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2018--SEPT-02-2018-Tuesday--MORE NEWS STUFF...

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(with videos)

Road rage utility tracked down in Australind

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/south-west/road-rage-utility-tracked-down-in-australind-ng-b88979332z

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This is VERY common and has been for many years here....vehicles 'vanishing' only to be 'magically' spirited away to far-off places then later might reappear with new paint jobs and so on....

And people get haircuts and hey presto...nup! officers it twern't me..you's must be mistaken.....

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Teen avoids prison over dangerous driving causing death in Darch Plaza car park stunt

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/crime/teen-avoids-prison-over-dangerous-driving-causing-death-in-darch-plaza-car-park-stunt-ng-b88979368z

Shannon Hampton -- PerthNow -- October 2, 2018 4:28PM

Here at this hellhole, for YEARS, the fuckwits around here were doing all sorts of shit like taking people at day or night 'for rides' with them hanging onto the roof, or front of the car bonnet (hood), or at the rear doing the same.....until they fell off and they would end up smacking onto the road surface with body and heads and be badly injured. - I was always being surprised nobody was killed outright or from them staggering into traffic immediately afterwards.....

Still...all THAT can easily start up again since so many idiots and shit-for-brains are around in this hellhole area......

The criminal aboriginals are at a lull for now, and so others are rising up to take their places......in shit......(I forecasted that long ago, from my life experience of this hellhole)....

So far it hasn't got to that stage yet again, but time will tell.....

Oh, and in the recent past they also were leaping onto vehicles driving past, especially at trucks which were slower moving to leap upon but no less lethal....(that's all currently waned away with the evictions? of criminal aboriginals)......but it will return.....as will the hell that they are....

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Man bashed in Fremantle fights for life in hospital

PerthNow--October 2, 2018 3:30PM

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/crime/man-bashed-in-fremantle-fights-for-life-in-hospital-ng-b88979237z

Police say the trio was standing on the street when a stranger has pushed one man and punched another.

The 48-year-old was knocked unconscious when he tried to intervene to stop the fight while one of his friends was also left unconscious after being pursued onto the road, police said.

They were both taken to hospital by ambulance while the third man received minor injuries.

The man who attacked them jogged off down South Terrace.

Fremantle detectives yesterday released a image of a man their believe can help their investigation and have appealed to witnesses to contact Crime Stoppers.

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"pursued onto the road".......it always is the case, trying to get somebody run over and killed but not by them, and so they can escape being convicted of being 'the cause' of death.....

In any event, otherwise they just get severly beaten to death in any case.....

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(local NEWS)

Kiely wants 20 per cent rate rise

http://echonewspaper.com.au/kiely-wants-20-per-cent-rate-rise/

ALTONE Ward councillor Andrew Kiely has indicated he will move a motion calling on the City of Swan to raise rates by 20 per cent at October’s council meeting.

Amazingly, Cr Kiely believes the City and the larger community should support his push for the massive rate rise to expedite stage one of the Midland Oval redevelopment.

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Ya see, if you can't get something done about something the right way, they just plow their dirty hands into the pockets and coffers of innocent residents...and claim 'it's just for everyone's own good'......

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Lithium 'buzz' could be worth hundreds of billions to Australia

By Hamish Hastie -- 2 October 2018 — 2:43pm

This is how massive mining ventures and industry evolutions begin and which chew up workers and spit them out without a thought in the mad quest for money.

I've seen it go on so many many times here in Western Australia and it once even ensnared me. As it was I was permanently injured in workplace stuff just 'locally' but others I know of have died andor permanently injured and crippled unto their deaths.

Industry just LOVES the idea of fully mechanised workforces just to be shod of any and all human accountability and responsibility. We're in a long-running transition stage where technology hasn't quite 'got there' yet...but it will. And then there will be litle requirements for working men, let alone paying them to work. And there will not be any social structures for people to live their lives...and it'll be yet another terrible time for everyone, from newborn babies to the elderly. The living will envy the dead.

I ALMOST was ensnared into all of this sort of industy, and more by luck than design I was excluded. The ones that went into it made lots of money as workers, but it all eventually ramped down, closed down, went broke, or went away and they were left with what they had managed to acquire in their working lives however brief it was....and they were considered 'lucky'. SO many others never got that much but worked just as hard or harder.

All THAT has been around for countless decades and it's STILL going on.

For you dear reader, you have no idea except to imagine for comparison how the worldwide coal industry was absolute king in the world and could do no wrong until......

For myself I only ever worked around coal mines and rarely even saw them....but I saw the results of what the workers sustained, and their lives and health ruined, and their families....

But hey.....Lithium mining and processing is 'clean and good' isn't it? - The kinda thing they said about coal...and everything else.

I'm not anti-progress by any means. I'm pro human life and decent lives.

But hey...BILLIONS of dollars will sway any politician even if they only get breadcrumbs of it all, so all this will probably be a huge certainty like everything else.

Time for all those fathers to leave their families and orphan more all over again......but hey, at least they can have rich expensive toys in the meantime...that's okay right? - Human progress using up humans. Politiciana and business are excellent bedmates for doing all that.

What next, riots over robot workers taking 'their jobs'?

I'll be dead long before then.

I'm already forgotten and utterly unfairly despised and ordered to die as it is.

et tu death....

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

Time for bed now and to have nightmares......all the leadup to death. Remember that.

But you never do. You never did. YOU made yourself that way, not me.

One of the things I was always warning you about that you were doing increasingly...was about you deliberately wiping out your memeories of EVERYTHING, including the ones who love you and cared for you and protected you. And you did it by any means necessary...booze...then pharmaceutical drugs...anything to stop your mind-from-racing as you always put it. You wanted to be knocked out and not have to think, especially for the useless shits at your workplaces who bludged off of you and your hard work...

Remember....

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

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Fliss, it seems that, no I forever will not ever win any Lotto or anything like that nor have I. I no doubt will die as poor as I have always been all my life because I'm honest and truthful and never have anything whilst alive except struggle and hardship and terrible cruel despair.

My dearest kind, innocent, gentle, generous, mother also died like that and was forgotten by all.....but never ever by myself.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

Oh look, fucked around by Tumblr...again...as fucking always.....how many years has this been going on for now........?.....

And the Police sirens are again loud outside as they fly about.....

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2018--SEPT-02-2018-Tuesday--Assholes about this hellhole.

BTW, my LAST blog entry should have had THIS date too of the 2nd.

So little sleep, so very fucked around, so very much to do and been doing with even more thrown onto what I've had to do, and I'm suposed to be expected to keep track of dates when I've been up since 5am this moring without a break!? (it's 13:30 as I struggle to write this.)

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Some shithead about tearing about on the roads on a dirt motorbike, probably unlicensed because they don't give a fuck about anything, not themselves, not anybody else, and least of all about Police.

Oh how they have learned their criminal lessons well from the filthy nepotism-crazed abo crims that infested this area for so many years but as of late have been thankfully missing-in-action. (gone to other areas to fester and make other poor peoples lives utter hell?)

And as I have ALWAYS said for decades, as soon as the criminal abo's drift away, then it's the criminal turn of the other criminals...we are currently in THAT phase of time.....(as was partly happening last night in the darkness)...

At fatguts criminal household, which has been vacated it seems AGAIN for the billionth time, (forcibly evicted more like), workman today have once AGAIN been rebuilding the place there AGAIN with loud equipment....to pretend that utter scum wasn't holed-up in it.....drugged up, violent, criminal, vicious, uncontrollable, and indulged by everyone and every department.....

But I expect that they'll return...AND WITH EVEN MORE OTHERS.....as they all shift localities after being ousted from other arees by Police and authorities AGAIN......

How many times has it been now.....6 or 7 or 10....? - So many I've lost count.

And VERY strange AGAIN how the other criminal abo household across the road from them is AGAIN having somebody mysteriously come along and put wheely rubbish bins outside of there to the verge and then just leave them for many days...AGAIN....long after they've been emptied......Those bins can also come from elsewhere and NOT from the house itself....because they're on wheels its so easy to just wheel them there in darkness and to pretend that the 'residents' put them there....what a fucking joke on everyone....

Unbelievable shit.....unintelligeble shit...just like the criminals themselves do....worse than apes.......apes don't go to departments and demand money and if they don't get it then and there they threaten violence and destruction and personal assaults upon people and family of all ages.....

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And the fucking big LOUD LOUD LOUD jet planes from Perth Airport flying over this fucking hellhole...for fucks sake......

AND FLYING LOUDLY OVER AS I TYPE THIS....

I fully expect some bullshit public relations propaganda 'news' to AGAIN just 'pop up' in the local media to counter all this shit....as usual...as has been happening for so many YEARS to distract people from it all....

What about showcasing a new jet plane? - That might do for some disraction for awhile...or some 'new' aircraft-type service.....or how about strippers down the middle of the flight decks whilst you fly......or crapping next to your seat in a new-fangled bravado show of in-air sustainability.....

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Here's a forecast........

'New' (well different) abo's will AGAIN move in to the refurbished (AGAIN!) abo houses of these hellhole streets and there will be period of fake calm until they decide to become the new 'top dogs of crime and criminality' of this hellhole over the current white ones. And as always, they will spread out their crime and criminality all over Perth in all directions close, far and wide. Huge crimes, unexplainable, illogical crimes....the usual shit they do.

You see....it's 'traditional'.....

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What, no gunshots going on yet?

Again, it's 'traditional'.....

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BTW, 'recently' in Western Australia there was abo criminal youths running from arrest from Perth Police from a crime and they ran into the Swan River...and they drowned......

Almost always the rabid media just can't get enough of repeating and indulging themselves endlessly going over and over everything and inventing new angle and aspects until the story is 'done to death'.

But NOT this time. It all just went utterly pfft! - Strange that eh?

It's as if nothing at all happened. - When it was such a BIG THING going on for ages......but still NOT appearing in the media....

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Meanwhile, they've been busy instead laying claims to vast swathes of land legally in order to lock it all up to exploit it and make money out of new mineral 'gold rushes' utilising new elements for future technology to do with electrification and such of cars and vehicles and equipment..

Goody goody goody! They'll all shout. - That'll buy a lot of booze and drugs and shit and houses and boats and cars for certain people and everyone else will get bugger-all but heartache and sorrow. - Standard operating procedures in Western Australia.

Never mind, there's opportunities for public relations bullshit to triumph in employing 'the leser people' who have bugger all or have no voices than anyone listens to......

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Still yet to come are HUGE NEWS events of long car chases and DEATHS involved...of guilty and totally innocent and children and infants....

It's building up to THAT.

What? - You never seem to read that in the NEWS where you are? - Oh, too bad. And you count yourself as being well-informed of NEWS do you?

Just sit back and relax and read about the latest batches of shit that el presidente Trumpet bleats out....he's gotta get busy before he gets ousted before the NEXT grand el presidente is trumpeted in with glorious naked angels playing hip tunes from out of their arse......ohhhh, say can you see......it's always worse for you and me.....

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From this hellhole I bid you goodbye for now. - So does poor Sam and poor Max and poor me. All of us are utterly miserable and more than suffering without being with dear Fliss.

And comms is shortly about to vanish for/from us without notice.

And planes keep flying over this hovel and hellhole.....

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I love you dear Fliss and we want to be with YOU. - Not that YOU seem to care at all about anyone or anything any more...just as how I forecasted for years that you were becoming and you still ignored everything I said....

Well Fliss, you're probably one of THEM now....a 'proud' card-carrying member no doubt, and you can go out on marches and pretend how normal you are to everyone else....except to yourself....

If not, I love you dear Fliss and we want to be with YOU.

Poor Max is in a LOT of pain. Sam and YOUR chicken are in a huge amount of distress, as am I. And so is dear Max of course.

And now dogs are loudly barking everywhere at this hellhole....

In (minor) debt, in misery, in grief, in this fucking hellhole that's neverending......

