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karina | my beloved, jimin.

genre ; fluff, angst

pairing ; karina x reader

notes ; took me so long to finish this because i want it to come out perfect! i like how this one turns out so i hope you guys enjoy it <3 also the orange text is a simple indicator so that you guys wont get confused w my with my writing!

word count ; 11k+

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"you may now kiss the bride,"

the reverend's words echoed through the air, signaling the culmination of a beautiful journey. in that moment, the world seemed to fade away, and all attention converged on the couple. time stood still as you gazed at the girl you love with your whole existence, captivated by her radiance.

yu jimin, breathtaking in her white wedding gown, adorned with delicate lace and pearls, took your breath away. as your eyes locked, an overwhelming surge of emotions filled your being. tears welled up in your eyes, cascading down your cheeks as you realized the magnitude of this moment.

you watched as jimin closed the gap. the room fell silent, and all eyes were fixed upon the soon to be newly wed.

as she drew nearer, her beauty intensified, an ethereal glow enveloping her. her eyes shimmered with adoration, the tenderness in her smile did a little something to your heart.

in that instant, everything faded into the background. the murmurs of guests, the soft rustle of fabric, and even the beating of your own heart seemed to vanish, as you look at her.

in that poignant moment, a flood of memories engulfed your mind, transporting you back to the time when your paths first crossed in high school.

amidst the celebratory atmosphere, your gaze briefly shifted from the present to the past. images of the bustling hallways, filled with laughter and youthful exuberance, flickered before your eyes. and there, amidst the sea of faces, you found yourself reliving the very first encounter with the woman who now is standing prettily in ber wedding dress, your beloved yu jimin.

you remember the day you first talked to her. panting as you walked up to the classroom after a particularly grueling p.e session, the scorching heat of the day engulfed you. beads of sweat formed on your forehead, glistening as they trickled down your temple as you curse at your p.e teacher for making you run three laps just for simply being late to his class.

with each step, the air felt heavy and stifling, making it harder to catch your breath. you were about to enter the classroom when you noticed a person, falling asleep in the classroom which made you raise your brow in confusion. you quietly made your way into the quiet yet suffocating classroom before realizing that it was the girl you’ve been wary of. not in a bad way, but just because.

as you approached jimin's desk, your palms grew clammy and your heart raced in your chest. the awkwardness hung in the air, almost tangible, as you contemplated how to break the ice.

finally, mustering your courage, you managed to speak up, your voice coming out in a soft, hesitant tone. "um, hey... are you okay?" you asked, concerned.

jimin, taken aback by your unexpected approach, slowly lifted her head from the desk, her eyes filled with a combination of pain and surprise. "oh, uh.... yeah, i'm... i'm just having really bad cramps," she admitted, her voice filled with a hint of vulnerability. her face as pale as a ghost.

you nodded, trying to convey understanding and concern, then swiftly exited the classroom.

jimin watched as you turned and swiftly exited the classroom, leaving her momentarily puzzled and unsure of your intentions. she couldn't fathom why you would suddenly leave after approaching her first.

you hurried down the empty hallways, your mind raced. you needed to help her. the heat seemed to intensify the urgency of the situation, urging you to find a solution quickly. you made your way to the school's convenience store, your steps quick and purposeful. the air conditioning inside provided a temporary relief from the stifling heat outside.

you scanned the shelves, searching for any over-the-counter medication that could alleviate jimin’s pain. finally, you found what you needed, a box of pain relievers specifically designed for menstrual cramps. clutching the medicine tightly, you made your way back to the classroom.

as you entered the room, you saw jimin looking downcast, her expression a mix of pain and disappointment as she had assume that you had left her in her time of need.

trying to hide your own inner turmoil, you approached her desk again, holding out the box of pain relievers. "jimin? hey i got these for you," you said, your voice gentle and sincere.

her eyes widened in surprise as she saw the medicine. "you got these for me?" she asked, her voice laced with disbelief.

you nodded, your cheeks tinged with a faint blush. "this is the least i can do," you explained, your voice filled with genuine concern.

a mixture of relief and gratitude washed over jimin’s face. she realized that you hadn't abandoned her, but had gone out of your way to assist her. "thank you," she whispered, her voice filled with sincerity and appreciation.

as the days passed, jimin couldn't help but be drawn to your kindness and thoughtfulness. she wasn’t aware of your existence before, but now she finds herself paying attention to every little things you do.

the classroom buzzed with the energy of high school students. some were diligently working on their assignments, while others chatted animatedly with friends. the atmosphere was typical for a mid-morning class, a mixture of focus and distraction.

amid the organized chaos, you sat at your desk, engrossed in your classwork. little did you know that jimin, was observing you from the moment the homeroom teacher left the classroom.

finally, as the noise in the classroom momentarily subsided, jimin seized her chance. she made her way to your desk, her heart pounding with appreciation. with a gentle tap on your shoulder, you turned to see her standing there, a warm and grateful smile on her face.

"hey," jimin said softly, her eyes filled with warmth, "i wanted to thank you for the other day" she said sliding an apple juice onto your table catching you by suprise. you were taken aback by jimin's sudden appearance and the earnestness in her eyes.

"oh, jimin," you replied, surprised, "it was no big deal, really." you flashed her a sincere smile, making her heart skip a beat.

the surrounding chatter seemed to fade away as jimin began to speak. her smile widened. "well, i appreciate it more than you know. and i wanted to do something nice for you in return."

the sincerity in her voice touched you, and you couldn't help but smile. "you don't have to, jimin," you said, still smiling.

jimin's eyes sparkled with gratitude as a tint of blush kissed her cheeks at the way her name rolls of your tongue "i know, but it’s fine! my treat."

as the two of you exchanged a heartfelt conversation, jimin’s deskmate aka her bestfriend couldn't help but take notice of the both of you.

as jimin returned to her seat, her heart still racing from her conversation with you, her desk mate aeri shot her a curious and somewhat suspicious look. aeri had been taken aback, shocked to see jimin interact with you.

you guys were the two pair she least expected to interact. you, a laid back person who rarely interfer with people’s business but presence always felt, and jimin who is the school’s beauty with brain who is a social butterfly that never fails to capture people’s heart but only she doesn’t know that.

aeri leaned in closer, her voice barely above a whisper, "jimin, what was that?" jimin's cheeks flushed with embarrassment as she tried to maintain her composure. she stammered, "oh, um, that? nothing, really. just... you know,"

aeri raised an eyebrow, clearly not convinced by jimin's nonchalant response. "jimin, you've never talked to y/n before, and here you are giving y/n an apple juice?"

jimin's blush deepened, and she looked down at her desk, her fingers nervously tapping the surface. she mumbled, "it's just... y/n helped me out when i had period cramps the other day, and i wanted to say thanks. that's all."

aeri's eyes widens as she listen to the truth behind jimin's actions, "y/n did what? oh wow.. i really didn’t expect that but that’s so nice of y/n!"

jimin smiled gratefully at aeri, feeling relieved that her friend had understood and wasn't prying further. she knew that her interaction with you had surprised not only aeri but also herself, revealing a side of her she hadn't often shown at school.

your interaction with jimin increased ever since that day. be it on purpose or not, the interaction always ends with either both of you smiling from ear to ear.

one day, as you were leaving the classroom, you noticed jimin looking a bit puzzled over her english homework. without hesitation, you approached her desk. kneeling down to match her eye level, you caught her attention immediately.

you smiled and said, "jiminie? need any help with that?"

jimin looked up, her cheeks kissed by a tint of pink because of the cute name you had just called her, eyes lighting up with gratitude. "please! i'm kind of stuck on this part." she pouted, poking her book with the end of her pen.

you sat down beside her, and together, you worked through the english question. as you explained the meaning of the passage to her, jimin's eyes travels between the paper and your lips everytime you turn to look at her and it didn’t go unnoticed by you. it left the both of you smiling to yourselves as you guys seperated ways walking back home that day.

or when you happened to have an extra space under your umbrella on a rainy afternoon. seeing jimin without one, you offered to share it as you both headed to your next class.

jimin expressed her thanks, saying, "thank you y/n, i owe you one!" she said as she immediately went under it, hugging your arm so close to her.

you responded casually, trying to not make it obvious that the skinship she had initiated is completely blowing your heart off right now, "you’re lucky i checked the weather today, or we both would be sitting in our soaking wet uniform for mrs han’s class" you joked. jimin laughed, leaning her head on your shoulder adding the damage she had just did to your heart.

as you walked side by side under the umbrella, you shared light-hearted conversation, making the gloomy day feel a bit brighter.

you remember during lunch breaks, you occasionally found yourselves sitting at the same table. one day, you noticed jimin's lunch contained her favorite dessert stacked on her plate.

with a playful grin, you said, "jimin, is that your secret stash of chocolate cake?"

jimin chuckled and admitted, "maybe... i couldn't resist today."

you couldn't help but smile as you shared a laugh over her sweet indulgence.

you and jimin had grown closer, your relationship evolving into something special, a comforting routine amidst the chaos of school life. whether it was helping each other with classwork, sharing a spontaneous joke, or just quietly enjoying each other's presence, those moments had become the highlight of your day.

so, that morning, as you entered the classroom, you carried with you the expectation that today would be no different.

you smiled to yourself as you envisioned the friendly banter, the shared laughter, and the subtle but undeniable connection you had grown accustomed to.

it was this anticipation that made her absence all the more conspicuous, as the classroom's front door swung open, you found yourself instinctively looking in anticipation for jimin's arrival.

“where is she? she’s never been this late” you mumbled catching the attention of your deskmate, yeji.

“jimin? oh wait, now that you’ve mentioned?” the girl asks, looking around the unironically empty classroom

she was usually punctual, entering the room with a warm smile that brightened the day for everyone. however, to your surprise, jimin was nowhere to be seen today.

as minutes turned into the start of the class and she still hadn't appeared, you initially assumed she might be running late, something out of the ordinary for her but not entirely impossible.

yet, as the class progressed and the morning hours drifted into recess, the absence of her familiar presence became increasingly concerning.

jimin skipping school was a rare scenario. she was known for her dedication to her studies and attendance, never missing a class unless she was genuinely unwell. the worry began to gnaw at you as you couldn't shake the feeling that something must be amiss.

as the bell rang, signaling the end of the school day, your sense of unease about jimin's absence intensified.

without wasting a moment, you rushed over to aeri, your classmate and friend who sat nearby. with a sense of urgency, you leaned in and asked, "hey, aeri, do you know where jimin lives?"

aeri, who had also been worried about jimin's absence, hesitated for a moment. she had been considering checking on jimin herself but seemed relieved that you were willing to take the initiative. still, she needed some reassurance.

"why do you want to know, and what are you planning to do?" aeri inquired with a concerned look

you quickly reassured her, realizing her concerns were valid. "aeri, i'm genuinely worried about her. she's never missed school like this, and i just want to make sure she's okay. i won't be a creep or anything, i promise."

aeri nodded, finally relenting. "alright, i was planning to go check on her too, but if you're going, that's fine. please make sure she's okay." she said as she sends you jimin’s address through kakaotalk.

with a grateful smile, you appreciated aeri's understanding and support. "thank you, aeri. i'll let you know as soon as i find out anything."

as you turned to leave, aeri couldn't resist teasing you a bit more, her playful tone making you flustered. "you know, she probably overslept and here you are, worrying too much! turning into a detective and shit" aeri giggled at the end of her words.

you chuckled and rolled your eyes at aeri’s playful banter, “oh come on, can’t help that i care for her”

“oh??” aeri’s eyes widen as she whipped her head towards you and then back and forth to the people around her wondering fi they heard what you had just said.

"please shut the fuck up aeri. i'll be quick, don't worry."

with that, you left school in a hurry, determined to check on jimin's well-being, even if it meant your concerns might prove unfounded, and aeri's teasing still ringing in your ears.

after rushing to jimin's house, your heart pounded with worry as you stood outside. to your suprise, the door creaked open, and there stood jimin, looking even paler than you had feared, her eyes heavy with exhaustion.

your worry surged as you saw her, and without a second thought, you sprinted towards her, catching her by surprise. "jimin?" you exclaimed, unable to contain your concern any longer.

jimin's tired eyes widened in surprise as she turned to face you, her legs momentarily giving way. however, your quick reflexes caught her just in time, wrapping your arms around her and steadying her.

"oh god, are you okay?" you asked with genuine concern, holding her gently but firmly in your arms.

jimin's face, once pale with fatigue and illness, transformed as she gazed up at you. she leaned into your embrace, her voice soft and filled with gratitude. "i've been so sick, and i'm really glad you're here."

in that moment, as you held jimin close, the worry that had gnawed at your heart finally began to ease. you could feel the warmth of her presence and the depth of her gratitude in the way she clung to you.

jimin, still leaning against you, whispered, "i didn't want to worry anyone, but i've been feeling so sick lately. i thought i could push through it, but today was just too much."

you gently stroked her hair, a soothing gesture, and replied with heartfelt concern, "don’t be so harsh on yourself, okay?"

as you entered the house with jimin leaning on you, your heart filled with worry and care for her well-being. carefully guiding her towards the unfamiliar house, you searched for the living room. you carefully let jimin rest on the couch, before fixing a couple strands of hair that was hiding her pretty face. "what happened? why are you so sick?"

jimin, still looking drained but grateful for your presence, explained in a weak voice, "i caught a cold last night, and it just got worse. my parents are out for the weekend’s outstation trip, and i didn't want to bother them. but i’ve been too weak to even get out of bed, let alone go out and get medicine or eat."

“you should’ve called me. i was so worried about you jimin” your concern for jimin had poured out in your words, reflecting just how much you cared about her.

you were taken aback by the depth of your own emotions, and for a moment, you felt a rush of shyness as you realized how openly you had expressed your care for her, “.. or you could’ve called aeri”

gently placing the pillows and helping her settle on the couch, you stammered, "let’s get you some medicine and something to eat”

the realization of your deep feelings for jimin had made you momentarily shy, you cursed to yourself when you realized how you sounded just now but your determination to help her remained unwavering.

as you moved around in jimin's kitchen, searching for the medicine and the ingredients to make her a warm porridge, your thoughts were divided. on one hand, you were determined to find what you needed to take care of her. on the other hand, you couldn't help but steal glances at jimin in the living room.

every few moments, you would check on her, your worry and care evident in your eyes. she sat there, looking fragile yet comforted by your presence, and your heart swelled with the desire to ensure her comfort and well-being.

you found the medicine and the necessary ingredients eventually, but your occasional glances at jimin throughout the process were a testament to your unwavering concern for her.

few minutes passed and as you stood by the stove, carefully stirring the porridge and making sure the medicine was ready, you felt a pair of eyes on you. turning slightly, you found jimin sitting in the living room, her gaze fixed on you. her eyes held an expression you couldn't quite place—gratitude, warmth, and something more.

a gentle smile formed on your lips as you continued to cook, but you couldn't ignore the flutter of your own heart. it was as though you could feel the intensity of her emotions from across the room.

"should i turn on the tv to distract you while you eat?"

jimin’s gaze never left you as she shook her head softly, her voice barely above a whisper. "no, i just want to look at you."

your heart skipped a beat at her words, and a warmth washed over you. with the bowl of warm porridge and the medicine in hand, you returned to where jimin was sitting in the living room.

you offered her the food, and she accepted it with a grateful smile.

“careful, it’s hot” you said, sitting down next to her on the comfy couch. her small hands proceed to take the bowl from you.

however, as she reach for the spoon, she couldn't resist a playful grin. she set the spoon down in your hand, pretending to be weak, and looked up at you with big, pleading eyes. "could you,, feed me?"

you chuckled softly at her playful request, charmed by her antics. "what got into you?"

“i dont know” jimin faked a cough, making you roll your eyes in a joking manner. “maybe it’s the cold that is getting to me” she playfully giggled as you pick up the spoon. jimin's playful request to be fed made your heart flutter, and you couldn't help but smile as you continued to feed her.

with each spoonful, she would occasionally blow on the hot porridge and then take a small, delicate bite, all while maintaining eye contact with you.

a soft chuckle escaped your lips as you couldn't resist teasing her. "you know, jimin, you're quite the drama queen today."

jimin giggled, her eyes sparkling with mischief. "well, i have to take advantage of being sick, right?"

you nodded in agreement, playing along with her delightful antics. "that's true. and it gives me the chance to pamper you a little."

jimin's cheeks turned a faint shade of pink as she gazed at you, her voice soft and filled with warmth, looking at you with wide eyes. "that’s so sweet?"

your heart skipped a beat at her words, and you couldn't help but feel a rush of affection. "only for you,”

the rest of the evening was filled with shared laughter, playful banter, and moments that made your heart swell with fondness.

jimin felt a change in the air. her heart raced a little faster whenever you looked at her, and a warmth spread through her chest as she enjoyed your company. it was in those quiet moments when you shared stories and exchanged smiles that jimin couldn't help but wonder if there was something more between you both, or if you felt like this towards her as well.

in all honesty, you were aware that your feelings for her were far from simple. every time you see her, your emotions swelled, intensifying your desire to be transparent about your affection for her.

and finallly after much contemplation and discussion with one of your closest friend yunjin, you had finally devised a well-thought-out plan to address your emotions and reveal to jimin just how much you cherished her.

it was during this vibrant season that yunjin, one day in class, (not so) suddenly exclaimed, "you guys! there's a firework festival happening this weekend! we should all go together!"

the idea of a firework festival was met with enthusiasm from your classmates, and as the conversation buzzed around you, you couldn't help but seize the opportunity. nervously, you turned to jimin and asked, "will you be free to join me?"

jimin looked at you, her eyes sparkling with excitement. "why is that even a question? i’m always free if that means i get to spend time with you"

you smiled, so stupidly that you wish you could just wash your whole expression off right at the moment. you laughed and internally let out a deep sigh, one of you and yunjin’s biggest concern is jimin not being able to make it this weekend.

your heart raced with anticipation as you managed to invite jimin. however, you couldn't help but feel a bit jittery, knowing that the firework festival was the perfect setting to finally confess your feelings to her.

the days leading up to the festival were filled with a mix of excitement and nervousness. you wanted everything to be perfect, and you couldn't stop thinking about how to express your emotions to jimin.

yunjin decided to pay you a visit at your house to offer her support in preparation for your confession to jimin. constantly having to reassure you that everything will be okay as she picks what would look good on you for the upcoming night.

she was there to assist you in choosing the right words to express your feelings, select the perfect outfit to wear on this momentous occasion, and guide you on what steps to take immediately after confessing. her presence and advice provided a sense of comfort and assurance as you geared up to share your heartfelt emotions with jimin.

the warm summer evening bathed the surroundings in a soft, golden glow. jimin’s eyes sparkled with excitement and happiness when she saw you walking towards her, sitting next to her on the shared mat.

she was pretty. you couldn't help but stare at jimin, who looked absolutely stunning with her hair tied into a messy bun, her bangs covering her forehead.you were staring a little bit too much, too much that jimin waved her hand in front of you, snapping you out of your trance.

unable to contain your affection, you gently fixed her bangs, "hi pretty, you look absolutely breathtaking." jimin's cheeks turned a lovely shade of pink as she glanced at you, her smile radiant. "and you, you clean up pretty well too."

as you and jimin waited for the festival to begin, the conversation flowed effortlessly, and every word you exchanged felt like another step closer to the confession you had been eagerly waiting to make.

jimin's eyes twinkled as she talked about her favorite firework shapes. "i've always loved the ones that look like colorful stars. what about you?"

you couldn't help but chuckle. "i'll have to go with the ones that burst into a heart shape. they remind me of you."

jimin's cheeks turned a delightful shade of pink, and she playfully nudged you. "you’re such a charmer, aren’t you?"

as the festival grounds starts to get crowded, the atmosphere became increasingly electric. the anticipation was palpable as you both felt relief to find a spot to enjoy the fireworks beforehand. you and jimin shared a quiet moment, taking in the anticipation in the night sky.

right before the first firework was about to light up the night sky, your heart brimmed with excitement. you turned to jimin, a warm smile plastered on your face as you gently took her hand in your own. your fingers interlaced, and in that moment, it felt like the world around you had faded away,

jimin, caught off guard by your sudden hand-holding, blinked in surprise. her cheeks flushed with a rosy hue, and her eyes sparkled with a mixture of delight and endearment. she didn't pull her hand away but instead tightened her grip on yours, her smile growing even brighter. her reaction was undeniably cute, and it made your heart skip a beat.

with a soft smile, jimin leaned closer, her voice a gentle murmur. "i'm so glad you invited me tonight. it means a lot to me."

