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hold-our-destiny · 5 years

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if you can't breathe...

two chapters in one day? I could never

this is a lil bit worse than than the last chapter but oh well. leave a comment if you liked it- it motivates me a lot. (the chapters are really short right now but im gunna try to make them longer as I go on)

read it on ao3 here

anyone who looked at tony could tell he was falling apart. Three days without peter and he was already a wreck. He hadn’t slept in 2 days for god’s sake. Rhodey had been trying to get him to eat for hours but tony always refuses. At the end of day 3 Tony’s sat at the same desk he had been sat at for 2 days straight, he opens the drawer to the right of him for the first time in a year. If the negotiator said he was already dead…

no, no he couldn’t be dead.

Tony’s already dialled the number before he realises it, the phone rings. What if peter’s already dead. They obviously used him to get to tony. They haven’t sent a ransom yet, everyone knows what that means. God no, peter couldn’t be-

“Tony?”

“Steve,” tony let out a breath

“are you okay? What’s wrong?”

“it’s the kid- Steve, He’s gone. We don’t know if He’s alive, it’s been daysSteve.”

The line went silent for a few seconds, tony hoped he didn’t hang up

“I’ll be there in 3 hours” Steve’s voice rang out before a beep as the call cut off.

Three hours, that shouldn’t be too hard. Tony could last three hours- surely. He could have a shower and eat something- god knows he needs it.

As promised, Steve was at the tower within 3 hours (2 hours and 49 minutes to be exact, not like tony was counting). Tony waited anxiously as the jet landed and the door opened. Steve practically ran towards him.

“Tony Tony, hey, what’s wrong?” Steve’s voice sounded oddly soft, it made tony relax for just a second.

“the kid, god Steve the kids gone” tony gasped, Steve looked at him in confusion, he obviously didn’t know who the kid was, they hadn’t met yet. God peter always wanted to meet captain America.

Steve pulled tony into a hug, tony looked over his shoulder to see Nat, Sam and Scott.

“come on why don’t we go sit down and you can explain all this to us?” tony nodded faintly and let Steve guide him inside.

Tony’s hands were warm from the coffee he was holding in his hands, Steve sat beside him and the others sat on the other seats.

“So, the kid,” tony flinched, he was only 15- is, he is 15,“He’s spider-man, he came with me to Germany. I gave him a suit so he could be safer protecting people. Before you say it- he was going to help people no matter what, I just gave him the means to do it safer. Over about a year, we spent a lot of time together,” he put his head in his hands “three days ago, he went missing. A few hours later, I got a video, he was tied to a chair with a fucking bag over his head Steve. No one thinks he’s still alive. But I know he’s alive- he’s got to be. Please, you’ve got to help me-“Steve put a hand on Tony’s shoulder.

“Tony, well help, why do you think we came? All the fighting stuff, its over now between us okay? Well find your kid tony,”

Tony looked up at Steve, he hoped his eyes gave off the ‘thank you’ he intended.

Nat and Sam stood up, they were both already. Familiar with the hallways, tony presumed they went down to the labs to look at the videos.

“I’ll go search the route he could’ve taken when he left here, can you text me it?” tony nodded and Steve head out, tony knew that Friday would’ve already texted him the route, he finally relaxed.

His eyes snapped open when he realised there was still Scott in the room with him.

“I know what it’s like, I have a kid too. I don’t know what I would do if she was taken away, but I know your kid wouldn’t want you to be like this. You’ve got to rest.” Scott stood up, “that’s why I’m here anyway, I’ve got to make sure you’re alright. Now go to your room and I’ll bring up some food in a minute.”

Tony nodded, still in shock from it all. He led himself up to his room, leaving his half full cup of coffee on the table on the way out.

He was asleep before his head hit the pillow.

“boss, the others told me to wake you.” Tony’s eyes opened slowly, adjusting to the light coming through the windows, so he slept through the night then. 4 days without peter.

“what did they need?” tony rasped out, taking a drink from his glass of water on the bedside table.

“a new video has been received, facial scans identify peter parker and anoth-“the AI’s voice was lost in Tony’s mind as he raced down the hallways.

He skidded to a stop in front of the others. They were all looking at the tv where a frozen image of peter was shown.

“play it fri” tony didn’t even know who said it, the video was playing already.

Peter was sat on a metal chair, his arms tied to the arm rests by metal restraints. He had a gag in his mouth. Tony noticed he was breathing heavily; his curls were messed up slightly. There was another thing-

He heard Nat gasp

“is that a fucking shock collar?”

Tony’s eyes darted to the boy’s neck, a chunky metal collar was put around it. The skin where the collar was set was blistering and red, angry marks littered his neck. Tony lifted a hand to cover his mouth. The metal around his hands and ankles were making bruises. Tony couldn’t tell how many times the kid had been hurt.

“so Mr Stark, you two are pretty close huh?” a man stepped out from behind the camera, he was wearing a neat tailored suit, slightly ruffled but still smart.

Peter said something muffled by the gag. He was glaring at the man, hatred in his eyes but tony could see through it and he knew the kidnapper could too. Peter was scared. Actually, he was terrified.

The man slowly stepped around the chair peter was tied to and looked into the camera. Without looking away, he lifted his hand slowly and put it in the kid’s curls. Without warning, he grabbed half of his curls and yanked his head back. Peter groaned, muffled by the gag, his head was swimming.

The man let go of his head and it lolled forwards, showing the effects of it. He then slowly undid the knot at the back of peters head, legging the gag fall onto his lap. He slowly looked up, eyes slightly softer than before- it was breaking Tony’s heart.

“Mr stark-“a sound echoed from the video, tony had to squeeze his eyes shut.

“you don’t talk to him, you only talk to me, understood?” peter nodded

“I saidunderstood?”the man repeated, something sparked in peters eyes, looking something like fear before his body started straining against the restraints, the collar lighting up. Peter started screaming, everyone in the room had to cover their ears, they couldn’t stand the noise.

The screaming stopped suddenly, and peter slumped forward as far as his body would let him, he was gasping.

“you only talk to me, understood?” the man said again, looming over peters body.

“yes- yes sir,” tony gasped

“good boy.”

