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WATCHED A FEW EPISODES OF THE 2016 PPG REBOOT...........
#jane journals#self insert talk#will excuse me while i- SCREAMS!!!!!!#ITS SOOO DOGSHITTTT#UGGH#ok listen there are SOME things that are OK about it#the voice actresses they chose for the girls arent bad by any means#theyre NOT anything like the og voices but theyre..cute#i like bubbles's voice a lot#but the characterization....leaves a lot to be desired. THAT IS TO SAY EVERYONE IS FUCKING MASSACRED#ESPECIALLY UTONIUM UGGGHHHHHHHHH#IM GONNA FUCKING BLOW UP A CHILDRENS HOSPITAL ITS SO BAD#THEY RUINED MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE#like?? hes a goofball but hes not a DUMBASS???#ugh i did a long vent to my partner about it cause we watched it together and like#hes not a perfect parent by any means. he gets carried away sometimes or maybe doesnt read a situation properly#but he always SAYS the right thing to put the girls at ease because he LOVES them and he does have some wisdom!!#AT THE END OF THE DAY HE IS A GOOD DAD!!!!!!#he wouldnt word vomit some dumb shit that makes blossom insecure and then cover it up with 'oh haha love u bye' LIKE ITS QUIRKY#HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT#ok im fine now im normal im good#im gonna wash the taste of that out of my fucking mouth and then draw some stuff
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going crazy about kaz brekker hours
#HE'S JUST *screams into a pillow*#Inej wants him to be better she NEEDS him to be better and shed his armour and be emotionall vulnerable and honest to her#and every time he tries it life delivers a right hook into his solar plexus and knocks him to hell and back#and time and time again he is made to come to the incorrect conclusion that being vulnerable and soft and caring about anyone ever#is a mistake and a weakness that he isn't allowed that he doesn't deserve#and his only way of getting what he wants and keeping the people he loves safe is if he becomes something that can't love them#like life just continues to punish him for having any kind of feelings#and he can only love them if he kills the part of himself that loves them. like COME ON MAN#i'm literally unwell about this kid (KID HE'S FUCKING 17 LET HIM LIVE)#someone sedate me (well actually don't i need to start reading CK tonight)#Kaz I Am Ruin And Ruination Brekker#and it's so tragic because he has come such a long way during SoC and when Inej asks him to be hers you know he can't do it. he would like#to but he's unable of it like his walls are still built up so high.#and it's fair of her to ask because she needs that and keeping her always at arms length is not viable of Kaz but also that's all he can#currently give her. that's his all and it's not enough and my heart is breaking for them ohmygod#they make me think so much of felonies love square I'LL EAT GLASS#okay. anyway. finished six of crows. i'm normal about them.#mia's reading
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Ending it with Miles 😭🫶🏽🥹 we’re gonna cry so bad.
But also I love this so much cause like obviously the band and the management heard all the hateful ‘fans’ back when they had to cancel Marlay Park because Alex dared to get laryngitis and this; giving them not only one but 3/4 shows with Miles and an access code is so hilarious to me cause like yeah you very fuckin nasty and disgusting but here ya go ya lil shits now what do you say (pretty please) like this makes all those haters look sooo incredibly dumb and childish (like no patience at all obviously they need time to schedule and arrange all the venues and what not, like have some faith in them just lean back and trust) anyways long story short love this move
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Miles via email
#22/08/2023#holy shit I just woke up#Arctic monkeys#also love that picture of Alex#only Alex could feel so bad about having to cancel one show that he gives us 4 shows 🫶🏽🥹 and Miles#uff the car is not gonna be the first tour without Miles as support/opening act#ending a (near exact) year long tour in Miles’ arms for four days befor riding off into the sunset with him 💅#I would seriously go complete ignoring my bank account but Uni starts literally that week and I can’t miss that first week for my life fuck#Instagram#I can’t wait for their smiles and hugs#all his friends posting bout miles joining AM 🫠😭🥹#I’m counting on Rosie to be mothering and giving us videos backstage of them two#I died dead#how Alex probably returned from his holiday in Italy and then met up with Miles when he had finished his promo tour and they were#just sitting on the settee drinking and chatting and then Alex asks him if Miles would like to join them for Ireland and on both their faces#a gigantic smiles just blooms and they grin at each other like the stupid lovesick idtios that they are before going in for one of their#trademark hugs and just cuddling and whispering to each other what they’ll do in Ireland together and and 😭😭#also like this screams we needed to find a opening act in short notice so we obviously Turned to Miles and that’s so sweet it’s like yeah we#know he’ll always have our back just like we have his#Miles kinda feels like the peace offering here 🤣#also like yes they’ll have endless time after the fourth gig but also before that because the monkeys are done on the 7th in America so they#have an entire week before that first Ireland gig just to practice (new/old songs) and spend time together#okay but hear me out what if: Miles Kane and the death ramps comeback ?!! huh what then
