A Sunday 7

- I woke up choking on my anxiety at about 415. Its money related, and it's very real stuff that's getting more real by the minute. There's options, thankfully, but theres already fallout, and it's not good. I haven't had a late payment in so long that the let down is going to be huge when the first one happens. The good news is that I have another interview tomorrow; its a second interview, and it would be a good job for here and my career track. Plus, the CPKC interview went great on Friday; and while it doesn't start till February, there are other things I am going to make happen if I they keep me as a candidate. Fingers crossed yall, please... I hate feeling like I've done everything right and just failed every way otherwise. #capitalismisawful

2. If you are wondering, a rip track is a train track that is adjacent to a main line train track where work can be performed on rolling stock(train cars) that need repair. The number on the engine in the picture? 667, the neighbour of the beast. Coincidence? I don't know, but I thought it was funny.

3. Our Henry won 3rd place in the gingerbread house in the community building contest. He won 20 bucks and a cardboard house that had to migrate back to our house in the back of my VW. It might have been a win for him, but it was a loss for his playroom. #toomuchjunk

4. Speaking of Henry, prednisone for healing an upper respiratory infection turned him into a lunatic. 2 more pills till we get our somewhat normal child...hopefully.

5. I owe a few of you a note, but please be patient. This time next week I'll finally be done with my BS. Finally... then I'll be able to look at the moon like it was in that slightly odd picture or play my guitar a bit more like the pic in the bottom right.

6. And since everybody on here is doing their year wrapped on Spotify, mine was...well the same 5 bands I've been listening to forever. I figured there would be more Joan Baez in there, or maybe ZZ Ward, or even Mme Swift, but nope. I did get called an alchemist for my musical tastes, and my Canadian friends will appreciate that a town on lower Vancouver Island called Nanaimo(its a cool place) is most likely my musical tastes.

I mean... that says a lot.

7. I'm probably gonna bore yall with saying this, but thanks for all the good energy and love lately. Just reading your blogs has been helping me get out of this funk. And its a hard funk, with other things I can't talk about yet because I'm still trying to make sense of them but yall are helping me so much. Much love to all, and keep up the good work- you're killing it!

This sounds like a bad pickup line.

#TooMuchJunk

I got a million art projects....wait! I’ll buy another table!!! Ugh...haha. #toomuchjunk #painttheuniverse #spacetraveler #folkart #outsiderart https://www.instagram.com/p/B3QnLUagPii/?igshid=1rfohv0257gpg

#toomuchjunk #accessories #sewingaccessories #garmentaccessories https://www.instagram.com/p/BzQVqzeDu5o/?igshid=19vctd6hqxw1u

Loneliness really is nothing to sneeze at. Even when an individual is cynically misanthropic, most of us want to be around others and make friends. 20 years, お母さん has been alone and discards friends like a blackjack dealer discards used cards in a 6 deck shuffle. Hoarding is a problem, and what you’re seeing here is just a drop in the bucket. I’ve seen worse elsewhere, but we need to clear some space so I can work. Mission Control isn’t going to work in the living room because despite having a nice setup in the bedroom, routine’s routine and OCD turned out to be stronger than ALS. So I have to clear out one of these rooms to be able to do ANY kind of work. I don’t really get to play piano anymore either. Nah, the novelty wore off and the TV will just get turned up louder. #itsallgoodman #notsaulgoodman #lifeinshiga #shigajapan #hoarderstatus #hoardingnewthings #ocdshopping #newdowncoat #everyyearnewstuff #shoppingaddictions #shoppingaddictionisreal #toomuchstuffnotenoughspace #mariekondoneeded #lovemymotherinlawbutdamn #toomuchjunk #outofdateclothes #outofdatefood #frozenmeat #expired2005 #youaintseennothingyet #dropinthebucket (at Otsu, Shiga) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt28ZnolM0C/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=wid47qybscpx

Yesterday’s visit with @healthycaribbean The push-up competition was well received at #thecoleridgeandparryshool The students were awesome. @j.g.fitness @shantaprince @olivia_daisy #toomuchjunk https://www.instagram.com/p/BpWoe7Ll9xX/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ixeiu0pdorky

Hartcore SciFi movie night! ft. #arrivalmovie #toomuchjunk #mybrotheryelling 😊🙃 Mom n dad leave tomorrow to Houston to "the best cancer institute in america" for treatment and surgery. I don't want them to go. I want to do exactly this forever. This is how I wanna remember us. Not sorry I'm being a LITTLE DRAMATIC this is the worst time of my life so if you wanna hate, go ahead I guess but yr a fugly slut.

Decided

That calories definitely do not count when I'm on my period.

Trying to unpack. And well I just made a mess instead. #AlwaysMessy #TooMuchJunk #SomeoneIsGonnaKillMe #BreakTime

no matter how many times i clean out my room, i still have massive amounts of junk which takes my room! i need a bigger room :\