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Oh look...fucked around by Tumblr....EVERY FUCKING TIME NOW.....

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2018--SEPT-30th-2018-Tuesday--fuck this hellhole of Kongamia and destroy it.

Fuck this hellhole of Kongamia and destroy it and wipe out forever the criminals and scum and shit.

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shit going on last night in darkness just outside my bedroom window AGAIN last night.....

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ILUDRAWTBWY

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p.s.

Oh, and of course I'm fucked around AGAIN by Tumblr as I try to post this before I am dead...how fucking TYPICAL.....

They must have scum workers and procedures and reliability from this hellhole....

Therefore they will have endless shit at their own end going on.....which never makes the news.....

....must satisfy the scum.....must satisfy the criminal scum....

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and here below is some WA newsbits to keep the shitheads polishing their stolen halo's....

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Veterinary drugs, cash stolen from Perth animal clinic PerthNow -- October 2, 2018 8:07AM -- Crime

POLICE are concerned for the safety of the thieves who stole veterinary drugs and cash from a Perth animal clinic on the weekend.

The incident saw the perpetrators force entry into the Noranda vet between 2pm Saturday and 8am Sunday before rummaging through a number of rooms and looting a safe.

Police fear those responsible don’t understand the dangers associated with veterinary medication, and warn anyone who comes into possession of the drugs not to take them.

Anyone with information is urged to call Crime Stoppers on 1800 333 000 or make a report online at www.crimestopperswa.com.au.

--FUCK 'em. - THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR YEARS. MULTIPLE TIMES OVER THE YEARS. YEARS! AND ALWAYS THE AUTHORTIES BLEAT...OH POOR DIDDUMS CRIMINALS PLEASE PLEASE BE CAREFUL OF YOURSELVES! OH PLEASE DO! DON'T MAKE US CRY! (or in reality don't have your endless relations stage protests).......

AND....

https://thewest.com.au/news/wa/ransacked-animal-drugs-cash-stolen-from-noranda-vet-ng-b88978292z

Police are concerned for the safety of the thieves who stole veterinary drugs and cash from a Perth animal clinic on the weekend.

The incident saw the perpetrators force entry into the Noranda vet between 2pm Saturday and 8am Sunday before rummaging through a number of rooms and looting a safe.

Police fear those responsible don’t understand the dangers associated with veterinary medication, and warn anyone who comes into possession of the drugs not to take them.

Anyone with information is urged to call Crime Stoppers on 1800 333 000 or make a report online at www.crimestopperswa.com.au.

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Fuck 'em. Let 'em die by killing themselves and stop keeping the fuckers alive and so dragging down the entire of decent human society.

Protect and care for the innocent dear animals, but fuck those human scum....

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And speaking of wiping out the shitheads, wipe these out too....

(watch the video in this NEWS report below) from yesterday....

Police Minister Michelle Roberts slams South West road rage attack

Rob Scott7News Perth -- October 1, 2018 6:21PM

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/crime/police-minister-michelle-roberts-slams-south-west-road-rage-attack-ng-b88978109z

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W.A. haven't recently yet had firearms offences.....YET.......thefts and murders....

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WA NEWS:------- Homicide investigation launched into baby’s death in Golden Bay

PerthNow--October 1, 2018 5:55PM

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/wa/homicide-investigation-launched-into-babys-death-in-golden-bay-ng-b88978134z

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Man allegedly stole three tortoises from Perth Zoo

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/crime/man-allegedly-stole-three-tortoises-from-perth-zoo-ng-b88978133z

What a 'hero'.......

Just another fuckwit.....a repeat fuckwit....spurred on by other fuckwits....

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Bushfire threatens lives, homes in Kununurra

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/bushfires/bushfire-threatens-home-in-kununurra-ng-b88977889z

PerthNow--October 1, 2018 3:00PM--Regional WA

LIVES and homes are in danger from an out-of-control bushfire that started in the Northern Territory's Keep River National Park and spread to Western Australia's far north.

An emergency warning has been issued for north of Kununurra in the Shire of Wyndham-East Kimberley.

"You are in danger and need to act immediately to survive. There is a threat to lives and homes," the WA Department of Fire and Emergency Services warned on Monday.

The Department for Child Protection and Family Support has set up a temporary evacuation centre at the Kununurra Leisure Centre.

The fast moving fire was reported on Sunday evening.

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"You are in danger and need to act immediately to survive. There is a threat to lives and homes,"........yeah, but I'm sorry I voluntarily handed in my firearms many years ago and haven't vermin culled the fuckwits and shitheads hence they have proliferated and multiplied to plague proportions once more ready for the deathly dry heat of Summer in Western Australia......

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Perth petrol price hits highest on record

Shane Wright, -- October 1, 2018 6:22PM

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/perth/perth-petrol-price-hits-highest-on-record-ng-b88978170z

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Perth's average petrol price soars to record high thanks to market and geopolitical instability

By Sarah Collard -- Updated 9 minutes ago

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-02/perth-average-petrol-price-soars-to-record-high/10327744

Every motorist should also buy several extra lires of fuel to donate to poor petrol sniffing shits as well....or will it be left again to self-serve criminals via stealing out of innocent peoples car tanks again the poor diddums..... - Or they could just do what they always do and steal entire cars.....and maybe steal cars with babies in child seats in the back AGAIN...yes, THAT happened AGAIN...for the 2nd time at least recently here....

Why is there no government mandated and subsidised petrol sniffing kioks in shopping centres that can be used by them whilst they're breaking-in and stealing at night?

Better be quick government or else they'll protest about that too.

And whilst filled up with booze and or petrol sniffing they could try out to further blur reality and what is hazily imagined....

Virtual reality harnessed by remote Indigenous teens to make leap from comic to Future Dreaming film

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-02/indigenous-virtual-reality-film-future-dreaming/10326126

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WA has driest September since 1939, and forecasts show trend forecast to continue

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-01/wa-has-driest-september-on-record-since-1939/10325622

There should be icecream trucks slowly driving around everywhere dispensing free booze and drugs and icecream to the 'usual lot'.....

Must not have the population of criminals and shits without their staple diets......

Soon to come I fully expect.....in the NEWS....pathetic NEWS tales of poor innocent dogs dying in hot cars.......ditto for human babies.....

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Outback community shocked after its only high school torched by firebugs

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-09-30/rural-community-devastated-after-firebugs-torch-highschool/10322998

THIS happens ALL THE TIME by the usual lot.....

AND THIS HAS HAPPENED BEFORE IN THE NEWS...IN FACT SO VERY VERY VERY MUCH IS ALSO HAPPENING IN THE NEWS THAT HAS ALL HAPPENED BEFORE AND BEFORE AND BEFORE....

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Man in intensive care after alleged assault outside Fremantle bar

https://thewest.com.au/news/perth/man-in-intensive-care-after-alleged-assault-outside-fremantle-bar-ng-b88976479z

The West Australian -- Sunday, 30 September 2018 11:07AM

Oh, but he MUST be innocent....the assailant was wearing pretty white shoelaces after all....

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Oh, and were now into the season of bank robberies again.....

Police investigating alleged Mandurah bank robbery

The West Australian--Tuesday, 2 October 2018 9:43AM

https://thewest.com.au/news/wa/police-investigating-alleged-mandurah-bank-robbery-ng-b88978437z

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And in WTF kinda news.....(with a video)....

Lindsay Lohan at centre of social media storm after being punched by refugee mother.

The West Australian--Monday, 1 October 2018 12:54PM

https://thewest.com.au/entertainment/celebrity/lindsay-lohan-at-centre-of-social-media-storm-after-being-punched-by-refugee-mother-ng-b88977504z

FFS......

I wonder if this happens with USA scumbag presidents too......

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Freo apartments designed to park flying cards

https://thewest.com.au/news/7-news-perth/freo-apartments-designed-to-park-flying-cards-bc-5842520983001

Yep, just as it's on their website.....flying cards..not flying 'cars' but cards......

Work will begin next month on Australia’s first residential apartment block to include a launch pad to accommodate flying taxis and delivery drones.

(yet even more shit to exploit and extract filthy money out of from all angles, overt, and hidden.....)

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BTW, MORE shit going outside my window at this hellhole now......

So much shit...it's getting harder to tell when one lot starts after another lot has 'finished'....day or night.....

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Rain has been cancelled for this hellhole...until it rains....maybe...maybe not...probably not....but you never know...best to keep clothes drying under cover and to protect them from all the clouds of birdshit around this hellhole always raining down.....

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. So does poor Sam and poor Max.

Oh! And of course a very loud fucking jet plane low flies over taking off just as I'm finishing up this entry as happens ALL THE TIME....

And I fully expect that I'm BLAMED for that too....

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Oh look.....tumblr fucking me around AGAIN....how NOT surpising AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN.....AS ALWAYS AGAIN......

Incredible but true....nearly EVERY FUCKING TIME!

And then I have to wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, until maybe, just maybe....i'll get an email fro them with a 'code' to log into my own fucking account that I've had for over 10 years that they're keeping me out from logging into....

FFS.......

Then still WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING...suddenly...oh look, an email notification from Facebook out of the blue...how bullshit NOT unsurprising...FFS!

Meanwhile at Tumblr....still WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING WAITING......for a password to get into my own fucking account......FFS......

NOBODY believs this shit that goes on and on and on and on and on and has been going on and one and on for fucking so many fucking YEARS!!!

Go on fuck you...I expect you to fucking blame ME for this you fuckwits!

Meanwhile...all other email comes in okay...even if it's shitty spam and crap from other places.......

And fucking Tumblr wonders why it's fucking well dying and is making itself irrelevant?

I guess el mogul owner has newer toys to play with now......and lesser graded minions have to deal with running everything...as usual....

So crowdwaves the entire fucking internet......

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2018--SEPT-30th-2018-Sunday night--my internet is fuked AGAIN just when I needed it AGAIN.

My internet is fucked AGAIN just when I needed it AGAIN. - Connectivity is absolutely SHIT. - Speed is also crap.

And it's Sunday......I guess it's the day of sabbath for all fuckwits to be online...but hey, I'm online, so I'm one of them too now....time to go offline then and dream nightmares again about me being dead....

Nobody will accept this whenever I try to tell anyone about this shit. Pointless to even try.

'Pointless to even try'.......is the story of my entire damn life....

Can't afford to go out and buy food or anything. Eating whatever crap I have in stock in the larder and emergency rations as well of this hovel. Eaten most of the tinned stuff.....though I think there's some well-out-of-date crap that should be thrown out that I can eat.....for that is my lot in life.....

In any event I always make sure poor dear Sam and poor dear Max have plenty of proper food to eat and fresh water to drink, and I keep them warm and dry and safe, but they only also want dear Fliss to return to us or for us all to go be with her, especially dear Max....and he growls ALL the time because she's not here with us......and poor Sam is always upset...which also makes poor Max growl worse....endless cycle....circles of hell.....

And Tumblr now fucks me around ....again....as always....

Absolutely struggled to death to post this....a status report if you will of hell......

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Forecast (not a prediction) of what is to come......I will AGAIN be awoken by LOTS of LOUD planes taking off from Perth Airport taking off nose-to-tail flying low right over this hellhole for HOURS before dawn...then a short break, then more.....then a longer break, then other planes will fly low over this hellhole going INTO Perth Airport over this hellhole, first as drips and drabs, then lots endlesly until just after dawn....then a bit of a break, then the usual parade of ones flying low and going into the airport, flying loud and low, big airliners, all sorts of big jets, a few propellor planes also larger ones, a few small private ones, then another break....then a gap to make people think there's no more...then MORE....then a break...

For fuck sake......every fucking Monday.....and gets repeated on other days now too....

This fucking hellhole....

Hah! - And as I write this...one flies in low over this fucking hellhole.....going in to land at Perth Airport....

Time to smash my head and go into unconsciousness any way I can in order to (vainly) try to get to sleep...but it all will be in vain...it always is.....

