I need to stop forgetting that not everyone who sees a knife, a box cutter, or scissors thinks of cutting

Not everyone who looks at a toilet or smells toilet water thinks of throwing up their latest meal

Not everyone who says “I cut myself” actually means they cut on purpose

Not every straight lined scar is self harm

Not every skinny person starves themselves

Not everybody is like me

Not everybody is fucked up.

Me going about my day normally

My brain: Damn, you should kill yourself

I want to look as sick as I feel. so they know it's real

im so tired but everything is so loud

yes i know the bmi system is bullshit. yes i need my bmi to be under 18 in next two months. we exist 🙄

guys i can feel it this month is gonna be ours

ppl who do ramadan because “it makes them skinner” is so fucking stupid, maybe its just my parents but they always make me eat so much i end up fucking gaining sm. i dont even need anymore food, this is like everday for me ?? skip breakfast, skip lunch, eat dinner at 8:00pm

well. in the last two weeks i’ve realized i’m not a lesbian, realized i’m very much gender queer and want to love a man as a man but a woman as a woman, fallen back into my eating disorder, gotten a tramp stamp, bought a quarter of weed, and broke things off with the guy who made me realize i like men because he’s still madly in love with his ex. oh and i started birth control again and got prescribed antidepressants.

life’s fucking fantastic

me continuing to google the same four foods because my brain is barely functional

I wonder what it's like being naturally skinny. How do people handle so much attention and care? I wonder if the world is easier to navigate when you're skinny, if the people are any less repulsive.

I deserve the pain I’m putting myself through...

i just don’t understand how i will cry because im fat and then go binge. how disgusting could a person possibly be?