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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 13 BTS

NOTE: This post details plot points from chapter thirteen of my fic, The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips. Please refrain from reading further if you'd like to avoid spoilers!

It's been a while, but this fic hasn't left my mind for a single moment.

So, I'm gonna be honest. I already wrote this post.

But the draft got deleted because, well, I don't know how tumblr works. Oops.

So, despite my immense frustration at the moment— I'm also excited!

This chapter has been in the works for a long time, and I could give you a million excuses as to why— but that's not what you're here for! So I'll get straight to it.

This chapter went through a lot of alterations in the weeks it took to write it. The closer I near to the eventual ending of this story, the more elements I have to keep my eye on.

This fic is odd. Not anything crazy, especially by fanfiction standards, but there's a lot of elements at play.

The bdsm club, the teacher-student relationship, the personal lives of both Annie and Mikasa— it's a lot to keep track of, and a lot to try and work to a satisfactory conclusion.

Now, although my original plan was to first show my outlines on my post about the fic's final chapter— I feel it has a place here.

Now, as you've probably noticed, the outline shown above is drastically different from the chapter you've (probably) already read. There's good reason for it.

The original outline I had was centered almost exclusively on Mikasa and Annie's argument from the beginning of the posted chapter/final draft.

As I began to actually write this chapter, I realized that the concept just... Wasn't right.

Annie and Mikasa arent people who draw out disagreements. They face them head on, in the moment. That's one of the many reasons they work so well together.

So, to have them deal with this issue over a prolonged period made zero sense with their characters. I scrapped it.

From that point on, I looked less at the outline for this chapter and more on the outline for the next one. As long as what I was writing led into and worked well with what was to come, I was happy! And I feel that I made the right choice in doing that. The chapter was far more enjoyable this way, and that's what I value most.

In the end, this chapter was mostly smut— with the occasional drop-ins of plot to set up the conclusion. I spent a lot of time trying to balance the two, and I think it worked well!

Overall, this chapter was crammed in the dead center of the falling action. Loose ends will be tied soon, but I've got to lay those loose ends down first. Although it was a lot of work, this is one of the chapters I enjoyed working on the most.

This chapter was long, and you deserve that— each and every one of my readers. I couldn't be more grateful to you all for continuing to motivate me and brighten my day by interacting with my work. It's a pleasure I don't think I'm quite ready to let go of.

I love Mikasa and Annie, they're one of my favorite Attack on Titan pairings. So being able to write this fic and have so many people read and enjoy it feels like an honor.

I'm thankful to each and every one of you for reading my story, and I hope you'll stick with me until the end. Thank you all so, so much— I'll see you in the next chapter!!

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 12 BTS

The smut has finally come. Holy crap!

This chapter was a hefty one, at almost 6.5k words— it's the longest chapter I've ever written!

I've been writing smut for years, but this is my first time posting wlw smut publicly. It was a bit nerve-wracking, to say the least.

This is a huge moment in the development of Annie and Mikasa's relationship, and I wanted to do their intimacy justice while also balancing their desperation.

As much as they want to keep their relationship tender and slow and romantic— they've been horny for each other for weeks! Fluff can come later after the initial excitement has had its way.

My outline for this chapter was long, probably one of my longest outlines to date. While part of it was because I was facing a writing funk and needed to rely on a guideline to get the chapter out, I also didn't want to completely mess up such an important part of the story.

The chapter was written in a lot of different places— my car, my bed, my bathtub— the revising process was a handful, suffice to say.

The past few weeks have been very hard on me. Personal matters have left me feeling less than capable of doing more than absolutely necessary— which left this fic sitting on the back burner for longer than I would've liked.

But any moment I got where I felt like I could /do/ something— I wrote! Not a lot, but I did what I could. The highlight of my birthday was curling up in my bed and screaming "WRITE, GODDAMMIT" before pouring over my phone and typing until my fingers cramped.

But in the end, I was really happy with how the chapter turned out.

A lot of the beginning of the chapter just came out of nowhere, as my outline focused more on the smut and less on the events leading up to the smut.

But getting to the actual smut, I was stuck with a pang of nervousness.

I've written smut for ages now, and in writing this chapter— I was terrified of cutting corners or not being as detailed as I could be. I was scared I'd get into a "psh, I've got this, whatever" mindset— and publishing a horribly written chapter.

So, I waited. And procrastinated. And I did it over and over until almost a month had passed.

All week, I've been hyping myself up to do this. I had a few days where my schedule was more free than normal, and I told myself that I was going to do this and do it right.

