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55oju · 4 years

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BEHIND ONE

one

warning: spoilers ahead !!!

in this chapter, jukhyun meets jungkook and the dialogue shouldnt be read as flirty because jukhyun has special relationships with each member. it may be read like that but jukhyun isnt flirting! i’m going to keep these pretty short as i’m exhausted and i’ve been thinking on some things on the plot ahead instead of worrying about my BEHIND series. i think i’ll be doing joint BEHIND eps, where i have two chapters in one BEHIND.

sorry this is very messy. i’ve not been able to organize my thoughts that well either.

for this chapter, i realized that i wanted to change jukhyun. not for this chapter but for the whole story. or it might’ve been for the second chapter that i wanted to change jukhyun. jukhyun is at like a point in her life where she is giving up and no longer fighting what is “destined for her.”

in this chapter, she gets a flashback or a memory back in 2013 when she was still with seokjin. jukhyun has trauma from her father, she is a perfectionist and she hates making mistakes - she overthinks them and often beats herself over every mistake she makes.

jukhyun also gets a memory from when she was 10; summer of 2002. this memory is very vivid to jukhyun. she was often compared to other kids and jukhyun wasn’t the brightest when she was younger. she was almost self-taught with her book smartness? if thats a word.

song of chapter

this one was very hard for me to choose. AND IM NOT GONNA LIE, I DIDNT READ OVER MY CHAPTER MAKING THIS. it’s only from my memory which seems to be failing me right now. brb i’m going to reread it lolz :))

;;stigma;;

!verse two, !hook

[verse 2]

Now cry

It’s only that I’m very sorry towards you

Again, cry

Because I couldn’t protect you

[hook]

Deeper, deeper, the wound just gets deeper

Like pieces of broken glass that I can’t reverse

Deeper, it’s just the heart that hurts every day

You who was punished in my stead

You who were only delicate and fragile

i think this is very fitting ??? lol doesnt sound very convincing. i chose this song because it’s like what jukhyun wants to hear from her father.. sorry because i couldn’t protect you. and you who was punished in my stead because her father wasn’t a good role model or male figure in her life. beating her when she was young delicate and fragile.

i will probably discuss the changes i made to jukhyun in the next chapter. thank you for reading <3 sorry this is very short.

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chapter two [querencia]

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—warnings: alcohol use, mature language

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[now]

I close the black SUV door behind me and before they drive off, the window rolls down and Jungkook sits where I just sat, saying: “Don’t be so formal next time, Jukhyun ssi.” He listens to what I said earlier today about calling me noona.

“What?”

“It makes you look crazy.” Jungkook’s blunt words surprise me and they drive off. I scoff and walk into my complex but I wasn’t always this serious, I just lost hope.

❋ [february 14, 2014]

I entered the house that held the spawn of satan. “Your father is in his west wing.” Manager Lee spoke like he knew what was going to happen. I nodded, leaving him at the front hall and continued to his den.

His door was slightly open, he was expecting me but he never left his door open even if he wasn’t in the room and before I entered, his voice frightened me. “My daughter, come in.” I don’t know how he knew I was standing outside, I was in the blindspot. I entered like he told me to and bowed respectfully. He stood by the window, looking out to what revealed the yard acre followed by acre. “I heard that you broke up with that boyfriend you had. It was going to be your fifth year in the Summer.. What happened?” Without asking how my plane ride was, I could feel my father smiling inside and plus, he wanted this to happen. I didn’t answer. “Ah, no response. Let me get to the point then.” He turned around, opening a file on his desk. I looked down, not believing my eyes. “I won’t be needing these anymore. You can have them.. For memory but let me clear these photos, we have important matters to discuss.” He pushed the photos of Seokjin and I to the ground.

I was tempted to look at the photos once again but I knew he was waiting for me to cock my head in that direction, “What are the important matters?” I finally open my mouth. His grin grows, his joker smile with such sad eyes but the corners of his mouth reach up, it scares me.

“Our agreement is coming to an end but don’t worry, my daughter,” I could feel the walls closing on me as he told me not to worry, if he never told me it before.. Why would he say it today?

