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#which i get! they shouldn't be doing that to patients unless they're 100% sure
wernerherzogs 2 years
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hiya kasia! have you gotten a treatment or anything since your diagnosis? sending love and strength, lovely 馃挆馃挆
sorry for only seeing this now D: SO lmao so things have got more complicated since then my friend
#i had another more accurate test for borreliosis done after that via western blot method and it turned out that the first one was either a#false positive or that i'd had it in the past but it's not active anymore or some shit??? idk if i understood that correctly#i'm supposed to consult the results with a doctor specialising in infectious diseases but i wanted to get my visit (that i'd been waiting#for for over a month bc the waiting list was that long) with a rheumatologist done first#that was supposed to happen on april 29th but LOL the doctor cancelled the visit a few days before#the first new available date was may 19th so i'm still waiting for that#but tl;dr nor i nor anyone else knows what's wrong with me still <3#good news is that now that it's been 2.5 months since it had begun it HAS got better#but 1. i'm not sure if the meds have helped at all or if it's just time's doing if that makes sense? bc on most days the meds seemed to#have little effect on pain#2. i'd like to have /any/ possible explanation at all thrown at me but no doctor has been willing to do that so far#which i get! they shouldn't be doing that to patients unless they're 100% sure#but it sure sucks not knowing what the hell is wrong with you lmao :')#anyway i might delete this so i hope you see it and thank you for asking 馃ぇ that's very sweet 馃挀#hope you're well my friend!#rn i'm on sick leave bc of a basic throat/nose/etc. infection#feeling better now tho back to work on monday for sure#anonymous#a response
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abeehiltz1159 2 years
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just some things about today's society that I hate and highly discourage
Racism. Races are determined from where you come from, and that can determine the color of your skin, which really is melanin, your body's built in sunblock. People from Africa are more likely to have darker skin than people from, say, the UK, simply because they are exposed to more direct sunlight. Racism makes no sense to me if at the bare minimum of it is just people hating other people because the amount of melanin in their skin varies.
Sexism. It should be okay for guys to be emotional and for girls to be strong. It shouldn't be a huge deal if a dude cries. It shouldn't be a huge deal if a girl is angry. It shouldn't be one sex over another. Your body, your choice.
Homophobia/transphobia. I've heard that, if you're gay/bi/pan/ace, there's something wrong with how extrogen/testosterone is made and distributed throughout your body, and that being trans/non-binary/pangender/bigender can be schizophrenic tendencies. Even if that's true, that means that homophobic/transphobic people would be hating on a very specific community simply because they could have DISORDERS. (I'm not homophobic/transphobic and I really hope you guys didn't take this that way--I'm an Ally.)
Ageism. I can understand some degrees of it, like not giving kids alcohol, but then again why give it to adults? Just because a person is younger than you doesn't mean they should be deprived of certain things that older people get to do. I say don't let people under 21 have alcohol, smoke, take drugs (unless they've been prescribed), have sex, look at porn, etc. I'd go as far as to say don't to any of these things in general unless you're having sex because you want kids.
Anti-adoption. Seriously. Those kids in orphanages need time outside, in the real world, and just by not taking some time to go talk to them is depriving them of it. And if you do adopt, don't care how old they are. Just pick the kid that fits your family most, but also make sure that they are comfortable around you. It may take time for them to completely warm up to you/your family, but it'll be better for them to have parental figures in their lives.
This one's a bit more complicated to talk about: abortion/birth control. In some ways, I don't support it, but in others, I don't mind. If you have a physical/financial issues that could prevent you from getting through a pregnancy safely, then yeah, you can get an abortion. The excuse "they're people too" doesn't quite make sense, since fetuses don't really have a state of mind and really can't form their own opinions yet. They aren't them yet. But, if you can have the kid, please do so. The death:birth ratio of today's world is very wack, and more people are dying than there are people being born.
Discrimination against DISABILITIES. If a person has a mental/physical issue, don't label them as unable to take care of themselves. Don't label them as strange or stupid. It's not their fault. If a person is missing a limb, it is fully possible for them to have been born without it or having lost it to sickness or accident. Personally, I don't like hospitals, but that's mainly because I'm trypanophobic (a fear of medical needles and blood). I'm not scared of the patients. Rather, I feel sad that they're in the hospital in the first place.