So today, I sat down in my bathtub. And I wrote the smut.

And then I sat in my living room, computer in hand, and revised for multiple hours.

My hands were shaking by the time I clicked "publish," as my nervousness and fear skyrocketed. I'm still nervous about how the chapter will be received, honestly.

But the chapter is up, and I'm proud of myself. Now I've got to wrap up this story in a way that I like— which is both exciting and scary at the same time.

I fell in love with this couple all over again while writing this chapter, and coming back to this fic always lifts my mood.

But now, I've got to get back to life. I stayed up much later than I should've to get this chapter up— and I've got school in the morning. This chapter was a rollercoaster to write, but I adore the way I ended it— and I hope you do as well!

If you've made it to the end of this nonsensical rambling, I love you so much. I promise my writing is far more cohesive than this, haha.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for supporting this fic, it means the world and more to me. See you next chapter!!

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie #mikannie fanfiction #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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venusoliver · 3 years

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 11 BTS

NOTE: This post will discuss plot points from Chapter 11 my Ao3 fanfiction, The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips. Please refrain from reading further if you'd like to avoid spoilers!

This chapter, if I'm not mistaken, is my longest chapter yet. Woah.

I've almost completely strayed from my original outline. Almost. For the past couple of chapters my outline didn't reasonate with the final result at all, but I think I'm starting to get back on track.

The BDSM chapters are always the most difficult. There's a lot of terminology that can come into play rather quickly, not to mention the struggle to keep things consistent and clear. (Where are Mikasa's hands? How do I describe that? How do I phrase this differently than the last three paragraphs I wrote? Okay, hold on, what's a synonym for—)

Long story short, it's a handful. But when I'm done writing the chapter, when I can finally delete "DRAFT" from the title of my chapter page, it's a feeling I don't feel to often.

I feel proud of myself. And that's an amazing thing :D

But along with BDSM chapters comes references!

Now, my original plan was to actually watch live BDSM performances online. I watched a very solid handful before I started writing this fic, and I learned quite a lot, but in the end..

I'm a procrastinator, okay?

My schoolwork was starting to pile up. I was failing multiple classes (I'm only failing one now, yay for me!), and what does my brain do when there's actual work to be done? Not that. Anything but that.

Now, writing my fic isn't work. I LOVE writing this fic. But typing out extensive cartography notes and typing out prolonged sexual tension can start to get grouped together, and before I knew it—

A week had passed since my last update. That's always when I start to get anxious.

So, instead of taking this slow and watching low-quality footage of shibari clubs in russia, it was just me— my brain— and a very aggressive google searching session.

In the end, I'm still very happy with how things went.

The issue arose initially when I just.. couldn't find the right references. I had the picture in my head of what was going on, but I still needed a picture to look at so that my descriptions wouldn't become to vague and absurd.

Let's start off easy, Mikasa's lingerie.

I had a lot of options when deciding what Mikasa should wear. Something risque, of course, but nothing too revealing. It was a tough decision, but I think this picture does my vision justice! Aside from the shoes. Mikasa is a little too powerful in heels like that.

The next order of business was getting references for the bondage rigging.

The spreader bar was easy. Legs spread, bar in the middle, you're good to go!

Next up was the harness. I had a couple of other options I was debating when deciding on what type of harness I wanted on Mikasa. I originally went with something more dainty, with thinner rope and smaller knots— but once I decided on suspension-esqe rigging near the end of the performance, it only made sense for the harness to be more secure.

As for the arms.. that was the most difficult part of this chapter. Finding a reference, writing it out— when I go back to make minor revisions on the fic (grammatical errors)— it's going to be very hard to stop myself from rewriting that portion of the chapter.

The sheer joy that raced through me when I found this image is unmatched. I had scoured the internet looking for a clean, clear reference for what I wanted. After rephrasing my google search multiple times (shibari arm rigging, arms behind head, arms behind head shibari, etc.)— and praying I wouldn't have to use a p 0rn screenshot as reference, I found this image.

This is precisely what I was going for with her arms. Mikasa is a very fit woman, and I don't doubt that she wouldn't have a problem getting her arms behind herself like this.

In my mind when I pictured Mikasa bent at the hip, legs spread wide, arms lifted upwards behind her— this is precisely the position I envisioned her arms in. I used that reference when describing the actual rigging for the arms as well.

But enough about all the k!nky stuff! This chapter was a lot more sentimental than originally planned.

I'm consistently at odds with myself when writing these chapters, trying to give them the smut I intended while also making their relationship believable.

