SAW ask time 💚 wld love to hear abt chainshipping + Adam bein autistic— maybe like what Lar notices abt Adam’s stims, things he does for him/ways he helps when Adam needs it. Also for Eric/Adam, maybe any thoughts on Eric finally like.. realizing he’s got a special interest?? ik we’ve talked abt how hard he masks but bein around Adam (n Mallick) helps him relax abt that, so like maybe how does he react + what is th special interest? anything u wanna dish abt!

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!!! I was just thinkin abt tht!!! our minds 💫

I think th first time he rly sees Adam stimming (i.e. flapping his hands) he’d be like “what’s that?” but not in a rude way - genuinely a tone of “I want 2 know more abt this thing, pls tell me” rather than anything anywhere near condescending/annoyed/mean-spirited like Adam has dealt w fr YEARS at this point. so he’s definitely put on edge a lil bit bc he can’t help it, maybe he starts to like wind down and force himself into quiet hands, but Lawrence is immediately like “no I wasn’t making fun of you!! u don’t have to stop doing it!” which kinda stops Adam short like. what r we doing here. usually when ppl ask me tht they’re also telling me 2 stop. finally Lawrence says “I was just wondering what kind of stim tht was,” like he didn’t almost (accidentally) uproot Adam’s whole shit + is currently Doing So Now by using actual terms tht Adam didn’t know he knew, n so he like takes a moment to absorb tht comment n then he’s like. “oh. it means I’m happy or excited?” and honestly? when Lawrence hears tht? he’s like “oh... so then you’re rly happy? 🥺” n it’s just like. a moment fr both of them lol. (Adam feels Much safer discussing things after tht too, in several ways. it definitely helps w building trust between them!!)

after that though Lawrence definitely takes notice of more things! he’s not afraid 2 ask questions, so tht’s smth tht’s rly good fr them - Lawrence being able to seek information (he also does his own reading + research) to better understand, n not in tht shitty mommy blogger “I know yr in there somewhere” way. he doesn’t want 2 change Adam. he wants a better grasp on wht Adam’s experiences r like so he can help n minimize stress abt certain things. fr Adam tht’s definitely like.. foreign territory, bc as u’ve mentioned b4 + my personal hc as well, his parents didn’t really care 2 get him formally diagnosed + even acted like there was No Way he cld be neurodivergent in any sense, so 2 have some1 who is interested n respectful is So important 2 him. (personal hc time: I hc Adam as both adhd AND autistic like me so there’s tht!!)

so like he takes notice of th way Adam likes 2 roll things btwn his fingers (shirt sleeves, shirt hems, hoodie drawstrings, blankets, soft fabrics he likes the texture of, etc.) n is just like Oh Idea. I like 2 think he gets Adam one of those bead lanyards (like this one, which I also have!) fr him to fidget w n he kind of presents it like “I thought maybe u wld like smth like this?” n honestly he’s a lil nervous abt what Adam is going 2 say. but Adam takes it n holds it fr a minute, rolling th beads n messing w th lanyard itself 2 kind of test it, n he just looks up n smiles n he’s like “I love this. u’ve been paying tht much attention??” n fr Lawrence it’s just like “yes? of course? bc I love u?” like it’s th simplest thing in th world n Adam’s just. Huh. no he does Not tear up, if Lawrence told u tht he’s lying. he’s just Rly not used 2 ppl who want 2 know more without wanting to “get inside his head” or belittle him fr it (ties into my hc tht fr th most part, Adam hasn’t rly had any Good friends...) so it takes a lil getting used to.

another thing!! Lawrence does is ask 2 listen 2 Adam infodump abt his special interests - esp photography!! like they do this thing where if it’s not too late at night by th time Lawrence comes home frm work, Lawrence will take a quick shower n then get into his pajamas n into bed (just fr some quiet quality time b4 they go to bed, bc he still tends 2 come home a bit late), n he’ll have Adam sit next 2 him n he’ll be like “what do u want to tell me?” bc tht’s another thing tht Adam was entirely unused 2 - having ppl who didn’t just tolerate his infodumping, they wanted to hear it. Lawrence might be th first person to not actually give him shit fr it/tell him he’s being annoying/shut him down completely. again, it takes Adam a lil bit to b fully comfortable w it, but once he is he adores having tht time to be excited abt things w another person! who he knows Wants to listen!! (if we’re going th route I personally like 2 think abt sometimes too, where Lawrence is autistic as well, I feel like they infodump back n forth abt photography n medical stuff. do either of them rly know what the other is saying? not rly. are they listening happily bc that’s their partner n it’s smth they’re excited abt? oh absolutely!)

