Your specialty I think is Atmosphere. The places and how they're described in your fics are so impeccably put together, you really Understand the Weight of a Setting. You can tweak words to make a room Comforting and Full Of Love or Vile and Repulsive or even Melancholic and Hopeless. It's not just the setting though, it all really adds to how you make your dialogue shine, the characters are Tangible and Flawed and so very much Themselves that you can't help but get sucked into what you're reading. Your Dialogue is Fantastic but mixed together with how you do Settings, it makes for the Most Bitchin Atmosphere I've ever enjoyed. The fic where Sun is left alone in the daycare for instance; how despite the room being the same temperature at all times it feels Cold and Sterile and makes you feel isolated and lonely as you read, how in your Christmas fic the atmosphere is warm and safe in a fort decorated with lights, a fake fire burning on the computer and cookies in the oven. How in your horror fanfics Moon and Eclipse feel unknown and frightening, because of how you can't see them clearly from the shadows, can't keep your eyes on them forever, or even seeing Too Much At Once and becoming rapidly aware that you're in danger from your hair raising as static screams at you from the TV Screen. Absolutely Incredible. So I think Armosphere is your Niche :)

Sorry for the long rant 👉👈

SORRY THIS TOOK ME EONS TO REPLY TO I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT TWENTY FOUR HOURS A DAY SEVEN DAYS A WEEK

hii i just read about the emdr thing i'm so sorry it was so tough and triggering. sending you sm love and a comforting hug.

this is how i imagine you to be rn, i'm tucking you in as in putting at least a sheet or a jacket smth to cover your tummy and whispering that it will get better, ly worm <33

awh hey ali! yeah i mean my therapist did tell me it would be A Lot, especially the first couple of sessions so i was expecting it at least! <3

but hey hopefully it will work!! <3

and thank you so so much beloved, i appreciate you so much forever and i hope you are well <333333333333333333333

Okay, now that I've had a chance to sit down and really read the first chapter:

I love it. Just as much as when I read it the first time. I'm so incredibly picky when it comes to written material, and other than a typo or two, your fic is just so coherent. The timing during the first two-thirds of it is amazing, even though it felt a little rushed at the end, I found myself reaching for the next chapter.

please write more, ill hang on every word <3

ps: I'm a sucker for southern Will Graham

(I wrote this like I'd write a restaurant review or something, what am I DOING)

(I can like, copy and paste all the typos for you so you can find them, if you want?)

THIS MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. THIS IS SO CLOSE TO MY HEART. Im holding this ask like it’s a letter from my beloved and I’ve been in prison wondering if they love me for three years. I AM KISSING THIS ASK (or kissing u it’s up to interpretation).

So the second chapter is WELL underway, there’s blood and a fight between Terrifying Hannibal and Feral Will. There’s also a theme emerging, which I hate to put into words and make too obvious. Naturally I’m drawing on more quotes from you, because you’re an artist and your work continues to flood me with a sense of awe.

(Concerning the typos, I’ll go find them, and thank you for letting me know!! YOU ARE SUCH AN ANGEL FOR HELPING ME EDITTTT) (I know ur busy so just the fact that you dedicated a space of time to first of all READ my crap and second of all ANALYZE it is so beautiful to me) (I did nothing to deserve this. I’m not worthy) (as for the end, I went for a bit of a sudden feeling, but not a rushed one. I think I need to work on the shock factor, I think it needs to be more of an Oh sweet lord moment for our boy southern will) (whom I need to put in the tags of the work. Because I KNOW we all simp for our boy Will being a country twink at one point in his past. It’s only human of us) (when he gets a little sunburned???? It brings out the blue in his eyes<333333333333333333333 in case anyone’s wondering<3333333333333)

yza beloved <3

HELPHSJDSKDSJSK manifesting for both of our agendas to become reality one day and also after gotsvt finish here i'm sending them to you 🤝🏽 we all deserve fun in this house (also to this day i have no idea about how that dispatch gyu, rowoon (and there was someone else too but i can't remember now 😭) photoshoot happened jdjssk remember hoshi and yugyeom together </3 in that main dancers dispatch vlive? and photoshoot)

also NAUR! i remember now i had this fuzzy yellow doll like idk what that animal was supposed to be helpp but bc of its yellow color it used to remind me of tweetie from looney toons, it also had its hands joint like you could pull them apart and make it clap but not too much. oh my god,, i don't think i would've ever remembered this again if not for you and those bears

OMG YESSS OFC 🥺 i would love to watch a movie with you <33 i will let you know details in dm later when both of us become more free than now djsjsk

i watched spirited away in the start of this week, it was so good thank you for recommending it to me! it all truly is about togetherness isn't it? be it human world or spirit world i liked how no face was portrayed, he wasn't doing anything until chihiro noticed his existence, once he got the taste of being noticed he wanted more of it but everyone else has always ignored him so he tried a different approach by giving them what they wanted. like he wasn't some bad guy he was just tired of existing with no one acknowledging him but then chihiro and others go to visit the other twin sister and she treats him the same way she treats her other guests in her house after that he didn't act up or something. i really liked that. i also loved chihiro's bravery and her friendship with haku it was so sweet :') one thing i don't understand is that why or how haku got roped into being yubaba's right-hand person? it was mentioned the river was destroyed and apartments were made on it so doesn't it make him an official spirit? it's a realm where spirits come to rest and enjoy after dwording so jdjsksl idk i keep thinking about this a little too hard

