Tickling fake and real

Fake but real Warning: deep This is a long post / story and probably a serious one in a way, however I'll try to keep it as entertaining as possible. I just want to see what people think of this and these places are probably going to be the only response I will get from people who at least halfway understand me. I am a male in my 20s and I have had this fetish as far back as I can remember. To be honest with you it completely dominates my fantasies, its the only thing I've ever been aroused by. I've always had an obsession with tickling before it was even possible for me to find it sexual, I remember there was one cartoon that I used to play over and over again because it had a tickle scene in it, and that was one of my earliest memories, so obviously somthing in my mind was always attached to it. I am not ashamed of this fetish in fact I feel somewhat bad for people who don't have it because they don't know what they're missing IMO. However it has its dark side. When I was young and even in a way kind of now, I dispised the feeling of being a lee. Don't get me wrong it still arouses me tbh somtimes even more than lering but it can be extremely unpleasant at the same time and even as involuntary as the laugh response itself. Even though this may make me sound pathetic, it hurt me somehow internally, in my mind when this happened to me when I was young. (I have been mugged in my life to the point I had to go to the hospital , I have been through hard withdrawals, sure I'm not the biggest victim in the world but the point I'm trying to make is that I'm not a complete pussy either) I've been through my share of pain but that particular feeling stuck with me. Either way eventually I discovered tickle porn and not long after that I figured out how to masturbate. It was the best feeling in my life. It was literally like the gates of heaven opening. The first video I remember was just of a random woman loling while her feet were tickled. I remember it felt so good I did it again straight away. That day I changed internally it was like a lot of bad feelings just went away. Not all bad feelings but a lot of them. I only ever had one relationship andonly had one nights with two other females. All of that happened in the space of one year and it wasn't until years after I'd already discovered tickle videos. I tickled a few times during my relationship (she did to me as well) it didn't bother me though cos she was ticklish / acted as if she was if i tickled back and that made me feel ok. At the time though I didn't really fully understand women like I think I do today, and I've not been with a female since I I figured them out. Not because I dont like them, but because my life has become far to busy ATM to be dealing with men or women that I dont have to deal with. But my whole life I still had this feeling that there was something about women that didn't make sense. I had somthing of an inner feeling of paranoia and fear directed at women. I always had this feeling from an early age that the ticklish reaction from women was fake. The idea was not somthing I liked the thought of, my dream of being in a relationship had been being with a Lee. The idea of a woman faking or not being ticklish made me feel insecure because that means that she doesnt share my weaknesses and therefore wouldn't understand me. This depressed me at an early age when I thought these things because it made it seem like there is nothing to aim for in life, which is a pretty cynical view. It is just such a weird feeling and as far as I'm concerned its true. When I was in college I learned about eye movements and lying. You can tell if someone is lying by their eye movements. I decided to put this to the test with that question hoping that I could shake the feeling but it turns out that women really are faking being ticklish. Whenever I saw a female answer the question "are you ticklish?" if she answered yes her eyes would go in the lying direction and the truth direction if she said no. I think I noticed it by accident at first but I kept digging deeper until I was checking videos online of females answering that question. The eye movement always match up, too many times for it to be a coincidence. So after a long time it all starts making more and less sense at the same time. In a way this knowledge confirmed my fears but at the same time it evaporated them. It's like a huge weight off your shoulders to figure out the thing that your brain has been subconsciously saying your entire life but your conscious brain doesn't want to believe it at least not without proof. Then like I said I got proof. The truth is in the eyes and I found it. As much as this launched a string of depression in my life when I realised it, it ended eventually, and now even though women are not allperfect and a lot of them can do bad things as can a lot of men, I have to at least say that some of them I have developed a sense of empathy for and even respect, which some of them deserve in my opinion, because the fact that they're willing to laugh is in my opinion a sign that they've devolped respect or at least empathy for men. There is a difference between men and women when it comes to this fetish because women are by default of nature the natural dominants when it comes to this activity, however some of them have proven they have empathy and risen above it. Even though they cannot feel the mans pain when it comes to this, some of them still laugh, meaning that every time I have ever watched a mf or ff video, every time that a woman has lold at my touch in the past, it has been of her own will. Even if they do it for self gain a lot of the time e.g. money (in videos) it's still nice to know in my opinion that some of them are decent enough to actually be willing to be submissive and pretend to be ticklish even though they're not (I still respect / empathize with them and appreciate them if they do it for money, its fair exchange and they deserve money for laughing while being tickled on video, it still requires effort for them to take time out of their day to do it). I can't imagine how empty my life would have been if I'd never had the good times with tickle porn. I'd be a far more miserable person today if it wasn't for porn. At the same time I feel that women need to take value in the fact that this activity is somthing that requires exra sympathy for men, and personally I think i could tolerate being a Lee as long as I also get to ler when it's my turn even though I know its fake, it still feels good in my mind. In a way it makes it better , because it's like telling reality to go fuck itself. My fantasy