The man looked back at the camera, smiling sickly. Tony saw peter raise his head from behind him, please no kid.

“They’re gunna kill you when they find you,”

The man turned back to look at the kid

“what did you say?” he snarled; peter had a flicker of emotion cross his eyes before glaring back.

“when they find you- and they will- they’re going to tear you to shreds” peter leaned forward, staring up at the man, who simply just turned back around.

“so Mr stark, you should hurry up really- clocks ticking and I don’t know how long this oneis going to survive with what I have planned for him” he leaned forward and turned the camera off.

Tony faintly heard a crash.

Then he was gone.

tagging the people who messaged me about the story (msg me if you wanna be tagged) :

@baloobird

@dreamingformuses

@just-the-daydreamer

@romeoandjulietyouwish

@agib-2002

#whump #irondad and spiderson #angst #maybe a happy ending in a couple chapters #this is really short #fic #chapter 2

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mattyslittleworld · 3 years

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dead mans coffee

July / 2020

Just woke up in my front seat, at a rest stop in Tennessee. First thing I saw was my ALL WILL SUFFER tattoo on my leg. A constant reminder of a different person. Tomorrow I’m getting coffee with Skrillex’s right hand man in Nashville, and I’m nursing a cold coffee in the heat watching this crazy lightning shoot across the skyline. It looks like the end of the world. Or some fucked up Lucero song. I must’ve pulled over for a second and closed my eyes and just dropped dead for hours while parked, I’m on the way to my hotel.

I am sitting in a diner on broadway in Nashville, TN. Nursing another shitty coffee booking meetings. As the texts come in I ignore them because they are covering the screen and distracting me from reading and studying how to properly sell my soul to the devil at the crossroads In Mississippi.

Clarksdale, Mississippi

12:30 am

Where Robert Johnson, Bob Dylan, and now, Matty Carlock, sold their souls to the devil.

December / 2020

Sitting in my home, in Hollywood, CA. I have the window open, and I hear the subtle sound of LA breathing, cars passing on the boulevard, sirens off in the distance, and a vinyl record of mine spinning at the lowest volume possible for me to still hear yet ignore it. I feel calm and at peace, although, it seems like a parallel feeling is war, confusion, imposter syndrome, abandonment, and skeptical. How could these two umbrellas of emotion coexist? Its very interesting. Ive been recording so much music that has nothing to do with my artist project. Its been liberating to put that aside for something greater. A new focus. Leaving artistry a vessel solely for extreme self expression and cathartic release.

July / 2020

Winding the day down, 10:30pm. With an open tab that reads “Tigers Jaw holiday show” - on pause. I open my Mac book on my couch, ready to go through stems and ratchet strip club beats, and it catches my eye. I press play and it leads me down a rabbit hole. I find myself watching “Never Saw It Coming” right into “Chemicals” / live in Boston. Like lightning it struck through my entire body. Maybe it was the 2 hour long conversation with Andy? And the memories we were trading. The bond we have over hard times, innocence, violence, literal blood on the pavement, years of freezing in the winter....nowhere to go. The people that were around - we made forever memories to these two songs. I right away, made a playlist that consists of “The Sun, I Saw Water, Chemicals, Never Saw It Coming, and Planes”. On top of that I found the live acoustic set they recorded and put out. When I was young on DIY tours, sleeping on floors, dirty as shit, poor as shit, a human being at the very best.....the uncertainty of my near future was so bleak. I remember Title Fight came out with their record “Shed” - and the song “where am I?” would lay me down on long drives, or on the floor. I’d watch white lines pass one by one by one into the abyss of nothing.

The line

“Another floor

A different ceiling than the night before

Where am I?

While you’re back home”

Missing my girlfriend at that current time, leaving, and just laying on a strangers floor thinking where am I while you’re back home? What am I doing? Maybe there’s nothing only this moment?

On the tigers jaw live EP they covered this acoustic and it’s everything right now. I am fortunate to live a block away from the sunset strip - and I grabbed my skateboard and just bolted into the night.

This SO SPECIFIC FEELING of these songs. That nobody in this environment will ever understand. It’s so beautiful. It’s so real. It’s so raw. It’s exactly what I need right now - as the past 3 weeks I’ve been living here have moved faster than the past 4 years. A loss of identity easily awaits you. It’s like you fight your whole life for that moment, to get to where you dream of, to get a shot. Scrape and crawl. And then reset. Since I’ve been living in Hollywood my day to day has been a huge mirror for me. The parts of myself I’ve been trying out run have caught me. Maybe all of this could coexist?

