I'll never have a girlfriend to love with my whole heart, so that's it I guess

It's depressing to see someone who you used to like and who used to like you talk to many different girls. Like how? What is she doing that I can't? I don't understand why no one likes me

I’m so confused. Someone’s post I saw was talking about pant sizes which made me wonder what size I am, so I looked up US woman’s pant size chart and according to that, I’m a 2? Because I’m 26 in. waist and 36 in. hips, but I’ve been told for a long time I’m a number way higher than that (I can’t remember exactly) so like....?? Has my family been buying me kid clothes?

Bro I’ve been trying for so long to get over a major crush, and it was finally starting to work, then she’s out here making tiktoks about wanting to choke a girl while making out and I’m like b i t c h don’t make my job harder than it already is

I think genderfluid people are the most powerful. Like y’all took something as societally powerful as gender and made it your play thing.

Honestly who needs drugs

I’m just vibin to the tunes in my head with too much sugar in my system.

And before you scientific people say sugar is a drug, I know, shush, lemme viibbbeee

God I’m a wreck I never say vibe

I’m at that point in the sugar high that I’m spamming tumblr and have “renegade” repeated in my head. Not even the full song, just the “renegade, renegade, renegade” part over and over.

Edit:: Now it’s the tiktok audio “I like girls who like girls”

Honestly why should I give a hecc

I’ve never had a girlfriend before, so why get mad I can’t have one now

I wish I could always live and think like I do at 2:30 on a sugar high

It's 2:30 a.m., I've been sipping on this large taco bell dr pepper for roughly four collective hours, and I'm now simultaneously Zeus, Athena, God, and a sim

But like hear this; we replace every vowel with “oob”

Yes, I stole it from a post in P.M. Seymour’s “It Came From Tumblr #70” on YouTube but like i’m god right now so sit

Oob hoobvoob clooboobmoobd thoob poobwoobr oobf goobd oobnd noob oobnoob coobn stoobp moob

This is actually how I was 100%

I'm simultaneously in the mood to eat loads of fries with my (non-existent) girlfriend in a little greenhouse tent with an air mattress and fairy lights at sunset, but also sit in my room, curled up in a blanket, taking 5 anti-anxiety tablet things to numb myself and listen to depressing music.

In case you're wondering, 5 of my specific anti-anxiety tablet things wouldn't hurt me. No need to worry.

I tried driving the other day and it made my excitement for adulthood plummet.

I don't want to get behind the wheel of a car ever again, even jokingly. It felt traumatic and I didn't even crash.

I could get by just fine with the bus, Uber, or friends picking me up for certain things like parties if they're already going. I just hate the thought of the embarrassment if I said I couldn't drive as an adult. Like "sorry to ruin your fun, but I can't be the designated driver. I can't drive." or if I needed to drive someone to the ER, I couldn't.

Why is driving so necessary in our society

Should I even try anymore?

I don't like just being another Snapchat streak to keep up.

I keep it up because I hold on to the thread of hope that there'll be like a sliver of conversation, but I doubt she really even wants to talk to me anymore. All we do is exchange peace signs with the occasional "stronks" to keep up the streak.

What am I doing with my life

Now instead of feeling upset she'll never love me, I'm upset that I'm so boring.

Like, she did like me, but got bored of me.

She even said in a TikTok doing the "exposing myself" trend that she sometimes gets bored of people, and I relate, but only when they're dry. I tried hard not to be dry and boring and I'm sorry I couldn't be better.

I think it's difficult to get over her because my life is on a decline anyway.

Everything I do is wrong. I don't water plants correctly. I don't do dishes correctly. I don't do chores correctly. I don't do anything the way my family wants me to even when I'm trying really hard. If I get upset though, they tell me to stop. That doesn't even make sense.

I'm not normally one to say I'm okay if I'm not, but with my family, not okay isn't an option. I'm only allowed to be not okay if something big happened, like if I have a mental breakdown beyond just numb. Like crying profusely, which I don't often do.

Because of their impossible standards and what my mom told me whenever I saw her, I created a habit of lying to my family a lot. So much that I was practically living a second life. Of course it all came crashing down as lies do, and now I'm going to start therapy.

I'd probably just sit doing nothing for the rest of my life if I had the choice cause anything I try to do, I do wrong.

That's probably why I'm so desperate for love. For someone to tell me I'm right for doing something. That and my mom taught me a woman is useless if she's not in a relationship basically.

Don't you love when you think of something that has the potential to be really good for someone you care about, and you get a response like "cool" or whatever she said?

Even when I try, I don't do anything right.

Bro I've known this girl for like two months and I care about her way more than that crappy two year relationship with a toxic male

I'm at the point now where I feel like I'm over her...

Except when I look at her Tumblr, TikToks, or literally anything related to her.

Still, when I'm not looking at her social medias, I feel better. Am I getting better or worse? Can't tell.