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Yeah you're right. It WOULD be pretty fucked up if you were a swan but you were raised by ducks and you grew up never seeing another swan or even knowing that such a thing as a swan even existed so you just thought you were a duck with something super wrong with it.
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I see a lot of posts saying "teach boys about consent".
While that is true, a lot of parents will do that and fail to see how their own actions are the problem.
If you've spanked him, he's less likely to understand consent.
If you've forced him to sit on Santa's lap, he's less likely to understand consent.
If you've forced him to give hugs and kisses to family members, he's less likely to understand consent.
If you've grabbed him in order to force him to sit still, he's less likely to understand consent.
If you've labeled him as "too sensitive" for not wanting to be touched, he's less likely to understand consent.
If you've assumed he's okay with something because he technically allowed it even though he felt pressured, he's less likely to understand consent.
If you're only going to criticize his actions but not your own, it won't work.
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hot artists don't gatekeep
I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard
Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.
Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.
Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.
Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.
SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.
SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.
Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.
Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.
Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.
Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.
Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.
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i think it's great when someone tries to pull off a tragic self-sacrifice in a story and there's at least one guy who's just like "no this is fucking stupid actually. you're an idiot." about it. because it kind of is. i love a good tragedy but let's be honest with ourselves if a friend tried to indulge a noble sacrifice fantasy would you not be a little annoyed. like come on man.
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i refused to stay buried because i love you why are you running
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slightly important life update:
i’ve been letting a 1930s italian american mobster guy take refuge with me after he fell through a time portal rift. for about a year now. he can’t go back to his time period because who knows what would happen. it sounds really sad but like he doesn’t have a family and he was in a gang so like. he’s okay with it and pretty amazed by iPhones he’s happy to be here. i’ve been giving him catch-up lessons in pop culture and trying to get him up-to-speed to absolve any bigotry. he was actually very cool about race stuff but he doesn’t like protestants at ALL. any other religion is fine though, he says “they got themselves a different God, bless their souls” which is kind of dicey but, for the circumstances, it’s fine
i told him he’s probably gonna have to catch up on all this lgbt shit and that i was gay and he was like “HEY! OH! WATCH IT PAL!” and called me an italian term i’d rather not repeat but he pretty quickly apologized because i think he thinks i own some sort of ray gun blaster thing. i’m not sure how much sci-fi a mob goon in new york in the thirties was exposed to so it’s hard to pinpoint his frame of reference for future shit
anyways, he’s been practicing typing on a desktop computer. he likes playing fruit ninja on iphone but that’s about as far as he gets with it. he’s been working out a lot and showing me how to do a workout called “jailbird curls” but it’s like, kinesthetically speaking, extremely inefficient and strenuous and definitely informed by the antiquated idea that the more a workout hurts the more you beef up. so like he’s coming around on modern society and he figured out how to zip files and so he zipped one and labeled it PRIVATE and doesn’t realize i can just read whatever .doc he saves there it’s a bit long but this was his most recent journal
2022 OH MARONE STOP
DA NEW CAPO GAVE ME SOME OF DAT EYEPI AYE BEER AND WE GOT FUCKIN BLOTTO AND COOLED FACEDOWN ON DA FLOOR SOMETHING FIERCE STOP
YOU PACK THAT MUCH HOOCH IN STATEN ISLAND BACK IN MY DAY THEY GONNA FRY YOU FOR IT STOP
DA NEW CAPO IS A BIT OF A YA KNOW IT STARTS WIT A FA AND RHYMES WITH BANOOK IF YOU CATCH MY DRIFT BUT MAMA DIDNT RAISE NO INGRATE SOS I LISTENS TO HIM SEE STOP
HE SAYS TO ME HE SAYS DAT THESE DAYS FOLKS ARE MAKIN WHOOPE EVERY WHICHAWAY SOS HE GIVES ME DA LOWDOWN STOP
BROADS KNOCK BOOTS WIT BROADS STOP
GUYS MAKE IT WIT GUYS STOP
SOME GUYS EVEN MAKES IT WIT DOLLS AND FELLAS ALIKE STOP
SOME JANES USED TO BE A JOHN AND SOME JOHNS USED TO BE A JANE IF YOU KNOW WHAT IM SAYIN LIKE WHAT I READ IN DA PAPER ABOUT THEM SOIGENS IN BERLIN STOP
DIS SOIGERY BUSINESS IS A MIRACLE THEY MAKE EM UP GOOD AS NEW REAL KEEN TOO I REMEMBER SOIGERY BACK IN MY DAY YOU GET CLIPPED WITH A TOMMY IN DA WOIM FUGGEDABOUT GOOD AS DEAD STOP
THESE DAYS DEY SET YA UP WITH A NEW ONE MADE OUT OF SKIN FROM YOUR GAMS I SHIT YOU NOT STOP
GUYS ARE GETTIN MARRIED TO OTHER GUYS AND NOWS I THINK ABOUT IT I COULDA PULLED ONE HELLUVA RACKET IN MARRIAGE COITIFICETS FOR ANY GOOMBAH WHO WANTED TO HITCH UP I SURE AS HELL DID WORSE STOP
so yeah it’s kind of unclear if he thinks this is like a private journal or telegrams both of which are kind of irresponsible forms of record keeping/correspondence for a mob guy but i gather he wasn’t that smart before he fell in the time portal either
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i don’t think mordecai and rigby were ever gay for each other but i do think many times rigby would be like dude if i was a girl would you want to fuck me and mordecai is like dude that’s weird. no. and rigby is all bent out of shape about it and in the middle of the night when they’re both trying to sleep he’s like why wouldn’t you fuck me if i was a girl. i’m cute right? or am i ugly and that’s why i’m single… and mordecai is like fine whatever i’d fuck girl you. stop bringing it up now. & the next day rigby is like fuck off muscle man i’m not ugly mordecai said he’d fuck girl me & then a portal opens to an alternate dimension where they’re genderbent like that adventure time episode and the voice of god is like mordecai you must make good on your word. fuck girl rigby.