I ship these two insanely hard, but their dynamic is a really tough one to pinpoint and make work.

They're both very cold and shut off from people in day to day life, so for their relationship to work— they need to be forced together, and they have to be in a situation where their stubbornness pulls them closer rather than pries them apart.

With all of that to keep in mind, bringing in some fluffy aspects is crucial. It makes their connection make more sense. After all, neither one of this girl's is doing random hookups. Not often, anyway.

The fluff ended up coming organically. Even if their performance this chapter was still just a performance and not an actual BDSM scene, aftercare still comes into play.

Hitch and Annie had a far different dynamic because they were friends. They were friends, and experienced in the BDSM scene. They're able to perform without getting emotionally invested— because they don't love each other romantically. There's not this same intimate connection.

As for Mikasa and Annie, it's completely different. Annie loves Mikasa to the point that she's risking quite a lot to keep the girl in her life. Mikasa is new to the scene, but she's enthralled by the idea of letting down her guard and letting someone else pull the reigns for once.

They compliment each other in an intimate, romantic, and s3xual way. The performance itself and the aftermath should reflect that.

So, it does! I found myself smiling quite a bit at the end of the chapter. I really do love these two.

The next chapter will include full fledged smut, thank goodness. I'm both nervous and excited to start writing the chapter. But, for now, I'm probably gonna get some rest.

Thank you all so much for your support. I wouldn't still be writing this fic if I didn't know that there were people out there who enjoyed my work. It makes me smile even when I'm struggling :) I hope to see you all again when I post the next chapter. Thanks so much!!

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie #mikannie fanfiction #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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venusoliver · 3 years

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips: Chapter 10 BTS

NOTE: this post will discuss plot points from Chapter 10 of my Ao3 Fic, The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips. Please refrain from reading further if you'd like to avoid any possible spoilers. Enjoy!

This chapter was difficult, to say the least.

Personal business has left me very little time to work on other things. Finals (I had finals last week and this week for some reason. Long story), trying to get onto a normal sleep schedule, and the like. Neither of those things are compatible with my "binge write at 1 AM for a few hours" habits.

I try to get a chapter out every week, but this time I was rather far from that deadline. Each extra day that ticked by made me feel more and more stressed about a chapter I hadn't even begun writing.

I had an outline, as always, but recently I've changed the course of the story dramatically. Which is fine, I've written/changed my plot outlines for each chapter to reflect those changes, but it's still a lot of new elements to think about and try to properly integrate.

There's two ways in which I've written the chapters for this fic.

Number 1: sit down and write the vast bulk of it in one sitting, usually late at night.

Pros: the chapter is cohesive, even in the first draft. The chapter usually goes up much faster.

Cons: My back will hurt immensely by the end of it. It requires a longer attention span, which I don't really have.

Number 2: Write it piece by piece whenever you get the chance over the span of a few days, and revise it in the evening. Due to constant procrastinating by yours truly, it'll end up posted late that night.

Pros: there's a lot more random, exciting elements involved. It can spur a lot of new ideas and genuine moments I wouldn't have thought of otherwise.

Cons: the consistency is lacking, which causes the revising portion of the writing to take a lot longer. Adding small paragraphs, rephrasing sentences constantly, it's a lot of work.

Notably, I wrote chapter 3 using the first method. I refused to get up and use the bathroom until I had that entire bondage performance typed out.

For chapter 10, well, I used option number two.

The outline and very beginning of the chapter was written in my bathtub. (I write quite often in my bath tub, it's a very relaxing experience!)

The bulk of it, however, was written during a free period for one of my classes— orchestral waltz music blasting in my ears to drown out the noise of the people around me.

Suffice to say, both methods are good methods. It just depends on the content of the chapter.

So far, I'm really happy with Chapter 10! I've gotten a few comments already on it, and I see a lot of surprised reactions as to the ending— when Hitch's plan is made clear to the reader.

That addition was in my most recent plot revision. No where in the past did I think I'd go in that direction— but I'm so, so happy I did.

When you introduce something in a story, it needs to have purpose and meaning. As my lovely, theatre-professor-parents like to say, "don't put a knife above the fireplace in act one if no one is going to get stabbed in act two."

Thus far, Hitch has pretty much only been a plot device. She's Annie's bondage partner, I threw in some back story, but I didn't have many plans for her after that.

But now, that's completely changed!

I was a bit stumped for a while on what direction I wanted to go after Annie and Mikasa's angsty separation.

But one night, while sitting outside in the freezing cold, I realized something.