I sat at my desk, doing homework from my class and I sigh, looking at the time: 12AM on July 16th. Happy anniversary, Seokjin. It would have been our 10th if I hadn’t ruined it. Do you hate me? Have you bad mouthed me to your members like I said you should? Have you cursed my name? I hope you are well, Kim Seokjin. I looked out at the moon that sat in front of my window like it was watching me instead of me watching the moon. Shall we celebrate?

“Miss, can I buy you a drink?” Another mister asks, sitting on the bar stool beside mine. I cock my head and nod sweetly. I feel him staring at my body and roll my eyes, turn off. I look off, giggling, pretending like I’m not paying attention. “Tequila Sunrise please and keep the tip.” He bribes the bartender to shut his mouth.

I continue to look to the side, giving him enough time to spike my drink with some drug. I look to him, laughing like I’m drunk. I look to my drink, asking him, “Shall I drink it?” Acting innocently, he nods. I let my fingertips fall onto the side of his face, skimming him lightly. “I already know you spiked my drink, drink it first then I’ll do the same and you can take me wherever.” He makes a shocked expression like he didn’t cause any crime.

“What? Shall I make a down payment so you can trust me?” I ask, then, drinking the alcoholic drink that I gripped in my hand so tightly.

“Crazy bitch.” He stands from his stool and leaves me with the drink that he bought.

“Oppa! Where are you going?” I tease, chasing over him. He runs out of the club and before I can follow, I feel myself collapsing but not onto the ground but someone’s arms. My sight becomes blurry and I can’t see who’ll sell me to the black market tonight.

❋ [february 14, 2014]

“Just get to the point.” I spoke sternly with my father who had his hand resting on the file.

“The contract identifies that you will take over the company by 25 years old, we’ll reveal your identity and you’ll have to break up with that musician or whatever he is— Bound to fail, look at the sales of the product, ha,” My father makes fun of my past lover and cocks an eyebrow, waiting for a reaction from me. He continues, “another option is that I can annul the contract, you can finish your youth and take over the company by 30.. And, I’ll add a worthy man.” He flips his folder to face me and looks in my direction. I read what I am signing onto:

RYU JUKHYUN DAUGHTER OF RYU HYUKJAE, IF JUKHYUN SIGNS THIS AGREEMENT, HYUKJAE WILL BE OBLIGATED TO ANNUL PREVIOUS CONTRACT OF COMPANY TERMS AND THIS CONTRACT WILL ENFORCE A DIFFERENT DATE OF PLANNED AGREEMENT FOR A NEW CEO OF RYU INCORP. IF SIGNED,

- JUKHYUN WILL BE PUT IN INDEPENDENT STUDIES TO LEARN AND GAIN MORE KNOWLEDGE ON BUSINESS. EXPANDING AND HIGHER RATE FOR SUCCESS.

- JUKHYUN CAN HAVE ACCESS TO ALL ACCOUNTS THAT HYUKJAE HAS FOR HER.

- JUKHYUN CAN CHOOSE WHERE SHE WILL CONTINUE HER STUDIES.

- JUKHYUN WILL FINISH HER STUDIES BY 30 YEARS OLD AND WILL MARRY TO MAN OF HYUKJAE’S CHOICE FOR HIGHER RATE OF SUCCESS.

- IF HYUKJAE’S HEALTH BECOMES UNWELL, JUKHYUN’S IDENTITY WILL BE REVEALED TO PUBLIC AND WILL BECOME CEO PERMANENTLY.

- JUKHYUN WILL BE OBLIGATED TO MARRY THE MAN OF HYUKJAE’S CHOICE.

- IF JUKHYUN DOES NOT FOLLOW WITH THESE RULES AND SABOTAGES ANY OF THE TERMS ABOVE, ACCESS TO BANK ACCOUNTS WILL DECREASE AND JUKHYUN WILL IMMEDIATELY BE NAMED AS NEW CEO.

If I didn’t sign to any of these contracts, if I never agreed to any of these, if I stayed with Seokjin.. Would I be happier?

Nature’s alarm wakes me once again, I don’t wake up in my own bed but a hospital’s rest bed in a private room. My head’s heavy but I wasn’t going to stay in some stranger’s private room and owe them. I stood up from my bed but the door that sat to the left of my bed opened before I could even get to it. “Good morning, Jukhyun.” Manager Sejin grinned with a tray of hospital food. He gestured for me to sit down and get back to my bed and I followed. “Did you just wake?” I nodded as Manager Sejin placed the food on the bed table that he just pulled out. I opened the instant ramen that already carried boiled water to cook the noodles.

