how to grow the fuck up

i had a dream that my mom was force feeding me brownies and i purged them in a public trashcan

EEEEEE total today is 89 cals!!

5pm and i still havent eaten woohoo. im making pizza for dinner tho which is... idk. but im allowed to make it myself so yhats good

remember when i was 43kg

copped ashwagandha again,, lets see if that shit works

good morning🫶

me and L barely speak anymore though we still get drunk tgt occasionally,, not sure how tk feel abt that. im also in therapy now which is hmmm mixed thoughts. my therapist is super kind and stuff but she wants to hook me up w a dietitian which is just ugh yk??

update on life tho!! i graduated high school and im now taking a gap year. currently looking for some jobs but im pretty sure im gonna get hired by this one job in between now and like a week. means more time away from home means more fasting WOOOO

should probably redo my intro but im too lazy rn

when i was recovering the only thing stopping me from relapsing was my boobs tbh. but then i saw that i went from 48kg to 55kg and i had an error in my head and now im restricting again🤭 its been abt a week and im already down to 53kg so thats good?

sooo its been a while but !! im back omgomg. i relapsed sooo hard and tumblr is lowkey more fun than twitter SO I'll be girlblogging on here again !!

just wanted to come back to say that i failed my exams xx

finally did a long fast again but only bc i got kicked out xx

why is everyone following me now that im barely active anymore

hi baddies, how r u guys?

hi everyone!! im barely active here anymore and moved to twitter a while ago. im much more active there and its way more motivating than tumblr for me. follow me there if u want!! @/b0nywh0res ofc