I think Adam has a tendency to eat a lot of th same foods bc they’re safe n he knows he likes them/doesn’t mind their texture (which is a big issue w trying new foods fr him), which is smth tht Lawrence also takes note of and as such, he likes 2 make sure they’re regularly stocked up on at least some of tht stuff. it’s not even smth he tells Adam he’s doing, bc it’s rly tht simple 2 him - Adam likes these things n therefore we shld have them at th house - but fr Adam it’s just One Of Those Things, y’know?? he got so much shit as a kid fr being such a “picky eater” n got shit fr it as a teenager too bc “why don’t u ever try anything new??” was smth his friends/parents Loved 2 say. it’s th fact tht Lawrence rolls w it so easily, doesn’t poke or prod for reasons he eats th way he does, and doesn’t get upset w him fr it/try 2 force him into things he isn’t comfortable w. it means a lot to him, more than he’ll ever have words 2 say (but he does always kiss Lawrence’s cheek when he gets back frm th store n he sees some of his same foods, which is just as good). it’s loving tht he’s autistic because it’s a part of him, a fact, not despite or in spite of. tht’s what’s so nice n kind of healing abt it; feeling safe 2 express yrself as u are w a partner who u know u can trust. who maybe words questions a bit funny sometimes, completely unintentionally, not out of malice (where allistic Lawrence is concerned, anyway). Adam feels Safe, n tht means a lot 2 him.

as fr ways he helps him!! a big thing is tht Lawrence is observant, esp as they spend more n more time together. a lot of th time, even when it’s just th two of them alone, Adam might have trouble maintaining eye contact fr an extended period of time, n Lawrence might not know how much it Actually helps, but he doesn’t mind tht Adam doesn’t always look at his face when they’re talking. it’s smth tht takes a little getting used 2, but he was never shitty about it w Adam. the way he sees it is if it makes Adam more comfortable, why shld he get upset abt it? it’s not like he doesn’t know when Adam’s talking 2 him anyway, or tht he can’t tell if Adam is listening; Lawrence knows both of those things, so Adam not making eye contact isn’t a problem, y’know? it’s okay. n I rly don’t know if Lawrence is fully aware of how much Adam appreciates tht.

another thing is he’s patient + understanding when Adam is nonverbal, whether it be bc he’s having a shutdown/meltdown, sensory overload, or just plain Difficulty w speech. it kinda depends on what I’m writing at th time, but I feel like Adam might have picked up at least a lil bit of sign language here n there; mostly simple phrases tht get th point across. I like 2 think Lawrence learns what they mean so he can take tht stress off of Adam’s shoulders, but most times, Adam is just comfortable sitting in silence w someone he cares abt.

OH brief thing Lawrence is RLY good at helping w pressure stims. he gives amazing bear hugs n I feel like he’d also probably let Adam lay on him if they’re on th couch/in bed. I just Feel It.

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OHH I think abt Eric finally developing a special interest now tht he feels more comfortable w doing so a lot. honestly I kind of rly like th idea tht his special interest might be info abt rats! it kind of hits him when he catches himself writing down lil facts (tht might not even be related to pet care!) in his notebook so he’ll remember them + always being excited 2 learn more n share what he’s learned. it makes Adam SO happy to see him being comfortable w tht aspect of himself, esp now that he’s safe to explore it w ppl who understand n who won’t discourage him/belittle him for it,, Mallick too of course, but Adam knows how much Eric struggled w tht kind of thing for such a long time so he’s just. Ah. 🥺🥺

