@dead-immortal Heaven forbid we need the meds they prescribe us, don't we know that we're just fucking addicts? -.-

Okay, so for the past year or so, i've kept running into issues with my adderall prescription showing as expired when I go to fill it. Both my doctor and my pharmacy were saying it was on me and I didn't understand what was going on, I've finally come to the bottom of it...

Apparently my doctor has been putting the start date for month 2 and 3 in the comment section instead of putting it into Costco's "Start Date" section, and Costco's system does not allow the pharmacy to change the start date from what the doctor sends in, and because she's not putting the start date in the "start date" section, but the comments section, Costco's system is setting all the prescriptions as expiring one month after the appointment.

I finally got to the bottom of this and it's so nice to know that it wasn't me fucking this up, but a Costco taking away their pharmacists agency and my doctor filling it in wrong... BOTH of them were blaming me, saying it was my fault, that I let it expire, that I messed up and it turns out I'm the only one here who didn't do anything wrong, ahhhhhhhhh. Fuck.

I hate that ADHD treatment is not ADHD friendly, and I hate that I am constantly viewed and treated by the laws, systems, and medical professionals as a drug seeker just because the meds that treat the condition that fucking DISABLES me without them happen to be a controlled substance. Like, if there was anything else that would help, I'd take that, but there isn't, I take what is available and works for me.

Fuck.

That's the thing, my doctor is absolutely wonderful, she's the one who made getting HRT so painless a decade ago, she's absolutely great, and i will genuinely be so fucking sad if I end up feeling like I have to swap away from her. The problem was with the front office staff not even being willing to look into the issue, just assuming that I was the problem, even in the face of signs that something was amiss. Like, it's not normal for my 2nd AND third month of adderall prescriptions to expire 31 days after the appointment, and even when I pointed this out, the front office staff STILL assumed it was my fault, still assumed I messed up. I have had to call the pharmacy and the office multiple times throughout the day, and when i pointed out the expiration date feeling weird, she still placed the blame on me, told me that I was the one who was wrong, that I had filled it 9 days late and that made it expire despite them being good for 9 days. I was told that because I didn't pick it up the day I had it filled, it expired, and that's on me despite me pointing out that it expired on the 19th and I couldn't legally pick it up until the 24th... When I finally found the answer, I told her exactly what was happening, and she said it wasn't, then I told her the start date was being sent as a comment, not the actual post-dated start date, and she paused and realized I was right. They've cut my second prescription short now, which is problematic, because I fluctuate my dosage according to needs, and this normally means I take it less than prescribed, and as a result I set my appointments further out than I would otherwise. But now I'm going to run into a shortage of having dealt with this over and over, plus the shortage, so any surplus I used to have is gone, and the appointment is still further away than the prescriptions will accommodate for, and because of the obligations I've had for the last few months my dosage has been higher than my normal average. This wouldn't have been a problem with two months of dosage, but cutting it short means I'm probably fucked.

I understand that as an ADHD patient this is probably fairly common ADHD behavior, that letting ADHD meds expire is probably something that happens with their patients a lot, and I understand that every time they have to fix this, there is an associated cost to the doctor's office. What truly bothers me is that the assumption of blame was put on me until I could PROVE to them it wasn't me. I've had her as a doctor since I moved back here in 2019, after a couple years of having her in early 2010's when I first started hormones, I've never been a problem patient, I've never been an issue, and it feels like total shit that when I start running into issues all that is ignored and it's assumed I'm fucking up because the problem looks like messing up in "ADHD ways" and I'm ADHD. But, that's not okay. I deal with enough judgement for the impact ADHD has on who i am, from the system that sees me as a drug seeker for needing Adderall, hell, from previous partners who told me they thought I was a drug addict for taking Adderall and that maybe I should just "Try harder" instead. I don't also need my doctor's front staff judging me without even being willing to consider who I am as a person, seeing me as just another ADHD person who's fucked up their prescription even in the face of evidence that it wasn't me.

Okay, so for the past year or so, i've kept running into issues with my adderall prescription showing as expired when I go to fill it. Both my doctor and my pharmacy were saying it was on me and I didn't understand what was going on, I've finally come to the bottom of it...

Apparently my doctor has been putting the start date for month 2 and 3 in the comment section instead of putting it into Costco's "Start Date" section, and Costco's system does not allow the pharmacy to change the start date from what the doctor sends in, and because she's not putting the start date in the "start date" section, but the comments section, Costco's system is setting all the prescriptions as expiring one month after the appointment.