“Thank you, Manager Sejin, have you eaten yet?”

“Ah, don’t worry. I ate.” Manager Sejin assured me, waiting for me to take my first bite. Manager Sejin looks around like he’s not familiar with this place. What was he even doing in Busan during 3AM?

“So, who brought me here?”

“Me, of course. Who else?”

“A club at Busan when you’re a manager who has to keep seven men in line. Not only just any seven men but international celebrities who are loved by millions.”

“Were you that one who wrote that article about them last night? You know more about them than me.” Manager Sejin laughs, my left eyebrow comes up as he tries to change the subject. “I won’t lie. I brought you here but I’m not the one that caught you before you fell to the ground,” My head tilts as he paused. “Yoongi ssi. He noticed you from when you entered the club.”

“Why treat it as a secret if it’s not one?”

“Don’t push it. You’ll get hurt.”

❋ [february 14, 2014]

My father moved his hand from the written agreement and bent down to the photos he had pushed aside earlier. “I was surprised to see this. How you entered the SUV so quickly.. Was it to see your loving father or to stop yourself from kissing him again? Let me guess, number two. What a scene.. Woman kisses her ex-boyfriend then runs away from him like he wasn’t going to chase after her.”

I look at him holding a photo that was taken of me a night ago. My blood boils, knowing that I’m letting him have this or that I’ve already lost. I sign and an evil laugh comes from his old mouth. “I’ve signed, you should do the same.” I let my chin go forward, clenching on my teeth. His grin is ugly, making me even more angry and signs.

#querencia #bts #bts jin #jin #btsfic #bts fic #btsfanfiction #bts fanfiction #jin fanfiction #fanfiction jin #jin x reader #bts kim seokjin #kim seokjin #kim seokjin bts

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BEHIND PROLOGUE

prologue

hello :) thanks for reading this lol. i’ll try not to make these too long idk. i’m writing informally here too. but let’s analyze the prologue: this is basically me telling you everything you might have missed because i didn’t know if i expressed it well.

WARNING: before continuing, please read the chapter. there are spoilers ahead.

okay, the prologue starts with a dream. hence the italics. it says a man who is supposed to protect and I AM NOT TELLING YOU WHO IM TALKING ABOUT just yet anyways. lol but it is clearly a male-figure in her life. jukhyun has this nightmare and it gives her once again another sleepless night or rough night.

speaking of JAE RA. i will try to say this without leaking anything about her and her childhood with jukhyun so i’m sorry if this sounds funky and weird but she is her sister and an artist who lives in america. lol i said that in the chapter; yall it’s hard not to spill anything.. but that is jukhyun’s older sister. i don’t know if i’ll mention this in the main because it’s not that relevant but she is a 86 liner, being 6 years older than jukhyun / you?

NOW THE FLOWER

uh how do i explain this. the flower doesn’t play an important role? yet? but i haven’t really put a story of why i use a flower to tell you that there is a memory or flashback in time.. but let me tell you about the first flashback- ALSO I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO CALL IT OTHER THAN A FLASHBACK UHM PLS- but anyways,, this flashback is on jukhyun’s 22nd birthday. (shes the same age as seokjin) this flashback occurs after hearing just one day on the radio which she actually listens to the radio quite often because it gives her *cough cough* a feeling of warmth and i’ll stop now. but yes, she gets a flashback to her 22nd birthday and her sister insisted or tells her that she has a present that she mailed to jukhyun for her birthday.

she gets a letter from her friend, sojung, her father, manager sejin, jae ra and then, she received a package that was from unknown which she had expected that the package was from her sister but she knows exactly who is was from if it wasn’t from her sister. WORLDWIDE HANDSOME YALL; ugh fan girl moment, i’m sorry. if you read what he had gave her and i’m not telling yall if she went <3 sorry bout it- we’re only analyzing boos <3 and as you can see, seokjin says something like i know you dont want me around.. or something along the lines of that and this means they have split omgomg winkwink. he also says: which i don’t know why or something like that and this means he doesn’t know the reason of why jukhyun split up with seokjin.. heartbreaking, right ?!?! pls i type like a nerd.

this “chapter” was short but it was because it was just the prolouge. i mostly used this to grab viewers attention and to introduce her family? And her relationship with seokjin.

the dates are key in this story. i created a whole ass timeline pls.

anyways i think im going to do song of the chapter then characteristics of jukhyun and the drafts or something <3

song of the chapter is the first song of the playlist, just one day. in the playlist, i put focus areas which might be taken out due to the BEHIND series like this, where i explain why i have this song in the playlist or smth.

so i had just one day and the focus area of the song was verse two and the chorus.