Some of you might hate me for this: vulgar language/activity. There are always better words to say and things to do. Our local high school baseball team? According to my older brother who was in the team for roughly a third of the season, the main thing the other boys would talk about was how much luck they'd had at getting laid. That's not exactly an accomplishment. My other older brother, who is in high school, got 100% innocent on an online test he took. One of his friends got 13%. THIRTEEN. My brother is a sophomore (or an 11th year for everyone who isn't American).
WE. ARE. TEENAGERS. THIS SHOULD NOT BE AFFECTING US AS MUCH AS IT DOES.
Please don't take this the wrong way. I have a general love for humanity as a whole, cause we're all people, no matter what. I'm just trying to get a message across that everyone deserves a chance to be themselves, and parts of the world are stopping us. This world should not be as dirty and painful as it is. We treasure little pockets of pure beauty and bliss because there's so little of it now. Personally, I want to go outside and frolic in a forest and smell flowers and make flower crowns with friends and family and just have a day of nature-filled happiness. (If there are any old forests you would recommend, please tell me. I'm DYING.)
I love you guys. Happy Pride month! 馃挅
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fractalsuggestions 2 years
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ok, so, this isn't the type of post i usually use this blog for, but i seriously think dpdr isnt talked about enough.
dpdr, dp/dr, or dpd stands for depersonalization-derealization disorder, a dissociative disorder where one experiences either continuous or persistent, repeated episodes of depersonalization and/or derealization.
depersonalization: a type of dissociation, disconnect from one's self or feeling as though one's self/identity isn't one's own
derealization: a type of dissociation, disconnect from one's surroundings that causes feeling as though oneself or one's surroundings aren't real
both of these can be scary as hell, especially if you don't know what it is. the wikipedia page for dpdr literally includes this statement:
Recognizing and diagnosing the condition may in itself have therapeutic benefits, many patients express their problems as baffling and unique to them, but are in fact: one, recognized and described by psychiatry; and two, those affected by it are not the only individuals to be affected from the condition.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization-derealization_disorder
This is something I can attest to with my own experiences! It was EXTREMELY DISTRESSING to depersonalize on and off for months before finally coming across the term 'depersonalization' and realizing, 'oh, that's what's happening to me.'
of course it still fucking sucks even knowing what's going on. when i'm depersonalizing (my dpdr is episodic and wayy more heavy on the depersonalization, though derealization does occur for me occasionally) it gets super hard to do things and talk to people. it's hard to even explain how and why because that's another thing! dpdr is so hard to explain. especially if you don't know there's a WORD for it!! which makes it even more isolating.
that's the thing about it. the isolation. that's why i'm making this post! for everyone who experiences this, and thinks they're the only one: you're not alone. listen, if you depersonalize, derealize, or both, and are scared, ashamed, or even don't mind but don't know what it is, listen: you're not alone.
i'm going to admit something here, because it's something i've never heard anyone else talk about, but i'm sure there's other people who deal with this. this is pretty embarrassing for me, but it shouldn't be! i can't control it and it sucks to experience. often when i'm depersonalizing, it's not just a vague 'away' from myself, but also 'towards' a fictional character. this is kind of hard to explain. i'll feel like i was, should be, or should have been, someone/something else, even knowing for certain it's just me.
tl;dr depersonalization-derealization disorder exists and isn't talked about enough, and if you have dpdr, you're not alone
(This user and this post supports self-diagnosis!)
(Please do not say 'this sounds like [x]' or try to argue with me about my own depersonalization. i promise, whatever possibility you're thinking of, I've already thoroughly considered it. i know my brain better than you do.)
(This post is ok for anyone to rb! Seriously, I want to spread the word)
QUICK EDIT: other ppl with dissociative disorders (especially dpdr) are 100% free to add on or correct me on any points here! unless you're arguing against self diagnosis in which case don't bother i will block you.
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