Ok just a random note - I was in the hospital for a couple days. If you care you can send me an ask (all I need is one) and I’ll tell the story (I’m also still sick). Ok love you bye.

rb if you’d wipe all pedophiles off this earth

Yo I just made an Instagram account about how gay I am and about all of the fandoms I’m in. It would be a great honour if you followed me. Please. I’m desperate. If you want to follow it then the user is gay_bitch04. It currently has no post but it will soon. i love you, bye.

I just, unironically, called out both myself and Netflix. It showed the 'are you there' screen and I immediately said, out loud, without thinking, "of course I'm still here! Why would I ever leave my bed?" and just kinda laid there rethinking my life.

gay culture is not knowing if you’re on a date or not

Rosa Diaz is fucking hawt

Isle Of Flightless Birds is 👌🏻

First day of school

Just for reference: every time you see (*number*) it will be explained in the tags below. E.g. (1), (6) and other numbers along those lines. Occurring straight after the word in question. 

Today, the 17th of April, was the first day of school. I was excited to see my friends because I was void of all human contact throughout the whole 2 week holiday. I was of course tired seeing as I has to get up at 7:30 am for the first time in the 14 days of school I had off. I was completely fine - until I got to school. I had a migraine forming. How I knew this, I had a spot in my vision. This only happens when I look at the sun (which I didn’t do because I’m not stupid) or if I have a migraine. I have had bad experiences with migraines since my periods started (3, almost 4 years) at the age of 10. Because of theses experiences I thought I would be okay because it wasn’t the worst of migraines that I’ve had. Usually the spot goes away after a while but this one didn’t. It only got worse. When I got into homeroom(1) I start feeling worse and worse to the point I just had to sit down because I felt like I would pass out or throw up. When I got the news that we had a whole school assembly I could feel my stomach drop. I had to sit in a room with every person who came to school that day for about 30 minutes. It’s not fun. Everything was alright until my vision started getting worse. Most of my right eye was taken over by the spot and I could barely see out of it. It had never been that bad before. I was starting to freak out because my migraine tripled in pain. Still I stayed where I was and waited for it to go away. When the assembly was over we had to go back to home room to collect our stuff to go to classes. I went to my first class, English, and I couldn’t concentrate because the migraine was so bad. But still I was persistent on finishing today. Everything was going great, I was handling it okay, but a bit before the bell rang signalling to go to the next class, my hand became numb. Out of nowhere my right hand became numb. Now all of you probably think I’m overreacting here when I say I freaked out over it but this was particularly scary for me because I have suffered from Hemiplegic Migraines(2) and I haven’t shown any symptoms (apart from the minor headache every day since they started) in 2 years, so I was worried they were coming back, probably could still (I’ll update tomorrow if anything happens or not). And this only happened in the first lesson, I still had 5 more to go. Nothing significant happened in the second period (Religion) except for the fact that my migraine didn’t let up and only got worse to the point I felt like crying. As soon as I stood up I felt extremely nauseous. I was already feeling quite nauseous to the point where my mouth did that weird saliva thing when you’re getting ready to spew multiple times. Yet I didn’t. And I don’t know if that is good or bad. I told my best friend this and she recommended going to the office. I did as I was told but I had to put my books away. So I did that. Even though it was lunch time I didn’t get food out because I knew that would only make things worse. I then started my short trek to the office. When I got there the office lady lady that spoke to me was kinder then the one that was there usually. She told me to go lay down in sick bay. When I did, I saw the diabetic kids in my school doing what they do, but the teacher supervising them told me to wait outside for whatever reason. I did. I had to sit down in the office where everyone could see me. Now this wouldn’t have been so bad if the the office hadn’t of been so busy, or if I didn’t have a spew bag. So I was publicly humiliated even though no one batted an eye at me because that’s how anxiety works. After that the nice office lady walked me back to sick bay where I laid down on one of the two beds there and just wallowed in self pity. After a while the nice office lady came back to tell me that my mum was on the phone and that she wanted to talk to me. So I got up, but I made the mistake of getting up too quickly and almost passed out or threw up or both. But I didn’t. My mum just wanted to know if I wanted to be picked up. I said yes. I went and laid back down. More self pity. My mum comes and picks me up. I go home. I sleep all day, from 11 to 5. A good 6 hours. Now my migraine is basically gone and I’m not nauseous anymore. What a great first day I had.

Tl;dr: I had a bad migraine and had to be sent home from school because I couldn’t concentrate and I thought I was going to throw up. I also slept for about 6 hours.

Sorry this was so dramatic.

your relationship doesn’t have to be toxic to be a bad one. it can be unfulfilling, exhausting, loveless. and someone doesn’t have to be terrible to you for you to leave them. if you aren’t primarily happy in your relationship, you have a valid reason to not be in it. don’t beat yourself up because your situation “could be worse.” if it isn’t what you want, you don’t have to stay in it.

More About Me

Name: Tayla

Gender: Pangender, mainly she/her and they/them

Sexuality: Gay af

Favourite colour: Both blue and black (I can’t choose)

Favourite book: The Fault In Our Stars (or anything by John Green)

Favourite book series: I’m quite partial to The Infernal Devices at the moment

Favourite TV show: Either Everything Sucks or Shadowhunters: The Mortal Instruments

Favourite movie: I’ve recently watched Everything, Everything and that’s an amazing movie but I also recently watched Love, Simon and you just gotta love that movie cuz gay

Top 5 favourite bands: (not in order because I can’t betray them)

1.  My Chemical Romance

2. Fall Out Boy

3. Panic! At The Disco

4. Twenty One Pilots

5. Muse

Favourite song: At the moment it’s probably Say Amen (Saturday Night) by Panic! At The Disco

Favourite ship: The overall one is Phan but the one that’s moving up the ranks is Malec

Favourite subject at school: English, I like learning about that

Favourite meme: i know da wae/other variations of this and vines, i reference vines a lot

Where do you live?: Australia

Eye colour: Blue

Hair colour: Naturally blonde but it’s a blue-y green at the moment

Height: I think it’s around 5′2

If you want to know anything else about me send me an ask and I will answer it as fast as possible and honestly as well.

New Blog!!

Hi! My name is Tayla and this is my new blog that will be all about my experiences of life (even though they probably aren’t that exciting) and a blog where I can post short stories that I’m going to be writing (and if you like any I’ll happily write more to it). I’ll make a new post soon explaining more about who I am so you can get more familiar with me. I will also be posting a picture of me so you know what I look like. Thank you to anyone who finds this and follows me because at the moment this blog is quite pitiful. If you want to follow my other blog which is just a random fandom blog (mainly phan and other youtube stuff) then it’s @the-lesbian-phan-addict.