was to be with a woman that shares my ticklishness, god has made women not ticklish, but some women still let me live out my fantasy by playing Lee / loling by choice and giving me the feeling of being a ler. In one way, when you get this knowledge you realize that no women are lees, but at the same time you realize that all women are lees, if you get what I'm saying, any of them can be a Lee if they want to be, they can consciously decide to be a lee. To the women out there that act in these videos, I am extremely greatful for these in ways I cannot possibly explain. I dont even think all men are ticklish, or at least some of them are barely ticklish, but I know from what I've figured out using science and even just the feeling in my head, that women are not ticklish without deliberarley laughing on a whole. This may seem depressing at first but the more you think about it the more you realize how much a female Lee is a person that doesn't really get credit for how cool she is. If it wasn't for these women, I'd have never seen a woman be ticklish in my entire life, but because of porn I've seen it no end of times. But not just because of porn , also because of the surprising good nature of what appears to be a lot of women. At the same time I feel its somewhat unfair that tickling isn't really addressed as potentially abusive a lot of the time and also it seems weird to me that why has a scientist not figured this out yet? This is Somthing that is unique to men with and its not even common knowledge that its only men that go through it. Even though I'm extremely greatful for all of the women lees (and when I say Lee I dont mean a woman that neccisarily acts ticklish all of the time, even if its just one time it still counts) I think that women still need to be sympathetic to some degree with men when it comes to tickling because they really dont know how bad it can be. If you're going to tickle a man I dont think its much to ask just to laugh if he tickles you back. It doesn't even matter if he knows you're laughing deliberately, if anything he'll just appreciate you more. Personally I think I'm done with relationships even though my experiences with women in the past have mostly not been negative, I'm just happy with porn and women dont throw themselves at me anyway and I CBA to out of my way to try to impress them. When it comes to the fake thing, yes women's ticklish reaction is fake, but that is what makes women so awesome, cos if it wasn't for them I wouldnt have all the good memories and experiences I've had of being a ler or watching porn with women tickling each other (f/f is always the best IMO) I dont know how many men or even women are aware of this I just find it strange that its not common knowledge? If you are a female reading this that is a lee, my message to you as a man is I really appreciate that there are women out their like you, but please take some sympathy in the fact that some men can find being tickled unpleasant and unless youve experienced being truly ticklish, then you really have no idea how bad it can be. if you lol if he tickles you back if you've already tickled him I think that stops most or all of the bad feelings at least for me. Anyone else had any similar experiences? I hope this helps anyone that is cofused about reality like I used to be. Peace.

Tickling fetish as a male

Fake but real Warning: deep This is a long post / story and probably a serious one in a way, however I'll try to keep it as entertaining aspossible. I just want to see what people think of this and these places are probably going to be the only response I will get from people who at least halfway understand me. I am a male in my 20s and I have had this fetish as far back as I can remember. To be honest with you it completely dominates my fantasies, its the only thing I've ever been aroused by. I've always had an obsession with tickling before it was even possible for me to find it sexual, I remember there was one cartoon that I used to play over and over again because it had a tickle scene in it, and that was one of my earliest memories, so obviously somthing in my mind was always attached to it. I am not ashamed of this fetish in fact I feel somewhat bad for people who don't have it because they don't know what they're missing IMO. However it has its dark side. When I was young and even in a way kind of now, I dispised the feeling of being a lee. Don't get me wrong it still arouses me tbh somtimes even more than lering but it can be extremely unpleasant at the same time and even as involuntary as the laugh response itself. Even though this may make me sound pathetic, it hurt me somehow internally, in my mind when this happened to me when I was young. (I have been mugged in my life to the point I had to go to the hospital , I have been through hard withdrawals, sure I'm not the biggest victim in the world but the point I'm trying to make is that I'm not a complete pussy either) I've been through my share of pain but that particular feeling stuck with me. Either way eventually I discovered tickle porn and not long after that I figured out how to masturbate. It was the best feeling in my life. It was literally like the gates of heaven opening. The first video I remember was just of a random woman loling while her feet were tickled. I remember it felt so good I did it again straight away. That day I changed internally it was like a lot of bad feelings just went away. Not all bad feelings but a lot of them. I only ever had one relationship andonly had one nights with two other females. All of that happened in the space of one year and it wasn't until years after I'd already discovered tickle videos. I tickled a few times during my relationship (she did to me as well) it didn't bother me though cos she was ticklish / acted as if she was if i tickled back and that made me feel ok. At the time though I didn't really fully understand women like I think I do today, and I've not been with a female since I I figured them out. Not because I dont like them, but because my life has become far to busy ATM to be dealing with men or women that I dont have to deal with. But my whole life I still had this feeling that there was something about women that didn't make sense. I had somthing of an inner feeling of paranoia and fear directed at women. I always had this feeling from an early age that the ticklish reaction from women was fake. The idea was not somthing I liked the thought of, my dream of being in a relationship had been being with a Lee. The idea of a woman faking or not being ticklish made me feel insecure because that means that she doesnt share my weaknesses and