;;just one day;;

!verse two, !chorus

[verse 2: V, RM]

If only I could do that, how nice would it be

If only we could go anywhere

To eat and watch a movie comfortably

I would do anything girl

I’m sorry

Maybe I’m too rational

But still, if you see me someday, smile

Maybe you resent me a little or no, a lot

I know, I couldn’t look at you more because of my dream

Then just give me one day

Even if it’s in my dream, just one day

Out of all those words I had to swallow

Because of the excuse of reality

I’ll pick one and tell it to you for sure

Let’s meet when the morning glory blooms

And part when they wither

I didn’t think I’d get over you easily but

Is it selfish of me to hope you are the same?

I’m still lying, saying that it’s all for you

You are standing in the center of my life

[chorus: vocal line]

Just one day, if I can be with you

Just one day, if I can hold your hands

Just one day, if I can be with you

Just one day (just one day)

If only we can be together

because the song was kind of dedicated to jukhyun (fictionally) i had to make it the song of this chapter // but it wasnt what i originally had in mind.. // using this song for the chapter and explaining seokjin’s use of the song to jukhyun is if he can have just one day to see jukhyun again as they are split and they are broken up. as he knows like if they do have another day, it would be hard for jukhyun to leave seokjin again << ALSO, seokjin doesn’t know why jukhyun broke up with him. !!SORRY IF I KEEP CALLING HIM SEOKJIN: i do it because i’m so used to typing seokjin for the story!! by the way if these seem to all over the place for you, i just want to say everything before my train of thought gets lost.

continuing with the song analyze and it’s use;; in the chapter, i was going to make it as seokjin made the song with yoongi since yoongi is one of the original writers of the song but i just put it as seokjin ranted to yoongi or the group about his problems and yeah.

things you might’ve missed:

-in the flashback, jukhyun receives mail from manager sejin.

it’s just a hint that although seokjin and jukhyun broke up, she has decided to keep in touch with bts’s manager.

manager sejin is bts’s manager. has been with bts since early debut or before debut :) more about him is added in the next chapter or in chapter one.

-jukhyun characteristic / fear;;

this was very subtle but she has a fear of lighting/thunder, it’s not just some fear either and i can’t say the story behind why she has this fear but it has really bad uhm backstory to it.

here’s this leak that i just wanted to add cause i’m feeling risky LOL and cause i don’t think anyone will read this because this is longer than the chapter itself PLS.

Jukhyun was a 1st ranker of the country for all 3 years of her highschool life. we couldnt leave out a female beak seung jo out // i love my kdramas, i’m sorry.

extra;;

i have a schedule for posting which chapters are posting every tuesday and behind eps are posted on thursday but i don’t want to post that because i never stick to it.

and i actually wrote this before but didn’t finish it. this is more polished i would say??? i wrote this on wattpad but there was a hack i think and yeah <3 it got my mom involved too i think and so yeah <3 we’re not doing that again.

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—word count: 1.8K

—note: read the prologue please before reading this;;

—warning: abuse

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[now]

I couldn’t help but yawn and feel my eyes close slowly even though I am standing on this train, it seemed as if the rough night I had was catching up with my body and telling me to sleep. I hear my stop being called next and I get off the subway onto my station. I drag myself to work, unmotivated to go. The roads of central Seoul look busy and I am practically sulking in laziness but I look at my phone and it’s a few minutes til my shift and I’m not that close to make it in time if I just walk.

I started to run in order to make it but my run didn’t last long as I bumped into someone. “I’m sorry!” I sighed, I was at fault but I had to continue to run because I didn’t want to piss off Manager Park even more. The tall male that was covered in black said something but I couldn’t focus on it, it wasn’t as important.