March 2nd / 2021

Spring is here. Its 75 degrees in LA and theres this new thing I noticed while driving around…..the overbearing smell of flowers in the air. It sounds like a movie. Its fucked up cause It felt like a funeral in my car. I was like what the fuck is happening? It smells like a small funeral in here….are my dreams dying? Am I dying? Is punk dead? Okay its just a Ryan gosling movie out here I guess. Whatever lets go. Here’s some hatrebreed. But the windows are down. My mood is different. My spirit is lifted, which ive been desperate to say. I automatically get punched in the guts with the feeling of driving so fucking fast, and blasting title fight. Skateboarding. Looooooooooong drives with fucked up friends to out of state shows no one will be at. Im listening to Stab by Title Fight - off the Shed LP. What a specific time in my life this brings back. That I usually talk about on this little throw up blog often. Spring is such a pivotal time in my life every year. Since covid shows stopped - human decency stopped - community stopped - my natural habitat was taken from me, and all of my friends and family. I remember living in New York in 2011. At the New Yorker. I was studying at the Institute Of Audio Research to be a janitor in my home town. Because that’s what they teach you. Instead of studying compression, and listening to washed up hacks talk to me about music, I would walk out my building onto 8th ave. B Line it Penn Station. Get on the LIRR and ride that shit right into the best LI shows every night I could. Id meet all my friends from Jersey / NYC / Philly and even Baltimore because it was so common to make it a priority to no matter what, drive hours on end to support a hardcore shows and to not lose touch with the hundreds around the country that you call family. Drive to Richmond for a shows on a Monday night, go off, hit a diner after with your new found tribe, then drive home, be back at 6 am, and just stumble into your bullshit job with a black eye or scratches all over you. It was all worth it. Probably quit that job anyway to go on tour with your friends band and live as gypsies for the entire summer too. Spring embodies this spirit for me. Church parking lots in Doylestown, PA - full of kids from all over the country, who left their problems in their hometown, to just get on the road with their best friends and basically start a new life. It is just amazing how formative those years were for a lot of my friends. I have people I met at shows from all over the country messaging me always checking in, and supporting, and sometimes it feels like I know them better than my first cousins, aunts and uncles. We were at war together. We fought against the world together. We found ourselves together. We created shit from nothing. Determination and passion. Oh no….Planes by Tigers Jaw just came on. You know the vibe. This shit just hits so different now as a pop / hip hop producer. This PA scene, mixed with NJHC, just stood me up and gave me confidence to have my own voice, my own thoughts, and to fight back. Something about being in a shitty car and it smells like dirty vans and like…..axe to cover up the smell. BELTING Basement and car moshing and almost driving off a bridge. Listen. I know every single blog is about this. But fuck you fight me. ITS CALLED SELF EXPRESSION GRANDMA. SO STRAP INTO YOUR BOOT THINGS AND ENJOY THE RIDE TO NOWHERE. Its been crazy living in LA. I live directly on Hollywood BLVD, on the Walk Of Fame. Where I was almost killed two weeks ago over someones gang that my ass is not in. My guy looked at me and said YO YOU MATTY? And I was listening to Taylor swift in my headphones walking back from Starbucks and it was so funny how different my energy was. I was like bro can you kill me already dude because these Taylor tones are so good that they gunna just end up killing me anyway. So perfect timing. I think the guy was mad at my friend to say the least lol. But every night its loud 808’s, the sounds of the city, amazing energy, and neon lights shining in from lit up billboards off the BLVD. Its such a culture shock for me. I feel like im too aggressive just from being east coast. But its just what it is. It took me a little to adapt to being in sessions and meetings with seasoned people in this industry who have major cuts and recognition. But I just learned to double down on myself, and be as authentic as I possibly can be. Theres nothing like crushing writing sessions in the pop realm, then turning off my shit, unplugging, and run into the night with my skateboard and old punk records. It’s almost like my own secret that is becoming my blood. I haven’t been communicating with the ones who like my music, have interest in what im doing, come to my shows etc - since I touched down here….I just unplugged….started writing HEAVY and decided to dedicate months to getting better, learning, becoming smarter, discovering a vision that’s much broader than what were sold, finding myself, making sure my wisdom is parallel to my age - if not wise beyond my years. A lot of artists and bands SING, PLAY, PERFORM, PROMOTE. But I have decided to WATCH, ATTEND, and LISTEN. Everynight I sit down with tea, unplug, and spin records on my turntable…in the dark, in my living room, alone….all kinds of records. From The National, to Springsteen, to Title Fight, to Hendrix, to the rare Troublemaker LP and 7” I have…..Sharon Van Etten, Jesse Malin…..ugh. Its just bliss. Pure bliss. Right now im drinking coffee and bouncing from listening to Into It Over It and American Football. I spent all last night rapping my ass off, mixing, and singing ref vocals for other people. It was so fun. Im finding a lot of my new material is this spirit im talking about - but over hip hop production. I want to tell my life story and combat the stereotypes of modern rap and pop music with true intentions and unique tones of untold stories that press, radio, and this market usually doesn’t get fed. Ive also realized a lot of music I was promoting over the past year to come out (prior to the pandemic) hasn’t come out….and I know people are questioning that….what is happening? So before covid I had German solo dates booked - and then I was going to the UK right after. I have a bunch of single drops lined up with music videos. Some you can guess with who. And then the pandemic hit and I canceled everything and decided to pivot my focus into my passion for songwriting and production, instead of sitting around “waiting for shows to come back.” I pretended that shows were never going to come back and doubled down on my career as a producer, that at the time, still is, moving forward at a faster rate than my artist shit. So I packed my shit after offers, and opportunity presented themselves. Touched down on a Tuesday, with meetings that Friday. Off to the races. In sessions that following Monday. Fast forward here we are. Hungry, learning, learnt, turned 30. Looking at the next decade like Mcgregor at the weigh in. Fight ready. Ive learned so much since the fall that all of the music I had planned on releasing, I loaded it back up, tore it apart, and re built it. So its not stale, so its not expired, so its not “then”….so its NOW. Which im so glad I did, and im doing. I don’t think ive been in the booth more. My mind is so stimulated by this wave im on. And its got me in a good place. Now that the spirit of spring is here, my mental health is going to be taking a big leap as well and im going to do everything I can to just flood all of this content. I think Never Meant by American Football is the best song ever made. Me and Mike were talking about doing a song together a few months ago and that would be such a trip for me.