I finally got to the bottom of this and it's so nice to know that it wasn't me fucking this up, but a Costco taking away their pharmacists agency and my doctor filling it in wrong... BOTH of them were blaming me, saying it was my fault, that I let it expire, that I messed up and it turns out I'm the only one here who didn't do anything wrong, ahhhhhhhhh. Fuck.

I hate that ADHD treatment is not ADHD friendly, and I hate that I am constantly viewed and treated by the laws, systems, and medical professionals as a drug seeker just because the meds that treat the condition that fucking DISABLES me without them happen to be a controlled substance. Like, if there was anything else that would help, I'd take that, but there isn't, I take what is available and works for me.

Fuck.

Okay, so for the past year or so, i've kept running into issues with my adderall prescription showing as expired when I go to fill it. Both my doctor and my pharmacy were saying it was on me and I didn't understand what was going on, I've finally come to the bottom of it...

Apparently my doctor has been putting the start date for month 2 and 3 in the comment section instead of putting it into Costco's "Start Date" section, and Costco's system does not allow the pharmacy to change the start date from what the doctor sends in, and because she's not putting the start date in the "start date" section, but the comments section, Costco's system is setting all the prescriptions as expiring one month after the appointment.

I finally got to the bottom of this and it's so nice to know that it wasn't me fucking this up, but a Costco taking away their pharmacists agency and my doctor filling it in wrong... BOTH of them were blaming me, saying it was my fault, that I let it expire, that I messed up and it turns out I'm the only one here who didn't do anything wrong, ahhhhhhhhh. Fuck.

I hate that ADHD treatment is not ADHD friendly, and I hate that I am constantly viewed and treated by the laws, systems, and medical professionals as a drug seeker just because the meds that treat the condition that fucking DISABLES me without them happen to be a controlled substance. Like, if there was anything else that would help, I'd take that, but there isn't, I take what is available and works for me.

Fuck.

Oh the circle of validation here of her liking the post I make about her... =P

Thinking about how she feels about me makes me feel so overwhelmed... Makes me feel all happy and squirmy inside... 😖

Thinking about how she feels about me makes me feel so overwhelmed... Makes me feel all happy and squirmy inside... 😖

Me with burnout. Every. Time.

I genuinely hate oversleeping. If I didn't have to sleep, I wouldn't. Probably because I'm sleepy a lot, so it feels like I'm constantly battling being tired and sleeping too much. I associate sleeping too much with the worst times in my life.

... completely unethical question here, if this reduces PTSD, would pulling someone in for r this, then giving them fake commentary from the the therapist and other people about how, "no, it actually has wasn't that bad" increase ptsd and onset?

okay so I have this idea for a new therapy thing. basically the idea is after an abusive relationship or a combat deployment or anything that might conceivably leave you with PTSD and a loss of ability to reasonably gauge how bad the shit that happened to you actually was, you sit there with a mental health professional for like, a solid 30 to 60 minutes, you tell them short vignettes of your experiences and they respond ONLY by rating how fucked up each one was on a scale from 1 to 10 and then you move on. the objective isn't to reflect deeply on specific experiences but to get a sustained series of reassurances that what you went through was, in fact, That Bad and gradually rebuild your trust in your own present and future ability to judge when what you're going through isn't okay.

currently calling it Rapid Fire Affirmation and Recalibration Therapy (RAP-FART). working title, open to feedback.

Kindergarteners will be so proud of themselves for being able to draw a triangle. My GPU can draw tens of thousands of those in a second. You are not special.

Not to, uhm, solve you problems... But you know you can cook together, right? That's a thing? 😋

I mean, sure, but I also really like cooking so 👉👈

guess we can take turns...

You know I understand that. I'm sorry, love. Hit me up anytime if you need to talk. ❤️

I feel surprisingly lonely for someone who’s married

@femsec come here and give me your arm... 😋

opinions on sisters who fuck sloppy style?

my opinion is that i need more of them tbh

need to do this to my sisters

I was literally looking at one of those yesterday thinking about it.

I like your nail color. ❤️

Everyday God tempts me

Cute giggles followed by a pause and then... a heartfelt "God... I love you."

🥰

uncontrollable laughter followed by the phrase "you're a dork" is the greatest thing you can ever hear.

you will not change my mind

It did.

But also... I'm so happy 🥰

The yearning. It has me. Save yourself.

I can't stop thinking about her. Ahhhhhhhhh.

How could this happen to me. I'm supposed to be the Cool and Composed Goth Domme, not the cute yearning Tumblr lesbian. How have I been turned into this.