before listening to MAG170

after listening to MAG170

i have no shame

“I thought you might be lost..” 

Spoilers all the way up to 159. Guess who just cried.

“Look at me, Martin. Look at me and tell me what you see”

Jon taking Peter Lukas’s statement:

There are a lot of things about the "What do you see?" "I see you" exchange that are making me go absolutely feral, but one thing that I want to yell about is "What do you see?" and Jon's struggle with monsterhood.

Because he is struggling, that much is clear: am I a monster? Am I allowed to live if I need to hurt people to do so?

And this exchange takes place after Jon takes Peter Lukas' statement and kills him! He has done the thing that he's avoided doing to the point of starving himself because it supposedly makes him a monster, and it has made him powerful enough to kill using just his words!

Maybe I'm reading too much into it, but I think that when Jon asks Martin what he sees, it's not only a way to get him to see beyond the fog of Lonely. He is asking: Am I still me? Do you see me or a monster?

And Martin answers: I see you. I see you. Not the Archivist, not a monster, but Jonathan Sims, the man he loves and who loves him.

No, I'm not okay.

(mag 159) peter finally getting his rancid, rancid vibes checked 

this one goes out to @watchersclown 

the lonely rlly keeps getting owned by the power of gay love huh

steve rogers would be a Messy drunk

a very tired Geralt

wylan: let’s play 21 questions you start

jesper: uhh what’s your favorite color

wylan: triangle. are you into guys

@ inej

Any barrel boss or gang member: *is within 100 feet of Inej*

Kaz Brekker:

me: *reading Six of Crows* wow Inej's backstory sure is fucked up. I can't imagine anything as traumatising as that

me: *reaches the part with Kaz's backstory*

I just remembered that kaz bekker killed a man by throwing him off a bridge because he told kaz about how he was blackmailing a black sex worker into having sex with him free of cost regularly bc he knew that she was keeping the gifts her client was giving her instead of giving them to her pimp who would probably have burnt her to death if found out. And i really think thats one of the most underrated scenes in SOC

Like the description of that scene was fucking ICONIC - the fact that kaz was about to reel that man back up the bridge after getting the information he needed from him but changed his mind after he told kaz that he had information about one of the girls at the menagrie,how kaz visibly got the homicidal note in his voice after he heard the man saying that,the fact that it become even more dangerous when he confessed that he was blackmailing her into giving him free sex bc that girl knew that shed be killed by tante heleen if he ratted her out to tante, the fact that kaz even tried to TELL that man how shitty it was that he was basically holding her life over her head to pressurize her into having sex with him .How kaz slowly began to let that man’s legs slide through his grasp and said “Its terible isnt it?Knowing someone holds your life in his hands” and threw him off the bridge after he screamed “Shes just a working girl!! im a good man” bruhh that was fucking awesome i fucking LOVE kaz bekker

All my ladies who impulse buy to feel alive, make some noise!!!!