I wanted to talk about my recent trip to Joshua Tree. I was invited by Christopher Thorn from Blind Melon to live at his studio for a few days to write together. I didn’t really know what to expect. I met him once or twice thru Clinch, and just around the Sea Hear Now circle back east, and I was familiar with No Rain (his hit). We got on the phone, picked a weekend where it’d work for both of us, got some covid tests, and boom. Packed my shit again (right off a flight back from New York, where I shot 3 music videos, and did 1 remote session in 2 fucking days), and drove out to the desert. There is no address so I had a map. It was epic. It was in the desert desert. Like THE DESERT FAM. Coyotes at night, snakes and shit. The air was so dry, your lips would get chapped to let you know death was right around the corner so you better man up baby boy. Beforehand - from all the traveling and flights, and burning myself out on videos and sessions, I found myself listening to a lot of acoustic Nebraska Springsteen type shit. John Moreland, or even like acoustic bayside, Lucero, Leonard Cohen, Tom Waits…..just pure music with no samples, not gridded, not sold, no machine, no click, just real live country music inspired by the human condition….of the earth. It was just speaking to my soul…..so when we booked this to get in the room together….man was I ready. I don’t think ive had an experience so fruitful to the soul. And ive played shows in Slovenia, and sipped espresso on a bridge that looked like a painting, staring at subtle mountain tops off in the distance like I was a character in some book. We started working at night and ran it up till like 3 am. As the sun came down the lights off in the distance miles and miles away were so clear because we were just the only life form around….and it would just shine into the studio windows and reflect on the perimeter making it seem like we were surrounded by New York City. It did a lot for my soul to play drums, acoustic, sing, play piano, shred electric, even mix a little. I felt like I made a very fast lifelong friend. Its been a minute since I got on with someone like that. We talked a lot about growing up touring. And wed finish each others sentences regarding topics that ONLY people like us would know. Like Subway being a life line for DIY touring, or the weird strange feelings of comfort from rest stops in the middle of nowhere at 4 am, the rest stop coffee that you get to just make the next 2 hours of the drive into town bearable. But then you see your boy from your band in the other aisle so you throw shit at him. Then you all stumble back into the van/bus and just disappear into the night. This shit was so needed for me. When Id wake up, id make espresso, and just sit out front and listen to Joe Rogan, at this random chair that was behind his studio, facing the mountains. Just endless property waiting to leave you 6 feet in the ground. I sat there and sipped my espresso, and just reflected on the long journey of my career. How many random moments like this ive found myself in since I was 15. In the middle of the desert where Springsteen hangs out with my heroes, off the strength of my songwriting. Or in Romania drinking coffee, fucked off, on a bench far from the venue, by random train lines in the pouring rain by myself. The farthest from humanity I can be. Or the random VFW hall in my head that I don’t even know where it is, with my little punk crew, who all smell like complete shit and cigarettes and soda, fucked off god knows where, just to finger point and sing along to this band we found on myspace that were in OUR hometown the weekend prior singing to our band. Theres just an endless string of memories that can go on forever, with stories that just fulfill a lifetime, of conversations that just make the white lines on I95 move faster. Or just everyone is quiet - reading a book - texting - exhausted from the night prior - and you just ABRUPTLY turn on teenage dream by Katy Perry SOOOO LOUD - take your shirt off and start dropping it like its hot from the passenger front seat, and catch a mid afternoon front flip stage dive into the backseat. From those youthful days of this underground spirit, to existing in a realm of pure monsters of my craft, I truly believe this next decade could co exist and be one for the books. Damn I feel good. Also me and Sasso started a book club called BSU and you can’t be in it because you probably read books and the only rule for our book club besides not speaking about book club is, you can’t read books. Okay im going to go buy a bike right now so I can ride It to Mexico and get abducted by the cartel and sold for bitcoin. FAREWELL EARTHLINGZ.

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go-redgirl · 5 years

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There Are Many, Many Dark Forces In The Democrats Thats Serving In Congress! They Have Tainted The Party Even Further To The Left Than Anyone Could Have Every Imagined. Pure Darkness Have Infurtrated The Democrats In Congress And Blinded Them From The ‘Pure’ Light’ Of Goodness. They Have Been Subduced By ‘Darkness’ That Themselves Must Eradicate!😇

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Anna Vatuwaliwali Anna Vatuwaliwali 17 hours ago These two had bad motives...im glad they weren't allowed into Israel.

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REPLY View 43 replies anthony esparsen anthony esparsen 19 hours ago oh yea yes he did no way do not allow isreal haters into your home to tear you down ok no way

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REPLY View 3 replies Cara M. Trump Cara M. Trump 16 hours ago When someone doesn't want you in their home...you don't get to go in their home. See how that works.

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REPLY View reply Steve ROGERS Steve ROGERS 17 hours ago GOOD JOB.... THEY ARE ANTI-AMERICAN AND ANTI-ISRAEL... HAVE NO PLACE IN THE WORLD ...

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REPLY View 8 replies Truth Seeker Truth Seeker 20 hours ago Israel keeps radicals out of its country 😃

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REPLY View 8 replies JZWALZ51 ROBIN JZWALZ51 ROBIN 16 hours ago The term "enemy of the state" applies to them, therefore Israel should not grant them entrance.

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REPLY View reply Mrs. Garcia Mrs. Garcia 18 hours ago They both claim that Israel is the #1 enemy publicly from a position of power then they're surprised when Israel denies them entry...only in America's 2019 I swear 🤦

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REPLY View 9 replies Humble Life Humble Life 17 hours ago Do not feed enemies Omar and Tlaib.

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REPLY View reply Lasno Haja Lasno Haja 16 hours ago Israeli govt. were just trying to protect them both from 'potential broken-neck accident' in hotel rooms if they entered israel.

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REPLY Elianna Warner Elianna Warner 15 hours ago Illhan Omar: says anti-Semitic things Israel: bans her Illhan Omar: surprised pikachu

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REPLY PLP PLP 17 hours ago Israel doesn't owe a duly elected member of Congress anything!

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REPLY View 3 replies juju bean juju bean 17 hours ago I want an interviewer to ask Omar what it was like when Israel's door hit her in the face

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REPLY View 12 replies fredc61 fredc61 17 hours ago The USA shouldn't allow people in, that are against our rights and freedoms, either.

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REPLY View 2 replies thelma lou thelma lou 17 hours ago Oh sure..they want an anti semetist in their country..Really omar

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REPLY hecke1959 hecke1959 19 hours ago They probably went there to say they support Hamas.

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REPLY View 9 replies jeanthree jeanthree 20 hours ago they got what they deserve

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REPLY C. Buck Hyres C. Buck Hyres 17 hours ago Israel did right by barring these two troublemakers from their country.

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REPLY View 3 replies andrew nunez andrew nunez 17 hours ago I can't wait till elections are here so they can get the hell out of Congress.

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REPLY View 5 replies R James R James 17 hours ago HAHAHAHAAA BANISHMENT OR EXECUTION!! NO THIRD OPTION.

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REPLY View reply antony reed antony reed 16 hours ago a strong reaction to another fire starter . god bless Israel

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REPLY ZIG ZAG Ground ZERO ZIG ZAG Ground ZERO 21 hours ago We STAND United Against the Anti Semitic SQUAD of CON's .

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REPLY View 13 replies Barry Smith Barry Smith 14 hours ago israel defends it's borders, and it's people. the two haters got a lesson in consequences for their hate speech.

