!sh! I've had my fair share of struggles with self harm. No matter how much u try to recreate the feeling with ice and red food dye nothing really feels the same. The urges suck so bad u want to hurt yourself so bad but u know u shouldn't. True pain is having to watch your family and friends watch you struggle. Having to put on a hoodie in summer just because ur ashamed of your scars is hard. I've releapsed many times and that shit fucking hurts, having to lie to your parents and tell them you are clean even though u know its not true is really painfull. But I promise it gets better I know everyone says that but its honestly true please take care of yourself <3333 and im always here if u need to talk sending love :]