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31.08.2023
πOmw to gwπ
I didn't went on my morning walk because I felt weak and im kinda disapointed in myself, but I don't want to be harsh on myslelf either. I didn't kept my promise and I haven't fasted for 24 hours, just 22. Ik its not a big deal but kinda hoped for a better day.
Here is cute dealz haul and my first meal: diet protein pancakes and plain protein yogurt. Also had apple and piece of chocolate off stage.
At 4 pm i had diner with was one of these skinny bars and diet coke.
Total calories: 450
Last minute news: i binged :(((
Total calories: 705
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Feeling weak af, but it's just 4,5 hours till end of fast. Not eating for little more won't kill me. I deserve to starve. I deserve to happy and pretty. Why do I even want food if there is so much food my body can consume itsefl; it's 8 kilos of dirty fat that makes you look so cheap and easy. Makes you look like wh0r3. Fat is making you so fvckabl3, thats why all of these creeps stare at you like you were naked...
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30.08
Not the best day, but it's ok...
Okay so I fasted for 21 hours, and first thing i had was this protein shake (245) and snack plate (75). This shake used to help me when I was recovering, like an extreme hunger killer, but I feel weak even after this...
And I know I suppose to ignore weakness but I didn't wanted to be just on 300 cals for the rest of the day. I had plain protein yogurt (93) with two apples (125).
Total calories: around 550
Tomorow I will try to end fast after 24 hours and also do some pilates AND take picture of everything i eat. I find comfort in my tumblr diary so I actually find it important to make sure i show everything I eat. (But not when it's too ugly).
Not to vent so much but I feel dirty. I feel i ate too much, like those stupid two apples were unnessary. They just make my insulin spike and I ate them wayyyy to fast. They were not even filling... I need to be more disciplined. I need to think before I eat, espesially when I don't need food because my body has enough fuel from all this fat.
Fasting is such a relief. Finally feeling calm and peaceful, finally feeling how I was created by God to feel like. Because peace is true nature of humans. Binging on the other hand is what makes me angry at life, miserable. Fat and ugly, weak, pathetic. I need to help myself on my own. No one else will help me. Im the only person who can make me happy. And I will make myself happy. By achieving my goals and loosing weight, because i can't even express how much life is better when im skinny.
πtoday in my journal i writed how grateful im am for loosing two kilos, and when I step on the scale... I saw number two kilos lower than usual. Im so grateful and happy. I think im finally on right path.π
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28.08.2023
π₯¦Another good dayπ₯¦
I broke my 24 hour fast with protein yogurts today, and some berries and few nuts. β€
Later i also had banana. Lunch was 1/4 of boiled chicken breast with broccoli (didn't took picture because it was ugly) but I had just few bites and gave it to my mom, so im not very sure how many cals I had today. Let's just say i had around 450? ^^
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Daily weight loss motivation
Manga name: "In Clothes Called Fat" by Anno Moyoco
Good luck, you got this!
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Water is good
Water will fill
Water will be your best friend
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28.08.2023
πFinally had a perfect, skinny day!π
It's been ages since i've felt so calm and happy. I was stuffing my face like cow lately so I need to build a routine.
Woke up, did my skincare, wrote in my journal and went for long walk. Weather finally was tempting me to go outside. I hate this hard sun in summer, it feels like it drains out my energy, but today's been wonderful. Thick, heavy clouds covered the grey sky, when temperature remained warm. Wind was cold and refreshing.
Broke my 21 hour fast with two eggs and light mozzarellla slices. Also, got some blueberries for dessert. Took my supplements and vitamins, finally.
Im done with eating for today. :)
Total calories: 400
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#tw ana shit#ed vent#vent post#i wanna be weightless#tw ed diet#tw disordered eating#bulim14#bulimima
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I was pigging before i went to work today. Im sick of it. At least 2300 calories today, im so disapointed I dont want to count them. Sick of bread im so fricking addicted to. It's just a quick dopamine rush that makes me gain so much weight. Makes me feel so miserable, ugly and weak.
I want to change so much. I know I have so much potential, i remember how pretty I was when I was skinny, face of an angel, so calm, kind, everyone treated me better.
Food addiction took so much away... I used to be an artist... I painted, drew, sculp and sometimes even write novels. Now, when im so weak... I have no passion for any of these. I literally i hate all of these.
But food is something I hate more. I hate losing control, going to bed feeling like pig, hated by everyone, because im so insecure about my puffy face and big body.
I made promise to myslef: Im not gona purge ever again. I don't want to destroy my health and teeth. I dont want to spend all money i saved to repair all the damage stomach acid did in my mouth. Even if im gonna gain weight, fine. Im not gonna do it.
And after so many months of purging, i didn't do it.
To be honest im not proud of myself. I ate like cow so there is nothig to be proud of but there is change. In change, there is light.
So im gonna go towards the light.
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