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REPLY Jackie Young Jackie Young 19 hours ago Just remember ANYTHING from the news is only half truth or shown something that stops at a certain part to make it mean something different. We are NEVER told the truth from any news station.

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REPLY View 2 replies Jackie Young Jackie Young 19 hours ago I agree 100% with Israel. They should have gone with the rest of their group they may have been allowed in. I'd like to know why they didn't? Plus its odd that both stayed back but yet wanted to go together just the 2 of them. Make you wonder what they really had planned.

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REPLY View 24 replies drdecker1 drdecker1 19 hours ago It would of been like inviting Hitler into Jerusalem ! Great job Israel !!

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REPLY View 5 replies jon lao jon lao 14 hours ago GOOD DEECISION NOT TO ALLOW THEM ,, THEY WILL JUST WASTE OUR TAX PAY FUNDING THEIR TRIP..

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REPLY kc Cox kc Cox 17 hours ago Omar and Talib are anti-semetic. Why would they go to Israel other than to criticize and boast their boycott? Palestinians shoud oust Hamas and get busy building a nation.

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REPLY sinno core sinno core 19 hours ago Good job Israeli Prime Minister and We stand with Israel!

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REPLY View 14 replies DEAF CHIHUAHUA DEAF CHIHUAHUA 15 hours ago "YES YOU ANTI-SEMETIC BITCHES!!! You've been BANNED!!!!!

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REPLY View reply Gary Banks Gary Banks 19 hours ago I wouldn’t let them in either. They are nothing more then trouble makers.

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REPLY princess cooker princess cooker 17 hours ago The press are enemies of this country

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REPLY Dilip J Dilip J 17 hours ago good job Israel 🇮🇱 🇮🇱 🇮🇱 🇮🇱.. 👍👍👍👍👍👍 you done the right thing.. excellent

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REPLY View 3 replies Deborah Buhrman Deborah Buhrman 17 hours ago It figures Bernie would speak up for Omar, He is a GLADIIMERR WANNABEE! He will never see the day, not DOUBT he is probably a spy!

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REPLY View 5 replies Patrick McCarthy Patrick McCarthy 19 hours ago Ilhan and Talib are anti Semitic and should be ashamed of themselves. I am so glad Israel is deciding to keep them out.

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REPLY View 2 replies PART TIME PREPPERS PART TIME PREPPERS 11 hours ago Poor Omar..."some people" just did something to her!🤣

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REPLY Oz DE Oz DE 16 hours ago No major opponent... mmm... is she gunna run while doing time?

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REPLY marcus kervy marcus kervy 14 hours ago They should be banned from the United States as well. They must be voted out in 2020. Enough is enough.

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REPLY View 2 replies mario garcia mario garcia 17 hours ago KEEP OUT ALL EVILS 2 dogs of hell

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REPLY Teri Badeau Teri Badeau 18 hours ago This is their fault!! It was Israel’s decision! President Trump did NOT DECIDE THIS!!

These despicable woman have NO place in Congress! Omar committed immigration fraud! She married her brother! And tax fraud!! She better be investigated & thrown into jail! Then be deported!!

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REPLY View 6 replies JAG JAG 20 hours ago (edited) I think Israeli took an outstanding step to show how worthy you and your country are. Keeping these woman from stepping into your country protected your from disrespecting your country and people.

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REPLY View reply Adrienne Bowman Adrienne Bowman 14 hours ago SHE COULDN'T respond bc her people had to tell her what to say

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REPLY Shirley Lee Shirley Lee 17 hours ago I Love this lady's syrup Thanks Aunt Jemima!

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REPLY Paulus Rex Paulus Rex 15 hours ago Netanyahu should have allowed them in and then dropped them off in the

middle of Gaza without an escort....

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REPLY View reply Bmw EM Bmw EM 16 hours ago can they be banned from congress?

some idiots unknowingly voted for them,

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REPLY Blue Skies Blue Skies 6 hours ago Amy leader of any country can ban who they want regardless of who they are.

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REPLY Fr Louie Goad Fr Louie Goad 5 hours ago She Never had any desire to go, Only make a political issue of it. They love to keep their face in the news every day.

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REPLY Rk0788 k Rk0788 k 17 hours ago This is the best news of the day.

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REPLY john liao john liao 17 hours ago yeheey god bless Israel and america😊😊😊😊😊😁😁

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REPLY Virgil R Virgil R 16 hours ago Both of them should be banned for life... HOW BOUT THAT? 😂🤣😂🤣😂

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REPLY View reply Sue Rosser Sue Rosser 8 hours ago Thank you God for answering my prayers. We all need to pray for them to be silenced. I am.

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REPLY Alex Vouitsis Alex Vouitsis 10 hours ago Media 》Embrace Omar Commentary 》Embrace Israel. I'll go with the latter.

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REPLY rkt.smokey3 rkt.smokey3 16 hours ago Omar is a LYER and will NOT BE RE-ELECTED!!

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REPLY This is Grogirls This is Grogirls 14 hours ago Praise God!! Way to go Israel! Keep the dwvil at bay

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REPLY Russell Gay Russell Gay 6 hours ago So, "Some people did something" to her. She holds her chest out for Al Qaeda! Our ENEMIES!

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REPLY DuffnotFudd Willington DuffnotFudd Willington 5 hours ago 70 members of Congress have spent all of this week in Israel. Why didn't Omar travel with them??

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REPLY Petro Phishhed Petro Phishhed 13 hours ago Vile filth...DENIED!!! (Wayne’s World) 🤣👍🏽

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REPLY E de Montfort E de Montfort 18 hours ago Those nasty witches got exactly what they deserved; they actually deserve worse than being barred from Israel. They should be thrown out of Congress, however that is done, and charged with hate speech, sedition and connections with jihadists. Omar should also be charged with bigamy, immigration fraud and income tax evasion.

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REPLY Blessings福壽 Blessings福壽 16 hours ago What’s wrong with people in Minnesota!? Through Omar out of country! We don’t need her!

