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#samtompkins #youretheloveofmylife I will hold you Like I'm supposed to, and kiss you Like it's the last time, I need you This has to go right Any mountain I'll climb 'Cause you're the love of my life (at White Hart Lane) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDr4ZZJphUU/?igshid=ol18puordqbg

Hello... um... did you know... youretheloveofmylife

I still love you. 😔

I would want to say that I HOPE she makes you happy, butttt I was the one you were suppose to be with REGARDLESS if you said I made you happy or not. I’m not being selfish about your happiness at all, but couldn’t even focus on mine cause you were to focused on yours, even when I was feeling depressed and having my issues.. I was there for you. It was hardly EVER about me unless you’re having a good day and I didn’t “mess” anything up for you. So I’m aloud to be selfish. The thing is; you left and you know how bad that fucking would destroy a part of me I’ll never get back, and you did it anyway. It’ll always be in the back of my head wondering why you left me for someone else, break or together. Idc. We were still “together” “working shit out” and you betrayed every part of this relationship, and I don’t even know what’s true or a lie anymore. It honestly really sucks, now that we’re officially done cause you couldn’t simply be a good boyfriend.. always pushing me away. Hope you get what you always wanted and I’m sorry I couldn’t make you as happy as someone else can.

Anddd 4days since we broke up officially so someone else can make you happy and she can be the one for you. I’m sorry I couldn’t be everything you wanted. I’m sorry I wasn’t everything you dreamed of... you say how you “didn’t find the one” then why are you with her and NOT me. Why did you cheat on me? I just don’t get it. Wasted almost a year with you just to be alone lol. Idc WHY you did it, if it was just to get under my skin? Idc. You still fucking did it and no matter what happens, it’ll never be the same. That’s the lowest of all lowest you’ve ever DONE to me and this relationship.. other than all the name calling and shit blah blah blah. Rather you left me because you knew I wasn’t good for you?? Idgaf. You don’t cheat on somebody to get out of a relationship. Literally don’t care why, it was wrong. Promised me all this shit in the mean time hah. Now all I’m left with is the good and the bad memories, and the distrust in other people, worse than it was before. You don’t get it. You made me sick, throwing up because I was so stressed out over the situation and EVERYTHING you put me through. My nerves were shot and you STILL brought her to my house, idc if she was in the car or not. Fucking straight slap in the face. Bad enough it’s all I ever think about. All of the bad shit you’ve done to me. What I did or said. And I know I’m not the blame, you know it’s all I think about tho. Because if it wasn’t for you and your mess, we wouldn’t be here. You’d be with me. Knowing how good I was to you. None of this was just fucking worth it. I don’t do that temporary, childish, high school relationships. Once I’m in it I actually commit to it.. guess that’s what makes us REALLY different, not anything else. 😂😂😂

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And to my knowledge we broke up the 10th. Couldn’t be fucking honest so I wouldn’t know lmao. But that’s what I’m using.

Watercolor Brush lettered quote on iPad Pro using the Procreate App! Thankyou @lynnhavendesigns for your wonderful set of brushes made to achieve this lovely and realistic watercolor effect! First attempt at using them - Love the result! 😉 ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• #pauladolz #graphic #graphicdesign #handlettering #brushlettering #applepencil #watercolor #digitalart #quotes #love #lovequotes #mywork #youretheloveofmylife #ipad #ipadpro #ipadproart #procreate #procreateapp #artwork

i feel so shitty . breaking up while youre in love & theyre not is absolute torture.