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i hope you don’t mind me not participating in sunday six for so long and not updating my fic... i’m having a bit rough time handling my life irl right now
#meaning i’m having the worst start of the year ever#i’m EXHAUSTED fucking exhausted from my living situation and it doesn’t seem to get better any time soon#naturally i don’t have it in me to write because i don’t have enough time to relax. it’s been three fucking weeks.#i just don’t know even my body gives up from this stress and not like something terrible is happening#it’s extremely upsetting also considering that i love writing and it’s the only activity that makes sense to me#and always has been like that it’s in my core#and i. can’t do it. i can’t. i have no willpower or strength and it’s not writer’s block i’m just SO TIRED ALL THE TIME#therapy and years of medication mean nothing at this fucking point. props to me for not killing myself tho. well done 👍#sorry for ranting i am so frustrated that i can scream. i have actually. didn’t help.#well ahem i hope you understand 🙏 i feel bad that i’ve promised the chapter a long time ago and NOT TO BE THAT AO3 AUTHOR but#i really wanted to keep my promise. fuck me i guess#putting letters together one word at a time
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so fun story here i work at a panera and ive known about this for a while but i finally found a full image of the list
Anyway apparently some locations (including mine ig) are removing like half the menu at the beginning of next year.
You didn’t hear this from me :))
photo by Wolfygirl97 on reddit
#half of these are like our best selling items im going to scream#only good news is the pizzas leaving those take so long to make and theyre kinda bad#but im a service lead meaning im the one who has to break the news to people that corporate decided to axe fucking croissants#which we literally always sell out of#squishy speaks#squishy rants#squishy works#panera#panera bread#menu changes#fast food
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Accidentally making characters aspec is just reliving adolescence thinking everyone is good friends out to have a fun time and then realizing no...actually at least a third of these people are flirting and or fucking or at least trying to.
Sometimes it's conscious!! Sometimes I see a blorbo and go yes. You! You shall be aspec my child... And other times I write and then reread and go ah. Wait. How do allo people act? Do allo people think like this?? And don't have an answer but it's usually no.
#this is about me just making. everyone aro or acespec in stranger thinngs fic#i simply dont know anything else#like ye i know the fuck but but right away? often? hmmmm#i think mike being ace/acespec is interesting. and claudia henderson being aspec in some way#obviously steve is demiro.#lucas abd dustin are toss ups tho i like demi lucas and demi dustin#mostly because their crushes on max are cute but i also can see them as squishes?#oooo maybe grey for dustin. like sometimes yes sometimes no always for suzie#tbh its hard because im like. plain aroace so i see things characters do and go 'aro :)' but then i dont catch other things that scream allo#this is long winded way of saying i domt understand nonsplit allo ppl. whats happening with those guys.#finda's rambles
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he misses us!! i love kaeya so much <3
the way he always ends up at the winery on his birthday... that's truly his home
#kaeya you sweet boy#did he totally make that shit up so we go celebrate with him?#is there actually a special wine? *side eyeing diluc*#it's also the way he always ends up at the tavern#his heart longs to stay near those he loves and that what he cherishes most on his special day :')#you don't get it i'm like silently screaming agsjshsj#kaeya is so so precious to me#he seems happy and that makes me happy#great contrast between his first bday letter where he almost forgot his birthday and said he had no reason to celebrate in the last years#and now look at him going out of his way to invite us to hang out so he gets to have a good time#like i wished a little more tbh but i'm extremely happy that it wasn't like last year's#they totally fucked up last year with the tcg talk and on this hill i will die 👆#i think 2021 is still my favourite one but yeah so happy he just gets to have a good time and he seems so lighthearted too#he deserves the world#genshin impact
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my brother saying I used to be a girly girl n I was like not really n he said “well u had long hair” ???
#I was very much a Tom boy when I was little#Like dressing like a boy always covered n dirt jumping off tall shit scabs everywhere etc#The long hair was just bc at that age I saw how women were treated when they were perceived as ugly#so I was scared of being ugly n kept my hair long#which is honestly so fucking sad the I was 7 n scared to gain weight or change my hair bc I didn’t want to be treated different#I saw how my friends n sister were treated after cutting their hair n I heard people always comparing me n my sisters weight#Mmmk rant over#screaming
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can not fathom why she thought shed be a good therapist. girl ive been responsible for your mental health in one way or another since the day i was born and i have never met a person as overwhelmingly pessimistic as you in my entire life.
