“ what is essential to realize when facing this time period or phase that you’re going through, is that moon actually has no light of its own. So what you are currently ‘seeing’ is not entirely ontological, or true. On the Tree of Life, and in life itself, Yesod (Moon) reflects the light of Tiphareth (Sun).

Look deeper at the situation and you will find that there will always be a ‘light’ side to your situation. You need only change your perception, and mostly your attitude toward your situation.A ‘no can do’ attitude will have a ‘no can do’ outcome.If you keep hiding your face in your hands, then that is pretty much your outcome. However, look around and see that there is comfort, warmth, growth, and it’s time to smell the roses! You are a creator! You can manifest anything you really put your mind to, because it is your destiny to achieve! It’s your purpose!The 9 of Swords portrays a very simple concept as old as time itself, “Your thoughts become things”. The more one stresses and freaks out about the fear, the more fearful one becomes. So the 9 of Swords is stressing to you to open your eyes and realize the potential beyond your fears. You actually do have nothing to fear, but fear itself.”

This week I'm pulling a lot of 5's and 9's. But, that 9 of Cups is also coming up frequently.

This morning, my partner woke up in a bad mood for sure. He left in a huff without saying goodbye. This happens at least once a week with him, and I usually react with a confrontational attitude. Most of the time it ruins my day when he leaves that way. Today there is an odd sense of detachment there. I resisted the invitation to fight.

I HAVE had a somewhat trapped attitude, mentally. And right now I am struggling with an empty bank account and about 13 more days before getting paid.

But the one real positive thing today was that I got to spend the morning with my beloved nephew, who's just about to turn 2. Time spent with family is a good thing. Also, my mom and I talked about my money issues and she said she doesn't mind helping me out this month. Thank God.

Just some thoughts on my daily drawing today. Anyone have an alternative perspective on it?

Lol. I had to.

Major Arcana Notes

0 - The Fool: rules Aquarius and Uranus. new beginnings, optimism, joy, positive outcomes. Yes / No 1 - The Magician: rules Virgo, Gemini, and Mercury. manifestation, will power, determination. Yes / No 2 - The High Priestess: rules Cancer and the moon. intuition, hidden truths, mysteries, wisdom, feminine protection. Answer is unknown. 3 - The Empress: rules Taurus, Libra, and Venus. femininity, motherhood, creativity, nurturing. Yes / No. 4 - The Emperor: rules Aries and Mars. masculinity, authority, discipline, stability. Yes / No. 5 - The Hierophant: rules Taurus. guidance, conformity, approval, unions. Answer is ‘maybe’. 6 - The Lovers: rules Gemini. relationships, partnerships, choices, decisions. Yes / No.  7 - The Chariot: rules Cancer. progression, successful efforts, movement, determination. Yes / No. 8 - Strength: rules Leo. willpower, determination, overcoming problems, endurance. Yes / No 9 - The Hermit: rules Virgo. solitude, meditation, reflection, soul-searching, loneliness. Answer is ‘maybe’. 10 - Wheel of Fortune: rules Sagittarius and Jupiter. change, karma, fate, cycles. Yes / No.  11 - Justice: rules Libra. equality, balance, harmony, truth. Answer is unclear, the fairest decision must be made.  12 - The Hanged Man: rules Neptune and Pisces. sacrifices, restriction, suspension, transition. Answer is maybe. 13 - Death: rules Scorpio. endings, changes, transformation, new beginnings. Yes / No.  14 - Temperance: rules Sagittarius. balance, peace, control, confidence, harmony. Yes / No. 15 - The Devil: rules Capricorn. envy, anger, indulgence, selfishness, toxic behaviors. Yes / No. 16 - The Tower: rules Mars and Aries. destruction, drastic changes, unpredictable events, chaos, loss. Yes / No. 17 - The Star - rules Aquarius. hope, optimism, positive outcomes, serenity. Yes / No. 18 - The Moon - rules Pisces. confusion, uncertainty, caution, illusions. Yes / No.  19 - The Sun - rules Leo and the sun. happiness, joy, abundance, achievements. Yes / No.  20 - Judgement - rules Pluto. choices, decisions, epiphanies, awakenings, success. Yes / No.  21 - The World: rules Saturn. completion, rewards, recognition, happiness, fulfillment. Yes / No. 