I unlock the door, looking at the clock before anything and I’m on just on time, I grin and open the shop like I’m supposed to. I sigh, thinking of what happened earlier, I just bumped into someone and just ran away, a little disrespectful.. I could’ve offered coffee on the house, I hope it wasn’t as elderly. I overthink the situation as I stock on the coffee cups, I hear the door open but and my head jumps up as I was previously in the counters. “Hello?” A voice that sounds too familiar but I can’t put a finger on whose voice it is, it doesn’t help that he is wearing all black with a matching baseball cap and mask. When I pop my head out for him to see and before I can tell him about the cafe’s hours, he speaks before I do. “It is you!”

“And you are?” I ask, a little creeped out but intrigued by the familiarity of his voice.

“I’m sorry, let me just..” He locks the store entrance which I forgot to do to prevent strangers like him from entering at this time but I back into the counter for something to protect me with and if I remember there was a box cutter somewhere here. I finally get a hold of the box cutter and he takes off his hat then mask and I drop my weapon that was probably helpless in the first place and run out from behind the counter.

“Jeon Jungkook!” I call out his name in glee while running to him in open arms. Jeon Jungkook, the little man has now sprung and bloomed into a young man. He’s matured and taller than me, saddening me that I missed so much and I took this route instead of the other.

“Ryu Jukhyun. I knew it, I recognized you.”

“You were the one I bumped into, no?” I asked, putting pieces together and he nodded, I still had to get the shop ready for opening. “Coffee on the house?”

“I can pay.” Jungkook offers politely but he knows my response as he follows me to the front counter while I go behind the counter.

“Of course not but how are you? I haven’t seen you since..” I don’t finish my sentence but he continues, avoiding any awkwardness. I start up a brew of dark roast.

“I’ve been well, we’ve made it kind of big.”

“Ah, I couldn’t tell. Nation’s brand, I see you on the subway everyday.” I joke around and he grins.

“So what is International Ryu Jukhyun working as a coffee barista?” He playfully jokes back.

“Haha, enjoying it while I still can and I don’t live on my father’s money, goes against my brand.” I laugh and he chuckles, I finish up my brew and I add a leaf created with a fresh new bag of milk that I just took out earlier. I hand it to Jungkook, “Mr. Jeon Jungkook. Wow, I’m selling coffee to the Mr. Jeon Jungkook.”

“Shall I become a regular?”

“Funny. Sneaking out recklessly? I think not, is the company still as strict as before?” I ask, watching him take a slip of the hot brew.

❋ [october 31, 2013]

“Seokjin, I don’t think this is a good idea.” I chuckle awkwardly, in fear of what the company had said about this party that we’re attending. Seokjin gave me a look that just said: trust me and I did. We stood close on the patio that was also filled with drunk idols and actors. Music was loud and this wasn’t my ideal place to be but Seokjin wanted to go and his pleading could never make me say no.

“Don’t look so down, it makes me sad.” Seokjin caught me off guard and frowns, teasing me but making me smile. My mood was enlightening, looking at the bright side of things; we never get to spend much time together due to his training and practice schedule but I’m here with him now. I kissed his cheek, forgetting that I was told not to do that and a flash from a camera struck then it continued and I pulled back quickly, running away into the house.

“This mistake could have costed his career.”

“Not as much, we just have to make it to all practices and be in line with our schedules.” Jungkook answers and I continue to do what is left to do before opening.

“So Mr. Jeon, what’s in plan for you today?”

“Just the coffee. Then, heading back to the dorm. I found a new spot.”

“Ah, don’t tell the others.” I beg and he knows what I’m talking about, he puts his cap on and along with his mask.

“Oh, another plan is to come here after your shift and catch up.” Jeon Jungkook’s eyes are slimmer, making it seem like he is smiling under his mask. “When does your shift end?”

“4pm.” I answer, not fighting the thought in my head that is telling me that this is a bad idea. I see him off and he nods as a farewell as I do the same.

❋ [november 1st, 2013]

“We specifically told you that you should be careful!” One of the managers scolded Seokjin and I as we sat together on the couch while he stood up and looked down at us. “How stupid and reckless could you both be?” His tone is aggressive and my tears form in my eyes but I’m looking down at my feet that are planted on the ground. I don’t let my tears fall though.

“Don’t be so harsh.. I forced her into going.” Seokjin tried taking the responsibility but it was really my fault.

