As always, a chaotic hodgepodge. I write fanfic [Drarry, LevixOC - really anyone xOC, Reader Inserts], read fanfic, write original works. I make soap, bake, cook (I'm a line cook), sharing music is my love language...
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Hello, crab fans. Wow, you have been having a busy time! On July 29, also known as Crabs Day, you took to TumblrMart to give the gift of crabs to your pals. And boy, did we noticeânot just all the great crab memes and trending posts on the day but also the burst in sales which made up a substantial financial boost to the running costs at Tumblr. And it truly took our breath away. Â
We got so excited we went back to the drawing board and designed some crab checkmarks, which we teased by dressing your regular checkmarks up as crabs on the day. On August 1, we launched a regular little crab checkmark and a rainbow crab checkmark for gifting and treating yourselves.
Here are some stats from Crabs Day:
You gifted 8k crabs that day. Thatâs an almost 20k% increase in crab sales.
We saw a more than 7k% increase in total Tumblrmart sales.
All this money goes straight back into running costsâsuch as a monthâs worth of power costs for Tumblr application servers. Thatâs all you! Youâre doing that! Youâre keeping Tumblr around with your generosity toward your friends. Crabs be thanking ye â¤
all your stuffed animals love you. they're not sad if they're in a box, or on the floor, or not held/played with as much. they understand. they know that you might need another stuffie more, or that you don't have enough space. they're just happy to be with you, and if you ever give them away, they'll be happy there too. stuffies are for comfort. they understand. they love you too. it's okay.
Sometimes people use ârespectâ to mean âtreating someone like a personâ and sometimes they use ârespectâ to mean âtreating someone like an authorityâ
and sometimes people who are used to being treated like an authority say âif you wonât respect me I wonât respect youâ and they mean âif you wonât treat me like an authority I wonât treat you like a personâ
and they think theyâre being fair but they arenât, and itâs not okay.
sometimes i think about gay people who lived centuries ago who thought they were all alone who imagined a world where they could live openly as themselves who met in secret spoke in code defied everything and everyone just to exist and iâm like..i gotta sit down. whew i gotta sit down
Me. I do things, make things, give gifts, sit in the silence. I'm not great at words - speaking wise. offline. I don't say 'I love you' often enough. But I show it as often as I can.
Did you eat? (I love you) I bought the bread you like (I love you) I noticed you were upset so I brought you tea (I love you) I made this for you (I love you) I know you have a lot of work and can't talk now so I will leave this thing you like around (I love you) I did your chores (I love you) I will sit by in case you need anything (I love you. I love you. I love you)
I'll take that chance. I'm moving 1500 miles from the only home I've known & could use the luck to get a good job with a thriving wage so I can... thrive, not just live, not just survive. I'm so fucking tired of just trying to survive.
so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god
Not me having to Google all kindsa tumblr fandom terms bc I don't know what they mean anymore, lmao. [ie: proshipper/anti, f/o, etc]
Me, myself & I have not been on this app since... uh. 2008-10. And my experience of fanfic/fanworks is to just... enjoy & let others enjoy their things? Kinda like not hating on what books people read (so long as the purchase of them doesn't give money to people using that money to hurt particular marginalized communities) offline bc everyone has dif tastes. Idk.
Life is hard enough already without a buncha discourse over how someone enjoys fanworks, lmao.
It's been a rough week. This is pretty much my multi-repeats lately.
"I'm not done learning how to be proud of who I am..." - Ryan Nealon, Bring You Home.
Yeah. I'm proud, outwardly, of where I've made it to. Teen me would be amazed we're still alive let alone everything else. But who I am... label wise... it's hard to be proud when so many people think you're unnatural, when there are politicians whose platforms are almost entirely about eradicating people like you, when telling someone who has loved you your entire life could lead to them not wanting you in their life anymore.
I'm proud that I exist, that I've survived, that I know who I am (because that's a battle in itself). I'm proud of my accomplishments over the years and all I've been able to do just in the last 5 months. But I'm still figuring out how to be proud of my transness, outside of Pride Month when I'm surrounded by lovely people on all sides, and my queerness. Because it's hard to be proud of something when, at present, being it threatens your very life strictly because some people don't understand and won't take time to attempt to. & I'm so glad someone put that part into words - into song. (I can't wait til his song Feel Good comes out - it's about body dysmorphia & it is *chef's kiss*)
Ryan Cassata's song below has been my comfort this week & I think a lot of the younger trans peeps on here could take some comfort in this too - hold on, you belong. We'll make it through this, our elders have before us. It'll be hard but we got this. - and I will fight for your future, even if I won't see the results myself. Because the future generations deserve lives that are less of a struggle than ours are/were. I truly believe that should always be the goal - a better future.
I don't remember where I was going with this originally but hey. Music & some after-work thoughts.
And will that energy ever come back? I have more ideas (but the words are just not there)!
do you ever reread your own work and have no recollection of ever writing such sentences. when did i write this? how did i come up with it? where is that energy now?
My list of comfort songs is as chaotic as everything else in my life. Is this because I am The Void? Everything's just a chaotic hodgepodge?
----I would post the link to the playlist but this particular one is private. 𤡠curious what y'all's comfort songs are. Do you have comfort songs? I'd love to hear about them.