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you....ALWAYS. - Remember that.

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2018--SEPT-29th-2018-Saturday morning--Ive been FORCED into IBN internet network but will it work at this hellhole for me-LOTSA RAIN.

LOTSA RAIN. Very high winds gusting as well. Ripping off branches. smashing down upon the ground creating more debris more than what fell and creating still more debris everywhere that I have had to clean up IN THE RAIN....AGAIN.

Fuck that. From now on it's all going to just lay there. I'm wet, cold, and feel terrible. I'm not doing anymore.

This is yet ANOTHER Winter despite it not officially being Winter. The only thing missing (so far) is the terrible COLD today, but it always gets cold after rain.

I've TRIED to rest and stay warm and dry but I have to kep going outside to attend to cleaning up after poor Sam and poor Max have done their ablutions in the backyard, and it's been a lot, everywhere all over the place making ME hunt all of it down and clean it all up.

Meanwhile every other shithead with a dog lets theirs roam about and shit everywhere else outside their own property, which ends up having ME clean that up as well in any weather when all THAT intrudes upon my own property at this hellhole and spreads disease.

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Because the old guy in the street has been rampantly enticing/feeding the wild birds into this street into his front yard behind his big tall tin fence, they have been loud and rampant and shitting everywhere and creating disease too.

Don't get me wrong, I love birds and also feeding them, and dear Fliss and I would do all that in our own BACKYARD, but I have stopped doing that for many years since Fliss left me in this hellhole alone. It's a task that's a bridge-too-far for me to do anymore. And in any case, we're also talking about birds that raid trees and tear pieces off them and create debris everywhere as well, not little twittering quiet things that feed on a few birdseds......

Case in point......there been a HUGE bird, something like an Ibis, with a big long curled beak (a water feeder) that has been enticed to teh old guys place and hangs around all the time now.

This morning I saw it walking all over the road. (how soon before some shithead runs it over and kills it?)

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I've been FORCED into the Australian IBN internet network but will it work at this shitty hellhole for me, especially as it's been so VERY shitty for so MANY MANY people? (thousands)

I'm announcing this now (I'm not yet connected until their physical work starts next week or so in doing it all connecting me up)...but like all things for me.....I fully expect that it will not go well because I'm in hell at this hellhole without dear Fliss with me and us.

Saying all this now...in case I'm unable to later.....

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Despite the VERY wet weather, I've (so far) managed to keep poor Sam and poor Max clean and dry and well fed and safe and healthy as much as I can.

Poor Max is still suffering with injury.

Poor Sam & poor Max and poor me are all still suffering without us being with dearest Fliss.

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If I ever win lotto or anything (fat chance of that ever happening of any good for me EVER happening), then I wouldn't know unless they contacted me in-person...and with the amount of criminals and shitheads and thieves and scum of this area, I would not believe them even if they told me I'd won Lotto or a house away from this hellhole area or anything. -- More hell.

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I've arranged things as best I can in good faith and anticipation for right and proper outcomes but because I'm in hell.....NOTHING I expect will ONCE AGAIN work out for me.....IT NEVER EVER DOES.....whereas with anyone else it does with no problems at all and they just mutter what the hell I'm talking about...... another example of the 'I'm alright Jack' hell and fuck all others just as long as I'm doing okay then you must be lying....

But I'm getting ahead of myself...all THAT is still to come, adding to all the other shit I've had to suffer for so long at this hellhole for so many years, and which I protected dear Fliss from far more than she ever knew.

And poor dear Fliss suffered so terribly with all her medical problems too. Which nobody wanted to believe about, not even doctors.

Strangely...now AFTER she has feld and left me alone and in ths hellhole, only NOW are doctors and everything accepting all the things that dear Fliss and I were saying was true...IS TRUE.....

All the medical things dear Fliss suffers from.....

All the job (employment) things dear Fliss suffered from.....

All the crime, the criminals, and social shit that dear Fliss suffered from, especially in any jobs she had to do as well......or even just driving out on the road anywhere...or even in carparks......

So many things that I supported dear Fliss with...so VERY VERY much....

Supported her because I love her and protected her. Far more than anyone knows or wants to ever believe, even her own family on the other side of Australia, whom dear Fliss was estranged from. AND which I was forever trying to have dear Fliss reconcile with.....

Well....dear Fliss abandoned me and us in this hellhole and fled to them and was accepted back into their family and used any made-up excuse to do so. Leaving us in this fucking hellhole when she promised me that I would be with her and away from here. -- BUT NOBODY BELIEVES ANY OF THAT.

So once again I'll state....fuck you world!

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As I write this, it's no not raining but VERY windy....BUT...it's only a brief gap in the terrible weather. A LOT more is coming according to what I see on the weather radar......

Poor dear Sam.

Poor dear Max.

Poor dear me.

The poor dear lonely chicken out in the very customised chicken plot that dear Fliss and myself created and hand-built.

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Oh, and of course there's been the terrible jet planes and all aircraft to-from Perth Airport.....

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. Poor Sam and poor Max have been having nightmares again in their sleep....and have been doing so since you abandoned us here. I and they miss you terribly and pray that one day soon we'll all be together again just as you promised us.

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2018--SEPT-27th-2018-Thurs early morning--I fear that death is stalking me & us. It woke me up.

(I don't refer at all to mean the fictional character 'Death' of the writer Tery Pratchett either.)

At very early AM here I awoke with a sudden terrible feeling of apprehension and fear that death is stalking myself and us here.

And poor dear Sam and poor dear Max have been having nightmares too. Poor dear Max has been having increasing trouble breathing even whilst asleep that he struggles to get. Earlier hours ago 'last night' he too was VERY terrified and shaking and not asleep.

I had let poor dear Sam and poor dear Max outside for their dog ablutions and went with them to make sure they were safe in the solid darkness. It was thankfully not that cold but cool and not raining.

We're all back in bed and going to try to get to sleep again.

I thought I'd note all this down to the uncaring world and have it known in case I'm dead andor unable to, since that is my lot and hell in life now since dear Fliss is not with us.

I hope you are well dear Fliss and not suffering.

I love you dear Fliss and I and we want to be with you.

3:35am as I write this and attempting to post it....

Let's see if I'm stuffed around by Tumblr again shall we, hmmmm?

Currently calm and quiet outside at this hellhole.....

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2018--SEPT-26th-2018-Wednesday late afternoon--a webpage link to OFFICIAL Western Australian Police Crime Stoppers.....

https://www.crimestopperswa.com.au/

Peruse the site above.

Please also pay attention to (and assist if you can) with "Featured Open Cases", which details many criminal things they are investigating as well as also some criminals & events solved and so on....

BTW, as I write this there's the now 'usual' terrible noise of bang!-bang,bang,bang happening from near here as somebody thumps weightlifting? crap..... down onto a wooden floor.....

Jeez.....and you wonder why I can never go to sleep? And when asleep am never allowed to maintain it?

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It's been relatively 'quiet' at this hellhole area lately...which has me 'on edge' because of so much terrible stuff and crap as well as anguish that has happened since dear Fliss had a breakdown and abandoned her loved ones here in this hellhole.

Of which I very wrongly and terribly unfairly got all the blame because nobody could figure out the terrible debilitating mental and physcial states that poor dear Fliss was in and she was suffering from and how we were being destroyed as an honest caring couple.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you just as you promised....a supposedly 'long time ago' now but which has destroyed me utterly. It has also destroyed poor Sam and poor Max. Poor Max today had another VERY terrible episode and which I was almost completely unable to console and calm him down and he was so utterly TERRIFIED and ready to blindly attack, and was literally shaking & shivering with fear and could barely breath. And so was dear Sam.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. - I hope you are safe and well. You were VERY mentally (and inner physically?) unwell when you fled from here and which nobody knew about, not even your closest friend(s) and much of your family because you have forever NEVER told them and admitted to the extent of the severity of your conditions that you've had long before I ever knew you or met you.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you just as you promised to me and to yourself.

P.S. I was curious whilst looking at the Crime Stoppers site whether they would have anything of the MANY MANY criminal incidents that happened TO YOU (and so TO ME) in your job places, and which was instrumental in destroying your mental health further.....

But so far I have found nothing. - THAT is the hell of everthing between us dear Fliss, in that EVERYTHING vanishes and that includes EVERYTHING I SAY and have said for YEARS.

You and I dear Fliss are both innocent. We always were.

Why are we still suffering parted so terribly dear Fliss?

And why are you still suffering so terribly dear Fliss and being kept so far away on the other side of Australia?

You're still in my official WILL. I have barely nothing and I am still so very poor.

Poor dear Sam and dear Max have nightmares ALL THE TIME NOW, DAY AND NIGHT.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you just as you promised to me and to yourself.

I have been and still are in a LOT of pain that nothing barely contains or brings under control, hence I get so very litle sleep at all day or night at any time. This hell was forecast by doctors many years ago.

Poor Max is in a lot of pain. Poor Sam is in pain to a lesser amount but both are destroyed by YOU dear Fliss not being with us or we with you.

So many countless times they wake up and look for you, and walk around looking for you, or want to go outside and look for you.

P.S. That possum from days ago has vanished I know not where. I hope it is safe and well and surviving.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you just as you promised to me and to yourself.

and now.....as usual...I'm being stuffed around YET AGAIN in trying to post this message....and darkness has fallen outside.....

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2018--SEPT-21st-2018-Monday morning 1am--loud Police sirens everywhere woke us up and a possum in our tree....

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If dear Fliss was alive and here this WOULD have interested her.....

Around 1am I was awoken by poor Sam and poor Max being upset by crap outside again.

Loud Police sirens travelling on the highways around this hellhole area was what awaited my own ears when I took them outside so they could do their dog ablutions.

I took them outside into the backyard for their dog ablutions and went with them for their safey as always.

I had a small flashlight with me and it wasn't raining. I heard poor Max and then poor Sam growling a lot so I went to them thinking it was yet another damned feral cat which it is so many countless times has been for so many years here in this hellhole area crapping everywhere and attacking other innocent pets and innocent creatures of all types and spreading disease and death to other cats, dogs, and innocent creatures of all manner.

But I found them both growling and looking UP.....I STILL thought it was a cat though, as has been the case countless times especially these past few years with so many feral cats and almost-completely feral dogs of shitheads roaming and crapping all over in everyones yards.....

Both poor Sam and poor MAx were looking UP and growling and so I thought it was a feral cat in the tree but when I looked with my feeble flashlight I was surprised to see that it was actually a native possum here in Western Australia.....

I certainly wish it no harm or anything, but I KNOW bad things will happen to it from the urban shit about this hellhole area as well as the shitheads about this area and their terrible cats and terrible dogs.

I left the poor thing alone. And I took this photo to prove all this going on.

But of course it does NOT show the sirens noise or anything else.

Least of all it does not show me ebing up at 1am, worn out, destroyed, and without dear Fliss here, and poor Sam and poor Max so very upset at dear Fliss not being with us. She would have certainly loved to see the little creature (not so 'little' as it was as big as a cat).

I'm NOT exaggerating at all when I say that the poor creature is at VERY great serious risk of harm and death at this hellhole area from all the shit and shitheads and their animals and everything about here.

I KNOW the possums can be a bloody nuisance. This is an area built up with houses and industry and so many roads and highways and it's a place where all the hell of that adds to the presure of this hellhole.

Oh, and a big jet plane loudly took-off as I was taking this photo too which is yet another damned reason for me to be awake at 1am at this hellhole.

The possum was just a tiny treat of interest this morning that I thought I'd share with the uncaring world.

I left the possum alone. It's safe and will do its own thing and who-knows-what. And it will certainly be travelling about possibly far and wide and is possibly taking care of it's family as well.

I know what food it is after and I'm not about to disclose what that is here for shitheads to use to entice and kill it with 'just for fun'.

I dunno what will happen to the creature. In this hellhole however I expect it will be nothing good. If so I won't be telling you about that.

