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Dark night of the soul.

I’m at the end of my tether. Blessed with a new day. Feeling like bad weather . I want my heart to be light as a feather. But it’s heavy like a rock. Sinks to the bottom of my stomach like a cock. burning down my chest Heated. Curl into a ball like I’m pregnant with my demons. Crying till I’m dry heaving. Lost my Fukin mind. I Don’t know what else to believe in. Feeling devoured like a feast. In the belly of the beast Drowning in the pain inside of me. Written all over my veins. Scripted all over my thoughts. Like I’m drowning in my blood. like they never showed me love. Can’t stop the tears they flood. Just want a release. Broken into pieces tryna find some peace , From my resentments . I tried so hard to repent this. Why can’t I just forget this. I dont wanna represent this. Suicidal thoughts got me tempted. But I can’t forget this one thing. If I live I will regret what I did... If I die it will all be so fine. but I won’t be able to write the end to her story. With out having succumb to these conclusions. Without ever feeling my glory. Abused by the memories and bound by delusions. Gone with no good byes alone in seclusion. Need to come to a resolution. Be my own hero Grow to a hundred% from a zero.

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDd6xcWjwd0)

Cree.ikuko Murdered it sinful shit is so sinful

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Immaculate conception

your soul wouldn't have a rainbow if your eyes didn't have tears

God wants persons not puppets be yourself, you're completely beautifully individualized.  just play your role , you're needed right where you're at , not every one can play the same role

i  forgot fire tho

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and I'm not here to boost your ego.

WOMEN’S MARCH 2017

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Sleeping  star waking up every day living a bad dream didn't think she was beautiful No self-esteem   it all started at 13 Lost connection to the girl looking into her rejection filled reflection hated her complexion hated how her hair coiled in different directions Tv suggesting she was an error needing correction Love felt like something so far told herself its not where you are and she believed it. in her mirror she could never see it. she hated herself society told her all these things making it hard to love her cells.. unless she looked like someone else Delicate flower too sensitive for this soil withered away into the abyss of a black hole trying to fill the void wrap her petals around these boys made her self an object of affection thinking the attention would make her feel accepted but all they were was tempted to touch they didn't give a fuck the pain made her numb so it was the only way she felt her heart pump looking for life in these dead connections running further and further in the wrong direction. running from her reflection into the arms of a face who seemed more accepting running, further into deception her mind was decorated with darkness hurtful words burned scars in the breaks of her heart kids can be heartless She felt it was a crime to be alive trapped in her body like she was doing time losing her mind her skin was a prison cell her world was a living hell. She drowned in wishing well Thoughts abused with language body vandalized with self harm Cried so many tears they left her cheeks scarred Suffering in silence from her minds violence the pain moved its way down her heart ,carved its way thru her arms Bloody pearls filled the white tears in her skin before the scars.   all she wanted was to be a star never thought then she could ever go far Never thought then she even deserved to live. she was just a kid with her whole life to live and at 16 she thought she made the final cut so much blood lost fear clutched her gut. But God had other plans She survived her self no stitches or a therapy plan. She just turned 23 and after years of searching despite all the darkness  found an inner light that filled all the spaces in her breaking heart and let it shine thru she learned she’s worth more than worth itself pure love the essence of her very cells. 

learned she is stronger than the pain is ever painful found her power like duracell creating her life she is the designer

opened her heart spread her wings past her winged liner 

on a high riser looking to the horizon at the silver lining in the tide where blue meets blue she lives where dreams do come true 

the more love in her body the less harm she can do she’s no longer afraid the darkness is her stage Beneath the black vastness and the stars the moon lights the way and when the night turns to day her scars turn to gold when held to the sun she wears them like jewelry they were bought with her blood. she now lives in LOVE

The story of life is quicker then the blink of an eye, the story of love is hello, goodbye.

I'm the one that has to die when it's time for me to die, so let me live my life, the way I want to.