ALSO ! i was going to mention this the day vernon posted about spirited away but forgot,,, i think he's stalking our conversations 🤭

i'm manifesting restful and peaceful months for you bestie <3 also i remember last oct you had jeonghan and kuromi theme?? correct me if i'm wrong hdjsks but like this means we've been talking to each other for a year already?? where is time going hejsksksj

ofc i remember little details <3 i'm your friend so :3 sending good vibes your way as always <3 also feel free to take as much time as you need don't worry about replying late i'm not going anywhere <3

MA CHERIE <3333333333333

if gotsvt comes i hope it's not to soon i still gotta find work to get them soundcheck tickets lmfaOO 😭😭and ure absolutely right theyre dispatch thingies 😋

WAIT OH MY GOD THAT'S SO CUTE THAT U CAN MAKE HIM CLAP </3333333333 but tweety made me laugh lmfao all i can think of is his big head

LETS GAUR <333333333333333333333 IM EXCITED!!! i won't be free until after the 21st though uni's still threatening my life til then 😔

ALSO UR ANALYSIS,,,,,,,,, SO TRUE NOW IM SO SAD FOR HIM AGAIN 😭😭😭😭 ALSO NOOOOO ure not thinking abt it too hard, ure asking all the right questions to get the lore tbh <3 the way i understood it, haku's a "lost soul" given that the river was destroyed and he had no home to come back to anymore. bc of this he went to seek yubaba, asking to become her apprentice in order to learn magic, and like everyone who becomes her subordinate, his name got stolen. but even so, i also think (heavy on the think, i'm not sure if its canon) that bc he's unlike the people in the bath house world who still have homes to come back to, his name wasn't only forgotten bc yubaba stole it from him, he also started to forget his name because he didn't have a home anymore; so either way he'd still meet the same fate.

AND I KNOW <3333 also he's just like us fr lmfao <3

WAIT NO OH MY GOD??????? I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE????????????? i feel like i've known you since forever but also how did a WHOLE YEAR just pass us by in the blink of an eye 😭 thank u for sticking around ilyvm i truly mean it 🥺

hoping you also get some time off for urself!! sexy ppl deserve em 😋 LOV U AGAIN THANK U FOR ALWAYS BEING SO KIND 🥺🥺 MWAH URE MY BESTIE FR

🌶 WAIT IM SO SORRY I SAW YOUR POST IN MATH CLASS AND THERE WAS A POP QUIZ SKSJSK BUT ANYWAYS i'm really really glad we became friends on this hellsite and you mean so much to me !! ily so much fellow shortie (hah) and you only deserve the best in life that's a fact

PLS MELLU I LOVE U SM

I'd like to tell you to ''please don't' and continue but I get it and I know it's hard. Don't feel bad for thinking of giving up even with the notes because it happens to think that, it's not a linear process, there are gonna be high and lows. But the chart can end just with a long high or fall in a low and just stop there.

I shouldn't even say that I know how you feel because things are different from person to person but I know how tiring could be, with maybe positive sentences you're tired of hearing or alternatives or whatever you tried.

I don't even wanna tell you my experience because we're talking about you right now but I'm just gonna say at some point I was so sick of those positive sentences that the only thing that got me some hope was an old interview of mikey way. So I know they're annoying.

But another thing I'd like to tell you is that I thought and realized all the things I'd have never saw, all the songs I'd have never heard, all the people I'd have never met if the plan I had one day would have worked.

And I'm trying not to say things that could trigger in you more negative and bad thoughts but I'm not gonna say to do it for others or that people are gonna be sad because even tho it's true, it feels like shaming someone for not thinking about others when they're in a situation where they have to think about themselves and their good.

So I'm gonna say to do it for yourself. I'm not saying that 'oh!! How dare you not to be better for yourself" that is just stupid, no, I'm telling you to do it yourself because you're worth of living, breathing, smiling, seeing, hearing, walking and whatever verbs you wanna put in there.

And if you think "you're a random person, you don't know me, how you know i'm worth it" I don't need to personally know you to tell you this. You deserve the good things that happened and are gonna happen in your life. Because there are gonna be bad things but that doesn't mean there aren't gonna be good ones.

And I know it's cliché telling you to "think about the tattoo/piercing/something one day you're gonna get" or whatever.

But the low of now doesn't mean that the chart can go just more down and then stops. it can go lower but then higher. And then a little more higher, more lower again,super high, a little less, a little more. And as that line on the chart is gonna go up or down, the chart is gonna get colored of the new experiences you're gonna have. And maybe one day that chart is gonna have be of all the colors that exist.

And I don't wanna say more cliché things but you can do it. You're strong enough to do it, I believe in that. Don't feel bad for being in one of the lows rn. But please don't make it the last lows because you're gonna see other ones like this but you're worth it and deserve all the highs you're gonna have.

Sorry fo the long text, the probably bad grammar and the clichè things but you need them, they're like sugar in a cake, enough for the cake to stop being bitter but enough to make it enjoy it when you're gonna taste it.

You don't have to reply to this text if you don't want, I'm not gonna force you, do whatever you want, you can even tell me to fuck off, but please think of what I said. I just hope that you're gonna read this and that what I was tryna say is what is gonna arrive to you from reading this.

You're n amazing person.

:)

All i’m gonna say is that this is pushing me to keep going. i’m stronger now than i’ve been in a while. thank you so so so much smile anon. i really appreciate you and everyone else that’s given me those notes or sent me nice things like you.. <333333333333333333333

It's Love Your Writer Day! Thank you for all the meta! I really love reading them and hearing your thoughts about the characters and the chapters and I especially love your fanfictions even if you think that you rarely update, honestly I don't care if you take an entire decade to do so because I'm already blessed with the writings you've published and I'm really happy that you're sharing them with us. Thank you for existing, for joining this fandom and for making it a pleasant place to stay at!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! This means so much to me you have no idea. It makes me so happy to know you enjoy my meta and my fics