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REPLY rina perez rina perez 16 hours ago (edited) Haha haha It was so good both Omar and Tlaib was banned entering Israel. They will bring violence to Israel

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REPLY David Williamson David Williamson 20 hours ago THEY WANT TO BOYCOTT ISRAEL !!! SO ISRAEL IS BOYCOTTING THEM !!! GOOD JOB !!!! 😎😎😎😎😎😎😎

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REPLY View reply Mind Blowing Mind Blowing 17 hours ago They should thank president Trump for the re-election? Actually, we should all thank President Trump for revealing the corruption in these two womens.

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REPLY View 6 replies James Westhaver James Westhaver 19 hours ago The two congresswomen are anti-American and anti-Israel ... !

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REPLY View 10 replies Robert Hooks Robert Hooks 4 hours ago cry me a river! Welcome to the big LEAGUES! ACT LIKE A DOG .......TREATED LIKE A DOG! NO HARM NO FOUL . COMIC GOLD.

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Rans S Rans S 15 hours ago Excellent move Israel, these 2 gutter rats only had bad intent for their visit.

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REPLY Relativity1 Relativity1 12 hours ago I was hoping Israel would let them in, let them meet their hamas buddies then just blow them all up.

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REPLY Louie Montes de Oca Louie Montes de Oca 4 hours ago Outstanding Israel for not letting these radical extremists in😂👍

REPLY bruce creamer bruce creamer 21 hours ago U reap what u sow

REPLY Ronnie Bishop Ronnie Bishop 15 hours ago Omar will be placed in jail for IRS violations ,

REPLY Blankie Ruiz Blankie Ruiz 14 hours ago Both can fuc__ themselves and for hell, get out of our country worms

REPLY Josh Ington Josh Ington 19 hours ago Because some people did something

REPLY knessi ng knessi ng 20 hours ago Not surprised that Israel banned two anti-Semites, and who are working on boycotts on Israel, into their country.

REPLY View 2 replies alan schneider alan schneider 21 hours ago Israel is Smart keep them out nothing good about them.

REPLY View reply Lucky Luciano Lucky Luciano 3 minutes ago Hes right .Trump is a 100 % correct God Bless President Trump

REPLY TOMMY VIGIL TOMMY VIGIL 20 hours ago After Omar's tax and campaign fund fiasco, the only place that she is going to visit is a jail cell.

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REPLY View 23 replies s smswaff s smswaff 17 hours ago I barf when I hear Maher's voice.

REPLY Darlene Hanfmann Darlene Hanfmann 18 hours ago Love that the DS is getting shut down all over

REPLY Kyle Williams Kyle Williams 12 hours ago “If you are not careful the newspapers will have you hating those being oppressed while praising the oppressor”. - Malcolm x

REPLY Dead Mic Live Dead Mic Live 17 hours ago She isn't welcome in this country either!!!!

REPLY Pat Summers Pat Summers 4 hours ago we should have barred you from being a congresswoman

REPLY Honda Team Honda Team 5 hours ago Those two women need to get out our country. They are hate America and they should leave!

REPLY Baba Yaga Baba Yaga 20 hours ago Israel thank you!!!

REPLY Ben Ben 17 hours ago I thought the "My Pillow Guy" was running against Omar???

REPLY View 3 replies john hutcheson john hutcheson 2 hours ago Cry me a River "girl squad".

REPLY Its only me! Its only me! 4 hours ago Would Ben Shapiro be allowed to go to Iran.

REPLY EL EL 12 hours ago OMAR and TALIB are terrorist sympathizers! Good decision to keep them out of Israel!! They just wanted to incite violence! Shameful!🙏🏻🇺🇸

REPLY Allan Dickman 5 hours ago Israel have done the right thing these two are abusing their office and don't deserve a platform

REPLY Coffee Break 19 hours ago Wonder why no one runs against her? ………. Look deeper into 'The Squad" & you will be surprised !!

REPLY View 2 replies Dana Sleeper 15 hours ago Reap What You Sow!!! So Quit Whining!! You Two Earned This!!!

REPLY Anna Vatuwaliwali 17 hours ago GOOD...THANK YOU ISRAEL.

REPLY The Sprite Show 8 hours ago She was denied For her own safety. She would get stoned by radical orthodox people. Be glad you can’t enter dummy!🤷🏽‍♂️🤣😂🤣 Good job Israel.💪😉

REPLY stangmaster 2 7 hours ago Has this ever happened to any other country we are not at war with? First term congresspersons that admit they want to stir up tensions.

REPLY Tobacco Road 7 hours ago God Bless Israel. I completely agree with BB and the Israel government. They hate America too..They are nothing but ingrates. All of them are ingrates.

REPLY Dennis G 44 minutes ago Omar now finds out that there may be consequences for talking BS!

REPLY Summa Rhein 15 hours ago Go to hell Omar and Tlib , is I forgot you left thereto come here and try to destroy us!

REPLY boh7em 6 hours ago Obviously Israel doesn't adhere to the philosophy and teachings of Jesus. And Trump continues to spread his fear and hate for political gain.

REPLY Doc Holliday 6 hours ago Too bad we cant ban her and the other members of her "4 SISTERS OF THE APOCALYPSE" FROM THE UNITED STATES ........ USELESS TRASH AND A DISGRACE TO THE WORLD. CANT WE "IMPEACH" THEM ?!!

REPLY dosia1 boby 5 hours ago 20 000 Somali elect Omar -how she represent American people... she is not going because she realize that she have to pay for her ticket

REPLY Barb Mtylor 5 hours ago Omar and Tlaibs are sick unhinged animals.

REPLY D Loui 16 hours ago islam is not a peace religion .... you can't reason with them

REPLY Americus Patrioticus 15 hours ago Ilhan Omaar was banned from Israel because Ilhan Omar has been waging a nonstop war of words against Israel since she took office and before.

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2-10, 15-20, 26-29, 31-33, 37, 45-48, 51, 52, 59, 60, 63, 67-73, 81, 97, 99, 100

puttin under a read more cause it got long snksnksnskn

2. Favourite protagonist?

i’m gunna be real, i like playing as hajime a lot plus theres some moments where he’s being ridiculous and you’re powerless to stop it so you’re just there, face in your hands, losing your shit snickering.