"i wouldn't want to be here with anyone else, jimin." a gentle smile graced her lips, and her eyes seemed to shimmer with appreciation and affection. your words had clearly touched her heart, and her voice held a hint of tenderness as she responded.

“remember, first burst and you’re on it” yunjin’s voice rang in your head as you nervously anticipated the first burst of the fireworks.

as if on cue, the first burst of fireworks painted the night sky with a dazzling array of colors. in the gentle glow of the fireworks, you turned to her, your heart brimming with love. "jimin," you began, your voice soft yet filled with sincerity,

jimin turn to look at you, as if you’re the most important thing in the universe right now. the words you had been waiting to say spilled out from your heart, "jimin, there's something i've been wanting to tell you."

jimin's eyes widened with curiosity, her gaze that waslocked onto yours, deepened "what is it?"

your voice continued, each word carrying the weight of your emotions. "i want you to know that i really care about you, jimin. you mean so much to me, and i... i think i'm in love with you."

jimin's eyes shimmered with a mixture of surprise and emotion as the fireworks faded into the night. there was a small pause that felt like an eternity. the world seemed to hold its breath as you anxiously waited for her response, your heart pounding with uncertainty.

in that brief moment of silence, you couldn't help but worry that you might have overwhelmed her or said too much, too soon. but then, as the next burst of fireworks filled the night sky, jimin's eyes welled up with tears, and a smile broke across her face like the dawn of a new day.

jimin leaned closer, her voice filled with affection. "you have no idea how happy you've made me tonight. i've been waiting to hear those words from you."

your heart swelled with love, and you gently cupped her face, your thumbs brushing away a stray tear. "jimin, you're the most incredible person i've ever met. you deserve all the happiness in the world."

the next firework burst into the sky, casting a soft, romantic glow over both of you. you leaned in, and your lips met in a sweet, tender kiss, sealing your confession with a promise of a new chapter in your lives.

as the night continued with its magical display, the two of you held each other, feeling like the luckiest people in the world. your love had found its moment to shine, just like the fireworks in the summer night sky.

as the fireworks festival came to a close, you walked jimin home, hand in hand. the summer night had left an indelible mark on your hearts, and the gentle evening breeze seemed to carry the whispers of your newfound love.

the conversation between you both was easy and sweet, filled with dreams of the future. as you reached her doorstep, the moment to part ways arrived, and you couldn't help but feel a twinge of sadness. jimin, however, looked up at you with a soft, affectionate smile.

"i had the most amazing night with you," she said, her voice filled with warmth.

you couldn't agree more. "i can't wait for more nights like these." your grip on her hand tighten, as she bring the back of your hand to her lips, kissing it softly.

jimin's eyes twinkled with excitement, and she hesitated for a moment before speaking. "so, now that we're, you know, partners... how should we address each other?"

you chuckled, realizing you hadn't quite clarified that yet. "i think we can keep it simple. do you have any special name you'd like to be called? i'd love to hear it."

jimin blushed at the suggestions, and then she looked at you with a mischievous glint in her eyes. "how about 'the love of my life'?"

your heart skipped a beat at her playfulness, and you couldn't resist grinning. "i think that's perfect, the love of my life." with a teasing glint in your eye, you added, "but maybe on casual days, i'll call you 'sweetheart' or 'babe.'"

jimin giggled at your playful banter. "you're spoiling me with options now, aren't you?" you leaned in, brushing a soft kiss against her cheek. "well, you deserve all the sweet names in the world."

the two of you shared a playful and affectionate moment and with that, you shared a tender kiss, sealing the evening with a promise of more beautiful moments to come, and a good night wish.

"come visit me in my dreams tonight, okay?" jimin playfully tapped your chest, eliciting a hearty laugh that left your cheekbones aching from the constant smile.

"you're getting awfully clingy," you teased, just as jimin closed the front door, leaving you alone with a foolish grin plastered across your face.

after that night, your bond with jimin grew stronger by the day. it was as if the sparks of love from that summer night had ignited a permanent flame between you two. you became inseparable at school, often seen together in the hallways, at lunch, and during group activities.

but what made your connection even more special was the low-key nature of your relationship. you didn't flaunt your love for each other; it was the little things that spoke volumes. the shared smiles, secret glances, and the way your hands would subtly find each other's during class or while walking down the school corridors. everyone loved seeing the two of you together, and your classmates often commented on how perfect you were for each other.

of course, like any relationship, you had your disagreements. there were times when a fight would erupt, sometimes over trivial matters and at other times over more serious issues. but what set your relationship apart was your commitment to working things out. you'd stay up late talking, apologizing, and understanding each other's perspectives. you made it a point to never let one another go to sleep upset.

jimin and you knew that in each other, you had found someone worth fighting for and loving with all your hearts.

as high school came to a close, jimin and you continued to be each other's constant support, studying together, sharing notes, and making precious memories along the way. it wasn't always smooth sailing, but the challenges only strengthened your bond.

one sunny afternoon, the results of the university entrance exams were released. you and jimin anxiously checked the list of accepted students. your eyes widened in amazement when you saw your names side by side on the acceptance list of the same prestigious university.

excitement bubbled within you as you turned to jimin. "love! we did it! we're going to the same university!"

jimin's eyes sparkled with joy, and she couldn't contain her enthusiasm. "i can't believe it! we're going to be together in college!"

the two of you shared an exhilarating hug right then and there, surrounded by classmates who were cheering on their own achievement.

with the news that you'd both been accepted into the same university, the excitement in your hearts was hard to contain. you decided to celebrate this wonderful milestone with a special dinner night.

as the sun set, you and jimin dressed up for the occasion, looking your best for the evening ahead. there was an air of anticipation in the way you smiled at each other, knowing that this celebration was not just about your academic success but the continuation of your beautiful journey as a couple.

you chose a cozy, candlelit restaurant known for its delectable cuisine. the atmosphere was perfect for a night of celebration. the soft glow of the candles, the soothing music in the background, and the warmth of each other's company set the scene for a memorable evening.

the waiter brought a delectable dessert, adorned with a sparkler that lit up the room. you reached across the table and took her hand, your eyes filled with love and gratitude. "i'm so lucky to have you by my side, not just tonight, but for all the nights that are yet to come. let’s do well"

she squeezed your hand, returning your gaze with affection. "i know, i can't wait to see where it takes us."

hand in hand, the evening continued with a sense of wonder and joy, as you celebrated your shared success.

as you both enrolled in the first semester at the university, your hearts were filled with excitement and anticipation. while you had chosen different majors, it didn't stop you from making time to meet up during lunch or to study together whenever free moments presented themselves. your connection remained strong, and the bond you had built over the years only grew deeper in this new chapter of your lives.

you cherished those moments when you could share a meal, talk about your classes, and laughing whenever the other makes a joke. those simple, everyday interactions were what made your days brighter.

however, as the semester progressed, jimin started making new friends and gradually spent more time with her newfound companions. the dynamic between you two began to change. she was excited about her expanding social circle and the adventures that came with it.

you didn't mind her making new friends; in fact, you were happy for her. it was her happiness that mattered the most. however, you couldn't help but feel worried about how less time she spent with you. lunches together became less frequent, and the study sessions no longer had the same closeness they once did.

your concern grew when she started attending parties thrown by her new friends. you used to accompany her and enjoy the gatherings, but as she began to attend more frequently, you found yourself getting tired and not as enthusiastic about going along.

it wasn't about jealousy, it was the fear that the person you had shared so many moments with was slipping away, and it left a pang in your heart.

in the beginning, you tried your best to be supportive and understanding. you knew that making new friends and embracing the social aspects of university life was an important part of the college experience. jimin deserved to have that, and you genuinely wanted her to enjoy this new chapter of her life.

however, as the weeks turned into months, the change in your dynamic became increasingly noticeable. your conversations became shorter, and sometimes you felt like you were the one initiating them. you missed those shared dreams, heart-to-heart talks before gong to bed whenever she came for sleepover, and moments of laughter that used to be a staple in your relationship.

in the span of 4 months the parties became more frequent, and you often found yourself neglected and staying back, choosing rest over the late nights of celebration. it was as if you were leading parallel lives, existing in different orbits. the anxiety of feeling left behind began to weigh on you.

one day, as you were going through your own class schedule, you saw a message from jimin about another party she planned to attend. you felt a mixture of emotions—worry, frustration, and the desire to talk things out. you replied,

“jimin”

“understand you want to enjoy college life”

“and make new friends”

“but i miss spending time with you and talking like we used to”

“can we find some balance”

jimin's response was quick, but it was clear that her priorities had shifted.

“i know, but i'm just exploring new opportunities”

“we always meet”

“let me have fun, pls”

her words stung, and you were left with a heavy heart. it was a difficult realization that the person you had shared so many memories with now had different priorities. you weren't against her growth or happiness, but the sudden distance between you two left you with a sense of loneliness you hadn't felt before.

jimin was excited about tonight’s party invitation she'd received and she couldn't contain her enthusiasm. you, on the other hand, couldn't help but feel the distance that had grown between you.

as jimin prepared for the party, you couldn't contain your frustration any longer. leading to you breaking the tense atmosphere as you confronted her. "jimin, do you really have to go to another party?” you turn to look at jimin who was fixing her bang and her annoyingly short dress. “you've been going out so often lately, and we barely spend any time together anymore."

jimin paused, her eyes flickering with a mixture of emotions. she retorted, "i have to, okay? i want to enjoy college life and have fun. it doesn't mean i'm abandoning you."

you were hurt by her response, and the frustration bubbled up inside. "it's not about you enjoying college life, jimin. i want you to enjoy it but it feels like you're choosing these parties and your new friends over our relationship”

jimin's frustration mirrored your own. "come on, y/n. this again? we should trust each other. i can't feel like i'm constantly under surveillance, or that i can't have a life outside of us."

the argument escalated, harsh words exchanged that neither of you truly meant. your voice grew louder as you tried to make her understand your perspective. "i just want you to make time for us too, jimin. is that too much to ask?"

jimin's patience wore thin, and her voice wavered with a mix of anger and sadness. "i can't be your only source of happiness. you need to find some independence too! you can't cling to me like this."

tears welled up in your eyes as you felt a profound sense of loss. "i'm not clinging, i just don't want to lose you."

the weight of your words hung heavily in the air, and it all became too much for jimin to handle. she couldn't take the mounting tension and your jealousy any longer. in a moment of frustration, she exclaimed, "maybe you should figure out what you want from this relationship," and then stormed out of the house.

left standing alone in the silence that followed, your heart ached, and you realized that something had irrevocably changed between you and jimin. you were left to grapple with the reality of her absence and the implications of your argument.

two hours had passed since the heated argument with jimin, and you were now in your apartment, trying to clear your mind and calm your racing thoughts. the silence in the room was overwhelming, and you couldn't shake off the heavy feeling that something had been irreparably broken.

as you went about your evening routine, your mind wandered back to your argument with jimin. you wondered whether you had been too demanding, too clingy, or if there was a better way you could have expressed your feelings. you had no answers, just a deep sense of longing for the way things used to be.

suddenly, the door to your room swung open, and there stood jimin, disheveled and with her makeup smeared. Her mascara had left streaks on her cheeks, and her eyes were red and swollen.

panic surged through you at the sight of her disarray. without a second thought, you rushed to her side and pulled her into a tight, comforting hug.

the familiar scent of the cologne on her shirt filled your senses, the cologne you had come to associate with the late nights she'd spent sneaking into bed after parties. it wasn’t your cologne, nor was it hers. and with all the mess right now, all your doubts and thought fell into pieces.

and that was when you slowly let go of the hug, slowly distancing yourself from jimin, "jimin, what happened?" you asked, tears welling up your own eyes as you figured out.

her breath trembled, her voice quivering with anxiety and guilt. "i slept with someone else... y/n .. i fucked, someone…” jimin sobs gradually grew intense.

“you..." your voice was barely a whisper, filled with the overwhelming hurt and anguish you were experiencing. "intentionally, jimin?" your voice broke

“i wanted to convince myself that i was just drunk, but it was all intentional. y/n .. i messed up-" her red shot eyes turned to look up into yours.

you couldn't meet her gaze, knowing that the same eyes had once locked onto another's just hours aho, sharing affectionate glances, breath, and kisses.

"you messed up?" your voice trembled with anger and sorrow. "that's an understatement, jimin. you betrayed us. you betrayed everything we had."

jimin's tears flowed freely now, and she buried her face in her hands. "i never meant to hurt you. it was... i don't know, i thought it would help me forget about all the arguments and our drifting apart."

the words stung like a thousand needles, and you turned away, your back to jimin. "so, you thought fucking someone else was the solution? how does that make any sense!"

she reached out to you, her voice pleading. "it doesn't. it was a terrible mistake, and i hate myself for it.

you couldn't face her; the betrayal was too raw. "jimin, i loved you more than anything, but this... this is something i can't—" your voice cracked, your movements faltering as the weight of heartbreak pressed down upon you. every word felt like a painful reminder of what had been shattered.

jimin's pleas for forgiveness as she sobs, her voice muffled as the tears continued to flow. her attempts to reach out and touch you went unanswered. she could see the pain in your eyes, the same eyes that had once gazed at her with love and trust, now clouded with hurt and betrayal.

your voice was still heavy with sorrow as you asked, "...what led to all of this? what caused you to betray us?" you breath hitched, holding back another breakdown “three years jimin. three years..”

her eyes were red from crying, and she seemed to tremble at the sincerity of your question. "i.. we were growing apart, and I didn't know how to handle it."

your heart ached as you probed further, "and who is it, jimin? who did you betray me with?"

jimin’s gaze fell to the ground, and she hesitated for a moment before whispering a name that felt like a dagger through your heart.

the truth was as painful as you had feared, leaving you both trapped in the aftermath of the devastating confession.

“lee jeno”

you took a step back, distancing yourself from the person you had cherished. the room felt like it was closing in on you, and you had to escape the painful atmosphere. "i need some space, jimin. i can't... i can’t be around you right now."

as you left the room, her sobs echoed in your ears, a heartbreaking symphony of the love that had been lost. your heart felt like it was shattering into a million pieces, and there was no immediate solution to mend the damage.

that had been the last time you laid eyes on jimin. in the days that followed, you spiraled into a world of sleepless nights and avoidance. your once vibrant social life dwindled as you withdrew even from your closest friends and family. you attended classes like a ghost and vanished right after.

jimin, on the other hand, wasn't faring any better. that night when you left her, she had spent hours in her room, blaming herself for the stupid decision she had made. she recognized the effect of her betrayal and the trust she had shattered couldn’t be fixed.

it was that very night when jimin made the difficult decision to delete and block the people she hung out out with at parties, distancing herself from the world she had become entangled with. she regretted not listening to you earlier, acknowledging that her actions had led to a point of no return.

while you deatached yourself from the world, jimin showed up on campus every day, determined to fix everything that went wrong even if it took years. she understood that she should be embarrassed and that she had to face the consequences of her actions. yet, she couldn't bear the thought of losing you and desperately longed for a chance to make things right again.

couldn’t bear the pain, jimin realized that she needed to find a way to bridge the immense gap between you two.

she decided to pour her feelings into heartfelt letters, carefully crafting each word as an attempt to convey the depth of her remorse and her desire to heal what was broken.

jimin’s determination kept her waiting at the cafeteria, just in case one day you might return to savor your favorite lunch. she knew deep down that you'd never show up, but she couldn't help but wait.

on tuesdays, she occasionally found herself waiting at your preferred boba shop, hoping against hope that you would walk in one day, ordering your usual drink.

but despite her efforts, you had completely shut yourself off from her and any interaction. your avoidance reached new levels, and you deliberately altered your daily patterns to ensure you didn't cross paths with jimin on campus.

it was as if you were leading an entirely different life, one starkly different from the world she once knew.

time moved on, and the years passed by, marked by the silence between you. jimin , however, did not give up. every month, like clockwork, she would send you letters filled with her thoughts, apologies, and hope.

they remained unopened, gathering dust on your shelf. each letter was a message of love and remorse, a silent cry for a second chance that you never acknowledged.

as you neared the final semester of your final year, the unopened letters had become a part of your life's background noise. it had been years since you last saw jimin, and you had grown accustomed to your separate lives.

seasons changed and the letters eventually stopped arriving, and you thought that perhaps this was the definitive end of jimin’s attempts to rekindle your connection.

the thought was bittersweet. on one hand, you found relief in finally moving forward from the heartbreak, but on the other, the weight of what was lost remained heavy in your heart.

then, one day, when you least expected it, a message popped up on your phone. It was from jimin. asking to meet you somewhere, and the mix of emotions that surged through you was impossible to ignore. it was a text that marked the possibility of reconnection, or perhaps, closure.

you couldn't predict what the meeting would bring, but you knew it was a crucial moment in both your lives, a moment that could change everything, or end the chapter that had been left hanging for so long.

you agreed to meet jimin at a quaint little café, and as you sat across from each other, the atmosphere was thick with uncertainty.

your mind raced with questions. was she finally asking for a second chance? was it time to open up your heart to her once more? you couldn't deny that you had never truly moved on from jimin, and the thought of a future together still lingered in the depths of your heart.

as you both engaged in small talk, the familiar smile she had always hown you kept appearing, making your thoughts drift towards the possibility of rekindling your connection. you imagined what it would be like to hold her hand again, to share your dreams and your life with her, as you once did.

but just when you were leaning towards the idea of a fresh start, jimin slid a wedding invitation onto the table, and it caught you completely off guard.

you blinked in disbelief, your heart dropped to the pit of your stomach. the invitation sat there.

the café's ambiance provided an uneasy backdrop for what felt like a pivotal moment. you couldn't help but ask the burning question. "jimin, what's this about?"

jimin's eyes met yours, and she took a deep breath, as if she'd been mentally preparing for this moment. "i know it must be a shock. i didn't want to keep it from you any longer."

you studied her face, searching for answers. "whose wedding is it?"

jimin hesitated for a moment before answering. "it's my wedding"

the words hit you like a ton of bricks. you felt like the wind had been knocked out of you, and you struggled to comprehend the enormity of the revelation. "your... wedding? i don't understand."

she continued, her voice shaking. "i never stopped loving you, but i couldn't keep waiting for something that might never happen. i tried to move on, and i met someone else. we've been together for a while now"

the truth was like a dagger to your heart, and you couldn't hide the pain in your eyes. "so, you're getting married. you're moving on."

jimin nodded, tears glistening in her eyes. "i'm not asking for your blessing or forgiveness. i just wanted you to know, to understand why i couldn't keep writing those letters or waiting any longer."

you couldn't find the right words to respond. the thought of jimin being with someone else, preparing for a life you once envisioned together, was a devastating blow. you knew that you had pushed her away, but you never anticipated this outcome.

in that moment, you understood that these words were not merely about her wedding. they were about the pain and heartbreak that had filled the void between you.

jimin's tear hung precariously on her lower eyelid for a moment before finally falling, and it was as if the drop held all the unspoken love and regret. the café, once a place of shared laughter, now bore witness to the depths of your intertwined emotions.

a solitary tear rolled down jimin's cheek, glistening like a diamond. her voice was barely more than a whisper as she choked back sobs, her eyes locked onto yours. "i'm so, so sorry."

silence enveloped both of you, a heavy blanket of emotions that neither of you could escape. the café, once a place of potential reconciliation, now held the bittersweet truth that your time with jimin had passed.