It's 3: 00 AM, got my eyes wide shut,

I toss and turn, got the sheets untucked, You broke right in, yeah, you stole, you took, With dirty fingerprints, you no-good crook, You shatter my heart like a Tiffany glass, I knew from the start he was a thief in a mask, And now I'm alone, cleaning up this mess, There ain't nothin' left, He's just a criminal, He's just a criminal, I can't get back what he stole, He's just a criminal, Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no I hear the rain on this old tin roof, The rusty nails in the boards comin' loose, Spend my last two dollars on you, You robbed me blind and you left no proof, Poof, poof, mmm, disappear, You should be sentenced for a thousand years, You should pay me back for a thousand tears, Insulting, He's just a criminal, He's just a criminal, I can't get back what he stole He's just a criminal Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Uh, jet black coupe, I'm fresh out the projects And I can't peel off my block right now, I ain't twist my cigar yet These police might object to me flossing these fancy objects Black diamonds on the dough boy proceed to speed up my progress All kinds of hoes want to claim us, lifestyles of the thugged out and famous And my mom said don't talk to strangers so I went to the block with them bangers On the street, twisting fingers, talk that slang with the slangers Still pack my piece a piece a change, it won't change us We just some motherfucking criminals, yeah He's just a criminal, He's just a criminal, I can't get back what he stole He's just a criminal Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Ooh, whoa, ooh, whoa, oh no Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting, ooh Insulting

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my world vs. your world

Here's a fleeting thought-- I kind of resent decks that have a pregnant female represented in the World (XXI) card. I think it's because... not everyone can be that fertile woman who produces new life. Some of us secretly battle with the intense longing to be in that position. Some of us know we will never physically bear "fruit", and as I am learning on this lightning-speed  trip through my fertile years, some of us will immensely hurt over that fact.

These two cards belong to absolutely beautiful decks and I’m not putting their authors down AT ALL. I just have a different opinion of what The World card represents. 

Does anyone else feel this way? 

Tarot of the Imagination - http://www.tarotpassages.com/imagination.htm 

Tarot of the 78 Doors - https://www.amazon.com/Tarot-78-Doors-Pietro-Alligo/dp/0738707899

I made a little birthday spread. 

Tarot cheat sheet

Major Arcana

The Fool-Beginnings, Risks The Magician- Actions, manifestations The High Priestess- Hidden knowledge, Secrets The Empress- Resources, Abundance The Emperor- Boundaries, Order The Heirophant- Education, Lessons, Unity The Lovers- Love, decisions The Chariot- Progress, determination Strength- Managing situations, endurance The Hermit- Searching, analysis The Wheel of Fortune- Fate, Luck Justice- Decisions, Balance The Hanged Man- Waiting, sacrifice Death- Transformation, Rebirth Temperance- Negotiation, common ground The Devil-Restrictions, Indulgence The Tower-Unexpected failure, breakdowns The Star- Hope and guidance The Moon- Anxiety and deep emotions The Sun- Growth, Recovery Judgement- The past, second chances The World- Success, completion

Minor Arcana

Cups- Water Element, “I feel”- How emotions rule over and work within the meanings of the cards.

Ace- Love, Beginnings Two- Partnerships Three- Celebration Four- Boredom, longing Five- Loss, sadness Six- Peace, reconciliation Seven- confusion, possibilities Eight- Departure, leaving behind Nine- A wish coming true, contentment Ten- Happiness, family Page- Opportunities, Chances Knights- Emotional and dreamy influence Queen- Intelligent and intuitive influence King- Charismatic and Wise influence

Pentacles- Earth Element, “I have”- How possessions rule over and work within the meanings of the cards.

