was i just not skinny enough for you?

you god damn bitch.

Why is it easier to hate the ones you love for leaving you, rather than being happy for them?

She is so much better off, but we were soulmates, i swear.

guess who's back. its getting bad again.

When am I thin enough?

All i want for Christmas is to be thinner 🌲

Repost repost repost again

starving again because i can’t look like this anymore

haha I’m so fucking pathetic man and recovery is just so confusing. 

Like I am eating and everyone is happy and glad that I am doing better but I have never ever felt worst and I know its going to backfire and I want it to backfire. I want them to see how stupid they were to think I could be fixed and so that they start worrying about me again. I am disgusting and sick, they need to see that again.

Not me thinking i was recovered for 2 weeks and well here i am!!!

I don’t know if it’s my body dysmorphia or i have actually put on so much weight in one week.

Lol!

starving again because i can’t look like this anymore

I binged 1000+ calories yesterday i need some sweetspo oh dear

I am getting back on track. Heavy restricting for the rest of the week

It’s okay to mess up I just need to correct myself.

I binged quite bad today.

Pretty sure I’ve lost the progress i made this week.

I have a weigh in soon at the doctors their going to think their treatment is working but I’m actually getting worst.

I miss when food did not take up every waking thought I had.

Sometimes i feel like I’m not sick enough and I’m just faking my ED.

Self control feels SO fucking good.

all i do is read and starve