#the worst part about it is that no matter how angry i get or what reprieve those moments bring i always just end up feeling bad for her#after our fights when i see her next and shes sad i just want to comfort her and hug her and tell her im sorry and that its going to be okay#and i hate that i want to do that because she shouldve done that for me#i shouldnt have had to lie and tell you that youre a great mother even though im scared of you. but i did.#it wasnt my responsibility to talk you down from suicide when i was fucking 12. but i did.#and then when you find out ive been hurting myself your first instinct isnt to comfort me its to start fucking screaming at me#you were all i had for so long why couldnt you even be kind to me
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Okay!!!!!!!!! I watched GO2!!!!!!!!! I’m once again feeling insane
#good omens#I’ve been busy but I finally watched the whole season#screaming and cheering at the end lmao mean!!!!!! I was like ok based on how everyone’s being they’re gonna be separated at the end#and Christine and I were like ok is aziraphale gonna be offered a job. and is he gonna take it. 🤨#but I did NOT think there was also gonna be a whole ass Crowley confessing his feelings scene where he Kissed Him On The Mouth#they’re insane for this#Christine: well we are in a post-ofmd world. me: I forgot about that. I’m still trapped in spn mindset hell#what do u mean the two pale coconuts actually jumped together on screen#*bumped#anyways. I get it guys#also tho I’m so excited lol are they gonna be nemeses next season???????? that’s my dream!!! I always want to see friends etc that then#become foes bc of Circumstances#but also tell me aziraphale wasn’t already like Oh I Fucked Up by the end of the ep#how long until he tries to go back to Crowley and this time I think he’ll actually have to do any amt of work to earn Crowleys forgiveness#which he rly has never had to do before lol#but that man Fucked Up “I forgive you shut up!!!!! 😭#also the blatant amount of dr who references. yeah I remember he’s the doctor thank you for reminding me!!!!!!#I saw a tiktok that was like all my teenage girls in their 20s rn are like BARK BARK BARK WOOF MEOW about David Tennant rn and it’s soo true#The Eternal Tumblr Sexyman#ANYWAYS AGAIN#I’m just dispensing all my thoughts here bc I don’t have time to scroll through a tag and feel insane and I don’t need to barf all these#onto someone else’s post#so here we are#I need to find something else to think about today bc every time I remember crowleys face as he was trying to eek out an I Love You I feel#physically nauseous#what am I supposed to do after that!#sorry to anyone who read all these tags I didn’t mean to
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i think im going to throw up
#personal posts and stuff idk#cw vent#aethers rants#had an hours long debate with my brothers over my fucking Human Rights#they both think me existing is 'woke bullshit' so you can imagine how thats gone#you'd guys scream at the shit they said about racism antisemitism ableism sexism etc etc#theyre so. cartoonishly bad#its funny because my abuela is a butch lesbian. theyve always known about gay people and gender nonconformity and crossdressing but like#i guess it doesn't matter now right#i hope they become better people. i really do
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[ID: two screenshots from FFXIV of Thren, a tan skinned lalafell model*. His hair is tightly braided on his scalp on the right side of his head and cropped on the back and left leaving a ruffled short bit of light brown on top. he has the duskwight branching tattoo on the right side of his face in bright red as seems to have dirt dried on parts of his face. He's wearing a long ragged hiking coat, his arms up crossed behind his head as he smirks.
in the top image he's smirking up at the camera and he's caught from knee up. The second is turned to his right and zoomed in to chest up to get a better look at the face tattoo. /end ID]
does this look like the face of a man who is literally not allowed in Gridania standing in the Gridania marketplace?