3. Favourite antagonistic character?

points at my url gently...i know i’m an izuru kinnie but i think he has a lot of nuance espec cause he can fit an antagonist role while still being generally neutral on the havoc he wreaks

4. Favourite character?

i’m very bad at choosing but taka was my first fave and the first character i ever grew attached to that was ripped from me so i’m gonna say taka

5. Best girl?

hina, sakura, ibuki, peko, miu!!! i think my “type” is the girls who are either super stoic or super energetic pffft

6. Best boy?

i already talked abt taka earlier so kazuichi and leon are my beloved weenies

7. Favourite class trial from all the games?

the last class trial in the first game where you as makoto get to earn the title ultimate hope and the mastermind is finally revealed after the 20+ hours of grief and struggle you’ve just been put through and you get that satisfying ending of the mastermind paying for their crimes and everyone getting to go free is just...so good and so climactic i adore it

8. Least favourite character?

if i was in a room and my choices were to delete hifumi yamada from existence and die or survive while having hifumi yamada remain in this world i would choose to sacrifice myself

9. Least favourite class trial?

probably the second one in the first game, because it had all the things i was upset with. the way the genocide jack/jill and toko situation was handled was awful even with it taken in consideration that the game usually uses very trope-y characters, and the whooole thing with chihiro is uncomfortable for the entire trial, and then it all ends with an execution where if you think about it too much it makes your stomach whirl

10. What would be your Ultimate Title?

hmmm something like ultimate tarot card reader or ultimate divination/psychic maybe!!!

15. Your absolute OTP?

oh god i ship everything...i like komahina a lot though even tho i have another handful of ships for hajime

16. Your absolute BROTP?

fuyuhiko and nagito obviously

17. Do you have an OT3? Which one?

none that i can think of rn even tho i’m definitely open to a lot of them...i support gundham dating both sonia and kazuichi while sonia and kazuichi are best friends tho

18. Favourite rare ship?

i’m rly fond of fuyuhiko/nekomaru [hikomaru???] and kamuegi

19. Who do you think is an underrated character?

i feel like toko doesn’t get nearly enough love oh my gosh...i see her dismissed as an accessory to byakuya or “the girl w the serial killer” so often and it makes me so upset...also mukuro generally gets outright ignored even though there’s a lot to her

20. Who do you think is an overrated character?

i feel like i see a lot of stuff for mikan everywhere??? but i...don’t like her that much. her personality kinda feels like the same thing all the time, under the despair disease she feels like junko 2 electric boogaloo or tsumugi the squeakquel, and her execution was underwhelming. and she also killed ibuki, the best gal :(

26. Favourite execution?

oh god definitely leon’s. the first execution of the first game and it goes hard as hell. it’s one of the few if only times you see red blood in the game, he goes out kicking and screaming in a way that you have to feel sorry for him. it’s an unbelievable way to start off the game and really encapsulates all of the wild ride danganronpa is gonna put you in for.

27. Least favourite execution?

as i said before, mikan’s was...underwhelming. as the ultimate nurse who spent her life being a doormat only to kill out of love, there’s an amazing amount of executions and ideas that would have been full of nuance and really interesting but instead she just gets blasted into fucking orbit

28. Favourite unused execution?

oh god i love byakuya’s unused execution because it’s one of those executions that focuses less on the character’s talent and more on the character’s fear. when you realize what byakuya’s future could have been, pretty much complete estrangement from the family and having to build up everything on his own with the fear of poverty constantly looming.

plus the fact that he fights because he could have condemned his half-siblings to that fate only for he, himself, to lose in a killing game and die thinking he was a disgrace is so painful. not to mention the execution itself is a slow and painful death.

it’s so brutal, so focused on breaking every fear and effort of the character, that i think it’s one of those executions that would come to mind whenever you wanted a picture definition for “despair”.

29. Which character should survived in your opinion?

leon kuwata should have lived...he was talented but he was still a normal-ish boy who couldve kept everyone at their wits in the killing game by reminding them what was waiting for them out there. lots of others but i’ve been thinking of baseball husband lately

31. Is there a character you think who shouldn’t have survived but did?

i love yasuhiro that weed smoking boy but he was too dumb to live

32. Least favourite protagonist?

uhhh hmmm i like all of them but kaede had the least screentime so she’s a protagonist where her personality isn’t 100% crystal-clear so. i GUESS

33. Character with the best clothing?

i want chiaki’s hoodie and backpack and LOOK more than i want to breathe oxygen. junko also has a fucking aesthetic

37. Favourite minor character?

taichi fujisaki i guess??? programmer dad

45. Unpopular opinion?

i dunno what other people think of this because i haven’t heard anything about it, but the closing argument minigame was better in sdr1

46. Unpopular headcanon?

i think genocide jack/jill is nonbinary but i’ve never seen anybody else who has the same headcanon

47. A headcanon you have about a character?

one of my long-time headcanons is that makoto is trans...yeet

48. Favourite OST?

danganronpa 2 has bop after bop. miss monomi’s practice lesson? bop. all the execution themes? bops. ikoroshia and ekoroshia? bops. i am constantly jamming the fuck out in this game

51. Character you thought you were gonna dislike but loved in the end?

i thought i was always gonna hate hiyoko and yeah she does have flaws but i actually like her a lot more than i used to

52. Character you thought you would like but disliked in the end?

thought korekiyo was gonna be a cool dude who was a lil weird and emo but still fun. boy was i wrong. im stealing him from spiky chunky until they learn to stop it

59. Favourite moment?

again, the final trial in the first game is fucking amazing, but also the final trial in the second game with hajime and chiaki plus all the izuru stuff and all the messages there r just. good as hell aaah

60. Saddest moment?

all of chapter 2 in sdr2 was painful. mahiru, who was a force of good, dies, the trial is difficult, the twilight syndrome murder case is terrifying, hiyoko is mourning and you have to spit it right back in her face for awhile that she’s the prime suspect...

and then the only reward you get for finding the real killer is feeling guilty as the tears run and then your final reward is getting to watch as one of your friends dies while the other gets mortally injured and barely survives and then only a bit of gametime later attempts suicide in front of you. it is blow after blow w/o breaks