“you may now kiss the bride”

you watched as jimin closed the gap. the room fell silent, and all eyes were fixed upon the soon to be newly wed.

as she drew nearer, her beauty intensified, an ethereal glow enveloping her. her eyes shimmered with adoration, the tenderness in her smile did a little something to your heart.

you watched in silence as jimin closed the gap between her and her partner. the room seemed to fade away, and all eyes were fixed upon the soon-to-be newlyweds. the world around you blurred as your gaze remained locked on her.

as she drew nearer to her partner, her beauty seemed to intensify, an ethereal glow enveloping her. her eyes shimmered with adoration, and the tenderness in her smile was nothing short of breathtaking.

but in that very moment, the heartbreak was like a physical weight pressing down on your chest. you couldn't look away as jimin leaned in to kiss her partner. it was a kiss filled with love, the kind you had once shared with her. it was a reminder of the life you had hoped to build together, now realized in someone else's arms.

as you stood there, a sense of loss and longing washed over you. you couldn't help but wonder if you had made a mistake by letting jimin go, by not fighting for what you once had. the kiss marked a new beginning for jimin, but for you, it was a painful ending, a stark reminder of the love you had lost.

jimin offered you an opportunity, a chance to rebuild the trust that had once been broken. but you hesitated, unable to fully place your trust in her, in the one you still loved.

in the end, there was no one to blame but yourself. the choices you made, from buying her medicine back in high school to confessing your feelings under the fireworks, had all led to this moment. meeting jimin, loving her, had shaped your life in both beautiful and painful ways.

with a heavy heart, you realized that maybe those decisions, no matter how challenging or painful, were all part of your story with your beloved jimin.

my beloved, jimin.

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1104-am · 7 months

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im finally back after a whilee 🥲 i have a couple of stories in my drafts, and most of them are 5k+ words. do you guys want me to post them in one post or divide them into parts?

#aespa

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Omgg i love your works sooo much! Especially priority, sorry i love u, and just go 💔 keep up the good work! Thankyou for making the time to do these works :D

Made me cry sm but i loved it lol

AWH THANK YOU SO MUCHH!!! 💔

i’ll try my best to post more and figure out how to work this app ..

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Do you have a masterlist?

anon i actually dont know how this app works and ive been trying to figure out .. 😭😭 ill try to make one!

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ningning | drunk

genre ; angst

pairings ; ningning x gn!reader

note ; this one is very rushed!

word count ; 2.5k+

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the clock struck midnight, casting a lonely shadow over the dimly lit room. it was a weekend night, and the world outside seemed to be having a blast. lost in the solitude, you found yourself immersed in the glow of your phone's screen, staring at a message that was sent by ningning—your ex, a few days ago.

ning yizhuo

sorry, was drunk.

2:34a.m

whatever you hear from those calls, they mean nothing. i was drunk, you know how i am when i drink.

2:36a.m

your heart felt heavy with longing, and your mind became entangled in a whirlwind of thoughts. the loneliness of the weekend night amplified the ache within your soul, reminding you of the void that had been left in the wake of your separation.

the soft glow of your phone illuminated your face as you gazed at ningning's message. you wanted to hear her voice again, telling you how much she misses you and how much she loves you. let it be a lie, you just wanted to hear her say the things you couldnt hear from her when the both of you were together, even if it was under the influence of alcohol.

in the quiet of the night, you found yourself longing for another drunk call from ningning. it was a desire, craving a connection that seemed destined for entanglement. your heart held onto the fragments of memories, perhaps believing that within the haze of intoxication, hidden truths and unspoken desires would surface.

with a deep breath, you gently set your phone aside, allowing the message to hang in the air, unanswered. you knew the importance of healing and finding your own path forward, but you just wanted to live in this bubble of you and ningning for a while.

a weeks had passed since the first call, and each weekend brought a familiar routine. as the night deepened, so did ningning's calls, saturated with the lingering scent of alcohol and the weight of regret.

in an instant, you were transported back to the first of many late-night conversations. the memories played before your eyes like a silent film, flickering with a mix of happiness and pain.

ningning's voice trembled through the phone, her words slurred yet laden with vulnerability. "i miss us, you know? i miss what we had. i'm sorry, so sorry for everything." the echoes of her regret resonated in the quiet room, intertwining with the raw emotions that still lingered within you.

the flashback dissolved, and reality melded with the present. lost in your thoughts, your mind couldn’t register the familiar ringtone of your phone ringing through you ears. it was her, it was ningning. with a heavy yet longing heart, you swiped to answer her call.

“y/n..”

ningning's voice crackled through the phone, breaking the silence of the room. the sound of her familiar tone sent a shiver down your spine, and you couldn't help but hold your breath, waiting to hear what she had to say.

"are you there" her voice quivered with a mix of nervousness and longing. "i hope you're there”

“have you eaten?” she asked, hint of curiosity lingered in the air. you simple hummed in response.

“sorry, i... i couldn't stop myself from calling you. i know i've said this before, but i can't help but miss you. it's like this void in my chest that won't go away."

you remained silent, allowing her to pour her heart out, to let the words flow freely without interruption. it was a strange mix of emotions within you—part of you wanted to hang up, to distance yourself from the pain, but another part longed to hear her voice, to hear her confess her regrets.

"i've been thinking a lot about us lately," ningning continued, her voice tinged with nostalgia. "about the way we used to laugh together, the late-night conversations that lasted for hours. remember those? they were the best times of my life, and i threw it all away."

as she spoke, memories flooded your mind—those stolen moments of joy, the loud shared laughter which made you receive scolding from the leader of aespa, and the intimate conversations that once defined your relationship. it was both comforting and painful to relive those moments in your mind, to remember what was lost.

"i want you to know that i regret everything i did," she confessed, her voice filled with remorse. "every hurtful word, every mistake. it haunts me, you know? i can't escape the guilt. i wish i could turn back time and make things right."

her words echoed in the stillness of the room, and you couldn't help but feel a tinge of sympathy. it was evident that she carried the weight of her actions, the burden of her choices. a part of you wanted to forgive her, to give her a chance at redemption, but another part held onto the pain and questioned whether trust could be rebuilt.

"i've been drowning in memories of us, of what we had," ningning continued, her voice filled with longing. "i miss your touch, the warmth of your embrace. i miss the way you made me feel safe, loved. it's like a constant ache, this longing for what we lost."

her vulnerability was palpable, seeping through the phone line and into your heart. the raw honesty of her confession tugged at your emotions, threatening to break down the walls you had built to protect yourself. but amidst the longing, a seed of caution sprouted within you, reminding you of the pain you had endured.

"and i'm sorry," ningning's voice softened, her regret cutting through the air. "i'm sorry for breaking your trust, for pushing you away. i was foolish, scared. i didn't know how to handle my own emotions, and i took it out on you. it's my biggest regret, and i can't find peace until i've apologized."

her apology hung in the air, heavy with sincerity. it was a moment you had yearned for, a moment where she acknowledged her faults and expressed genuine remorse. but as you listened, a mix of emotions flooded your being—love, anger, sadness, and confusion.

"i've been going through a lot of changes lately," she continued, her voice filled with a hint of hope. "soul-searching, you could say. trying to become a better version of myself. but it's hard, you know? it's hard when i still carry this love for you, this hope that maybe, just maybe, we can find our way back to each other."

ningning's words stirred conflicting emotions within you. could it be possible? could you find a way to reconcile, to rebuild what was broken? the allure of what once was, the love that still lingered, tugged at your heartstrings, urging you to consider the possibility of a second chance.

"i don't expect you to forgive me right away, or at all," she admitted, her voice laced with vulnerability. "i don't even know if i deserve it. but i needed to let you know how i feel, how much you mean to me. you're the one who got away, the one i let slip through my fingers."

her words echoed through the depths of your soul, and you found yourself grappling with a flood of emotions. the decision weighed heavily upon you—whether to open yourself up to the possibility of forgiveness and reconciliation or to guard your heart and protect yourself from further pain.

"i don't expect a response, and i understand if you need your space," ningning's voice trembled, her vulnerability laid bare. "just... please, remember that i love you. i always have, and a part of me always will. you were my anchor, and losing you was the hardest thing i've ever had to endure. goodbye..."

there was a long pause, the silence stretching between you like an unspoken question. the weight of her words hung in the air, and you knew that this moment would shape the path forward. with a mixture of trepidation and resolve, you whispered softly, "goodbye, ningning," and ended the call.

as you hung up the call, a mix of emotions washed over you, leaving you feeling emotionally drained. you let out a deep sigh and set your phone down, staring up at the ceiling in the dimly lit room. the weight of the conversation hung heavily in the air, as if it had seeped into the very fibers of the space around you. this call wasn’t like her other drunk calls, no drunk giggles, no small jokes, only emotions and regrets.

the words from ningning's heartfelt confession echoed in your mind, creating a cacophony of thoughts and emotions. it was as if her voice had left an indelible mark, imprinting itself onto your soul.

the room remained still, the only sound the soft hum of the air conditioner. you gazed at the ceiling, seeking solace in its neutral expanse, as if it held the answers to the questions swirling within your mind.

and all you could think about right now is to talk to your best friend, who is a member the groip your ex is in. you pulled out your phone and composed a text to giselle, feeling the need to confide in her about the recent encounters with the maknae of her group. you fingers tapped the screen, sending the message that would set the wheels in motion for a much-needed conversation.

you

aeri?

can we meet up? there’s something important i’d like to talk to you about.

4:45a.m

a few days later, you found yourself seated at a cozy corner table in a nearby cafe, awaiting giselle's arrival. the pleasant aroma of freshly brewed coffee filled the air as you observed the bustling activity around you.

finally, giselle walked through the door, her familiar smile lighting up the room. she spotted you and made her way over, greeting you with a warm hug. the tension that had been building within you slowly dissipated as the comfort of her presence enveloped you.

as you settled into the conversation, the initial exchange was light-hearted, filled with laughter and shared memories.

“and you’re still with that same hoodie of yours” you teased as you noticed the same chrome hearts jacket that was wrapped around her body. making gisellle laugh as she counters you back with another diss.

jokes were exchanged, reminiscing about the good times you had all shared together. It was a moment of respite from the weighty matters that hung over your head.

in between sips of coffee, you found a brief pause in the banter, taking a deep breath before speaking up.

“aeri, i wanted to talk to you about ningning," you began cautiously. giselle shot you a look of comfort, encouraging you that it’s okay for you to bring up and talk about whatever that is bothering you.

"recently, she's been calling me, drunk and saying all of these things that she regrets."

as you looked up from your cup of coffee, you were met with giselle’s confused gaze, her eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "what do you mean?" she asked, her concern evident in her voice.

you took a deep breath, realizing the weight of your words. "i’ve been receiving drunk calls from ningning, where she confesses her regrets and expresses how much she misses our relationship. it's been happening almost every night. it’s concerning honestly, how much is she drinking.."

giselle's eyes widened, and she sat back in her chair, clearly taken aback. "that's strange, y/n" she responded, her voice tinged with disbelief. "ningning hasn't been drinking for more than a month."

a wave of shock washed over you as the realization hit you like a tidal wave. the puzzle pieces began to fit together, and you realized that all this while, ningning hadn't been drunk at all. She had used her supposed inebriation as an excuse to reach out to you, to pour out her emotions.

the gravity of the situation sank in as you processed the truth. the thought of ningning deliberately reaching out to you, feigning drunkenness, filled you with a mixture of emotions—confusion, hurt, and a touch of anger.

giselle's gaze held empathy as she reached across the table, gently placing her hand on yours. "i'm sorry you had to go through that," she said softly. "it seems like ningning has been struggling to express her feelings and has chosen this way to reach out to you."

giselle's smile faded, and she leaned in, her voice filled with concern. "i’m sorry, that must've bothered you," she said, her eyes searching yours.

you shook your head gently, a sense of compassion for ningning welling up within you. "not that i don't mind, but," you replied softly. "i’m more worried about her, about how this breakup is taking a toll on her."

as the words left your lips, you couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness. the desperation in ningning's actions weighed heavily on your heart. it was difficult to witness someone you once cared deeply for in such a vulnerable state, reaching out in what seemed like a desperate attempt to bridge the distance that had grown between you.

giselle's gaze softened, her empathy shining through. "i understand," she said gently. "it's never easy to see someone you care about hurting. but remember, you're not responsible for her choices or her healing. your concern is valid, but it's important to prioritize your own well-being too, y/n"

her words resonated, reminding you of the delicate balance between compassion for ningning and self-care. it was a reminder that you couldn't bear the weight of ningning's desperation alone, that ultimately she had to find her own path to healing.

“you had always been the understanding one in the relationship y/n, be selfish for once and take care of your heart. please?” giselle’s voice was laced with concern as she looks at you, worried.

ad you sat in the café, sipping on your coffee, a mix of emotions swirled within you. there was a part of you that felt a sense of guilt, as if you were somehow complicit in ningning's desperation. but another part of you recognized the importance of establishing healthy boundaries and allowing each person to take responsibility for their own healing.

the sun slowly setting down as you bid goodbye to giselle, leaving the café, a bittersweet ache lingered within you. the concern for ningning remained, and you couldn't help but hope that she would find the strength to heal and grow, to find happiness in her own journey.

you fished for your phone from your pocket, as you look for ningning’s number. your thimb hovered over her contact name, you bit your lips in contemplation before pressing a certain button.

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karina | back to december

genre ; fluff , angst

pairings ; karina x gn!reader

note ; written in orange are flashbacks! i wrote this based on taylor swift’s back to december, so i highly recommend listening to it while reading! this one is quite long but i hope you guys love it <3

word count ; 8.9K

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you fidgeted with your silverware, stealing glances at the entrance with each passing moment. the air in the restaurant was filled with a mixture of nervousness and anticipation as you anxiously waited for karina to arrive.

the relationship between you and karina was a journey that unfolded over the course of three remarkable years. it began during the predebut days, two months before aespa's debut to be exact. when both of you were on the cusp of chasing your dreams. from the very start, there was an undeniable connection, a shared understanding that transcended words and brought you closer together.

it had been two long years since your breakup, and the emotions that surged within you were both overwhelming and unfamiliar. in all honesty, you didn't want to see her, as the memories you had share with her during the last moments you guys were together wasn't all rainbows and unicorns.

but the moment her contact name popped up on your notification bar asking to meet you at a restaurant nearby her company, you couldn't say no. especially after not seing her for two whole years.

as the door swung open, karina stepped into the restaurant, her eyes searching for you amidst the sea of diners. when your gazes finally met, a palpable tension enveloped the space between you. your eyes locked for a fleeting moment before karina hesitantly made her way toward the table where you sat, your seats facing each other.

your heart raced as karina approached, your mind filled with a whirlwind of memories and unanswered questions. you had rehearsed countless scenarios in your mind, but none of them could have prepared you for the overwhelming emotions that flooded your senses.

karina reached the table, her steps tentative, her expression a mix of uncertainty and curiosity. with a forced smile, you gestured for her to take a seat. you settled into your chairs, the silence between you heavy and awkward. the sounds of clinking cutlery and distant conversations seemed to intensify, magnifying the discomfort that hung in the air.

you couldn't help but be drawn to karina's beauty, both outwardly captivating and inwardly mysterious. her allure was a reminder of the intangible nature of desire, a bittersweet ache that left you yearning for a closeness that seemed forever out of reach. the way she had her hair up in a messy bun reminds you of the day the both of you met three years ago,

THE FIRST ENCOUNTER

the practice room hummed with the sounds of music echoing off the walls as you meticulously fine-tuned your guitar. lost in your own world, you were unaware of anyone else's presence until a soft voice interrupted your concentration.

you look up to find karina, the trainee that have been the talk of all trainees and even trainer. though you hear her name everyday, this is the first time you've met her. standing at the entrance, a hint of curiosity in her eyes. "oh sorry. are you scheduled to use the room after me?" you asked, stealing a glance at your wrist watch.

karina's face lit up with a gentle smile as she took a step closer. "no, i just wanted to see you," she replied, her voice filled with sincerity. "sorry, was that a little bit creepy?"

a flicker of surprise mixed with amusement washed over your face, and a chuckle escaped your lips. "creepy? not at all!" you paused for a moment, studying karina's expression. her eyes were glued on the object you had in your hand. "do you play guitar too?"

karina's eyes sparkled with enthusiasm as she shared her own love for the instrument she had been playing since she was little.

she shook her head, she lied. her eyes locked with yours, as if a silent connection had formed between you. "i've always wanted to," she whispered, taking a few steps closer towards you before plopping down in front of you. "would you mind showing me a few chords?"

a surge of excitement coursed through your veins as her request filled the air. her subtle invitation sparked a sense of anticipation within you, and you couldn't help but be drawn to her magnetic presence.

"of course," you responded, your voice tinged with eagerness. "come, i'll show you the basics." you gestured her to scoot closer to you.

karina settled herself next to you, her eyes intently focused on your hands as they guided the strings. as you explained the chords and their placements, your fingers brushed against hers, a subtle touch that sent a delightful shiver down your spine.

"this, is c chord" you said, moving her fingers up and down the fret board, as she strums the strings downwards, scanning your face to see if she got the tune right everytime she strums.

you chuckled at her act, "you know you don't have to check my expression everytime you strum right?" her eyes turned into a crescent moon shape, "i just wanted to see how proud you are of me! honestly im doing well aren't i?"

as the lesson progressed, playful banter intertwined with musical instruction. laughter filled the room as you shared stories, both lighthearted and personal, creating a sense of camaraderie and familiarity.

there was a brief silence as karina practices her chords, you examined her face before you mustered the courage to ask, "why did you want to see me?"

her lips turned into a slight pout, eyebrows raised in wonder as she looked around the room before looking right into your eyes. her gaze held a mix of intrigue and honesty as she replied, "i've been hearing about you a lot, and i was curious about how you looked like. especially when people spoke highly of your talent"

"i'm flattered," you responded, a touch of vulnerability in your voice. "but you could just look at me once and go on with your day. what made you want to sit here and learn how to play the guitar from me?" a grin creeped on your face, "i see that you have quite thick calluses" you playfully teased

karina's face turned red the instant you called her out for faking her skills, she did not mind being called out, her smile widened, a playful glimmer in her eyes. "well, let's just say i wanted to see if the music and the musician were equally captivating," she replied, her voice carrying a subtle flirtation.

a sense of warmth filled your chest at her words, and a flicker of realization passed between you. a soft chuckle escaped your lips as you leaned in a little closer. "and have i met your expectations?" you asked, a mixture of curiosity and anticipation in your voice.

her laughter filled the room, a melodic sound that resonated with your heart. "oh y/n, you've exceeded them," she replied as a smile crept on her face.

karina struggled to find the right words, her mind a jumble of thoughts and emotions. she cleared her throat, attempting to break the suffocating silence. "it's been a while," she finally managed to say, her voice tinged with a mix of nostalgia and apprehension.

you nodded, your gaze fixed on the tablecloth, your fingers tracing invisible patterns. "yeah.. it has," you replied softly, your voice carrying a trace of sadness. the weight of your shared history loomed over you, reminding you of the love you once had and the pain that followed.

the air hung heavy with unspoken emotions, and it took all of karina's courage to break the suffocating silence. "i'm so glad you made time to see me," she whispered, her voice trembling slightly.

she mustered a hesitant smile, her eyes searching your face for a glimmer of warmth or familiarity. "how's life?" she asked softly, her voice carrying a mix of trepidation and genuine curiosity. "how's your family? i haven't seen them in a while."

a flicker of pain passed through your eyes as you replied, your voice laced with caution, "life goes on, i suppose. my family is doing well. they ask about you sometimes, but it's been a while since you've been a part of our lives."

karina's gaze dropped, her fingers nervously tracing the rim of her coffee cup. she could sense the walls you had erected, the barriers that kept her at arm's length as the memory of her visiting your house that one time crept into her mind.

WHISPERS OF INTRIGUE

8 months passed since your first encounter with the girl who changed your life. seasons changed, and the night air was filled with a sense of anticipation and joy as lunar new year approached. excitement buzzed through the house as the trainees packed their bags, ready to embark on journeys to their hometowns.

but in the midst of the bustling preparations, karina found herself in a predicament—her bus ticket had some unexpected issues, leaving her stranded and unable to celebrate the lunar new year with her own family.