Poor Sam and poor Max and any innocent creature can suffer and be killed by dickheads trying to be shithead 'heroes' and attacking this and other creatures, which they do all the time...let alone making other peoples lives hell.......

This creature is a normal, natural, event of life here as has been here for years long before anyone ever lived here. So many areas have been urbanised and developed and have squeezed out of existance such things and so what remains has had to adapt to it all...at least the ones who have survived.....

If the 'usual lot' of rabid feral human vermin on 2 legs were about this hellhole area, this poor critter would have been a target for attack and vicious 'fun' and serious agony before it died....just like they have done so for ao many YEARS and also to so many people too.

I wonder what the Police sirens were about? - Probably about things yet AGAIN that 'MIGHT' show up in the NEWS...but more often than not lately, is left out of the NEWS and so remains unknown, and people blithely go about thinking that all is well when it is most certainly NOT.

Anyway......just a photo of a critter that exists in this hellhole that dear Fliss would most certainly have been interested in seeing for herself....and seeing it here.......and she would be trying to teach dear Sam and dear Max to leave the poor innocent thing alone......

Please forgive any typos in this post. As I said, its very early and I got woken up. (it's now 2:15am as I write this). - And I KNOW that other noise shit will be soon erupting and making any sleep impossible AGAIN AS ALWAYS...all the stuff that NOBODY wants to accept or let anyone else know and which they all think is 'normal'.....

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

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2018--SEPT-21st-2018-Friday--nnon-afternoon---more utter crap in this hellhole making my life HELL.

I am NOT joking or making this up.....

The UTTER HELL and SHIT I am supposed to live in here and be 'happy', and I have lived in this SHIT since 1968 or so........FFS......

MORE shit happened today, that had me personally going out and fixing the shit, from shit that's been going on that I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH AT ALL....

THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR MANY DECADES!

And EVERYTIME I am dealing with a person and tell them this, they have NO IDEA AT ALL and do NOT WANT TO WAIT AROUND AND LISTEN TO ME.....

And for COUNTLESS DECADES I HAVE ASKED THEM CONSTANTLY TO CHANGE THEIR RECORDS........,some nod and be polite, others just think I'm crazed (I'm fucking well long past the end of my tether just on THIS SHIT ALONE.....)

And so is poor Sam and poor Max...and which dear Fliss (and her cohorts) has NO IDEA OR WANTS TO KNOW AND WHO BLAMES ME FOR EVERYTHING.......

Poor Max thought dear Fliss had returned here YET AGAIN and AND DEMANDED TO BE LET OUT, so after I let them outside, then back in again so he could see for himself that dear Fliss isn't 'hiding' in the backyard or something....he returned GROWLING AND VERY VERY VERY UPSET AGAIN....AND SO WAS DEAR SAM......

GO ON. FUCKING WELL BLAME ME FOR THAT WHY DON'T YOU! - ME BEING BLAMED FOR SHIT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR MANY DECADES......

And I told THAT PERSON THIS AFTERNOON...AND OF COURSE THEY HAD NO IDEA AND JUST WANTED TO GO TO SOMEWHERE ELSE AND DO THEIR JOB, A JOB, their task, THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME........

I was polite and cordial and non-threatening as I tried to teach this person just a tiny snippet of the HELL I am subjected to EVEN WHEN I'M JUST LAYING DOWN ON MY BED AND TRYING TO REST!

Oh yes, they were apprehensive, and wanted nopbody to see how foolish they were at making THEIR mistake, so they quickly left. They always do. (EVEN POLICE DO THIS OVER THE YEARS AND HATE TO BE SEEN TO BE SO WRONG FOR SUCH A 'SIMPLE' THING BECAUSE IT CALLS INTO QUESTION BEFORE OTHERS OF THEIR INTEGRITY AND INTELLIGENCE....

(I have no argument or concerns with Police, don't get me wrong.)

And poor Max inside heard me quietly talking to that person outside and thought I was talking to dear Fliss. I HAD to let poor Sam and poor Max outside afterwards because they were so happy and desperate to greet dear Fliss (WHO WAS NOT THERE!!!)......and then they came back inside GROWLING AND VERY VERY VERY UPSET....

AND NONE OF THIS IS MY FUCKING FAULT!!!

If I don't let them out, poor Sam and poor Max are so wound up inside that they'll wet the floor....AND I GET THE FUCKING BLAME FOR THAT!!!!

I have been telling people for so MANY FUCKING YEARS, that even if I just sit here and be totally quiet and do nothing, I STILL GET THE BLAME AND SUFFER FOR SHIT FOR THINGS THAT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH ME!!!

ANY AND EVERYONE I have told ANY of this too, they just mutter to me why don't I (ME, MYSELF) remedy it all by doing X, or doing Y, or doing Z...WELL FUCK YOU ALL...I HAVE BEEN DOING THAT AND SO MUCH MORE FOR FUCKING DECADES and STILL NOTHING changes about all this shit.....I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING PROPER AND POLITE and STILL I get utter shit......

And meanwhile the one(s) who CAN fix it all DOES ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING!!!!

If I DARE to delay or otherwise hold-up or stop being an unpaid REDIRECTION FUCKING SERVICE...I GET POLICE ON MY FUCKING DOOR BANGING AND DEMANDING TO KNOW WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS GOING ON!! -- AND THE POLICE DO NOT WANT TO LISTEN BECAUSE THEY ONLY BELIEVE THE OTHER PARTY AND NEVER ME, DESPITE ME ALWAYS TELLING THE FUCKING TRUTH AND THEM SEEING THAT!!! -- THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR DECADES!!!

YOU don't believe it. - NOBODY FUCKING BELIEVES IT. OFFICIALS who have the power to change things for the better DO FUCKING NOTHING despite promising me TO MY FACE they will...FOR DECADE AFTER DECADE AFTER DECADE......

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It's turning into Summer, the weather is changing...but it's NOT yet Summer, and there's still horrid Spring to get through before being into deathly Summer......

And there's STILL some rain to come apparently.....maybe...or they'll have probably called all THAT off soon enough when they decide to wipe off their breath-stained weather crystal ball.........

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. Always rememeber that and don't listen to the bastards who tell you lies even shit to your face too as they do to me.

But YOU have been tossed aside and given up on by others.....just remember THAT...and they DO lie to you...a lot.....a helluva lot.....

All ditto to poor Cath too....

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Splitting headache now...AGAIN...especially since I WAS going to just lay down on our bed but even THAT I am not allowed.......FFS........

Dear Fliss, no wonder you lost the plot and ruined our lives.....lives that were also going to be good for others...BUT WE ARE NOT ALLOWED......

That'll be on my gravestone if I ever have one......NEVER EVER ALLOWED...and BLAMED FOR TRYING......BLAMED FOR LOVING...BLAMED FOR CARING.....BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING SO EVERYONE ELSES CAN LIVE BLAMELESS PATHETIC LIVES.....

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

...and NOW BEGINS AS I WRITE THIS the fucking HUGE ENDLESS PARADE of LOW FLYING LOUD JET AIRCRAFT OVER THIS HOVEL AT THIS HELLHOLE LANDING CLOSE...AND SLEEP WILL BE DENIED AGAIN........AND I'LL BE BLAMED FOR THAT....AGAIN.......

FFS....

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2018--SEPT-19th-2018-Wednesday--later---more stuff Ive had to deal with in relation to this hellhole making my life HELL.

ABSOLUTELY NOBODY...NOBODY...IT DOESN'T MATTER WHO THEY ARE OR WHAT ORGANISATION OR SERVICE OR ANYTHNG...NOBODY BELIEVES ME.

I'm an honest, caring person, a TRUTHFUL person, a person who supprts charities for those less fortunmate in a range of ways but NONE of that counts for ANYTHING IN MY HELL OF A LIFE...MADE WORSE IN THIS HELLHOLE....EVEN RIGHT DOWN TO WHERE I LIVE IN THIS HELL.....

Dear Fliss exprienced some of that herself when she was here with me for a decade or so......

And then SHE had a terrible physical and mental breakdown....part of what she ALREADY had BEFORE I ever met her.....

AND I GOT THE BLAME !?!? - I ALWASY GET THE BLAME FOR EVERYTHING...BLOODY EVERYTHING....EVERY DAMNED THING...EVERYTIME EVEN WHEN I DO NOTHING AT ALL I GET BLAMED FOR NOTHING TO DO WITH ME......

AND EVERYTIME I DARE TRY TO BE ENGAGED IN ANYTHING....I ALWASY END UP SUFFERING AT MY EXPENSE.....

AND...dear Sm and dear Max always end up suffering....

Oh,...but YOU don't want to know abou any of that do you......

And all the criminals and shitheads about this hellhole still keep PROSPERING and GETTING REWARDED....even without trying.......

In my huge blog contents that I myself voluntarily deleted from Tumblr to preserve my safety, dear Fliss's safety, and those of our loved ones...I detailed almost DAILY teh shit that was going on in just a coupel of years or so....but I also details the YEARS of shit (and criminal shit) that assailed poor dear Fliss and myself with us being the victims....and we were NEVER EVER BELIEVED...and I'm STILL not ever believed.....

And dear Fliss's family and friends only ever believes the damaged memories of dear Fliss medically proven damaged brain andd memory and damaged body....all that and the terrible to dear Fliss thyroiditis and all the other things of dear Fliss they keep SECRET from everyone and so use me as a fall-guy for everything that's wrong with her. - And so she she waltzes along blithely unwares in her life and they keep covering up everything to cover her and themselves.

So you can see that I appreciate worthy causes for charity and I have always done so all my life. Dear Fliss I deeply love as a person, not as a bundle of affictions wrapped up in her unfortunate body and mind. That's not who she is.

All of her conditioens wwere kept alwasy secret from everyone else, even from fellow job workers, even from dear Fliss's deepest friend Cath in Queensland. (Cath STILL does not believe me and has broken off all contact with me, depsite seeing for herself dear Fliss's current state of terrible existance...and how much better dear Fliss was with me.

Dear Fliss and I were always struggling financially, which brought a great deal of undeserved stress to us both. She kept blaming herself for any and everything. I kept saying she did NOT have responsibilty for all the terrible things in life asailing us both. - So MANY MANY OTHERS were exploiting us both on so many levels.

And dear Fliss's family and parents just kept blaming me....because it suited the narrative they were forever pushing to any and everyone.

I have never met a family more aligned to misinformation and misdirection and outright lies as they travel in life and bring others into life. Much of it all is for their own reasons and privacy. And I have ALWAYS respected that.

But to anyone else outside....they have NO FUCKING IDEA...NONE AT ALL...and so others just keep falling into the same bullshit lines they have been told to believe from them.

But I still love dear Fliss and want to be with her.

And so I am still suffering.......

So in effect, to all thse reading this except dear Fliss, YOU should NEVER EVER EVER give your trust to others because you will ALWAYS be betrayed and YOU will suffer....but NEVER by me dear Fliss. I've stuck with you through terrible times, when all others abandoned you, even your own family, your friends, your work collegues, your job employers...strangers, officials, demi-god officials....., people in the street, horrendous faceless people on the internet.......the list goes on far more than anyone knows.....

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Sorting out some of this home lottery stuff this morning touched on all of that......but I kept things private as much as I could......

And the person I was talking to was aghast at what I told them, even the smallest amount of it all.....

And I said, "Now you now why I wanted and deserved to win that grand pize of the new house away from here to live......and that (by a cruel and terrible invisible hand of fate) I am never ever allowed to win such a thing no matter how many entries in all sorts of things I have been doing all my life."

The person at first thought I was declining the meagre prizes I'd won in relation to winning that new house and land away from this hellhole, but they soon came to realise (I hope) that exactly what I've been telling people for countless years in my life in that nothing good ever happens to me and I always suffer and nobody believes it because it sounds like I'm cursed or something to them, it's too out of their sphere of understanding to WANT to believe it. And so they also fear it 'catching' to them....