BDSM never made an appearance again in my initial draft. My plan was to maybe throw in a light bondage scene between Annie and Mikasa whenever they finally get intimate with one another, but I didn't have a solid concept in place of the BDSM club really mattering much anymore.

But I saw it as a large element of the story.

So, again,

Don't put a knife above the fireplace in act one if no one is going to get stabbed in act two.

And that's where Hitch's plan was devised from. I couldn't be happier with how it turned out.

I hope my readers are enjoying the story thus far, and I hope that they liked the recent chapter!

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips, Chapter 9: BTS

NOTE: This post discusses plot points from my Ao3 Fic, The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips. If you don't want spoilers please refrain from reading further!

This is the first chapter where I've introduced any overlying angst elements. Its not something I love doing, but I also don't love making a bland fic. Conflict is important! And I did my best to introduce it properly this chapter.

It was difficult getting this chapter up, if only due to personal issues. I spent the past week writing a sentence here, a sentence there, a couple paragraphs before bed— which left a lot of revising in the final draft to make everything consistent.

Moreover, I've been reworking the plot outline of the fic thus far. The direction I wanted to go changed, and I may have to write more chapters than planned to accomplish said changes. It's a lot of work, but it's definitely worth it.

I'm so, so happy with how the fic has come out so far. And I hope my readers enjoy it as well!!

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie fanfiction #mikannie #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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venusoliver · 3 years

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 8 has been posted!

This chapter took a lot of work to get up and posted, as I was trying to manage writing and dealing with personal affairs, but now that it's up I feel incredibly proud of it :) go give the story a chance if you haven't already!

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie #mikannie fanfiction #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 7 BTS

NOTE: This will be discussing plot points and content from chapter 7 of my fanfic, "The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips". Please refrain from reading if you want to avoid content spoilers. Enjoy!

So. Chapter 7 was a wild ride.

Its been a rough week for me. Personal business and the like. And, although I didn't restrain myself by making any promises on an uploading schedule, I do my best to get out at least one chapter a week.

And, as of midnight— when I finally got around to really writing this chapter— it marked day seven since I last updated.

So I curled up on the floor of my bathtub, closed the other tabs on my phone, and went apeshit writing this thing.

Considering my progressive deterioration mentally in the past few weeks, I'm actually rather proud of how this chapter came out! I added Mikasa and Annie's minor interaction on a whim, but I think it added the bit of substance this chapter needed.

And, next chapter, all of the + friends of Mikannie + friends won't be making an appearance! Crazy, huh? I'm quite hyped to give Mikasa and Annie some due time together.

We're getting down to the nitty gritty, now. We're about halfway into this thing! I honestly didn't know if I'd make it to this point, and I'm quite proud of myself :)

These lesbians keep me going sometimes, and I love them to death. I can't wait to write more of them and their relationship. :D

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie fanfiction #mikannie #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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venusoliver · 4 years

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 6 BTS

NOTE: This post details plot points from my Ao3 Fic, "The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips". Please refrain from reading if you'd like to avoid content spoilers. Enjoy!

This chapter went through a lot. Like, a lot a lot.

I was at odds with myself in the way I was scheduling time to write and post. I never gave myself a posting schedule, since in the past that added anxiousness has left many fics abandoned and discontinued— and I found myself taking longer and longer to get up chapters. It was frustrating.

Normally when I write, I write one chapter ahead. If I have chapter 3 written, I wait until I've written my first draft of chapter 4 before doing final edits and posting chapter 3. It worked well until, oh, chapter 5 maybe?

I wanted to get something up and fast. But, when writing chapter 6, I found that there was just /so much/ I needed to write! I wasn't nearly done, and I had already hit 1.5k words. I usually have about 2k words per chapter.

So, going against my usual plan, I posted chapter 5 before chapter 6 had been completed. Yay, I got a chapter up! But oh shoot, now my entire plan has been thrown off.

Prior to chapter 6 I wrote most of my fic in a rather formal manner— on my computer, on my bed, soft jazz playing lowly from my TV.

The bulk of chapter 6 was written in my car, two guinea pigs sitting in a plastic tub in the seat beside me.

So, yeah, that's different.

But now that the plot is beginning to thicken, now that these useless lesbians are being a little less useless— I'm having a much easier time writing! I'm not grudging through exposition for 1k+ words. It's great.

I really, really wanted to create a connection between these two. My intention is to have at least a mild slow burn, and that's difficult for someone who usually writes heated, aggressive, impulsive smut. The change of pace is nice, but a damn hard challenge.