"i did! i checked everything, i don't know why they said my ticket is invalid.. now what do i do?" tears welled up the brim of karina's eyes as she ends the call with her mom. you let out a sigh, feeling bad.

"you can come with me" you suggested, the tears that was threatening to fall, rolled down her cheeks as she looked up at you in anticipation. "can i?" her voice sparks with excitement, her tears aggressively wiped with her sleeves.

understanding her predicament, you extended an invitation for karina to join you at your house, not wanting her to spend the festive occasion alone. as you approached the front door, karina's nerves began to flutter like butterflies in her stomach. she couldn't help but wonder how she would be received by your family, unsure if she would be greeted warmly or if her presence would disrupt their traditions.

the door swung open, revealing your mother, who greeted karina with a very warm smile. "oh my, welcome jimin! we're delighted to have you join us. come in! come in!" her kind words instantly eased karina's worries, and she stepped into your home, feeling a sense of belonging wash over her.

inside, the house was adorned with festive decorations, and the aroma of delicious food wafted through the air. she scanned your house, looking at all the pictures framed on the wall. you and karina were the total opposite when it comes to family.

her family is wealthy, whilst yours is so-so. being the only child, your parents can't say no to you. and though them opposing your dreams of becoming an idol, they can't help but to just trust you fully and give you their full support.

your father, with a twinkle in his eye, pulled karina into a warm embrace. "we've heard so much about you, jimin. It's a pleasure to finally meet you. please make yourself at home." karina blushed, hearing what your father had just said as she wonders what did you tell your parents.

amidst the lively conversations and laughter, karina felt her nervousness gradually dissipate. the genuine warmth and acceptance radiating from your family enveloped her, making her feel like part of a loving community. she couldn't help but feel grateful for your thoughtfulness in inviting her over.

the dining table was adorned with a feast of flavors and colors, and the room buzzed with laughter and conversation. as everyone settled into their seats, karina found herself seated beside you, her presence a source of both comfort and excitement.

throughout the meal, karina couldn't resist the subtle temptation to flirt with you. her fingers would gently brush against yours, sending an electric jolt through your body. a mischievous sparkle danced in her eyes as she playfully kicked your legs under the table, a secret game shared only between the two of you.

the night wore on, as your parents slowly start to leave the table leaving space for you and karina to be together. suprised at how little you parents ate, karina spoke "your mom cooked so much, but she only ate a little? will she be fine" concern plastered on her face.

"old people are like that, well, my mom at least. she enjoys cooking but not eating. don't worry, we can share" you replied as karina took a bite of the samgyeopsal.

with a sly smile, karina leaned in closer, her voice a soft murmur that only you could hear. "you know," she whispered, her tone teasing, "if food tastes better when shared, then imagine how amazing it would be to share a kiss."

her words caught you off guard, causing your heart to race and your cheeks to flush. flustered, you stammered for a response, searching for words that could match her audacity. "oh my god shut up, just eat your food" you blushed.

as the conversation flowed, karina continued her flirty banter, peppering the air with playful remarks and witty comebacks. her words danced on the edge of seduction, a tantalizing invitation to a world of possibilities.

as the night wore on, the time came for everyone to retire to their rooms. due to the your house not having an extra empty room, there was an arrangement for karina to share a bed with you. the thought of such proximity brought a subtle blush to her cheeks, and she couldn't help but feel a mixture of excitement and awkwardness.

in the dimly lit bedroom, you hesitated for a moment before breaking the silence. "um, jimin-ah, i can sleep on the floor if you're more comfortable," you offered, your voice laced with a hint of shyness.

her gaze met yours, her heart skipping a beat. she shook her head gently, a soft smile gracing her lips. "no, it's okay. we can share the bed"

the words hung in the air, accompanied by a fleeting nostalgia that made your heart skip a beat. in the comfort of each other's presence, you settled into the bed, finding a delicate balance between closeness and respect for personal boundaries.

with tentative steps, you both climbed into bed, trying to find a comfortable position without encroaching on each other's personal space. the silence in the room felt deafening, amplifying the subtle tension that lingered between you.

karina shifted slightly, trying to find a suitable position. "oops, sorry," she muttered as her elbow brushed against yours, causing a ripple of awkwardness to wash over you.

"it's okay," you replied, your voice barely above a whisper. "we're just trying to fit in this limited space, after all."

"it won't be a problem if we cuddle" a soft giggle escaped karina's lips, breaking the tension ever so slightly. you let out a chuckle, staring at the wall as karina lay down flat on her back, the same position as you.

"go to sleep, jimin" you said, slightly above whisper as karina hummed. she closes her eyes and drifts off to sleep. the moon cast its soft, silver light into the room, creating a tranquil ambiance as you and karina peacefully slumbered.

as the night progressed, a gentle shift in karina's position stirred you from your dreams. with eyes still heavy with sleep, you felt a warm and delicate touch on your hand. startled, you turned to look and discovered karina, her eyes closed and a serene expression gracing her features. timidly, she had reached out and taken hold of your hand in her sleep.

a smile tugged at the corners of your lips as you intertwined your fingers with hers, allowing the connection to deepen. it was a silent acknowledgment of the bond you shared, even in the depths of slumber. you couldn't help but feel a surge of tenderness for karina. the way her hand fit perfectly in yours, the soft warmth it brought to your heart, and the trust she exhibited even in her unconscious state all spoke volumes.

with gentle caution, you leaned closer, planting a delicate kiss on the back of her hand. it was a silent gesture of appreciation and a reassurance that you were there, watching over her even as she wandered through the realms of dreams.

a waiter approached your table, offering menus and taking your drink orders. as he left, a brief moment of respite settled between you and karina, granting you a temporary reprieve from the awkwardness that engulfed you.

you found solace in the familiar surroundings, the comforting aroma of food wafting through the air. you mustered the courage to look at karina, studying her features for any sign of the person you used to know. her eyes held a hint of vulnerability, mirroring your own.

with a deep breath, you ventured further. "how have you been?" you asked, your voice trembling slightly. it was a simple question, yet it held the weight of years of separation and unanswered inquiries.

karina's lips quivered as she replied, "i've had my ups and downs, like everyone else, i suppose." her voice carried a trace of melancholy, betraying the complexity of her emotions.

you nodded, not knowing how to react. "how's the other girls? minjeong, aeri and ning?" your voice laced with curiosity. karina's eyes faltered ever so slightly, a subtle shadow crossing her features.

she hesitated for a moment before responding, her voice tinged with a touch of sadness. "they're doing well," she replied, her words carrying a hint of hurt at how you were quick to ask about her group mates, not really interested in how she was doing. she expected you to ask her questions about herself, but it died down earlier than what she had expected.

karina had always been a passionate and fiercely loyal individual, and with that came a tendency to feel jealousy more intensely than others. whenever you found yourself getting close to other members of her group, she couldn't help but feel a pang of envy deep within her heart. her jealousy wasn't born out of insecurity, but rather from a place of protectiveness and a desire to be the one who held a special place in your life.

ECHOES OF VULNERABILITY

on a warm summernight, with a warm smile on her face, karina introduced you to her friends aeri, minjeong, and ningning. it was awkward for you to be friends with them at first but as the conversation flowed, you discovered that you shared a special connection with aeri, as both of you had spent a significant part of your lives in japan and attended the same international school, albeit with a small age difference. making her your senior by two batch.

the discovery sparked an immediate bond, and you found yourselves spending more and more time together. the interaction you shared between aeri had made karina uncomfortable for a couple of days.

especially how the two of you effortlessly switching to speaking in korean then japanese, and english. relishing the familiarity of your shared language. this situation have been happening a couple of times in the short span of a week since you met aeri.

one day, as the five of you gathered in the practice room, the energy was palpable. karina sat quietly, observing the lively exchange between you and aeri. caught up in the moment, you didn't notice the subtle change in karina's expression. her smile faded, and a slight cloud of unease settled over her features.

she cant help but feel a growing sense of distance, as though a barrier had formed between her and the camaraderie you now shared with aeri.

her heart sank as she struggled to follow the conversation unfolding in a language she couldn't understand. it seemed as though a wall had been erected, separating her from the dynamic connection she once shared with you. her discomfort heightened, and a tinge of loneliness crept into her thoughts.

as aeri and the others left the practice room for some late night snack, the tense atmosphere lingered, and you found yourself growing increasingly frustrated with karina's persistent avoidance.

every attempt you made to engage her in conversation or seek her attention seemed to be met with indifference, and the tension between you began to escalate.

unable to contain your mounting frustration any longer, you finally snapped, your voice laced with anger and hurt. "jimin, i can't take this anymore, ever since i started getting close to your members, you've completely shut me out. what are you trying to do?"

karina's eyes flashed with a mix of anger and hurt, and her voice rose to match the intensity of the moment. "don't act like you're innocent in all of this! you've been pushing me away, getting closer to them and leaving me behind. it feels like i don't matter to you anymore!"

the room seemed to shrink as the heated exchange unfolded, both of you unleashing pent-up emotions that had been festering beneath the surface. the air crackled with tension as accusations and frustrations hung in the air.

"me? pushing you away? i haven't pushed you away, jimin. i've simply been forming connections with your members. it doesn't mean i care any less about you!" you retorted, your voice laced with exasperation.

karina's eyes welled up with tears, her voice trembling as she shot back, "but it feels like you do! it feels like i've become nothing more than a secondary option to you. i thought we were closer than this! it's just... i've been feeling left out, like i'm losing my place. i want to be a part of your world too, not just someone you push aside when others come around"

your anger began to give way to a pang of guilt as you took in karina's vulnerable state. the realization of how your actions had hurt her washed over you, and you softened your tone, desperately wanting to bridge the growing divide.

"hey, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to make you feel that way. i never intended to push you aside. you're important to me, and i never wanted you to doubt that," you said, your voice now filled with remorse.

karina's tearful eyes met yours, her voice wavering with a mix of sadness and frustration. "then show me, because right now, it doesn't feel that way. it feels like i'm losing you, like i'm just an afterthought in your life."

the weight of her words hit you, and you realized the gravity of the situation. this argument was a turning point, a crossroads that could either deepen the rift between you or pave the way for reconciliation.

as the tension between you and karina slowly dissipated, leaving behind an air of vulnerability and longing, you found yourself unable to bear seeing her in tears. with a surge of emotion and a desire to prove the depth of your feelings, you made a bold move.

closing the distance between you, you gently cupped karina's tear-stained face with your hands, your touch tender and comforting. her watery eyes met yours, filled with a mix of hope and uncertainty.

in that moment, words seemed inadequate to express the depths of your emotions, so instead, you let your actions speak. leaning in slowly, your heart pounding with both nervousness and determination, you pressed your lips against hers in a gentle, reassuring kiss.

time seemed to stand still as your lips met, conveying a depth of emotion that words could never capture. it was a tender, intimate moment filled with a mixture of comfort, passion, and the yearning to heal the wounds that had threatened to tear you apart.

as the kiss lingered, you poured your heart into it, hoping to convey the sincerity of your feelings. your lips moved in sync with karina's, a silent promise to be there for her, to mend what had been broken, and to prove that she was more than just an afterthought in your life.

gradually, the intensity of the kiss began to subside, but the connection between you remained, an unspoken understanding that you were both willing to fight for your relationship.

pulling back ever so slightly, you gazed into karina's eyes, their once teary appearance now softened and filled with a mix of surprise and longing. a tender smile played on your lips as you whispered, "jimin-ah, i care about you. more than anything in this world. i love you. i know the timing is stupid and everything but— i really do jimin"

karina, still caught in the embrace of the moment, nodded, her voice barely a whisper. "i love you too, y/n, i love you more than anyone"

leaning in, you pressed a gentle kiss against karina's forehead, a silent promise to be there for her through the highs and lows that lay ahead. together, you embarked on a new chapter, driven by the realization that love had the power to overcome obstacles and bring you closer than ever before.

sitting across from each other in the restaurant, the air between you and karina grew heavy with unresolved emotions. the flickering candle on the table seemed to cast shadows on the tension that hung in the air. as you observed a tear rolling down karina's cheek.

"why are you tearing up?" you asked, your voice laced with a hint of coldness. your gaze fixed on her, waiting for an explanation.

karina's voice trembled as she tried to speak through her tears. "my bad. i just... i didn't know i missed you this much," she confessed, her vulnerability laid bare before you.

"you missed me.." you repeated, feeling the bitterness grow on you. you were by her side all the time, back then. it reminded you of the time where you would constantly text her about how you missed her, it was a bittersweet era of you relationship.

MAKE UPS

it's been exactly a week since the debut of aespa, and you had called karina asking her to come down to the park for a while. the both of you last met each other around three weeks ago, and though calls and text messages weren't left unnoticed, being in each other's embrace is the thing both of you wanted the most right now.

the sun was deep asleep, painting the sky with dark blue and sprinkles of stars in the sky. karina tied her hair up in a messy bun, getting ready to meet you.

as karina carefully tiptoed towards the door, hoping to leave her dorm unnoticed, she was suddenly greeted by an unexpected sight. standing in the living room were her fellow group members, aeri, minjeong, and ningning. caught off guard, she froze for a moment, trying to find the right words.

"where are you going, jimin unnie?" ningning inquired, her eyes curious and bright.

karina's mind raced as she searched for a plausible response. "uh... somewhere!" she blurted out, a hint of nervousness lacing her voice. she hoped her brief and evasive answer would satisfy their curiosity.

aeri tilted her head, a playful smile dancing on her lips. "somewhere? well, that's a mysterious answer. can we come too?"

karina's heart skipped a beat, her mind racing to come up with a convincing explanation. "oh, it's nothing special. just... um, running a small errand. i'll be back before you know it, byeee" she replied, trying to keep her tone light and nonchalant.

as karina bid her members a quick goodbye and slipped out the door, she couldn't help but feel a mixture of excitement and guilt. she knew she would have to explain herself eventually, but in that moment, she craved the intimacy and connection she would find with you. with determination in her steps, she made her way to the park, where destiny awaited.

as she arrived at the designated spot, her eyes met yours, and a rush of emotions enveloped her. the joy of seeing you, combined with the anticipation of her big day, welled up inside her. without a word, you stepped closer, and the moment your lips met, time seemed to stand still. it was a sweet, longing kiss that spoke volumes of your love and support for her journey.

karina's eyes glistened with tears as she pulled away from the kiss, her voice barely a whisper. "did you miss me as much as i missed you?"

you chuckled softly, feeling a mix of relief and excitement at her presence. "more than you can imagine," you replied, your tone filled with affection.

karina tilted her head, a mischievous glimmer in her eyes. "oh really? and here i thought i was the one missing you like crazy. looks like we're in the same boat."

you grinned, karina took a step closer to you. "well, maybe we should find a way to make up for all that lost time then."

her smile turned into a sly smirk as she leaned in, her voice teasing. "and, i have a few ideas in mind. but first, what do you have there?"

you held up the cake you had baked, a proud grin on your face. "it's a little something i made for you. thought it would be a sweet way to celebrate your early debut."

karina's eyes widened in surprise, and a tear welled up in the corner of her eye. "you made this for me? that's so.. incredibly sweet."

as she cupped your cheeks tenderly, her expression softened. however, her touch caused her to recoil slightly, her brows furrowing with concern. "wait a minute... you're burning up! and your eyes... you have bags under them. have you been taking care of yourself?"

you let out a sheepish laugh, realizing how much you had neglected your own well-being. "i guess i've been so caught up in everything that i forgot to take care of myself. but seeing you here, it's like a breath of fresh air."

karina's eyes softened as she gently wiped away a tear from her cheek. "you've always been the one taking care of me, making sure i'm alright. but remember, you deserve care and love too. let me take care of you, even just for a little while."

you were struck by her sincerity and the depth of her care. in that moment, you realized how fortunate you were to have her by your side. with a gentle smile, she leaned in, about to capture your lips into a tender kiss but you backed off a step.

"no, i'm sick.." you flashed a gentle smile making the latter pout. "well, what can i do to make it up to you?"

karina's voice was filled with sincerity as she asked, "what can i do to make it up to you?" her eyes searched yours, longing for a way to mend the rift between you.

in that moment, your mind drifted back to a few hours ago, the scene vivid in your memory. it was your birthday celebration, and everyone had gathered to commemorate the occasion. your label mates, friends, and even aeri, minjeong, and ningning were all present, their laughter and cheerful voices filling the room.

throuout the festivities, you couldn't help but steal glances at your phone, hoping for a message or a notification that would signal your girlfriend's arrival. each passing minute deepened the disappointment in your heart, but you held onto a glimmer of hope, praying that she would show up, even if it meant being fashionably late.

as the evening progressed, your excitement waned, replaced by a lingering sense of emptiness. the room was filled with joy and celebration, but a part of you longed for her presence, for that simple yet meaningful gesture of showing up for your special day.

as the birthday celebration continued, your friend sungchan couldn't help but voice his frustration at karina's absence. he leaned in close, a hint of irritation evident in his tone. "is she still not here?" he muttered, unable to contain his thoughts any longer. "geeze karina, are you out with someone or what? how can you forget such an important day?"

your patience wore thin, and a surge of protectiveness washed over you. you turned to sungchan, your voice sharp as you defended karina. "don't say that!" you snapped, the words laced with a mixture of frustration and protectiveness. "she's... busy. keep her name out of your mouth if you're just going to assume things!"

sungchan flinched at your sudden outburst, his eyes widening in surprise. he quickly realized his mistake and took a step back, his voice filled with remorse. "i'm sorry, i didn't mean to offend you," he stammered, his tone apologetic. "i'm really sorry."

you took a deep breath, the tension in your shoulders slowly easing. despite your hurt feelings, you understood that sungchan's intentions weren't ill, "just, leave me alone" you sighed.

the night went on, the hype of the celebration slowly dhing down as the last guest bid their farewell and the house gradually emptied, you found yourself sitting alone in the dining room. the atmosphere was heavy with a mix of sadness, emptiness, and underlying anger. the weight of the unfulfilled expectations and the hurt you had been carrying weighed heavily on your heart.

minutes turned into an eternity, and just when you thought you were destined to be alone in your turmoil, there was a sudden knock on the front door. startled, you rose from your seat and made your way to the entrance, uncertainty swirling within you. as you opened the door, there stood karina, her eyes reflecting a mixture of anxiety and remorse.

"hey," karina said softly, her voice tinged with hesitation. "can i come in?"

you stepped aside, allowing her to enter, and closed the door behind her. the room was filled with an uneasy tension as you faced each other, emotions simmering just beneath the surface. finally, you mustered the strength to speak, your voice laced with a hint of disappointment.

"do you have any idea what today is?" you asked, your words carefully measured. "it's my birthday. i had hoped you would remember." you scoffed

karina's eyes gloomed, her features contorting with guilt. "i know," she whispered, her voice trembling. "i completely forgot and made a promise with a friend. i'm so sorry."

anger surged within you, fueled by the pain of being forgotten on such a significant day. "this isn't the first time, jimin," you retorted, your voice tinged with bitterness. "you forgot my debut too. not a single message, not a single word of congratulations. it hurt, jimin. it still hurts."

karina's defenses went up, her face contorting with defensiveness. "i didn't mean to forget," she pleaded, her voice laced with desperation. "things have been so hectic with our comeback and schedules. i never intended to hurt you. i just... i didn't realize the impact it would have."

your anger mingled with frustration, tears brimming in your eyes. "i was busy on all of your important days too, but i still made time for you, jimin. but it's not just about today," you continued, your voice wavering. "it's about the lack of effort, the lack of consideration. i feel like i'm constantly pushed aside, like i'm not a priority."

karina's expression softened, her eyes filled with regret. "i never wanted you to feel that way," she whispered, her voice filled with genuine remorse. "i love you, and i never intended to make you feel unimportant. i'm sorry"

as the words hung heavy in the air, the tension escalated, pushing you both to the edge of your emotions. tears welled up in your eyes, mirroring the pain that had settled deep within your heart.

