Nocorro declaration please. How this guys confessed their love to eachother?

I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS LATELY ACTUALLY.

How did Neteyam and Spider (in the accidentally mated au) get to where they were? How did they get to that tragic place? Let us discuss (sorry if this wasn't exactly what you were looking for).

-I think the boys sort of grew together. They grew up spending all their time with Kiri and Lo'ak (and later Tuk) in the forest, at Hometree, doing anything and everything together. They weren't closer to each other than any of the others, when they were little they were all just kids.

-It was only after Neteyam's iknimaya that their relationship evolved outside of the group. Neteyam's parents started keeping him with them more, having him shadow his father's duties and take part in more ceremonies. He sees Spider less and less, until it is just fleeting interactions as Spider leaves with Neteyam's siblings.

-One day Neteyam is feeling particularly overwhelmed. His dad was explaining to him certain rituals he completes at Olo'eyktan and what the proper words are. How it might be easier for him to start learning them now, so he isn't behind like Jake was. It's meant as a joke, but Neteyam starts thinking about all the things he has to master. How is he not behind already?

-Just as he's really starting to spiral Spider walks by, and says hi all cheerful because he hasn't seen Neteyam in almost a month. Spider takes one look at Neteyam and asks him if he wants to go on a walk to the stream they used to play in as kids.

-He finds himself telling Spider about all of his worries, things he has never shared with anyone, which all lead to the same root issue: what if I'm not good enough? Spider listens and instead of telling Neteyam he is the perfect child and he can't do wrong like he normally hears, Spider just says he feels like that all the time and doesn't it suck?

-It becomes a pattern. Walks when Neteyam has a free moment. Whatever secret the other has been hiding from everyone else shared over an ikran ride. Late night visits to Hells Gate to cram himself into Spider's tiny room and listen to Spider talk about whatever hurtful thing his foster parents said that day. They both have built up walls and masks to hide insecurities and fears, and the more they share the more they can see through each other. Spider knows when Neteyam says he's going flying and doesn't invite anyone it means he's actually going to go lie in a tree somewhere because he got overwhelmed. Neteyam knows that when Spider laughs at something someone says without throwing his head back it means he didn't actually find it funny and just doesn't want to upset anyone.

-They become each others safe place, the one indulgence. If Neteyam is always perfect then when he is with Spider he is not. If Spider is always a mess, then when he is with Neteyam he is not.

-They don't talk about it or acknowledge it, because that would hurt more than pretending it isn't real. But they have a vague conversation about it once, sitting on the roof of Hells Gate at night. The topic has changed to mates, because one of the boys in the village has a crush on Kiri. Neteyam tells Spider that when he finds a mate he wants that person to be almost exactly like Spider. Spider says that he won't ever find a mate, but if he did he'd want that person to be like Neteyam. It is as close as they get.

-Neteyam's decision to do his uniltaron early feels like the end as much as the beginning. Every Na'vi is born twice but it doesn't normally also feel like death to be reborn, but isn't that exactly what it is? And if he is dying and being reborn, then he is leaving his old self behind. He should leave all of him behind. They have always been each other's one indulgence, and after Neteyam is reborn then they have to stop. They both have other purposes to fulfill. So, the decision is made. The night before his uniltaron Neteyam will stay with Spider, and they both don't really say it, but they know it will be the last visit.