Shots are rough, but he was brave.

My baby boy has had a busy last few months. His birthday, now thanksgiving. Soon Christmas. I’m so happy he’s here. This kid is incredible. Despite all the rough situations this kid has gone through, he stays with a smile on his face. I could not be more proud of this little guy.

As of October 25th, 2017, this little worm is mine. Mostly. I still worry about the what if’s. For now, he is home, where he should be. Hopefully adoption is in our near future.

Show your child that you are a person who is truly grateful for the simple, good things in life: a sunset, rain, insects, birds, children laughing, or a kind gesture.

Richard Carlson

I gotta get my boy a kitty!

Found this girl in my engine. Guess we’ve got a cat now. (Source: http://ift.tt/2zrPlUM)

Getting ready for Halloween around here!

I wanted this blog to be nothing but good things,

but I wanted this blog to show my journey with Ocyus and becoming father and son and the truth of that is that this process is so much more than just good things. So I’m taking the time to note the bad with the good. I’m not going to hide the bad behind me and stand in front of the good and glorify this process. My son is sad. He misses his mom. What child wouldn’t? He’s starting to realize she lies to him. She’s promising him a bedroom, Minecraft sheets, to pick him up, take him to their new house, go to the pumpkin patch with his sister she no longer has custody of, give him surprises and gifts, a Minecraft cake. At first he believed it and he told me she had a bedroom for him. I had to break his heart and tell him she lied to him. She didn’t have a home for him, not even a bedroom. His heart is breaking in front of me and I’m running around in circles trying to pick up all of the pieces without missing any and put it back together. I hope one day he understands that everything I’ve done for him I’ve done out of love. On a happier note, I was granted temporary guardianship as of yesterday. I am swearing and signing the official documents today. Temporary was granted until our hearing on the 25th. I can’t wait to hear that I can officially and legally provide him with all the care that I need or want to. I love my kid.

If a writer falls in love with you, you can never die.

Mik Everett (via wordsnquotes)

Court today.

Temporary guardianship.

You don’t have to explain your dreams, they belong to you

Paulo Coelho (via wordsnquotes)

Im not raising my son to think he’s inferior as a man for showing emotion. I refuse. I’m not giving him the “boys dont cry” speech or any of that other ignorant, toxic bullshit. Instead, I’ll teach him how to handle things instead of teaching him that being a normal human being is wrong and weak.

Little toes, big heart.

The home inspection and court are quickly approaching. I could not possibly be more nervous if I tried. Wishing, hoping, and praying for the best.