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As I've said countless times, I'd write a book but NOBODY would believe all the shit that's gone on in my shitty life, and so much of it all I had NOTHING TO DO WITH IT AT ALL other than being a victim of so many things.

I love YOU dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

I have been in terrible pain again. So has dear Max. And to a lesser extent but no less terrible has poor Sam been. And your dear chicken here Fliss.

And of course nobody believes me.

And so I'm so contantly saying to the terrible world...fuck you world!

I love YOU dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

Imbecile is due to return with absolute shit and diseases to spread and he will also be wont to cause me and poor Sam and poro Max terrible HELL as well in any way that he can. And he will be ANGRY and violent and do shit.....and NOBODY will believe me......

I love my dear brother and have tried to protect him all my life far more than he knows at all. But he is not very intelligent and he relishes being that way and considers hinmself far beyond me in intelligence but is so utterly wrong....and has been wrong all our lives.

I've cared for him all my life and protected him.....though in his mind he reverses everthing so he can alwasy think in his mind that he is always superior against me, against all others.

Dear Fliss saw all this for herself. SHE KNOWS. - And so he HATED her for KNOWING.

I love YOU dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

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Oh look...Tumblr is fucking me around AGAIN.....and so is the internet....AGAIN......FFS......

Those around in this hellhole are also not so innocent believe me.....

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2018--SEPT-19th-2018-Wednesday---in this hellhole state Western Australia...

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Nope....this NEWS item below doesn't happen in this hellhole suburb...instead the usual lot of shithead people just jump residents fences and invade residents properties and steal anything at will...even flowers they tear out and rip out of the ground and pots and carry off pots too.....to for instance decorate shit of criminals who have died including ones who have been killed evading Police capture in car chases and stolen car chases endangering so many innocents. ipso facto, they get 'rewarded' for stealing innocents peoples cars by having stolen flowers from innocent people......

It's about that time of year again when the scheduled crime activities will all erupt......and not just flowers shit.......

Honestly, this sort of shit goes on ALL the time and is often concentrated in certain parts of EVERY year such as is coming up and here already....

And by the way, apparently it's 'illegal' now to go and take flowers from the wild and use them for yourself.......the 'state' owns everything, even grains of sand and even flowers but does nothing good for any of it all let alone people. -- How not lovely Western Australia is.....

Is this NEWS item part of gearing up trying to entice overseas visitors again to this hellhole state? - Maybe a new push against Chinese tourists to fleece them out of any money they bring with them? - That's always popular here in this hellhole state in their forever mad scramble to forever get more money out of any and everything.

I wonder when uniformed official 'flower Police' will eventually be created which will be be a huge smack in the face for all those flower power people of past history...

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BTW, not to worry though, there's an increasingly common seasonal shooting of somebody in the local W.A. NEWS to take your minds off strawberries....

Man shot at home south of Perth -- PerthNow --September 19, 2018 5:58AM

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/crime/man-shot-at-calista-home-ng-b88965034z

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WA NEWS:------ (yes really)---Visitors drawn to rare wreath flower show/

Geoff Vivian--Geraldton Guardian--Wednesday, 19 September 2018 6:00AM

Pictures: Geoff Vivian

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Wreath flowers attract dozens of visitors each day to a remote dirt track 10km from Pindar

There is still time to view the wreath flowers that grow inland from Pindar to Perenjori.

Dozens of visitors go to a special place along a remote dirt track 10km from the tiny settlement of Pindar to view these unusual leschenaultias.

Wreath flowers change colour, gradually turning from a creamy white to red after insects pollinate them.

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I love you dear Fliss and so very much wish to be with you. - I've been ripping up flowers this morning of ours, specifically to make way for more Sam & Max ablutions...the very stuff that makes the flowers so rampant and out of control in the 'land mine pit' which was created for that purpose by you and me dear Fliss......and this morning I got wet from the very lot of cold and wet condensation (which will all vanish the closer this hellhole heads into hellhole summer....).

Lets's see what seasonal shit today has been....VERY VERY COLD especially in this hovel's interior night and day, a LOT of very heavy condensation so much so as if it's rain (all as a prelude to a deathly hot, airless, furnace-like heat of Summer at this hellhole, damned semi-chewed gumnuts everywhere from eucalyptus addict crazed parrots dropping them everywhere, dog shit from fuckwits who let their dogs roam and shit any and everywhere but NEVER in their own yards (that's why they take them for 'walkies'), big trucks and vehicles and 4WD's driving past our bedroom window spewing fumes diesel and petrol (never any NEWS about that yet) as it wrecks peoples lives but the goverment makes LOTS of money from taxing all that so they simply don't care and don't ever want to diminish their money-grubbing income from any of that.

I fully expect there will be a pathetic scheduled NEWS item of how expensive fuel is blah blah blah and how the government is 'powerless' to do anything about all that...andor will blame Singapore (again) or certain fuel companies they have been told to run down and get rid of....leaving the 'chosen' fuel companies of course alone..... - And there will be rampant offseas fuel importations, and once again there will be NEWS about how doing that is costing jobs...blah blah bloody blah....same old same old shit.....and they will shout they need to 'protect jobs'.....yeah like protecting anything they've been secretly told to protect whilst leaving everything else to go to rot and ruin.....

At the moment there is also the usual seasonal 'NEWS' against certain unfavoured politicians so as to remove them in any way they can, discrediting them, and especially 'handy' is anything against woman they can use or invent in any way they can. (BTW, I HATE ALL POLTICIANS RIGHT ACROSS THE BOARD AND I FAVOUR NOBODY. And I've long given up trying to have anyone in any government that does any good for anyone or anything at any level.)

Anyone else reading this has NO idea how routine all this NEWS stuff is....and how it serves certain interests and how it throws everyone to the wolves...whilst others live the lives of princes.....until.....

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. -- Poor Max is in greater pain and distress. Poor Sam is also getting that way too. (not saying anymore)

Maybe in Australia the poor and needy can do two things at once now and mend their threadbare clothes with needles whilst trying to eat strawberries contaminated with large needles?

Food contamination scares and such like this are also regular engineered scheduled events and has been going on for YEARS.... - How handy eh?

When you see so much NEWS over so many years, you see all this shit...it's not rocket science......

Remember dear Fliss that we ourselves used to grow lovely luscious strawberries at this hellhole area to enrich our own personal lives and were making it a regular thing?

So much for Strawberry jam maybe.....will it become illegal too or just vastly outpriced for common people....? -- How about new Low Priced metal detecting services at your local supermarket for all the food you buy...but then THAT will fail when other deliberate contaminants are utilised and back to square one it'll be again....to line up for the next of bullshit.....

I wonder how soon before growing your own food at all becomes illegal?

It won't happen in at this hellhole since the invisible shit (although sometiems heavy enough to be visible) from aircraft is so prevalent as they increasigly fly more often over this hellhole like the one that just did. - So much for 'peace and quiet'....

Lately the Perth Airport seems to me to be doing yet another load of shit....having different parts of the day determine where air traffic should be the worst and sharing it about to lessen complaints but making it worst in the income poorest areas of habitation whilst the 'better off' wealthier ones have lesser shit over them. -- SNAFU....as usual...until the social upset settles down and the airport can go back to business as usual since they're a corporation that answers only to Federal government NOT the local scummy Western Australian government in any case.

In past years various incarnations of Western Australian government would try to do things with the Perth Airport sitaution and then get royally told to fuck off (the airport area is literally like a foreign island within the W.A. landmass) and the Airport would shout that they answer ONLY to Federal laws....that are centered on the eastern side of Australia and don't care anything about this western state on the other side of them....such politicians there are more centralised and open to constant corruption and the local W.A. ones never quite reach their status......

Dear Fliss experienced this for herself but never wanted to believe it.

Oh, there goes another big jet, tearing VERY loudly over this hellhole as I write this.....

Triple-screened interstate or overseas grown strawberries served up to its passengers no doubt onboard....

Smoke me a kipper skipper I'll be back in time for lunch...don't needle me about with any of those Australian Strawberries....

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Tumblr is fucking me around again....not just seasonal but daily EVERY DAY at ANY TIME.....maybe Tumblr has needles in it's system and the Australian Government could offer ransom payment to fix it?

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

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2018--SEPT-18th-2018-Tuesday---ANOTHER NEWS day in this hellhole state.

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WA NEWS:------- Bomb squad, police raid Gosnells home hunting buried explosives

Monique Dirksz--7News Perth--September 18, 2018 6:19PM

(with photos & VIDEO)

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/wa/bomb-squad-police-raid-gosnells-home-hunting-buried-explosives-ng-b88964953z

and at another NEWS site: https://thewest.com.au/news/wa/gosnells-home-raided-by-bomb-squad-police-hunting-explosives-ng-b88964960z

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BTW,.....it's no wonder my very innocent friend (whom Fliss was aware of and doesn't care anyway, I've long since lost contact because they are so far away) dear Ron & his wife & children wanted to get out of that locality long ago.....they moved to another area and.....(I'm not saying).....

Gosnells is/was a locality for cheap housing for people trying to start new lives and families and who wanted to live peacefully....but in actuality they discovered they were never allowed to....

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WA NEWS:----BMW catches fire at Morley service station

7News Perth--September 18, 2018 4:18PM

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/wa/bmw-catches-fire-at-morley-service-station-ng-b88964804z

(with VIDEO)

And at another NEWS website: https://thewest.com.au/news/wa/silver-bmw-catches-fire-without-warning-at-morley-service-station-ng-b88964805z

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In this below is what I'm now lumped in with!? - FFS.....even more shit I have to fight against in my miserable fucking life.....

I suppose all those deranged criminal youths will now use this as an excuse too to extract more money?

WA NEWS:------- Parents urged to monitor teens as back pain linked to mental illness

By Ryan Johnson--18 September 2018 — 6:37pm

https://www.watoday.com.au/national/western-australia/parents-urged-to-monitor-teens-as-back-pain-linked-to-mental-illness-20180918-p504ks.html

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

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2018--SEPT-18th-2018-Tuesday---ANOTHER day in this hellhole area and I wish I was dead or far far away with dear Fliss.

The criminal abo's have gone (for now) as I've written about in my blog for so long, and just like I sid it would do...EXACTLY like I said it would do, other shit has been going on by the enemies/allies of the abo's, the other crims and shitheads and worst people.

I wish I was dead.

Or REALLY I deeply wish I with dear Fliss far far away and safe away from this hellhole.

I'm NOT going to tell you the shit of today....I wrote about and talked about it all in real life so much of it before and NOBODY believed me in real life either as fucking usual......

You think Balga in Western Australia used to be bad? - Well this shitty place trumps that shitty place as it was back then when it was REALLY bad.......

And they say that Balga has been 'reformed' and has become 'better' too....

Meanwhile, this fucking hellhole is now moving into it's summer cycle of shit.

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Poor Sam and especially poor Max have become VERY traumatised today. I'm NOT going to tell you why but THIS FUCKING HELLHOLE AREA has so much to do with it all, and the fact dear Fliss has abandoned us all in this hell...

Terrible bad headache now...and the doctors refuse to believe me when I tell them what causes it...THEY HAVE NO IDEA and this hellhole is totally beyond their comprehension of existence. And so does Police and authorities.

Anytime I tell them anything they just mutter, 'awhhh, but that's nothing'...(because THEY live in such great places and with no problems and can dispense false wisdom and pathetic judgement and be paid for doing so....)

The usual 'Watcher' was around the area and streets early this morning, chain smoking and taking e-notes...and was so engrossed in everything that the Watcher on her e-device (maybe even just playing sudoku perhaps as she works?), just slowly toddled on by and no doubt wrote that everything is AOK in this fucking hellhole...as the Watcher also passes a house with a car that's a wreck now and VERY heavily vandalised and smashed up (by aboriginals) in somebodies front yard behind their hedge fence...it USED to be a valid undamaged car...so was the house.......so many houses.....

