I am a villain of the moon and doomed

Sorry. I'm done.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

It's really amazing how somebody can do something to you and for the longest time you blame yourself because you know yourself more than anybody else does, so you know how bad you are and see yourself with subjective bias eyes, and then that person does the same thing to someone else--someone you look up to and regard highly--and you realize that you were wrong all along. You realize that it's not because you're just annoying and hard to handle, but that they just can't accept some shortcomings that most people can't fix on their own or even without professional help.

Never again will I allow myself to obsess over why someone doesn't like me and blame myself, no matter how great of a person they seem to be.

All I want in life is to be cute and loved. sobs forever

Oops it happened again.

fff my anxiety's getting worse again

Nothing feels real. It feels like a dream, but I know I won't wake up. It's just so... surreal feeling. I don't like it.

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore, and I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore.