the flowers are such a vibrant red that it almost looks like they're stained with blood. The ring is simple, surprisingly, and the look in his eye is borderline psychotic as he slips the ring onto your finger.
And when he dips you for your first kiss as a married couple, he'll linger at your ear, sharp teeth grazing the shell as he whispers that you're mine, pretty, so don't run.
Akaza doesn't feel any need to marry you, surprisingly. He's another who has a difficult time rationalizing his feelings for you, simply because his view of humans being weak is difficult to move past.
He does, however, respect women significantly more than the other demons discussed in this post - and not only does he respect you, but he's genuinely the closest to being an absolute simp that a flesh-eating creature can be.
He's a bit rough around the edges and a bit abrasive, but he absolutely spoils you. You're getting high-end clothing and accessories, the best foods he can find in the local villages he slaughters, all kinds of trinkets and things that caught his eye and made him think of you.
He lives to see your smile, feeling this weird sense of accomplishment and self-satisfaction when you're pleased. And so, if you expressed some desire in getting married, Akaza would happily oblige, feeling only the tiniest bit of embarrassment. He's a bit clueless, however, so if you were serious about marriage you'd need to do all the planning. He'll let you dress however you want, whatever decorations and color themes, and he'll even let you choose which forest clearing the ceremony happens in.
(He won't allow you in any human establishments, even if you beg - he can't stand the thought of another person looking at you, and even if the entire village was killed before the ceremony, he's not willing to risk anything ruining the day he wants to be absolutely perfect for you.)
His vows are a bit choppy, the raw emotion on his face difficult to miss, though the words are more disturbing than sweet. There's talk of how he'd kill for you, proclamations of the extent to which he'd go for you - even detailing the murder of a man he'd noticed wash staring at you in a derogatory and objectifying way early on into his obsession when he was stalking you one day.
And when the infamous kiss occurs, he kisses you hard - his tongue is in your mouth and he's dipping you so deeply that your back is fully arched, and he keeps pressing into you harder and harder and harder, as if trying to bridge any little bit of space between you.
He wants you to be happy, and while he's not willing to let you go, he'll (somewhat) accommodate to your desires - so if you want something, just tell him.
(Especially when it comes to your pleasure - your wedding night will be much, much smoother if you guide him through your pleasure. After all, he'll do absolutely anything you want if it means seeing you pretty face when you come for him.)
Gyuutaro harbors a surprising amount of romantic fantasies between you and him. Of course, he'd never admit it, but he's frequently daydreamed about marrying you. Even during his human years, marriage wasn't too prevalent in the area he grew up.
(He's very familiar with sex and companionship work, but marriage? Not so much.)
Even so, he understands that marriage is the ultimate sign of love in the human world, and as his obsession with you grows deeper and stronger, so too do his fantasies of living through every human milestone of a happy relationship. He wants it so very badly; he wants you to want him, to love him and cherish him in a way that makes him scratch at his neck and warble on about how he's too ugly to be loved.
He wants you to want him - and so, after a few years of being stuck under his thumb, slowly letting the Stockholm Syndrome build and shatter your concept of reality, he'll pop the question. It's harsh and defensive, as if he's absolutely convinced you'll say no even before he's asked - his voice is sharp and whiny as he asks you if you'd like to marry a monster like me? What do you say, eh? Could you stomach marrying something so disgusting and ugly as me?
It's disguised as a self-deprecating comment, but the way he waits on edge for your response will tell you that he's very, very interested in your answer. Every muscle in his body is taut and tight, tension eating away at his stomach because oh god he's nervous, even as embarrassing as it is to admit.
If you say no he'll close himself off, berating you and telling you that you're judgmental, that you're no different from the hundreds of humans who only care about looks and beauty. His words are cruel and harsh and they hurt, but he doesn't mean them - he's just lashing out because he's hurt and doesn't know how else to express his pain.
But oh, if you say yes? Well, Gyuutaro's suddenly scratching himself hard, finding it difficult to maintain eye contact with you, a flustered feeling rising up his throat and nearly making him sick because god, is this what acceptance and love feel like?
The wedding itself is a bit half-assed, though he tried it best - his tastes are built upon the very little he knows about human weddings. But despite the fact that everything is a little dirty and the dress you're wearing doesn't fit you correctly, there's something about the way Gyutaro's hands are shaking as he hands you the ring that's almost, almost endearing - he resembles a shy, awkward boy rather than the man-eating captor he actually is.
And that night, he'll spend hours worshipping your body, pouring over every detail and scar and mole and committing it all to memory - committing you to memory, though he really doesn't need to because he'll be turning you into a demon soon so that you never leave him.
But still, it's the principle - and when he fucks you, with a voice that's especially high and a pace that's sloppy at best, you'll be able to feel what your marriage means to him - the way he moans when he sees the ring on your finger tells you as much.
So anon, long story short: they all feel a little different, but most are happy to marry you. It's a product of the time, yes, but also just another way to bind you to them - something they will not pass up.
So who would you marry? Choose carefully - because once you say 'I do', you're absolutely trapped.
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