Ace- Money, success, beginnings Two- Decisions, balancing finances Three- Showing talents, chances Four- Stability, hiding Five- Financial loss, chasing Six- Generosity, supporting Seven- Potential with work Eight- Money coming, building success Nine- Comfort, success Ten- Inheritance, something lost Page- An offer Knight- A dependable influence Queen- A genorous influence King- A prosperous influence

Swords- Air Element, “I think”- How thoughts rule over and work within the  meanings of the cards.

Ace-  Success Two- Stalemate Three- Heartbreak Four- Rest, overwhelmed Five- Conflict Six- Leaving conflict behind Seven- Theft of positivity Eight- Restriction Nine- Anxiety Ten- Endings Page- Intelligence, alertness Knight- A opposing influence Queen- An independent influence King- A strong willed influence

Wands- Fire Element, “I desire”- How desires rule over and work within the meanings of the cards.

Ace- News, beginnings, fertility Two- Making plans Three- Travel Four- Freedom, rest Five- Stong opinions, fights Six- Victory Seven- Work, effort Eight- News, attack Nine- Stress, suspicion, strength Ten- Burdened, work Page- A message, understanding Knight- A motivational influence Queen- A creative influence King- An expressive influence

Why can't I find a husband

Major Issue: 8 of Cups

- needing to walk away from old emotions that aren’t serving you now

Minor Issue - The Fool

- needing to adjust your outlook, get rid of jadedness and approach the problem with a new and exciting energy.

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to pull any cards for myself today. I started to shuffle the deck (just an absent minded tidying habit) and The Empress popped out. Okay. The Empress has a strong personal meaning to me -- it wa the card that popped out of the deck the day I found out my sister was pregnant (the day she gave birth to my beautiful nephew). 

As a woman with a sex life, it always makes me question my own cycles and fertility. This year, I’ve actually cried a few times over the fact that I don’t have any children and I’m 31. I feel nowhere near healthy enough physically or mentally to handle a pregnancy now, and I fear that as I get older I’m just getting further from the mark, My partner seems ambiguous though he speaks often about being happy childless. We are in agreement that as a couple, it would be irresponsible to have a child right now. 

So who says The Empress has to be about pregnancy and childbirth? Am I inserting that meaning because of past experiences when drawing this card? 

I know The Empress is about creation. So I looked at her and asked, “what are you suggesting I create?”

9 of Cups. The card of wishes granted. Happiness, having enough, satisfaction. Also knowing when enough is enough. 

Sensual creations. 

10 OF SWORDS 

If you asked me to describe my spiritual awakening, this image does so profoundly. Although initially it may appear like a tragic defeat, it is actually the ultimate liberation. This is the death of an old way of being… of an old way of thinking. You can become paralyzed by your own mind. Those piercing fear based thoughts and anxieties weigh heavily on the psyche, and ultimately manifest in the body. It can all become so heavy that you can barely keep your head up… and you just collapse.

• This is the 10 of swords. The number 10 in tarot signifies completion, and the swords represent the element of air which correlates to the mental realm. It is surrendering to the pain, rather than trying to escape it that will free you. It is indeed a painful process, but in surviving it you realize that your’e a warrior… and you remember that your spirit is indestructible and your soul is eternal. • After having been exposed to this much agony, I have to tell you that the healing process is not instantaneous. If you’ve experienced, or are experiencing a similar energy, you must give yourself time to heal. Even amidst the darkest times you can find a gentle, calming energy. It’s all about your perspective. This is the dawning of a new day. Look at the still water in the image which provides a soothing peaceful energy. Focus on the rising of the sun which will eventually fully eradicate any darkness that has weighed you down. Imagine the sun warming your body and giving you life. Picture the water gently washing over you, cleansing your wounds. Take your time and slowly start removing the swords one by one, and allow yourself to get up again, feeling lighter than ever. • I hope that 2018 is a very healing, empowering year for you. Be patient with wherever you are in your journey. Stay committed to your goals no matter how many setbacks or obstacles come your way. Remember “the mind is a wonderful servant, but a terrible master.” Don’t allow yourself to ever feel this defeated again. Your potential is far greater than you know, and you’re being offered the opportunity this year to reclaim your power. Rise to the occasion. 

— Nicole Porée-Zayas

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