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Field Notes on Healing: Emotional Self-Awareness

Written on October 29th, 2022

It upsets me how I catch myself sometimes wanting to project my pain and trauma unto others just because it's easier to do so. The concept of "pagsusumbat/panunumbat" can often come up during arguments when I could easily upbraid or criticize the other party for the sake of proving a point. I admit this still happens and I'm not proud of it but it's still best to recognize that this is a toxic habit that must be changed.

Even after consuming a bunch of material about healing or spirituality, I am easily still tempted to be reactive especially when the wound cuts deep. My Higher Self knows that my feelings are always valid but I can also recognize the capacity to detach myself from my heightened emotions and see situations from a bigger and broader perspective. This is where emotional self-awareness comes in.

Currently, whenever I'm faced with these intense emotions I ask myself these questions:

What emotion am I feeling?

Why am I feeling this way?

Am I feeling this way because of the current situation or am I projecting a past hurt?

If so, how can I approach this situation better?

Also, how can I heal my inner wounds so I won't react this way again?

Healing, contrary to the media's portrayal of it, is not all "love and light". Most of the time, it's sitting with your feelings and ugly crying on the bed at 3AM while tightly hugging your favorite pillow (or stuffed toy in my case) or perhaps journaling your way through it. The only way is to navigate these sacred feelings and honor them without resorting to inflicting the same wounds on the self or others. In other words, the cycle must end with The Self.

Recognizing the seed of our trauma means going through memories we choose to shut off normally because we're too afraid to confront our shadows. It's about admitting our own red flags in the way we think or act and choosing to take accountability for it. Removing the victim mindset is essential also in this process. That's shadow work. There's no shortcut to healing except to traverse the waters of our emotions and find clarity within.

If you're interested in deep diving into this topic, listen to "How to be Self-Aware" (Oct 2021), a podcast episode by How to Build a Happy Life hosted by Arthur Brooks of The Atlantic.

How about you? How do you handle intense emotions?

#healing #emotional healing #self growth #shadow work #spiritual journey #mental health #emotional health #The Atlantic #self awareness #Spotify

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Tunes to get you by this cozy day 🌧🧸

Dingaling by Greentea Peng

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Temptation by JOEY BADA$$

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Bayou by ((( O )))

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After the Storm (Pete Rock Remix) by Kali Uchis, Tyler, the Creator, Bootsy Collins, & Pete Rock

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CYANIDE by Daniel Ceasar

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D'Evils by SiR

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Vibin' Out by FKJ & ((( O )))

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God is Fair, Sexy Nasty by Mac Miller feat. Kendrick Lamar

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The Count by Currensy feat. Wiz Khalifa

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E. Coli by The Alchemist feat. Earl Sweatshirt

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#greentea peng #joey bada$$#((( O )))#mac miller #kendrick lamar #kali uchis #tyler the creator #daniel ceasar #SiR #curren$y #wiz khalifa #the alchemist #earl sweatshirt #Youtube

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Field Notes on Learning #01: The Creative Process

Kumusta Kaibigan?

This is my blogging era redux, sans the oversharing. However, I'm still an advocate for sharing abundant knowledge. What better way to launch this blog than to freely share information that has touched my life in various ways?

This shortlist is highly inspired by Austin Kleon's newsletter which I religiously study in my free time. Plus, having heavy Gemini placements in my natal chart, particularly with mercury in it, makes writing and sharing ideas, observations, and realizations super healing for me.

There's no particular theme to this list. Just take what you need from this it to help you help yourself. Leave the rest for the others to enjoy.

Word of the Day: Vacillate. Adding new words to my vocabulary regularly is a great exercise to improve the way I express myself whether through speaking or writing. Here's one I learned recently:

2. As a creative, it is important to regularly ask yourself "Who Do You Make Art For?" In this podcast episode (Sep 2021) by Father Bronques of Make Art Not Content, he enumerates three major stages that creatives find themselves in when asking this question. Whatever your answer may be, they're totally valid.

3 Major Stages:

First (1st) Stage: Art for Self-Expression

Second (2nd) Stage: Art for Others

Third (3rd) Stage: Art for Uplifting a Target Audience

The third stage is the completion of this cycle. As creatives, we eventually go back to creating art for ourselves but with a more meaningful purpose and audience in mind. Having this mindset allows us to have a clearer direction in regard to our creative process.

3. An excerpt from the book I'm currently reading entitled "Be Not Afraid of Love: Lessons on Fear, Intimacy, and Connection" (2022) by Mimi Zhu:

"Rage is sacred and should be honored when expressed; honoring the rage means understanding it as an emotion, not a call to be violent or hurtful."

4. The other day ago I stumbled upon Yumi Sakugawa's Instagram post on "Inspiration for Creating Structure and Systems for Your Creative Practice". It emphasizes the importance of setting the ideal space, habits, and mindset to cultivate one's creativity with a sense of discipline but not restricting the creativity itself. By having healthy boundaries, we are able to maximize our fullest potential.

5. If you're into adult cartoons, a female lead, and conspiracy theories, I highly recommend watching Inside Job (2021) on Netflix. It's very fun and refreshing to watch, and maybe a tad bit relatable if you're the eldest/only daughter or if you have daddy issues. Just recently, they've released Part 2 so I'm excited to binge on this series!.

6. Today, December 3rd, marks Neptune going direct in Pisces, a major transit in astrology. Neptune, which is a generational planet, rules the sign of Pisces. It represents spirituality and the subconscious realms, particularly our intuition, illusions, and dreams. Finally ending its retrograde, the fogginess we've been experiencing since June will transform into clarity especially when it comes to our relationship with spirituality. This major astrological event allows us to focus this spiritual clarity outwards.

Thank you for reading! Till the next. 🌸🧠

#Austin Kleon #Father Bronques #Make Art Not Content #Mimi Zhu #creativity #creative process #Inside Job #emotions #astrology #emotional healing #neptune in pisces

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