"we can't keep living like this, jimin," you choked out, your voice trembling with anguish. "i can't keep pretending that everything is okay when it's not. i need more than just empty apologies and promises. i need you to show me that I matter."

karina's own tears flowed freely, her voice breaking as she tried to defend herself. "i never wanted to make you feel this way," she sobbed, her words barely audible through her tears.

you scoffed as you struggled to hold back the flood of emotions. "actions speak louder than words, jimin," you whispered, your voice filled with raw vulnerability. "and right now, all i see are actions that scream indifference. it hurts. it hurts so much."

her voice wavered as she reached out to you, her fingers trembling. "no, y/n. please, don't cry," she pleaded, her voice laced with desperation. "i never wanted to make you cry. i love you, and i'm sorry for hurting you."

"what can i do to make it up for you?" her eyes searched yours, longing for a way to mend the rift between you.

"what can i do to make it up for you?" she asked, her voice tinged with a hint of desperation.

those words, so familiar, rang in your ears like a broken record. it was a phrase you had heard from her countless times before, yet actions to back them up were scarce. the frustration that had been building within you threatened to overflow.

a flicker of annoyance flashed across your face, and you couldn't help but let out a bitter smile. "you've asked me that so many times, jimin" karina's face fell, her eyes betraying a mix of guilt and hurt.

"you left me. you left me when we were deeply in love, what makes you think you can treat me right when there's wound in my heart?" you asked.

"do you remember? back in december, the night you left me?" you looked up to karina, she nodded her head weakly, pursing her lips together as a rush of guilt filled her heart as she played back what had happened that night.

"you made me suffer, ever since that night. and an easy 'how can i make it up for you' wont help, jimin. i'm sorry but please-" you run your fingers throughout your hair, holding back tears as the memories replayed.

BACK TO DECEMBER

the room was cloaked in an eerie silence as you sat on the edge of your bed, staring into the emptiness before you. days had turned into weeks, and karina's absence weighed heavily on your heart. four days had passed since she last contacted you, leaving you in a state of uncertainty and longing for any news about her well-being.

in the past, you were the one she confided in, the one who knew every detail of her life. but now, you found yourself relying on snippets of information from her fans, a distant and impersonal connection that paled in comparison to the intimacy you once shared. it was a bitter pill to swallow, realizing that you had become the last to know about the significant moments in her life.

meanwhile, the world had taken notice of aespa's success. their first full album had catapulted them to global fame, gaining recognition and accolades along the way. the news of their invitation to the grammys, the pinnacle of music achievement, reverberated through the industry. their talent and hard work had paid off, culminating in a well-deserved award for Best Pop Singer Group.

as the world celebrated aespa's triumph, you couldn't help but feel a sense of emptiness. while you were genuinely happy for their success, a part of you longed to share in those moments with karina. the void left by her absence grew deeper, magnified by the realization that she had experienced these monumental milestones without you by her side.

a few days later when karina had returned to korea, you decided to meet her. maybe, just maybe this time everything will fall back into place. maybe she was just very busy.

the winter night was bitterly cold, the frigid air biting at your exposed skin as you stood outside of karina's dorm, clutching a bouquet of roses. your heart pounded with a mixture of anticipation and apprehension, hoping that this small gesture would convey the depth of your love for her.

as the door to the dorm swung open, karina appeared, her face a mix of surprise and unease. her eyes fell upon the flowers in your hands, and a flicker of pain crossed her features. without a word, she reached out and pushed the bouquet away, the action feeling like a sharp blow to your chest.

your heart shattered into pieces as the flowers tumbled to the ground, their petals scattering across the cold pavement. the weight of her rejection settled upon you, a crushing realization that things were not as you had hoped.

the silence that followed was suffocating, the unspoken words hanging heavy in the air. you could see the conflict in karina's eyes, the struggle to find the right words, but the damage had already been done.

moments stretched into eternity as you tried to comprehend the sudden shift in your relationship. the love that once seemed unbreakable now felt fragile and fragile. your hands trembled at your sides, aching to reach out to her, to beg for understanding or a chance to make things right.

but the words never came, and the silence grew unbearable. a tear slipped down your cheek, mirroring the pain etched on karina's face. in that brief moment, you knew that something had changed irreparably, and the prospect of losing her felt like a heavy weight upon your soul.

it was in that heartbreaking instant, before the final words were spoken, that you realized the magnitude of the rift that had formed between you. the flowers lay forgotten on the ground, their beauty lost amidst the wreckage of your shattered hopes and dreams.

and as you looked into karina's eyes, searching for a glimmer of the love that once burned brightly between you, you knew that this painful chapter was coming to an end.

the winter night was bitterly cold, the frigid air biting at your exposed skin as you stood outside of karina's dorm. a heaviness settled upon your heart, knowing that this conversation could change everything. you braced yourself for the difficult words that were about to be spoken.

karina stepped out of the dorm, her expression guarded and distant. her eyes met yours, but they lacked the warmth and tenderness you had grown accustomed to. the weight of her decision hung in the air, an unspoken truth waiting to be unveiled.

taking a deep breath, karina spoke, her voice filled with a mix of determination and sadness. "y/n, we should stop seeing each other." she said, her words cutting through the cold night air.

your heart clenched at her declaration, a surge of denial rising within you. you couldn't fathom a life without her, and you couldn't accept that this was the end. though you are very aware about how she's ruining you "no," you replied, your voice trembling with desperation. "no, jimin. we can work through this. we can find a way to make it work."

karina's features hardened, her resolve unwavering. "it's not that simple," she retorted, her voice laced with frustration. "this isn't just about schedules or busy lives. there's something bigger at play here, something that we can't ignore."

you reached out a trembling hand, hoping to bridge the growing divide between you. "please, let's not make any rash decisions," you pleaded, your voice filled with a mix of longing and pain. "we can wait for a better time, a time when your schedule isn't so hectic. we can rebuild what we have."

karina's eyes met yours, but they held a coldness you had never seen before. "you don't understand," she snapped, her words sharp and cutting. "this isn't about schedules or a break. it's about us, about what we've become. and i can't continue like this."

your heart sank as her words pierced through you. the realization that she was determined to end the relationship without even a hint of remorse or apology crushed you. the person you loved seemed so far away, replaced by this version of karina that you didn't recognize.

tears welled up in your eyes as you took a step back, the pain too overwhelming to bear. "how can you say that?" you whispered, your voice cracking with emotion. "after everything we've been through, all the love we shared... for three years.. jimin how can you just push me away like this, without even a second thought?"

karina's gaze faltered for a brief moment, a flicker of pain crossing her face. but she quickly composed herself, her tone unyielding. "it's for the best," she replied, her voice devoid of the warmth and tenderness that once defined it. "we both deserve to find happiness, even if it means being apart."

the weight of her words settled upon you, a crushing blow to your heart. you felt your world crumbling around you, the hope of rebuilding what you once had slipping through your fingers. with a heavy sigh, you realized that karina's mind was made up, and there was nothing you could do to change it.

you were left with shattered dreams and a heart that still longed for the love that had slipped away, with no apology or promise of a future reconciliation.

the winter night hung heavy with an unspoken goodbye, the silence between you and karina echoing with the weight of shattered hearts. as you nodded in resignation, a hollow ache settled in the depths of her being. the tears that threatened to spill over blurred her vision, but she refused to let them fall.

in that fleeting moment, karina felt her heart shatter into a thousand pieces. the sound of her own heartbeat seemed to drown out the world around her as she watched you turn away, your retreating figure growing smaller with each step. she wanted to reach out, to hold onto you and tell you everything was a stupid prank, but she knew deep down that it would only be a selfish act.

the turmoil within her intensified, tearing at her soul as she fought against the overwhelming urge to chase after you. the desire to cling to the familiar, to salvage what was left of your connection, threatened to consume her. but she knew that it would only prolong the pain, and she couldn't bear to be the cause of your further suffering.

with a heavy heart, karina clenched her fists, her nails digging into her palms. as much as she wanted to call out to you, to beg you to stay, she knew that it was time to let go. it was a painful realization, accepting that sometimes love wasn't enough to sustain a relationship.

as you disappeared into the night, karina fought back the tears that threatened to spill over. the ache in her chest was a constant reminder of what she had lost, of the love that slipped through her fingers. but deep down, she knew that she had made the right choice, even if it meant sacrificing her own happiness.

with a final, bittersweet glance in your direction, karina turned away, her footsteps heavy with the weight of her decision. the emptiness that enveloped her seemed to grow with each passing moment, a reminder of the void left behind by your absence.

in the quiet solitude of that winter night, karina's heart yearned for one last glimpse of your face, one last chance to hold onto the love that had once been. but she knew that sometimes, love meant letting go, even when it tore her apart inside.

and as she slowly close the door, her hand faltered, her every fiber aching to turn open the door back again and run into your arms. but with a trembling resolve, she continued on, knowing that it was time to face the pain and the emptiness that awaited her.

the weight of nostalgia and longing permeated the air as karina's voice trembled with emotion. "do you remember the first time we met in that small practice room?" she whispered, her eyes welling up with tears. "you taught me how to play the guitar, it was a moment that changed my life."

a wistful smile danced on her lips as she continued, "and i remember the day i met your parents. they welcomed me with open arms, treating me like their own daughter. we laughed, we shared stories, and for a moment, i felt like i had found my place in the world."

a single tear trickled down her cheek, as she reached out, almost instinctively, as if trying to grasp onto those cherished memories. "i miss those times, when everything felt so simple and full of promise. i miss the warmth of your love, the way we used to be, before everything fell apart."

her voice cracked with raw emotion, and her hands trembled as she spoke. "i want to go back to those moments, to relive the love we once had. but i know it's selfish of me to ask for that. i know i can't simply erase the pain i caused, the time we lost."

tears streamed down your face as you listened, your heart torn between the love you still held and the painful reality that lay before you. the weight of her words sank deep into your soul, stirring a whirlwind of emotions.

"and, i am very sorry y/n" she whispered, her voice filled with a mix of sorrow and longing. her tears falling freely now, mingling with the memories of a love that seemed both distant and achingly close. "i'm sorry i made you cry every night, i'm sorry i neglected, i'm sorry i left you alone when you needed me the most. i'm sorry i approached you first, only to leave you in despair."

"i regret being popular," karina's voice quivered with a mix of anguish and regret. her eyes bore into yours, pleading for understanding. "the more recognition i gained, the busier i became. i thought success would bring happiness, but it only tore us apart."

her words hung heavy in the air, echoing with a sense of sorrow and longing. "i used to blame everything on my busy schedule, on the demands of my career. but deep down, i know it was my own choices that led us to this point. i let the allure of fame cloud my judgment, and now i'm left with the emptiness of what could have been."

her voice wavered as she continued, her remorse palpable. "i miss the simplicity of our love, the moments of quiet togetherness. i regret prioritizing everything else over the one thing that truly mattered – our relationship."

tears welled up in her eyes as she reached out, her hand trembling in the space between you. "please understand, it wasn't intentional. i didn't mean for things to turn out this way. i just... i lost sight of what truly mattered. and now i'm left with this void, this ache in my heart that refuses to fade."

you felt a mix of pain and compassion as you listened to her heartfelt confession. the weight of her regret seeped into your own heart, tugging at the remnants of love that still lingered within you.

you simply nodded, not muttering a word. your eyes shifted from her pretty face, to the sunset behind her. the sunset was the cue to the end of your meet up with karina.

as you gathered your belongings and prepared to leave, a heavy silence hung in the air, thick with unspoken emotions. karina watched you quietly, her eyes filled with a mix of sadness and longing. she could sense that this was the moment where the ties that bound you together would be severed, perhaps forever.

as you adjusted your cap and took a step forward, karina's hand reached out, gently grasping your wrist. her touch was soft, tender, as if she wanted to hold onto you just a little longer. "are there any chance we could meet and talk again?" she asked, her voice filled with a flicker of hope.

you met her gaze, the weight of your decision etched on your face. with a heavy heart, you shook your head slowly, a mix of regret and finality in your eyes. you wanted this to be the last time, the final chapter in a story that had once held so much promise.

"i don't think it's possible," you replied, your voice barely above a whisper. karina's grip on your wrist tightened briefly, as if she didn't want to let go. her eyes brimmed with unshed tears, and she nodded, understanding the weight of your words. it was a painful acceptance, a recognition that the love you once shared had transformed into something different, something that couldn't be easily repaired.

with a deep breath, you gently extricated your wrist from her grasp, taking a step back. the distance between you grew, a physical representation of the emotional chasm that now lay between your hearts. it was a farewell that held the weight of a thousand unspoken words, a bittersweet acknowledgment of what could no longer be.

as you walked away, each step filled with a mix of sadness and determination, you couldn't help but steal one last glance at karina. her expression was a reflection of your own pain, a longing for a different outcome, for a love that could withstand the test of time.

but as you turned your gaze forward, the sound of her whispered plea echoed in your mind, "are there any chance we could meet and talk again?" it was a question that hung in the air, unanswered and filled with hope, but you knew deep down that this was the final goodbye.

with a heavy heart and a silent prayer for both of your futures, you continued your journey, hoping that this painful separation would pave the way for healing and new beginnings.

#aespa #aespa imagine #aespa imagines #aespa oneshot #aespa x reader #kpop angst #aespa karina #karina imagines #karina x reader #taylor swift #kpopidol #aespa kpop #aespa icons #aespa moodboard #aespa angst

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hey bestie… can u make a pt. 2 of any of the karina fics? plsplspls ok loveya bye!

aw sorry anon! i usually dont make part twos for my fics :<

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winter | priority

genre ; angst , fluff

pairings ; idol!winter x reader

notes ; wrote this while listening to priority 🥹

word count ; 2.5k

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as you arrive home late at night, the dimly lit house greets you with a quiet ambiance. the soft hum of the refrigerator and the faint ticking of a clock on the wall serve as the only audible companions in the silent abode. the entrance hallway is adorned with scattered shoes and a jacket carelessly thrown over a chair, a testament to the haste with which you had left for work earlier that day.

as you make your way into the kitchen, your tired eyes land upon a sight that instantly tugs at your heartstrings. your girlfriend, winter, lies slumbering on the kitchen counter, her head resting on her folded arms. a small, half-empty plate of cooked food sits beside her, evidence of her efforts to prepare a meal for you. concern mixes with relief as you gently shake her shoulder to rouse her from her sleep.

"minjeong-ah," you whisper softly, trying not to startle her. "hey love, it's me. i’m home."

her eyes flutter open, and confusion quickly gives way to annoyance as she realizes the late hour and the fact that you've only just returned. her expression twists into a mixture of frustration and hurt, her brows furrowing and her lips pressing together tightly.

"what time is it?” she frowned, once she realizes what time it was. “why are you always late, y/n?" winter’s voice carries a hint of bitterness, as if the words have been rehearsed in her mind countless times before.

“i’m sorry, i had work. my boss—“

"it’s always work, work, work. the same bullshit over and over again"

the harsh tone startled you, you feel a pang of guilt tighten in your chest, realizing the strain your work schedule has placed on your relationship.

"i’m sorry, minjeong. but you know how demanding my job can be. i never meant to make you feel neglected" you responded trying to diffuse the tension.

she scoffs, her voice tinged with frustration. "sorry doesn't cut it anymore, y/n. i need more than just empty words. i need you to show me that i matter to you. make me your priority"

"but i’m doing all of this for us minjeong" you plead, your voice tinged with desperation. "i want to provide for our future. i want to give you the life we've always dreamed of. gosh.."

the room feels heavy with unspoken emotions as the argument escalates. the fatigue and stress of the day have fueled your own frustration, leading to a battle of words between you both. voice rise and emotions intensify.

her eyes well up with tears, her voice breaking as she replies, "what good is a future if we're miserable in the present? i need you here with me, y/n! i need your presence, your support. practices have been so hard nowadays and when i come home in hopes of talking to you, you’re always not here for me!” tears poured down her cheeks, as a feeling of guilt grows bigger.

as emotions run high, winter’s voice quivers with a mixture of pain and frustration. "i can't help but feel like I'm an afterthought in your life, y/n," she says, her words cutting through the air like a sharp blade. her eyes well up with tears, but she stands her ground, her voice determined.

taken aback by her statement, you feel a surge of offense rise within you. "what? how can you say that?!" you retort, your voice filled with a mixture of hurt and indignation. "you know how much you mean to me, minjeong. i’ve always tried to show you how important you are in my life and now you’re dismissing my feelings and efforts for you?"

her expression hardens, her anger fueling her words. "feelings and efforts? what good are they if they only come second to your work? i’ve been waiting for you night after night, feeling like a stranger in our own home. it’s not just about the grand gestures, y/n. it’s about the everyday moments that show me i matter to you!"

you clench your fists, the frustration and pain coursing through your veins. "i’m doing my best for the both of us! why does it seems like everything i do is not enough for you?”

her voice cracks, her tears flowing freely now. "It's not about the material things, y/n. it’s about your presence, your time, your effort to truly be here with me!”

the words hang heavily in the air, the weight of the argument sinking deeper into your hearts. hurtful remarks and accusations have become arrows, piercing the fragile bond you once shared. the pain is evident in both of your eyes, a reflection of the love that still resides beneath the surface, but now shrouded by a cloud of resentment and doubt.

in a moment of anger, you lash out, the hurt fueling your words. "you think i don't care? you think i don't prioritize you? maybe you're right. maybe i should stop trying so hard, since nothing i do seems to be enough for you!”

the tension reaches its boiling point as winter's anger overflows. with a mix of anguish and rage, she grabs a nearby plate and hurls it to the floor, shattering it into pieces. the sound of breaking ceramic echoes through the room, the shards of porcelain mirroring the shattered fragments of your once harmonious relationship.

silence descends upon you both, the anger dissipating as quickly as it had flared. winter’s eyes widen in shock at the destruction she's caused, her anger giving way to sorrow. tears streak down her cheeks, mirroring the brokenness of the plate at her feet.

in that moment, the weight of the argument settles heavily on your shoulders. you realize the depth of the pain you've inflicted on winter, the toll that your absence and prioritization of work have taken on your relationship. with a heavy heart, you step forward, about to hold her when suddenly you feel a strong force pushing you.

as winter pushes you away, her hands trembling with a mix of anger and regret, your foot inadvertently lands on a shard of the shattered plate. a sharp pain shoots through your body, causing you to wince and lose your balance.

“fuck!” you exclaimed. you manage to catch yourself against the kitchen counter, but the throbbing ache intensifies with each passing second.

winter’s eyes widen in shock as she witnesses the unintended consequence of her actions, her mouth agape in disbelief. however, the lingering anger prevents her from immediately expressing concern or checking on your well-being. instead, without a word, she turns away and retreats towards the bedroom, slamming the door shut behind her, leaving you alone in the kitchen, nursing both your emotional and physical wounds.

a few minutes passed, the pain in your foot is a constant reminder of the fractured state of your relationship. as you gingerly make your way towards the pantry, your footsteps echo in the quiet house, filling the void left by winter's absence.

your retrieve a broom and a dustpan, your movements slow and pained, grunting here and there as you begin the task of cleaning up the broken shards scattered across the floor.

the sound of clinking porcelain and the sweep of the broom become the backdrop to the overwhelming ache in your heart. the realization sinks in that winter’s anger was so consuming that she didn't even pause to ask if you were okay, to show even the slightest concern for your well-being. and it hurt you.

once the task is complete, you make your way towards the bedroom, a mix of hope and trepidation swirling within you. as you approach the closed door, you take a deep breath and tried opening the door but as expected, the doorknob could only turn halfway indicating that the door’s locked

you sighed, and with a heavy heart and a limp from your injured foot, you resign yourself to spending the night alone in the living room. you gather a pillow and a thin blanket, the meager provisions for comfort, and settle yourself on the couch. the loneliness pervades the air, a tangible presence that exacerbates the pain both inside and outside your body.

as the night wears on, the weight of emotional turmoil finally gives way to exhaustion, and you drift into a restless sleep. however, the pain from your injured foot rouses you from your slumber in the wee hours of the night. blinking away the sleep, you find winter silently kneeling beside you, a first aid kit open on the coffee table, her gentle hands carefully cleaning the wound.

the dim light of a bedside lamp casts a soft glow on winter’s face, revealing the traces of sadness and concern etched upon her features. her eyes flicker with a mixture of regret and tenderness as she tends to your injury, her touch both gentle and deliberate. yet, despite her actions, the silence between you remains palpable, her lips sealed shut, as if the weight of her anger still weighs heavily upon her.

in all honesty, you’re still hurt at her words and how she didn’t even show the slightest concern when you injured yourself, "what are you doing" you slightly pulled your leg away from her, voice laced with hurt.

she kept silent, continues her ministrations, her gaze fixated on the task at hand, her silence a tangible barrier between you. your reach out, you held her arm preventing her from continuing.