like they’ll all b chilling on th couch (Eric, Mallick, n Adam) n Eric will have his head against Adam’s shoulder while his hand is on Mallick’s chest, who has HIS head in Eric’s lap w his legs dangling off th armrest, n he’ll be like “did u know tht when rats r happy, they grind their teeth together? it’s called bruxing n then sometimes their eyes move in their sockets rly fast while they’re doing it. tht’s called boggling.” n Adam will be smiling so wide when he says he didn’t know tht but it’s rly cool!! n then Mallick will start asking questions n he n Adam just listen while Eric infodumps fr probably th very first time since he was very very young, before it was masked out of him by his parents. n he finds tht he Doesn’t feel so bad abt it anymore, not when he’s around ppl who want him to be happy and want to see him be happy - esp ppl who encourage it n let him know it isn’t smth he has to hide/keep locked away. it’s hard 2 b ashamed of himself when Adam n Mallick r looking at him w genuine interest in their eyes n so so much love.

he might still like, slip back into masking behaviour every now n then, bc it’s something he’s still dealing w n learning 2 leave behind, but after he discovers his first special interest it gets a little easier, letting go of that way of life. it was smth he was forced into by adults who didn’t actually want th best for him like they said they did when they put him through “therapy,” but w partners he knows understand n who are even autistic themselves, Eric slowly learns 2 be more comfortable w it. it’s slow, but it’s progress. bit of a learning curve. he’ll get there.

whats your favorite thing(s) about woozi

the easy out answer would just be to say ??? everything ?? bc ?? its The Truth

but if im going to be sappy abt it im going to have to put it under keep reading bc this got lengthy i just have so much love for this one Man

1)his beautiful and contagious laughter? the way it starts out w a big toothy smile n then its all cute giggles, n covering his mouth w his hand?? and slapping whoever/whatever is closest?? or just clapping his hands like a dumb seal :( ??? every single time he laughs my heart grows like the grinch on christmas

2)his boopable nose, holy shit????? its so fucking cute n round n small n i wanna kiss it n just boop the fuck out of it until hes annoyed with me Lmao

3)his hair n his ability to pull of any and every colour possible ??? theres No Colour In This Universe that would not look good on his head n thats just a fact. plus sometimes his hair looks Extra fluffy (which? how seeing how much he dyes it) and i just wanna run my fingers thru it n have him talk abt his day or whatever.

4)his singing voice Obviously but also his talking voice. he has the most soothing talking voice every i could listen to him just read the whole lord of the rings series 20 times n not get tired of hearing him speak, its so nice and everytime he talks i get happy ? what kind of power

5)this wouldnt b a list abt loving woozi if i didnt mention his hatred for being cute or called cute lmao. first of all? hes the cutest person ever and every time he does aegyo my life gets 10 years added to it. and an extra 5+ is added on when he’s finished and he either a) yells abt how much he hates it b) covers his face and smiles in embarrassment ??? (+1 year if his tongue makes an appearance to lick over his lips as he Does when hes extremely embarrassed) or c) totally deflates and looks like hes 1 step away from throwing himself off a roof. a fucking man

6)wld i even be a True woozi stan if i didnt boast abt how fucking hard working and dedicated he is as a composer ??? like he literally puts his all into every single song and project that he does and they always come out so well n u can Hear His Heart In It!!!! he puts all his efforts in it just for us and to make sure the albums they’re putting out is the best it could possibly be - AND IT ALWAYS IS BTICJ ALWAYS, SEVENTEEN DONT KNOW SHIT SONGS THEY ONLY KNOW REVOLUTIONARY SONGS!!!

7)his personality ?? every single aspect of it?? and how jokingly mean he is to all the other members and hes always constantly teasing them. but hes also super caring ?? like he fuckcing cares so deeply for all the members (and carats tbh lol) and would probably do anything for any of them (especially jeonghan 👁👅👁) . he’s a peach n i love him so much

8)his lil butt need i say much more

9)his height. im literally 3 inches taller than him??? n thats so cute. i love how u can quickly spot him in a group picture simply because everyone fucking hovers over him?? Every Single Person. he is the smallest bean n i wanna tuck him in my pocket n take him everywhere with me.

