kim doodle.....

that post about Harry getting Trant in the divorce has rewired my brain a little bit about to start trantharrymaxxing

i love when people give kim fucking Huge, dark, ashen eye bags like a corpse. the one crack in his facade he cannot hide.

Getting HARD CORE in the church with Kim Kitsuragi

having chronic depersonalization/derealization is truly so horrifying.

like I've been having consistent out of body experiences for ten years now but the thing is it doesn't really get better because feeling like all this is unfamiliar and has never happened before is kind of the whole thing.

so it's not like I can tell myself this has happened before and i'll be fine. cus every time it feels like I got dropped onto the face of the earth five minutes ago

how it feels. to read nice comments on my fics on ao3

I know fanon is stupid and takes on a life of its own

but I really don’t understand how other Jean fans just don’t…deal with the fact that he leaves Harry to die in the bad end.* Like do people just not know about the bad end? What’s happening here? I don’t get why you’d just toss out what makes a character interesting and replace it with a generic personality from a network police procedural my grandma would watch

like Jean isn’t loyal. he’s unpleasant and cruel. this is what makes him actually interesting and is the role he fills in the story as an antagonistic bigot. he’s the kind of person who doesn’t rush to his partner's side when he’s shot but goes to the guy he was working with to get more ammunition to have him fired. he's self centered enough to prioritize his own mental illness as an excuse above the wellbeing of the civilians around him.

his victim complex is fascinating and hugely realistic to cops irl! he’s a total prick to Judit and Trant! he is frequently saying things that betray his right wing leanings, calling Trant a lefty dink, saying the liberals are going to come down on them for the piss jacket, or complaining about how 'no one' gets married in Revachol despite that being demonstrably untrue.

idk idk he’s just a very vivid and realistic person and watching that kind of guy get ground down and sanded off until there’s nothing left so he can be a likable woobie who sticks out like a sore thumb in a cast of complicated characters is depressing

*unless Those Types of fans are trying to justify it by saying Harry deserves it for (having the audacity to be disabled or completely made up reason)

Pre-emptive apologies for manifesting more Trant-posting into the world and accelerating our collective entroponetic demise, but I need to share yesterday's Discord findings with @renmorris and @mindblownie

1. in Trant's pyrholidon slip-up, he tells Harry that his story shouldn't be hard to guess in a way that I think can be read as both "cops and addiction, you know perfectly well how that goes" and "dude you know me, personally, we did them drugs together"

2. this opens the possibility of Harry and Trant watching the fringe art house movies together while high on pyrholidon. At any rate, Having Opinions About Art is Trant's thing and also an established old Harry trait

3. as it were, we also know where that established old Harry trait comes from. oh yes we do. it comes from Dora. literally her job.

4. this in turn manifests the vanishingly implausible (but hilarious) chance that Harry's unnamed friend whom he was discussing entroponetics with as Dora smoked nearby may have been none other than Trant. Like he was her art acquaintance to begin with and that's how he got roped into the 41st.

THEREFORE: Harry got Trant in the divorce. thanks for coming to our TED talk

halo

the only reason i'm on my sudoku grind at 2:20am is because i have wants and desires that are driving me insane. to be honest

the idea ever!!!

Hoooo boy. It's finally finished. This only took me eight months to paint. T.T

Disco Elysium is soooo good y'all; I feel like I'll never give it the credit it deserves.

I'm not even sure it's finished, but I'm just going to set this down now, though.

Clip studio paint and a ton of downloaded watercolor and acrylic brushes.

Let me know if you want me to pull out any closeups or anything

EMPATHY- You feel... pretty.

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Some fanart for my own fanfic 👀

DON'T YOU WANT TO SAY SOMETHING, LIEUTENANT? ANYTHING?! I AM STANDING BEFORE YOU WEARING NOTHING BUT A FUCKING LEOPARD UNITARD AND THE REMAINS OF MY DIGNITY, TITS OUT IN THE COLD AND YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE MAKING A SINGLE COMMENT ON IT?

They've had a long week