"i’ll do it. just, go back to bed or whatever” you sighed. but the girl is very stubborn. and in a blink, your foot is already wrapped with bandage.

but still, she remains silent, the quiet treatment persisting like a heavy fog between you. her refusal to respond is a painful reminder of the rift that has grown between your hearts, deepening the ache in your chest.

as she finishes tending to your wound, she carefully stands up, her eyes avoiding yours as she gathers the first aid supplies. and without a word, she retreats back into the bedroom, leaving you alone once again, the lingering silence echoing in the room.

you lie there, your heart heavy with a sense of longing and confusion. the tenderness with which winter cared for your wound hints at a flicker of affection, yet her continued silence leaves you grasping at straws.

as the weight of the silence continues to press upon your heart, exhaustion finally overtakes you once more. sleep beckons, offering a temporary respite from the emotional turmoil that has consumed your thoughts. you eyes flutter closed, and you drift into a restless slumber.

but not long after, your eyelids flutter open once again, this time due to a different sensation. a heaviness rests upon your chest, causing you to shift and stir. with a slow and dazed awakening, you find winter nestled beside you, her head resting on your chest as she slumbers peacefully.

the room is shrouded in a gentle hush, the early morning light filtering through the curtains, casting a soft glow upon the scene before you. the rise and fall of winter’s breath against your chest creates a rhythmic melody, a reminder of the connection that still exists beneath the surface.

with a gentle touch, you run your fingers through winter's hair, relishing in the softness beneath your fingertips.

“i’m sorry” her voice startled you as you thought she was in a deep sleep. your hand stopped moving once you feel your shirt getting wet due to winter’s tears.

“i know you meant well, but my feelings got to me and i lashed it out on you when i shouldn’t have..” her voice was above whisper. you hummed, feeling guilty too because of what you said. both sides were hurt and it’s unfair if she’s the only one who apologizes so you did your part.

“i’m sorry too, i should have not make you feel that way.” you whispered.

as the air between you and winter becomes charged with a mix of forgiveness and longing, she lifts her gaze to meet yours. in that moment, an unspoken understanding passes between you, and without a word, she leans in, her lips gently brushing against yours.

the kiss is tender yet passionate, carrying with it the weight of an apology and a promise. it speaks volumes, conveying the depth of her remorse and her desire to make things right. the warmth of her touch against your lips ignites a flicker of hope within you, erasing the painful memories of the argument and replacing them with a renewed sense of connection.

her lips are soft and inviting, molding perfectly against yours as if they were made to fit together. the sensation sends an electric current through your body, causing your heart to race and your senses to heighten. there is an exquisite dance between her lips and yours, a rhythm that syncs effortlessly, drawing you closer and deepening the intimacy of the moment.

her mouth explores yours with a delicate and passionate fervor. her lips part slightly, inviting you to deepen the kiss, and you respond eagerly, allowing the intensity to build. tongues intertwine in a sensual dance, their movements mirroring the love and longing that swirl within your souls.

each brush of her lips against yours is a tender caress, a gentle apology for the hurtful words that were exchanged. the taste of her lingers on your tongue, a bittersweet reminder of the pain and the love that coexist within your relationship. time seems to stand still as you lose yourself in the intoxicating sweetness of the kiss, momentarily forgetting the outside world and the trials you have faced.

her hands find their way to your face, cupping your cheeks with a tenderness that speaks volumes. her touch is both gentle and possessive, a silent reassurance of her commitment and affection. the warmth of her touch seeps into your skin, melting away any lingering doubts or insecurities.

as the kiss deepens, the intensity grows, fueled by a mix of desire, forgiveness, and unspoken promises. the softness of her lips against yours gives way to a hunger, a primal need to connect and rediscover the passion that binds you together. your breaths become intertwined, ragged and needy, as you explore each other with a fervent desire, savoring the taste and texture of the kiss.

the world around you fades into the background, and it's just the two of you, lost in a sea of shared emotions and unspoken declarations. with each passing moment, the kiss becomes a language of its own, a symphony of longing and healing, carrying with it the power to mend the broken pieces of your hearts.

as the kiss eventually comes to an end, she pulls back slightly, her eyes searching yours for any signs of hesitation or doubt. but what she finds is a reflection of the love and forgiveness that fills her own heart. with a soft smile, she rests her forehead against yours, their breaths mingling as they take a moment to savor the tenderness and vulnerability of the shared kiss.

"i'm sorry," she whispers, her voice filled with sincerity. "i love you, and i promise to do better."

you caress her cheek gently, your voice carrying reassurance and love. “i love you too,”

in that moment, the kiss becomes a turning point—a symbol of reconciliation and a renewed commitment to one another.

#aespa #aespa imagine #aespa imagines #aespa oneshot #aespa x reader #kpop angst #aespa winter #winter x reader #kim minjeong

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giselle | just go

genre ; angst w/ a little fluff (if you squint) at the end 🫶🏻

pairing ; giselle x gn!reader

note ; this one is quite rushed! sorry :<

word count ; 1k+

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the winter night was bustling with activity as people hurried through the frosty streets, their breath forming tiny clouds in the chilly air. the warm glow of streetlights cast a golden hue upon the pavement, and the distant sound of laughter and conversation added to the ambiance. you sat across from your girlfriend giselle in a cozy café, hoping for a moment of connection amidst the flurry of activity.

as you gaze upon giselle, you can't help but feel a surge of admiration for her beauty. but it's not just the physical appearance that enthralls you; it's the radiance she exudes from within. her presence lights up the room, captivating not only your eyes but also your heart and soul.

in this moment, as you sit across from her, you are reminded of the countless times her beauty has taken your breath away. it's a sight that fills you with a mixture of wonder, desire, and a profound appreciation for the privilege of being in her presence.

as you look at giselle, you couldn't help but notice her preoccupied demeanor. her attention was fixated on her phone, her fingers tapping away on the screen with an intensity that seemed to surpass her awareness of the world around her. the vibrant energy that once enveloped your relationship had faded, replaced by a growing sense of distance.

weeks had passed since you last felt the warmth of her presence, the comfort of her touch. what was once a regular routine of meeting almost every week had transformed into sporadic encounters, reduced to a couple or single text messages per week. the disconnection between you grew like an invisible wall, leaving you longing for the intimacy that once bound you together.

a sense of unease settled within you as you observed giselle's distant gaze. it was as if her attention was perpetually locked away in the digital realm, leaving little space for the shared moments that had once defined your relationship. each passing day, the distance between you seemed to stretch further, causing a heaviness to settle in your heart.

as the cafe hummed with activity, you caught a glimpse of giselle's phone screen. flashbacks flooded your mind, as fragments of memories pieced themselves together like a jigsaw puzzle. you remembered moments when you saw her texting someone else rather often, and occasions when you caught her deep in conversation on the phone. it was as if a secret world had been constructed, one that she tried to hide from you.

softly, you reached out, gently placing your hand on hers. "aeri, can we talk?” the sudden contact between her warm hand and your cold made her jump.

“hm? sure” she nodded slightly, locking her phone and placing it face down next to her drink. you sighed at this small thing she always does whenever she’s around you.

you sighed, “i've noticed a change between us lately, and i can't help but feel like something's been going on."

she tensed slightly, her eyes darting away as if trying to escape the confrontation. "oh, it's... it's nothing, really," she murmured, her voice laced with a mixture of guilt and hesitation.

you took a deep breath, your voice steady yet filled with vulnerability. "aeri, i care about you deeply. i want you to be honest with me. please, tell me what's been going on."

a flicker of apprehension passed through her eyes before she sighed, a sense of resignation in her voice. "y/n.. i’m ," she paused, looking at you for a mere second before darting her attention away. “i don’t think this is working anymore”

your heart sank, the weight of her words echoing within you. it was a painful admission, yet it brought a semblance of clarity to the tumultuous emotions you had been grappling with.

but then, as her guard crumbled, a question from you that caught her off guard surfaced. "it’s your ex isn’t it?" you continued, your voice barely above a whisper.

she wasn’t shock that you figured out, as she has been waiting for you to, and finally you did. "i haven't fully moved on from my past relationship. it's been holding me back, and i didn't know how to tell you."

your breath caught in your throat as her confession hit you like a sudden gust of wind. the realization that she still clung to a love that wasn't yours to share added a deeper layer of anguish to the already fragile state of your relationship. silence hit the both of you, as tears starts to well up in your eyes making it sting a little.

"aeri?" you broke the painful silence , your voice laced with vulnerability, "why?” you asks. giselle's eyes meet yours, her expression a mix of guilt, sadness, and regret. she opens her mouth to speak but finds herself unable to form the words.

instead, her eyes well up with tears that glisten in the dimly lit cafe. you feel your heartstrings snapping one by one at the sight of the girl you love looking at you with nothing but emptiness emitting from her gaze.

"it's okay," you say, your voice filled with a mix of resignation and sadness. "just go."

giselle's teary gaze meets yours, her heart heavy with the weight of your words. "i never wanted to hurt you," she whispers, her voice trembling. "it's just... things changed, and i made a mistake."

a bittersweet smile tugs at the corners of your lips as you reach a difficult realization. things didn’t change, it was like this since the beginning. knowing how she still has feelings for her past lover and yet still being in a relationship with you makes it feel like you squeezed yourself into a spot inside of her heart that is clear that there's someone else who fills it more fully.

giselle's tears flow freely now, her voice choked with emotion. "i'm so sorry," she murmurs, her words filled with regret.

you take a deep breath, the ache in your chest momentarily overwhelming. "just go, i’ll be fine" you say, your voice filled with a mix of longing and resignation.

the weight of your decision hangs heavy in the air, and as you watch giselle's tear-stained face.

giselle's fell, her voice trembling with emotion. "i never wanted to lose you," she whispered, her words barely audible. "but i understand if you can't stay."

you could only smile at her words. the weight of your decision settles within you, you find yourself unable to leave without one final moment of connection. with a tender gaze, you lock eyes with the girl in front of you, silently conveying a mixture of love, sorrow, and acceptance.

you rise from your seat, your heart heavy with a mixture of sadness and acceptance. with one last look at giselle, you utter your final words. "take care aeri," you say softly.

as you turn away and walk out of the cafe, the winter night embraces you with its cold embrace, mirroring the emptiness in your heart. though it hurts to let go, you carry a glimmer of hope that someday, in a different time and place, you will find a love that will stay, a love that will choose you without hesitation.

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as the months slipped by, you slowly began to rebuild your life, piece by piece, in the aftermath of heartbreak. each day brought a glimmer of healing, but the memories of giselle still lingered, like whispers of a love that once was.

on an ordinary morning, as you hurried along the bustling streets, lost in your own thoughts, fate took a cruel twist. amongst the sea of faces, your eyes locked with giselle's, and time stood still. there she stood, hand in hand with her new (old) partner, a painful reminder of the love she had found in another's arms.

your heart clenched with a mixture of longing, sadness, and an ache that resurfaced from the depths of your being. it felt as though the ground beneath you had shifted, threatening to swallow you whole. in that moment, the weight of their happiness felt unbearable, an invisible weight pressing upon your chest.

giselle's eyes met yours, and for a fleeting instant, you saw a flicker of recognition, a glimpse of the shared history that had once bound you together. but as quickly as it appeared, it was masked by a veil of contentment, as if she had moved on completely, leaving you stranded in the wake of what could have been.

words escaped you as your mouth grew dry, your throat constricted by unspoken emotions. the air turned thin, as though suffocating under the weight of unfulfilled dreams and unanswered questions. you longed to reach out, to touch her, to remind her of the love you once shared, but the chasm between you felt impossibly wide.

you watched them walk away, their footsteps blending with the sounds of the bustling city. tears welled in your eyes, blurring your vision as you silently whispered the words you had kept hidden deep within your heart. "good for you" you murmured, your voice cracking with a mix of resignation and anguish.

the ache intensified as you realized that you had become an observer in the story of her life, a bystander to the love that had slipped through your fingers. it felt as though the world had conspired against you, presenting this heart-wrenching encounter as a cruel reminder of what you had lost.

slowly, you composed yourself, wiping away the tears that threatened to spill. with a heavy heart, you continued on your path, the weight of their presence lingering in the air around you. the echoes of their laughter followed you, like haunting melodies that punctuated the silence of your own solitude.

as you were about to step into your workplace, lost in the aftermath of the heart-wrenching encounter with giselle and her new partner, fate intervened once again. a moment of serendipity disguised as a chance encounter. you collided with someone whose eyes held a glimmer of understanding.

“fuck! i’m so sorry” apologies spilled from your lips, a reflexive response to the unexpected collision. the girl in front of you stumbled a little, but luckily she caught her balance quite fast before turning to check on you.

her voice was gentle as she spoke, a voice that carried a comforting warmth. "are you okay?" she asked, concern evident in her eyes.

you managed a weak smile, touched by the genuine compassion in her words. "yeah,i’m fine! sorry.." you bowed your head slightly, voice laced with a mixture of vulnerability and resilience as you walk past the girl.

you gathered yourself together, about to proceed, when the girl’s voice called out to you. turning around, you saw the girl hurrying towards you, a hint of anticipation on her face. she reached you, slightly out of breath, and with a shy smile, she spoke up.

"before you go, can i know your name?" she asked, her cheeks tinged with a blush.

surprised by her sudden request, you couldn't help but be captivated by her genuine interest. you returned her smile, feeling a spark of connection between you.

"oh, sure" you replied, your voice filled with warmth. "it’s y/n" you flashed her a smile that made her blush.

“nice to meet you, i’m minjeong!”

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karina | sorry, i love you.

genre ; fluff , angst

pairing ; student!karina X student!gnreader

note ; inspired by stray kids’ sorry, i love you. recommend reading while listening to the song!sorry if there are any typos, enjoyy <3

word count ; 3k+

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“jimin is here”

and with only three words coming from minjeong, your body starts tensing up, you immediately started paying attention to your appearance, as a reaction to those three words.

you and karina have been friends ever since the both of you were in diapers. you were there when she first scratched her knees at the playground, and she was there when your first tooth fell out.

your parents are best friends with hers, which immediately molded the both of you into one too. you would go everywhere with karina by your side, you would feel as if you’re naked if she wasn’t by your side with you.

all is well between the both of you, until one day. it was another typical school day, just like the other monday tuesday wednesday thursday and fridays.

you were chilling in the classroom as the other students swarm the cafeteria. you had lose your focus on your homework, and were playing some stupid advertisement trial games when you suddenly felt a poke on your right cheek.

the moment you turn around, you locked eyes with karina. and for the first time ever after all those years, you felt your cheek heat up and your heart swelling up upon seeing how pretty she was that day.

“what?” she spoke

she looked— so, pretty. she drew her eyeliner that day. her cheeks were dabbed with some rose coloured blusher and her hair was wavy. the smell of her perfume hypnotized you, along with how her eyes were looking at yours.

“going somewhere?” you pulled her chair out, the swoosh of her scent when she sat down entered your nose and you felt awkward around her for the first time ever.

“uhmm no, just felt like dressing up a little today. why? you bringing me somewhere?” her eyes sparkled as she looked at you. and you hated how you couldn’t look at her in the eyes at all that day.

days passed, seasons changed and without realizing, it have been almost a year since you realize how you truly feel about your best friend.

ever since that day, every day was a torture to you. everytime karina held onto your arm while walking, you would feel like you have a chance with her or maybe she’s hinting you something. when actually the both of you had done that a long time ago, and that it’s actually nothing.

when she invites you to have dinner with her family, you start smiling to yourself in your room. when she calls you in the middle of the night when she can’t sleep, the thought of you and her becoming a thing keeps on growing.

when she fixes your messy hair, when she sends you a flying kiss emoji, when she was the first one to wish you happy birthday, when she bought you a cute kuromi bandage, when she fell asleep on your shoulder in the train, when she smiled at you so brightly, everything leads to you thinking you have a chance with her. and maybe, just maybe, you actually do.

to keep your feelings hidden was hard, especially when your friends are her friends too. winter to be exact. aside from karina, winter was one of you childhood friend. whatever you’re thinking about, she knows it the moment she looks at your face. and that is how she found out about your feelings for karina.

winter saw how you were smiling to yourself when texting her in between class breaks. but knowing winter, she would never snitch on you.

the sound of books being placed on your desk snapped you out of your daydream. karina was standing in front of you, her hair was half tied. she took your breath away, yet again. you really like how feminine she look with that hairstyle.

“let’s go?”

right, you had invited her to have tteokbokki with you after school the other day, as a celebration to finally submitting one of the hardest school project you both were struggling with.

“yeah, let’s go” you said, mouth dry as you cleared your throat. you offered to carry her bag which karina gladly accepted. as the both of you exits the classroom, you turn to look at winter who mouthed a ‘fighting’ to you.

you nodded, and shifted your attention to karina who was walking next to you. the moment you looked at her, she already has her eyes on you. with a suspicious look on her face.

“what was that with minjeong?” she asks which caught you off guard.

“what was what?” you played your cool and ignored her eyes that are looking for yours. the cold wind hit the both of you the moment you stepped out of the building. karina shivered slightly making you burst into a small chuckle.

“you know y/n” she spoke

“hm?” you turn to look at the owner of small figure next to you.

“we’ve been friends for like.. what? 17 years? aren’t you tired of me” she asks in a joking manner.

“hell yes” you replied. as she hit you on the shoulder. a small wine escaped her mouth

“no but like seriously. we’ve been by each other’s side since we’re kids. have you ever wonder how long are we going to be with each other? do you think we’re ever going to stop talking to each other?” her eyes widen at the thought of it

“you look ugly with your eyes wide like that. cut the bullshit jimin im hungry” you scoffed as you entered the restaurant.

thankfully, the walk from school to the restaurant was only a couple of minutes. if not, you’d be miserable having to come up with answers to her questions that never fail to catch you off guard. the girl next to you lets out an annoyed sigh making you laugh.

“what do you want to eat” she asks, you look up to see the menu covering most of her face and only her eyebrows and forehead was visible. you smiled at the sight.

“whatever you want to eat” you replied. you see her eyebrows frowning.

“umm then let’s have rose tteokbokki? with boiled eggs and fishcakes as add ons. is that fine?”

it took her around 10 minutes to decide on what she wanted the both of you to eat, and now the table is full of all the delicious foods that karina had ordered.

you took a couple of bites, as you enjoy watching karina finishes the rest of the food. she had always been a big eater, everyone knows this and this made you feel like you need to have at least one or two snacks in your bag with you to keep a hungry karina happy.

you look around the restaurant, as you wait for karina to finish eating. the cozy restaurant buzzed with conversation as you and karina finished up your meal.

you managed to space out in the meantime, thinking about the little plan you have been carefully been thinking about with the help of winter. now all you need is to just carefully play it out just like how winter had told you.

the air was filled with a mixture of delicious aromas and nervous anticipation. with each passing moment, your heart thumped faster, nerves coiling like a spring. summoning up your courage, you glanced at karina, fidgeting with your fingers.

"jimin, um, i actually wanted to ask you something," you stammered, your voice betraying your nervousness. her eyes shifted to yours, head still hanging low as she slurps the tteokbokki. "uh, meet at the park tonight at 8 pm?"

karina's eyebrows raised, a playful smile dancing on her lips. she knew your nervous tics all too well and couldn't resist teasing you.

"oh?" she replied, her voice laced with confusion. "the park at 8 pm? that sounds mysteriously specific. what's the occasion?"

your heart thumped in your head, and you tried keeping your calm.

