I want you to know that I miss you an inordinate amount

My inner thoughts

All happy mornings resemble one another, as do all unhappy mornings, and that’s at the bottom of what makes them so deeply unhappy: the feeling that this unhappiness has happened before, that efforts to avoid it will at best reinforce it, and probably even exacerbate it, that the universe is, for whatever inconceivable, unnecessary, and unjust reason, conspiring against the innocent sequence of clothes, breakfast, teeth and egregious cowlicks, backpacks, shoes, jackets, goodbye

Here I Am.

It’s scary to find someone that makes you happy, you start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that’s going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but it’s scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go.

my deep thoughts

THEM ❤

YOU ARE OUR #1

So yeah… (taking a reallllllly deep breath) 

Im officially 13 23 now. 

Twenty f*ckin three. 

As you were wondering who was the luckiest toddler who just celebrated his/her 1st yo birthday, just bear with me.

It was me.

My beautiful hearted soul friends was being all cheesy (or just, they mastered the art of bullsh*t) and clarify it as I am their Number 1. Which of course, the feeling was ___________ ( fill in the blank with all the happy feelings).

It was a surprise birthday dinner celebration where I surely not really wanted to celebrate in the first place due to unstable emotions (ya knoww... the feeling when you know you are getting old and need to achieve all your goals while you are still young. Yeahhh… that type of feelings) 

Fortunately, my girlfriends has spoken me through which I end up agreed to go with the flow which I assume it would only be 3 of these beautiful soul ladies, Miss C and Miss T. But it turns out, there was 12 of ‘em!

LIKE 12 HUMANs with GENETIC LOTTERY were THERE TO CELEBRATE MY 23RD BIRTHDAY! 

I WAS SO LUCKY! like hell yeahhh 

Blessed. 

P/S: This was my first time I got a surprise birthday dinner as my birthday always falls during school/uni break which means, I always celebrate with my beloved family. Oh well! There’s always first time for everything isn’t it? *insert wink wink and finger gun emojis* Oh wait! Theres GIFs for that! 

Love, 

Heytashy

Nobody deserves a second chances. Nobody.

Heytashy

What if

I walk around trying to fix everything, but I am the one who is broken

Because when I was 13 years old, I was sent home for my tank top straps being a little too thin, but a boy could wear a Cool Story babe, Go Make Me A Sandwich shirt and not be looked at twice. Because when I was 17 and I told a guy “No” and the next day the word tease was painted on my locker. Because when I was 18 and just wanted to be friends, I was a bitch. Because I feel the need to say “I have a boyfriend” instead of “No” because guys respect other men more than they would ever respect me. Because society screams “don’t get raped” instead of “don’t rape” Because I am scared to walk alone at 10 PM Because being beautiful is the most important thing I’ll ever do. Because when I wear my favorite skirt “I’m asking for it” Because the song Blurred Lines exists Because no means no no matter how you fucking spin it Because a girl was drugged and raped with a beer bottle, and the boys who did it are out on bail. Because I owe you nothing Because pepper spray is a gift I receive yearly. Because I am asked if I have a boyfriend more than I am asked about my mental health Because my clothes say more about my consent then my mouth does. Because the wage gap exists Because “not all men are like that” is said way too often ENOUGH ARE Because I feel the need to say “I’m not a feminist but…” Because I’m writing this fucking piece

When you ask why I’m angry? (via brennanat)

The view is magnificent! And i am one of the mermaid *insert heart emoticon*

It was words that i fell for. In the end, it was words that broke my heart *insert broken heart emoticon*

Dust the day with the stunning show by Annah Stratton at New Zealand Fashion Week

The City of Sails

Can i be a full time traveler? AND! Get paid by doing so? If yes... Please hire me *puppy eyes* xxx

I need more white holidays ASAP.

Smile

A simple gesture between you and me.