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kingofdandelions · 10 months

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Heavy, beuatiful bracelets

I have always had two bracelets on my wrists They are a bit heavy, and a bit sharp I think that’s how they’re supposed to be

My mom and dad also have bracelets Shiny, colorful, beautiful bracelets just like my own They don’t ever mention the bracelets being too sharp or heavy They seem to like the bracelets a lot

I think I’m supposed to like my bracelets

Even tho their weight makes my arms sore And their shiny edges dig into my wrists Not all the time though Probably not enough times to complain about

I tried taking off my bracelets one day I hid my arms in long sleeves and put the bracelets in my pockets Only for a minute tho I liked that minute

I took my bracelets off at when I hung out with my friends I don’t think anyone noticed Nobody asked why I didn’t want the bracelets on It was nice

I took my bracelets off at school I wore long sleeves that day

Would anybody care?

It took my bracelets off at school again Nobody cared

Why am I supposed to wear bracelets if I feel more happy without them? Why am I supposed to wear bracelets if I feel safer without them Why do I feel bad for taking them off, when they’ve hurt me so much?

Now I only wear the bracelets at home At home where everyone has bracelets At home where I realize how much my hands hurt At home where I wish the bracelets never existed in the first place At home where I’m supposed to feel home

I threw my bracelets in the trash today Now I can see two red scars that I never noticed before

I think they’ll heal

#OHHH BOI #im poetrying my best #i might have made myself cry while writing this or i was crying and then started writing this #either way crying #anyways have a poem based on religious trauma #or maybe not trauma #cus i don't think the stuff i've gone through is that serios #maybe im wrong tho and im just too used to it to know #who knows #i guess you could aply the poem to other things than religious trauma too so thats nice #this is my uhhhhhh 5th attempt on poetry i think #and i think it turned out well #yeah i think its a neat piece of writitng #im allowed to compliment myself and so are you :D #wrote this and then started rereading hfwu cus i wanted to angst a bit about transphobic family and religius stuff #rereading hfwu was basically like “yup yup yup there be some religious stuff”#“oh fuck that dysphoric moment punched me in the gut by being a liiiiiiitle bit too real”#*slight envy cus benji had a supporting dad*-*immediate guilt for my jealosy cus his dad fucking died*#*immediate guilt for my jealosy cus his dad fucking died*#go read or reread hfwu right now it fukings ownnssss #what was this about again?#oh yeah poetry #yeah so poetry is fun #like you can be crying at 02:40 am cus your not really passing so dysphoria has been higher than it has been for a lot of months #and your dad doesn't accept you as trans but also still loves you and just wants you to have a nice life without “destroying your body”#so you can't even hate him cus he is a funny and nice dad who loves you but also he just said #“trans people are people with problems who change things about them to stop the problems but changing your body doesnt remove the problems-#“so they keep their problems but hey at least they have a beard now!”#and your mom suggested an all girls mormon camp #and instead of just crying you can actually take your suffering put in into a google doc and get ego boosted by it actually being kinda goo

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