im sick tho so not going up to visit family up north i feel bad but like blah im not feeling the vibe

in iowa it’s been ok i visited my friends grave i rly miss her :(

doing good so far back in my hometown. using just sounds miserable and extra i don’t wana do any of that

hi

almost off work then eating and on the road i go!!

getting over it

my septum fell out so i guess im not gona have one in at all for the next few days unless i get one shopping

SLOWLY learning to let go…

driving to iowa after work. this shall be interesting

do u ever just feel like ur literally going insane??

let’s have a good day :) one more day of work after today then i drive to des moines. im nervous it’ll be ok tho

i just feel so alone in this world. nobody knows how i feel and gets me. god i sound like im a 12 year old emo girl typing this. im serious tho i dont think anyone gets me and i hate it so much i wish i could just be numb. being sober is so difficult

i accept the fact i am obsessed and that i probably just want some of his qualities in my own life and i need to work on myself.

getting my stitch removed then im gona go take a nap im so exhausted its my new med i think

thinking of just going non-verbal for a while. whenever i rant to someone about my problems all they say is u need help. like im literally in therapy and on meds. im trying my best. im just gona be quiet i don’t wana bother anybody anymore

im so obsessive i hate it why am i like this it just ruins my whole day. please let these feelings go away!!

therapy went ok it was a little rough tho i hate talking about my trauma