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Do you sometimes wish you could just fuck yourself up and never return?

Kind of a life update Thing

I Know I don't really Use this Blog much anymore But I like to sometime come on here and vent My feelings and I cant really Post this On facebook but venting helps <3 So My life Was going Okay for a little bit there at one point Then just things just started Spiraling out of control. I ended up In debt and got evicted from my old home had to quit my job ( it was shit tho it was the reason I was in debt they cut my shifts) Tho Life was looking good for a bit there I had a amazing girlfriend and good group of friends. Tho after I lost my home I had to move To Nelson bay, it is a tiny tourist town and there is nothing to do there and its 6hrs to the city on public transport :( After moving to the bay I sunk into a state of loneliness and depression and amongst it all I have started getting Gender dysphoria it has been quite rough. and at the same time My Girlfriend and I split up and I didnt take it well. We split up due to my not really Telling her about my crossdressing, feminine nature and some of my gender issues. I have been turning to drugs, alcohol and gambling but they have only been making my depression worst.  I then was silly On drugs one night and got caught by the Police and had to go through court, that should of been my wake up call but alas it wasnt. I was lucky with court I managed to get no conviction so I still have a clean record thank god. recently I have been on the Disacocitave drugs as they Make me feel happy about myself and I can forget about my body stress and gender Issues. Tho I had started to do them too often and last Night I took my largest dosage yet and when I was peaking my nan came home and found me and thought I was having a stroke and called the ambulance and that was Finally my wake up call. Last night She also caught me crossdressing and I never really wanted her to find out about that as She has always seemed quite homophobic, she was actully really cool about it and told me I can start dressing around the house wich is good. So i think its High time I start getting my ass into gear and Try and get myself Into a position where I an be happy again. I am going to See a GP tomorrow about getting a refferal to go see someone to sort out my Gender Identity issues. My EX and I became really close after we split up tho so we really grew as people in the time apart we want to Move in together in sydney now wich I am really Excited about as we aere 100% truthful with each other now and are so much closer and She said she will support me through any of my gender Issues <3 So I hope this is my Rock Bottom so I can start Crawlinf back Up to a higher level and can put my Life back on track to where I can be happy again :3 Thank you for who ever listens to my vent and rant feel free to chat to people I love you all <3 + how are you all?

I went For a walk Out the front of My house Here are some Nice photos from It <3

I went For a walk Out the front of My house Here are some Nice photos from It <3

Sitting On the bench Not far from mine <3

Out the front of My house <3 God it beautiful out there

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Posted by i5x

Ahh i'm on the verge of tears and I dont know why. :( why do you do this to me brain?

Imbolc Blessings. The land will soon awaken from its slumber

don’t lose your way! HEY! it’s a wonderful kind of day!