63. Describe Kyoko Kirigiri in 3 words!

lovely detective lady

67. Which character would you never want to meet in real life?

hifumi because i would be wearing an anime tshirt cause im a fucking weeb and then he’d be an incel while i suffered just trying to buy a lifetime supply of panda candy from hot topic

68. Which character would you like to meet in real life?

kazuichi cause he seems p chill and like the type of person you could just hang out with or have a chat with casually and not have to worry about first impressions and stuff like that

69. Choose one character which you would take with you on a trip.

70. Character you would have a sleepover with?

chiaki because we’re both super sleepy but we could also play a bunch of games together and then pass out together with a bunch of snacks

71. Character you can relate to?

sorry to be kinnie on main but izuru, i relate to that feeling of always excelling at everything you do and as a result being constantly bored, so whether what happens is good or bad doesn’t matter so long as it’s interesting

72. Character you can relate to but you dislike them?

kokichi, again being kinnie on main but while i relate i dislike it because it’s a reminder of my tendency to lie to others and to myself for any number of purposes

73. Character who deserved better?

[sniffles softly] taka. also keebo. toko too tbh

81. Could you be the Ultimate Lucky Student?

probably??? my luck varies from being unbelievably good and unbelievably bad so hey

97. Overrated ship which is your NOTP?

toko/byakuya for sure. i don’t like the it(tm)

99. Your absolute NOTP?

junko being shipped with anyone but especially with the sdr2 cast because it is gross. let the sdr2 cast do the right thing and get to pull a knife on junko instead

100. Opinion on all the Protagonists!

makoto: a boy who has a mouth and must scream. he’s not having a good time but hes trying his best

hajime: a good, refined boy. he knows how to say and spell big words like antidisestablishmentarianism, or however that goddamn word is spelled. the most paranoid boy

komaru: a good gal, a lil anxious but very strong and ready to kick ass. a funky little lesbian

toko: a blessed gal who needs more appreciation. her time as a protagonist is extremely gay, meaning she is also a funky little lesbian.

kaede: she doesn’t have much screen time but i appreciate her. she’s nice to people and confident whereas everyone else in this series is nervous

shuichi: nervous and emo, shuichi truly represents teenage america in the years 2007-2012, possibly 2013. i adore him

#text #ask meme #edchemist

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hayleeejaneee · 6 years

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Day one.

I think I'm gunna really start using this to express myself. I go through a lot I feel like and I don't talk about all of it bc I don't feel like anyone cares or that I'm bothering someone with my problems bc they could be going through something worse which they also might not wanna talk about out loud so I'm just gunna stick to trying to blog about all my problems like a baby, haha. :-)

(Also im not an English major so I don't quite know how to transition into another paragraph so you'll just have to work with me.)

I had a really rough day today. I bought, well adopted two tiny kittens a week ago from my local shelter and within the week that I had them they both died. But heres a little back story of the week we spent together. My cousin and I often go to the animal shelter bc I love animals and going to the shelter with an open mind and maybe adopting one helps with my depression. So we go in on Monday and go to the dogs and I bond with a couple but I took in consideration that I was moving in two weeks so I shouldn't get another big dog just yet so we go into the cat room. We see a lot of cats and kittens but I've never been a cat person except for a couple but then I see the tiniest kittens in a cage together. I just knew as I looked into the smallest ones eyes that they needed me. I didn't wanna just impulsively adopt two kittens if I couldn't take care of them so I left. I thought about it all day and night then I told my cousin to take me back to the shelter the next day and told them I wanted to adopt. The shelter told me they weren't much older than a month, they both were the size of my palm.

The next few days were cool, we had named the bot Jasper and his sister Jade. They got along with my dog and were overall just really good kittens, my roommate and cousin had given them baths and it was all fine. Until I came home on Saturday from my uncles to find Jade laid out in the box I was keeping them in, dead. I lost it. I called my cousin to come home then I froze. My roommate had heard me come home and came to say hi and I asked her to check if she was really dead and she said yes. I again, lost it. I cried so hard, I didn't know what to do or if I could even do anything, or if her dying was my fault. Was she not eating enough? After Jade died I didn't want anything to do with Jasper at first but then realized that he made me happy. So Sunday might we cuddled for 2 hours. Well he cuddle inside my neck bc he could fit and it was warm from my neck fat. Then I put him to bed so I could go to bed and that was the last good memory I have of him.

I woke up this morning to him laying out just like Jade was so I immediately picked him up and he was still alive so I went into mommy mode, I knew I couldn't let him die too. So I called my best friend, and told her he was dying too and I couldn't let that happen so I was taking him to someone that could save him. So as I rushed to put on clothes and get into the car and find a 24 hour animal hospital I just heard him faintly crying. It took what felt like hours to get to the animal hospital when in all reality it took 8 minutes. I walked in and broke down into tears and just asked them to save my baby. She immediately told me that he was extremely cold, which happens when someone dies. The very kind animal nurse tried to warm him as we waited for the doctor.

Dr. G comes in and I knew what she was gunna say but I just needed her to say it. They could do everything that they possibly could if I wanted but his heartbeat was already so faint that he was trying to die. She gave me my options that I could leave him their all night and they could get his temp up and do everything they could but there still no telling if it would work and that it was expensive. I told her it didn't matter about the money bc I knew he was suffering. When they told me that I could put him down something just told me that, that was the right thing to do, the humane thing to do for him. Dr. G told me that he most likely had something called Faded Kitten Syndrome and there was no way I could have known. As I told Dr. G that putting him down was what I was gunna do she hugged me and my roommate telling us that it was probably the best thing. She asked me if I wanted to be in the room with him as they did it, I kindly told them that I personally couldn't but my roommate would stay.

So in conclusion I lost two animals within two days and I'm sad, real sad. I feel like this might be the reason that my depression gets bad again, I feel it. I'm trying my hardest to stay afloat but its getting harder and harder and I feel like I'm drowning. I know that they were just cats and I didn't even have them for a week but that was all it took, them dying for me to slowly fall back into my old ways.

#blog

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