"well, you know," you began, your words stumbling out in a jumble. "the book i lent you, i need it for— i want to read it"

karina's laughter filled the air, her eyes sparkling with mirth. she couldn't resist but to laugh at you.

"you? reading a book?" she quipped, feigning surprise. "oh, wow the world is ending soon probably huh? i suppose i'll have to rush to the park just to retrieve it!"

you let out an annoyed sigh, your cheeks reddened even further, the self-awareness of your stupid excuse making you cringe inwardly. but beneath the teasing, you saw a glimmer of something else in karina's eyes—a warmth.

she leaned in closer, her voice softening.

"of course, i'll meet you at the park," she said, her tone immediately turned gentle. her words sent a wave of relief and hope coursing through you. maybe, just maybe, this was your chance to finally confess your feelings.

as you left the restaurant together, the evening air wrapping around you like a comforting embrace, you couldn't help but smile at karina's playful banter. listening to her talking about how she hates her classes. the nervousness still lingered, but now it was accompanied by a growing excitement—an anticipation of what the night at the park might bring.

little did you know that this innocent book returning session would become the catalyst for a heart-to-heart conversation, an evening filled with vulnerability and courage.

the park was bathed in the soft glow of the setting sun. you found a cozy spot on a bench, nervously tapping your fingers against your phone screen. the anticipation built as you awaited karina's arrival, engrossed in a game to distract yourself from the fluttering feeling in your chest.

lost in the virtual world, you didn't notice the approaching footsteps until a familiar voice whispered playfully in your ear.

"guess who?" karina's voice sent shivers down your spine, and a smile tugged at the corners of your lips.

feeling her warm breath against your cheek, your heart skipped a beat. you turned around, and there she stood, her eyes sparkling with mischief, her hand still covering your eyes.

you played along, pretending to ponder the question. "hm? i think its yu jimin but im not sure"

karina chuckled and removed her hand, revealing her radiant smile. time seemed to slow down as your eyes locked, and in that instant, something shifted within you.

with a gentle touch, karina gestured for you to stand up from the bench. the phone slipped from your hands, forgotten in the magic of the moment. the air buzzed with anticipation as you both began to stroll through the park, bathed in the warm evening light.

as you walked side by side, the atmosphere filled with an unspoken understanding. it was as if the world had faded away, leaving only the two of you in your own little bubble of existence.

the sound of leaves rustling and distant laughter added a whimsical backdrop to the scene. the park seemed alive, mirroring the fluttering in your chest.

karina glanced at you, her gaze filled with tenderness and curiosity. the time for teasing had passed; now it was a moment for vulnerability and heartfelt conversation.

"here," she broke the silence softly, her voice carrying a blend of warmth and apprehension. "it was a good book!"

your heart skipped a beat, anticipation mingled with nervousness. this was it—the moment you had been waiting for, the chance to open your heart and share your true feelings.

breaking the silence, you nervously fidget with your hands. the weight of unspoken words hung heavy in the air as you mustered up the courage to ask karina the question that had been burning inside you.

taking a deep breath, you turned to karina, meeting her gaze. "how’s the book?"

karina's eyes brightened, a smile gracing her lips. "oh, yeah! i loved it. the friends-to-lovers trope is one of my favorites. it's just so... heartwarming, you know?"

a flicker of hope sparked within you as karina expressed her fondness for the trope. perhaps this was the right moment to share your feelings. you let out a chuckle at the sight of karina’s eyes shining with excitement.

nervously, you continued, your words trying not to stumble over each other. "friends to lovers trope huh? what if you experienced something like that in real life? how would you feel about it?"

karina's expression faltered for a moment, confusion evident in her eyes. "uh, well... i mean, it's a nice idea, but real life is different, you know? it's not always as simple as it seems in books and movies."

you nodded in silence, agreeing with what she had just said. it seems like she’s describing the exact moment you’re in. your heart sank, a wave of awkwardness washing over you. you had taken a risk, and it seemed you hadn't quite found the right words.

gathering your courage, you pressed on, your voice barely above a whisper. "yeah, i get that. but what if... what if i-“ you looked towards her direction as you speak, and when you finally meet her eyes. your heart sank as you realized that karina had caught on onto what you’re about to say.

karina's face registered surprise and realization, her eyes widening. the weight of the moment settled upon you both, and an awkward silence filled the air.

you took a deep breath, mustering the strength to continue instead of letting the awkward silence carry on. "jimin-ah, i’ve liked you for as long as i can remember. throughout our childhood and teenage years, my feelings for you have only grown stronger and stronger. you have always been the one."

karina's features shifted, her expression filled with sadness. her voice was gentle but uncertain as she spoke, "y/n..i'm sorry if i've given you the wrong impression. but, no.. no i’m so—" karina’s voice shook

the park fell silent, the atmosphere heavy with the weight of karina's realization. a whirlwind of emotions washed over her, leaving her feeling overwhelmed and disheartened. her eyes widened, flickering with a mix of sadness and regret as the gravity of the situation settled in.

karina's heart sank, the realization hitting her like a punch to the gut. the friendship she held dear, the bond that had weathered countless storms, was now at risk of being forever tainted. a sense of disappointment tinged with a touch of disbelief welled up within her, threatening to spill over.

you took a deep breath, your voice filled with remorse and vulnerability. "no it’s okay, i’m— i'm sorry...” you paused, feeling your eyes stinging.

“i’m sorry, it’s just that i like you so much that it's become impossible for me to stay just friends. i tried to hide my feelings, to keep them locked away, but they grew too strong to ignore."

your gaze met karina's, filled with an intensity of emotion that mirrored the love you harbored for her. "im sorry for confessing. i didn't want to jeopardize our friendship, but i couldn't bear the weight of these unspoken words any longer." you let out a fake chuckle

she had never anticipated this confession, never expected that the unspoken words hanging between you would be uttered with such vulnerability. the thought of losing the comfort and familiarity of your friendship left a hollow ache in karina's chest.

you continued, your voice filled with sincerity. "i cherish our friendship, karina. i truly do. but the love i feel for you is too overwhelming to ignore. it's not fair to either of us to pretend that everything can go back to how it was." your eyes that is spilling with tears met hers

her gaze turned downward, her fingers unconsciously fidgeting with the hem of her shirt. she couldn't help but replay the memories of your laughter, your shared secrets, and the countless hours spent in each other's company. the thought of all those moments being overshadowed by the weight of unrequited feelings was like a bitter pill to swallow.

the weight of your confession hung heavily in the air, the silence stretching between you. the park, once a place of solace, now seemed like a backdrop to the turmoil of emotions playing out before you.

tears spilled down karina's cheeks as she mustered the strength to respond. her voice quivered with a mix of sadness and understanding. "y/n..” a mix of emotions swirled within karina's heart.

there was a tinge of guilt, as she wondered if there was something she could have done differently to prevent this rift from forming. she questioned herself, unsure if she had missed any signs along the way, any hints that would have prepared her for this confession.

you nodded, your heart breaking with the weight of her words. "it’s okay, jimin.” you smiled your sadness away “i never wanted to force you into feeling something you don't. i just had to take the chance and let you know. i'm sorry if i've made things difficult."

her eyes glistened with unshed tears as she fought to hold back the flood of emotions threatening to spill over. she valued your friendship deeply, cherishing the bond that had been a constant source of support and joy in her life. the thought of losing that connection, even if unintentional, pierced her heart.

you took a deep breath, your voice trembling as you struggled to hold back your tears. "i... i should go," you managed to say, your voice cracking with emotion.

karina's eyes followed you, her own tears threatening to spill over. "wait," she whispered, her voice filled with guilt and disappointment. "please, don't go."

but you couldn't bear to stay any longer, the weight of unrequited love suffocating you. "i'm sorry, karina," you choked out, your voice thick with emotion. "i”ll.. i’ll see you around."

tears began to trickle down your cheeks, a visible display of the pain that consumed you. you turned away, unable to bear the sight of karina's anguished expression. each step you took felt heavier than the last, as if the weight of your shattered heart anchored you to the ground.

karina stood there, her heart breaking as she watched you retreat. she wanted to reach out, to offer comfort and reassurance, but the guilt of not being able to reciprocate your feelings held her back. her disappointment mingled with a sense of self-blame, as if she had unintentionally led you on or given you false hope.

silent tears streamed down karina's face as she stood alone in the park, her heart heavy with the knowledge that she had inadvertently shattered the friendship you both held dear. the anguished silence hung in the air, echoing the pain and regret that lingered in her soul.

in that moment, the park felt like a desolate place, devoid of the laughter and joy that once filled its corners. the loss was palpable, the absence of your presence a constant reminder of the bond that now lay fractured and fragile.

as the sun began to set, casting long shadows across the park, karina remained rooted to the spot, grappling with the overwhelming mix of emotions. guilt, disappointment, and a profound sense of loss intertwined within her, a painful reminder of the unintended consequences of unrequited love.

karina's voice quivered with sorrow as she spoke the words, her heart heavy with the weight of her own emotions. "i'm sorry," she managed to say, her voice barely above a whisper. "im sorry my heart doesn't align in the same way."

silent tears streamed down karina's face, tracing a path of pain and regret. each drop held the weight of a shattered friendship, a bond she desperately wanted to preserve but couldn't. as she watched you walk away, her heart ached with a mixture of guilt and longing.

with every step you took, karina's silent cries echoed in the depths of her soul. the park seemed to blur around her, its vibrant colors muted by the veil of sadness that enveloped her. she yearned to reach out, to hold onto the fragments of your friendship, but she knew deep down that she couldn't force something that wasn't there.

her tears fell silently, each droplet a testament to the immense pain she felt. the words she uttered, filled with remorse and sadness, lingered in the air like a haunting melody. she had never intended to hurt you, never wanted to be the cause of your heartbreak, yet here she was, bearing the weight of the unintended consequences.

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karina | through the night

genre ; fluff , angst

pairing ; idol!karina x idol!gnreader

note ; a lot of angst! also sorry if there are any typos!

word count ; 7k+

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the cold night breeze slaps your face the second you step out of your apartment building, sending your hair flying back as you made sure no one was around to see you out. the weather was nice, maybe a little bit too windy to your liking but you didn’t mind.

you’ve always hated winter, the coldness had been nothing but a torture to you and your electric bills with the heater running on 24/7 trying to keep you warm in your house. you especially hate it when it snows and your shoes keeps on getting wet, and being hit by snowballs thrown by kids that were playing around also became one of the main reason you hated winter.

your phone vibrated in your pocket, and you didn’t have to check to know who sent you a message at this ungodly hour. a smile immediately plastered on your face as you grow eager to reach the promised destination earlier.

there were no one else at the park except for you, and a couple of cars passing by every ten minutes. the town was asleep, but you weren’t. yet, you felt like your day was only about to begin.

love <3

almost there!

3:28a.m

3 am might be the only time you can meet karina without having to hide your face with mask, sunglasses and cap. though you guys could do much more fun things during daytime, it’d be such a risk for the both of you guys’ career. both you and karina’s group are thriving right now, the faces of your members and you being on every advertisement on the street speaks a lot.

aespa was just as popular, receiving awards here and there on every award show. making appearance on multiple tv shows, and at this point if you go to anyone on the streets of korea and ask to name all of the aespa members, they could easily nail it and name everyone in a heartbeat.

at first, you liked the attention. but now, you wish people wouldn’t know about your existence and you hope that you could just vanish from their memory. but that’s impossible.

your desire for that grew bigger and deeper after you met karina. the both of you have been together for not longer than a year, but the amount of proper dates you guys have been on can be counted with only one of your hands. both of you were scared to go out during daytime, being completely aware that some crazy fans might follow either one of you around.

so the only time you have the time to meet the love of your life is when everyone is fast asleep, leaving only streetlights to accompany the both of you.

“what got you zoning out like that?” a familiar fairy-like voice breaks the cold silence. you look up from the swing to see the popular idol standing in front of you with honey dripping from her eyes.

“you.” you replied making karina push your shoulder lightly at the cheesiness of your answer.

“come?” she gently grab your hand, making you stand up. you follow where she’s bringing you, the both of you exiting the park. karina didn’t mutter a word, and kept on pulling you towards a direction which was very familiar to you.

“jimin” you chuckled, karina loved the way her real name comes rolling out of your mouth so naturally.

“why not?” she chuckled as she turn to enter the apartment building of your house before pressing the elevator button. the elevator dings before the door opened, you and karina immediately entered the elevator.

and before you could press your apartment level, karina had already crashed her lips onto yours, discarding her cap while at it. shocking you a little but before you finally melt into her kiss. you could tell by the way she was kissing you that she had been waiting for this exact moment since forever and you blushed at that thought. her lips felt like silk against yours, you missed the taste of her cherry flavoured lip gloss.

“wow, slow down” you pant, breaking the kiss as the both of you gasp for air. karina had this dumb smile on her face as she bit her bottom lips before breaking into a giggle.

“my lipgloss is all over your lips oh my god” she said before wiping them off of your mouth. her dimples showing as she smiled cheekily while wiping her lipgloss off your face.

“oops, maybe i wiped off a little bit too much” karina said before planting a soft long kiss on your lips.

“that’ll do!” she said pulling away, as she pulled your hand exiting the elevator.

“someone’s in a good mood tonight” you chuckled as you sunk your hands in your pocket, fishing for your house key.

“it’s because i have something to show you! quick, i’ll show you once we’re in” she said in excitement. her hands naturally snake around your arms side hugging it.

“this better be something special, i don’t want to see another street cat videos” you teased.

karina LOVES showing you videos of the street cats she met on the street, it had become a routine to watch at least one or three of her cat videos for the both of you everytime you meet. most of the time, you wouldn’t even watch the videos she’s showing you and focus on how her eyes turns into a shape of the crescent moon instead. the way her smile would turn wide as she watches the cat videos together with you melts your heart.

it’s her dream to adopt a cat and take care of it together with you, she had decided what the cats name are gonna be but she had told you that she will never let you know beforehand what the names are gonna be.

“okay, i swear this time it won’t be related to cats in any way!” she said taking her muffler off before placing it on top of the table near the television, though she’s been to your house only a couple of times and she knew you hated it when she goes around placing her things messily. you took your muffler that karina had knitted for you and placed it next to hers.

karina pushed you down on the sofa, making you lay down before she crawls on top of you taking her phone out.

“i heard this and i thought of you” she said as she lays her head on your chest, getting comfy. karina smiled, as a familiar melody played . it took you a couple of seconds before realizing what song was playing.

“i like this song” you smiled, and so did karina. the melody echoes through the living room.

it was iu’s through the night.

“listen to the lyrics,” she said. you hummed and closed your eyes. enjoying the moment to the fullest, having her so close to you makes you happy yet so emotional as you long to do the things normal couple could do.

karina’s honey like voice followed iu’s, singing through the melody as she drew circles on your chest. the duration of the song felt so short, the song is coming to an end as karina raised her head up looking at you in the eyes before kissing you so sweetly.

“i love you” she muttered in between the kiss. you smiled and pulled away, tilting your head to plant a kiss on both her cheeks and forehead.

“i love you more”

karina blushed before kissing away the stupid grin you had on your face. she paused the next song that came on shuffle before sitting up.

“so are you not curious to why im suddenly making you listen to songs?” she asks as a smirk crept on her pretty face

“because you love me?” karina frowned at your stupid answer, sometimes she hopes for you to not be so cheesy though she secretly likes it

“ok let’s not talk about the obvious” she playfully rolls her eyes

“then?”

karina then repositions herself, as she pulls you up making you sit up. there’s a cheeky grin on her face as she waits for you to sit up, and after a couple of seconds the both of you are sitting up facing each other.

“it’s like months away from now but—” karina paused as her hands snaked onto yours.

“i got offered to have a collaboration stage for the end year award and they let me choose my partner—“

“and?” your eyes starts sparkling as you look into her eyes, full of expectation as a stupid grin plastered on your face.

“and who do you think i would like to collab with?” she smiled, giving a gentle squeeze on your hand.

“me?” you asked, reciving a nod from the latter. you smiled and gently cup her face, leaning in to give her a kiss on the lips as she melts into it.

“but i can’t sing” you spoke, wearing a worried expression which made karina burst into a laughter. being the rapper and the main dancer in your group, you only got rap parts and you rarely sing in your songs. well maybe, in your b-sides there are a couple of songs that had you singing in it but it was never more than 3 lines or so.

“we can take turn, and i want you play the guitar. it’s going to be amazing! two rappers doing ballad? we’re going to end every other vocalist’s career!” karina joked which made you whip her hand lightly.

“well maybe not ningning” you said.

karina had gotten so excited over the thought of the performance, in which the supposed home date suddenly turns into a little practoce session. she handed you your acoustic guitar, finding the right key and chords that would make the both of you sound amazing together.

but, you didn’t really want to sing. in fact, you felt like only karina could sing the song, while you play.

“let’s change the plan, what about i don’t sing at all and just play the guitar” you suggested, making karina whip her head up in confusion.

“that’d make it more special, it’s either only you sing, and i play. or nothing at all”

“what, why—“

“nothing honey,”

karina’s heart fluttered at how naturally the pet name sounded coming from you, it wasn’t the first time she’s heard you call her that but she gets butterflies everytime she does.

“i feel like that would make the whole stage more special. i can only play when you sing. we complement each other, right?” you asked, as you eyes shifted from the fret board to her eyes to see that she was already looking at you.

“god- can i kiss you?” honey dripping from her eyes, making you blush. she pouted her lips before crashing it onto yours. you will never get tired of seeing her cheeky grin everytime the both of you pull away from a kiss, and how her dimples appearing as she backs away from you will never get old.

“stay the night,” karina turned to look at you, with a forced smile on her face. “you know i can’t” she replied. this is one of the consequences of a home date, which is no matter what time it is and how dangerous it is, you must leave when it’s dark as it is too risky to leave when the sun is out. dispatch could be camping outside of the house waiting for one of you to exit the other’s house.

“when can i see you again?” you asked. karina’s eyes gloomed, knowing that she won’t have the chance to meet you anytime soon due to her group’s schedule. “we can call, anytime” she smiled before snaking her hands up to your waist, tip toeing as she gently plant a kiss on your lips.

“you’re going to be busy, i don’t want to disturb you” you let out a defeated sigh, cursing the universe once again as you wish you and karina could just live a normal life as a couple.

“i will but— i’ll try for you” she crashed her body into yours, melting in your embrace, dreading to walk out of your apartment.

“you better get going before it gets too late, text me when you arrive home okay?” you broke the hug as you pull karina’s hoodie, making it cover her head while you tidy up a couple strands of hair that was sticking out.

“i’ll text you, goodnight my love” her brown orbs held sadness, not wanting to end the night yet. if it wasn’t for her morning practice she’s 100% sure she’d spend the whole night or maybe a couple of days lazing around with you.

and with a kiss, the both of you bid goodbye. you shut the door close, as you turn around to switch the lights of your apartment off you could feel the usual wave of sadness you feel everytime karina leaves your house.

you woke up to the sound of your phone buzzing incessantly on your nightstand. groaning at how the sound woke you up from your sleep, you reached over to grab it, hoping to silence the notifications so you could get a few more minutes of sleep. but as you opened your phone, you were bombarded with messages from your friends, family, and some message requests on your instagram that came from yourfans.

confused, you scrolled through your notifications, trying to figure out what was going on. and then you saw it: news articles with the headline

"y/n and aespa’s karina spotted holding hands at a park. the two was seen hugging each other and laughing as they enter y/n’s apartment at 3am"

your heart raced as you read the articles. you and karina had been dating in secret for months, knowing that if your relationship was made public, it could cause issues with your fans and management company. but somehow, the news had gotten out, and now the world knew about your secret relationship with karina.

you felt a mix of emotions as you tried to process what was happening. on the one hand, you were thrilled that your relationship with Karina was finally out in the open. You had been so in love with her for months, and it felt like a weight had been lifted off your shoulders now that you didn't have to hide your feelings for her anymore.

but on the other hand, you were nervous about how your fans and management company would react. as an idol of a popular group, your public image was everything, and you knew that your relationship with karina could cause a lot of controversy and backlash from fans all around the world.

taking a deep breath, you sat up in bed and grabbed your phone, trying to figure out what to do next. you knew that you had to address the news somehow, but you weren't sure how to do it without making things worse.

as you scrolled through your social media accounts, you saw that your fans had already started to react to the news. some were supportive, saying that they were happy for you and karina and that they would continue to support you no matter what. but others were angry and upset, saying that you had betrayed them by keeping your relationship a secret.

you knew this wasn’t the right time to be reading comments, but as you scrolled through the comments on social media, your heart sank when you saw a particularly harsh comment. it was from a fan who is a bug fansite of your who had been following you since your debut.

