My two obsessions, The Sims 4 and The Good Place - a thread:
Look, I went crazy, okay? Iām still not okay after the season 3 finale and this is how Iām coping. JUDGE ME.
Eleanor Simstrop #ArizonaTrashbag
Tahani Al-Simil (seen also in her off the rack separates ) #TahaniTime
The many looks of Michael, the ArchSimtect (okay that was a stretch) - featuring Michaelās depression hoodie, midlife crisis look, and librarian getup #BirthisaCurse #ExistenceIsAPrison
Jason Simdoza - including the backward hat + wedding tux and Jake Jortles disguise #OhDip
Good SimJanet. Bad SimJanet. Neutral SimJanet. *bing!* #NotARobot
And last but certainly not least Chidi Simagonye - his professorial look and āchili babiesā look #JeremyBearimyBaby
We have met before
in the pulse of the worldās creation
and we will again
colliding
creating galaxies.
The black holes of our wake
echo with our fractures
and leave bruises painted in the milky ways.
We say that it was worth it
- art loves a sacrifice.
So Iāll see you soon
in a thousand years
to do it all again.
But we will never catch each other.
Weāre destined to forge and break
and make room for new life
in whatās been broken.
do people that say shit likeĀ āooh nobody reads anymore, they only use their phones and computersā think that computers and phones can only display pictures and make soundsĀ
like do they think words canāt be displayed by computersĀ
I suppose thereās something to be said about looking for love in the wrong places. I know for a fact that I do it more often than I should, visiting the old habit the way a quitting smoker chews their nails out of desperation. It all gets gnawed down to the nub eventually - the nails and my sanity. Perhaps not my sanity but rather my will to trudge on in my treasure hunt. Lately I feel more like a scavenger than a treasure hunter. I take up clues like the rest but grab at things that are second best. What fools-gold could I trick myself into wearing today? Itās nothing more than a game, a childās play of dress-up and pretend. Today I will pretend that Iām not trying to find a way out of the shadow of someone elseās ghost and maybe if I pretend long enough fact will come from fiction. So yes, I often look for love in the worst places. Itās as foolish as walking through thorns with your bare feet and yet I donāt stop.
Iām not the only one who likes attention.
But maybe I should learn to safeguard my heart a little more and wear it on my sleeve just a little less.
But then again, I never really take my own advice.
In my sleep I dreamt it was day. You had lines by your eyes just like when you are awake.
You spoke and they were presents for me,
words wrapped in paper, knotted and tied up with string
and I remembered then how to breathe happily.
A stranger to my eyes but I knew you so well then.
You held your chin high like the little boys who insist that theyāre men.
And I suppose Iām playing along too
just a girl trying on her motherās shoes.
Lipstick on thatās far too bright
makes more sense in the night
on a girl who danced her way out of remembering who
she would be in the morning.
Somewhere between awake and asleep we fell in love beside a landless sea.
It was a thought that was worth keeping so I buried it with me.
And I remember it was so pretty; the water darker than the sky.Ā
You kept praying to be vaulted in and I never asked you why
but I think I knew
and saw through you
and I couldnāt help but wonder : Since when did our complacence become so natural?
Baby, itās in the way that you speak.
The contours of your mind were never so concrete
and I can see youāre trying more than usual to be something that is casual
but I can see your insides stirring and I think that it is true
that time may leave us jaded but Iām still so scared of you.
They plugged into my artery with a needle named āIVā
and there you saw how sick I was.
You saw all my rotting parts.
I asked the Clipboards and they said
āYour heart has grown all crookād.ā
I asked what went wrong and they just pointed,
pointed to the heavy callouses
that had grown.
I swallowed all the pills
that they said would make me well
but I still couldnāt feel anything
but the heaviness.
Day after day you held my hand
as the poison made its way
into all of my veins and trickled
through the broken capillaries that made
my eyes so dark and bruised.
A day came at last where there was nothing new,
nothing but eyes rubbed blind,
each day more blurry than the last.
Your seat beside me grew cold
but some nights I saw your silhouette.
Some nights it kept me company
but daylight always came
and when it did I was reminded
that one by one everyone left
giving me more callouses as souvenirs to keep.
āI used to think in private how I hated my name in your mouth. You said it the most when your eyebrows were furrowed. It sounded like gravel being blended with glass. Now Iād give anything just to hear you shout at me. Here, have the steel of my bones and the splits in my lips. - I just want to know that youāre thinking of me.ā
Youāre so maybe, just maybe
- a mere possibility or probability without ever touching yes or no.
Iām labeled the Beauty
- as long as itās convenient for you.
But Iāve run out of time to waste on maybes.
You canāt build a house on loose sand
- nothing will stand on a ground so soulless, so lacking in security.
Thereās only so little time you can spend dancing along boardwalks and getting drunk with carnival lights
reflecting in your eyes when thereās not a moon to hang above you.
There are only so many days you can spend looking at little branches onĀ bare winter trees
before you start to feel homesick and disposable
- as naked as the twigs and as easily broken.
Life happens without you.
Time is poignant and stuck upĀ
-it couldnāt care less for your ideas.
One day youāre grinninā sharp like Cheshireās wit
the next this little bonding thing turns into fights about tomorrow.
Youāre so maybe, only maybe
but I remember me
so I wonāt be home tonight when you return.
You might tell your friends I just left you
- but only the dead truly leave without warning.