The nights are very cold, there is no rain, but there is massive condensation on everything each and every overnight and morning, so much so that it's as if it has rained with freezing cold water.

I was hoping for a double fatality today.......two were sitting down smoking for ages LITERALLY RIGHT NEXT TO A GAS METER BOX........pity it didn't happen.....

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And a black feral cat (AGAIN) has been invading this yard and upsetting me, Sam & Max, and attacking native birds, and lurking about on all shed rooftops then noisily jumping over fences if seen with a loud clatter and scraping of claws on metal roofs.......

Don't get me wrong....I love cats. - But not the fuckwits who leave them go utterly feral, and leave them to roam in everyones yards pissing and shitting and fouling EVERYTHING.....and spreading disease......

This fucking hellhole.......

The closer I ever get to ever getting out of this hellhole, the more I'm assailed as well as any of my loved ones. This also terribly affected my dear Mother here. (and it assailed dear Fliss too, adding to her problems, ALL WHICH I WAS BLAMED...)

Dear Fliss refused to listen to me tell her all about it all. She always thought I was lying. I never ever was. She has NEVER met somebody as sincere as me, and I daresay is (living?) with other fuckwits now and living a life of being a fuckwits mole, probably pregnant or with a demented child just to get government money so it can be used for booze and other shit. Days and months and years of demented satisfaction I'm sure.....how well she must be doing?

How can I know ANYTHING when she refuses to talk with me or anything and has been like that for so long?

After she left, I beseeched her for us to get back together and for us her loved ones here to get out of this hellhole and join her and live the life we had been denied for so long, which was worsened by her mental and physical conditions which got worse after we were a couple here in Western Australia and which I got blamed for......fuck that. - I get blamed for fucking everything, and that has been the case all my fucking life and I never ever get any breaks or good luck in my life.....

I thought being with dear Fliss as a couple was the gods bestowing upon me good fortune and love....but what a fucking fool I was.....it was just a prelude to utter fucking hell...again which I got blamed for......

Hell my poor dear innocent very gentle and very kind mother also was terribly and unfairly assailed with before she died....

Dear Fliss has medically certified conditions that she and her family keep very secret...but I loved her for all of dear Fliss.....but I never knew the hell it was going to destroy me and us with. She blamed all and everything of all our terribel woes on that damend medical problem(s) but Fliss kept all that blame internal inside herself and kept blaming herself and it all made dear Fliss so much very very worse and self-destroying to her....and us...and everything......and she certainly never ever deserved all that shit at all.....

Dear Fliss struggled terribly with herself and everything, and I helped her get so much better, but then she got worse and I got fucking blamed...and no doubt I'm still being fucking well blamed.

She has.....

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hashimoto's_thyroiditis

Brought on from an vicious terrible criminal attack (long before I ever met her or knew of her) from vicious Aboriginals on the other side of Australia (on the east side) that physically beat her so badly that she could have died it was so severe and which severly damaged and set her thyroid into dying within her body...subsequently bringing on a raft of other things poor Fliss suffered from.

But I LOVED dear Fliss and still do.

And I protected her against any and everything and everyone. And I supported her in anything that she did....MORE than anyone KNOWS......

And do you know what I got for all that? - For me to fuck off and die after being destroyed after she fled from me here in an episode where she went mentally right out of her senses......

So much I explained in my blog in so many posts, but I've deleted all that because NOBODY FUCKING BELIEVED ME OR HELPED ME AND DEAR FLISS GET TOGETHER AGAIN......since dear Fliss left us here in this fucking hellhole....

I've got a terrible headache as I type this directly, which is caused from what's been going on in this hellhole area again.

No good telling anyone, NOBODY FUCKING BELIEVES.....

Like all those aboriginals recently drowning themselves in Perth...it's like that and even if I told anybody what was going to happen beforehand nobody would fucking believe me so fuck you world......

Here at this hellhole, I've told people and authorties so much and for so long and in detail and with details and with information they had NO IDEA of and could NOT possibly figure out for themselves..but even WITH all that, they STILL refuse to believe anything......just flat-out refused then and for so long......

I've long since stopped doing any of that.

Fuck YOU.

When the next major things start going on again, or when the next spate of shit starts going on again, do NOT look to me for the information and pattern-filling you so fucking well very surely do lack in abundance.

Fuck YOU.

Even today I have seen it all starting again.....STARTING AGAIN....

Shit I deleted would have shown it's not just one-off things.....but FUCK YOU.

I keep trying to be open and explantory and helpful and friendly but THAT gets me absolutely nothing but to be forever victimised and be a victim.....

FUCK YOU.

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Poor Max VERY VERY VERY UPSET. And injured.

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Poor Sam VERY VERY upset.

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The chicken is on its way to dying and upset and all alone and lonely. The chicken that dear Fliss saved and loved. (despite it being a wacky chicken)

Fliss saves nobody and nothing now I expect....and others will applaude her for being that way since it fits in with THEIR selfish own pithy lives ethos.....the so much they keep hidden and unknown about.....

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Fate keeps tearing and ripping at me body & soul and to my loved ones.......and I'm supposed to be 'thankful' for all that and say nothing?

FUCK YOU.

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU. Just as you promised me. Just as you promised us. Just as you promised yourself.

Or are you lying to yourself and to all others again and so destroying us all and yourself?

To everyone else, yes you too dear Cath in Queensland, you all have no idea.......

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And of course as I type this right now, the shitty loud low flying planes fly right over this hovel......

So much for sleep again....

And every plane is as a dagger to my heart, mind, and soul and to dear Sam and dear Max since we think dear Fliss is returning to us.....just as she did before after a bout of her terrible afflictions........

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FUCK HAVING ANY GOOD MEMORIES!

The sooner I have NONE at all of anything the better.

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OTHER shit has been occuring......

Not telling you......

NONE of it good.....

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Oh...and Tumblr now fucks me around....again......how utterly NOT surprising....

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2018--SEPT-17th-2018-Monday---Been to doctor for more pain medication but still in pain - I love you dear Fliss & want to be with you.

Agonising pain. Only JUST kept in check. VERY COLD here. No rains for now. Clear skies a lot but also with clouds and all cold.

I struggled in pain and mowed the grass of this hovel front, back and verge the other day. Today many others were doing there's. That's because when it stops raining grass explodes growing and becomes massive weeds. Then when it all dies and we go into deathly Summer mode, it all becomes crispy dry and dead. And all that needs to be cleaned up before it gets to that stage too. So I have THAT hellish pain to look forward to doing since imbecile never ever does anything about it all.

Since 'those' ones publicy died in the Swan River last week, it's all become quiet at least with 'those' ones who are still about. But they've been seasonally added to by the others.

Of course I haven't won anything more ever again like Lotto or anything. If I did win big or sizeable then I wouldn't be here. That's a fact. - But it's all just vain dreams......

Still playing Lotto and charity things and forever hoping in vain....

I ALMOST won a house and land last week, a nice one...but I missed out by just two tickets......you have NO IDEA how CONSTANT this sort of thing keeps happening in my life...ALL MY LIFE.....WITH ALL SORTS OF THINGS AND EVENTS.....I AM NEVER 'ALLOWED' TO WIN OR SUCCEED....NEVER........NEVER ALLOWED.....

Once again, my dream of getting out of this hellhole crushed and destroyed.

All my hope is in vain.......

With the weather my permanent inuries pain is not letting up.

Dear Dr Fliss, before she left, and we had commuications (which has since vanished), she ordered me to give up on ALL pain relied medications...and so I tried that...and I suffered greatly in a helluva lot of pain......and tehn I terribly attacked by a powerful vicious dog (Max) and severely injured...and I'm STILL injured by that.

I tried to flex my injured limb(s) for the doctor and was struggling. Therafter, signing at the chemist for my pain medications I could barely write at all it's that bad.

Pain so bad it wakes me up from sleep.

And I have nobody that helps me so no matter what I do, I'm in agony and remain in agony and forever will be in agony until I die in agony......so forgive me for not doing ANYTHING.

No, I have NOT won Lotto of anything. It's always just a dream of a fool because I never win anything of worth.

More Lotto draws and stuff keep coming up but I never watch them or follow them because I KNOW I never ever win, and whatever if anything I do win is pithy and goes towards purchasing more tickets later on but eventually it all runs quickly out and I have to use real money once again.

Recently I was 2 ticket numbers from winning that brand new house and land package....but of course that just simply means I LOST AGAIN...AS ALWAYS.....

I used to ALWAYS say to dear Fliss (and she refused to believe it), that just by the act of me trying to win something THAT determines that I will ALWAYS LOSE.........it's my lot in this shitty life...for me to forever suffer......

I expect the last day I'm alive that something might pop up and it'll be useless.....such as a holiday.....which will translate to just to go away and die somewhere else.....and be forgotten more than I'm forgotten already now......

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. Poor dear Max is in sustained pain. Both poor Sam and poor Max are on the bed and very loudly snoring. They snore so loud in this tiny hovel of a house that it wakes me up no matter what I do or where they are.

Some blood today. Had a warm shower and tried to get rid of it.

But as always it just made feeling COLD so much worse afterwards when out of the water.

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

Poor Max has, just as I was writing this, struggled off of laying on the bed, slumped to the cold floor, and started growling with pain.

It'll be SO COLD tonight that they both will crowd around me on the bed.

We all have nightmares without you being with us dear Fliss. We hope you are safe and are more well than when you took off from here and went to the other side of Australia and abandoned us here.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

P.S. all NEWS and references of the recent tragic events that happened in the Swan River at Perth has vanished. And so far there is no apparent aftermath .....yet.....

Damn jet planes are as always over this hellhole and his hovel and destroy sleep and peace and quiet......none at the moment as I write this but as soon as I say that, they just start flying over again and again and again and again....BIG PLANES....jumbo sized jet planes......large passenger jet planes...smaller sized passenger planes jet and propellor...small private propellor planes....no helicopters yet though.......but THEY earlier have been flying about on the other side of the Perth Airport and going north and south.....

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Oh, and before I can post this...one jet plane flies low overhead and flies over this hellhole hovel and dawdles into Perth Airport...it's the next 'batch' before darkness falls properly....

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with YOU.

BTW, as always which I ask, give dear gentle Cath my kind regards when next you see her too in Queensland......

And..ANOTHER damn jet flies over this hovel.....

And..ANOTHER one.....

To anyone else reading this, (if anyone)...dear Fliss NEVER EVER contacts me despite her promising me to always stay in contact no matter what......so I'm always just writing into the realms of nothing....in vain...to sincerely be with dear Fliss again......

this is HELL

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2018--SEPT-16th-2018-Sunday---I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you--so does poor Sam & poor Max.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

So does poor Sam & poor Max.

My heart is on the left side isn't it....?

Pounding, rapid rate all the time, my chest aches a lot from it.

https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/1/12/CG_Heart.gif/220px-CG_Heart.gif

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perindopril

And my loving heart aches so terribly for YOU dear Fliss.

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Sirens all about the highways since before dawn......

Damned LOUD big jet planes flying right over this hovel since BEFORE dawn and even now as I write this.....taking off from Perth Airport and loudly flying RIGHT OVER THIS HOVEL.......

I'd take a photo but STILL nobody believes me.....

Nobody believs me about ANYTHING...

Like the criminals that were rampant for so VERY LONG about these hellhole streets and the countless Police arersts and visits as well as anonymous vehicles forever arriving and leaving at all hours on any day at ANY hour....and the so VERY VERY VERY criminal 'kids' of ALL AGES......

MANY other things all of which was detailed in the blog parts that I myself removed from my blog because nobody fucking believed me or the other residents despite truly countless Police-level incidents that was kept quiet from the public knowing.....and I KNOW it was kept quiet because it was ALWAYS VERY VERY RARELY in ANY NEWS.......and when it happened to get mentioned it was just a glancing mention with no details......

And STILL all that shit went on and on and got worse.....

