while you keep saying “ill start tomorrow” someone else reached their gw today

I know I shouldn't say this, but I was happy when I didn't have my period, and I was only eating a meal a day. Now I am fat, and with long periods, I hate it. 😑

naver blog ☆ behind the scenes of strange days

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Finally! Here’s my contribution to the Valor Anthology, “Bride of the Rose Beast”. Valor is a book I’m still so happy and honored to be a part of, and you can still get the 300+ page ebook HERE for $5! Enjoy!

Well, I did it.

I gave up giving it for free.

sweet recipes i found on pinterest

Relapse?

I'm sad, again. I am worrying about that number on the scale again. I am hearing that voice telling me "let's go walk 30000 steps or are you lazy?". I am searching and printing workouts and diets again. I hate that I cannot fit into that dress again. I am 33 kg over the weight I want. How do lose it?

I am skipping meals again. If I have lunch I cannot have dinner.

If I am alone why should I eat, I am that weak for food? I am still thinking about that slice of pizza I ate three days ago. I am thinking about that chocolate I ate yesterday. Am I trying to lose weight or gain it?

I hate myself.

I am wearing skirts to try to love my legs that I wanted to cut not that many years ago. Still wanna do it. Nobody will see what I am doing.

I don't want to go there again. Or do I?

You can only reblog this today.

“When you die, trust me, the most difficult person to leave behind is yourself.”

— Chuck Palahniuk, Doomed

You and I, we don't wanna be like them We can make it 'til the end #youandi #1D #onedirection #Montserrat #hiking #sunnyday #sun #bffgoals https://www.instagram.com/p/CnMcERSqAR7/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

✨sad person hours✨

me trying to enjoy something: ☻

my brain: you can’t enjoy this because you aren’t skinny

me: ☹

Nijiro Murakami as Shuntaro Chishiya Alice in Borderland, 2022 S02E03

1/1/2023 - 03.26

254 days after the breakup

1st day of 2023

I want to leave all the good and bad memories of him in 2022. I know, everyone says that you should leave only the bad things but I leave the good memories too because makes me think that It's not gonna happen again, that feeling of happiness that I felt, that genuine love that I believe was true. I leave them all behind because I want to be a blank paper this year without the knowledge of knowing how true love feels or that I thought that was true love. This year I want to feel self-love and stop relying on other people to feel that. I want to stop searching for the one and the stupid stories that I create in my mind. I am gonna finish this course and find a job to get me out of debt and finally can have a trip wherever I want with my best friend. I promise to not spend more money on stupid stuff that I am not gonna use and try to get a better relationship with food and not starve myself just because I like the feeling of hunger.

I wish health and success for everyone around me because they deserve it and I'm sure of it.