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glaivegirl · 7 months

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and again from a different computer, again im almost always on the app, so this is kind of a novelty that i find less fun to use bc of the fucking clicking my account button just to look at my likes, like wtf? are you crazy? that's so stupid...

oh gosh, looks like we went for the oldest photo on the computer this time, and its a reeaally old computer, this is me from abt 2017 and god willing as deep as the closet gets for transfemme andi

also like jesus christ but i actually think i really fucking cant stand this photo so im going back in for a double dip, a redo honestly,,,,........

ahhhh, there she is :D aint she a beaut. my all time favorite meme from 2015, god this isnt even a meme to me anymore, it's like a memory of a feeling, but i still feel it, only it's cold now, like some large plastic bags full of mud i used to carry with my shirt off back when i loved to garden every day... ahhh shit... another feeling... mon dieu,,,, i dont have emoji's on my desktop, so i just godda say it i gues

ay caramba!

#i actually love remembering this apartment #im very clean and fastidious when i mean to be #very industrious and thrifty #tooo!#look at that coat towel ring fashioned out of coat hanger #she's just too resourceful and beautiful and fastidious and pretty #im like an adorable little inventor in this photograph #i am choosing to love her as i found the path when i bend over to pick up a strange bit of harshly torn metal #forever bent and stricken with what tore it apart and into jagged unfriendly pieces of unforgiving metal cold and solid #but with that graceful bending she forever bears the scars of #she was separated from whatever machine or hardware she belonged to intrinsically and only then was she free #before she could scarcely be called herself this jagged piece of broken metal left in the mud #but it's not true entirely #she is herself and can go on and be changed by the world as an individual #see before she was a beautiful part of a larger whole girl but now she is free to be a little trinket in the mud or some clattering junk in #the landfill or scrapped and smelted and her material reincorporated into her world's fiber #maybe i make her into something cute though #oh look an all-too easily missed path mostly obscured by the mud and taller plants #and youll find her here #the twisted piece of long discarded metal that lived three lives by the time you found her there living in the mud #who knows what life it lived #all that matters when you find a cute piece of twisted metal on the side of the road or in the woods or anywhere dirty and secluded #and i fuckin mean ALL that matters in your dumb little idiot brain is how can i make a cool necklace out of that? a belt buckle? an earring #shit i have several hanging from my ceiling and i love them #and ill have more and theyll be beautiful because of what they were and i had the utmost honor and pleasure to draw something out of her #something i saw in her that i bet she knew was there but maybe she didnt #who knows?#who knows whatll come out when i peer inside you and reach my arms around you. something in you that's beautiful like an animal is beautifu #i want to bring something new out of you #something i think i saw in you but couldnt be sure until i reached deep and focused on you and really looked at you and tried to see

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