As the crimes were happening I was blogging about them because authorities didn't give a shit and never wanted them known about.

And shitheads aorund this hellhole got worse too. And the 'cycles' of shit just went on and on like a criminal tag-team-match of shit...

And JUST as I forecasted would happen, it exploded...not exctly here but in Perth just this past week and it made headlines across Australia....

And now it's an item that's being used by those usual ones......

Gee, welcome Western Australia and Perth to what's been going on in THIS hellhole for MANY MANY YEARS....and WAKE UP......and stop being so obsequious to criminals.......

Do you even remember what criminals and crime are? Not what the guilty want you to believe of them.

Dear Fliss, remember me. You also had heart pills along with all your other stuff that you refused to take. and you tried valiantly and bravely self medicating despite all my best efforts for you to constantly to take your prescibed doctor-prescibed medications in the proper amounts and not keep you hiding the fact that you were NOT taking them by flushing them down the toilet....

But even THAT I understood why and the history of why. And I helped you cope with those terrible things from your past long before I ever met you in person and still afterwards when you came to live with me. We were going to be married but you kept stalling and putting it off and then denying it should come about until we were 'better off'

All THAT I was blamed for as well by uncaring others.

So fuck you all WORLD.

I love you dear FLiss and want to be with you, just as you promised me. Away from this hellhole and hell where nothing gets better.....

I hope you are well. All contact with you has been long smashed apart and kept from me having contact with you by others. It is NOT like things were before when we talked for hours by telephone and supported each other and even when here we privately talked for MANY hours together in private which nobody but us knows about, and nothing was held back by you or I.

All THAT I was blamed for too by uncaring and unknowing others.

So fuck you all WORLD.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. So does dear Sam and dear Max. They're going to be worse than alone should I expire. The ones you loved so very much and cared for, just like dear Matey and dear Vespa who are no longer alive.

You and I had tried so very hard and been so very honest and caring and truthful but private and forever harangued by this hell and hellhole where so many other prospered as they rolled in shit and made others lives hell.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

I should not have written this and have it known again. Nobody cares about us dear Fliss.

I love YOU dear Fliss and want to be with you.

Though I have so very very little of anything and I am always struggling you are prominently in my WILL....a physical WILL copy that has been stolen 'by imbecile ?' after he smashed and broke into my LOCKED bedroom.......

So much for hope.......

Fuck the world.....

And now Tumbler fucks me around YET AGAIN......

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2018--SEPT-16th-2018-Sunday---All my life I am NEVER allowed to have what I wish for - NOT EVER.

Dear Fliss, I have told you this before in our lives and you refused to believe me.

I woudl give you so MANY countless examples of things in my life that have you couldn't and you woulnd't believe despite them being absolutely true.

Many of those were tragic things in my life that made my life worse.

They're the kind of things that somebody else would sigh and say, "God just has other plans for you." - They would mean things in my life for me, better things than what I've had all my life.

All I've been assailed with all my life is utter deprivations and sufferings and tragedies and struggles and losses and no matter what or how I try to alter things none of it ever, ever, changes for the better.

I've tried so very hard all my life. And none of it matters. I never ever ever win.

My dear mother was also the same and she suffered all her life.

Nobody would believe her and so she kept utterly quiet about things because so much crap kept assailing if she dared voice her concerns or cares or wants in life.

So you know how MANY times you hear about people winning lotto or anything like that, and how the ones who win were so richly deserving, and how their lives were so miserable that you yourself would come away with that knowledge feeling better that they were finally better off and they could live their lives so much more at peace and not have to struggle anymore.....

The media latches onto such people and many times will exploit them for their own, as will terrible others. I have never wished for that to occur to anyone and indeed have all my life wished only the best for everyone. (whilst I myself was suffering so terribly).....

This is not about avarice at all.

Imagine a tale of a begger of olde on the street who has nothing. Somebody everybody ignored and never threw a penny to and who struggled and suffered but who was kind to creatures and every tiny things, but who was forever looked down upon and who was maligned and was unloved and suffered and had nightmares for sleep and so on and on and on......

I have always been that person. And despite doing everything in my meagre means, I am never allowed to get ahead in life, never allowed to enjoy all the things that everyday people take for granted, even the simple things in life.

All in my life I have alwasy had a great affinity and kindness towards others worse off than myself. Dear Fliss could never understand me of this and she could never understand how I had to be forever cherishing things, even inanimate things, events, people, situations, simple joys in life, and she also could never understand me wanting to have better in my life, and seeing how I was always trying to 'make do' with the meagre scraps I was forced to have in my life.

And others kept assuming that it was myself 'choosing' to live this way when in fact that ws never ever the case. And I would get blamed for that. And I would suffer. And I would be made to suffer. Endless suffering upon suffering......

Dear Fliss could also never understand how I was always cheerful and optimistic and forever looking to a brighter future for all, despite me suffering so much all my life.....and by that I also mean those around me who I loved so very much......and that includes the family I was chosen to be born into......

And so I have always tried to be a good person. Even when so much terrible things in life should have made me a terrible person. I was not. I never ever was. And I was a good a kind person. When all around me so many many many others got what they wanted or stole it or lied to get it or killed to get it....I kept being honest and faithful and true.

But all that count for nothing when others look down upon me all the time and I suffer and no matter what I do nothing changes for the better for me and those I love and care for no matter what.

Dear Fliss knows only a tiny bit of my dear mothers life, and she has bare inklings of the knowledge of the tragedies and horrors and hardships and which she was forever trying to protect me from...and then she died.....died in relative poverty.....and I was still clinging to what I had been told all my life by others that good things happen to good people...and that you should forever just wait....and the grandest thing of all was that no matter how bad everthing was, that a just reward of heaven awaited after having suffered all in life.......

In my blog I deleted a huge LOT of stuff because it was destroying me, destroying the wishes and hopes I had of being with dear innocent Fliss again........and of having life, as simple as it was, back to normal, and the love we had and shared with others, even other creatures and things......

But that has been a fools folly.

I am NEVER allowed to succed nd win in life. I stated that very fact so many times in my blog. Nobody beleived me in any case. And that has also been the case in real life. Even when such times I have shown them the scars of injuries of things in my life they would just brush me off as being a fool or they would become 'wise' and stupid and either laugh it all off ro utter some silly saying or paltitude or anything so they could be out of my company and no longer be engaged in what we were talking about. - And I was always quickly forgotten or relegated to being a fool.....again. Or told to forever just have 'hope'.........

And I spoke of how people who have no hope end.

And I got told not to speak like that. Or think like that. Or say that to anyone. And to just forever think 'happy thoughts' and think about something else. (as if that would change things....it DIDN'T).

But all through my life I struggled to live like that. And I sincerely freely offered to all others the help and hope and trust and support that THEY wanted and needed whilst I myself suffered.....I won't go into details, you'd only dimiss them or think them incongruous or silly...and once again in my life I would be dismissed and be nothing and suffer for it.

I kept all such thoughts to myself of fate but I dared to speak privately to dear Fliss. She herself was having suferings and terrible things in her life and no matter what she did or tried she was forever suffering. And because of us being a couple together for around a decade, after time her entire outlook on life changed to be better and she was once again reslilient to the vagaries and horrors of fate. (she had been very terribly assailed before I met her and was...in her own words, "broken". - But I loved her then and still love her and will always love her despite her crashing her pysche and leaving me here in this hell even after she promised me that we were going to live elsewhere better, and have teh life we always were meant to have. It was to be not a life of vanity or avarice or anything like that. -- And then she just vanished. And refused any and all contact. And she crashed so very terribly away from me. - And I was so very unfairly blamwed for all that so very terribly. - And far away she is back to suffering and is trying once again to 'fake being happy because others want her to be that way'....again something she privately told me when we were together that she suffered from. And she too often privately descibed it all to me as being her own hell.

Even dear Fliss's closest friend(s) were ignorant of dear Fliss's private hell she endured in her mind, body and soul. (I'm NOT going to repeat what I have told others, NOBODY believes or belived me or quickly forgot or thought I was lying.) - I was not lying. I never lied. And I was considered and treated as a fool and even told I was 'better off' without dear innocent Fliss. And I was told to forget about her (and leave dear Fliss to her own hell and demons and suffering, the very things that dear Fliss was absolutely terrified of, the very things I protected her from).

And dear Fliss and I forever had hopes for the future. For everyone else, for all others no matter who they were or where they were in this world, so much of that ethos she acquired from me and it bolstered her psyche and soul and life...and in doing so we lived.

But we were struggling together, monetarily, financially, and in so many ways much of which was never of our own design or making and things we never wished upon anyone else. (as dear Fliss woudl often say of things, 'I wouldn't wish this upon anyone, not even my worst enemy.' (her exact words)

You have (maybe) read all that above and thought what has that go to do with what THIS blog entry is about.....

Dear Fliss and I once tried to escape this hell and we tried to get a new house. Not another old house. Not a huse liek this one that is a decrepit relic of another era and a hovel in an area of criminals and crime and hell. She did that all secretly from me. And she was SO HAPPY and SO looking forward to living in a new home and being away from everythng and not forever struggling as we were. -- But all THAT fell through. She was devastated. And it affected her terribly. -- AND I GOT BLAMED......

Damn it, I'm daring to speak of things I said I was not going to speak of, of things I'm forbidden to speak of...the truth. - So I will go back to what I was stating is the 'reason' for this blog entry.

I'm stating this here lest I die. I want the uncaring world to know. I want all those people who don't care about having dear Fliss and I back toegther again and having a happy life and making others happy. - I keep trying to live as I have always been, with hope and caring for all others despite my own suffering.

I have said before (espcially in my huge massive blog contents I deleted) that I never entered any contests or such that did not benefit others. But because I have been so desperate to escape this hell since dear Fliss has left me here in this hell without her, I have been trying my hardest in any way to escape.

I have 'won' tiny amounts of reward, pithy amounts, the kinds that encourage you to keep on 'gambling'.....the very things all my life I kept away from because I have seen the damage it has caused to peoples lives when out of control.

And as such, I have been trying to confine myself to crawling out of this hellhole and by being involved with charitable things that has benefits to others of genuine need.

One recently (and the subject of this blog entry) was yet another worthy charitable and worthy cause that has a grand prize of a furnished new house in an area far away from this hellhole, one which dear Fliss would be proud to live in, one which was forever denied us, one which was like her Queensland refuge only large and more of a true home in all aspects, and it would be in a far far safer place than this hellhole that it has become.

And dear Sam and dear Max would be living there too with me, safe and living the last part of their lives happily and without hell.

And just perhaps dear sweet Fliss would return to us from the hell on the other side of Australia where she is in once again, the very thing I 'rescued' her from (her exact word), though even I myself did not now how very bad her hell was when I did back then.

But all that sincere hope I had is not to be for me AGAIN.

I missed out winning a multimillion dollar home and million dollar prize package by......just 2 numbers.........

It is terrible for anyone to think about how they 'almost won' something they wanted...but it terrible for anyone to think that when it is something that they needed so very much such as myself. (and dear Fliss)

I literally did not win all that by just 2 numbers.

It is liek my dear decase mother alwasy said when she also was trying so desperately hard to win at things to alleviate hell in our life, "Just being one number off is as bad as not havng a ticket in it all.".....

And I was just 2 numbers off after so many sincere tickets...and this has been the case for ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in my entire life...to be within a breath of winning but NOT winning.

I'm NOT envious or ungrateful for the winner(s)...that would be falling into the terrible destructive realms of avarice. Again a thing I was always carefully and gently warning dear Fliss to be wary of suffering from.

An do you think I could just forget it all...the winning the house and land and money I mean.......

No I can't. I'm not allowed to. And I am involved now in another aspect of it of which is in contrast inconsequential and painful for me, but which others might clap their hands and laugh and be joyful and indulge themselves in avarice of but I certainly don't despite it being a gift for being involved in the event.

I'm NOT ungrateful. Please don't think that.