“No, I’m sorry. This was all my fault. I completely forgot what you and the other managers had told us at that moment.” I wasn’t going to let Seokjin take the blame for something I did.

“You know that this mistake could have costed his career? Not only his but the whole group’s.”

“Hey.. Manager Tan. I don’t think..” Seokjin kept speaking but I didn’t pay attention anymore. What Manager Tan had said stuck in my head and kept replaying and I couldn’t get it to stop.

My shift was finally over and I was finally able to sleep but a black bulky SUV stopped me from making my way home, reminding me that I had plans to catch up with Jungkook and the passengers door opened, letting out a bodyguard to open the door for me and revealing Jungkook without any hat or mask to cover his face. “Hey noona.” I get in, thanking the bodyguard for opening the door for me. “Sorry for the car and the get up, Manager Sejin demanded this. Manager Sejin saw me sneaking back in and I told him everything.” I smile, thinking of Manager Sejin and all that he has done for me but I’m scared that he might’ve told Jungkook where I worked.

“Ah, thoughtful Manager Sejin. I wonder how he is.” I grin, still trying to figure out if my theory is correct.

“He is great. He stuck with us all these years. I’m glad he saw our potential and stuck with us till the end.. Have you eaten yet?” Jungkook asked, switching the topic and I shook my head. “Shall we eat then?”

“On me though, you provided the vehicle.”

“Can’t do. I’m not even paying, Manager Sejin is. He says contact him later and this is making me guess you have kept in contact?” Jungkook seems frustrated as what he had just put together is true but this debunks my theory of Manager Sejin telling Jungkook about my whereabouts.

The car stopped at this hotel’s front; Yoon Hotels and I was escorted by the bodyguard inside. No cameras were flashing and I guess it was successful for Jungkook to not be seen. The hostess sees us and greets Jungkook immediately, leading us to a private room. As we walk, I think of Yoon Hotels as they sound familiar. “Yoon Hotels..” I look around, trying to recall my memory of what I know of them.

The hostess hears my mumbling and answers all the questions that were bouncing in my head: “You might have heard of Yoon Hotels when travelling abroad, we are the world’s biggest international hotel chain and currently making our way to the top. With over..” She continues to inform me but my memory of them reached me before she could continue her informal talk that made me feel belittled. She takes a hint of my lost of interest in our conversation and just continues to lead us.

❋ [summer of 2002]

“Mr. Yoon, Mr. Han. This is my youngest daughter, Ryu Jukhyun.” My father fakes a smile, forcing me to meet them. I respectfully bow and look up to the older men.

“Ah, a bit disrespectful, no nice to meet you? Haha, Mr. Ryu.. Focusing too much on that company of yours and not on family. I’ve done some private investigating and she’s one of the last ranks?” Mr. Yoon forces a smile and I knew I was gonna get disciplined later for this matter.

“Haha, just a bit shy. Shall we hit some golf balls now?” My father sticks up for himself and not me. Just making himself seem good. My father doesn’t even like them but as he would say, keep your friends close and your enemies closer. He usually plays on Mr. Han’s indoor driving range every second Sunday of the month but Mr. Yoon said he would like to meet me this time. I’m guessing he gathered the information on me that he needed to piss my father off.

“My daughter, Yu-mi, couldn’t come today. She was practicing for her piano exam.” Mr. Yoon smiles extra bright and I sigh, knowing steam is coming out of my father’s ears already. “She’s a 95 liner too. Three years younger.”

When we got home, father asked for all maids to return to their rooms and he took me by the hair and dragged me into the closet in the west wing of the house, locking me in.

#querencia #bts #bts jin #jin bts #btsfanfiction #fanfiction #jin fanfiction #jin x reader #seokjinbts #seokjin #kimseokjin #seokjin x reader #bangtan seonyandan

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BEHIND QUERENCIA

— read querencia: here

— about: just the behind the scenes of the chapters and where i talk to myself but i’m posting it for people to read. chapters will include which song from the playlist is meant for that chapter and why. it also is like the notes; extra info for readers but it won’t add anything too important that it is essential to the plot or the original story.

— warning: please read the chapter before reading this. you get spoilers of the chapters as we analyze the chapters together.