therefore wouldn't understand me. This depressed me at an early age when I thought these things because it made it seem like there is nothing to aim for in life, which is a pretty cynical view. It is just such a weird feeling and as far as I'm concerned its true. When I was in college I learned about eye movements and lying. You can tell if someone is lying by their eye movements. I decided to put this to the test with that question hoping that I could shake the feeling but it turns out that women really are faking being ticklish. Whenever I saw a female answer the question "are you ticklish?" if she answered yes her eyes would go in the lying direction and the truth direction if she said no. I think I noticed it by accident at first but I kept digging deeper until I was checking videos online of females answering that question. The eye movement always match up, too many times for it to be a coincidence. So after a long time it all starts making more and less sense at the same time. In a way this knowledge confirmed my fears but at the same time it evaporated them. It's like a huge weight off your shoulders to figure out the thing that your brain has been subconsciously saying your entire life but your conscious brain doesn't want to believe it at least not without proof. Then like I said I got proof. The truth is in the eyes and I found it. As much as this launched a string of depression in my life when I realised it, it ended eventually, and now even though women are not allperfect and a lot of them can do bad things as can a lot of men, I have to at least say that some of them I have developed a sense of empathy for and even respect, which some of them deserve in my opinion, because the fact that they're willing to laugh is in my opinion a sign that they've devolped respect or at least empathy for men. There is a difference between men and women when it comes to this fetish because women are by default of nature the natural dominants when it comes to this activity, however some of them have proven they have empathy and risen above it. Even though they cannot feel the mans pain when it comes to this, some of them still laugh, meaning that every time I have ever watched a mf or ff video, every time that a woman has lold at my touch in the past, it has been of her own will. Even if they do it for self gain a lot of the time e.g. money (in videos) it's still nice to know in my opinion that some of them are decent enough to actually be willing to be submissive and pretend to be ticklish even though they're not (I still respect / empathize with them and appreciate them if they do it for money, its fair exchange and they deserve money for laughing while being tickled on video, it still requires effort for them to take time out of their day to do it). I can't imagine how empty my life would have been if I'd never had the good times with tickle porn. I'd be a far more miserable person today if it wasn't for porn. At the same time I feel that women need to take value in the fact that this activity is somthing that requires exra sympathy for men, and personally I think i could tolerate being a Lee as long as I also get to ler when it's my turn even though I know its fake, it still feels good in my mind. In a way it makes it better , because it's like telling reality to go fuck itself. My fantasy was to be with a woman that shares my ticklishness, god has made women not ticklish, but some women still let me live out my fantasy by playing Lee / loling by choice and giving me the feeling of being a ler. In one way, when you get this knowledge you realize that no women are lees, but at the same time you realize that all women are lees, if you get what I'm saying, any of them can be a Lee if they want to be, they can consciously decide to be a lee. To the women out there that act in these videos, I am extremely greatful for these in ways I cannot possibly explain. I dont even think all men are ticklish, or at least some of them are barely ticklish, but I know from what I've figured out using science and even just the feeling in my head, that women are not ticklish without deliberarley laughing on a whole. This may seem depressing at first but the more you think about it the more you realize how much a female Lee is a person that doesn't really get credit for how cool she is. If it wasn't for these women, I'd have never seen a woman be ticklish in my entire life, but because of porn I've seen it no end of times. But not just because of porn , also because of the surprising good nature of what appears to be a lot of women. At the same time I feel its somewhat unfair that tickling isn't really addressed as potentially abusive a lot of the time and also it seems weird to me that why has a scientist not figured this out yet? This is Somthing that is unique to men with and its not even common knowledge that its only men that go through it. Even though I'm extremely greatful for all of the women lees (and when I say Lee I dont mean a woman that neccisarily acts ticklish all of the time, even if its just one time it still counts) I think that women still need to be sympathetic to some degree with men when it comes to tickling because they really dont know how bad it can be. If you're going to tickle a man I dont think its much to ask just to laugh if he tickles you back. It doesn't even matter if he knows you're laughing deliberately, if anything he'll just appreciate you more. Personally I think I'm done with relationships even though my experiences with women in the past have mostly not been negative, I'm just happy with porn and women dont throw themselves at me anyway and I CBA to out of my way to try to impress them. When it comes to the fake thing, yes women's ticklish reaction is fake, but that is what makes women so awesome, cos if it wasn't for them I wouldnt have all the good memories and experiences I've had of being a ler or watching porn with women tickling each other (f/f is always the best IMO) I dont know how many men or even women are aware of this I just find it strange that its not common knowledge? If you are a female reading this that is a lee, my message to you as a man is I really appreciate that there are women out their like you, but please take some sympathy in the fact that some men can find being tickled unpleasant and unless youve experienced being truly ticklish, then you really have no idea how bad it can be. if you lol if he tickles you back if you've already tickled him I think that stops most or all of the bad feelings at least for me. Anyone else had any similar experiences? I hope this helps anyone that is cofused about reality like I used to be. Peace.