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Wings anyone?
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I talk to many people who say things like "oh I have trauma but I don't have PTSD", but then when I talk to them a little more I realize that they most likely do, they just can't recognize it as such due to how lacking PTSD awareness is, even beyond the whole "it's not just a veteran's disorder" thing.
The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.
In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.
"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.
"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.
"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.
"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.
Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.
PTSD awareness is not just about flashbacks and nightmares.
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does anyone know if we have joy and whimsy tomorrow
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This is a friendly reminder to never, ever publish your book with a publishing company that charges you to publish with them. That is a vanity press, which makes money by preying on authors. They charge you for editing, formatting, cover art, and more. With most of these companies, you will never seen a cent of any royalties made from sale of your book. A legitimate publishing company only makes money when you make money, they will never charge you to publish with them. If a company approaches you and says "Hey, we'll publish your book, just pay us X amount of money," tell them to go fuck themself and block them.
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A boy can dream, can't he?
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Your posts are in an AI model
and then Tumblr decided to sell them to AI models.
Now, don't get me wrong, tumblr selling out the users to AI companies is bad, yes, they shouldn't do that. It sucks.
but don't lets get this confused: your posts were already in there. Tumblr selling them is about tumblr making some money and about the AI models having more exhaustive post collections. It's not about your posts being in an AI model, vs not being in one. That battle has already been lost.
Can you find your post on google? Then it's almost certainly in an AI model already. Think about it: These AI sites showed up before all the sites were making deals to sell their users' content, right? How do you think they built them in the first place?
They scraped the posts. Just like google and bing and such do when they build their search indexes.
It's a fundamental part of how the open web works: you want your posts on tumblr to be visible to users, right? You want them to be readable?* Like, look how much stuff broke when twitter changed their whole read-while-not-logged-in policy, ruining a bunch of thread links/NSFW links. And if it's visible, it's scrapable. That's what the AI models were built on.
I've done website scraping before (not for AI models, of course. I was doing search engines and website archival), this is just how it works. You hire a few relatively smart CS graduates and tell them "build me a scraper that'll give us a bunch of tumblr posts" and they go off for a month or two and come back with a database of a few billion posts, and you stuff that into your AI model. That's how they got all the deviantart and flickr and twitter and pinterest and so on posts. They didn't pay for them: they just took them.
They only ever pay for this shit because either:
they fucked up in such a way that the site might be able to sue them for taking rather than paying
They can buy them cheaper than they can finish taking them. Maybe they'd need to pay the CS grads for an extra month? well, that might be more expensive than just throwing the site a couple hundred thousand bucks.
ANYWAY: my point is, don't treat this "oh no tumblr is selling our posts to AI" like it's a big thing that might happen and it would be bad to happen. Yes, it's bad, tumblr shouldn't do this, this'll let AI models get continual updates of content for far easier than just scraping them would be, tumblr betrayed user trust, and so on...
but realistically, this is not a black and white matter of "if only tumblr didn't do this, then we'd be safe from AI models!"
Nope. We already lost that battle. I'm sorry, and it does suck, but that's just how it is. The avalanche has already started, it's too late for the pebbles to vote.
* I'm assuming here that you don't run a private blog that's set to only followers or something. You'd be safer then, of course, but you're not really my target audience for this rant
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