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— BEHIND PROLOGUE

—BEHIND ONE

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❙❘ 𝗠𝗩 𝗛𝗬𝗨𝗡𝗗𝗔𝗜: 𝗜𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗦 + 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗗𝗘𝗥S

✦⨾ pls, credits to @slythenkoo on twitter

✦⨾ don’t claim as your own

✦⨾ like or reblog if you save or use

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he was just so wrong for this tbh

#bts #btsjin #bts jin #jin bts #jungkooksbday #seokjin #bts seokjin #kim seokjin

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— playlist [querencia]

all songs that are included were made or sung by the members of BTS. the outline of the songs or the part i want to be focused on are displayed underneath.

;;stigma;;

!verse two, !hook

;;honsool;;

!the whole song

;;hold me tight;;

!suga’s bridge

;;just one day;;

!verse two, !chorus

;;jamais vu;;

!verse four, !outro

;;autumn leaves;;

!the whole song

;;epiphany;;

!the whole song

#querencia #jinbts #btsjin #btsseokjin #seokjin #jin #kimseokjin #ksj #jinxreader #seokjinxreader #bts jin #bts jin x reader #jin x reader

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prologue [querencia]

— posted: [20/08/30]

—word count: 645

—note: sorry, this took so long. i had a lot of writer’s block. the symbol: ❋ means a flashback or a memory in time;;

—note p2: you are ryu jukhyun;;

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I’m in a dark crowded room, like a closet. I’m sitting because that’s all I can do in this space, there’s no light to do anything either. I reach for the knob and try opening the door but it’s still locked. I yelp, banging on the door, crying for help. Heavy footsteps come closer and soon reach me. The door opens and the man that’s supposed to be my protector and a man I can always run to, opens the door, pulls my hair and drags me out.

I jump up from my sleep, awaking from that nightmare. I’m gasping for air and thankfully, it was just a nightmare. I look at my clock and it’s still 2:30am. I sigh, laying back down and closing my eyes in hope that I will go back to bed.

“Jukhyun, Jukhyun!” a cute little girl’s voice called out my name, waking me up. I looked up to my alarm clock from bed and shut off the girl’s voice, my sleep was horrible. I’m opening the coffee shop today and I can’t be late, Manager Park has been on edge recently.

After I turned on the radio, the host greeted me along with the other listeners, “Good morning! It is currently 5:05am and let’s start our day with some JAE RA and her new single: Give Me, Get Me.” I smile, happy for my sister. I’m long overdue to see her again but she’s been busy and I hate going to America.

I sit down to take her in lyrics and soon, her song ends and a song with a similar vibe plays next but I recognize it within a second: Just One Day by BTS.

❋ [February 1st, 2014]

“Jukhyun! Did you check your mailbox yet? I shipped something to you.” Jae-ra smiled from ear to ear, happier than I am on my special day. I shook my head in response to her question and she facepalmed, “Go, go! Call me back in the morning too! I still can’t believe you didn’t take today off. Anyways, happy 22nd birthday. I love you.”

I ran to my mailbox right after the videochat in my pyjamas. As I continued down the stairs and looked out the window, I heard and saw it rain heavily and I guess talking to my sister distracted me from what was happening outside. I continue to hurry, in fear of thunder to strike. A small box was accompanied by a few letters greeting me as I was unlocking the small door to my mailbox.

When I finally entered my home again after carrying the items up the stairs, I looked through everything that was mailed to me. Sojung, Father, Manager Sejin and Jae-ra; they were all letters but surprisingly, Jae-ra’s gift wasn’t the box as I expected. I slowly moved the letters away from hovering over the box and placed them beside the package, no name was placed on the box but I knew who it was from already.

I opened the brown packaged box first, confused on what to expect. After cutting the tape that held the panels together and secured the content of the box, tissue paper covered the item as another divider from me and the content. I ripped away and teared up at what was in front of my eyes. “Happy birthday, Jukhyun,” I read aloud, wiping my tears. “I know you don’t want me around which I don’t understand why. Please call me soon, I will do anything. Here’s this CD from our upcoming album; track five was inspired by you.. it isn’t released just yet but it will be on February 12th. We have a show that day, please come.” I picked up the clear CD case that held a CD and saw a ticket behind it. Before I even noticed, I was sobbing and crying shamelessly.

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