*lalafell model as he's a duskwight with dwarfism as opposed to a lalafell
#jay plays ffxiv;#jay mods ffxiv;#this took me like three hours of figuring out how to change colors in krita and how the FUCK to save mods#it's been too long since I made Cyn's face to remember so that took a While and like 5 tries#this is just 1.0 of the mod tho; I'mma fix the color better and tweak it some#it just bothered me he didn't have it bc he's always screaming that he's duskwight#in part bc he's from gridania and racism and in part bc he's not a lalafell >:c#(He of course has nothing against lalas- nothing but fear and respect for tataru and krile most namely- but he's not one and he gets >:E)
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my cats are so Fucking spoiled i have to tuck them each in individually in a very specific routine if i dont want them to wail all fucking night first i have to take leah to her room where she'll jump up on a shelf thats almost too high for me to reach and i have to give her a little fuss then say "bye bye, bedtime, bye bye" as im leaving. then i gotta take avril to her room (shes always grumpy the next morning if she goes to bed first) and wait for her to jump up to the top of the cat tower so i can give her a big full body fuss and lots of forehead kisses (at LEAST a full minute of fussing) then say "bye bye, bedtime, bye bye" as im leaving
#when i brought leah home at first she would fucking scream all night every night#this is the only routine ive landed on that actually calms her down#also yes they have separate bedrooms im a light sleeper so they cant sleep w me and they dont always get along#so i avoid leaving them alone for long periods unsupervised#like at this point im sure itd be fine but now we have a Routine
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#so i got a message from my sister telling me something rather tragic had happened in our family#on my mom's side. one of my aunties passed away&my little sister let me know.#she also let me know that my mother is taking it really hard&shed probably really like to hear from me.#&its weird bc any sadness i felt about my aunty dying almost completely evaporated upon it becoming a way to guilt me#into talking to my mother-- like i was not almost dead for a long LONG time&she was actively disowning me bc i wasnt sick the right way#after a lifetime of refusing to believe i was sick AT ALL which directly lead to developing cancer she screamed at me in public#that i was lying about before pretending to drive off a cliff&then refusing to pick up her phone until she called me an hour later#after i had been calling not just her but anyone in our family who could possibly check on her to tell me that i never loved her#&i wouldnt have cared if she died&it would have been my fault.#so like. i dont really give a fuck if shes taking a death in the family poorly? like i dont actually fucking care that this-- like literally#everything else-- needs to center my mother's bad feelings. i just fucking dont lmao.#&im really fucking pissed off that i now have to feel like shit bc i dont feel like i properly feel bad#about my family member dying bc IT BECAME ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER IMMEDIATELY.#i do not fucking UNDERSTAND.#i cannot even put into words how this all makes me feel lmao. why. literally fucking why.#the cherry on top? my aunty died of gastric issues. you know. the family curse that i def didnt get so i got to work thru it all#while being called a liar. you know the type of illness that almost killed ME. that might STILL kill me.#but yeah my mom is sad so i should call&make sure to hold her hand like i always fucking did lets just forget an entire lifetime#&esp the last five years thatll be totally cool.#a tragedy happened in the family so fuck all MY tragedies actually i guess.
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chews them. crunches their bones.
#* ooc.#lemme scream about them a bit one sec#listen listen listen#they are like that. even before they start fucking around#even when they're younger they're always just kinda. hanging off each other. being close#so half the time if you don't know them you just assume they must be dating#which probably makes the other people they date feel insane (not that it matters. those never last)#jack and teddy are so... entwined in each other's lives#they hate each other very deeply. they love each other in a way that they don't really understand for most of their lives#they're too alike to ever be together longterm. they're too alike to be apart for too long either#they're twin flames!!!! twin flames!!!!!
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entering flat hair era for a bit. and let it be a bit greasy too lets see how that affects the trangenderism i cant be putting this much effort
#i love spiking it up but it got too long and i dont wanna cut it too lazy too hot#and like i put too much care into my hair#which is not bad in itself#but like the emo look is really bad if you wanna pass because in general emo guys would get called girls and fags right#so like getting called a fag 2 times a year is nice but otherwise youre just too girly#such is the emo life#/hj#ive actually been trying to dress more inspired by nu metal fits (since i cant wear anything skinny anyway)#to me it screams Boy#as well as skater fashion#wven tho im a poser. who cares#actually i want a shirt now that would just say 'poser' lol#also i gave up on keeping my nails sorta ok looking#like i put on nailpolish cuz they get so damn dirty#but havw you seen guys nails?? theyre always long and gross and dirty#so im just keeping a chipped nailpolish and idc theyre a bit dirty now (was painting with acrylic yesterday and got it all over my hands#looks ugly but idc. its a vibe)#i also wanted to stop using makeup but i got this medical one thats both for coverage and healing acne and it actually works#so i use it.. and it makes me look nicely pale because i fucking hate my red cheeks and nose#but that would also help me pass methinks so ehhhhhgg#just gotta keep doing my brows cause theyre Blonde and invisible#ad the dye washes out real quick so i gotta draw them in dhhshd#thoughts are being thunk
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