I'm taken back to memory of when my dear Motehr was live and she had taken me to the Perth Royal Show which was a rare treat because we were so poor, and what also was a very rare treat was myself being allowed to play a sideshow game of skill.....of which I played.....and suceeded......and won...a plaster penguin....that is, a 'cheap' painted lifesized heavy figurine of a penguin made of plaster.......and it was cherished by myself for being such a rare thing or being allowed to win something because fate NEVER EVER allowed us to EVER get anything in life.......

And my dear mother was happy that I was happy.

And wherever I went in life to live, we took that penguin with us, and it occupied a place on the mantlepiece to be viewed everyday to give hope and rememberance of a happy time in my life. It was very cherished by me. Dear Fliss could never understand what it represented.

But that plaster penguin is gone.

When dear Fliss had a terrible breakdown here and abandoned me and us and dear Sam and dear Max all alone in this hell, we were in contact with each other via email and she was in a terrible state (for the 2nd time)..oh yes, this huge event had happedn before and she will not tell you that..but I WAS BLAMED when I was NOT TO BLAME and neither was dear Fliss...but she was torn from me and we were parted.......

In her private emails to me, she said how she hated amongst other things, the 'clutter' in this tiny hovel of a house. The house Ilive din, amd she had lived in, and been 'happy' though we weer always struggling whilst those all around us, far less deserving, and often criminals, constantly got everythng they wanted by one manner or another.

And instead we had stayed honest, we stayed true, we stayed gentle and forgiving and giving to other less fortunate than ourselves all the time, and she herself had taken a job at a charity store and was trying to work so very very hard despite getting injured there doing so which she kept secret for I think she believed that by herself suffering that it could bring about a change in our fates and 'reward' us for the suffering we have had.

But she had another breakdown. (I'm not speaking here about that.)

And shortly therafter she fled back to the other side of Australia and left me in this hell. WHICH GOT WORSE AND WORSE.

And even THAT hell she unfairly blamed herself for I'm sure.

And as a fallout from all that utter hell......I've tried to dig myself out of this hellhole....but I am never allowed to succeed.....

Hence the brand new house-with-land lotteries. - It's NOT a vanity or delving into avarice, though unthinking uncaring others would assume that.

But by fate I'm never allowed to win.

I'm consoled with it being for charity, (which I wholeheartedly approve), and though it is a form of 'gambling', it directly helps MANY others, and has done so for many years.

I truly must never fall into the torture of avarice and so I try my hardest not to.

I am still trying my earnest in anything in my life but I am still in this pit of hell. Much of which I'm not speaking of.

Poor Sam and poor Max are suffering a great deal. As am I. More recently even in the last few hours. And there is no saviour for me and us. Nothing.

I WAS going to speak about something else in addition but I'm not going to.

Dear Fliss if she were here would be (temporarily) happy for me and us but it is no a lasting thing in any way. And it falls within the afflictions that dear Fliss suffered from and which I must not succumb.

I again had a dream of being with dear Fliss once more and afterwards I knew that should she be here I would be secretly vocally struggling with her not to fall into the trap of thinking that everthing all is okay just because of something else.

That's false hope.

And that is soul destroying.

And yet.....

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It's VERY cold here. And it's getting COLDER. Especially inside this hovel too. I'm going to feed dear Sam and dear Max, which they relish, then we have to go outside in the VERY COLD which is becoming VERY VERY COLD, and then we return inside this hovel and try to go back to bed to get warm. - And all about wrongly think we choose to live like this....

Oh, Saturday night was of a lesser amount of shit going on about this hellhole.......

In the NEWS however there has been greater amounts in other localities and is exactly as I said it was going to be. And much of it with the usual lots.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

P.S. to that charity raffle people, I am in no means ungrateful. Don't ever think that. And it's heartwarming to see somebody else receiving what I myself sincerely coveted for they too helped your charity amounts so that things could be done for worthy others. As did I. And so many others.

I'm very COLD and SHIVERING despite the heater being on...it's the COLD-BEFORE-THE-DAWN and it is a COLD after rain. VERY COLD.

I'm not allowed to be warm and comfortable.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

To all others reading this, I expect that as always that truly you have NO IDEA of what I've been writing. And when the time comes and I'm eventually dead and no longer, you still won't. Maybe a tiny fragment will remain. Like the plaster penguin was for me. (it was given to a charity shop to make somebody elses life a litle brighter and worth living, perhaps a childs, but I have no knowledge what became of it.)

Object are also memories.

I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you.

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2018--SEPT-14th-2018-Friday mid morning---THIS HELLHOLE OF WHITE & ABO CRIMS AND CRIME & HELL.

Dear Fliss, please know that poor Sam and poor Max and poor me are all suffering without being with YOU.

Anyone reading this and my blog does NOT KNOW the hell here and what it is.

Currently the ONLY thing missing is the streams of constant Police sirens tearing about......though they HAVE been all around this area....

So.....you dear Reader think just because the VERY criminal aboriginals have been lawfully evicted and thrown out of the houses...YOU think that crime and shit has gone down here and all about have you?

YOU'RE WRONG

AND...EXACTLY AS I WROTE IN MY BLOG FOR YEARS.....the 'season' of crime and criminality has temporarily shifted from the VERY CRIMINAL AND VICIOUS aboriginals to the the VERY CRIMINAL AND VICIOUS white ones......

As was happening last night......

And is even now the criminal effects are being seen in the media such as below....

WA NEWS:------ Police charge man over Malaga BMW chase crash

September 14, 2018 9:58AM

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/crime/police-charge-man-over-malaga-bmw-chase-crash-ng-b88960402z

And there's a NEWS report video of the resultant scene. It's a pity the shithead trying to escape Police wasn't killed because they surely deserve it.....oh, and they were escaping Police in a BMW vehicle....not an 'ordinary car'..and they crashed into a blackboy,.....mustv'e been one strong blackboy (they can be) but then again in criminal incidents SO MANY TREES have been crashed into and have survived (barely).

I expect now the local sales of BMW's will now rise as shitheads think they're safer and more capable if you're a criminal chased by Police....

The shitty NEWS treats it all and simply focuses on the car being torn in two...and that the occupants (criminals) survived......

And as for the criminals now being in a city hospital.....THAT just makes things hell for hospital and it's staff AND all other patients.....I KNOW because such a thing happened to me when I was in hospital for an injury and swarms of 'certain people' took over the hospital ward I was in and plenty of uniformed Police were called in and we innocent patients all were hurriedly evacuated far away into another hospital ward elsewhere and the ward was sealed off........because of the 'certain people' having taken it over and before the Police incident had been attracting more and more and more......as if it was a fucking free hotel with free meals and free entertainment and free everything....

At first the hospital idiotically tried accomodating all these shits as if it was all a fucking HOTEL! - The fuckers took over patients beds, ordered AND ALSO STOLE meals from the hospital rounds.....patients meals were 'vanishing' whilst patients were in other hospital areas..and then we innocent patients kept getting blamed whenever we dared to ask for our meals....and it all made hell for everyone.......

AND YOU DID NOT READ ABOUT THAT IN ANY NEWS....NOR WILL YOU.....

The hospital corridors were FULL of Police......a riot ensued more than once culminating in we poor patients being transported out to other wards on and in our hospital beds and the entire ward being emptied out......

Oh, and the ones respsonsible were the usual untouchable criminals that everyone tries to ignore and accomodate and do everthing for despite them never taking no for an answer and worse than rabid foetid rats......

In a hospital......

A hospital....that's supposed to be caring for the infirm.....but the criminals NEVER care about anything but themselves.......

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Today this mid morning I was ONCE AGAIN accosted by fake friendly begging shits.......

As I was going there to get a simple small loaf of plain bread from out of the small change of mine I had scraped together because I'm so poor.

But even as I was walking to go past them I stated clearly and simply, "I'M NOT INTERESTED. AND I'VE HEARD IT ALL BEFORE. YOU'RE GETTING NOTHING OUT OF ME."

And before I'd even reached the door they STILL launched into badgering me to wear me down to just give them swathes of money so they could just walk around the corner and go into the booze shop......or buy cigarettes....or others stuff to have with the booze....

THIS IS NOT NEW OR UNUSUAL SHIT...IT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR YEARS AND YEARS AND YEARS AT THIS HELLHOLE......

(And the booze shop has also been the scene of countless crime and criminals and Police.)

And soon enough the streets have emptied stinking bottles smashed on them, on the footpaths, thrown into or smashed into peoples yards., fighting in the streets, criminal thefts out of peoples vehicles, thefts of peoples vehicles........

And also they'd get soft drink bottles but were actually filled by them full of hard booze so they could wander all about the streets forever drunk and violent and criminal. - If any Police vehciel was seen nearby, they'd just drop the bottle and come back to it (maybe, IF they could rememeber), and there was SO MANY MANY bottles left all over the place andor hidden in innocent residents gardens which was handy for them when they would rob them too. -- ALL THIS WAS/IS NOT JUST CONFINED TO ADULTS BUT CRIMINAL 'CHILDREN' TOO.

And all this FOR YEARS WAS ALSO BEING DONE BY THE VERY VERY CRIMINAL 'CHILDREN 'OF THEM TOO......AND ESCALATING.......(there's temporarily a 'lull' period of those VERY CRIMINAL AND VERY VERY VIOLENT CHILDREN shits...)

And ANY and EVERYONE I told anywhere else they totally REFUSED to believe any of this was happening or had hapened or could happen again and again and again......

And because THEY could not accept such shit was actually going on...THEY BLAMED ME.....OR THOUGHT ME 'MISTAKEN' or such, despite countless Police incidents......all of which YOU never read in any damned 'informative' NEWS....

And 'anonymous Watchers' roamed the streets (AND STILL DO AGAIN) watching and noting down on electronic devices things they oberved as they slowly walked around (or slowly drove around) sticking to set regular permanent routes and timetables which the criminals learned of them and avoided them like clockwork...the criminal shits.

So I fucking well just STOPPED doing ANYTHNG for ANYONE.....NOBODY cares and nobody does anything, least of all with the situation with dear Fliss and myself being terribly parted.......of which I WAS BLAMED FOR TOO despite myself being totally innocent and dear Fliss being totally innocent.....

But no.....fucking dickheads still keep thinking it's ME....only because THEY can intelligently talk to me....since they refuse to try to even get near any stinkin' booze addled andor illegal drugged-up crazy insane violent guilty criminal others who could attack them at any moment AND the criminals get away with doing such.....

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Another day in this hellhole.

And that's NOT even telling you here about other shit that has been going on.......no, fuck you....you're SO SMART...then YOU try try to figure out what criminal shit and other shit has been going on Sherlock...but YOU won't.....YOU just want information served up to you like custard so you can accept it since you REFUSE to want my life being any better in this hellhole and for dear Fliss and I to be together again. - Fuck you.

Poor Sam and poor Max have AGAIN been harangued by shit of his hellhole and it woke me and us despite us all just being asleep and having got to sleep after the LAST LOT of shit going on at this fucking hellhole......

And this morning I've seen that somebody has previously tried to break-in AGAIN.

THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR FUCKING YEARS AND YEARS AND YEARS.

FUCK YOU. I'M NOT TELLING YOU EVERYTHING.

FUCK YOU. I'M NOT TELLING YOU ANYYTHING.

It's pointless me even trying to say anything. That is why I have long since stopped. And then people wonder why I'm so 'silent' and don't talk to them and keep to myself yet I'm a very decent person, a very kind person,...a person slammed and imprisoned into this fucking hell......

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Let's just fucking well see what OTHER shit plays out in the NEWS shall we?

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There once was a 'season' for terrible shit...now it's at ANY time and ALL the time......

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I still have not won Lotto or anything, just as has been the case all my life despite trying.

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I love you dear Fliss and want to be with you. Dear Sam and dear Max want to be with you and us.

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Oh, and of course to top things off again.... shitty Tumblr is now fucking me around....

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