‘i can't believe y/n would be so selfish and put their own desires ahead of their fans. betraying us all. to be honest, i don't know if i can support you anymore’

the tweet read. you felt a pang of hurt as you read the comment. you had always tried to be honest and authentic with your fans, and you didn't want to let them down.

you felt a knot forming in your stomach as you read the comments. you didn't want to disappoint your fans, but you also knew that you couldn't deny your feelings for Karina. you had to find a way to make things right and address the situation head-on.

as you scroll down twitter, many fan spectulated proofs were being posted. your lovestagram with karina is all over your timeline, some cursing the both of you for posting it online and fooling the fans. it broke your heart to see harsh words being thrown not only at you, but also at your girlfriend.

you knew you couldn’t let the situation go on longer, so you decided to talk to her. panicked, you reached out to karina, hoping to get to talk to her, and also SM entertainment regarding this issue. dialled her number and within a second, you could hear her voice on the other line. her voice was painfully beautiful, especially today.

“jimin, babe have you seen the news? what’s going on?" the panick in your voice was as clear as the sky.

there was a painfully long pause, "yeah, i saw it.” karina closed her eyes shut, tears rolling down her face as she leaned against her bedframe.

“it’s going to be fine, honey. don’t worry, i— i will be at your company soon and we can talk—“

“there’s no use in coming. it’s better for us to break up y/n i’m sorry, but i don’t think we should see each other anymore." her voice sounded cold and distant, far different from how she sounded like just a couple of hours ago when she was melting in your embrace.

your mouth fell agape, you couldn't believe what you were hearing. you had been in a loving relationship with karina, and you had never even talked about the possibility of breaking up. "what do you mean? why didn't you talk to me about this?" you asked, voice gradually growing louder in frustration.

"i didn't have a choice.. y/n. my company has a lot of influence over my career, and they made it clear that if we didn't break up, i would have to go on hiatus," she responded, as she let’s out a sigh.

"i’m sorry— but I have to put my career first. you understand how important this whole idol thing means to us right?" she spoke, trying to get you to understand what she was trying to say. but you were just so- dumbfounded. how can she make the decision all by herself?

"i can't believe this," you said, your voice trembling. "you’re just going to give up on us because of your company? without even talking to me about it first?" you could hear your heart breaking into millions of pieces.

"i'm sorry," karina said, her voice cracking. "i didn't know what else to do. i didn't want to hurt you, but i didn't want to lose my career, either."

you felt tears welling up in your eyes as you listened to her. you knew that this situation was complicated, and that there were no easy answers. but the fact that karina was willing to break up with you without even talking to you about it hurt more than anything else.

"no. we need to talk about this more," you said, your voice shaking. "we can't just end things like this without even trying to fight for our relationship. please, karina. don’t give up on us yet."

there was a long pause on the other end of the phone, and you held your breath, waiting for karina’s response.

“they are releasing the statement soon, i’m sorry y/n. i am very sorry..”

and just like that you were met with the flatline, signaling that the other party had hang up on the call. as soon as karina hung up the call, tears welled up in your eyes and you crumbled onto your bed. you couldn't stop the flood of emotions that overtook you, and you felt utterly helpless and defeated. it felt like everything you had worked for, everything you had dreamed of, was slipping away from you and you couldn't do anything to stop it.

the sobs wracked your body, and you curled up into a ball, feeling like the weight of the world was on your shoulders. you felt weak and powerless, and you couldn't understand why karina would even consider breaking up with you without even discussing it properly. you felt like you had no control over the situation, and it was overwhelming.

you didn't know how long you stayed like that, crying and feeling utterly lost and alone. you felt like you were drowning in your own sadness and there was no way out. you couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel and you felt hopeless.

eventually, you managed to pull yourself together enough to wipe away your tears and take a deep breath, but you still felt hollow and empty inside. you knew that there would be tough times ahead, but you didn't feel like you had the strength to face them. it felt like everything you had worked for was slipping away and you couldn't do anything to stop it.

you cried until you were too exhausted to cry anymore. your eyes were swollen and puffy, your throat was sore from the sobs, and your head was pounding. you lay there on your bed, feeling completely empty inside, muttering sad sentences that included karina's name.

"why did you have to do this to me.." you whispered, your voice trembling. "i thought you loved me. why didn't you talk to me about this first?"

you shut your eyes, yet the memories of the both of you being all lovey dovey just last night haunts you.

you couldn't stop the tears from falling, and you didn't even try to. you just let them flow freely down your face, mingling with the endless stream of sad and hopeless words that escaped your lips.

"how could you— how could you break up with me like this?" you said, your voice barely above a whisper.

you felt like you were drowning in your own sorrow, and you didn't know how to swim to the surface. you were trapped in a sea of sadness, and it seemed like there was no way out.

as the night wore on, you cried until you couldn't cry anymore. your sobs eventually turned into quiet sniffles, and your muttering became incoherent murmurs. and finally, you drifted off to sleep, still muttering sad sentences that included karina's name under your breath.

as the award show approached, you threw yourself into preparations, trying to distract yourself from thoughts of karina. you spent countless hours rehearsing your performance and perfecting your appearance, determined to make a statement on stage.

but no matter how hard you tried, traces of karina were everywhere. you couldn't go anywhere without being reminded of her, and the pain of the breakup still lingered in your heart.

despite the emotional turmoil, you knew that you had to put on a brave face and show the world that you were strong and independent. so you pushed aside your feelings and focused on the task at hand, determined to give the performance of a lifetime.

as you practiced the song that you and karina had promised to perform together, the memories of your past with her flooded back. you couldn't help but let out a sob as you sang the lyrics, the emotions behind the words hitting you harder than ever before.

the tears streamed down your face as you tried to continue singing, but your voice broke and you stumbled over the words. your head playing games with you when you keep on hearing her honey like voice singing along with you. you felt a sense of hopelessness wash over you as you realized that the song would never be the same without karina by your side.

the pain of the breakup was still too fresh, and the thought of having to perform the song alone was too much to bear.

but as you wiped away your tears and stood back up, you knew that you couldn't let your emotions get in the way of your performance. you took a deep breath and tried to push aside the memories, focusing on the task at hand.

even though your heart was breaking, you knew that you had to be strong for your fans and show them that you were capable of moving on. so you picked yourself up, determined to give it your all and make the performance one that karina would be proud of, even if she wasn't there with you.

weeks passed and the day had come where your group and you were invited to Seoul Music Award. you were excited at the thought of meeting your fans and performing your new released song for the first time in front of them.

from inside of the van, you could see flashes from fansites going crazy as the van approached the red carpet. you stepped out of the car and onto the red carpet, the flash of cameras and the sound of reporters calling out your name making your heart race. it was the biggest award show of the year, and you were thrilled to be there. but, as you looked around the crowded venue, your excitement quickly turned to dread. aespa was there, too. karina, was there.

she looks stunning, as always. she was dressed in a glittering gown that hugs her curves in all the right places. and for a moment, you're struck by how beautiful she looks, and you feel a pang of regret and longing.

but then the memories flood back, and you remember why you broke up in such bad terms. youu remember the coldness of her voice, the betrayal, the pain. you remember the countless times you tried to make it work, only to be met with indifference or outright hostility. and you feel a surge of anger and bitterness, along with a deep sadness that still lingers inside you.

you shook off your feelings, focusing on the fansites that are in shouting your name asking you to make certain poses. as you entertain your fan, you glanced over to karina as she looks up and catches your eye. your can see the regret in her expression, the pain that she's still carrying around with her. but you don't want to give her the satisfaction of acknowledging her, so you broke the eye contact, your head held high.

the procedure went on faster than you had expected, and now every group are moving to the venue, seating at their designated seats.

you arrive at the award show and take your seat at a table, bothered to see that karina, and aespa is seated a table away from yours. and despite the distance between you and aespa’s, you can't help but notice her glancing over at you every once in a while. the whole night you felt very uncomfortable, not only because you were a few meters away from karina but also because you were seperated from your group due to the lack of chairs provided by the floor manager, now sitting with the lesserafim members.

so there you were, sitting at the award show table, trying to enjoy the staged despite the awkwardness. break time came before the second part of the award show starts you were about to go to you group’s table to avoid the awkwardness but suddenly, you feel a tap on your shoulder, and you turn around to see the american member, huh yunjin flashunv you a sweet smile. a member from the band that's up for the same award as you.

she smiles at you, shifting her gaze from your eyes to your lips time to time and you can't help but feel a little flustered by her subtle flirts. "hey relax a little," yunjin said, in english. it shocked you because not many people that you were quite fluent in english and seeing yunjin knew, it’s obvious that she had been having her eyes on you for quite a while.

"i saw your rehearsal earlier, and I have to say, you were amazing. i can see why your fans are going crazy over you." you blush at her compliment. "thank you," you say.

"you guys were pretty incredible too. been listening to all of your b-sides! bangers." you chuckled which made yunjin laugh, covering her mouth as her hand lightly hits your chest. thank god the venue were not open for fans during break time, due to some circumstances. if not, all of the fansites in here would’ve gone crazy and an issue would be caused.

yunjin grins at you. "well, now that we're both here, maybe we can get to know each other a little better. what do you say?"

as you continue chatting with yunjin, karina can't help but overhear your conversation. her heart sinks as she listens to the sound of your laughter and the way you seem to be hitting it off with yunjin.

she watches as you lean in closer to her, your eyes shining with excitement. she can see the way yunjin is looking at you, with a mix of admiration and desire.

karina's heart breaks as she realizes that she might have lost you for good. she remembers all the times you shared together, the moments of happiness and love that you both experienced. but she also remembers the particular day, the day she pushed you away.

as she listens to your conversation with yunjin, karina can't help but feel a deep sense of regret. she knows that she was the one who ended things between you, but seeing you with someone else makes her realize just how much she still loves you.

she remembers the way you used to hold her, the sound of your voice, and the way you looked at her with love in your eyes. but now, seeing you with someone else, she realizes that she might have missed her chance at true love.

karina tries to hold back her tears as she watches you and yunjin, but the pain in her heart is too much to bear. she knows that she needs to leave the award show and be alone with her thoughts.

"i can’t do this," she says, her voice barely above a whisper catching the attention fo her japanese friend, giselle looks at her with concern. "hm? what do you mean?"

"siitting here, seeing y/n with someone else. it’s— too much," karina replies, tears welling up in her eyes.

as she stands up to leave, she catches your eye for a brief moment but you were wuick to turn your attention back to yunjin who was in front of you. truthfully, you weren’t really enjoying the conversation you and yunjin were sharing but you didn’t want to appear rude, especially when she had approached you first. you see karina turning away as she walks out of the venue, feeling a deep sense of sadness and longing.

the conversation between you and yunjin was interrupted by your manager calling you to move, backstage. you checked the list and realized that you’re set to perform your special stage in 20 minutes. you got ready and prepared for your stage, warming up your vocal chords as you get you makeup touched up.

you stand backstage, your heart racing with excitement and nerves. the sound of the crowd's cheers and applause echoes through the walls, sending chills down your spine.

you take a deep breath and run your hands over your guitar, feeling the smooth wood beneath your fingers. you've practiced this song a hundred times, but performing it live on an awards show is a different kind of pressure.

the stage manager calls your name, and you feel your stomach drop. it's time.

“you can do this, y/n” you whisper to yourself.

as the lights dimmed, the crowd erupted into cheers and applause as you stepped onto the stage, guitar in hand. you were dressed in an outfit your fans had been begging your stylist to style you, your hair styled perfectly as always. this was a big moment for you, your first solo performance on an awards show, and you were ready to give it your all.

taking your place on the center of the stage, you looked out at the sea of faces before you. you couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness as your eyes landed on karina who was seated in the front row. she looked beautiful, as always, but there was a sadness in her eyes that you couldn't ignore.

you took a deep breath and began to strum the opening chords of the song you had promised to perform with karina.

iu’s through the night

it was a beautiful ballad, full of emotion and heartbreak, and you knew it would be a hit if you sing this with karina. at the sound of the instrumental playing, the memories if you and karina from the night dispatch had caught you played in your head.

as the music swelled, you closed your eyes and let yourself get lost in the moment. you felt the guitar beneath your fingers, the rhythm pulsing through your body. you were in your element, and nothing could stop you now.

but as the first verse came to an end, you felt a sudden jolt of pain. this was the part where karina was supposed to start singing. but she wasn't there. it was just you and your guitar, playing the instrumental part alone.

you opened your eyes and looked out at the audience. they were still cheering, still clapping, still singing along. but you could see the confusion on their faces, the disappointment in their eyes as they were eager to hear your singing voice.

and then you saw karina. she was crying now, her hands covering her mouth as tears streamed down her face.

"why?" she whispered, as you finished the song. "i’m so sorry" she whispered, as you read her lips.

you took a deep breath and continued singing, your voice soft and gentle, yet full of emotion. the crowd fell silent, captivated by your performance. every note was like a brushstroke, painting a picture of heartbreak and longing.

the chorus came, and you let your voice soar, the raw emotion pouring out of you. you could feel the pain in your lyrics, and the audience felt it too.

as the song came to an end, the last notes fading into the air, the crowd erupted into applause, cheering for you and your beautiful, haunting performance. you felt a sense of satisfaction, knowing that you had touched their hearts with your performance.

you bowed to the audience before leaving the stage. applauses from the staffs could be heard aling with some compliments which you responded with nods and smiles. you bit your lips, holding back the wave of emotions you’ve been suppressing while performing.

“good job, y/n” one of you makeup stylist praised you, making you feel proud. all those sleepless night of practice paid off, and you were beyond proud of yourself for being able to go through the hard timesof moving on while also preparing for a performance.

you then moved back to the venue, and sat at your assigned seat. it made you smile how other groups gave you a small applause and compliments as you walk you way through your seat. without noticing, your eyes trailed towards aespa’s table, and noticed that karina wasn’t there leaving an empty seat.

as the award show comes to an end, the crowds begin to disperse, and the excitement in the air starts to die down. you're ready to leave and head back to your hotel, but as you make your way towards the exit, you notice karina following closely behind you.

despite her attempts to catch your attention, you continue to ignore her, making her feel increasingly frustrated and hurt. as she tries to keep up with you, her emotions boil over, and she can't help but let out a frustrated exclamation.

"why are you being so cold to me?" she blurts out, her voice strained with emotion. "do you even care about how i'm feeling right now?"

her words catch you off guard, and you turn to face her, surprised by the sudden outburst. as you look into her eyes, you can see the pain and hurt that she's been trying to hide all night.

"i don't know what you want me to say," you respond, your voice tinged with annoyance. "we broke up, karina. i don't owe you anything."

karina flinches at your words, her heart sinking even further. she knows that she's been wrong to expect anything from you, but she can't help the way she feels.

"i know that we broke up," she says, her voice trembling slightly. "but that doesn't mean that we can't at least be civil to each other. i just don't understand why you're being so cold to me!"

you pause for a moment, taking in her words. despite the pain that you feel towards karina, you know that she's right - there's no need to be so harsh towards her. but if you don’t do so, you don’t know how to move on

as karina confronts you about your cold behavior towards her, you feel a mix of frustration and sadness welling up inside you. you know that you should try to be civil with her, but the pain of your past relationship is still too fresh.

"what do you want me to do, karina?" you ask, your voice tinged with annoyance. "we've broken up, and i need to move on. you can't just expect me to act like nothing happened!" your voice raised in frustration, luckily the hallways was empty.

karina's eyes widen with hurt and disbelief, and she takes a step back as if you've just struck her.

"i'm not asking you to forget about our relationship," she says, her voice trembling. "but i just want us to be able to be in the same room without it being so awkward and tense. is that too much to ask?"

you clench your jaw, feeling a sense of anger bubbling up inside you.

"you're the one who wanted to end things, karina," you say, your tone harsher than you intended. "you can't just expect me to be okay with it and move on like you didn’t break me." you frowned.

karina's face falls, and she takes another step back, looking as if she's been struck by a blow.

"that's not fair," she says, her voice barely above a whisper. "i know that i hurt you, and i'm sorry for that. but that doesn't mean that we have to be enemies now."

“enough,jimin” you shake your head, feeling as if you're at your breaking point. the hurt and frustration of the past few months are too much to bear, and you feel as if you're about to explode.

"i don't know if i can do that, karina," you say, your voice trembling. tge switch between her real name to her stage name broke her heart. "every time i see you, all i can think about is how much i loved you and how much you hurt me. i can't just pretend like that never happened."

karina's eyes fill with tears, and she turns away from you, unable to bear the weight of your words. you can see the pain etched on her face, and a part of you feels guilty for causing her so much hurt.

her eyes fill with tears and she blinks them away furiously, but they keep falling down her cheeks, leaving a glistening trail in their wake.

her voice wavers and breaks as she tries to speak, and her breath hitches with every word. despite her efforts to stay composed, her face contorts with pain and her shoulders shake with the force of her sobs. you can see the hurt etched on her face as she apologizes, her sobs choked with tears, realizing that you will never be able to go back to how you were. it’s clear that she's trying her best to hold herself together, but the weight of her emotions is just too much to bear.

“enough, karina. just— leave me alone” your voice trembled. you hated that you wanted her to be out of your sight as your heart still longs for her, but it’s the best.

"i know that i hurt you, and i’m sorry," she says, her voice barely above a whisper. "i never meant to cause you so much pain.”her voice trembles as she speaks, tears streaming down her face.

“but i understand now that you need space, and I will respect that— i.. i won't bother you or try to appear in your life anymore." she takes a deep breath, trying to steady her voice.

"but please— just know that i will always love you, and i will never forget the time that we spent together.” your heart shattered at her words.

“but i also understand that we can't go back to the way things were, and that breaks my heart. so, so much y/n.. it hurts so much.." she looks up at you, her eyes red and puffy from crying.

"i hope that someday, you can find it in your heart to forgive me and that if you ever need anything— anything at all, please don't hesitate to ask."

"i still love you," she whispers, her voice barely above a whisper. "but i know that i can't force you to feel the same way. so i'll leave you alone, and i won't bother you anymore."

you remain silent, unsure of what to say or do. as karina turns to walk away, you feel a sense of sadness wash over you. you know that you'll miss her, but you also know that it's time to let go.

as you watch her walk away, you realize that this is the end of an era. as you stand there, watching karina walk away, tears streaming down her face, you can feel your heart breaking into a million pieces. the weight of all the memories and promises that you both shared is suddenly too much to bear, and you can't help but feel a sense of overwhelming sadness and loss.

karina's sobs echo in your ears, and you can see her shoulders shaking with each cry. you want to reach out to her, to tell her that everything will be okay, but you know deep down that it won't. you've both made your choices, and now you have to live with the consequences.

as karina disappears from your view, you feel a sense of emptiness settling in your chest. it's as if a part of you has been ripped away, leaving you feeling hollow and alone. but even as you mourn the loss of your relationship, you know that it's time to let go.

you take a deep breath and turn away from where karina stood, feeling the weight of the past few months slowly lifting off your shoulders. it's time to start over, to let go of the pain and hurt, and to move forward with your life.

with one last look back at the spot where karina disappeared, you take a step forward, ready to face whatever the future holds. it won't be easy, and the memories of your past relationship will always be there, but you know that you can make it through.

"goodbye, jimin" you whisper, your voice choked with emotion. tears stream down your face as you turn and walk away, knowing that the memories of your relationship will always be bittersweet.

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