TW: Self M3anSp0

Maybe if i was skinnier he’d want to f🔱ck me more. I mean it would make sense. He says he likes the “pudge” but ig its only in a cute way. No one would find that sexy. Besides my face is getting fat again I must look unf🔱ckable in a bunch of angles he sees me in. I kind of almost feel bad for him. He’s in a position where he could be f🔱cking all the time, he sleeps over, no ones ever home…the opportunity is there but his girlfriend is literally not attractive enough to get him h0rny. If he knew I felt this way he would probably feel so bad so I have to hide that I’m starving myself. This way when my cheekbones are more prominent and my waist is thinner he finds it attractive and not sad. I’ve done this before so it shouldn’t hurt so bad food will exist once I’m attractive again. I was upset at him before but the problem is me. I look f🔱cking disgusting

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🎀 Hand B0dy Ch3cks

🎀 //TW: progress pics.// Me at my SW vs me now. (40lbs down)

🎀 I have the perfect motive to ⭐️ve now…its all aligning.

🎀 Update: I started vaping and omg it suppresses the hunger so good. Im back down at my lw and it’s only been a few days

🎀 Im so genuinely mad at myself. I would’ve been so much closer to my gw if I didn’t get into a gym phase and let my bsf convince me I needed to eat. So much progress gone to waste.

🎀 I’m back guy

I’ve been eating and not working out as much because of work but I’m back in this mindset again, however bad that might be for my mental health. This is the only way I can escape from what’s happening. I’ll update my status when i way myself tmrw. I’ve missed this.

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🎀 So I am going to another concert September 11. I bought a really cute outfit and I absolutely need to looks good. Hopefully I can loose enough weight to look good :/

Hi, may I ask how tall you are?

🎀 Hey :) I’m 5’5

🎀My hands at my lw. Brb crying

🎀 //TW: progress pics.// Me at my SW vs me now.

🎀 Just a little update.

I was eating normally for about a week. Not working out either because I had a really traumatic event happen.

But I think I am back on track. I’m motivated and I started going to the gym and doing 900+ cal workouts. Hopefully I see results soon.

I hope you’re doing well :)

🎀 I’m trying so hard not to fcking binge right now.

🎀 Alright.

<<This is the plan to get out of my pl4teau>>

F4sts for as long as possible.

Only thing I can consume after ending the f4sts is cereal or my protein bars.

Daily walks per usual. 5k min.

Daily dance session.

Burn at least 400c4l a day.

2 water bottles a day.

Min 5hrs sleeping a day.

Sublimin4ls.

Distract from pangs by playing games.

This will go on until I am under 140.

CW: ~154. I will make updates on my account.

Updated: 148

🎀 Nothing seems to work anymore…why?