Ana is back… I can feel her… planting her roots in the corner of my mind…

I’m not angry about it, in fact I think I’m welcoming her back like a long lost friend…

I was overweight and unhappy so now I’m losing weight and fast, people are congratulating me.

They’re asking how I’ve done it… I lie and say I’m just eating healthier… in reality, Ana is telling me to stand on the scales before every meal… I can go all day without food so I eat dinner with my fiancé to avoid questions…

I am a master and masking my not eating… No one is noticing… Or is it just that no one cares?

Really in need of a friend... I feel like my life is falling apart and I’m struggling... like really struggling with my mental health and my weight... I just want to die and start over!

Trying to get back on the wagon... I keep gaining weight all the time despite nothing changing... Don’t need to worry about people thinking I’m back with Ana cus I’m not thin enough! 😂 think I may have a problem with lactose as it makes me feel awful therefore I’m trying to cut that out and reduce carbs... anyone have tips on things to snack on when you really can’t hold out any longer?

No one is concerened about my eating disorder because I’m not underweight.

Anybody else?

Am I the only one who feels like they’re bad at having an eating disorder?

Dear me, I’m sorry I’m such a fuck up.

That "oh damn" moment when you realise you're the fat friend :')

Losing weight

So I joined slimming world to try and lose weight healthily after a few relapses and managed to lose 1lb this week... gutted but haven't been overly good and feel like I'm eating too much.... being told I can eat pretty much anything and I HAVE to eat is freaking me out... luckily I have some support from my auntie who is going with me and she's make me feel much better.... hopefully I can lose a lot more weight quicker! Smaller meal me thinks 🙈

Couldn't be more true today....

I want to be tiny for me. Not for someone else. I don’t want to feel gross when I look in the mirror anymore.

Ana (via lovely-like-ana)

No, I’m not ok. But I haven’t been ok since I was 11, maybe 12. I am still here though. I’m still breathing. For me, sometimes, that will have to be enough.

Clementine von Radics  (via wordsnquotes)

Ultimate goals!

Why am i always falling for the first fucking guy who gives me the littlest bit of attention?!!

Just wait...

Slender thighs that don’t even come near each other when you walk down the street in your baggy, size small sweater. Your hipbones showing through the denim of your size zero skinny jeans. Everyone stops and starts when you walk by, because you’re just that breathtaking. Just that ethereal. You could have that. If you just put. Down. The. Food.

From one side I want to stop, from another side I don’t want to lose control and be fat again.

Every. Fucking. Time.