Youāll say we had so much.
Youāll paint yourself as Victim who got his heart ripped out with talons
and see in the sky reasons to say āI am lost for words as I sit at the feet of this negligent God of mineā.
Let me tell you the truth because good news is always desperate for a more sickly, sad companion.
Youāre so maybe but Iām so sure
that your dramatics wonāt get you far
- just enough miles west of here to find another girl to thank you so much
for lessons on how to be someone else other than an open book
that you chose not to take off the shelf when the answers were underlined in red.
One last thing to share with you is an honest full confession:
The only reason I liked your closet door wide open was to look for all the skeletons that were long term tenants there.
Their bones were as dense as the teeth in your skull
that keep your truth shut in.
ā
-Gabriel Shane
I amā¦definitelyā¦maybe
There is safetyā¦solace in maybe
Maybe itās a false sense of security
Maybe canāt break my heart
I roam the nights with the moon on my mind
Kung fu grip on a bottle of bourbon
Shuffling daydreams like a playlist
Never stopping, in fear that my lungs will collapse
When I think of you with himā¦
I remember when you called me tomorrow
And you painted a future so bright, so vivid
That I started to believe it was me
I was the street
A canvas of black top and maybes
I had the demeanor of one hell-bent on survival
Until you stuck a rose in the barrel of my rifle
We bled through cracks in the pavement
Your tears painted my walls with a bitter sweet beauty
Iām not sure when all of your colors turned to red
But I wonāt paint over them
They are still beautiful
āIām not sure how much of me contains common sense but I know that Iām still learning and that sometimes I feel so goddamn human for being just gullible enough to think that someone putting their mouth on my skin is the same as love. And I know that it isnāt but it feels good for a minute to play pretend where the script gives me a life with you in it. I canāt help but think that your drunken laugh works on me as well as the booze in your blood. ā Second hand good times are my most familiar routine. So when you put your fingers on my neck I didnāt move or even think to. One manās grip is sometimes a manās pleasure and Iām addicted to attention.ā
ā jpeng || a little tired. a little strung out. // 342015 (via foxsaysjalyn)
āMom likes to say that on the day that we met it was like Iād been struck by a big bolt of lightning. I donāt really believe in ālove at first sightā but mothers know best. I mean, after all, Have you ever seen photos of lightning survivors? They get scars on their skin that branch open like trees. I read somewhere that sometimes theyāre called lightning flowers. I donāt know much else about the science of lightning. All I know is that with the bloom of those flowers the scars left from lightning stand as irrevocable proof of something that canāt ever be changed or undone.ā
ā (Maybe sheās right.) Boy, did you strike me. || jpeng 101214
āI donāt know anything about me except for crooked fingers wrapped around a wrinkled diary and another hand that wields red lipstick like a knife pressed to a neck. (I havenāt got it all figured out just yet.) Iād like to be your teeth and tongue, the words there in your mouth. Iād like to be that girl youād one day tell all your friends about: āItās some sort of ugly irony. She really did love flowers,ā. (Insert some thing about living and dying and changing every hour.) But along sidewalk cracks and grimy flings I still donāt believe in a single thing except that chewed down nails make me think of crying in my sleep. I saved a memory, (like a hard candy). Leave me under your tongue while you kiss someone else. I promise Iāll get home just fine by myself and you can move mountains with your PhD. Iāll cover my eyes. (I donāt want to see or hear about the day you realized I was blocking your view with my Whenās and my Whyās.) But Iāll be honest ā Iām breathing shallow from days breathing in too deep, the smell of your white t-shirts that are still left in my sheets. So Iāll stay up all night doing laundry until everything smells like only me. I guess my lips are splitting from talking too much. Iām losing my faith and losing my touch so I break my skin on prayer ā my fingertips my best friends. They kiss everything first that I kill in the end. I guess Iām a monster named Sweetheart but I was once scared of kissing and I took these pills like small candies when my mother went missing. But I remembered recently that park bench kisses donāt happen easily I hadnāt kissed anyone special that I liked or even liked me until you showed me bats one night in the summer and you said you were staring (but politely). āThis girlās dead on arrival.ā (Ambulances are too clinical.) In the end Iām just sorry for all those things that I said when I was falling asleep on my side of the bed. Is it wrong to like the smell of bleach as much as I like brushing my teeth? I just donāt like any of these dirty things. Iām scrubbing myself until Iām all clean. But nothing feels right. I still wonāt sleep at all tonight.ā
ā jpeng 81314 ||Ā "Do you think of me?āĀ I know you donāt: from the arch of my feet that hurt from pacing.
āYou notice things in your sleep like lose threads in the pillow case and numbers lost while counting sheep. And itās playing again and again, your echo on repeat ā [on a loop.] but we donāt speak (i donāt speak.) Itās nothing more than passing cups of tea in a house that smells floral and warm and sweet like orchids in windows and dry cleaned custom sheets marble floors on bare feet. Pretty girls always cry. Youāve been pretty your whole life -a pretty sister to books and asthma, a pretty little teenage wife. New York City misses you. You never call, you never write. Youāve made a home down in your kitchen with a cigarette for light. Press a bruise; Iāll feel it too ā same enemies and fights. Weāre the same. Did you forget? (Why canāt we be alright?)ā
ā jpeng 81014 || āwill you say something to me?ā (via foxsaysjalyn)
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