10)and of course, to put it simply? every. single. thing. Nice

this is long thanks for letting me rant Lmao. i love woozi n theres probably (most likely) some Important things im missing but these r the basics of my love for him :(

i read lord of shadows bc i hate myself. spoils below

emma and julian r... the worst. julians worse than emma but like god. they’re both boring characters, their relationship is so boring, julians literally like. why is emma even interested im ngl like if someone implied to me theyd like. burn down the world for me id run. fuck that christ like sure he loves his sibs and her and stuff but this is too far. here’s to hoping it’s the parabatai curse and someone’s gonna have to be moved to fucking murder him next book bc he fucking loses it after livvy dies.

kieren/mark/cristina was good tho, if they arent actually headed for polyamory whats the point like

diana coming out was nice bc #rep but at the same time. she’d known gwyn like a few hours wtf ?? that scene was so awkward to read it was just five pages of diana infodumping her past onto someone shed basically just met like diana darling !!!! he cld fuck u over here !!!!!!!!! pls dont!!!!!!!!! u cldve just told him the basics like ppl dont usually come out like that ?? especially to ppl they dont know??? i was so ?? hey ho itll probs never b mentioned again so

the blackthorn kids rlly need fleshing out to me still ??? like one of my main complaints from LM was that the kids werent clear, like julians whole character is him loving these ppl and we know ty and thats abt it ??? the rest of them arent rlly given much like there’s tavvy (who i now have realised is not also ty... ty and tavvy r different characters apparently who knew), livvy and dru, and like. where’s their character??? one of them likes horror movies but i cant remember which one ?? livvy dies and im like “oh yeah... uh... that one... the ... the kid... wait she kissed kit at one point and i was like “ew” that one.” like ??? dru and tavvy r even less than her tbh idek what gender tavvys supposed to be ???? r they nonbinary or something bc i have no idea (i checked ok its he/him i totally realised dont @me)

i like kit and i thought his growing ease w the shadowhunters was written quite well

they’re all so fucking dumb tho like ??? there r so many examples but like /???? going to the shadow market the first time was dumb enough... and then they go AGAIN “thanks magnus for saving their asses” says no one

throwing in malec as an afterthought made me kinda mad like i love them but. why are they there. alec does nothing but hold the kids like why didnt he stay home w them???  magnus heals.... kit??? livvy??? at one point but thats like it i mean ?? did cc just put them in for fanservice probably

there were way too many ~~they couldnt help but kiss each other moments like mark/cristina and emma/julian and im just like. i dont fucking care this is so dumb move on its doing nothing for the plot we know they like each other akjfdhg

that bit............. with the riders............. when emma goes out to fight them and like. locks the door??? and then shes abt to die and the door opens and they all come charging thru... then theyre all abt to die and annabel appears... thats so fucking convenient i was literally laughing alkfsjdgh

i read it on my phone and added a note where cristina/emma was baited and we’re literally @17 points thanks cc. at least we got helen and aline back for one sentence yay representation

that bit where annabel murders malcolm is so fucking iconic i was cheering i was cheering when she was fuckn murdering everyone at the end kick off babe she tried and got fucked over and was like “fuck this” like mood me

i was so rooting for emma to kill her as well tho ??? and then some fucking smoke swoops in and stops her so emma doesnt have blood on her hands i guess

on the annabel note tho like cc has young readers................. and she puts in that scene where annabels like “bringing me back to life was so wrong of u i was so happy dead life is so gross being dead is so amazing” like fuck off kjadsfklgh ppl dont need to read that nd get ideas

that fucking scene where kieran and mark are kissing and cristinas watching and is like “well done” is so fucking gross and voyeuristic like the dynamic between the 3 of them wasnt established yet it came off as her just fetishizing these 2 dudes making out and it was so gross i hate it

is everyone saying their rlly emo abt this book because livvy dies???? like who cares?!?!??! she dies end of book the reactions of the blackthorns are written sure there’s alec staring at his dad but like. idk the writing didnt move me in that bit

so like. is everyone ignoring the julian/emma and malcolm/annabel parallels bc i wld pay to see emma fucking murder julian.............. @cc i have no money but