I felt really accomplished by the end of writing this— and I love the direction this story is going in! These two are incredibly compatible once you get past their thick skulls, and I hope I portrayed that well through some heated tension. Let's go lesbians, let's go!

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie #mikannie fanfiction #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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venusoliver · 4 years

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips, Chapter 5 has been posted!

Please check it out if you haven't already!

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie #mikannie fanfiction #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 4 BTS

NOTE: This post will be discussing the contents of CHAPTER FOUR for the Ao3 fanfic "The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips". Please refrain from reading further if you don't want spoilers!

Now, I've been eagerly awaiting this chapter. As much as I love a good slow burn, I can only write so much between two characters without them interacting before I just /have/ to give in. And now, I have!

Thus far, these two are still sort of at odds with each other. They're still working out their feelings toward one another— and future events will force them to continue to work things out. But, hey, you've gotta start somewhere!

The end of the chapter was a very spur of the moment decision. I found that the chapter was lacking the way it was initially, and I almost contemplated posting chapter 5 as well to try and make up for the less than 2k chapter.

But I've read my fair share of teacher x student fanfictions. If all goes awry, throw in a masturbation scene for some added smut content and to get your word count up!

And that's exactly what I did, and I actually really love how it turned out.

So, if you've read up to this point, thank you for sticking with me— and continue to tune into this account and my Ao3 account for future content!

#annie leonhardt #annie x mikasa #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #mikannie #mikannie fanfiction #mikasa ackerman #mikasa x annie

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venusoliver · 4 years

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The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips; Chapter 3 BTS

(NOTE: This post goes over the inspiration and challenges faced while writing chapter three of my Ao3 Fic, "The Taste of Sweet Silk on Your Lips". Go check it out if you haven't already!)

I've done my fair share of writing over the years, and writing BDSM and BDSM-esque scenes is no different. But I really wanted to do my best to immerse the readers in what was going on. From the attire to the performance, I tried my hardest to jam pack the chapter with enough detail to give good imagery— while also not muddying the story and over describing things. I think I achieved that with mild success.

If the name of the club wasn't enough of a clue in, one of my main inspirations for the BDSM side of this story was a graphic novel series called "Sunstone" by Stjepan Šejić. I highly recommend it to Absolutely Everyone.

The idea of having a BDSM club was taken from Sunstone, and Mistress A (Annie)'s outfit was taken from a bonus panel at the end of one of the volumes.

In particular, the corset, mask, and train in the back. It was much more difficult to describe the pieces than I ever could've anticipated.

I also had to reference how Ms. Dreyse (Hitch) would be tied up, since it's rather hard to describe in detail if I have only a vague idea of it in my mind.

This image was the BIGGEST HELP to me when trying to describe how Ms. Dreyse was being restrained. I went back to this image countless times, trying to put words down that could describe something like a bondage restraint.

The idea to suspend Ms. Dreyse came far later on. I was knee deep in writing when I realized that, hey, simply tying a few knots didn't seem like much of a 'performance'. Mistress A is supposed to be admired for her skills in terms of the BDSM performance scene, so there needed to be more. In keeping things platonic between Annie and Hitch, I couldn't go into a lot of directions that would've been otherwise possible. It was a welcomed challenge, and I think going with suspension was the right way to go.

In any case, I'm just proud of the chapter I put out. I'm unsure if it's my best work, but I put a lot of time into it. And, hey, it's my first chapter of this story to reach 3k+ words! Yay!

I hope anyone who's come across the story and decided to give it a chance stays tuned. I have a lot more to offer and many more chapters to put out. Thank you all so much!!

#mikannie fanfiction #mikasa x annie #annie x mikasa #mikannie #mikasa ackerman #annie leonhardt #ao3 update #aot fanfiction #mikasa aot #annie aot #attack on titan fanfiction #attack on titan #ao3 fanfic #ao3fic

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venusoliver · 4 years

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Hi everyone!! Us Mikannie shippers are pretty lacking in content, so I decided to do my part for the community ^^ I'm in the process of writing a Mikannie (and platonic Hitchannie) fanfiction, and I'd love your support ^^

The story follows Mikasa as she falls deeply for her college professor.

Her college professor, Annie Leonhart, who just so happens to have a side gig as a BDSM performer.

Two chapters are up, and I'd love for anyone who's interested to at least give it a chance :)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/27610579

#mikannie #mikasa ackerman #annie leonhardt #aot #aot fanfiction #mikannie fanfiction #attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #annie x mikasa #mikasa x annie #platonic hitch x annie #ao3 #archive of our own #ao3 update

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